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automaticcatsandwich · 2 months
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My Thalia Grace Headcanons
Her hair may be extremely Spiky and messy but it's actually very soft and fluffy. Like a cloud.
When she's sad her hair is less spiky and more flat and messy
Her eyes are very expressive and often reflect her mood.
When she was first learning how to control her powers she blew up several appliances. It still happens when she's really emotional.
Her fear of heights was developed through a certain experience that probably involved a monster. Or her mother we may never know.
Was able to fly and control both air and electricity but got cut off from those abilities when she developed a fear of heights and I am dying on this hill rn. (No pun intended)
Is surprisingly a good cook and can make up good food with random ingredients on the spot but still prefers  to follow the same recipes she usually has or knows. Although ppl still find it weird that she managed to make good food despite setting the stove on fire more than once.
Pretty sure her mom told her she was a daughter of Zeus but bc her mom is well Beryl, she didn't believe her.
Drunk! Or Sober!Beryl: You're a daughter of Zeus
6yr old Thalia alrdy done with life: Okay, to bed with you.
And when she finally put two and two together she was like:
Thalia: Why didn't you tell me I was a daughter of the GOD Zeus!?
Beryl: I DID tell you, you ungrateful brat!
Thalia: I THOUGHT YOU WERE DRUNK!!
The day Jason was born was the first time her smile was genuinely happy.
Some of her dying thought were abt him too
Sassy queen and a walking mood.
She is extremely deadpan in certain situations and it is really difficult to not burst out laughing sometimes.
Is a very emotional person and actually hates it bc her powers respond to her emotions in a destructive way and she's not the best at handling her feelings. She's also unable to process her emotions until it literally slaps her in the face.
She does however know when someone is upset and can read body language like a book.
Hates her fatal flaw and doesn't usually let it take over her moral compass but sometimes she needs to be snapped out of it.
Despises the sound of breaking glass and a whip or belt cracking. Furthermore, she refuses to touch or even be near alcohol.
Never told Luke or anyone her last name bc everytime she heard or thought about her last name she was reminded of the unforgivable thing her mother did to her brother. Bonus:  whenever someone says unintentionally uses her last name as a pun she stares at them with a disgusted but neutral face.
Would also punch or zap anyone that made a pun with her name.
Is a generally pessimistic person but stays positive for those around her bc someone has to be the rock. Plus she's she's used to it.
Did not have the best coping mechanisms growing up but they have gotten better.
Shows affection through head pats, arm punches and small acts of service or gift giving. Case in point she gave Reyna the dagger. She enjoys receiving physical contact and or quality time spent with the people she cares about.
However if you compliment her or give her any gifts she will get very flustered.
Refers to Annabeth as 'Annie', 'Sweets' and 'My little angry stabby child'
The fact that she literally looks like a delinquent that is seconds away from pulling out a knife and robbing you but switches to doting and loving older sister around Jason and Annabeth will never not be funny to me.
Quite good at flirting but gets flustered when someone returns said flirtatious actions.
Had long black hair as a child but cut it the day she left.
Actually managed to get half of her grade to crush on her while she was still in school but she never caught onto it bc ur young and you don't know how to process this emotion without being mean or awkward.
Likes sandy haired blond boys and dark haired girls that can kick her ass.
Personally I see her as Demiromantic that leans towards women
Her time at Camp after waking up from the tree leading into TTC was very difficult for her.
Hasn't been able to sleep peacefully since she got back from the Pine Tree. If it's not usual demigod nightmares, it's dreams of herself being ripped apart on the Hill and then waking up frozen in place. Sort of like sleep paralysis.
Might be a bit out there, but since she became a tree on the verge of death/probably standing in front of Charon at the time, she still had her wounds from the hellhounds that attacked her on the Hill. bc of this during her time as a tree she kept feeling the pain of herself getting torn apart over and over again until she was numb to it.
Annabeth talked to her tree everyday and those moments of talking abt her day was Thalia's only reprieve.
Despises promises and refuses to make vows on the Styx unless she's absolutely determined to get her point across.
Loathes mirrors and reflective surfaces bc no matter how bruised or bloody or how much dirt and grime ends up on her face, whenever she looks in the mirror she still sees her mother staring back at her.
Her leather jacket definitely has some kind of sentimental value to her. That or she just refuses to buy a new one until it's in threads.
Is very good at fighting with and without weapons.
Fights extremely quickly and fluidly and all of her attacks are powerful and precise. A reference to her powers of wind and lightning.
Has a weird habit of befriending any and all animals, including hostile or aggressive ones.
When she was a kid she used to go to the pet store and look at the puppies and kittens to make herself feel better when she was sad.
Was Luke's Platonic Soulmate
Her first meeting with Zoë consisted of Thalia thinking she was hot and genuinely liking her as a person but that backfired during their fight
I feel like her mother signed her up for all these extra curricular activities as a way to get the paparazzi to paint her as a 'good mother' so now Thalia has all these random skills no one thinks she would possess. She also hates doing most of these activities save for a select few bc they remind her of what her mom made her do.
She can skate. Not just on ice but with rollerblades too
The fact that she's a 22yr old in a day before 16yr Olds body is kinda funny to me.
Feel free to add your own too! Im interested in ur thoughts
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poisoned-pearls · 5 months
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okay I now can elaborate on the thoughts I was talking abt in the tags of my last post-
Jamil has always hated being touched, and physical contact in general. He was raised around kalim, he's had enough hugs for a lifetime, thank you.
well, that is until he started dating Azul.
Azul is very clingy. Physically, at least. He is an octopus, after all. He finds comfort in just, having any kind of contact with someone. It keeps him grounded and focused. So once he has permission, he can and will hang off of Jamil every chance he gets. Jamil doesn't like holding hands (because his training has instilled the need to constantly have them free just in case) so Azul hangs off of his elbow. If they're in class, Azul either has his hand on top of his arm or his hand. 
and Jamil realizes... he doesn't mind it. In fact, he enjoys it. Way more than he thinks he should in fact. It relaxes him so much that it almost unnerves him (the first time he found himself dozing off while Azul laid in his lap doing god knows what he quite literally shoved him off in shock.)
belatedly, he figures out that he is in fact, VERY touch starved, he is just very particular about how someone touches him.
it's silence. He likes silence. Azul rarely ever talks when he's laying with him, usually doing other work or something for the Monstro lounge. When kalim would run up and hug him, he knew it just meant he was about to be bombarded with questions and ideas and statements and work. He never gets to relax with Kalim. It always came with noise, with chaos. While being around Azul was like lying on the beach, with nothing but the soft crashes of the waves to bother him.
(Of course, this wasn't every time. Azul was still a schemer and quite annoying, but he quickly learned that if Jamil wasn't in the mood to entertain his ramblings or schemes, he'd simply shove him off of his lap. It always made Azul quite disgruntled, but he'd take the hint and shut up.)
This also lead into another thing: Their forms of nonverbal communication. Azul and Jamil could easily have a whole conversation from opposite sides of a room when they got along. Jamil knew all of Azul’s little ticks (like whenever he fucking clicks, something he learned was an octopus thing (which begged the question of how the fuck he made that noise in his human form-) or when he randomly slaps Jamil or the twins, who then immediately told him it was a sign of affection and he should be immensely flattered over (apparently it was something he only ever did lightly with friends, which he has concerningly little of. But Jamil doesn’t know if he has much room to talk on that front.) and Azul knew Jamil’s. Azul almost knew his too well, in fact, but every time Jamil tried to ask him about it he was simply met with some comment about how ‘he simply couldn’t keep his eyes off of him.’
Jamil still didn’t like people touching him.
Azul was an exception though. And he was quite happy about that.
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oogaboogaghosttt · 9 months
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alright now who's this pink haired little alien boy (this is an invitation to infodump)(only if u want)(ily)
!!!!!!WAHEEEEEE ILY ILY ILY !!!!!<33(so many saiki k spoilers below)
ok soooo his name is saiki kusuo and he was born with psychic superpowers (which means he has basically every superpower ever conceived). he was born female but changed his form to male like 20 mins after he was born TRANSGENDER WIN!!! he was born with pink hair and everyone thought it was weird and it really made him stick out so he changed the human genome so that it wasnt unusual to be born with rainbow colored hair. he then mind controlled the whole world so no one noticed the change.LOL! but yeah his powers werent that dangerous when he was a tiny baby. but they got stronger as he aged and by the time he was in elementary school he accidentally almost killed 3 of his classmates for bullying his friend and had to move schools :p when his powers started to become dangerous and hard to control his older brother kusuke (who is a genius but doesnt have any powers and is extremely jealous/obsessed with kusuo) made him some power regulators (those little things sticking out of his head) that limit his powers and make living easier in general. theyre basically disability aids bc without them kusuo literally cant move without risking destroying/killing everything around him and has to use a wheelchair. he wears those green glasses bc if he makes eye contact with someone without a barrier between their eyes the person turns to stone (think medusa), so the glasses prevent that. the glasses dont have to be green for this to work btw hes just a freak. umm what else OH YEA hes autistic like 10000%. he never speaks out loud only telepathically. he hardly ever emotes and always tries to look as neutral as possible (when he does emote its because 1: hes eating coffee jelly <- literally his fav food ever, 2: hes feeling a very very strong emotion and probably doesnt even realize he doesnt look neutral, or 3: hes making an unhappy or confused face on purpose to get someone to leave him alone). hes never affectionate once in the whole show but he helps his friends with his powers constantly (without their knowledge bc no one knows abt his powers except his brother, parents, and eventually other psychics) its also like one million percent canon that hes aroace..very awesome i loev him
ANYWAYS the show is about kusuo trying to be as normal and unassuming as humanly possible bc he hates attention. (his powers got him a lot of attention in elementary school and he quickly learned that that was not a good thing) its kind of a lost cause bc ppl in his class start hanging around him and trying to be friends with him constantly. he is literally only communicates with the people around him when its absolutely necessary and yet his friends are always talking to him whenever they have the chance bc they love him...!!! he describes his friends as nuisances and says he hates them but literally feels guilty for using his powers on them and/or accidentally causing them trouble with his powers??? even when its not his fault????? like when he wrecked their cruise ship and got them stranded or when he accidentally turned a couple of them to stone temporarily...but yeah he always ends up in the middle of some kind of situation no matter how hard he tries to avoid it.. hes very situation prone
its later revealed the whole series takes place while saiki is in the middle of trying to figure out how to stop this big volcano from erupting bc if it erupts it will destroy all of japan. hes failed several times, and every time he fails to stop the volcano he uses his restoration powers on the earth. this returns it to the state it was in exactly one year in the past. THING IS, when he resets the earth by a year he also resets everything on it by a year, which includes all the people. its basically a time loop. the only reason the everyone on earth doesn't realize whats happening is bc saiki mind controlled them and has them convinced its normal. nobody ages or changes physically, including saiki, but saikis powers continue to get stronger. this means that his likelihood of success in stopping the volcano increases every year and he eventually does stop it. BUT PLOT TWIST HIS FRIENDS SEE HIM DO IT!!!! he considers telling them the truth but he just erases the memory from their minds and allows time to move forward
ummm and at the end of the series kusuke made a thingy that could take kusuos powers away and make him normal like he always wanted. kusuo used it and was like "ok now that the world isn't gonna end by volcano and i don't have powers anymore im gonna tell my friends i had powers and apologize and stuff" but then he figured out his powers weren't completely gone. his body was still super strong (to adapt to his super strength) and he would sometimes still hear ppls thoughts and basicallyyy it didn't work lol. but also he pretty quickly learned that he was actually way worse off without them bc like. hed had them since he was born. they were literally a part of who he was. he didn't know how to function without them. and he was lowkey sad bc his life goal was to be normal but also he hated who he became when his powers were gone. they came back completely when a fucking meteor came down and almost destroyed the earth and he had to get rid of it. its kind of implied that he probably told his friends about his powers after he got rid of the meteor which YAYYY
ANYWAYS YEAH i love him he stays silly always he so awesome and cool im thinking about him a whole lot
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baekhvuns · 6 months
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BESTIE
THAT MAN HAD A GF ALL THIS TIME.
😭
I mean he was never mine to begin with, and it was obvious he'd HAVE a gf with THAT face but ong I felt like I got cheated on Bcz we made eye contact for like 0.00001 secs tht one time 😩😩
I wasn't even able to go at my job Bcz I was sick my co workers told me that he had a gf, who was apparently at the restaurant and he made it so obvious that it was his gf. Which is a top trait for a man. BUT I COULDN'T SEE HIS GF 😭😭😭 I WANTED TO AT LEAST SEE THE FACE OF THE LUCKY WOMAN
Anyways....about my life, i got sick somehow, and got a cold but now I'm getting better AND MY PHONE FELL INTO MY BATHTUB 😭 SEE THIS IS WHY I WANTED TO BUY A BLUETOOTH SPEAKER!! it was so unfortunate, Bcz I was in the bathtub, scrolling thru my phn finding the perfect song and MY Clumsy MY CLUMSY HANDSSS 😭 anyways, its still working but the screen... is now discolored??
