#I just need to let it out

[iyliss]

Actually thinking about Saiou and Mizuchi childhood stuff and what it means in the scope of gx generally being about growing up and transition to adulthood and all that and MOSTLY the contrast with Edo.

So on one end you have a kid who have learned adults couldn't be relied upon, but still holds onto strong bonds with the ones he trusts (living or dead). And on the other two kids who grew up seeing adults as actively dangerous to them. They have such contrasting relationships with adulthood.

Edo would have a pretty poor idea of adults. He has this weird balance of false maturity and independance, and childishness he holds onto (because "his clock stopped moving" and all that, because no longer being a child means no longer being his father's child). But then there's the even WEIRDER expression of Saiou's fake maturity. Everything about how Saiou looks strange to everyone who meets him, it also has to do with how professional he sounds. of course he doesn't feel like he is in the same range as the rest of the main cast, he perpetually acts like he's in a business meeting.

Edo refuse to ask for help, Saiou and Mizuchi don't even think they can do that. Edo wants to appear distant to others, especially people his age, but his emotions and struggles spills out of him the moment he faces Judai. Saiou constantly creates this distance well, he even makes his duels not about himself.

Edo both wants and hates "adulthood", and Saiou uses it as a form of security. And in Saiou's case it's kind of part of his general weirdness, how he never really seem to belong anywhere. He neither really feels like a child, nor a teenager, nor an adult, and never did and that part. Like I have feelings on it but it gets even less sensical.

#god litteraly i have no idea what im trying to say here #but its been turning in my brain #i just need to let it out #yugioh gx #saiou takuma #edo phoenix #WISH I COULD DEVELOP ON MIZUCHI BTW #but she'd need her own post because her analysis relies on a lot less

[deeveedoodle]

I swear

I can still feel her haunting me

#art #drawing #sketch #vent art #i used to draw a lot of inky stuff years ago #most notably my antisepticeye fanarts #i was so angsty and emo lol #ill be okay #i just need to let it out

[wiha-jun]

there’s something i actually hate about the internet and it’s how there’s little gray areas anymore. i don’t like the marvels trailer and i hate how it looks and the tone of it and a bunch of other things (apart from captain marvel not being such a good movie for me, to begin with, you know??????? and let’s not speak about kamala’s show lmao), but that doesn’t make me a racist or a mysoginist because those are not the reasons i hate it for, and having to explain myself every time just in case is so tiring........................ one thing that sucks about m*c*u* ultra fans is how they asume things because god forbid you have criterion

#tdl #i just need to let it out #and twitter is not the place to do it because they'll jump at me #this is a random rant i'll delete later lmao

[originalgenshinscenarios]

I have a question

Why does the Genshin fandom always have to make ship wars? It's always "x ship is better than y and here is why" and never just "I love x ship :)"

Like fuck going on Gui//li tag ANYWHERE keeps making me see shit like "omG Gui//PinG and ZhoNg//ChI LoSInG hArD herE" or the opposite cuz people tag like idiots so instead of seeing heartbreaking edits headcannons and fanart I just see discourse after discourse.

And ofc I don't mean JUST that war. Because it happens ALL the time. People just go on and ON trying to invalidate ships for NO reason!! Like most of popular ships are kinda meh to me, BUT I JUST DON'T TALK ABOUT THEM. I'm just sitting in my little bubble waiting for people to share stuff with and keep ship hate to my dms not to public!

If you gotta do ship wars at LEAST don't tag ships you're bashing ffs you're just being obnoxious and I hate you if you do that regardless of your taste.

And tbh, I don't enjoy a lot of ships I normally would thanks to people like that! Which makes me sad because I like doing ship content!

#sorry for rant but fr #i just need to let it out

[redraine57]

Can’t believe I feel like my world is ending because one of my best friends is dying from cancer. I’ve lost people before but death is never something I can get used to

#im not looking for comfort #i just need to let it out

[aquielzadiel]

Me: Remember dude you almost fainted because you denied taking care of yourself as punishment.

Also Me: Yeah, yeah, I'll still live. I wasn't really planning to kill myself today.

Me: *facepalm* OMG STOP.

