#I don't wanna do this anymoreeee

[smithsparker]

i havent written valgrace fic in fucking ages this is actually hard

#i don't know how to write them anymoreeee 😭😭 #i kind of need to reread hoo but . i don't wanna #whyy do i always have ideas that i can't execute 🥲 #sas.txt

[threeleggedcrow]

i think the adderall might be causing insomnia for me (<- wide awake at 3am)

#i can't do this shit anymore #i don't wanna try out meds anymoreeee just let me rot and decay in peace for god's sake #or wait i know an even easier and quicker solution !🤩

[atxxokirina]

What You Deserve ( 18+, MDNI )

Neytiri x Jake x Fem Omatikaya reader

contains: pwp (porn without plot), dom neytiri & jake, sub reader, edging, rough sex, threesome, makeout session, fingering, creampie, punishment.

plot: you, jake, and neytiri enjoying each other's company

"..That's right, fuck her Jake." Neytiri holds your head against her chest as Jake plows you from behind, his large hands gripping the plush curve of your ass. "Mmm.. I-I wanna cuummm," You whine. The two had been keeping you on edge for the past hour, you can barely form a coherent thought. "Not yet baby. Ugh, fuck.. Just let me take that perfect pussy." Jake grunts, angling his hips upwards to hit your sweet spot, you whimper in response.

"Such pretty noises, y/n." Neytiri pulls your face toward her, licking her lips before giving yours a soft kitten lick. "Please.." You breathe out, eyes gazed deep into hers. "Yeah? You like that?" She squeezes her hand around your neck, planting wet kisses on your lips. Jake forces a hard thrust, earning a yelped cry from you. "More! Oh, great mother.. Pleaseeee- fuck, I wanna cum s-so bad!" Neytiri smirks against your mouth, finally giving you the lustful kiss you'd been waiting for. Her tongue touches yours as you pant, desire growing more and more.

Jake grinds his hips onto your ass, finding a new pace as your walls hug his cock. "This little pussy is squeezing me so tight, oh fuck y/n.." He moans, brushing your braids back and holding it into a ponytail, using it as leverage to fuck your wet cunt even deeper. Neytiri doesn't break the kiss. Not even for a second. Both of your lips are hungry for each others, but of course, Neytiri gets the upper hand. Pushing down into you, hungry for each aspect of your body. Her hand travels from your stomach, middle, and then landing on your clit, rubbing the bud with soft dedication as you moan in her mouth.

"G-gonna.. cu..m." As soon as you say those words, she snatches her fingers from you. Jake notices and slows his pace as well, softly chuckling at her. "C'mon, don't you think we should let her cum?" He huffs, holding back his moans. "At least once?"

"Yes! Please let me cum, I-I deserve it!" You whine again, fucking yourself back on his throbbing cock. She thinks for a moment. "No, you don't." She simply responds, pushing your body off of hers and situating herself on the boulder behind her. "I need to-" You couldn't finish your sentence with the way Jake was relentlessly fucking you, you felt your body melt beneath him as your mind became foggy. "Don't be a bad girl." Neytiri smirks at you, spreading her legs to expose her glistening pussy, fingering her folds open and letting out a breathy moan. "Shit baby, so fucking hot." He pushes your head down on the soft moss under you, groaning as his cock slides deeper inside.

"Wh-what are you doing?" You asked her, struggling to complete a sentance. "Giving you want you deserve." She plunges two digits inside of her pussy, you intently watched as some of her slick spills out. You whimper in protest. "Th- haaa.. That's n-not fa-ir!"

"Hm? What was that?" Neytiri teased, her hand now traveling to her plump breasts, using another two fingers to rub her nipples. You're still moaning on Jake's cock, it seems that watching Neytiri play with herself is only making him more agressive. He smacks your ass, a bright red handprint stinging. "Owh..!" You whined.

"Do it again, ma Jake. Keep hitting her." Before you can respond, he lifts his hand up, thrashing them down, a hard spank reigning down on both of your sides. You cried out, tears welling in your eyes from the bitter pain. "You don't deserve me. You're a dirty girl, a dirty little slut for us." She spits on the hand that was around her breasts, returning it back as she swiftly moves her fingers. "Yeah that's right.. Oh yeah.. keep choking my cock." Jake sqeezes your ass again.

