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sunless-not-sinless · 2 months

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spectral partitioning

i need to do a presentation on spectral partitioning for uni so here we go! an explanation on this graph partitioning algorithm here so i dont forget shit (i will not be looking at random walks)

under the cut theres gonna be maths. a lot of it so if u dont want that then dont look there. and theres no LaTeX or mathjax here so its ugly.

also i assume you know what graphs and eigen-shit are

i will assume our graph is a simple undirected graph.

the core idea of spectral partitioning is minimising the cut size - the sum of weights of the edges between two communities.

so if we have a graph that looks like this

(made on https://csacademy.com/app/graph_editor/)

and we try to cut it into 2 groups, (by inspection) the minimum number of edges we have to cut through is 2, between nodes 3-6 and 4-5. so the minimum cut size is 2. and if we cut through those nodes we get 2 communities.

ill let you convince yourself that minimising the cut will lead to communities that arent very related to each other.

but how do we find this minimum cut? if we try to brute force it then you first separate nodes into one of 2 groups, then sum the weights of edges between nodes in these 2 groups. this is slow - O(2^n) where n is number of nodes in the graph - and it cant be improved (its an np-hard problem).

so instead of optimising that mess we will try to approximate it. sure our approximations might not find the actual minimum cut size but itll be good enough.

now to try to approximate this we need to find a nicer way of writing the cut size of some partition.

let A be the set of nodes in one group of the partition, and Ac its complement (the other group of the partition)

also let A=(w_ij) be a matrix where w_ij is the weight of the edge between nodes i and j (this is called the adjacency matrix, hence the A). and D be the diagonal matrix of "degrees" (actually sum of weights of all adjacent edges, but lets just call it the degree) of nodes.

finally let x be the indicator vector where x_i = 1 if i is in A, else -1. and 1 be the vector of just 1s if i use 1 where you would expect a vector (polymorphism? in my maths? more likely than you think)

and the transpose will be denoted ^T as usual

now to get the cut size, its the sum of edges between A and Ac. so thats ((1+x)/2)^T A ((1-x)/2)

you can probably see the halves are annoying, so lets find 4 * the cut size. so thats (1+x)^T A (1-x)

but this +x -x is a bit weird. it would be better if they were the same sign. so how do we do that?

the sum of weights of edges between the parts of the partition is the same as the all the sum of degrees of nodes minus the sum of weights of nodes within the same group. so we can rewrite this as (1+x)^T D (1+x) - (1+x)^T A (1+x) = (1+x)^T (D-A) (1+x)

now let L = D-A. this is called the laplacian of the graph and it has a few nice properties. first the row/column sums are 0 (you add the "degree" then take away all the weights). second its quadratic form v^T L v = ½ Σ w_ij (v_i - v_j)². importantly this means its positive semi-definite. third its symmetric. importantly this means that it has an orthonormal eigenbasis.[1]

now because its row/column sums are 0 you can write 4 * cut size as (1+x)^T L (1+x) = x^T L x. and so this is what we want to minimise.

now like i said minimising this is np-hard, but we can ignore the fact that x_i = ±1, and instead consider it on all vectors s, then just look at the sign of the entry.

just two issues with this. one: what if theres a 0? well you can lob it in either group of the partition. two: (ks)^T L (ks) = k² x^T L x. so any minimum we find, we can just halve each value of the vector or smth and get a smaller min. for this we can simply consider vectors s.t. ||s||=1.

now we can write s in orthonormal eigenbase to get that s^T L s is a weighted average of the eigenvectors of L. so the minimisation of this is the smallest eigenvalue of L. but because the row/column sums are 0, this eig val is 0 with eig vec being the vector of ones. if you think of this in terms of graphs this makes sense - to minimise the cut you put everything in one bucket and nothing in the other and so theres no edges to cut!

now lets assume a good partition will cut it roughly in half. we can think of this as the number of nodes in one half of the partition. in other words 1^T x ≈ 0. so lets add the constraint that 1^T s = 0.

this means s is orthogonal to 1 - our smallest eigenvector. so in our weighted average, we cannot have any weight for out smallest eigenvalue, and so our second smallest eigenvalue is the smallest and we can approximate the minimum cut size by looking at the signs of the second smallest eigenvector!

and that is the idea behind spectral partitioning! now you can normalise the cut in some way. e.g.

with their associated minimisations being shown below

then you get good algs for separating images into blocks of focus

(sorry for no IDs for these)

and there we go! thats spectral partitioning!

[1] you can use gram schmidt to get an orthogonal basis of an eigen space, so all we need to show is that eig vecs with diff eig vals are orthogonal.

therefore any eig basis of symm (or hermitian) matrix is orthogonal.

the fact that an eigenbase even bloody exists is beyond this tumblr post, but is called the spectral theorem - and is where the name spectral partitioning comes from

#maths #i speak i ramble #graph partitioning #graph theory #math #mathblr #effortpost #oi terezi! heres where the orthonormal eigenbasis i kept on getting annoyed at is from!

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btsqualityy · 5 months

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1. The Jungs-Flaws and All. It goes without explanation but honestly Mama Jung always feels insecure about not being more “soft” and is just in awe of Hobi’s live for her and how much he accepts her for who she is.

2. The Parks- All up in your mind. Dont have as much of a detailed explanation. But it just reminded me about the beginning of their relationship. Not to mention she says “put me first is what you need…” we know them two quickly became obsessed with each other and fell fast.

3. The Jeons-Virgos Groove not even cause Jungkook is a virgo but because they can never stop fucking and even though the song is about sex it touches more on the intimate between them. Their sex isnt always rough or wild. Like when he comes from tour or a hectic schedule I like to think the connect and have that deep Imma stare you in the eyes sex and make you feel my love type of sex.

4. The Mins- Plastic off the Sofa, If anyone looks this up and thinks anything but The Mins, they are insane.

5. The Kim Taehyungs- this was hard cause I nothing on renaissance really captures them and Im not a big ballad person even if it is Beyonce, so I figured they’d be EXO because Mama Tae is a gentle soul and I know she’d be a little more reserved in her declarations of love.

6. The Kim NJ’s , listen, Namjoon gets so much shit from anti’s and I know at the end of somedays he is exhausted and wants to rest and the very first lyric is “cone take my hand, I wont let you go” and talks about being friends and in love. He’s so busy taking care of BTS and Mama Joon knows this and thats her Man and her best friend and she will protect him with everything she has till the end of time.

7. The Kim SJ’s- yeah, I have no clue. What do you think?

I think your choices are spot on! For the Kim seokjins, I’d say Halo!

#btsqualityy asks

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medieval-canadian · 6 years

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tfw ur mom gets angrily passive-aggressive at u for not letting her finish answering ur question

but u never actually asked a question

#whine whine complain complain #personal #she was at an appt this aft and i didnt know what time she would be back #my dad is also away and idk when he'll be back #so i called her like 5 mins before she got home and got her voicemail #so i said call me back when u have a minute just checking in and do u want me to start dinner #and then she walks in the door #and im like #oh hey i just called you!#so she goes yeah my courtesy car doesnt have bluetooth #why #and so i told her i was starting to wonder if everything was ok #and she like gets annoyed and starts to explain in detail #so i did interrupt her to be like i dont need an explanation i was just checking in #and shes like #when someone asks me a question i try to answer it #*hands up backs away*#and then she starts slamming shit #lovely

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indomies · 3 years

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#showyourprocess

From planning to posting, share your process for making creative content!

To continue supporting content makers, this tag game is meant to show the entire process of making creative content: this can be for any creation.

RULES — When your work is tagged, show the process of its creation from planning to posting, then tag up to 5 people with a specific link to one of their creative works you’d like to see the process of. Use the tag #showyourprocess so we can find yours!

sabrina @lanwangiji, my love, tagged me to share my process of making this typography edit! check out her explanation of her the untamed edit and her edit tag.

1. PLANNING

i once opened lyrics edit requests so i can learn and practice typography. this edit was a request as well. i asked them which lyrics they wanted to have and the colors they’d like. since i got several requests and it was hard to keep tabs on them, i made a trello board so i could organize everything. i’m still using the trello board for every edit idea i have, the board makes my life easier.

above is what i filled the card in the board with. basically just information of the requests.

1.1 INSPIRATION

once i got the request, my first thought was to find the vibe the song/lyrics exude. “it’s an old curse” screamed witchy vibes to me, so i went to pinterest to find some inspirations. at first i was looking for witchy poster designs and i came across this. i liked how it has smoke-ish graphic and i thought the smoke suited the “old curse” lyrics. and tbh pinterest is a rabbit hole, they gave me suggestions after suggestions, like this and this which became my inspiration for the color palette (i added the gold from those pics) and the sun moon design gave me the idea to incorporate space stuffs too. i somehow landed on this too, and because i wanted to include space theme, i made a simple phases of the moon. ultimately the hero of this edit was the lyrics, i didnt want the graphics took the center stage. i was inspired to make a crystal ball and do this kind of typography but after several trials i couldnt get the the typography right, so i scratched that idea and went with the space theme instead.

1.2 PICKING COLORS

after i was feeling inspired enough, i went looking for the right colors. i usually just type “color name” and “palette” on pinterest. example “dark grey color palette” and i chose the one i liked best. when the request only asked for 1 color, i always searched for either a complimentary or contrasting color to give it a jushz, to add sprinkles. that’s why i added gold on top of the dark grey.