#trigger warning #conversations with myself #intrusive thoughts #i might need therapy #i might need therapy and medications #hi this is not a call for help #i just need to let it out #it will probably go away

[honey-rambles-alot]

My old diary blog was banned so I have alot I had ready to post, sorry if I'm clogging your feed up already<3

#i just need to let it out #<3 forgive me #sticky rants

[minato-arisato]

a baby mouse dying in your care after 11 straight days of taking care of him sucks, just fyi. i had been so fucking absurdly stressed before, and now i feel miserable and responsible, even if logically i know i had been doing my absolute best with the information i had had at any time. yes there were things i could have done better, but i didn’t know it at the time so it’s not necessarily my fault. i just wish i could blame it on me. okay. sorry.

#been keeping it in because i know i cant tell me boyfriend because the deaths of small animals bother him so much #but god i am really fucking sad #i just need to let it out #hey gang please dont let connor know okay

[lyricalniall]

I feel like you guys should know about this.

A while ago, I was accused of sending a certain blog “mean anons” about Niall, which I didn’t. Those who know me, know I don’t use the anon button because I think it’s a cowardly move. Now, I know this person has had some mix-ups with other blogs on here but I just want other people to be aware of her and her weird behaviour. It’s annoying how one bad experience on here can affect your whole mood towards this site and I don’t enjoy being on here now as much as I did because of that and I know I shouldn’t let it get to me, but it does. This said person hasn’t even come out and apologised yet, even though she clearly knows she’s in the wrong, which sucks. I’m not gonna come out and name shame her, I’m not gonna sink to her level but if people wanna know who she is for their own sake then feel free to DM me, I’m happy to talk to you.

#there’s probably a better way of doing this #but #I just need to let it out #I’m sure some of you know who I’m talking about

[stromblessed]

Mizu, femininity, and fallen sparrows

In my last post about Mizu and Akemi, I feel like I came across as overly critical of Mizu given that Mizu is a woman who - in her own words - has to live as a man in order to go down the path of revenge.

If she is ever discovered to be female by the wrong person, she will not only be unable to complete her quest, but there's a good chance that she'll be arrested or killed.

So it makes complete sense for Mizu to distance herself as much as possible from any behavior that she feels like would make someone question her sex.

I felt so indignant toward Mizu on my first couple watchthroughs for this moment. Why couldn't Mizu bribe the woman and her child's way into the city too? If Mizu is presenting as a man, couldn't she claim to be the woman's escort?

However, this moment makes things pretty clear. Mizu knows all too well the plight of women in her society. She knows it so well that she cannot risk ever finding herself back in their position again. She helps in what little way she can - without drawing attention to herself.

Mizu is not a hero and she is not one to make of herself a martyr - she will not set herself on fire to keep others warm. There's room to argue that Mizu shouldn't prioritize her quest over people's lives, but given the collateral damage Mizu can live with in almost every episode of season 1, Mizu is simply not operating under that kind of morality at this point. ("You don't know what I've done to reach you," Mizu tells Fowler.)

And while I still feel like Mizu has an obvious and established blind spot when it comes to Akemi because of their differences in station, such that Mizu's judgment of Akemi and actions in episode 5 are the result of prejudice rather than the result of Mizu's caution, I also want to establish that Mizu is just as caged as Akemi is, despite her technically having more freedom while living as a man.

Mizu can hide her mixed race identity some of the time, and she can hide her sex almost all of the time, but being able to operate outside of her society's strict rules for women does not mean she cannot see their plight.

It does not mean she doesn't hurt for them.

Back to Mizu and collateral damage, remember that sparrow?

While Mizu is breaking into Boss Hamata's manse, she gets startled by a bird and kills it on reflex. She then cradles it in her hands - much more tenderly than we've seen Mizu treat almost anything up to this point in the season:

She then puts it in its nest, with its unhatched eggs. Almost like she's trying to make the death look natural. Or like an accident.

You see where I'm going with this.

When Mizu kills Kinuyo, Mizu lingers in the moment, holding the body tenderly:

And btw a lot of stuff about this show hit me hard, but this remains the biggest gut punch of them all for me, Mizu holding that poor girl's body close, GOD

When Mizu arranges the "scene of the crime," Kinuyo's body is delicate, birdlike. And Mizu is so shaken afterward that she gets sloppy. She's horrified at this kill to the point that she can't bring herself to take another innocent life - the boy who rats her out.