Enough of me ranting abt my life. How are you? The blog has been so quiet lately, like WHERE IS DV ANON?? WHERE IS JAEHUNNY ANON?? WHERE IS NOTHINGJUSTME ANON?? WHERE IS CHILDHOOD! BESTFRIENDHWA ANON?? Guys come back...life is so...lonely 🥺 (i hate this emoji)
Speaking of childhoodbestfriend!hwa anon, i literally made a story inspired by your username 😔 so i hope you don't sue me. I was sick i had nothing to do so I just posted the story, it's a part 1, idk man I hope people will like it.
I see you like angst YOU LIKE LOTS OF ANGST AND UGLY FIGHTS AFTER WHICH THE COUPLE LIVES HAPPILY EVER AFTER!! Me too. But I feel like daytime star is a comfort manhwa, like they went thru hurdles..they did but not in their relationship but more like, they went thru it together. Like....it wasn't anything between them ..bt them against the world thing?
Speaking of the whole fight THATS HOW YOU COME UP WITH THE FORMULA OF YOUR STORIES RIGHT? damn no wonder I'm in love with them..
Bt look i found a few fics that perfectly explain d&tg, change the Hongjoong to yn in the first one AND THE SECOND ONE!!! 🤚😭 PERSON B IS SO GENERAL!YN ..is the how you spell it-
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THIS LAST ONE 😭😭😭 IM GETTING FLASHBACKS TO THE FIGHT HWA AGREED TO SO CONFIDENTALLY AND THEN GOT BEATEN UP!
Omg yes the baby against his tiddies 🤧🤧🤧 they're so cute, and the baby is so cute and everything is so cute. Whenever I read it, it feels like I'm melting. And it feels so satisfying to see haebom (the black haired dude) who is so intimidating get all soft cuz of a baby AND HER FATHER 😭
NO NO YOURE RIGHT THE GOLDEN RETRIEVER AND THE BLACK CAT DYNAMIC IS THE BEST! I read another bl...pls I'm getting addicted to them...and it's actually good, AND ITS TBE SAME DYNAMIC!!! Person A (complete black cat persona, depressed with anxiety and a rich kid, [guess where the depression came frm?] ) and Person B (literal human sunshine, even his hair are blonde, a tired working man who gv up on his dreams)
And then they unite....god, it was the healthiest thing I read probably.
WOOYOUNG'S OREO HAIR ARE BACKKKKK! I cannot....express my joy ENOUGH! AND WE GOT PONYTAIL SEONGHWA 😭😭😭😭 when I tell you I waited so much since the Deja vu era LIKE FINALLY MAN YOU BETTER KEEP THE SCISSORS FAR AWAY!
Girl u gotta tell me where should I read secretary's escape BCZ I READ AT AN ILLEGAL WEBSITE AND IT WONT SHOW ME IT 😭😭😭😭 I WANNA READ IT SHOULD I DOWNLOAD WEBTOON OR SOMETHING??
STOP.
NO FUCKING WAY.
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he brought his gf the day u weren’t at work 😭😭 crying this is like when u miss a day at school and rihanna performed in the cafeteria like CRYING GRKWHDKW ANON WHYDKWHDKW it’s time to come back to ur roots <3
i hope you’re better now- what the fuck 😭😭 WHY DO U HAVE UR PHONE IN THE BATHTUB WHAT HAPPENED TO KEEPING IT AT THE COUNTER ????? did u at least put it in rice pls jfbwkfhsk and did u find the right song
i am good! i was also sick with a scratchy throat recently, uni’s back on 😀 blogs been quiet i know 😭😭😭 NO BC WHERE ARE THEY IVE BEEN WONDERING WHAT HAPPENED TO THE HAGWON ANON PLS HOWS SK ARE U BACK??? ARE U OKAY??? DV ANON IS THE JOB TAKING UR TIME HOWS UR CATS JAEHYUNNY DID U SEE THE LAST RACE, NOTHINGJUSTME HOW WAS UR DAY DID U WATCH ANYTHING CHILDHOODBESTFRIEND HOW IS THE DRAFT GOING FBWMDHWK wow i am so attached <3
omg u posted … 🤲🏻
I DO I RLY DOO I LIKE THE DRAMA MAYBE THATS WHY I FOUND IT A LIL NOT MY TYPE FHKWFB damn how did u know that’s my formula
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CRYING THAT IS EXACTLY GENERAL!Y/N AND HWA FBWNDHAKHDKA IT WAS SO FUN WRITING THEIR BANTER a quiet unbothered person vs the hectic egotistic duke sigh, what a pairing i miss them ngl i miss the mr and mrs park one too what good times they were omg do u know the song im yours by isabel larosa i wrote half of my etl’s based on it
STOP I LOVE THAT THE INTIMIDATING ONE GETTING SOFT FOR KIDS CRYING
EXACTLY!!’!!! PEAK ENTERTAINMENT IS GOLDEN RETRIEVER AND THE BLACK CAT OH HOW I WISH EVERYONE HAD SOMEONE LIKE THAT RHLWHDWK MANIFESTING 😭😭
healthiest thing u read 😭😭😭😭
NOT ONLY OREO BUT A FULL ASS MULLET???? JESUS CHRIST AND *** ?????
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KEEP !!!! THE !!!! SCISSORS AWAY !!!!
PLS DOWNLOAD WEBTOON THATS THE ONLY PLACE I READ SECRETARYS ESCAPE ON I WAIT FOR THIS ONE PATIENTLY and he’s just so,, imagine a ceo hwa like that like.
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yomiurinikei · 4 years
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I was looking through your old posts and i found the one with trans boy Nikei headcanons and i was wondering if you could do some trans girl Emma headcanons too, if it's not asking too much ^^
this was in nikeis notes, he says it's done and that i can post it! also that u can request anything, and it's okay to ask for more headcanons if u want! - andrew!
~*~ trans girl emma headcanons!
•okay so she totally loves like. lolita fashion and all that, she knows that she doesn't have to b feminine to b a girl, but it's all so cutesy and pretty and she'd love to wear lolita stuff out in public but she's worried abt her reputation and what people will think
•it took her a while but with hype from the CoU, she did end up slowly incorporating more and more parts of it into her style, it's not close to a everyday thing, but it makes her really happy and gives her a lot of gender euphoria
•uh that wasn't very trans-centric tho sorry;;
•she's naturally really tall, so at first she was very :/ abt it and decided she was only gonna ever wear flats for the rest of her life
•but! time went on and she slowly grew to be more happy and accepting of herself, so her height is much less of a stressor for her now!
•gender was always. a fuck to her, she never really felt like anything, and so when she was saved by utsuro, and the cps workers came and found this child with long hair, wearing a dress like piece of clothing and called her a girl, emma decided that it was nice, and she'd like to be a girl now
•i'm sorry i just. like it when people have good experiences with working out their gender identity?? idk i'm dumb
•uh bc she was. so certain what she wanted, she went straight from being on hormone blockers to being on hrt!
•her hair is her pride and glory, she takes very good care of it and it brings her a lot of gender euphoria
•she and nikei spent time together being trans solidarity and like. messing with their hair, taking care of it and admiring each other's hair bc we stan a king and a queen
•off topic but emma looks so pretty with her dark hair and eyes. she looks so pretty with her dyed hair and contacts (i'm assuming that's what it is) she's so pretty. i love her
•her coat is a big comfort item for her, if she's ever hit by dysphoria out of the blue and she's in public, just hiding in it a bit more (there probably some hidden buttons/clasps u can't see with all the fur) helps to alleviate said dysphoria
•very openly out and proud!!!!
•some. nosy journalists and reporters (not nikei he would never fuck linuj and his shitty decision to make nikei a pervert in his ftes when it's. nowhere to b seen in the main game. i hate this) were pestering here abt what she thinks of trans rights and all that
•she goes "yea i actually really don't like how the general population has been handling trans people" and everyone expects her to b transphobic but she goes off abt how people are hiding their transphobia behind a thin veil and that a lot of people say they support trans rights then do. fucked up terrible things
•she ends it by going "and please for the love of god, i've been on either blockers or hrt my whole life, please just let me use the bathroom without invading my privacy"
•a queen i love her
•someone goes "oh wow u don't look trans!!" and she just. sighs and asks them to maybe broaden their idea of what a trans person is/looks like
•she's very tired of having to deal with people bc suddenly her whole career is abt her being trans
•but! she's always got one certain journalist there to respect her boundaries and ask her abt things she wants to talk abt, so that's nice
•literally a makeup goddess???? she's entirely self taught and looks perfect whenever she feels like wearing make up
•emma looks perfect no matter what but i digress
•in conclusion: emma is my perfect queen who has a lot of pride in herself, and while she can/will go to her friends for help, she also has a lot of self love, and is a girl i would die for
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gayregis · 4 years
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ok also. i don't think geralt's into pet names BUT he's really just like. thoroughly physically affectionate. like he's not good with words but he knows very well just how and where his bf wants to be kissed and touched and what makes him feel good and what makes him feel appreciated both in terms of sex and in just in general and in turn jaskier is very vocal abt how good geralt makes him feel or abt how much he really appreciates him and his company and how he loves him bc They Know Each Other
in a little sacrifice when geralt begins tripping over his words around dandelion and essi... he was shortcircuiting from the pressure of having to speak in front of two poets. ... the thing is that geralt has the capability to be incredibly eloquent, but it’s only when he’s not thinking about it, and also usually when it’s about something he scorns, or a hateful situation (the nature of humanity, impending doom, the dangers and woes that ciri is facing...) ... when he has to speak about good things and love, he kind of becomes reduced to “you make me feel good in my heart :)” 
i know that this isn’t the ship on the table right now, but, i mean, it took geralt four books and like what, 10 years, to tell yennefer he loved her... i feel like with dandelion, there was less, ahem, drama in their relationship (they don’t really on again/off again, it’s more of a mutual everlasting thing) so it could have gotten to that point sooner between them, but it also has to be considered when exactly it turns romantic or geralt Realizes that he’s not only capable of love but legitimately loves dandelion ... not just in a friend way... 
(personally i understand the appeal of a ship that has love at first sight, but i really like the “love at second sight” dynamic in which they realize they’re important to each other right off the bat but only really realize their feelings later... also i think falling in love / realizing that you have fallen in love with your best friend is a common gay/bi experience...)
so i like to put the estimate of when geralt Realizes actually exactly at the point where dudu changes into dandelion in eternal flame. because at that moment geralt realizes that all he wanted to do when faced with dandelion is hold him, talk with him, be with him somewhere quiet, peaceful, and safe... that he loves him, even if he is wearing that stupid gaudy blue kaftan... that all he ever feels towards dandelion is this desire to be with him, spend time with him, protect him from anything that may come their way... dudu and geralt in this moment both were expecting geralt to raise his sword, geralt was already reluctant and never wants to harm innocents, but after dudu shifted form into dandelion, any kind of drive he possibly could have had for unsheathing his blade in an act of violence just got knocked out of him, blew away like the wind. (also worth noting that right before dudu shifted into dandelion’s form, he was in geralt’s form, and that only made geralt actually more OK with using violence than he was with dudu in any other form... geralt’s self-loathing knows. only a few bounds.)
the reason why i bring it back to this time geralt realizes he’s in love is because of that moment where all he wants is to just sheathe his sword, rush forward, and hold dandelion in his arms... feeling horror at the fact that his sword is glistening in his hand. he doesn’t know what to say, actually, in this moment. the dialogue becomes a monologue as dudu continues speaking in dandelion’s voice and form, and where geralt is supposed to repond, it just says: “geralt nodded reluctantly.” “the witcher said nothing.” “the witcher said nothing.” i interpret this scene as him basically being paralyzed with feelings, especially after a shard of ice where he and istredd went toe-to-toe and was told he can’t experience love because it’s a biological impossibility. he’s still thinking about this question throughout eternal flame, and it comes to a head in this scene, because what else, other than love, stayed his blade, paralyzed him?
geralt’s situation relating to his feelings and love are intensely complex. it’s not the simple “oh i have feelings for you but i’m too abashed to say them uwu,” but rather “i was born to be emotionless so i could fill a societal role and specific caste laid out for me but your presence in my life has changed everything and now i think i might be able to feel love, and i feel love for you” ... so yeah he has difficulty verbalizing all of that. especially when he hasn’t had a traditional upbringing with the presence of fairy tales and stories of love told to him since childhood, he’s missed out on a lot of “normal” societal things like this so he does not have a framework to understand his feelings through! no one told geralt that when you want to spend night and day with someone, sleep in the same bed, talk to them endlessly, and you feel like you can be completely honest and truly yourself and seen for who you really are around somebody... that’s love! 
before dandelion’s presence in geralt’s life, the idea of pleasant touch was really foreign to geralt. from contracts, he felt claws and teeth and maybe the sewing of a wound afterwards. from other contact with other humans, he felt nothing except the ocassional contemptous spitting or throwing of stones (legit what it says in the last wish). the witchers in KM seem to go for that masc shit (he and eskel hug for an imperceptable moment, blink and you’ll miss it) and i can imagine witchers roughhouse for fun and stuff like that, but in the outside world, with no one who could ever understand who he is, what he is, what role he was meant to play... it’s a very isolating life. 