1.3 FINDING FONTS

this is the hardest part. the fonts play important role to the design. they need to convey the vibes of the lyrics, in this case witchy/magic vibe. i needed to find fonts or font just as magical and a bit whimsical. tho i hoard fonts... i like to use new font for every typography edit lmao sue me.

i highly recommend going to creativemarket free goods site, pixelsurplus font freebies and behance to search for fonts. i always use 100% free fonts, that means i can use it personally as well as commercially. creativemarket gives me desktop license for the fonts, which means i can use it for commercial as well. the reason i do this because i want to open an etsy shop someday, and i want to have the right license when i sell my stuffs. i almost never buy fonts bc they are expensive lmao.

the fonts in used are “Vintage” for the main typograpy (i think i was a freebie from creativemarket) and “Morganite” for the title of the lyrics and the name of artist.

2. CREATING

once i have my materials and ideas, i open my illustrator and hope it doesnt crash every 5 min.

for this kind of typography edits, i use 600x700 px. tbh i dont like using 540px, the suggested tumblr size, as the width bc to me it doesn’t look as good in quality, so i up the px. but more on this sizing later. i utilize the artboards function in illustrator, and i use 2 artboards.

i use illustrator (ai) bc i’m working with vectors. when i work with vectors, the graphics/texts or whatever im making in ai wont become blurry or lose its quality when i enlarge or shrink it. in compare to photoshop, i need to make for example the moon graphic very big, so i wont lose the quality when i reduce and enlarge it again. with vector, i can start small and when i expand it, it’s still as good as when it’s tiny.

2.1 GRADIENTS

i started with the gradients first. i created a rectangle as big as 600x700px and with the “freeform gradient” tool in ai, i played with the colors. below is the color palettes i used

2.2 LYRICS AND GRAPHICS

once the gradients are done, i worked with the lyrics and graphics right away. when i first doing this edits, i made typos a lot lmaooooooo. so i copy and pasted the lyrics on top of my artboard, so i wouldnt have any typos.

i had 3 layers in my ai. one for the inspo pics and the OG lyrics. the rest for the edits themselves. i broke up “It's an old curse/dreamers diving headfirst” into to parts, hence the 2 more layers

i almost always started with the lyrics first then the graphics. but for this edit, i made the smoke first so i can layout where my text would be.

tbh the process of making the lyrics is a trial and error. i tried bunch of different stuffs and i chose whatever the best. but i worked like methodically, i made sure i finished the first part of the lyrics first then i could move on.

i was lucky with this font “vintage”. the font offers me several glyphs like these

and i chose the one at the bottom. you’re very lucky if you find a font and they have glyphs.

excursion: glyphs vs fonts

glyph is an individual character. It might be a letter, an accented letter, a ligature, a punctuation mark, a dingbat, etc.

A font is a digital file which is used to display a typeface, which contains the entire upper- and lowercase alphabet as well as punctuation, numbers, and other special characters.

after i was finished with all the lyrics i added some graphics to make the edit pretty like small stars or dots. i added the song title and the artist too, sometimes at the bottom sometimes at the top. and i added my watermark put it as small as i could and made it a bit invisible but still can be seen.

2.3 EXPORTING

exporting! this is where i’m going to go deeper with the dimension of my work. in ai, i always choose to save with “export as screens” function. it automatically divides the artboards i have and save them separately. i always save as png, bc the size is smaller than jpg but can maintain the quality.

now the export tab looks like this

see the formats? i always scale up my edits, 2-3 times the original artboard size. reason is, to maintain the quality. i have tried to save it as original, 600x700 px, but it turned out a bit blurry. bc everything in ai is vector, when i scale up it doesnt lose the quality. BUT once i save it as png, it’s not a vector anymore, and when you zoom in until a certain degree it’ll be pixelated. that’s why i always scale up, to avoid it becoming pixelated when it’s just zoomed 1 or 2 times.

2.4 FINAL TOUCH

i opened my photoshop and also pray it won’t crash. import the png of my edits, add some grains/noise. the reason i use photoshop is, the noise filter is way better than in ai. it’s smoother somehow. and then i export my edits.

(i have a timelapse of how i made one of my edits, it’s not this one, but it’ll give you a better visualization. find it HERE

3. POSTING

now the hardest parts are done, we go to posting!

i uploaded the 2 posters on tumblr as photos then i wrote the captions. for this typography edit, i always chose another lyrics that i like from the same song for the caption. i bolded the lyrics, add link to all of my typography gradient edits.

i always use this link to color my caption. i usually choose 3-4 colors, and i took the colors from my edit. but this was not until recently lmao. before i just took a guess and looked for similar colors that match the edit, but then i thought “why didnt i just use the color in the posters lmao”

ok after i have my html code for the caption, i go to this site to replace the “;” with “ “ so tumblr can read the code.

i’m not one who puts their edits in draft, bc i just cant wait to post it. i have to option here, either i post it immediately when the time is right (i usually post between 4-8) or i schedule it, if im finished before 4.

i put all the necessary tags and click post! i am done finally!

i’m tagging:

@thetriangletattoo for this amazing series

@deludedandlostcause for this impressive gif

@half-lightl for this spectacular edit

@gayndrew for this stunning drawing

@thechampagnelovers for this cool collage

@cloudslou for this incredible edit

@heyangels for this incredible edit

#bacotan belle #showyourprocess

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7nessasaryevils · 3 years

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💌 get to know me!

tagged by the darling @smasmashin (thank you 💖)

when is your birthday?

literally a couple of days after taehyung which is why i refuse to call him oppa

what is your favorite color?

to wear? dark stuff always....i just like dark colors like my soul

what’s your lucky number?

I HAVE NO CLUE BUT I KEEP SAYING 7

do you have any pets?

no but i am godmother to two silly doggos

how tall are you?

5′7″ - so yeah tall enough not to tiptoe when i need to kiss jiminie

how many pairs of shoes do you own?

uhhhhh......12? i dont fucking know...i just buy i dont check

favorite song?

i really don’t know...but i do have top faves that will never be skipped when they play in my car. one of them is definitely “everytime we touch” by cascada

favorite movie?

hollywood? the grinch...davinci code bollywood? three idiots and jab we met

what would be your ideal partner?

someone funny, always ready to laugh, smart, sweet, open minded, honest, kim namjoon, kim seokjin, min yoongi, jung hoseok, park jimin, kim taehyung, jeon jungko- oh...whoops

do you want children?

no...but im down to be the sexy indian aunt who has tequila for all

have you gotten in trouble with the law?

do tickets count??

what color socks are you wearing?

barefoot so i can feel my new carpet

bath or shower?

hot showers and warm baths always....except when i go to india....then cold showers my god yes!

favorite type of music?

anything with a good beat or a good melody....can’t do metal or country though

how many pillows do you sleep with?

4...no explanation

which position do you sleep in?

on my side so i can cuddle with some of the aforementioned pillows

what don’t you like when you’re sleeping?

light on and FUCKING SPIDERS GET THE HELL OUT NOT TODAY

what do you have for breakfast?

nothing....i starve until 10 and then drink tea because then i feel functional

have you ever tried archery?

yes and i like it i feel like susan from narnia

favorite fruit?

mangoes! and pineapples

favorite swear word?

Motherfucker...classic and simple

do you have any scars?

physically yes....emotionally absolutely no- yes

are you a good liar?

yup

what’s your personality type?

an extroverted introvert...so think seokjin

what’s your favorite type of girl?

.....girl?

left or right handed?

right handed

favorite food?

MEAT AND SEAFOOD so namjoon and seokjin can double date and they can both be happy

are you clean or messy?

clean as fuck i hate getting messy

favorite foreign food?

snails

how long does it take for you to get ready?

20 minutes usually

most used phrase?

it switches...right now its “my guy”

are you a good singer?

i like to think so

do you sing to yourself?

always

biggest fear?

being alone and a disappointment

do you like long or short hair?

i’ve never had really long hair before cause i dont have to patience to grow mine out! but i love my medium length hair! just the right amount to grab- uhhh stroke nicely

are you into gossips?

sometimes...it’s bad i know

extrovert or introvert?

extrovert when i want to be

favorite school subject?

anything that didnt involve sport, math or science

what makes you nervous?

lots of things...we don’t have time to get into all of that

who was your first real crush?

this guy in abu dhabi who was thinner than me and had the cutest face...my dad called him lizard pack of bones...dont ask me why

how many piercings do you have? just my ears

how fast can you run?

not fast enough to outrun all my issues or a bear so i will most likely be the person to die first

what makes you angry?

hypocrites

do you like your own name?

i didn’t used to....now i do

what are your weaknesses?

do we have time for a presentation?....sigh okay...i don’t know when to stop after crossing a line, i’m vain, i tend to be passive aggressive when i dont get my way, i can hold a grudge and i dont trust myself or the people around me enough

what are your strengths?

i love fiercely- friends, family anyone who gets close to me and learns something personal you are now mine and i will love you

what is the color of your bedspread?

blue

color of your room?

purple

@mostmagicalunicorn @teresis anyone who sees this who wants to do it! go ahead moots let me know it all!

