#I just lie down all the time

[bigfatbreak]

Birds of a Feather previous / next

#my art #feralnette au #birds of a feather #long tags #sorry I went apeshit in the tags #LETS SAY IT ALL TOGETHER NOW #I - M - A - G - OOOOOOOOO #its fun drawing marinette's back to Alya and having her appear stout and unstoppable and totally logical #and then you see her face and she's like two seconds from completely snapping and is keeping it together by a thread #as a note just because mari feels very certainly abt smth doesnt mean she's right. feelings can be valid and also irrational #in the throes of grief she decided it was better to be alone than to lose someone again so she started pulling away #and lila made pulling away very very very easy to do #shes also vaguely aware she's being unfair in pinning this on alya which is why she started spinning the drain on cockmoth again #legitimately all the shit that's happened to her wouldn't have been so catastrophic if he was never in the picture and she knows it #but the bitterness of her bestie choosing a fantastic liar over her at the worst of times stiiiiiings #alya's personal timing was bad but lila really took advantage of the fact that marinette had been acting off and weird #she basically clocked marinette as being unstable from SOMETHING and made up a lie about her #knowing she wouldn't have the strength to defend herself #between her social life going tachy bc of lila and losing fu in a way that felt like personhood death marinette was really put on the spot #and alya doing her thing of busting in there and assuming her bias is correct was a terrible combo #essentially marinette is highly unstable and alya is just realizing that #busting in and giving her a lecture when she's slightly hysterical and definitely delirious from exhaustion is NOT the way #to show her she's self sabotaging #cuz thats just gonna make her double down on self sabotaging. bc marinette will not accept that she is also a CHIIIIILD

[raeofgayshine]

Bruce Wayne, drunk and full on Brucie mood in the middle of a gala: You know, that accent doesn’t really fit in around here. It’s cute. Where are you from?

Clark, internally debating every life choice that led him to this moment: I’m from Smallville. Kansas.

Bruce, leaning closer to Clark with a flirty smile: Oh you’re cute and funny. You know, I like that in a man.

Clark, very confused but trying to just go along with it: Thank you??

Bruce: I mean, everyone knows that Kansas isn’t real but I do always enjoy a good laugh.

Clark: What.

Bruce: What? Everyone knows that Kansas was made up for Wizard of Oz.

Clark, unsure if Bruce is fucking with him or if he’s just really deep into this dumb act: Bruce, Kansas is a real place. It’s one of the 50 states that make up America.

Bruce, tilting his head a little confused: There’s 50 states? Since when?

#ravenpuff rambles #bruce wayne #Clark Kent #incorrect batman quotes #incorrect batfamily quotes #superbat #if you want to read it like that I mean Bruce is definitely flirting with Clark #and annoying him at the same time but really that’s just their relationship #anyways shout out to my sister who texted me ‘You think Bruce pretends Kansas isn’t real to annoy Clark?’ #haven’t been able to stop thinking about that since then #The thing is Bruce absolutely went into this as just a way to fuck with Clark but he got drunk and maybe leaned in a bit too hard #and then the next thing he knows he’s waking up to the news story ‘Bruce Wayne shocked to find out Kansas is real’ #*cuts to video of a distraught Bruce looking at Clark’s phone where Clark has a map of the US up* #‘See there’s Kansas’ #Bruce: ‘My whole life has been a lie?’ *looks to the camera* ‘Dick Dick did you know that Kansas was *real*’ #Dick snickering: ‘Yeah B they taught us that in school’ #Bruce: ‘Why didn’t anyone tell me?’ #His kids never fucking let him live it down nor do any of them believe Bruce when he tries to defend himself and say he knew Kansas was real #all along. They just pat his arm and go ‘Sure you did B’ #Brucie Wayne my beloved himbo of a man

[xiaoluclair]

bro, bro do you understand, they hated each other it was always me or him, no and. they were pre pubescent and squeaking about he pushed me i pushed him back it was nothing it was just an inchident. they were like mortal enemies or some overdramatic shit cooked up under a mop of monagasque hair like bruh you were three, any puddle was proportionally the size of the pacific. now fast forward to when theyre like three and a half and it's smiles it's the best fun of my career it's i want this for another fifteen twenty years it's i know how strong he is it's touching hands and necks and arms and looks, really really soft looks (soft_wilted_cabbage.img), and it's nice (what's nice??) bc it means we know each other well (is it nice that you met so early, is it nice that your lives met the way they did again again and again, are you glad for it????) . they went from we didn't even say goodbye to we say hellow now to try and stop this middle-of-the-media-pen debrief and we couldn't stand each other to complete tunnel vision on that podium(tm) - miss ma'am did you see those fucking smiles, that grin, the pure elation, the ecstacy - and our relationship wasn't that great to laughing together and holding each other and respecting - admiring - each other to unshakeable degrees, we have a good relationship, from literal scowls to immediate smiles when asked about the other person and from never giving a single inch on track to understanding that, to loving that, to seeing it as a mirror and loving that too, and from, from grr to like, love heart love heart, likw- DO YOU UNDERSTAND—