MIZU'S ONE MOMENT OF SOFTNESS AND MERCY, COMING ON THE HEELS OF HER NEEDING TO KILL A GIRL TO SPARE HER THE WORST FATE THAT THIS RIGID SOCIETY HAS TO OFFER WOMEN, AND TO SPARE A BROTHEL FULL OF INNOCENT WOMEN WHO ARE THE CASTOFFS OF SOCIETY, NEARLY RESULTS IN ALL OF THEIR DEATHS

No wonder Mizu is as stoic and cold as she is.

And no wonder Mizu has no patience for Akemi whatsoever right before the terrible reveal and the fight breaks out:

Speaking of Akemi - guess who else is compared to a bird!

The plumage is more colorful, a bit flashier. But a bird is a bird.

And, uh

Yeah.

I like to think that Mizu killing the sparrow is not only foreshadowing for what she must do to Kinuyo, but is also a representation of the choice she makes on Akemi's behalf. She decides to cage the bird because she believes the bird is "better off." Better off caged than... dead.

But because Mizu doesn't know Akemi or her situation, she of course doesn't realize that the bird is fated to die if it is caged and sent back home.

Mizu is clearly not happy, or pleased, or satisfied by allowing Akemi to be dragged back to her father:

But softness and mercy haven't gotten Mizu anywhere good, recently.

There is so much tragedy layered into Mizu's character, and it includes the things she has to witness and the choices she makes - or believes she has to make - involving women, when she herself can skirt around a lot of what her society throws at women. Although, I do believe that it comes at the cost of a part of Mizu's soul.

After all, I'm gonna be haunted for the rest of this show by Mizu's very first prayer in episode 1:

"LET" her die. Because as Ringo points out, she doesn't "know how" to die.

Kind of like another bird in this show:

#blue eye samurai #mizu #akemi #kinuyo #bes #women are birds okay they are BIRDS #the let me die line is so SCARY AND SAD like a part of Mizu wants death but she cant? she doesnt know how?? excuse you show??? #when all these other delicate birds are dying all around her #akemis character gets more and more gutwrenching upon subsequent rewatches because whenever she says her life is in danger #NO ONE BELIEVES HER - certainly not other women #because shes rich and pampered and that means shes safe and is worrying about nothing right? right????? #and it turns out that all of akemis instincts were right and she was in danger the ENTIRE TIME #also I need to make a post just for kinuyo because I am sad

[wombywoo]

retired 🩶

#call of duty #cod #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #soapghost #my art #listen this took me like two weeks so y'all better appreciate 🤌 #johnny is the super active DIY father of the family #simon has made his way through all of the miss marple mysteries and has now set his sights on naval fiction #also growing his fringe out to hide the early onset baldness #johnny has gorgeous hair but we knew that #the dogs are called roger and wee albert--guess which is which #yes they all sleep in the same bed~ #I guess I just need to see these two old and cranky and alive for whatever reason... #let them both burn in hell after a few good decades learning how to live beyond just surviving #god they probably make a banger pot roast....

[whetstonefires]

You know what I realize that people underestimate with Pride & Prejudice is the strategic importance of Jane.

Because like, I recently saw Charlotte and Elizabeth contrasted as the former being pragmatic and the latter holding out for a love match, because she's younger and prettier and thinks she can afford it, and that is very much not what's happening.

The Charlotte take is correct, but the Elizabeth is all wrong. Lizzie doesn't insist on a love match. That's serendipitous and rather unexpected. She wants, exactly as Mr. Bennet says, someone she can respect. Contempt won't do. Mr. Bennet puts it in weirdly sexist terms like he's trying to avoid acknowledging what he did to himself by marrying a self-absorbed idiot, but it's still true. That's what Elizabeth is shooting for: a marriage that won't make her unhappy.

She's grown up watching how miserable her parents make one another; she's not willing to sign up for a lifetime of being bitter and lonely in her own home.

I think she is very aware, in refusing Mr. Collins, that it's reasonably unlikely that anyone she actually respects is going to want her, with her few accomplishments and her lack of property. That she is turning down security and the chance keep the house she grew up in, and all she gets in return may be spinsterhood.