#this was surprisingly vulnerable #kinda fun #but also me being a dumbass

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coralstudiies · 4 years

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hello everyone! I got an ask from an anon asking for tips on time management so i decided to type this out before school starts heheh…

poor time management and procrastination, unfortunately, plague just about all of us lol. people with a short attention span (like me) and who are pretty much always on their phone (me again) and who hate scheduling are the most susceptible to these.

over the years i struggled with time management(studying the night before the exam 🤙🏼) but! these are some tips that have helped me in scheduling, avoiding procrastination and improving time management.

1. Write it down

as always, we’re starting with BEFORE the actual task. write all tasks, assignments, projects and homework, test dates down somewhere (notebook preferably so that you dont lose it. it doesn’t have to be your bujo and you do not have to start a bujo for this specific reason!!!) and write the deadlines. this is subconscious pressure to do work once you get home. also, since you can see everything, it’s easier to schedule it out later

2. Use travel time

i cannot stress this enough!!!! sorry that it appears in all my tips posts but it truly is very useful. for short commutes, review the content you’ve learnt so that when you start on your homework, you’ve already got the hang of it. ie you dont struggle to understand the chapter and be put off from finishing your work because you hate it. long commutes can be used to complete work itself. i like to place some books and a file under my worksheet while i write (if i have a seat lol) or you can take this time to plan your time in greater detail

3. Actually plan your time

you dont have to fancy it up with like, brush pens and highlighters. just do something on google sheets or excel. divide the day into appropriate blocks of time.

for me, since i use a focus timer (50+10 or 100+20, rare cases i do 120 with a long break after that) i keep my days in 1hr blocks. so i’d block in about 1hour after i reach home to chill, clean up and so on, 2hrs for homework and the remaining time can be divided by hour/2hours to complete my work. you can tweak the timings to work for you but so far this one suits me pretty well.

4. NEVER RUSH YOUR HOMEWORK AND REVISION WHEN PLANNING!!!!

i repeat, never rush. because when you give only, say, one hour to review 3 chapters and you fail to do so within that time limit, you feel demoralised and hence, will not want to work more. this is a very common issue i believe. sometimes i would rush revise and when i couldnt stick to the timelines, i’ll feel so defeated that i’ll probably binge watch youtube to cure my self-pity LOL

give yourself an ample amount of time. Assign one or two hours a day as ‘delay time’ (this was my free time) so that you can catch up on anything that unfortunately, you couldn’t finish. Assign one day of the week to be the ‘delay day’ -- anything that you cant finish the week before, do it now. this means that you can still ‘save’ your plan even if it screwed up somewhere along the way. it works wonders, believe me! i used to have ‘delay hours’ after training where i would (ahem sadly) study from 2330-0030 if i needed to. while i was tired, i always got my work done.

5. Prioritise

this one needs no explanation. i usually choose which task to start on based on a combination of deadline+importance+graded/non-graded. i start early for graded assignments because they count towards my semester’s final grade and i want to hand up the best quality work i can. find a system which works for you! note: start project work and large assignments early.

you can assign simple tasks first to start the ball rolling, and proceed with harder tasks.

alternatively, if you’re at your prime focus, start with the hardest and scale down to the simple.

6. Make good use of holidays + Wake up early

ok i used to game a LOT and go to training a LOT (still happens now lol) during holidays but i wouldnt get any of my holiday work done.

do your holiday homework first. schedule your time well, and maybe stay home and resist the urge to go out for the first 5 days. finish all your work (again, schedule well) with breaks in between.

thereafter, schedule maybe 3-5 hours a day to revise. if you’re going out with friends, i’d suggest you wake up early to study because once you come home you’re usually dead tired HAHA

so how early is early?? during my o levels study break i would wake up at 0330 (yes, for real) but i slept at 2130 every night. so thats 6 hours of sleep wew but AT LEAST i was very productive. think about it this way: waking up early to study at 0330 makes you more productive than studying till 0330. you don’t have to wake up THIS early, but preferably early enough when the sky’s still dark so that you can fit in those extra hours. DO NOT sacrifice sleep. that’s why you can see i’m still sleeping my usual amount, albeit sleeping and waking earlier.

more perks of waking up early: its quiet outside, the air is cool, your mind gets into the ‘get shit done’ mode, and if you absolutely have to use your phone to search something up, your social media probably won’t be pinging. in other words, early mornings are actually a great time to study! remember to eat something though :>

7. Remove all distractions to prevent possible procrastination

YES i know this is the dreaded one. lock your phone somewhere inconvenient and put the key outside your room. or if you don’t lock it make sure your phone is far away from you as possible. please i know how deadly your phone can get so just put it away.

if you find yourself drifting away and looking at something else, remove that.

alternatively, change up your study environment. you don’t have to go to the library or something (you can if you want to). this is as simple as studying in a different part of the house. a new environment helps to ‘prick’ my mind and help me ignore distractions. i dont know if this is scientifically proven but oh well, worth a try.

8. 2-minute rule

this is something i picked up from @studyquill! it’s pretty helpful (although i was skeptical at first). Tell yourself you’re only going to work for 2 minutes, which helps you get into the workflow. chances are you’ll get so into it (ok not in an excited but rather in a determined way) that you don’t feel like stopping.

if you’ve had a long day and after 2 mins you still don’t get any momentum, just stop and take a 15 min break. that means you’re really too tired and there’s no point in forcing yourself to complete your work.

9. Use reminders

set reminders on your phone for the tasks you need to do. for example, if you’ve planned to start work at 1500, set the reminder to ring 5 minutes before so you have time to gather all your stuff and ready yourself to do work. no excuses!!

set reminders for your breaks as well! those are equally important.

10. Reward yourself

if everything you need to do is done, give yourself a pat on the back. have you been extremely productive? great, treat yourself to your favourite drink/snack. honestly i feel like many of our brains function on the ‘reward’ system. if we reward ourselves for a job well done, we’ll be more willing to complete tasks and stay on time in the future (the brain thinks there’s a reward coming)

remember to take care of your mental health as well! this is one good way to ensure you don’t end up mentally exhausted.

Apps to help with time management

1. Tide - focus timer, meditation, beautiful and calming soundtracks (my fav!)

2. Pendo - everything in one tbh, schedule, to-do list, journal etc. (my fav too!)

3. Forest - focus timer $$$ (free alternative: flora)

4. Donut Dog - focus timer

5. Todoist - minimalist to-do list

6. Minimalist - minimalist to-do list

7. Google Calender - your entire schedule

8. Todait - smart study planner

a quick search will bring out many more! note these are all available on iOS but i’m not sure about google play. you don’t need everything to be productive. i rely only on Tide, Pendo and my iPhone calender and reminders. It’s less about having many ‘tools’ and more about how you properly and wisely utilise them to boost your productivity and manage your time.

also i don't think pendo is very well-known?? so this is how its interface looks like for 'Notes':

it's pretty, simple and clean and there are several themes to choose from! i rly like it omg HAHA (not a promo)

alright that's all! hope it helped :>

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alpacaparkaseok · 3 years

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Okk so here are my predictions, i re-read the Pact and some of the other predictions and my predictions are:

#1: that Yoongi is the one who fell first, then Jimin, then all the other members. Cuz i mean like, Yoongi brought it (the idea of Y/N going on a date with each of them) up first cuz he wanna go on date with Y/N without breaking the rules of the pact. And Jimin wanted to do that as well cuz he wants to go on a date too!

#2: baised on the draft, maybe Yoongi and Namjoon loved her first cuz they are the ones who drafted the Pact Rules and all that paper, so when they found out the other members like Y/N too, they didnt wanna let Y/N fall in love with one of the members because this member was the one who hung out more with her, bought her stuff, ect.. so they made the pact

#3: is that Hobi fell first (or hardest one of those (or both, idk)) which would explain his reaction and anger that Y/N found out, maybe he was scared that she liked another member?

#4: is that Jin fell first, cuz you are NOT GONNA TELL ME THE NOTE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE PAGE IS NOT WRITTEN BY KIM SEOKJIN (OR MADE U FEEL AS THOUGH ITS WRITTEN BY THIS MAN)! (ok well maybe u are but hmphh-) the note gave me so much Jin vibes, we all know hes childish enough to write something like that OKK!?

#5: maybe Yoongi is the least in love with Y/N?Just because, JUST BECAUSE, in regulations II, which Jin made, 1 of them is, •1 month wake-up call for Min Yoongi, and Yoongi cant possibly do a wake-up call for himself, can he? (Who am i kidding, thats Min Yoongi, he can do anything) So Jin knew that Yoongi didnt fall for her as much as the other members so he made that regulation

Okk, so imma be an anon cuz ill be so embarassed if ALL OF THEM are wrong, and no right one, but ur still gonna know who I am cuz-:

~💜

P.S: pls tag me if any of them is right, no need to tell me which one just tag me in ur answer, cuz i dont wanna miss it

OK! Here we go *cracks knuckles*

@marianeamine I’ll give you this much, one of your predictions is right. Not gonna say which one, and it has its own explanation which I’m seriously so excited to write, but yeah!!

these are all great predictions, they were super fun to read through!! lol, we’ve still got another date, so I’m excited for that and what it brings to this crazy series.

are you sure none of you have been snooping around my drafts?? some of you have had super good guesses

#~💜#b:asks #the pact:asks

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muwur · 4 years

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Hi! Can I please request hcs for Bokuto & Iwaizumi accidentally hitting their s/o in the face with a volleyball after they spiked it? This actually happened to me today after my brother hit me playing beach volleyball 😅Thanks :3

✧ hc’s ✧ for bokuto and iwaizumi

❧ gn reader

✎ 933 words

a/n: oml b i hope ur face is ok!! also hforefhc sry this took a hot min but here u go! :)

bokuto

✧ did someone say BEACH?