#DO YOU??????? #WELL ??????????????? #if max ever follows sharl on ig im dead #lestappen #max verstappen #charles leclerc #i need to og lie down #it just sometimes hits me like #how far theyve come from two #fucking canined potatoes #to two #still canined slightly more less behated potatoes ??? #xiao: waffle #waffle: mv1.cl16 #its the way they havent changed at all findamentally (racing) #theyve just grown to appreciate it in each other #like #i will learn to love you as you are; as you deserve; as you have been and shall be #someone knock me out PLEASE #i may add more links later when i can find the time BAYE BYE

[lokiiied]

i haven’t seen any gifsets of this scene yet, so i bring you more shitty screencaps but this moment felt like it was important me ?

loki walking past sylvie with mobius AGAIN with zero hesitation. (two eps in a row) hmm what does it mean.

(this time loki leaves first and mobius stays behind to look at ravonna, before following after loki - a parallel to last episode with loki & sylvie. and the second time they mirrored those dynamics in this episode! interesting.)

#much to think about #not once but TWICE ?? #TWO episodes in a row ?? #i don’t hate sylvie it’s just clear loki has given up on getting through to her bc she wants to be left alone (and he has mobius:) #third times the charm #? #next time he leaves with mobius after they all prevent another apocalypse and sylvie has her life back & then loki kisses mobius 🥰 #teehee #can a boy dream ? #unrelated but the filter i chose ?? sylvie looks fucking hot in all black can we see that at some point please ? #lokius #loki spoilers #loki season 2 #loki #mobius #loki x mobius #if they try to make ravonna and mobius a thing just so it parallels with sylki i think i’ll just lie down and die lmao

[tollsoftheclockwerkbelle]

can we all finally just admit that the sonic boom tv show was ahead of its time. this shit is so funny

#sonic #sonic the hedgehog #sonic boom #i know it came on the back of sonic's darkest era so the whole thing seemed like a sick twisted joke at the time #but now that we've had such good food in recent years i feel like we can all just calm down and appreciate it for what it is #this show is so unserious and in hindsight all the hate it received is pretty embarassing. not gonna lie #season 3 when

[quarks-pussy]

So I know we here at Startrekfandom love that "came back wrong but from the pov of the wrong" thing and apply it to many different characters and canon situations and I am far from trying to complain about it (I'm "came out wrong" trope myself so I was always gonna obsess over it) but having recently watched a very important episode (you'll know which one) for the first time I think there's a character who hits both tropes mentioned but llike, intertwined, opposite and subverted, and whom I wanna talk about.

Julian Bashir.

From his parents' pov he's "came out wrong but we got him help and he came back better" while from his own pov it's "came out 'insufficient', was destroyed for it, came back wrong and only later slowly came to terms with his new self tho never the process (justifiably so)" and it's heartbreaking because in a way, he's right! Jules Bashir died! His parents had an intellectually disabled child and decided to eugenics him! Julian is not the person he used to be and while I do love the person he is now, that doesn't bring back who he was! Part of me wishes we could've gotten to see Jules at least once and part of me hopes we never do because my heart would shatter.

This isn't a good comparison but nonetheless one I can't help drawing: it's giving similar vibes to anti-vaxxers. "I'd rather risk having a child who is dead than one who's autistic". Obviously this doesn't map over since Julian is still autistic and the procedure his parents subjected him to specifically targeted his intellectual disability and if any folks with id wanna comment on this I definitely recommend you listen to them over me, but it's a similarity I, as an autistic who has encountered anti-vaxxers again and again, can't help but point out. "Give me a normal child or give them death."

This may have been written about already but there needs to be stories about teenage Julian (after finding out and rediscovering who he was) practicing some good ol' recognition of the self through media. I need to hear about how he would encounter a story about someone who came back wrong (I'm gonna assume there's plenty of "wrong" pov stories floating around by the 24th century) and absolutely weep. I need to see Julian mourning Jules, taking years and years to process his feelings, experiencing guilt about how he, the imposter, didn't deserve to live Jules' life.