"Please let me cum.. I can't- hold.. back anymoreeee.. Haa.." You whimper, holding your head down as your hands searched for something to hold onto. "I want it, please.." Neytiri scoffs shortly after Jake does the same. "Yeah, I bet you do." She flashes her fangs with a grin, looking up at Jake and nodding, giving him some kind of signal. Before you can question it, he pulls out, and immedietly thrusts back in, bottoming out entirely.

You scream through gritted teeth, Jake's cock is hitting your cervix mercelessly. "Oh fuck, fuck, fuck, fuuucckkk!" Neytiri watches your reactions, quickening the pace of her fingers inside of her pussy, greedily moaning. "Ready?" She looks up at Jake. He nods, stiffening his body and holding himself inside of you. You felt his cock stutter and twitch around your spongey walls as he lets out a husked moan. "Fuuckkk. I'm cumming inside that pretty pussy.." A warmth fills your womb as his seed spurts into you.

You look up to see Neytiri, her legs spread wider than before. "Mmm, look at me, y/n. Look at what you can't have." She moans. You watched as her pussy oozes cream, chest rising and falling as her body tenses, her lower half twitching as her cream reaches past her ass.

You're mixed with arousal and submissiveness. You weren't the one cumming, but your body still felt impacted. Jake pulls out and releases the grip he had on your hips, causing you to fall and lay flat on your stomach. He pats your ass before stepping back, Neytiri now standing above you as she tied her loincloth back on. "Think you've learned your lesson yet?" You hum in response. "Good girls don't get what they want, they get what they deserve."

#atwow #avatar #avatar the way of water #neteyam #neteyam sully #loak sully #neytiri sully #ff #jake sully #avatar fanfiction #neytiri #avatar imagine #jake sully x reader #neytiri x reader #omatikaya #metkayina #sully #avatar2 #avatar oneshot

[mikachacha]

𝚆𝚊𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚎 (𝙱𝚊𝚍𝚊 𝙻𝚎𝚎 𝚡 𝙹𝚁! 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛)

Synopsis: Bada likes you, the only problem is you're straight or so you thought.

Warnings: Language, some identity crisis, idiots in love

(A/N: Made this while half asleep so not my best work 💀💀)

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"When will she ever notice that I like her??? This is getting ridiculous now.." Bada groaned as she looked at you from across the room. Bada has been head over heels for you since the day you came to JustJerk to teach.

"She'll notice if you confess." Lusher says and Bada could only sigh. She's been trying her best. She doesn't know if she's the one who's lacking or you're just too innocent to comprehend that Bada is so damn gay for you. She spent nights after nights, facing her mirror and trying to come up with ways to tell you how much she's so in love with you. But it's now four months and you still have no idea about her feelings. Bada didn't give up though. Everyday she makes an effort to talk to you, even giving you coffee every morning since she knows it's your favorite way to start the day. She's just hoping, praying even that one day you'll realize everything she's doing, that you'll realize her feelings.

Unbeknownst to her, you knew. Even before the whole coffee thing. But you're scared. You knew your whole life that you're straight but then Bada came along that made you question everything. You're confused and very much conflicted with this whole situation that you didn't even realized that it has been four whole months.

"Audrey, my love.. I don't know what to do anymoreeee. I mean, I wanna be friends with her but I also want to be more than friends but I don't know how this works??? I've never been with a woman before.. I am stressing out!" you ranted to Audrey, one of your closest friends when she visited you in Korea. Well her group is competing against Bada's team for this show called Street Woman Fighter.

"I mean, if you really like her that much then go for it. What's the worst that could happen? You let fear rule over you to the point you're missing out on what could be the best relationship you'll ever experience. I'm not saying that you should rush things but damn girl! 4 months of her showing you her intentions and you still didn't budge? Not even a date???" you pondered on your friend's words. She's right though. You wasted months because you were scared of exploring yourself.

"Damn since when did you become a love expert?" you joked and she only rolled her eyes playfully at you.

"Well my bestie is a whiny little baby that whines about her love life. I have to keep up and adapt." She jokes back that made you laugh. A bit harsh but it's true. You always whine about your romantic life to her.

The next few weeks have been pure agony. You wanted to talk with Bada about the whole situation but she's busy with the competition or when she's not, she's teaching. Now you're the one who's chasing her around and you didn't like it at all.

"Hey.. Can we talk real quick?" you asked as she's getting ready for a class. Seeing that she still has 30 minutes to spare, she nodded at your request to talk.

"Hi.. So what's up? What did you wanna talk about?" Bada asks and you awkwardly picked on the hem of your jacket. You thought you came in prepared but now you're face to face with Bada, it seems like your whole mind went blank.