✧ better yet, BEACH VOLLEYBALL???

✧ “y/n?? you don’t wanna be on the same team?? 🥺🥺”

✧ “it’ll be fun to play against each other for a change! besides, i’d like to see you try and beat us 😉😉”

✧ “aKAASHI’S WITH YOU, TOO? NO FAIR--”

✧ “you still have others with you, too!”

✧ his two favorite people, pitted against him

✧ he didn’t like it one bit, until

✧ “how about we make a bet? i win, you both do whatever i want. you win, i’ll do whatever you want. tho i’ll already do anything you want, y/n” *eyebrow wiggle*

✧ you and akaashi roll your eyes look at each other for a moment with raised brows before nodding in agreement

✧ BET

✧ his team is in the lead 5-3

✧ but when your side scored another point, he knew he needed to widen the gap

✧ he concentrated so much on just hitting his next spike that he didn’t see where he was aiming

✧ THUD. “OW!”

✧ bokuto looks over to your side of the court and finds you lying on the ground with a hand on your head

✧ “Y/N?!” he asks frantically before ducking under the net and going over to you

✧ “IM SO SORRY ARE YOU OKAY BABE?!”

✧ apologizes a million times and asks someone to go call the paramedics

✧ “Y/N’S HURT SOMEONE CALL FOR H E L P”

✧ even though ur like “bro, i’m okay, i think i just got a small bump on my head”

✧ akaashi looks at it and nods, “yeah, it’s there, but it should be okay with just a little ice--”

✧ “a buMP?!?! OH NO WHAT HAVE I DONE. I NEED ICE. ICE ICE ICE”

✧ searches his surroundings frantically before spotting a juice stand and running over

✧ scares the vendor with his panicked explanation of nearly killing you with a ball (”I NEED ICE TO SAVE MY PARTNER FROM DYING UHFREJOFFE”), manages to get a bag of ice and a slushie free of charge

✧ “BABE I GOT YOU SOME ICE! DONT WORRY, I’LL NURSE YOU BACK TO HEALTH”

✧ picks you up to take you under some shade

✧ stays with you as he ices your head and coos “it’ll be okay, i promise, my love”

✧ “bokuto im fine, you worry too much” tho you found his excessive worry rather endearing

✧ everyone else just looks at him and sighs,,, at least you were okay and in attentive hands

✧ later:

✧ “sooo.... who won?” you ask the team

✧ “i mean technically my team was in the lead...” bokuto trails off

✧ tho when you glared at him he held his hands up in defense

✧ “okay babe you win what do you want”

✧ the rest is up to you and akaashi’s scheming ;)

iwaizumi

✧ you were watching your boyfriend’s team practice in the gym after school

✧ tho not an official manager yourself, you’d often help out the team by giving them water and promoting their games

✧ “iwa!” you call out to him during break

✧ he turns around to face you, his expression questioning

✧ “yeah?”

✧ “stay hydrated~” you say, offering him his water bottle

✧ smiling, he takes it from you. “well, with you around, i won’t need to worry about that”

✧ practice resumes and the team is practicing some spikes, with oikawa setting the ball

✧ you were on the other side of the court, picking up the spiked balls and throwing them back in the ball bin

✧ when it was iwa’s turn, you were making your way across the court

✧ unfortunately for you,,, his aim was just a bit off today

✧ you didn’t have time to process and react to the words “watch out!”

✧ your head had snapped towards the voice, which belonged to kunimi

✧ next thing you knew, a ball collided with your face and knocked you down onto the wooden gym floor

✧ the gym is dead silent

✧ and iwa is frozen in shock, staring at you, an “o” forming with his mouth

✧ when he hears your groan of pain, he quickly appears by your side and cradles your head off the ground

✧ “hello? y/n?? are you okay, can you hear me?? how many fingers am i holding up??”

✧ blinking a few times, you squint and look at his outstretched fingers

✧ “uhh, 3?”

✧ he lets out a big, exasperated sigh and pulls you into a tight hug

✧ he buries his head in your shoulder and apologizes. “i’m so sorry i wasn’t being careful and i hurt you. i promise it’ll never happen again”

✧ the rest of the team comes up to you in worry

✧ and they’re all relieved you’re okay

✧ mattsun also sighs, “i’m both relieved and surprised at how well you took that straight in the face, y/n”

✧ until your nose starts bleeding

✧ and they panic

✧ “iwa-chan, y/N’S BLEEDING”

✧ the coach asks iwa to take you to the nurse

✧ and you insist you can walk on your own but poor iwa is extra worried and feels guilty so he carries you to the nurse

✧ which felt both amazing and slightly embarrassing since other students gave you both interested looks

✧ once you were done at the nurses, you walked back to the gym hand in hand

✧ “i’m really sorry again, y/n”

✧ “iwa, i told you it’s okay. besides, it was an accident”

✧ “it just hurts me to hurt you”

✧ pouting, you stop walking and gently take his face in your hands

✧ “how about you kiss my boo boos away?”

✧ “i can do that”

#haikyuu x reader #haikyuu imagines #bokuto x reader #iwaizumi x reader #bokuto koutarou x reader #iwaizumi haijime x reader #Bokuto Koutarou #iwaizumi hajime #requests #PLS KISS MY BOO BOOS #haikyuu headcanons #haikyuu reader insert

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randomoranges · 4 years

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pet peeve of the ‘mo on ppl going on about omg cant believe my teacher wouldnt let me go to the bathroom when i wanted to when i was in school

buckle in my friend we’re going on a motherfucking rant bcs im sick and tired of ppl going hurr durr all my teachers hated me always theyre terrible lololol

you dont get it. do you. its not bcs we want you to pee your pants but lemme s'plain cause apparently you can’t project and see the other side of the situation.

if im explaining the Big New Important Lesson of idk - how to add big numbers and you go to the bathroom, you miss the explanation. then when you return, you have no fucking idea how to do the work. so igotta 1-1 explain to you. and then meanwhile other kids cant ask me questions. promise ill let you go after when im done explaining the lesson/project/what the fuck it is you gotta do.

2) if i already have 2 kids out to the washroom/drink water yall might decide to have a bathroom party so it allows me to control the flow of traffic to some extent

3) in relation to above, i need to fucking know where the fuck yall are at all times. if i send out 8 kids to the washroom at the same time and then theres a fire drill i gotta remember on the spot where the fuck yall are

4) sometimes youre a little shit who keeps askign to go pee to go bother other classes

5) sometiems youre a little shit who keeps asking to go pee err 10 mins cause you dont wanna be in class and re i gotta know where yall are at all times

6) i will agree that there are schools/teachers who are like, no bathroom break is only when its recess/lunch whatever and thats fucked up bcs no one has that much control on their bladders (but teachers cant fucking go to the washroom whenever HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. HOW DO YOU LIKE THAT BUDDY but anyways)

and hoenstly fuck those schools and teachers

but in 99% of CASES ITS NOT CAUSE WE DONT WANT YOU TO GO TO THE BATHROOMS ITS FOR ALL THE FUCKING REASONS ABOVE

also hall passes? ITS SO OTHER PPL KNOW YOURE NOT JUST WILLY NILLY WALKING THE CORRIDORS AND RAN OUT OF YOUR FUCKING CLASSROOM. SO IF ANOTHER TEACHER SEES YOU THEY DONT GO "SHIT DO WE HAVE A RUN AWAY KID??? DO I NEED TO ADVISE PEOPLE?!"

christ.

also ESP now in the STATES with so many active shooter drills and shit

like if im a teacher im like a mamma duck. i want all my ducklings WITH ME. if yall are all at the washroom at the same time i CANNOT protect YOU

whereas if theres 1-2 of you out of class i will worry for LESS people

also also you ask then your buddy asks then your other buddy asks yeah ok how fucking stupid am i

i mean ye somtimes yall gotta go but like so many times its just to goof off together in these cases like

also reason why you can go willy nilly in college/uni??? bcs errone is on a diff schedule not like in grade school n hs where all the students are 99.9999% on the same sched where classes start and end at the same time. there are also random people in the university who arent even students walking through or ppl who dont have classes on that day going to use the labs and libraries and ppl working there and such.

also at that point youre a fucking adult who tech knows that just skipping out on class aint for the best and also youre more responsible so if you do gotta bounce or want to youll know how to go about finding out what you missed in class. like i wish ppl stopped going on about that everyone in a fucking school is out to get them and make their lives a sad sack like im not saying there arent bad teachers or terrible ones but fucking christ were all fucking humans and well def get it wrong just LIKE YOU WILL god we havent been put into your specific school to make your life hell and im sorry if you had a bad time about it and you had issues or whatnot but can you imagine if you were up there performing and err 2 mins someone was like can i go to the bathroom just as you were getting to your punchline or something?

like and ALSo obvs if its a fucking do or die i will actually pee my pants RIGHT NOW of course well let you go christ. no one wants to deal with pee in their class.

end rant.