i’m stealing an entire paragraph from this other post i wrote a while ago: “tbh there was probably an entire first week of their friendship where geralt flinched or became immediately alert when dandelion got close to him to speak, touch his arm in jest or gentle motion, or grabbed onto his hand, forearm, or sleeve in anxiety, because geralt just…. wasn’t used to anyone touching him, even in a passing or platonic manner.” geralt wasn’t used to kind touch, but he has highly trained mind-body coordination. i think in one part of tower of the swallow in a chapter prelude, witchers are called a “caste of warrior-priests” which just makes me think of the monk class in D&D... which can be a good analogy. geralt is NOT just a sellsword. his profession goes entirely much deeper, it’s literally what he was genetically altered to perform. this is why he has such a difficult time separating himself from his work, because it almost cannot be done. witchers do undergo extensive training, and especially individuals like geralt who are focused on ethics and morality take time to reconcile the physical and mental effects on their body. it’s not really just “guy with sword feels things physically bc that’s just how he’s wired,” but geralt has really tuned his soul and body together as a result of both his profession and coping with being forced into his profession.
so i think when dandelion introduces this concept of good touch to him in addition to the idea that he can be loved / deserves companionship, it’s natural for geralt as he becomes more in-tune with his emotions to feel them more physically. i ask whomstever is reading to take their mind out of the gutter bc this part at least is a nonsexual context, because they can put it straight back into the gutter later, since this post does involve dandelion.geralt’s emotions are practically on the same level of chronic pain as his shattered leg later on in the series. you know when you feel despair and grief in your chest, the tingling sensation of love in your arms and shoulders, the bristling anger on the back of your neck... it’s along those lines. 
so when he’s feeling emotions very heavily, and can’t begin to craft the statement beginning with, “so, i’m not supposed to feel emotions, but...” he just acts with his body. this can actually be seen in all the times he saves dandelion, saves yennefer (debatable b/c she’s pretty badass; it’s more like he helped her), and when he just runs to ciri without even needing to say anything in something more. 
in his worst times, geralt’s a man of philosophy and surmising and indecisiveness... like in baptism of fire, regis says that the cardinal directions have no meaning to him, as long as he is going somewhere... he paces around, and also like in baptism of fire, the song about the ornery wolf... look how the wolf dances in the holt / teeth bared, tail waving, leaping like a colt (...) look how the wolf is dragging his paws / head drooping, tail hanging, clenching his jaws (...)” ... but in his best times, he’s a man of action. he acts when it’s most important.
ok time to put your head back into the gutter now! i’ll put the nsfw stuff under a cut to save all of your eyes
this part can be treated like an add-on to the post. wow, all this writing just to say geralt doesn’t suck at sex... ok. 
well in terms of geralt x dandelion i think that after their first time together, dandelion accuses him of lying about how many people he’s fucked, because ‘it can’t possibly be that small of a number’ because geralt wasn’t awkward. he was very emotional as to be expected, but also we know he doesn’t tend to show emotions on his face, so the intense rippling feeling of love & desire he feels when dandelion pushes his hair back behind his ear flew under the radar. which is good in geralt’s perspective, because he strongly feels that it would be embarassing if dandelion knew how much he’s affected by him. honestly similarly, dandelion who’s not embarassed by much is at first apprehensive to think about his and geralt’s relationship, because usually he can just leave whenever he feels like it... but with geralt, it became different, geralt was no fling, and realizing this very early on in their relationship was alarming until dandelion did what he usually does and just drops it and remains happy. 
honestly you could make the argument (not outright STATING it... i’m not being h*rny on sideblog...) but you could argue, that geralt and dandelion have bomb ass sex because both of them are canonically good in bed, weirdly enough. geralt is pretty giving and loving in his sex scenes, even when it’s not even romantic and rather a crazed passion, like with fringilla. it’s canon that he’s a proponent of oral sex b/c he defends the concept in discussion with regis and also gives it canonically, so idk what to really say here except geralt’s a real one and sapkowski had a vision i guess for his main character. 
another important thing mentioned in geralt’s sex scenes is that he’s pretty intuitive with pacing. in the last wish, he and yennefer take their time and have quite a soft and loving experience, and in lady of the lake, he and fringilla experience this more sort of intense scenario. but i think these differences are meant to speak to the differences in love and relationships between the pairings... while geralt and yennefer experience an all-consuming love of mind and body, geralt and fringilla had more of a ... bad decision. this makes us have to headcanon for what the pairing of geralt and dandelion would be like, i’m inclined to say it would be a lot like geralt and yennefer because the thing about geralt and yennefer is that they find intimacy in each other that they’ve yearned for their entire lives, and geralt and dandelion have a lot of that similar energy of finding something in another that you’ve always longed for. 
especially towards the beginning of their relationship, i feel like just their abilities to be vulnerable are what drives them. of course, having emotional sex is a fireworks-type event for geralt, while for dandelion it’s more just like, 3 PM on a tuesday afternoon, so that affects their dynamic a lot, again especially in the beginning of their relationship before geralt met yennefer and villentretenmerth, because geralt really was just not sure of himself. dandelion’s very sure of himself so he kind of doesn’t realize that it’s the beginning of an Emotional Journey for geralt and not just something casual like eating brunch together. geralt becomes more confident over time though and that’s good but he still gets just regular pangs of gay love that stops your heart momentarily, from being ... in love... 
as for actual dynamic during i think it would be funny and good to keep them both in-character and interacting as they normally do. cue humorous arguments with no vitriol or consequence: “stop moaning in musical scales, it’s ruining my concentration” “no— fa so!” 
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-Freddy wants to grow his hair out, for absolutely no reason at all. He just wants to have rlly long hair and occasionally wears it in other styles other than a simple ponytail. He's probably asked Chica to put his hair in a braid before and it ended up being a rlly stiff and small braid cause his hair isn't that long for one yet
-Since Puppet kissed Mai on the cheek in Canción Marionette, I hc that in Puppet and Mai's family, they share a lot of various kisses w/ meanings of their own(platonically ofc) A kiss on the cheek means comfort, a kiss on the forehead means forgiveness/sorry, and a kiss on the temple means goodnight. (I like to think that Freddy would be feeling upset one day so Puppet kisses him on the cheek and Freddy is like WHAHHNDSNK,MGGATGAYGAY I'M GSY)
-So I wasn't planning on putting my design hcs here, but pleas let's all appreciate Joy w/ a split tooth for at least 5 seconds it's literally my aesthetic
-Felix has probably only watched 1 or 2 animes when he was younger, yet he's still somehow Spiritually seen every anime in existence. Abby will go to him crying over how her favorite died, by dramatically saying, at first; "FELIX!! FELIX IT'S HORRIBLE. FELIX OH MY GOD" and Felix will just be like "Oh you're at that part where [name] died aren't you" and it confuses the everloving fuck out of Abby
-Speaking of anime and Abby, imagine Bonnie and Abby being friends and bonding over anime!! And then Fox joins them later on. At first he kept saying anime was stupid or something until Bonnie let it slip that the new season of an anime was coming out in a few weeks and Fox immediately goes WHAT so he gets invited to watch anime w/ Abby and Bonnie and now they're. all friends who bond over anime. They probably cosplay occasionally too and make shitty joke tik toks
-Speaking of Bonnie being friends w/ Abby, I like to think that Bonnie can easily befriend literally any girl. The only ones he's not that close w/ are Meg, Toddy and Maggie but he still somehow manages to be on good terms w/ them. He also likes to have!! Sleepovers w/ the girls and he owns like 20 friendship bracelets and has his nails painted 24/7 
-Okay so I'm basically just projecting but: What if Bonnie had autism. Whereas he has some social anxiety, and generally just sticks to his current friends. Takes a lot of jokes too seriously sometimes(still has a sense of humor he just starts getting worried cause he can't tell if someone was being for real abt a particularly harsh joke they made) 
Rocks back and forth 24/7 and swings his arms back and forth when standing, occasionally clapping his hands in front of him and behind him when he does that.(if you don't know what I mean I'll try and draw what it looks like) Generally rlly silent w/ a group of people all having a conversation. Used to have a lot of trouble holding eye contact but when he realized he did that he started making a lot more eye contact than he needed to. Sticks to a specific schedule and starts getting worried if something prevents him from following this schedule. Starts brushing his fingers through his hair rapidly as an attempt to ease anxiety/stress 
-srry I projected like. A Lot There. anyways what if Loon had social anxiety. he's seen as a rlly shy character but like. idk man he comes off as more socially anxious to me instead of just simple Shy
-Also Freddy being sensitive to loud noises, he hates using public restrooms cause when you flush the toilet they always go HHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGHHHHGHGH and whenever an object looks like it's abt to fall but he can't like. get to it to put it somewhere else he'll immediately start sweating and mildly hyperventilate as he tries to mentally prepare himself if it falls and causes a loud noise. he can do better w busy restaurants and concerts but he still prefers quiet places 
-I found this hc somewhere else but like. Onnie w/ abandonment issues. that is all 
-I also found this hc somewhere else but like.    Bonnie just steals all the coats from his band members when he's bored. Their coats are Not Safe From Him. They Will Be Stolen. 
-Back to Bonnie, Abby and Fox, they all like to play mc together but they can never fucking find Bonnie when he's playing w/ them and they always see him saying the weirdest fucking shit in the chat. one time they saw "BonnieTheDestructer fell out of the world" while they're all in survival w/ no commands and Fox n Abby are just like what the FUCK 
-Fox and Bon never considered eachother friends at first, but since Fox was the only other person who knew of Bon's feelings for Bonnie, Bon always seeked help from him since Fox was close friends w/ Bonnie. Fox was slightly annoyed by this but him and Bon started getting closer and closer and Fox unintentionally became a wingman for Bon so like. no getting out of this now
-One day Bon decides to seek advice from Felix and Fede, as Fox and Joy's advice isn't helping and he's afraid of asking for help from anyone else. What he didn't know was that Bonnie was also seeking advice from Felix and Fede for the same thing, so Felix and Fede are trying their very best to get Bon and Bonnie together but also doing it at a slow pace bc it's funny seeing Bon and Bonnie gush over eachother while still oblivious to the others' feelings 
-On the same topic of that, I like to think Felix is the one giving Bon advice. Whereas he gives flirting tips and pickup lines to use on Bonnie while a very flushed Bon denies that he will use ANY of those 
-can't forget Fede giving advice to Bonnie, where he gives tips and hints on how to remain cool around Bon, and even giving advice on subtly flirting w/ Bon just to see how Bon would react. Also explaining the signs on someone liking you so Bonnie can look out for these signs w/ Bon 
-Felix giving advice to Bonnie and Fede giving advice to Bon is cool too tho
-Joy likes to make flower crowns!! She always makes flower crowns for Meg and Bon, and when she becomes friends w/ Fox and Bonnie, she makes flower crowns for them too!! 
-On the topic of that, Joy used to be rlly into arts and crafts when she was younger, so that's how she learned to make flower crowns. 
-Deuz considers himself a 100% straight man but he has. had gay thoughts before. he had gay thoughts like One time and it never happened again and he is still very confused abt it 
-Fox owning a gaming channel that he Occasionally does covers on, Bonnie having a channel that he posts shitposts on and guitar covers, and Abby having a channel where she posts reviews on anime, reaction videos and occasional covers too. Fox invites them to play a game w/ them one day that isn't minecraft. chaos ensues 
-When Freddy and Fox accidently kissed on Freddy's first day of school, everyone at the school definitely did Not let them live that down. They targeted Freddy mostly, calling him gay and the f slur, which slowly started to get to him and started making him question. "Wait, do I like guys?" cause he noticed that he's shown signs of liking guys before other than his accidental kiss w/ Fox. 
 So, w/ the help of his friends and Fred, Freddy managed to realize he was bi. All bc of his accidental kiss w/ Fox 
 -on the topic of Freddy being bi, he has chaotic bi thoughts 24/7 every time he meets someone attractive 
-ON THE TOPIC OF FREDDY BEING BI AGAIN, since he gains a crush on like every person he sees, Fred tries to be a wingman for him and it literally never works out. If Freddy ever decided to be a wingman for Fred tho, then he'd actually manage to get Fred a date somehow which would leave Fred flustered and Utterly confused. 
 also when they're both attracted to the same person? all hell goes down. 
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What would prevent you from following someone?
i pay quite a bit of attention the mun’s voice when reading rules / pages . some people just come off as extremely aggressive / controlling, and it puts me off from following sometimes !  things like : do not follow and block me immediately if you are abc-phobic and support defg-isms ; it’s irritating when i see too much ooc / photos / literally anything apart from your replies ; i will unfollow n block you if you don’t attempt to approach me within a week and DONT try to contact me asking why i unfollowed you …
i certainly don’t want to interact sexist / racist / lgbtqphobic people myself . in an ideal world,  i would also want to interact with all 100+ of my mutuals on the regular and have them approach me within a week of following me - like wouldn’t that be convenient ?? but in reality , people have their own obligations n priorities. people grow up in diff backgrounds n might not have the exact same viewpoints as u. like. idk,, it just comes off as intolerant and disrespectful.  i dont want to feel like i’m walking on eggshells whenever i log in or make a post.