But, crucially, she has absolute faith in Jane.

The bit about teaching Jane's daughters to embroider badly? That's a joke, but it's also a serious potential life plan. Jane is the best creature in the world, and a beauty; there's no chance at all she won't get married to someone worthwhile.

(Bingley mucks this up by breaking Jane's heart, but her prospects remain reasonable if their mother would lay off!)

And if Elizabeth can't replicate that feat, then there's also no doubt in her mind that Jane will let her live in her house as a dependent as long as she likes, and never let it be made shameful or awful to be that impoverished spinster aunt. It will be okay never to be married at all, because she has her sister, whom she trusts absolutely to succeed and to protect her.

And if something eventually happens to Jane's family and they can't keep her anymore, she can throw herself upon the mercy of the Gardeners, who have money and like her very much, and are likewise good people. She has a support network--not a perfect or impregnable one, but it exists. It gives her realistic options.

Spinsterhood was a very dangerous choice; there are reasons you would go to considerable lengths not to risk it.

But Elizabeth has Jane, and her pride, and an understanding of what marrying someone who will make you miserable costs.

That's part of the thesis of the book, I would say! Recurring Austen thought. How important it is not to marry someone who will make you, specifically, unhappy.

She would rather be a dependent of people she likes and trusts than of someone she doesn't, even if the latter is formally considered more secure; she would rather live in a happy, reasonable household as an extra than be the mistress of her own home, but that home is full of Mr. Collins and her mother.

This is a calculation she's making consciously! She's not counting on a better marriage coming along. She just feels the most likely bad outcome from refusing Mr. Collins is still much better than the certain outcome of accepting him. Which is being stuck with Mr. Collins forever.

Elizabeth is also being pragmatic. Austen also endorses her choice, for the person she is and the concerns she has. She's just picking different trade-offs than Charlotte.

Elizabeth's flaw is not in her own priorities; she doesn't make a reckless choice and get lucky. But in being unable to accept that Charlotte's are different, and it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with Charlotte.

Because realistically, when your marriage is your whole family and career forever, and you only get to pick the ones that offer themselves to you, when you are legally bound to the status of dependent, you're always going to be making some trade-offs.

😂 Even the unrealistically ideal dream scenario of wealthy handsome clever ethical Mr. Darcy still asks you to undergo personal growth, accommodate someone else's communication style, and eat a little crow.

#hoc est meum #pride and prejudice #elizabeth bennet #charlotte lucas #meta #charlotte is a much less sociable person than lizzie #so avoiding her husband most of the time and not seeking out his company is more viable for her! #she also has more patience for people being wrong #partly i think because she kinds checks out and lets them get on with it which lizzie isn't too great at even with her mother #people have different needs like that's a thing okay #marriage #spinsterhood #pragmatism #like if elizabeth had to listen to collins talk for a few months straight she would be nearly insane with rage #he's not just a low-quality man he's a man designed to be the worst for her specifically #also note that because jane's marriage is elizabeth's fallback plan #darcy screwed her over personally by interfering between her and bingley #she ofc does not bring this up how could she #but it's intensifying the anger during the hunsford rejection i think

[cruelsister-moved2]

for real! (from kadji amin)

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What I've realized is that I believe that the matter of gender is practical and relational. It's not about who you are inside, it's more about how you would feel most comfortable in the world. It's not 'Who are you?' but 'How do you want to live?'

Had that been the discourse when I was coming up, I would have breathed a sigh of relief. I don't have to figure out who I am on the inside, I just have to figure out how I want to live.

end of ID]

#and I kind of felt really sad when they were talking about how like they feel in some ways figuring yourself out is way harder now #bc there is this pressure to like figure out who u Really Are Inside #and instead of being like well maybe my identity goes far beyond gender and like i don't need to find some microlabel #in order to like define who is Me #it's become very fixated on like categorising ur gender rejection in a way that ends up just. making even more genders to constrain u #it's hard to summarise it was like v wordy but I thought this part was so true #for sexuality as well not to tack it on but we have really gotten into the same mindset w sexuality now as well #THANK U @VAKAVANHASAATANA for the ID it wont let me @ you in the text </33

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 113

“I seem to have been taken hostage.” Batman’s words almost had Superman panic if not for the wry tone, a tone which the others didn’t know if their freaking out was to go by. Clark sighed through the comms, tired after battle and honestly wanting to go to bed now.