#and now a rant #school #teaching #yo ho yo ho a teacher's life for me #teacher #teacher problems

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xxconclusione-aperioxx · 4 years

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Okay so I'd like to share what I commented on this video. I watched it and it sent me into a whole rant about the motives and characterization of Draco. I recommend watching before reading this:

@quinncurio is the original poster

Here's the copy paste of my comment/ Essay. I was slight heated when I wrote this, but my points still stand.

"OH BOY. HI, HELLO I VERY MUCH DISAGREE. ALSO: DISCLAIMER: DONT TAKE THINGS PERSONALLY, YOU WILL FIND I HAVE A VERY LOGICAL EXPLANATION, FOR WHY THIS ANALYSIS DOESN'T WORK.

Calling a Draco a cowardly bigoted bully, and a carbon copy of Dudley is the most SHALLOW and LOW EFFORT CONCLUSION YOU COULD POSSIBLY DRAW. IT IS LOW HANGING FRUIT. I'm going to have to break this into sections to truly explain why your conclusion is soooo incredibly shallow. You may have done your research, but I feel like you learned nothing more about Draco then if you'd never seen more then 5 min. So I'm going to start the same way you have and break this down into the same points.

PART 1 : AN ANALYSIS OF HARRY MEETING DRACO

I'm not going to go into detail of Harry's impression or ideas of Draco, because this analysis is about Draco, Not Harry. Also remember the books were written from Harry's POV, not a neutral party. I'm not obliged to Harry's opinions, just facts. Which brings up the first true conclusion about Draco's character. *Draco Malfoy feels a strong need to impress others, to gain their affection.* He does this through incisive bragging, trying to make people believe he knows best, and tearing down the reputation of others, so the object of his desires sees Draco and the most obvious choice. Where we differ is:

You believe Draco does this, because he thinks, he's better then others.

I believe,(which circumstantially has more evidence), Draco does this because he wants the affection, and acceptance of others

Whether you believe he acts out this way bc of how he is raised, his privilege, or something else, it doesn't change the fact that Draco was truly trying to make a friend, perhaps the only way he knew how.

In noble wizarding society, traditions, and your family does mean a lot. Not even looking at it from a pureblood view, imagine having a family that old and known. They really are a type of nobility, with family Lords even having political seats in the Wizengamote just because of their family name. The Longbottoms and Weaselys hold this same political influence, and it's not tied to Slytherins, pureblood ideals or anything like that. Draco is an only child, and an heir to his family line, so he is going to be treated importantly bc of that. He is raised with that responsibility, and in social situations not only represents himself, but the whole heritage of his family. Draco hasn't had the ability to act like a normal petulant child (part of the reason he tends to act out at Hogwarts.*ie. away from home*). He's been taught to act proper, make good allies, and impress others for the good of his reputation. I'd say most noble wizarding children probably get the same training and lectures, and have their own customs and culture of educate. What may come for Draco as polite, and diplomatic, may sound rude or arrogant to Harry. This is because Draco was not aware how different Harry's upbringing was from his own, and has never dealt with not having enough. Perhaps if Draco knew how different and ignorant Harry was he would have felt pity, or a sense of wrongness at Harry's injustice. Though Draco is just an 11yr old boy, who's only ever had a loving family, and almost anything he wanted. It is difficult for him to relate to the lack of others. As all wizarding children, he probably grew up with the story of the boy who lived and may have even been excited when his father said he wanted them to become friends. He truely was excited to meet Harry and genuinely wanted to be friends. While yes Lucius definitely wanted Draco to befriend Harry to help lighten their family reputation, I also think that Draco, being a child, would more likely be more excited of making a famous friend. Maybe he even had some hope seeing he'd met Harry before when he saw him on the train.

Part 2 : THE DIFFERENCES BETWEEN DRACO AND DUDLEY

Draco's sense of superiority comes from his traditions and pride in his family, while Dudley's is strictly from his own greed and selfishness. Draco would't do half of the things Dudley does simply because it's incredibly unclothe, and he has better ways of getting what he wants. Dudley isn't smart enough to compare to Draco. Though Draco and Dudley might both have things handed to them, Draco is not gluttonous or greedy about it. Dudley will trash his gifts and belongings, constantly wanting more, and viewing things given to him as disposable. Draco wants things yes (like every child does) but he's proud of his possessions and cherishes them, brags about them. Dudley is an animal compared to Draco. He doesn't have the same skill, smarts or self control. Dudley is abusive, and a tyrant in his bullying. Dudley wants to see Harry hurt and bleed. He is very violent compared to Draco. While we constantly and repeatedly see Draco shy away from violence, and use more his words.

Part 3 : DRACO'S "HARASSMENT", STRATEGIES AND EVOLUTION.

Draco despite his threats and facade is Not a violent person. This is because despite all Draco's bravo, and cruel words, Draco is kind. Yes he is conflicted, but that is only more proof of his inner kindness. If he didn't feel guilty, he wouldn't feel conflicted. Which means he really doesn't want to be mean to others, but he's just acting out based on how he thinks he's supposed to feel/act, but doesn't really enjoy it. I think when you strip Draco back behind his actions, and pose, you'll find a very different person. The half-blood prince gave us some of that, but it's another thing to see it in Draco from the beginning. Essentially Draco's attempt at bullying started when Harry rejected his friendship. Draco had probably never been rejected before, and probably couldn't possibly fathom why Harry would choose anyone else over him. While yes that's a bit coincided, Draco was also incredibly sheltered and probably wasn't introduced to children who weren't already tied to his family. Harry's rejection irrevocably shattered Draco's confidence and perception, which sent him into literal years of lashing out at Harry for his hurt emotions, and pining for his attention. It is the most pathetic excuse for bullying, and Draco antagonizing Harry is the equivalent of pulling a girl's pigtails. Draco did get quite shrewd with words, but he was really just trying to get the biggest reaction, especially since Harry is so volatile at times. The truth of the matter is Draco is actually very jealous, because deep down he really admires Harry. He want's the same freedom Harry has. He doesn't want to worry about his duty or who he has to be, but to be able to live authentically the way he views that Harry does. Draco really just wants to be more like Harry, but feels he is stuck, by the Dark Lord, his family obligations or anything else. Draco isn't a bully, he's just sad. Not even Ron or Hermione take him seriously after a while. *cough*this is why Drarry is so huge*

Part 4 : He had no choice?????

Everyone has a choice, but I think you over estimate how easy a choice can be. Family is important to Draco, they are probably the only people who love him for who he is, not what they can get out of him. As a child Draco felt pride in his family, and family made him feel special and important. As he got older that pride turn into expectations, and responsibility. Lucius and Narcissa value the preservation of their family above all else. They are protective and loving and those feeling extended to Draco. It's where he gets his kindness. It is indeed a Slytherin trait to value those you care about above everyone else. We protect our own, a loyalty probably stronger then Hufflepuff for those select few a Slytherin deeply cares about. Draco's parent would let the whole world burn to save him, and Draco would do the same for them. While Draco's family did hold pureblood ideals, after the first war Voldemort was not someone they willing wanted to follow. The light sided also would have never offered aid to death eaters, because fundamentally they were still against the dark, and there was no other place for dark wizards to go except Voldemort. Most of the death eaters had actually been somewhat relived at the news of Voldemort's death, and the boy who lived, as Voldemort had already become insane to the point of torturing his own followers, and wasn't getting them anywhere near their goals. Except for the also insane brainwashed few like Bella who'd follow her lord to the grave, many of the death eater's were content to be peaceful and stay quite after the war. Probably even grateful for it, as there were many needless casualties on both sides. I feel like the Malfoys were one of those families that were happy to get out. If the side they are on is harmful or losing, they are ready to abandon ship. This may sound like they are cowardly with no resolve, but if it was the life and death of your family, and your loved ones, I think you might think differently. I feel like we aren't too far off in agreement here, but where we differ is in judgement and motives we feel the Malfoys, or Draco had. Lucius made a mistake in the first war, and spent the second trying to keep his family out of danger. I can't imagine the fear he had in Azkaban for his family, the dementors feeding off him and what he thought the Dark Lord would do to his only son, his wife, his family. Meanwhile Draco was left with the threat of his father rotting in Azkaban, and his mother being killed. His mother also with the thought of her son being killed. So yes Draco could have made a choice, and he did make a choice, a choice to protect his family, and honestly I can't see that as wrong. Maybe if Harry would have actually taken his offer of friendship things could have gone differently and it wouldn't have come to that.

Part 5 : Abuse Theory

I definitely agree with you here. The Malfoys were not abusive, and get a better anthology for racism then something which in fact could be solved with a study on culture rather then blood. If you want a good parallel for racism in HP forget muggleborns, and look at creature blood, not dumb house elfs either, but werewolves, goblins, centaurs beings just as intelligent as wizards. The bigotry towards werewolves especially is horrific, especially from the "light side" who avidly labels them as dangerous dark creatures. *Also note about the scene in Borgen and Berks* Lucius stopped Draco from touching the artifact because it was probably cursed, as many dark artifacts are. Even if you know what you're doing they can be dangerous to handle carelessly. So Lucius was actually very wise and protecting Draco, his 12 yr old son, from getting badly hurt. Why the cane? If touching a cursed object curses you, then its better not to get close with your actual hands. Using his cane to push Draco away was actually a precaution. Lucius is anything but careless,

Part 6: Draco's Wand and Symbolism

I generally agree here too, but I believe this symbolism is more reflective of the things Draco wishes he could have had, or done differently. If anything the wand and symbolism Draco has is representative of the good in him, and not cowardice, or inability to do enough.