Are aesthetics important to you? If they are, why?
honestly… no !!! as long as the chara is interesting n there is quality writing i don’t mind if a blog is default tumble theme w no aesthetics or post formats at all  ( w the exception cutting posts and uniform icons ! )  as long as the blog format is consistent n readable i will give any blog a fair shot i think !!  ‘:/c
What current rp trend do you hate?
i honestly rly dislike the dashboard blog thing. i know its hypocritical of me to say this bc i also succumbed to the trend but like. but it makes things so hard to access ,  esp if i want to like, edit or add tags to an old post i have to use mass editor and can’t just edit via permalink rip  ( maybe there’s a way of doing it and im just big dumb who knows )
Do you prefer interacting with male muses or female more? Why?
i dont rly have a preference w muse gender ??? :/c  i honestly follow whoever i find interesting n like,  write w whoever wants to write w me lol .  but i do think female muses approach meph more often - idk if its bc of the distribution of female to male muses on tumble or smth ?? but this happens w so many of my muses - idk if its how i write them or how i come across as a person or smth but like . yeah. orz.
Have you ever had a bad experience with commissions? As either someone who makes them or as someone who buys them?
actually nooo ???? i’ve never bought or made a commission from / for anyone in my life so .. sfkafa i am completely indifferent on this subject.
Have you been involved in drama? Do you regret it?
ive never been in drama ?? i dont think?  i feel like i generally am quite soft spoken n genial on tumblr dash bc im . weary about projecting my views ,,,,
but well, i used to know sb who was caught up in clique drama and they would constantly badmouth abt other users to me . i didn’t know how to outright tell them i wasn’t interested in hearing it,, but yeah we kinda stopped talking after that.
Have you ever felt pressured to write something you weren’t comfortable with?
slightly ???  i have had ppl push ship ideas onto me real strongly . i’m not against ships but they’d come to me w a preconception of who my muse is …  esp w canon muses … its not exactly a huge deal bc i get that ppl are excited to plot n ship characters,  but like .  yeah i have.  i’m not  …  great at refusing people hskfjdfa
What would make you block someone?
idk i’ve never actually blocked anyone  ( lol asides from p.orn bots ) . unfollowing  +  steadfastly ignoring them  usually does the trick for me.  shdfksdjfa
What’s one thing that other people seem to hate that doesn’t bother you?
well. this is a bit controversial …. but i feel like ppl are. too sensitive abt whitewashing ?? like i understand that there’s a problem if icons are deliberately edited to lighten skin tone or if a mun straight up erases the character’s racial identity , but some ppl just use pack psds n when the icons are like. two hexes off from their orig skin tone n people accuse them of bein racist and stuff. like . yeah ok,  maybe it was a poor judgement on the mun’s part ,  but labelling them a racist is just . not cool.
like damn. there are actual people out there suffering from the impact of racism ! victims who have been denied entry n detained at borders, subjected to police brutality, denied their rights to expression n respect in the workplace ,,,,,  like open your eyes,  putting a tinted psd over a picture or wtv is NOT racism oh my god. trying to claim that this falls into the same category ultimately trivialises the issue imo .
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DHAU: What To Know
Hey! its what all of u have been waiting for: more dhau stuff :)
Also!! most of this is by the one powerful braincell @snaxarba and I share hhh,, we’ve both worked hard (lmao not rlly we just screamed at each other sksks) on creating the universe around dhau uwu she’s been a great help aaa please send her love through her inbox! She’s currently writing a fic for this au, so if u got any questions or want a snippet go over to her :))))
Now that that’s out of the way, get ready for a LONG post:
GENERAL INFO
DH = Deathly Hallows
5 members
Fandom name: Hallows
Ages: S.S (26), T.R. (24), D.M. (21), H.P. (21), C.D. (19)
Hyung Line (oldest members) : Prince (Severus Snape) & L.V. (Tom Riddle)
Maknae Line (youngest members) : Draco Malfoy, Seven (Harry Potter), & Zed (Cedric Diggory)
Visual Line (“Faces/Most Handsome” of the group) : L.V., Draco, & Zed
Rap Line (Rappers in the group) : Prince & Zed
Dance Line (“Best” Dancers) : L.V., Seven, Prince, & Draco
Vocal Line (“Vocals of the group) : L.V., Seven, & Draco
Choreo Line (Take part in creating choreography) : Prince & L.V.
OTHER RANDOM INFO:
They work under G.G. Entertainment (G.G.E.) with Dumbledore as the Big Boss
Drarry is the most popular ship among fans
Dispatch is a company that takes photos of idols and tries to expose dating scandals
Dispatch Boss: so r they dating anyone
the hallow stan twt is crazy as fuck lmao
theres so many memes
solo stans are fans who only like 1 member of the group (the person is their favorite) and don’t pay attention to the others/give hate to the rest of DH
antis are just hateful ppl in general, they send lots of hate to either Hallows, one specific member, DH, or just the whole group in general
one time Severus and Harry did a vlive (they haven’t done one in a long time so sevenprince fans were excited! :0)!! Harry’s like, “Sev and I have a great plan for this live! :D” and then someone in the comments just says, “Can we have a different member on vlive please :/ i dont wanna look at both yall ugly mugs lmao” :((
Harry, “Cedric? Ah no he’s not here. Draco? He’s not here either sorry :(. Oh ok, I’ll get Tom for you guys.”
big sad^ :(
ot5 = loving the whole group; EX: “No solo stans allowed!! only ot5 enthusiasts!!!”
it does not mean they all fuck skshs
but All7 means they all fuck harry lmao
there’s this super popular twitter account called “@Sevensfw” and it’s basically just an account that posts bottom harry moans ft other DH members
DH wasn’t that popular before, but a fancam of L.V. dancing blew up on social media, and that got them a lot of attention
there will be lots,,, and lots,, of social media in this fic
we get inspiration from u guys as fans so go off on ur reactions
INFO OF THE MEMBERS UNDER THE CUT :)
MEMBERS
Prince / Severus Snape
Oldest in the group
Prince Stans are called: Robins
Produces most of the songs
Unofficial leader; whenever Harry’s not there he’s automatically in charge and no one questions it
Bat Dad / Goth Daddy
Joined G.G. Entertainment to become a producer but then got stuck with DH
“Nation’s Prince 💞💞💞” - Robins uwu
GENIUS !!!
He’s usually very frowny and makes lots of mean remarks but he’s rlly a soft boy daddy
He, Harry, and Tom are the ones who speak most in interviews
People say he’s lazy because he stays indoors most of the time but!!! He works his ass off helping produce most of the tracks the band makes
AND helps choreograph their dances and help run their big ass dorm
Husband material 10/10
Deep voice mmmm
Big ass softie for their leader
Snape: *makes Harry dance & moan for no reason at all* “all in the name of music.”
He and Harry have been labeled the “Mom & Dad” of DH by Hallows
He and Harry usually discuss big decisions to see what’s best for the group
Only other person he’s comfortable with besides Harry is Tom since they’re closer in age, and work together with choreography
He and Tom are chill buds; the “mature ones of the group”
When he first got into DH, he actually thought Harry was a visual of the group ;)
Harry needs help? Whether it be to get away from Visual Line or just in general Goth Daddy got him 😌
one time he and harry went to another country and couldn’t speak the language, and the waiter thought they were a couple bc of the way they acted around each other so they got a couple discount sksksks
So,, so underrated,,, like please stan this whole ass man
Why wouldn’t you??? like,,, he know how to cook, he humble, he got the tongue technology, husband material, high ass IQ,,, tall, dark,,,, what more can u ask for tbh?
you could also ride his nose lmao but ig thats reserved for Harry
L.V. / Tom Riddle
Visual as FUCK
Has the biggest vocal range; king can go from Deep & Raspy to High & Angelic in 0.001 seconds
One word to describe his voice: soulful
used to be part of the rapline in their early debut days, but for some reason he hasn’t rapped recently?? kows r thirsty pls rap for us again tommy boy,,,
bc of that he’s not “part” of the rapline, so he’s just labeled as a sub-rapper, which means he’s like the backup-backup rapper.
Wanted to be leader and kinda resented Harry for a bit before he met him and now he too, is whipped for Harry
Does not care for personal space, literally just crowds around Harry whenever the fuck he wants
He’s labeled himself as Harry’s personal seat, and is always pulling Harry into his lap
Tom’s never been touchy with others but for some reason Harry is just,,, There. He likes that feeling that Harry gives him whenever he’s around; he’s fascinated about his own actions toward Harry so he’s always trying to explore their physical intimacy
HES GOOD AT EVERYTHING AND HE KNOWS IT; everyone’s just like, “wtf that’s not fair”
Yeah he’s good at everything but he watches anime sksksk 🗿🗿🗿
Lowkey-Highkey dislikes Cedric bc dumb bitch unplugged his computer while he was binge watching bnha & happy go lucky mf named Tom’s fandom KOWs (like cows 🐄), when it was supposed to be Knights of Walpurgis smh
His dance!! His dance sequences always look like fight scenes and it’s the B E S T
Very smooth & quick on his feet
Literally so many fancams of him body rolling
Takes no shit from antis,, they’re not relevant.. only DH & Harry are 😤
Adopts any brand with the initials L.V. And everyone just goes along with it
Tom stans (KOWs) clown pre-debut Tom bc he was gonna have his stage name as “Lord Voldemort” and no one will let him live it down skskks
Was scouted by another agency- that agency asked him to audition for their company but he thought it was a scam; he would’ve been in a diff group if he went
Originally auditioned to G.G. Ent. To become an actor, but changed his mind.
Since he’s also one of the choreographers he’s always trying to make it so he and Harry get lots of skin ship
Draco Malfoy
Harry’s/Ferret’s/Hallows’ sugar daddy no lie
KING OF FANSERVICE
Whatever the fans want? The fans get. Whatever Harry wants? He gets it too.
Draco appreciates his Hallows/Ferrets sm,, he’s always reminding them that they are the ones who keep DH going and that without Hallows they wouldn’t be where they are
He always tries to go on vlive (think: IG live, but better) every 2 weeks even with their busy schedules and just spends time talking with the fans :’)
During concerts he’s interacting the most with everyone, walking around the stage the most so the fans can see him from different views: he’s always trying to make eye contact with them
He’s rich enough he doesn’t have to be an Idol but he still wants to stay ,, he wouldn’t give up DH & Hallows for anything.
also helps with any financial problems the boys have!! they need a place to rent? he got their backs
Center of the group!! This means whenever they’re dancing you’d usually find him in the center/middle position. The center is the one who calls attention to them-self the most and has to make sure their formation looks good; they have to carry the group during a performance. If the center looks bad, then the rest of the group and performance is too.
STABLE AS FUCK VOICE. Do you know how hard it is to dance and sing? At the same time??? Draco makes it so effortless,, when he sings and dances his voice doesn’t shake or waver- It’s stable and whenever he’s doing a live performance his voice sounds like it’s from the actual track
HE LOVES DANCING. Dance dance dance. He joined DH because he really just wanted to dance, he didn’t think he’d be part of the vocal line lmao but ugh king got thru
He & Harry are both 21, and Draco’s always making it a point that he’s older than Harry (only by 2 months!); since they’re the same age, they relate and hang out with each other more. He and Harry usually go out and have “bro-dates”. He talks to Harry abt personal problems n vice versa.
He and Harry always support each other and have formed that bff bond and Draco’s always pulling Harry towards him on stage so Harry will get noticed more (since Harry’s one of the unpopular members, while he himself is veeerry popular)
Antis usually say that Draco doesn’t really have any talent and that he just bought his way into DH with his money and good looks, and that he doesn’t deserve his place as ‘center’ :(
The Confident Gay,,, always slapping that Harry booty.
Cheesy asf,, any chance he gets he always flirts w Harry
Seven / Harry Potter
Best leader 11/10
Always comforting members !! He sings to them to make them happy :)
Main vocal- king can hit that note 😩.
Voice is very calming/lullaby like. Relaxing uwu.
Mother hen lmao,, he’s always worried about his group and how they’re doing
Thighs
Duality king go from 0-10000000 real quick
What a caring bitch I love him
Gives special massages to his members when they feel stressed,, and in turn they help him when he needs to step down from all that leader work.
He’s not really one to do ‘cute things for the fans on purpose’ but when he does he gets really embarrassed,, flustered bb will hide his face behind his hands n cover himself. He’d hide his face in his clothes, on another member’s chest/shoulder, or look at the ground while he stirs in cute embarrassment
Knows the members have some type of fascination with him so he uses that as like a punishment/reward system- “First one to memorize all their lines And choreo gets to go with me to help pick out my clothes.”