Came back wrong from the returned's pov but it wasn't an accident. It was done to you deliberately by the people who claim to love you. And now you are here, piloting the corpse of your predecessor.

Jules Bashir is dead. Long live Julian Bashir.

#i've called julian jules before simply as a normal nickname but i don't think i ever will again. not after this #and knowing that if it had been possible i would have probably gone the way jules did. knowing that at his age i would have gone willingly. #fuck dude i am literally actually crying literal tears irl right now this is not a joke #fuck!!!!! #julian bashir #jules bashir #doctor bashir i presume #came back wrong #star trek deep space nine #HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD!! HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD AND THEY KILLED HIM!!!! #i cannot stop crying i am literally crying and like not even just a little #i cannot... poor julian how the FUCK do you ever come to terms with something like that #and like... julian remembers. he has most if not all of jules' memories and also knows he was murdered simply for not being julian #like how did he cope #(im about to go off on a tangent that will contain censored names for the sake of not clogging those tags if you dont know who i mean hmu) #like this is literally the thing that fucked up j*ran so bad he went on a murder spree isn't it #he remembers the one who came before who was killed. very different circumstances of course esp since tr*ll are expected to replace one ano #another but he remembers this person he remembers BEING this person who was young and simply enjoying life and who died a sudden death and #he remembers the experience of that death as well and how it lead to his own creation. it's not remotely similar ofc but considering that #the only time we see t*rias in alpha canon is in julian's body... i need to lie down for a moment. #and jor*n couldn't cope! he couldn't! it was far too much and the weird thing is right now in this moment i GET it y'know?? like that's #so horrific. and i haven't watched any jo*an episode besides facets yet but do you think. do you think j*dzia told julian about all this an #he nodded along and kept composure and then when he was alone he broke down crying? like julian you're doing SO well ily you're coping and #you shouldn't have to obviously but you do nonetheless!! do you think julian still has something from jules? like i've heard there's a tedd #but i mean jules prolly didn't keep a diary he was a six year old with an intellectual disability it's pretty unlikely he could write but #does julian have drawings made by jules? i'd like to think so but honestly his parents probably threw them out. like they also moved so #sorry i'm just. many thoughts head full. ive stopped crying now but who knows for how long. also i'll have to tag this with my original tag #maybe i should've picked something less silly for when i make serious posts but like what am i gonna change my url as well? don't think so #original posts fresh from quark's pussy #and thats the tag limit folks it's been fun. i had to delete two other tags but my god. anyway. thinking about jules bashir forever & cryin

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Was thinking about your au and realized that whichever neighbour wakes up last is in for a very awkward reunion

Imagine waking up to your entire neighbourhood being in an apocalyptic scenario, and you’re the last to find out about it-

technically the last neighbor is Sally BUT Julie is the last "normal-sleeping" neighbor to wake and yeah! she sure has a hell of a time! i mean tbh it's kinda her And Barnaby? they wake up within a week of each other (the neighbors wake via Pacific Rim kaiju rules) so their breakdowns overlap <3

#julie wakes up just in time for the situation to Start Deteriorating At A Rapid Pace #like 'welcome back julie! frank is very close to dying the neighborhood is quite literally beginning to crumble' #'tensions are very high and everyone is starting to lose it <3 also your memories and siblings and life and world was a lie <3 good luck!' #she and barnaby have it the worst smh #well. kinda the worst #cause sally wakes up to an (arguably) Even Worse Scenario and also tons of guilt etc etc #sally: oh so its my fault my friends are injured and/or dying/dead. cool. im going to cope with this so gracefully (lie) #(side note: the death(s) are Not her fault. they were going to happen no matter what) #(well. i say no matter what. they'd have been prevented if the lights had been turned back on but we all know that wasnt really an option) #rambles from the bog #wh lights out au #and julie does not really get time to adjust... #shit is already going down #but only a week or so after she wakes up Shit. Goes. Down. #the transition into act two occurs and thats a whooooole enchilada in of itself #and trust me a week is Not enough to adjust! #especially when frank passes out halfway through and then never wakes back up smhhhhh #julie: at least i have frank! right frank? frank? frank- #julie: .... #julie: at least i have eddie! and wally! #julie: wh- whats that? mhm. mhm. oh. really? oh... #julie: at least i have eddie!