Part 7: Redemption

Tbh I'm part of the crowd that would have liked that deleted scene to stay in the final cut. However I understand what's justifiable for one person, may not be enough for someone else. This is where you get more into the topic of morality, and how much are you morally responsible for as a person. Harry has been drilled with the mindset for years that he has to save everyone, and that if your not in it for the greater good, ready to lay down your life you better forget being in it at all. Personally I don't believe Harry has any right to claim that rhetoric, as Dumbledore(and by association Grindlewald) practically spoon fed it down his throat; but I wont talk about that as it's a whole other issue. Draco, you have to understand has a whole type of different morality. Objectively I believe he's a good person, if not pressured by the echo chamber of ideals around him. Yet Draco repeatedly gives signs, and expresses the desire to want to do good. In order to properly analyze Draco you have to look past his outward facade, and actions, or you'll never see him as anything more then he pretends to be. If you can only read plain text, if you can't see past the obvious, you will always have a very flat one dimensional view of a character or a person. To me there's no redemption needed. Draco is already good, more good then his parents, and perhaps more good then some who claim goodness.

In summary Draco is a very complex person, who tries to over compensate for his flaws, struggles to express honesty, but deeply cares for others, especially his family. His duality lies in how he wants to be good to others, yet how in the end he always chooses to save the ones he loves, over the majority. Draco will always have his flaws, but he will always have his goodness too, and I hope you won't disregard that.

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk.

P.S

Kudos to anyone who read through all that.

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yuutta · 3 years

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33 and 34 for the gif maker asks :)

hi ❤️❤️❤️

33) Give us a quick explanation of how you make a graphic / gif?

ok very quick outline: plan the gif/scenes/colors -> screen record the scenes i want to gif -> capture frames on km player -> load into ps -> blend scenes if any blending involved / format scenes if i’m doing something where its several gifs formatted onto one -> sharpen -> color -> FONTS !! -> 30 mins waiting for photoshop to save gif -> realize I dont like an element of coloring/i need more or less frames/the blending looks weird in a certain part -> go back and fix -> spend another half hour waiting for photoshop to be ready to save gif -> repeat previous steps like another 5-10 times -> “f*ck it, it is what it is” -> save gifs -> post them.

34) Gif makers, how many frames do you import? (And why!)

Depends! If im giffing a scene then however many there are in that scene (if the number of frames is just too many, i’ll delete every other frame and set the framerate to .05 instead of .03). If not usually I’ll do about 60 frames.

gifmaker asks!

#tysm for the ask!!!#(hope you are having a great day ❤️)#ask games #penguinsledder

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fullsunhyuckie · 5 years

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lost in osaka(’s beauty)

uber driver!yuta

in which you needed a plus one for a work event and yuta was conveniently there to aid you,,and maybe even more.

a/n: i’ve officially gotten out of my slump (i hope hehehe) so this is pretty long. oh and i swear this fic sounds better than you think. enjoy!

12.19am

if anyone knows you, they’d know how much your work means to you. everything else comes second to your work. your family complains about how you take it too seriously most of the time and that you should consider taking a break. so when the day comes that you finally decide to bring yourself on a vacation, they might as well mark it as a public holiday.

as you were packing for your trip in the two hours you had left before you had to depart, you received a call from your boss. a part of you was glad because maybe you could, in fact, ditch this trip and get back to work. the other part of you was a little disappointed because you did plan the whole trip by yourself.

'' y/l/n, i need you to stand in for me at the Japanese Media Conference in Osaka, the night after tomorrow.'' your boss ordered casually. ''and do bring a plus one. that should suffice. you'll need to prepare a sum of money enough for a pair of outfit for you and your plus one. please be there by 8 and dress nicely. thank you.'' he added only to hang up abruptly.

though you were shocked, you were more frustrated because how in the world are you going to find a boy willing enough to go to a conference all the way in Japan. just as you were about to deliver the news to your parents, you saw them come in with a bag of medication and toiletries with wide smiles on their faces.

so when they asked you, " where's our baby going? you haven't told us yet!", you softly replied to them, "i guess i’m going to japan!" they cheered and your anger washed away. it was one thing to have tiny accomplishments celebrated by yourself, but to see your loved ones do it, they seem ten times more valid. so without complaints, you rushed out the door waving to your parents, with the boarding pass you printed at most 20 minutes ago.

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5.48 pm.

pacing about door 27, you were frustratingly waiting for your uber that was said to have arrived 5 minutes ago. well, whoever Nakamoto Yuta was, he should have a valid explanation as to why he was late. but in that exact moment, you saw a black sedan car appear in front of you.

the windows of the car were rolled down and you see a man with purple hair greeting you with a rather attractive smile but you had to keep your cool.

"are you miss y/n?" he flashes you the smile once more.

"yes and you're late. i'm rushing for something here." you responded almost simultaneously to which he nodded and rolled up his windows. but before he did it fully, you stopped him.

"aren't you going to help me with my bags? i cant possibly carry it myself.” you gave an exasperated sigh. he chuckled and rolled the windows back up, with no intent of helping you out. 'asshole', you thought. but the truth was that's what yuta thinks too, because he was sure your screen said arriving in 5 mins...but sure he'll let you have it.

you took the seat diagonally behind him and sat quietly for at least 20 full minutes through the ride, occasionally looking at his prettily coloured hair. he was the one to break the silence.

"so your bag isn't that heavy after all?" he mocks you.

"well, isn't it basic courtesy to have a driver help you with your bags?" you heard him huff in an annoyed manner, causing your ride continue its silence until you arrived.

upon arrival, you immediately changed out to your more appealing outfit so that you could head to the pub, in search of a plus one. but the longer you stayed at the pub, you remembered exactly why you’d rather be a workaholic. so you gave up and decided to book an uber back home. too tired to bother, you went into the car that stopped in front of you, hoping that it was the right one.

"must be a tough day for a prissy princess like you, ey?" you hear a familiar voice from the driver's seat. your head shot up and you saw from the rear view mirror, the last face you'd wanna see. "oh piss off, nakamoto."

"call me yuta."

"i'm not in the mood." you replied, before glancing to the front to steal a peek.

if you were being honest, you were really bothered by yuta on the ride home. you began noticing the little details about him. like the shape of his button nose, and how his hair isn't just purple, it's a really pretty ash purple. 'he's okay looking, huh?' you processed. and then it hit you. a decent looking man, who by chance you have been acquainted to, who is also a fluent japanese speaker and ,fortunately, owns a car. a sleek one in fact. and so you made a decision.

as he drove to the front of your hotel, you stayed still in the car with no intent of leaving. he turned around and lifted his eyebrows at your antics. you took a deep breath, thinking 'here goes nothing'.

"i have a proposal to make in which i am expecting you to accept. i need someone...okay looking, especially with a car, to be my partner for a day...or a few." you started. "you dont have to do much. just sit still, look pretty."

"why would i need to help you? i'm working tomorrow. besides-"

"i'll pay you."

"i'm all ears."

" i know you need the money, considering this job," he narrows his eyes at you. "so i'll give $600 for this event you attend and you get to keep the suit." his previously narrowed eyes now widened all the way at your offer. you gestured for him to give his phone. "i need you to pick me up tomorrow by 8am so we can go get your suit and my dress. don't be late.”

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8.07 am.

of course he's late. even though you were afraid he'll decide not to turn up, you had to remain cool. but exactly 5 minutes later he arrives, in a floral print shirt with light brown bermuda shorts and a pair of slides, hair unkempt. ugly, you thought. but as you thought so, he winks at you and it crossed your mind, well maybe not at all.

"you're seven minutes late. how am i supposed to trust that you'll reach on time tonight?" you complained. he just shrugged and proceeded to lead you into his sedan car.

the both of you headed to the nearest shopping district to run your errands. after a few hours of shopping, your hands were filled with shopping bags yet you still weren’t sure what yuta picked out. he insisted that you should trust his sense and let it be a secret. yuta was leisurely walking with just a bag of items while you were struggling to balance with all the stuff you bought.

"if only someone was gentleman enough to help me carry my stuff especially since this man beside me, isn't one." you said it a little too loudly in hopes that it'll embarrass him.

yuta laughed it off, completely unphased by your actions. so you continued walking at a fast pace until you heard him jog towards you and felt his hand brushed against yours, causing you to pause. he somehow managed to maneuver the shopping bags so that it would rest on your interlocked hands, so it looked as if the both of you were carrying the bags together. he brushed his thumb against your fingers, which made your heart do a thing. he gave a smug look and you let go, leaving him to carry it instead.

you got in the car, avoiding any form of conversation with yuta, but on the way back, he kept stealing glances at every stop he took. his actions made you nervous, which wasn't super abnormal as you're never usually affected .

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7.48pm.

you could tell it was him by the way he knocks on the door. you opened the door slowly and-

holy freaking grail.

he was stunning. oh so beautiful. you were in awe. he wasn't lying about his sense of fashion. maroon velvet suit with black innerwear which complements your black seude midi dress. his hair parted just enough to showcase his glowing forehead. earrings, 3 on one side and 2 on the other, contrasting his well-groomed look with a little bit of rebel. how intelligent.