Insult his group? Won’t hesitate to cut u with his long eyelashes + sharp tongue lmao
Reassuring Hallows that they’re fine even when they get hate because they have each other,, DH/Hallows is best ship
Blames himself when another member gets hate- he feels like he’s not taking care of his group and he’s trying his best to make them feel not excluded :(
Lil bun bun uwu 🐰Seven Nation !! Stay winning 🤩🤩🤩 Protecc this hard working baby 😩
On stage he’s a force to be reckoned with,, like ugh what a sexy boi hshsh,, but off stage!!! A literal cutie!!!!! Soft & pure
Second half of underrated duo
Built up muscle during debut, but throughout the years/eras he went a bit lax, and since he didn’t have as much muscles since before, he’s gotten a lot of hate :( The members love his squishy cheeks n thicc thighs but antis think he should have a sharper jaw line hhh
oblivious mf,,, he rlly went on a date with a female idol from another company without knowing it was a date hh this boy
actually got in DH because he lost a bet
Zed / Cedric Diggory
Sunshine boy!! ☀️ Literally a ray of happiness in the group,,, always smiling and keeping everyone happy
most popular boy
Chaotic mf,,, in this au he’s the equivalent of the shaggy meme 🗿
Joined DH bc of Harry :’)) He’s gotten offers of joining other agencies but decided to go with G.G. Ent and decline all those offers because he saw Harry sing n dance + had a taste of Harry’s sweet personality when he first met him!! 
Cedric joined when he just turned 15, so Harry and the other members have been raising him for like 4 years :(. He could be a manifestation of all their groups personalities.
Looks up to Harry so much?? He’s Harry’s biggest fan and will literally do anything for him,, Harry’s done so much for him when he was younger that he wants to try and repay his leader by also being there for him :(.
M U S C L E  M A N / STRONG boi
literally harry sat on his back while he did push-ups wtf,, like he doesn’t even get winded if harry runs and jumps in his arms
every hallow who’s been with them since debut (15) to present time (19 going on 20): WHY DID HE GROW UP SO FAST HE HAD CUTE CHEEKS HOW DOES HE HAVE A JAWLINE WTHHHHH
his fandom name: satans
ok like,, cedric used to be a rlly shy boy during the beginning years of debut days and like?? he’s been getting more comfortable and one day he just thought “fuck the agency i do what i want” and he’s so happy now
this is why he’s so chaotic,,, his fandom used to be named “Puffs” but after Cedric’s Big Awakening, the Puffs renamed themselves as “Satans”
“Oh you’re a Hallow, too? Cool! I’m a Robin! :D” “Nice! I’m part of the Satanic cult haha”
earlier i said he was a sunshine but uhhhh
When he’s on stage ohoho,,, damn what a M A N,, like??? spits fire and memes on a daily basis
h a t e s losing,,, “I’m never losing my virginity” “Why??” “BECAUSE I NEVER LOSE”
Harry meanwhile: but u could win me??? 
Cedric is just,, “...” “for the greater good” 
released a solo album called “Spared” (name idea was from L.V. bc Cedric ate his last dumpling; originally wasn’t gonna go with it but Harry liked it lmao)
Spared Title track - “Kill The Spare”
The seventh track on his solo album is called “Septem”, and its basically a song dedicated to Harry and how much he appreciates him as a person, how he’s so thankful to have him and his life,, blah all that mush
Septem = Hedric/Zedven shippers anthem
Cedric has a cool necklace that he always wears and he tells people, “Harry gave me the chain. It had a different pendant but I changed it for this one. It’s the Roman numerals for Seven.” :D
so,, much,, puns its stupid
a crackhead
his whole group is made up of crackheads but he’s the TRUE crackhead  ya feel
this boy is always active on social media im,,, like?? he’s just on vlive talking with the fans and then he’ll show the camera around to where Draco is helping Harry stretch before warm ups (surprise they’re in a compromising position) and Cedric just goes, “Haha! I love friendship :).” 
started his dancing career when he joined DH, so he’s the most behind with dance; many people criticize him bc he’s a “bad dancer” but everyone knows he’s a better dancer than any Hallow
but!! he has improved so much D: sunshine baby rlly went thru it
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Private OC Rating
Done by @cho-rates​, I just decided to have the balls to make it public and answer questions! (as well as fix some things)
cho’s comments and questions will be in BOLD. 
My answers and fixed places will be in ITALIC!
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Name: Shotaro Kaneda
Hero/Villain Name (if applicable): N/A
Age: 24 ( An aged up verse, he’s a couple years older than 1-A. Though sometimes I will portray his teen years as well, I have more information on his adult verse. I do want to flesh out teen years at some point though lol )
Birthday: September 5 (a virgo eww)
Gender: Male
Orientation: Bi-sexual
Height: 5'7"
Weight: 133 lbs
Hair: ear-length, fixed but slightly unruly, black
Appearance: Athletic agile build, Asian descent, brown eyes, red tinted hands and feet, small red horns on his forehead, long spiked / devilish red tail
Body: Athletic agile build
Quirk: Steam – Kaneda can build up and blow a hot steam that can potentially burn (or even melt depending on the force) his opponents. (Ahaha, the quirk fits the body appearance. I bet this one is going to be a hot head or really sweet)
Weakness: Building up and releasing too much steam at once can cause overexertion to the point where he can and will collapse and not be able to move for a while. Also his fucking ego. (LMFAO, I guess we’re dealing with the former and not the latter!)
Personality: Kaneda becomes the main symbol of defiance, expressing anarchy behavior towards authority and absolutely does not accept blatant disrespect. Kaneda values loyalty and becomes vengeful when trust is broken. He is impulsive, hot-headed, egotistical, and maintains a tough exterior; however, he is brave, independent, and highly empathetic. As a leader, Kaneda will look out for the safety and well-being of his allies, and will throw himself in front of a bullet for them if need be. (This!! I like that you didn’t make him a straight jerk and that you gave him good traits as well!)
Do they work well with others?: You are either with him or against him. By default he will work well if not negotiate unless you have a badge stating your authority.
Family: Parents deceased; family is his gang of brothers, all misfits and loyal to the bone
Friends (other oc’s or in BNHA universe): OC’s; his bike gang
Enemies(other oc’s or in BNHA universe): literally by default does not trust the cops or heroes (LOL)
Romantic Interests: by happenstance, Izuku Midoriya (LOL pt.2)
What do they think about heroes?: Oh shit oh fuck uhhhh
A couple of things about heroes. He sees the rise of fame being motivation for pro-heroes lately. They seem real fake to him, and it runs along the lines of Stain’s idea of “false heroes”. But he also sees them as a bunch of buzz kills when he’s trying to ride out and do his own thing that happens to be illegal. (LOL this guy is so problematic in a very headass type of way and it’s really entertaining. He’s a really fun character to read about.)
What do they think about villains?: They’re somewhat easier to work with, but he does not associate himself with hardcore villains either. As much as he himself could easily be considered one, he considers himself more in a grey area. He won’t kill a hero – actually he hesitates to kill anyone – but he won’t turn on a villain either if only because any of them could either arrest him or kill him. (Ah, he’s smarter than he lets on. I wonder how much of this is empathy and how much of this is him saving his own ass,,)
In terms of villains, he’s very much along the lines of “snitches get stitches”. At this point it doesn’t matter what his views are with a villain or a rival gang, he’s not gonna call the cops or any heroes as that is a lower blow than trying to either run or solve the issue on his own. He would rather risk his dignity than call the authorities. 
Is their first reaction to danger: flight or fright?
Depends on the danger. If he knows it’s an even match, he’ll throw fists. If he knows he has no chance, he’ll turn tail (heh) and run. (i’m actually laughing omg stop)
If they had to be stuck on an island with one BNHA character, who would it be and why?
don’t don’t ever give him the option (brO TELL ME)
Favorite holiday and why?
Halloween. As a child he always loved to dress up as his favorite hero. As an adult, he’s more attuned to the day before Halloween as “Mischief Day” and takes “tricks” to the extremes.
Do they have a certain way of dressing/ style?
His wardrobe is casual and lazy punk clothes. He does occasionally sport a bright red jacket with his gang’s logo on the back.
Pet peeves: Assuming his character for his looks (I mean you right but he hates it) (LMFAO I’m trying to give a serious review here and you hitting me with all this lolol)
Favorite food: shrimp tempura and rice
Favorite drink: Pepsi (ayyeee, pepsi > coke)
What is their favorite season/weather?: Summer
What is their sleep schedule like?: Whenever (mood)
Introvert, Extrovert or Ambivert?: Extrovert
Quickest way to upset them?: Pull his tail (I….I’m so tempted)
What type of student were they/are they?: Given that he only went to school so he didn’t have to do community service… he did the bare minimum, still got held back once (got mightily pissed off about it), and left as soon as he turned 18. Will also add that the school he went to was one step closer to juvie.
Superlative that fits them best (class clown, teachers pet, etc): Most Likely Will Be His Own Boss
A song you associate with them: Survival of the Fittest - Robert DeLong
What’s their diet like?: He will inhale anything in front of him, but he has a real fast metabolism
What’s the last thing they ate?: McDonald’s burger combo
Hobbies: riding his motorcycle and sometimes play video games
Guilty Pleasures: I mean. If you got the dokis for a hero and you’re a real anarchist……..
When and what was the last thing that made them cry?: laid in bed one night. like you do. thought about where his life was. wondered where it was going. you know just one of those fun nights. (this got too real too fast and i feel mildly attacked)
General Extras: In general, he is a real neutral guy that doesn’t play sides unless you’re on his specifically. He doesn’t take being talked down to and will even argue his side to keep himself above it all. Even raise fists. But he is impulsive as shit and does not always think his decision through. Definitely not book smart, but strongly street smart and highly confident in his actions. (I get that vibe from everything you’ve said, you summarized it really well and took the words out of my mouth!)
Do you plan on filling out a roleplay form(No pressure if you don’t want to do it, this is more for me so I can keep your forms together if you send in both): nah I’m just curious about this one
Creator Name (that’s you!): Mumzy
Blog name where I can contact you: mumpkins
Did you have fun doing this?! (pls just say yes so my feelings don’t get hurt): I REALLY DID and eventually there came a point where I was literally like “well shit he’s kind of a dumb bastard what else is there”
PLEASE JUST SEND THE ANSWERS DIRECTLY TO ME I DON’T NEED THIS POSTED 8’D
I’ll post it private and send you the link!
*deep inhales* BOI. Shotaro is such an unintentional meme?? Like big crackhead vibes from him like…he’s really just a lil misfit goin around and doing as he pleases,, so much angst in this one like??? (i hope you dont take any offence to this,, i just really like his character lol) he seems pretty factious to me LOL. I like his quirk, simple and easy and his weakness is plausible, no OP oc’s here! His personality really shined through and you portrayed him well. That little paragraph you wrote summarizing him was a really solid description and would be perfect for a character sheet. The only inconsistencies were, at the top you put his age as 17 but in the “what type of student were they” you mentioned him turning 18 but otherwise he is a really solid character! I’m 20 something so I can’t crush on anyone younger than 20 but he’s really… *deep breath* …moving on. I love his personality and the fact that he’s this punk but in reality he’s an impartial dude who is chill unless something offends him or opposes him but he is also very loyal and empathetic, two qualities that I love!
Idk if you wanted questions since this is a private rating but i’ll put some either way and u can choose to fill em out or nah,, i mainly do it to help develop character and its just fun to talk abt oc’s sooo,,
What job do you see him having in the future? He’s not really here no there so i’m interested!
After he drops out of high school, he flat out does not know what to do. As he is familiar with criminal work, he stays to what he knows with his bike gang... and incidentally gets picked up by mob members. He begins as an errand boy for one organized group, but never is he ever initiated as a member. After having been exposed by a variety of assignments from various villains, by the age of 20 he’s doing all kinds of illegal work. He becomes a man for hire in the undergrounds, helping with drug trafficking, enforcement, body guarding, petty thieving, etc. You name it, he’s probably done it.
But that’s only in the dark. To keep himself balanced, he’s also a bar back for a local bar in the sketchy side of town. An honest job when he meets people and can tell them what he does for work without putting off any red flags.
A couple of reasons why he does shady work is not due to enjoyment. Actually, he wishes he never got involved as everyday feels like he’s at risk of getting killed for angering the wrong person. He doesn’t plan ahead of his life only because he could step outside one morning and breathe his last breath. For one thing, his best friend who grew up with him and is part of his gang is in rehab at this point and Kaneda is the only person who he can turn to for help -- by this, Kaneda opts to pay those hospital bills with the quick and astounding amount of money he receives from criminal work. Another reason is plain and simple: once he has done work for one organized criminal group, once his name is spread around the underground as a reliable hire, there’s no way of suddenly dropping that life without risking it all.
Is there anything in particular he does to relax?? Tv, music, hobbies, etc,
The best way he can relax is riding his motorcycle in the late hours of the night. He loves the city, and will speed through until he finds open road where he will just continue to ride until he feels calm again.