“I’ll be right over, what child has latched onto you now?” He asked while switching to a more private channel. 

“I can already hear you making fun of me…” Wha- Oh. Clark bit his lip to keep himself from laughing as he took to the air. “They appear to be a pair of twins with…” 

“You gotta’ say it Bruce, you gotta’,” Clark couldn’t stop the chuckle when he saw his friend on the top of a building, cape curled around his form in a way usually reserved for the robins. 

“... with dark hair… and blue eyes…” That was it. Clark absolutely lost it in laughter. 

#dcxdp #dpxdc #Danny & Ellie fell into this world during an invasion were very scared #Latched onto the first semi-ecto contaminated person they found #Bruce gives off slight ghost vibes and feels safe so they aren't letting go any time soon #Could be Superbat might not up to yall lol #Batman is just staring down at the small children who have latched onto his leg and are crying #Look the man is a dad and a hero and isn't going to leave the kids there #It's also highly concerning when he finds out they're not in the system #And their DNA is only half human with the rest being... something who knows #Apparently he's adopted a pair of half aliens but that's not going to stop him #“I could take them if you need-” #“No they're my babies now no takes backs”

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using

#feels so selfish like. all this skin what am i saving it for? #open to design suggestions! (please make me regret this offer) #maybe some deep sea horrors. a pretty watercolor of a gulper eel #once saw a person on the subway with various Skeleton Tattoos on all their limbs #i respected their commitment to the theme #but more than that i respected how all the skeletons were engaged in Activities #dancing in a ballgown. juggling its own (and two other???) skulls. swordfighting. being a mermaid skeleton #ANYWAY. the only reason i haven't already gotten tattoos is i just couldn't be bothered #i'm old enough to know i don't have any strong-but-potentially-temporary feelings driving me towards it #aesthetically i prefer decorated to non-decorated surfaces. but i'm not artistic or thrilled with commitment #honestly it feels like sheer laziness. indecisiveness--nay. immaturity!--that i HAVEN'T gotten a tattoo yet #letting all this blank canvas go to waste. tut tut i need to grow up and be an adult and get a tattoo sleeve already. #really i've put off my responsibilities long enough #(in fairness i DID at one time have 18 different piercings) #(but i took most of them out bc they interfere with wearing headphones and/or shoving my face in my pillow during Sleep Time) #(i only kept the nape piercing bc oddly enough it ended up being the most convenient. and the least painful to get now i think about it.) #(neck piercing? no problem. normal pair of earrings? Tribulations And Suffering. i don't make the rules i just poke them with a stick.)

[zeezu-ix]

More Triple S stuff yippee!!!!!!!

It's not uncommon for one of them to not be at the condo for the night, sometimes they'll go to their own respective homes to see family (though they usually need permission from Eggman first BOOO)!!

Shadow lived with Gerald and Maria prior to joining the band!! Gerald has VERY high expectations for him, hoping that he could carry on his legacy and research after he retires (SHADOW DOES NOT WANT THAT!!! ) and as a result is fairly strict with him over a lot of shit and one of the main things is how Shadow chooses to present himself!!

Shadow loves alt fashion however Gerald DOES NOT, he'd made the mistake of dressing how he'd like once at home and never again!!! Now he makes an effort to dress rather formally around Gerald to make sure he doesn't piss him off.

So yeah the first time Sonic and Silver saw him in his more formal getup they're SHOCKED. They're so used to seeing him decked out in piercings and cool outfits that it's slightly jarring.

ALSO MARIA IS VERY MUCH ALIVE IN THIS AU - still ill but definitely not dead!!! If it weren't for her Shadow would not be visiting home regularly.

#Triple☆S #sth #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #silver the hedgehog #my art! #oughhh need to draw their condo #as of posting this i just woke up from a nap and im like sleepy enough to be like uh fuck it let me just post this #and not think twice #YIPPEE! #think im gonna design blaze and amy next :3 #TUMBLR MOBILE FUCKED ME OVER ONCE AGAIN I THOUGHT I SAVED THE DRAFT NOT POSTED IT #thats fine though. actually got me to get this thing out </333