"aren't you gonna let me in or are you not done ogling me?"

"n-no let's just uh- let's leave now. we're..ahem.. we can just be early..." you stuttered, pushing him out.

you arrived at your destination 20 minutes later and was astounded by the beauty of it. you turned to your left to look at osaka’s skyline, what a beauty. you turned right to look at yuta and you started to wonder, maybe everything in Japan is stunning. yuta offered you his arm and you slid into it like it was made just for you.

the whole conference was pretty boring but you had to keep yourself awake for your boss's sake. it wasn't until the dinner when you actually had a lot of fun. although yuta wasn't exactly a gentleman that night, you could tell he was trying. like when he took his food, it was a portion just enough for two. or when he pulled the chair out from the table intending to sit there but acting as if it wasn't a good enough spot so he offered you instead. you appreciated the subtlety more than you expected.

you noticed the speaker from earlier approaching your table and you stiffened.

"you know if you keep doing that, the whole hall will be able to tell that i'm a stranger to you." yuta whispered.

before you could answer him, you felt his hand rest on the crook of your back. he knew you were nervous so when you felt him caress your back gently, you appreciated it. he left as you were speaking to your boss’s clients, taking down notes for his future plans. the night wasn’t that bad, here and there you heard whispers about how gorgeous your boyfriend looked unlike you, but thats about it. after your exchange session, you searched high and low for yuta, silently hoping he wasn’t somewhere trying to hook up with some woman 10x richer or better looking than you are.

after searching for a good 15 minutes, you saw him near the fountain talking to someone. although you felt obligated to get annoyed, as your plus one, you felt warm. he looked way too engaged telling a story to a 7 year old girl. he turned to see you staring at him. he waved at you, at the same time getting the little girl to do the same. she didn’t seem too keen to do so.

“i think we can leave now. we need to prepare for tomorrow’s event.” you said, grabbing a hold of yuta’s elbow.

the little girl tugged at yuta’s sleeves and she whispers, “i don’t like her very much. mr nakamoto, can you continue the story?” to which you frowned and rolled your eyes, unintentionally. your actions caught yuta off guard and he burst out laughing at your child-like behaviour. or cute behaviour but yuta wont admit it

“i’m sorry, princess, but my grandmother here has forced me to leave with her or i won’t be able to return home for tonight. i’ll see you around!” the little girl chuckles and wave at yuta, not before giving you a glare.

“i hate kids.”

“are you jealous because a seven year old has more game with me than you do?”

“don’t flatter yourself, nakamoto.”

“count yourself lucky that i think you’re cute.”

well yeah, that stuck on your mind the whole night.

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9.36am

who in the right mind would have a formal event at 9 in the morning? there you were half awake, engaging with 10 people at one go, when its barely noon while yuta was at the back treating himself with the pancakes served. he was dressed formally as if he was supposed to attend a Sunday morning tennis match, when everyone else was in a polo tee and jeans. you’re sure he bought that outfit just so he could use it for another day, knowing he was able to keep it.

on that particular morning, you met johnny, the son of the CEO of a well-known entertainment company in Chicago. he’s tall, lean, very attractive, funny and the list goes on. if you weren’t married to your career, you’d so be into him. but you want to know who isn’t? nakamoto yuta. the moment he heard you burst a giggle instead of a laugh, he lifted his previously buried-in-pancakes face to scan across the crowd, seeing you with johnny.

he almost immediately threw away his half-eaten pancake and strut his way towards you but before he could do anything to get at johnny, you and johnny part ways much to yuta’s relief. throughout the whole event, you could feel his eyes on you, unconsciously looking out for any competition. it was funny though because when you try to look back he’d act as if he’s much rather be somewhere else. what a fool.

the event took up more than half of your afternoon so when you returned from it you were dead tired. yuta sent you to the door but seeing how GONE you were he needed to make sure you were fully awake while cleaning yourself. you took more than an hour as he waited on the sofa, he did sleep though. you sat beside him and watched him peacefully. his hair covering both his eyes, you were so tempted to touch it. purple never looked so good on a man. despite hesitating, you brushed his hair behind his ears, causing him to rest deeper into your palm. a soft smile crept up your lips as he did so.

“you should smile like that more often when you look at me. my heart does things when you do that.” he says with his eyes closed.

stunned, you pulled your hand away, forcing him to scram. he left with a smile on his face, satisfied with how flustered you were.

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7.49pm

“what do you mean you cant make it? it’s the last event. i need you to be there with me-“

“i need to run some errands. i’ll try my best and make it in time.” yuta replies.

you weren’t gonna lie but a huge part of you grew dependent on him so when you were forced to attend it alone, it felt foreign.

and indeed it was. the entire time you were there, you started missing him. when things got awkward you realised there was no one to turn to. or when the speaker said something unfunny, you’d laugh, thinking about what yuta would say in response. it was as if the entire night revolved around him and you hated it because you only realised his importance when he wasn’t around.

as you were eating, you felt someone approach you, deeply hoping it was yuta. but as you turned, you saw johnny. he was dressed in a sleek black suit with a bow tie. what a heartthrob.

“where’s your lover boy?”

“he’s busy running some errands. such a momma’s boy.” you said while unintentionally sulking.

understanding that you were bored at the event, johnny decided to accompany you. for a moment you forgot about yuta and you were thankful for that. but as you were intending to grab a quick bite with johnny, you heard johnny saying something and before you could ask him to repeat, you peeked behind his tall figure to see a good looking japanese man looking at you. seeing that you were comfortable with johnny, he approached you and gave you a kiss on your cheek, lingering longer than expected. to say your heart skipped a beat would be an understatement. it was as if it your heart entirely stopped and then you were resurrected by the touch of his lips.

“you smell...nice. i’m sorry i’m late.” he pulled away and wrapped his pinky around yours. “oh, johnny! didnt see you there. if you dont mind, y/n and i have somewhere to be.” and then he led you away.

“why didn’t you call me?”

“surprise, isn’t it? i was intending not to come but i knew someone would want to hit on you.” he replied casually, pinky still wrapped around yours. “let’s get out of here while we can.”

as the two of you walked out, he put on a jacket, that smelt like him, on you. you gave him a look of bewilderment.

“yuta, it’s 30 degrees. i dont need your jacket.”

“just take it. this is in case i need an excuse to see your face again in the future.” you heartily laughed at him.

you would think he brought you to somewhere romantic, as you ran away from a formal event. instead he took you to a nearby fast food restaurant, claiming that that was the essence of a japanese trip. as he indulged himself in the cheeseburger, you felt a pang in your chest remembering how your journey with him had to end in a few hours. it was as if he could sense that you felt down. so being yuta, he tried turning the atmosphere around.

“this cheeseburger would taste wayyy better if someone wasn’t staring daggers onto the top of my pretty head.”

it didnt work, in case you’re guessing. it just made you feel worse because, damn you’re gonna miss this idiot. so in response, you shoved your milkshake away and groaned, so loudly it’s possible that the whole diner went silent because of you.

you peeked up and you saw him staring down at you with an eyebrow raised. you were so close to risking it all and confessing your feelings towards him but your ego wouldn’t let you do so. instead, you calmed your face and pretended as if nothing happened. it’s hard to do so especially when you saw how comfortable your legs intertwined under the table. even your sub-conscience wanted the both of you close.

the whole night was a blur. you remember subtle hand touching and embracing from both parties but nothing major happened. to be honest, you were beyond grateful. just a few more seconds before the coast was clear. you waved your goodbye to him. you tried to shut the door before you did anything stupid. but...you were too late.

“seriously? our last night together and that’s how you end it? do you have no heart or-“

“i’m sorry excuse me?”

“i think i was being pretty obvious with how i feel about you. i wouldnt have let you hold my hand for a prolonged period if i didnt like you, dont you think? if you expect me to give you a heartwarming confession, about how i’d love to spend more time with you and how i wouldnt mind if you’d like to date me, then you thought wrong.” you said in one breath.

“...”

“an ‘i like you too’ would help me not feel like an idiot.”

“urm, look, there’s a lot of things that i do like about you but i just dont think i can respond to your confession right now. i’m so sorry.” yuta replied softly.

and he left. this time he wasn’t late to leave.

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1.27pm

you still felt like an idiot. the moment you woke up, as you ate your breakfast, when you packed your luggage, the whole time you felt like one. and you couldnt blame anyone but yourself. when you looked around, it was as if japan was stripped off its beauty, now that the one thing you associate that with is no longer within your reach.

even as you were on the way to the airport, you felt like a complete fool. when you arrived in japan and got your uber, the first thing you saw when you lifted your head was a pretty shade of purple. your uber back to the airport had a view that was an awful scene of badly dyed hair. how in the world were you going to forget the fact that you ever met nakamoto yuta?

as you arrived at the airport, you were so reluctant to leave. every step you took felt like there was an anchor weighing you down. of course, you were being dramatic because all you did was give him a confession. but believe me, because its someone with an ego like yours, it’s the end of the world.

you were waiting for the lift when a man with blonde hair grabbed your luggage from your hands. and he began saying something incomprehensible. so you let out a loud ‘hmm?’.