If he’s especially frustrated and the steam has built up in his lungs, he will hold it in until he finds a safe spot (preferably home) to release it all and collapse for a while. Yes, his apartment would be a sauna if he doesn’t open his windows.
Sex also helps.
Is he a pessimist or optimist? He’s very unbiased it seems so I wonder what his personal mindset is,,
More of an optimist, but in a way where he prefers to mask sorrow and tension with humor and a lighter perspective. He can’t afford to not be confident, and he tries his damndest to pass that on given the circumstances. “This will work” he would say to an idea he briefly thought of, mostly trusting his gut and hoping that if he passes on the mindset and convinces others of his confidence, then yes in some way things will work out.
But I also say that he’s not very optimistic of his own future (sorry to bring this back). He lives for the moment, but given the life he lives, he does not trust it will be a long one. 
So it’s hard to explain, but he’d more say, “nothing matters in the end; do whatever the hell you want now”.
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I was trying my best, and another friend who always took pictures of us (we took pics of him as well dw) documented all of those moments, i even used a not-permanent spray color hair for that day just so the pictures could be special. I didn't particularly like myself, I never did ,but I was too busy to think about it. When i went out, i felt decent at least. Binder, thick under-eye red/black liner, just the perfect e-boy look i wanted. I felt that, as a pre-hrt person, I was looking as masc as I could while doing the style that makes me comfortable and I want to achieve. I was doing my best everytime we went out to look presentable in the pictures, and I did well 9/10 times. At some point, there was a light festival as well. I went with one friends and my cousin and we had fun. My friend and I took pictures, my cousin didn't want hers taken but we still interacted a lot and had fun, I loved the pics of that day. I never got to post them, because my downfall came soon after. At that point in time, I was finally living the dream. I posted frequently on ig (bc i went out frequently) and even though i wasn't anyone big, no partnerships or anything, not even 1k followers, I was growing, and having been intoxicated by fame at age 12, it was just what I needed. My posts started getting 70 likes on average and 7-10 comments, i only had 500 followers but they were growing at an average of 20 followers/month. A lil tween reached out to me and told me he thought I was really cool and was my fan. Bro, that was awesome. Things were moving forward, and altough i felt afraid of the future, I was working on it all. I was making progress in other aspects as well,having come out formally recently and with help from my psychologist, we were going to start looking into hrt, and i just couldn't believe it. I only have read fast and short info. I never really wanted to inform myself more because deep within me I was just afraid I'd never be able to get it and get my hopes up for nothing. We appointed a session to talk about that. This was march, and at my house, we watched a Japanese channel (because we are all interested in Japanese culture and such) So I knew the coronavirus was coming. They started talking about it since the start, in december, obviously, because they are way closer to where the virus started so it spread faster there. I remember it was on a cruise first. I knew it would eventually arrive here, so through all summer i told my mother "it's only a matter of time." I knew it'd come. March was here, and the last time i went out with my friends came along. Inside my head, I felt like I knew that was the last time. I had thoughts about "I wonder if i'll ever get to see a sight like this again". I managed to take some pictures, because,inside me, I knew that was the last time. I wanted to preserve the memory of it. I didn't want to forget. At the time, with a friend, who took the same metro line as me but lives further away, since it was just us two, when saying goodbye we'd always say "see you in five minutes" (like in endgame, because i told her the whole movie and told her when they said that and then black widow died) and she LAUGHED so hard and it became an ongoing joke between us (we are both kinda suicidal ngl but we just laugh abt it.) We said it that day as well, but we actually never saw each other again lmao
At that point, in the country, there were about 4 covid cases. Only 1 in the capital, so it had started, but was only just the start. When I got home, i kind of knew that was the last. My classes started, and for two weeks, it was hell on earth. Online,obviously. I got paired up with the guy I hated the most in the entire generation (I only knew half of them, and liked even fewer, but this guy. fuck. i would have killed him. he was awful.) Anyways. Yeah. But at the end, classes got postponed until further notice. So I was now a Neet! For a while, even though coronavirus was getting worse and worse here as everywhere, I was doing good. I was living the introvert dream, and since I have a decent/good relationship with my parents and grandma, life was just great. All around me I saw everyone struggle with quarantine. I was having a blast. Playing sims, watching anime, anything went. Shit was great. Got Gta V for free when epic released it, and had a blast. Got obsessed with obey me for a while. It was all fun.... Met via discord with my friends. Almost daily with certain friends, once in a while with others, but the whole group would be together at least once. It was good, for me. I felt good. I would ocassionally wake up and tell my mother that I was happy, and hug her. I don't think i'd ever done that. I was at peak, and I knew it. Drew a lot, played a lot. Did a lot of things and projects. Everything felt ok...My dysphoria wasn't great during these times (since now i stay in pajamas all day except when I use camara to meet with friends, and obviously I dont wear my binder with my pajamas) But i had so much free time, that I could just ignore it. (I'm good at avoiding things. at running away.)
Classes started June 1st. First day, I had a breakdown. I don't remember why, but I couldn't connect to class. I felt overwhelmed. I don't know and don't like asking for help because i feel useless when I do. So I didn't. Apparently I seemed more upset than I thought, because my dad noticed. When comforted or confronted, I always cry. I can't talk about my feelings without crying. I feel weak for expressing them. Even writing this, i feel the knot in my neck. My dad saw and ended up helping and comforting. I cried a lot. I went to class, but spent the whole 3 hours of class crying. Things were unstable for a while, but I was keeping afloat, I guess. I started feeling like shit, I wasn't happy daily anymore. Online learning felt so distant and so difficult and so different. I don't like change. At least not without expecting it beforehand. So yeah, that ended up taking a toll on my mental health. The downfall started. I was quite busy, but still tried to meet with friends via discord whenever we could. We had some online birthdays, and season 3 of osomatsu san had already been announced. I was looking forward to it so much. I was in pain, but that thought was keeping me going. I started getting worse, mentally. I started isolating myself ocasionally. I have quite long gaps from this period. I can't really recall much of what happened or what it was like. At some point around August-September I was watching 6teen, because my uni decided that starting a semester and compressing it into a trimester was a good idea, and finals were in september, i think. At the time of finals, i was watching 6teen. I didn't wanna finish it, so I started total drama after. I had a week of vacation in September as well, and I think I was OK for the week.
I won't lie. I don't remember october. I only know Osomatsu-san started here bc I waited for it all year long. I regained closer contact with a friend who lives in japan. Halloween also had an online meeting. I cosplayed, and felt good with myself for the night, for the first time in months. But I ended up having a breakdown later that night. A friend who didn't come and had said he'd come ended up arriving very late (2-3AM ish, meeting was at 10PM) He was very drunk. I don't mind. He says he just came to say sorry he didn't come bc he ended up meeting with irls. We tell him it's ok. He disconnects. He reconnects not long after, but we are confused, since that's not his voice. It was his friend who took his phone, a classic party prank. Doesn't matter, it was fun for a bit. This guy is also mad drunk, so talking to him is weird and funny. But shit gets bad for me in a bit. I was using a voice changer, as I usually do online, because Im ashamed of my high pitched voice. But this guy misgenders me, more than once, and also my friend who lives in japan. He doesn't seem to care, and I act like I don't, but it hurts so bad. My other friend who was there at that time corrects him, more than once. I felt thankful to her. I never thanked her afterwards because I didn't know how to bring out that topic without crying. This guy is very drunk though, and altough i doubt he had vile intentions because of the way he phrased it, he insists, that those are womans voices. They talk about it a bit, verbal comebacks. I wanted them to stop. At some point, my friend who lives in Japan leaves bc its lunch time for him. I felt like shit. I just told this other guy "I'm 10" and he dropped the subject, he believed me and the explanation. My friend laughed her ass out, because she thought I said it as a joke. Truth is, that was just a desperate answer to get him to drop the topic. I dont really care if he believed I was 10 or not though. I just wanted it to stop. He jokes with my friend for a bit more. I didn't talk much after, because I felt ashamed. I didn't want to talk ever again. Even now, even with the voice changer, I don't have the confidence I had when I started using it. I have lowered the pitch twice, just in case. My friend left the call a bit later. When she left, I left as well. I was thankful to her though. I don't remember if i cried or not, but it caused me a massive breakdown for about two weeks. I didn't talk online with anyone until my birthday, I think. I didn't tell anyone but my psychologist this.
I don't remember November much either. I know it's my birthday, and I know I came back to tumblr in november. Yall know when. Canon destiel and shit. Tumblr hadn't felt so alive in years. It felt like home. I remember I was having a bad breakdown during that time. I think it was career related. I can't really remember much. The shitshow happening on tumblr Destiel Election actually helped me get better. I remember this only because of a conversation I had with a friend. I started working on christmas decorations as well. December came along, I worked hard on christmas decorations. I played a bit as well, because on some of my classes I just didn't have anything to do lol. Decorations were finished two weeks in advance for christmas. For the first time ever! I was happy. During these times,Nov-Dec lockdowns started easing up a bit. I still can't go out at all though, because I live with my grandmother, so we're supposed to minimize risks. My parents only go out for shopping essentials that can't be bought online. So it's fair and I understand it, but it started becoming hard on mental health. Not because I can't go out, but because my friends start going out. They know I can't go, they don't exclude me, but they know I can't and I also know I can't. I guess in a form, its jealousy. It becomes hard because there's no one to blame. It's no one's fault. I'm not excluded on purpose, but the truth is, I don't want to hear them talk about what they do when they have fun. I've always been insecure. Even when all evidence points otherwise, I still believe, deep inside,they hate me. They wish I weren't in the group and would be better off without me. It gets hard sometimes.
Even though in general December was quite good, it also came with a major breakdown. One of my best friend's bday is in December. Up until then, Me, her, and another friend had been playing league of legends nearly daily. It was toxic sometimes (the game/community, not my friends) but we had fun. I just liked playing together. But that would come to an end as well. My friend celebrated her birthday, and did invite me, but obviously I couldn't go,and she knew this beforehand, so she didn't get mad or anything. She handled the situation very well, wrote on the gc once, and then did a special gc for birthday attendants to talk about details there and such, and reminded friends who asked in the gc to talk in the birthday gc. (this is how i knew, but i think it was well done tbh, i wish they'd just asked in the bday gc instead so i wouldn't have seen it and felt bad about how i couldn't go) My friend also offered to have me as an online guest, like, being in videocall in the computer on the table. like Karen from spongebob ig. the idea was cool, but honestly i felt bad. She celebrates her bday with her gf bc their dates are near, and I just didn't really want to inconvenience them? I mean, her gf is cool and she used to hang out with our group ocassionaly and she was cool and fit in, and it never felt awkward talking to her irl or anything but it's not like she's my friend and honestly I didn't wanna inconvenience her party, and even though I'm sure my friend wouldn't have minded, I didn't want to be an extra inconvenience for her too. I just wanted her to have fun, honestly. But feeling like a burden ended up weighing on my mind. This caused a bad bad breakdown, beforehand I had started to become better,little by little, but these two weeks waiting for that event to happen felt like a nightmare to me. I didn't tell anyone. I think i wrote it about here once. Around this time, an account on instagram called "matsunoadvice" got reccomended to me, and Oh boy Have I gone to them for advice. Of course, I sent them a message at the time, desperate for someone to talk to, because I couldn't tell anyone about this, because all my other friends know each other kinda and i didn't wanna inconvenience everyone. I didn't want anyone to know i felt like shit. I felt thankful to my friend, because she did try her best to include me, I just didn't really wanna inconvenience anyone. I guess I'd rather suffer alone myself than being a pain in the ass for someone else. After all, I've accepted that I'm alone long ago, and since now there's nothing I can do to maintain my social relationships now,I may as well just accept that theyre ending now. I kind of isolated myself for those two weeks, sometimes i would still connect on discord, but it always felt kind of distant. I stopped playing league of legends around this time.