[dawningfairytale]

babe wake up, new musical that’s going to make it so fucking hard to keep it pg at youth group just dropped

#npmd #nerdy prudes must die #like okay. it’s worse than ride the cyclone in this respect #bc the context is at least ‘oh it’s kinda a competition musical’ be it’s a bootleg bootlegs get taken down #but i refuse to talk about this musical with any of the youth who aren’t in year 12 (i think that’s appropriate) #bc it’s not just starkid it’s literally a ghost having sex #and i sing all the time and grace is like the first girl character in my vocal range #and. oh my gosh #and i KNOW people at my church watch starkid and i’m sure one of those kids will find npmd #and what would i say ‘love it too but that is not appropriate subject matter’ #do i lie?? like. ugh it’s going to be So Hard #i have talked about rtc but in my defence that girl was older. and not part of our youth group #trying So Hard to keep it child safe

[eremin0109]

My heart just absolutely breaks thinking what if Majima knew beforehand that Kiryu's days were numbered but he was in denial, refusing to believe that a fucking illness of all things would put the nail in the Dragon's coffin. So when they finally meet in that shack, he starts their conversation with a taunt, because he needs to see it for himself to believe it. To come to terms with the fact that Kiryu is actually dying.

And so, they fight. It gets real ugly real quick and by the end of it, Majima's eye is glazed over with a terrifying realisation as he stands over Kiryu's beaten body, his breathing more laboured than it had any right to be.

Going into the fight, Majima wanted to be absolutely crushed by those large hands, years of pent up feelings and frustration being pounded down onto him. That way he'd know that the Dragon was still alive and kicking. That his Kiryu-chan was not actually dying an excruciatingly slow death.

But his victory rings like a funeral toll in his ears. This is all wrong. Kiryu Kazuma is supposed to his perfect rival, his true equal. The only one who could tame the Mad Dog. Not the bleeding, coughing mess of a man that laid underneath him. This couldn't be happening.

But when Kiryu looked at Majima, he felt more than saw the remnants of wildfire in the Dragon's eyes, flickering away more and more by the second. It took every single fibre of Majima's being to not end the poor bastard's life right there.

What was the use anyway—the Dragon was already dead.

#i just wanted to write how Majima would be absolutely devastated over his win in their duel #because that would hammer home just how weak the cancer was making Kiryu #and make Majima come to a heartbreaking realisation that Kiryu was in fact dying #if he couldn't beat Majima how was he going survive whatever the fuck he'd gotten himself involved with this time? #and then another realization would dawn on him: Kiryu never planned to make it out of this alive #that he really wanted to die—after everything Majima had done for the past two fucking decades just to keep him alive #and that realization'd draw all the fight out of him cause just how long had Kiryu been planning this?did he ever mean to tell him about it? #afterwards they just sit in silence for a while because that is all they can do at this point #fuck #this is just so depressing im gonna go lie down somewhere #yakuza #yakuza 8 #like a dragon infinite wealth #kiryu kazuma #majima goro #kazumaji

[agnisleftpec]

in light of lie detector tests irl being mostly bullshit, especially so for people with anxiety, combined with fandom shoving all their mental disorders onto their faves cuz projection is fun, i propose a much more chaotic take on zuko joining the gaang wherein toph can NOT get a fuckin read on this guy and kind of wants him to just sit down and breathe for a second thanks, your heartrate is giving her a headache

#as with most of my ideas #time for jokes #the gaang ends up at a standstill cuz they really DO need a firebending teacher #but they cant fuckin tell if zuko is lying #at first they assume he's just like azula #but then toph's genuine concern for his heart health shuts that down #and so they begin opperation calm zuko the fuck down #which does not work at all #cuz the gaang suddenly switching from 'mm dont trust you' to 'hey lets do a spa day' is concerning to say the least #and then joke prompts aside #the angst potential if toph ever misinterprets anxiety as a lie #especially in the early days of zuko joining the gaang #things could go wrong pretty fast #is hyper anxious zuko pretty ooc? yeah #do i care? no #two versions of any character in my head #one is classic best efoort interpretation of canon #other is a free for all of headcanons and projection #both are valid and both are constantly pinging around in my head #you dont get to choose how i play with my dolls asgjfhdh #atla #zuko #toph #book three #insp