“i need to return some of your things and take back what’s mine.” you hear a familiar voice. you didnt want to believe it but the minute you turned your head, there he was. nakamoto yuta. but being you, the first thing you responded was, “why are you blonde?”

he groaned and pulled you to the side before you could say anything else. instead of responding he returned the suit that you gave him, as well as the sportswear and even his headband. he took out his wallet to return you the money you paid him for the events. he rummaged through his bag to ensure he returned everything you gave him and then he paused, as if trying to process whether he was going to do it and he gave the look of surrender. he opened up your suitcase to take back his jacket and a part of you broke. you felt as if he didnt want to see you again.

but before you could even begin to feel sad, you saw him crouch in front of you, hands on your back and your calves. suddenly, you were lifted. you hit yuta’s chest and he calmly responded.

“i told you i’m taking back what’s mine.”

“did you suddenly watch a rom-com last night and decide that this is the best way to win back my heart? because it’s not working.” you sulked but he gave you an innocent look. you finally understood what being wrapped around someone’s finger felt like.

as you were nearing the exit, he put you down and held you with one hand, the other on the suitcase as he led you to his familiar car.

“i have a proposal to make in which i am expecting you to accept. i need someone...okay looking, who doesn’t need to have a car, to be my partner to introduce to my family.” yuta mocked. "you dont have to do much. just sit still, look pretty, so you might want to try a little.” then he looked at you and gave you his biggest smile as he mouthed “i’m sorry. please be my girlfriend.” there was no way you were able to say no.

and so he drove into the city of osaka, and you looked around only to realise, japan had never been stripped off its beauty. all that you saw was filtered by yuta, causing it to look ten times as beautiful. but thats the beauty of getting to know yuta because now life has never been more full of colour.

fin.

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TW DRAMA AND ME ACTING ON MY EMOTIONS CAUSE OF THIS POST

Granted I did post this after sending her an apology and I’m glad I now have official confirmation that she has seen said apology. The very fact that I have sent an apology means that I had got over the situation and just didn’t care about it anymore. I also tagged @toomanyfamdom because we thought it was ✨funny✨ and have gotten over the situation (unlike some).

It should also be noted that I haven’t had any contact with Maddy since everything that happened and at least had the decency to send an apology and move on. Also, for the record, I had nothing to do with that list of toxicity. That list was put together and shown to me by my friends. I then continued to FORWARD THE SAME MESSAGE to Maddy because I disagreed with the list.

Let’s see, shall we? Up first on the list of hell that I had nothing to do with (and disagree with) there is... “inconsiderate of time zones and peoples family life.” This eventually turned out to be accurate, not just for me but for many others. Madison would organise events like DnD games at UNGODLY hours in the morning (because she is in American time zones) and when us British people were unable to turn up she would kick them from the game and then proceed to shame their character for an hour. Granted her uncle did pass (im very sorry for your loss), but that had nothing to do with anything. Many of us (including myself) helped Maddy and were there for her, and I have plenty of messages to prove it.

ANOTHER thing to do with time is when I was added to one of the greatest Instagram group chats in the world! However, my sleep was abruptly ruined when Maddy group-called the chat at 4am because she wanted to play Minecraft with a friend. Please direct call next time... thanks.

Whilst on the subject of time family life, one of the most memorable things this girl did was shame me and attack me on one of the discord servers we were both on. What made this even worse was that I had an audition for a London West End theatre school which had the power to change my LIFE. And Maddy knew this and also knew that it was worrying me and that I was extremely stressed about it. You may say ‘oh, it's just a coincidence’. If you believe that please explain why said post tagged everyone and was posted 5 mins before my audition. Maddy knew this would stress me out, I spoke about the audition and my ability to read into things many times before and she knew this would get to me! A lot of the things Maddy did were petty shit, but then again, that’s who she is.

Next up is... “shows blatant favouritism.” Well, it’s no surprise Maddy has so many friends! But which ones does she actually care about? My friends and I witness this first hand on many occasions, one of which being another DnD game where she was the dungeon master. Maddy made the turn order by (and I quote’, “the order is in who I love the most.” This caused some of us to feel a little uncomfortable, but we continued until Maddy put each character on a path to different destinations and explained which each path was. By the time it got to me, my dyspraxia/dyslexia couldn't hold the information, and I asked Maddy to explain them all again. Maddy agreed and but then ended with, “You just used up you go, Charley.” I was so confused! Apparently, explanations waste a turn??? But this was fine by me until Maddy explained the destinations to another player, but this time, she let them choose where they wanted to go instead of keeping them on the bench, awaiting their turn. Maddy would also allow people to have longer goes/round claiming that there was more to their story. My turn would be around 2mins where someone else would be 5. Again, petty shit which still happens to make people upset.

Note: It was not just me who felt this way! Many others slid into my dms because they felt upset with how Maddy treated others but not themselves.

Up next is, “making your best friend feel like shit for making a joke”. Another reminder, this list wasn’t written by me, it was written by my friend who was watching from the outside. And this is very true. I would often make jokes with people about Donald Trump and America because their laws and president (not anymore) were stupid. This always seemed to annoy Maddy and hurt her feelings. I would often make a throwaway comment but end up feeling bad about it because Maddy would leave the call. I always felt like I was walking on thin ice with her because if I said something even remotely controversial, she would not speak to me and leave the call. This really hurt me because I cared about my friends a heck of a lot and never wanted to ruin any relationships with them. I would send countless messages to Maddy, apologising and crying to her, telling her not to be mad at me. THAT 👏🏻 IS 👏🏻 A 👏🏻 TOXIC 👏🏻 RELATIONSHIP 👏🏻 One joke shouldn’t be the be-all and end-all of a friendship,, but that is what It always felt like! Also, Maddy never specified it was a trigger until recently, and even after she did say it was a trigger, I held back so she could feel comfortable.

The final thing is: “made you feel bad for your emotions.” Madison needs to learn that EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT and that people deal with things in different ways. Not everyone is smart, sensitive or skinny like she is. Whenever anyone hurt my friends, I would lash out and act upon my emotions because I didn’t know what else to do. This is something Maddy heavily criticised me for and something that eventually resulted in me listening to high-frequency sounds so I could get rid of my emotions and feel numb. My logic was that I didn’t want to hurt anyone ever again by jumping the gun and acting upon emotion. But thanks to others, I was pulled out of that loop, and I’ve learnt to use logic and reason as well as emotion.

As for “breaking my heart”. Yes. Our friendship ending did hurt me, a lot. Just like everything with you, it is very one-sided. I was reaching out, listening and trying to help Maddy repair relationships with people whom she’d hurt. We both said equally bad things which made the ‘relationship’ toxic, and I would just like to point out that the name, ‘evil Maddy’ is cringe and I’m ashamed I was ever friends with you considering you used that in a callout post. /hj

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Sarcasm aside, ima be real here because I am not afraid to tell my side of the story. So, @ thenameisnoone / Maddy. Here is a long-ass response to the post you made about me. xx

Look, I’m not going to call you out or use Politics_notmything to cancel you because I’m not like that. I’m an actual good person who really tried with Maddy and dis my best to change myself to make her feel comfortable. I left a group chat with all my friends for a week and blamed it on ‘family issues’ because I didn’t want to make her feel uncomfortable. I made an entire Birthday PowerPoint for her, which included some of my best and favourite bootlegs. I made a genuine effort, but Maddy didn't really do anything else but tell me to “calm down” or “not throw everything away and give in to anger or despair and calm down until you can think rationally and make a logical decision”.

And I’m glad I actually saw this because this is a classic Maddy move. She argues with people, builds up a situation then removes/blocks them, so they cant see everything she’s saying about them (i have proof of this from a server im in.) It has happened before, and she manipulated people into believing her side of the story.

“I am allowed to block people who lie to me about serious topics even though they have trust issues which makes them unable, to tell the truth, if it hurts them. I am allowed to talk to people who blow up on me before hearing my side of things where they would have realised what they thought is wrong even though I dont get back to people until 3am and decide to leave them on delivered/read for days at a time when I am happily talking in other servers. I am allowed to block people who accuse me of shit-talking them with my friends who I introduced them to (and I never do that) when I have only defended them and said friends genuinely were being nice to them even if they have proof. I am allowed to block people. Period.” - Maddy

And I’m not saying Maddy isn't allowed to block people. It’s a free world. Im just defending myself :)

Granted, Maddy did defend me and say that this situation shouldn’t change anyone opinions on me, and I can say the same. Just because I had a terrible experience with Maddy, doesn’t mean she is a bad person and I encourage anyone online who loves women’s’ history and WATT to befriend her.

But being honest, she did also call me a bitch on a Tumblr callout post, so I had to come and write this all down for safekeeping and reblogging purposes. Im not a bitch, and that is why I’m not using my following to cancel her. But anyway, we both had some shit experiences with each other so you can read this and make up your own mind even though I did back her up with the previous call-out post, sent her my support, apologised and didn’t block her when she was at a bad time in her life or when she needed help. If anyone has a problem with me posting this, please contact me via DM.

Sorry, not sorry ‘bout what I said. I’m just tired of your petty shit.

#it was supposed to be a joke #u took it too far #like u always do #please just move on #your causing so much unnecessary drama #no offence #but this is just stupid #also dont presume in not gonna find out #can we also talk about how #i destroyed my mental health for u #cos u wanted someone to spy for u #cos u were once again #BEING PETTY #also florida sucks #i just thought id mention #make sure ya'll vote biden next time

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