I still hadn't confirmed to my friend if i was virtually going or not. Truth is, i kind of knew I probably wouldn't want to go in the end, bc im Like That™ But i told her in advance that i'd let her know the date of the event early in the day because of how unstable I am and I wouldn't actually be sure until the day (which was true when I told her) So the day of the event i told her that I was thankful but I wouldn't be assisting virtually and told her to have a great day! She replied okay in a nice way as she always did. I don't think she seemed weirded out by my answer. I hope she didn't feel bad, because she's very empathetic so I hope she didn't think about me at all that day. I hope she never reads this, and even if she does, she didn't really do anything wrong and handed the situation the best she could, the pain was unevitable for me due to the situation. beforehand i had also had a similar breakdown though, because 3 friends who i was/am? still very close to started meeting each other to skate together. I don't know how to skate/have never skated and obviously can't go either way, and sometimes they'd talk about it in the vc. I remained calm always until the call ended,but I did cry about it late at night. It's selfish, of course, but when no one saw anyone, it was easier. we were all the same. But now it felt like they were all moving on without me. In a way, it's what I always wanted, but I always wished to die first. I know it's not sane, but i'd imagined situations like that in my head, where I die and then everyone moved on and it made me feel calmer. But seeing that unfold before my eyes, when i'm still breathing here, i'm still here. It felt lonely. I'm glad they're having fun. I'm just upset I can't do it as well? And it makes me feel like inevitably my relationships with them will break and fall apart and dissapear and they're all still gonna be a interwined network, even though I did everything I could to maintain it because it's all I've ever had outside of my direct family? I didn't make any friends at uni or have a different group of friends so it just...hurt? It still hurts, i'm just more used to it. Also after the bday i did try to connect in vc but it just made me worse, like a friend said like "noo it got too wild honestly u didnt miss anything" and i was like lmao ok but i felt like kinda sad anyways but if i was there i wouldve probably slept through it anyways
...after i felt awful bc i have another friend who is just kinda blunt and kinda dumb when it comes to how others feel, and he was like ohh yeah but after the bday [friend] took us and some of [friends gf's friends] to our houses and since it was early we went to a mcdonalds and it was so fun !! and it was just so uncomfortable bc obviously im glad you have fun but like i dont wanna know??? bc it hurts a fuckin lot???? and my other friend who was also in vc (he was the one w the car) he was like "haha yeaaa it was fun" but he seemed quite uncomfortable talking abt it he could probably tell i didnt wanna hear and ik my other friend only did it bc he's naive not bc he had bad intentions but yeah it sucked i was like haha thats great heh.....like what ya want me to say babe
Christmas arrived and it ended up helping me a lot. Christmas is my favorite holiday and I decorated a month in advance, baked cookies for the first time (with my mom) and we just did a lot of things this year. It made me happy and kept me occupied through the pain (I know i described a lot of pain here but I only paid attention to it at night, which is why it still hurts now probably bc i've had it all repressed) And of course the gifts, honestly I didn't know what to expect because this year I didn't really know what to ask for and just asked for a surprise (because i love receiving things! anything) And my dad definetely outdid himself with all the gifts, I loved them and they're all useful too! I was amazed and i told my friends abt it and it ended up in me talking more in the vc again, and i also started playing genshin impact in late december as well. We also held a secrer santa in the group but not everyone participated (mostly bc of money) but the 4 of us that did was fun! i knew everyone's secret santa bc 2/4 asked to me for help and they were mutual </3 so i knew me and my other friend were mutual too lol but it was cool. I kinda was a bitch a bit though bc he delievered my gift to my home and was going to come a random day and I just wasn't prepared bc I was afraid of seeing him honestly I didn't want to see him and I hoped he wouldn't come? He didn't come that day but he did come some days after, I truly wasn't ready at that point anyway and my mom said we could let him inside if he sanitized, but he came with his mother and didn't get out of the car, we just exchanged the gifts, and honestly I was glad, i was polite and just said hi to both and thanks and all! Obviously i love him a lot bc we're close but idk why i didnt want him to come into my house i just feel like im so boring now and I dont know what we couldve talked abt and honestly ive always been shy but now i just forgot how to socialize and i was terrified so when he didnt get out i was just glad.....well, also
I feel like all of these incidents separated me and my friend who had her birthday on december. Now she wouldn't join the vc or gc often (or say she couldn't, which she usually did before) so I just assumed she hated me, but i didn't really have the guts to ask? She still liked my memes on the gc sometimes but not as she used to, she always used to like every single meme (or nearly all) and she never talked over me (I always get talked over except when I'm drunk bc i become a bit less shy therefore more violent) and would even call others out for me when talked over and always respected everything i told her abt me (Through the years, i've told her some of my deepest shits bc i just trust her like that i dont mind if she knows) but it just felt distant? Also a bit before that, at the start of december we started streaming on twitch, and that week i was very bad I told her i wouldn't play much bc i wasnt doing well but I was up for streaming bc i rly wanted to be professional abt it even if we dont pursue it as a career, but in the end we didnt stream, and fell out of streaming a bit after that. I was kind of afraid to ask her if she wanted to stream again, but we'd talked once and she said she'd finally gotten the cat earphones for the streams (she mentioned she wanted them beforehand) yeah anyways i dont think she actually hates hates me but idk the idea still lingers in my mind
uh yeah also i felt like shit for a bit bc i thought she definetely hated me bc we hadnt talked in a bit and she didnt like my memes anymore so i just assumed the worst, i even listened to break up music (which is what i do when a friendship ends bc altough ive never rly had strong romantic feelings for anyone that kind of song helps me move on after friend breakups too bc no one warns you abt how painful these are) and i cried obviously, but again i never mentioned it to anyone (i made a few vague textposts here though) and just got my shit together even if it hurt? lol, well a bit of time passes and everything seems to go back to normal, i dont remember how she told us but she said she had a job now which is why she didnt connect much and slept earlier and i felt relief lol bc i legit thought she hated me and i felt like shit abt it lol i mean the idea they kinda hate me lingers in my mind all the time but at that point in life i was like. SURE she hated me until that point. now we ocasionally play genshin together but i cant really talk at that time and that also makes me upset bc i do wake up late and im trying to fix my schedule a bit by waking up at 2pm instead of 5 pm but it doesnt even matter bc i play board games with my grandma daily (bc its good for her and its fun i do enjoy it) i just wish we could do it earlier bc lately she gets up at like 9pm and i end up finishing playing at 11/12/1 and its just kinda late to meet w my friends bc i always have smth to do/finish after and i just cant make it in time even if i wake up earlier? lol but i cant change her schedule so theres nothing i can do but cry about it
oh also ik matsunoadvice gave me advice on this but like there's this friend who i love obviously but sometimes he just talks abt his meetings w other friends and like it only makes me angry as fuck and i cant ask him to not bc im too shy but i wish he could stop. and also when he complains abt skate related stuff it makes me unexplainably angry but like i have no reason or right to im just angry bc i cant do that and probably never will bc i doubt ill ever be able to go out again ?? lol. and he even offered like "when we go out again u should come and ill lend u my skate and if u like it u can get one" and honestly its all super nice and i appreciate it and ive thanked him and told him yes but it just makes me feel angry inside bc i dont see an ending with all the mutations and shit and my voice cracks when i tell him haha yeah if we ever meet again bc honestly my youth is already over and i just spent it like a social recluse and i read a post here when i was younger that said like lgbt people spend their teens closeted and ashamed and live their teens in their twenties but now im gonna miss my twenties to the pandemic and then ill be too fucking old and itll be too fucking late and ill have to die and i just never lived bc i still havent even transitioned yet and i doubt ill ever be able to (this also causes me a lot of pain but i will ignore it) and the other day he said like i hope i can see u this year bc i miss u and i just said that honestly ive lost all hope of ever seeing anyone again and my voice cracked and my other friend said something related but not so related and im just glad he talked in bc i didnt rly care i just wanted to change the topic bc i know ill never see them again and eventually probably lose contact and see them all have fun together without me just as if i was dead but just didnt pass away and its difficult but i have to accept it and it hurts a lot now but in 7 years itll be fine, just like i accepted im unlovable and will never have a s/o and when i was 12 that hurt a lot but now it doesnt so someday i will be alone but i hope it doesnt hurt anymore.
this is all a mess and the format is everywhere and theres no timeline i hope no one reads it. if u do read it im sorry. i just honestly been carrying all of this for a while now and i want it out of my system honestly bc i dont know what to do with it and i was on the verge of a breakdown for a minimal thing hours ago i just want all this info out of my brain.....also obv these are only the bad things that have happened/good things that took me out of the hole but a lot of good things happened too lol and i skipped a lot of imp points like i changed careers and shit and also i met a lot of cool mutuals since i got back to tumblr and ososan been carrying my mental health every monday but yeah i just wanted the negatives out of the system. the frustrations and the anger. i hope no one reads this fr its so messy
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Ummmmm I don’t know if this is going to help and they’re all pretty basic tips, but I always learn more about my subject and put less on the PowerPoint so I look like I actually know what I’m talking about and it gives me a chance to look at the audience rather than simply reading off of the powerpoint. Also, it calms me down to frequently gesture and point to stuff. (I’m sorry if this doesn’t help and I know it’s weird)
im not allowed to put big paragraphs on the powerpoint anyways so i HAVE to be familiar with the subject and i for me i feel so awkward doing hand gestures but im gonna have to or else i get points docked off jflkdfj thank u for advice :-)
thestarlightbouquet said:take your time with the reading (if your reading off a slide.) when you have to look up @ the class and make eye contact, if you have a couple friends in the class look at them to calm you down. good luck and i hope it goes well!!
listen,, what makes u think i have friends in the class LOL jk but whenever i look at my friends it just makes me distracted/ laugh u kno. thank you!
seokjinandtonic said:make notecards but don’t make it word for word,,, just put a general idea and practice with that so you can get a natural feel to it 
im making notecards for sure n ill practice :) thank u nalani!
yeonkidna said:idk how much help my advice is gon be since i love presentations but -try to make the presentation one that u’d want to hear and get interested/immersed in it -eye contact scares u? look @ foreheads of people so that it seems like u’re looking them in the eyes when u’re not -preparation’s really important. i completely forgot a paragraph during a speech but i transitioned smoothly -no one knows ur presentation besides u so don’t stress if u blank on something good luck! i believe in u💓
god i hate presenting, how DO U DO IT actually just do it for me.. o ya i heard abt the forehead trick,, ive never really made eye contact during presentations but ill try lookin at peoples foreheads tmrw LOL thank you!
kpoptive said:To make people pay attention to the end say that there is a kahoot at the end
idk why this made me laugh so hard jfskd honestly ill feel better if no one pays attention 
sol-a-ce said:OKAY one of the best things for presentations is practice, bc if you know what youre talking about youll naturally be less nervous. Another thing is to make sure you breathe while speaking and take pauses, as when ppl are nervous they tend to talk faster. good luck!!
o u bet im gonna practice and im gonna time myself so i dont go under or over time bc thatll deduct points :-) thank you for the tips!
Anonymous said:i had a presentation for my final yesterday too and i was so nervous!! first try practicing what you’re gonna say in ur head then do it aloud n stop whenever u mess up. Then repeat ur whole presentation about 3 more times. Before you present drink lots of water and eat some mints. Tbh the moment i started presenting i sort of forgot that i was nervous bc i was focusing on making sure to hit all my points. I ended up talking over 10 min so the time actually passes rlly fast. Good luck tmrw!!
ah thats good that u stopped being nervous!! god i really hope the 10 mins passes by quick ill remember to drink water n eat mints n practice tonight! thank you for the advice :-)
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something random part dos
41. what’s the last book you remember really, really loving? - we used to be kings by stewart foster
42. do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it. - i haven’t been there super often but i think kith cafe is really nice and pretty i just generally enjoy the food and atmosphere even though it’s more on the pricey side
43. who was the last person you gazed at the stars with? - don’t really remember tbvh maybe i should do it sometime again soon that’d be nice
44. when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything? - it has? honestly been so long since i felt completely serene and at peace. makes me wanna cry thinking abt it lol
45. do you trust your instincts a lot? - yes, because they tend to be quite right most of the time 
46. tell us the worst pun you can think of. - i can’t think of one now surprisingly omg 
47. what food do you think should be banned from the universe? - turtle blood and like,, that thing where the bird is in the egg 
48. what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today? - being unwanted by everyone, i think i still have this fear tbvh 
49. do you like buying cds and records? what was the last one you bought? - yes!!! i recently bought bts’ first dvd and album + a local band’s album!!
50. what’s an odd thing you collect? - movie tickets? i don’t think that’s very odd but like it’s something i guess
51. think of a person. what song do you associate with them? - jojo by shinee
52. what are you favorite memes of the year so far? - was the spongebob cavemen one this year bcos that was p funny tbvh
53. have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them? - i’ve only watched pulp fiction but i love it!! i’ll prob watch the others soon as well
54. who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face? - my face in the mirror lol rip but nah my friend earlier :>(
55. what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point? - i can’t remember omg i don’t know lol
56. what are some things you find endearing in people? - smiles! especially when it’s at someone they really love and their face literally changes and become so soft it’s so nice
57. go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics? - not rlly in the mood tbvh
58. who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why? - xin’s the wine mom, emi’s the vodka aunt LOLOLOL
59. what’s your favorite myth? - true love
60. do you like poetry? what are some of your faves? i liked some local ones recently?? and like my ult faves are prob the ones in i wrote this for you but poetry’s nice i feel
61. what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received? - underwear shaped pencil case! a badge that says i love to shit HAHAHA
62. do you drink juice in the morning? which kind? - nooop
63. are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be? - not at all tbvh, feel like if i had my own house everything would be stacked up here and there 
64. what color is the sky where you are right now? - dark
65. is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with? - yes but like it’s hard when things suddenly stop 
66. what would your ideal flower crown look like? - something small and cute tbvh like baby’s breathe and all that soft shit
67. how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel? - good
68. what’s winter like where you live? - hot
69. what are your favorite board games? - monopoly? maybe even scrabble bcos like my family used to play it into the wee hours of the night tgt. i don’t rlly know what’s happened
70. have you ever used an ouija board? - nooop, i’m a boogara i don’t fuck with the supernatural
71. what’s your favorite kind of tea? - i generally like milk tea! 