[da-proti-toku-grem]

venting in the tags again bc i'm literally shaking right now wtf

#god i hate it so much #my exams start on monday and i'm not even halfway through everything i need to know for my first exam #i've had all the holidays to study but i just can't concentrate on anything #i've been in my room all day every day (except the days i spent w family like christmas and new year ofc) #and seemingly i'm studying all day #my family thinks i spend all day studying #but the only thing i'm capable of doing most of the time is stare at the things i have to do w/o having any idea of wtf i'm doing #my brain won't shut tf up and telling me stuff that i know are not true #but i just can't #i feel like i've been having an anxiety attack non stop since this monday #not very bad most of the time but it doesn't really stop yk? #and i feel like i have a weight on my chest that i can't really take off #i've been going to therapy and we've come to the conclusion that the cause of my anxiety overall are my studies #(not counting my social anxiety that's been getting worse every day to the point that i don't even want to go out with my best friends) #which doesn't really surprise me but it's just Too Much #i just want to drop everything but since idk what i'd do if i quit this career i chose to do my exams #bc maybe they are useful if i do change my path #but i just can't find it in me to focus and study because my mind is racing all the time #i just want to lie down and cry but i don't even have the strength to do that #i just feel so weak and miserable ever since i started uni and every day it gets worse and worse #my mind just screams at me saying #'stop complaining all the time. no one cares. everyone goes through stuff like that. you're no different. stfu and study like everyone does' #and i know i could do it if i tried but i just can't #why tf is it so difficult to be normal and do what i'm supposed to do for once ffs.... #venting #maca speaks

[elektroblues]

B-Movie: Lust & Sound In West-Berlin 1979-1989

#b-movie: lust and sound in west berlin 1979-1989 #b movie #malaria! #gudrun gut #bettina köster #i took more screencaps but rn i just wanna lie down forever #listening to its soundtrack #god what a beautiful film #(also fr it was like my body took a screenshot impulsively every time gudrun was onscreen 😭) #my gallery's all malaria rn again lmaooo

[significant-ace-nnoyance]

any 'wait for it' girlies out there? nice nice just wanted to drop by and let you know that you are mentally unwell!! me too :) we can unpack why you latched onto those lyrics as a kid together <3

#elli i am staring at you 👁👄👁 STARING DIRECLTY AT U #i relistened the other day after our convo and HOLY FUCK NO WONDER I ATTACHED TO THAT SONG AS A CHILD BJADLSFDJKSL #the lyrics BRO ARE WE OKAY #I DONT THINK SO #anyways heres a very niche off brand callout post . if this speaks to u hmu #we can do some group therapy #aka play that song on repeat and sing all the lyrics still embedded in our brains from 5th grade #thats a lie we all know u didnt stop in 5th grade #hamilton #i guess #im always scared to tag outside the byler tag/my mutuals because 🥺people on the internet are scary and need to calm down most of the time #wait for it #almost said wait for me originally because thats ALSO another banger and i need to add hadestown to my intro post bc BJAKLDSJKLJVS #formative middle school experience frfr #that musical slays omg #and i actually went and SAW that one #the flashing lights directly aimed at audiences were absolute HELL for me but its okay bc i could just close my eyes and recite the lyrics #this is way off topic my b #hadestown girlies stand up and hmu #we can just jam out to way down hadestown and chant and wait for me reprise and also cry to flowers together #ok thats enough tags

[crybaby-bkg]

oh to just be a boobily breasted girl with a low cut tank top on sitting between beefcakes Kiri and Bakugou in the backseat while Sero drives like a fucking maniac just to hear you grunt and squeal and complain so he can watch your chest jump in the rear view mirror every time he purposefully drives over a pothole. and to also have to wrap around Kiri and Bakugou’s arms to keep still as you try to splay a hand over your chest to keep it from bouncing completely out of your shirt as they try not to look and will away their chubs. and to also have Denki feel the need to completely turn around in his seat when he talks to you while he tries to inconspicuously look at your bouncing tits over every speed bump and try to take as many pics n videos as possible for ‘the future so we can all look back on our road trip together!’ and to also—

#I need #to lie down #I wore my Rick n morty sweater yesterday and my bobs were kinda ojt #and we went on this long BUMPY ass ride #and this was all I could think about #and you’re just grumbling like ‘next time I’m riding w the girls even if I do have to sit on someone’s lap’ #not even bc they’re pervs but sitting between them two is like being crushed between two big ass boulders #bkg definitely man spreads and eiji is just too big for his own good even when he tries to make himself small :( #I love this idea so much someone talk to me more about it please I am so desperate #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #bakugou treats! 🍬 #kirishima treats! 🍬 #sero treats! 🍬 #denki treats! 🍬

[lgbtlunaverse]

Sometimes "he would not fucking say that" doesn't mean "he would not think that/that would not be his reaction to that event" but "there is no chance, in hell or earth or any other plane of existence, that he'd be honest about that and actually say it out loud."

#like he would think that. he would not say it out loud tho #you've got the character's reasoning down now you just need to put on the 4 different masks he wears at all times #i love when characters are liars i love it when they lie to the people they love i love it when they lie to themselves #i'm not sure the whining about fandom tag fits here but it's the closest thing i have so fuck it #complaining and whining about fandom