72. are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it? - yes, i am a lover of lists
73. what are some of your worst habits? - overthinking, keeping shit to myself, crying a lot 
74. describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns. - black hair, contacts, bangs, wears black a lot, cute smile
75. tell us about your pets! - i used to have a pet rabbit and i now have a cute mean cat called tobi who’s rlly dumb but also rlly smart??? and who also hates me
76. is there anything you should be doing now but aren’t? - yes but i’m doing this instead
77. pink or yellow lemonade? - isn’t it the same
78. are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? - hateclub
79. what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you? - my friends who posted bright post it notes all over my desk and chairs to cheer me up when i was feeling extra down it was so nice?? of them???
80. what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why? - white and pink. i think my sister chose it
81. describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of. - like hot chocolate on a cold night
82. are/were you good in school? - i was always just okay
83. what’s some of your favorite album art? - i think one of my fave is m1ldl1fe’s album art tbvh! and a few more but i have shite memory so
84. are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones? - punpun!!!!! and matching tattoos with my babs
85. do you read comics? what are your faves? - my faves are manga lol! i especially like horror and seinen genres
86. do you like concept albums? which ones? - what are concept albums omg
87. what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives? - not rlly movie person?? but i rlly like! nightmare before christmas it’s a big fave tbh
88. are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoyed? - not particularly! 
89. are you close to your parents? - i don’t know
90. talk about one of your favorite cities. - i want to have a fave city apart from singapore but i can’t say for sure lol 
91. where do you plan on traveling this year? - no where! but hopefully bali/korea next year
92. are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch? - DROWN
93. what’s the hairstyle you wear the most? - natural bcos i’m a lazy pos
94. who was the last person you know to have a birthday? - my gl 
95. what are your plans for this weekend? - afa! and chill 
96. do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot? - i like procrastinating 
97. myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? - ENTP, aquarius, ravenclaw
98. when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it? - a rlly long time back with my family! the monkeys were terrifying but it was fun!
99. list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them. - currently remember me (lullaby) has been hitting me in the feels
100. if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?
- 5 years into the past, just so i can change my decisions and see where i end up in the present
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okay for the hcs thing: the dragonets of destiny, ruby and nan, all of the ib squad, and uhhhthe pmmm cast if u want?? :3c
NICE ty babe!!!!!!!!
send me a character and i’ll answer!
(note: im kin w glory, mary, madoka, sayaka, and mami so this might be a lot of kin-based shIT SDFHSDKLF)
CLAY
A: what I think realistically
he is Boft (buff and soft) and also Lorg and if u are his friend and cold just tell him and he will drape his fuckin wing around u and curl up with you. he has at least 3 dragons cuddling with him when he sleeps
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
hes super bad at predicting jokes so he’ll fuckin CRACK UP at the worst fuckin joke u tell. he’ll also eat ANYTHING on a dare. even dirt or a handful of pebbles, thanks GLORY
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
hes actually got mental health shit goin on (depression/anxiety/prob ptsd/prob a pd) but he thinks he Has to be strong for the other dragonets bc theyre all fucked right up and he needs to be the strong support so he feels like he really Cant let himself break down at all, and it causes a Lot of pent-up sadness/anxiety/etc which he has No way of getting out
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
clay is aro/ace and in a qpp with all the dragonets. let him be not het?
TSUNAMI
A: what I think realistically
tsunami is fuckening BUFF as HELL. like. she can kick ur ass ur friends ass ur moms ass her OWN ass she doesnt care shes SUPER buff she will kick everyone in the THROAT she is FIERCE and PROTECTIVE and STRONG
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
when darkstalker first busted out of the mountain (like a nut) she straight-up decked him in the snout. just fucken. P U N C H
it hurt her claws and she almost cried but tried to play it off as “im crying out of my own coolness”
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
shes always felt like glory hates her bc of how snarky and rude they are and like?? they logically know they dont but like. what if and she cant just ask them bc thatd be rude and glory would probably make a joke out of it, so shes stuck believing one of her supposed best friends secretly hates her and she doesnt know how to deal
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
SHES BI AS HELL let tsunami be bi and trans and have a gf…….
GLORY
A: what I think realistically
theyre used to not eating a lot and kinda always being hungry bc yknow no sunlight in the caves but they assumed it was like? normal? and being in the sun was like……. holy shit im finally Full…….. and they dont actually eat a lot but when they do its usually fruits bc they dont actually like meat all that much
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
they can do spot-on impressions of SO many dragons, including but not limited to: the guardians, the other dragonets, fatespeaker, queen coral, riptide, morrowseer, and probably more and they love being able to say “im a pretty princess” while sounding almost exactly like kestrel
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
theyre rlly rlly good at hiding bc they HAD to be when the guardians got Pissed, so now when anyone is Vaguely mad at them they manage to find a way to hide and its near-impossible to find them, which has pppprob scared the other dragonets mny times
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
glory is genderfluid and gay and whom the Fuck is deathbringer?
STARFLIGHT
A: what I think realistically
he has some p bad anxiety so his Counting/Observing Things thing is a comfort mechanism of sorts that hes always really done. in the caves all he had to observe was rocks, torches, and scrolls but once he got Out he had so much that it was overwhelming. hes rlly good at describing things in writing due to this
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
hes always been SUPER clumsy so now that hes blind hes kind of just. tripping on everything. he fell off the side of a cave once at the academy and screamed and waited for death until he remembered that he is a dragon who can fly
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
abt the observing thing: now that hes blind, he cant do that, and it was his main comfort mechanism. so now during anxiety attacks, he has a rlly hard time calming down bc he cant just start observing whats around him, it doesnt WORK like that
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
HES ARO AND GAY AND IN A QPP WITH FATESPEAKER AND ALSO THE DRAGONETS FUCK YOU
SUNNY
A: what I think realistically
she has adhd!!! she has adhd-ph so shes always fidgeting/bouncing around/flying to try and get her energy out. clay, tsunami, and glory also have adhd and try to help her out whenever they can!! she loves to bake, but it takes a LOT of waiting, so its kinda hard on her
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
she can be REALLY FUCKING LOUD when she wants to be, which NOBODY expects. normally she uses it for singing, or to startle people. she likes to be Loud while imitating kestrel, marching around and looking all Serious
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
shes always felt Really ignored and, esp for someone who pprob has dpd traits, its rlly heartbreaking bc like. she doesnt feel wanted and she doesnt feel like she gets any attention and shes just!!!!!!! aaaagh
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
shes aroace and in a qpp w fatespeaker heck you
RUBY
A: what I think realistically
she was prob legally blind but not Fully blind before the glen, but she was admitted bc her sight was getting progressively worse and she couldnt continue to be an electrician, her job
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
“hey tom remember that time i fucken stabbed u” “lol remember that time u pushed stitches off a balcony, killing him instantly”
“tom if u dont shut up this second about furries i will stab u again” “…….nya” “im gettin my fucken knife tom”
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
she lives w a lot of guilt over killing tom and regularly has nightmares abt it, and even tho he assures her everything is fine she still regrets it so much but doesnt know how to make it Right in her mind
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
SHES BI AND AGENDER AND HER TOM AND JAY ARE POLY
NAN
A: what I think realistically
shes always been Super chubby, and she generates a llot of heat both bc Fur and bc Chub, so when her friends get Cold all u have to do is snuggle up next to her and ur instantly rlly warm now
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
kim teaches her how to dab and calls it a symbol of respect, and so whenever nan meets someone she rlly respects she just dabs as kim cracks up
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
she keeps a journal bc her memory is Shit but shes still constantly worried that shes writing it wrong, esp bc shes usually dissociating enough that she cant remember what happened, and sometimes its bad enough to warrent a breakdown/panic attack
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
look shes aro/pan/genderfluid i dont make the rules. also shes autistic
IB
A: what I think realistically
they know a little bit of asl bc theyre mute, and they carry around a notebook to write in when they cant sign. bc of this, they have rlly good handwriting and are also p good at miming stuff when they need to
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
they accidentally learned how to swear in asl, so whenever garry sees them doing so and doesnt know what it means (and then asks) he almost starts crying when they calmly show him the word “fuck” written in their notebook
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
they have rlly bad nightmares and is ppprob misdiagnosed due to ppl thinking the gallery Wasnt Real, doesnt get proper help, and lives w guilt over what happened and has NO clue how to cope
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
look. theyre nb and pan. im not saying this is a hc im saying this is canon. theyre not cishet
GARRY
A: what I think realistically
hes pprob around?? late 20s-early 30s, so its kiiiinda awkward maintaining contact w ib at first, but then he becomes a Family Friend and babysits so its all chill
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
hes PETRIFIED of spiders and the one time he tried to be brave and take one outside for ib he screamed, dropped it, and nearly cried.
ib is capable of disposing of spiders in the way garry prefers (domnt kill them) and does so calmly as garry sits on the counter and screams
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
he feels rlly guilty after the gallery and has NO idea how to cope, so he ends up drinking a bbbbit too much and hes also not rlly able to help ib, which makes him MORE guilty, and its kinda just a spiral of depression
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
hes trans and also adopts ib and mary and theyre a happy family
MARY
A: what I think realistically
she has NO CLUE what most things taste like, but someone let her try a cherry cough drop once, and now she just rlly wants to eat that fake cherry flavor again
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
she knows how to say various swear words and looked garry in the eyes and said “FUCK!!!” once and he nearly started sobbing on the spot
also she doesnt know much abt numbers and thinks that since shes 9 and garrys 20-30 and 2-3 are less than 9, shes older than him and In Charge
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
she died in pain and thinking her only friend hated her, feeling deeply betrayed :’)
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
GARRY ADOPTS HER AND IB AND THEYRE A FAMILY also shes a lesbian
MADOKA
A: what I think realistically
shes rlly good at drawin!!!! she doodles a lot in class to help her focus, plus she just rlly likes to draw, so she ends up bein rlly talented!!! she esp likes to draw her friends bc like. why not???
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
everyone expects her to be terrified of bugs and sayaka to be the brave one killing them when in reality its sayaka sprinting away as madoka calmly takes it outside and goes “dont worry its okay!!!!! :D”
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
she feels rlly inferior to everyone and, along with being shy, thinks shes honestly useless to a team. its not that she hates herself, its that she thinks shes rlly boring and doesnt have much going for her, and she has no clue how to help or communicate this
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
she and sayaka are DATING theyre GFS also madoka has dpd
SAYAKA
A: what I think realistically
shes mega bi. shes bi. she is just. bi. her first crush was wonder woman and she prob liked hitomi at one point. shes the one friend who gets crushes on EVERYONE, and i mean everyone
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
when she gets bored, she makes up random stories in her head and narrates whats going on in the lives of passerby, and now she has a huge elaborate universe thats like a soap opera in her head. she has a theme song and everything
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
she has bpd but no clue what that IS or how to COPE, so being a magical girl was ppprob a rlly bad idea due to the lows bpd comes with, esp since she based her wish on a person/fp. so she was?? p much destined to fall into despair, even if it wasnt over kyousuke
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
SHES!!!!!!! DATING!!!!!!!! MADOKA!!!!!!!
MAMI
A: what I think realistically
shes a rlly organized person so mess just Ticks her Off, and she spends most of her time just making sure everything is clean. its kinda a comfort mechanism at this point??? like it just makes her feel better
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
shes constantly trying 2 pick up on the current slang and be Cool w the Kiddos these days but shes always at least 3 steps behind
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
she has dpd but since she lost her parents and kyoko abandoned her, shes had nobody to depend on, which kinda sucks? bc like. shes constantly second-guessing herself and has no clue what shes doing and feels so alone
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
shes trans gay and dating kyoko
KYOKO
A: what I think realistically
shes SUPER good at sneaking around/stealing things and lvoes to startle/prank her friends w this bc like??? oh shit sayaka is ur phone missing who couldve took it, oh look madoka got a text from u wonder who sent it
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
she once ate an entire bowl of sugar on a dare from sayaka and got the WORST stomach ache for a day and half, but claimed it was worth it
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
shes always been rlly underweight and manages to steal food Sometimes, but has probably been caught and hurt for doing so
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
A LESBIAN DATING MAMI
HOMURA
A: what I think realistically
shes RLLY talented in a lot of areas due to the many timelines, but shes never rlly grasped the arts?? ie drawing, writing etc, and she has NO clue how madoka does it, what the hell
B: what I think is fucking hilarious
its RLLY hard to make her laugh but she can and WILL crack up if you look her in the eyes and say “egg”
on a similar, note, she once said “i want kyoko to vore me real good” completely straight-faced, deadpan
C: what is heart-crushing and awful but fun to inflict on friends
she has a LOT of trauma she could never rlly talk abt w anyone, esp a therapist, due to the timelines so shes rlly not coping at all in the slightest
D: what would never work with canon but the canon is shit so I believe it anyway
shes GAY and prob dating hitomi
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