"I.. Uhm.. I don't know how to say this.." you tried to speak but there's that fear again. You're scared about how she would react. Your thoughts are racing and you just wanna get out there, fast.

"Are you okay, Y/N?" Bada asked, seeing that you're very nervous about something. She wanted to hold you to comfort you but she's not sure if you'd be comfortable with that at all.

"Y-yeah I'm good.. I like you, Bada.. Okay shit.. I don't know but I seriously do. I thought I was straight and all but then you came along and started showing interest then I got confused. I got scared of my own feelings.." you blurted out and Bada stood there, shocked and still processing what the hell just happened. She looked at you and her lack of response made your heart hammer inside your chest, more thoughts raced through your head and you feel like you're about to faint.

Bada noticed the look on your face and immediately wrapped her arms around you, rubbing your back gently as soft sobs left your mouth. Although it was pretty heartbreaking hearing your sobs, she also found it rather cute that you're crying after you just confessed that you like her. Bada tried her best to calm you down and when you were a bit okay, she lets you go for a bit to wipe your tears. She could just stay in that moment, marvelling about your cuteness.

"I like you too, Y/N. I like you a lot ever since you came to teach here. Although we like each other, we're gonna take this slow, yeah? I don't want you to feel that you have to rush into anything. I want to take you out on dates, get to know you more and maybe when that time comes, you can decide if you want to take things to a whole new level with me." Bada says and you nodded your head. You're glad that you weren't late into confessing. Bada still likes you and you're thankful that she wants to take things slow so you can get used to this whole set up.

"Thank you, Bada.. Really. I don't know how things work in this kind of relationship and I don't want to do some stupid shit that will hurt us, or hurt you.." you admitted and Bada smiled, placing a kiss on your cheek that got you blushing like a tomato. You're normally stoic when it comes to lovers or people you like kissing you on the cheek but with Bada, it was a whole different story. She gets you blushing like a tomato even with such a simple gesture.

"Anything for you, beautiful. Wanna wait up for me so we can grab dinner together?" she asks and you nodded, grinning. You're excited to see how your love story unfolds with Bada.

#bada lee #bada lee x reader #swf2 #swf2 x reader #bada x reader

[undervaluedagent]

#undervalued files #hyperspecific poll #dhmis #honestly i have no idea anymore #don't hug me i'm scared

[abysslll]

i wanna hear everything all abt them pleabse,,,,,, fuck actually watching the show im gonna consume it through friend rambles in chapters

hehe sounds good >:D

so i've been thinking lately about dazai, and more specifically like. his mental state. bc even if you don't know much about the show you probably know at this point that his main quirky character trait is that he's always trying to commit suicide (like he's literally introduced in the show by attempting drowning and getting rescued by atsushi)

So~! let's go through this stage-by-stage shall we.

the earliest we know of dazai's past is that he met mori when he was 14 after a suicide attempt. i assume mori was working as a doctor in the hospital he was in, but anyway, we don't know a ton. apparently the Day After he met mori, mori assassinated the previous port mafia boss and had dazai become his witness and right hand man. in the like two scenes that are shown about this dazai looks super soulless, and not necessarily upset or even remotely concerned that any of this is happening. so like, definitely not great stuff going on up there.

then, we have a year long timeskip to the fifteen light novel, where he's (you guessed it) fifteen. he's a lot more chill in this timeskip like personality-wise, honestly he does just act like your average teenager ("i'm borreddddd i don't wanna live anymoreeee" and "do you actually think living is worth it 🤨"), but his interactions with chuuya are a lot more in-depth to his character. he toys around with chuuya a lot, and clearly sees him as the epitome of humanness (unlike him), because of how energetic and earnest he is

two scenes in particular i want to point out here: first, the scene where dazai stops in front of an injured enemy and basically goes "hey you're bleeding out and will probably die in five minutes. do you want me to kill you so you don't have to suffer?" when the enemy says yes, dazai picks up his gun and shoots him like six times. i'm just gonna link the scene because it's a masterpiece and gives me chills (yes it's literally just ten seconds of gunshot noises shh)

but so like. Holy Shit™, you know? he's fifteen and not even officially a member of the mafia at this point. what happened. why is he like this? the only reason he stopped shooting is because chuuya kicked the gun out of his hands, and even then it's like. clear that he wanted to keep going. like. hm. concerning.

the SECOND scene is just the part where chuuya tells him and rimbaud that he's arahabaki (for context, arahabaki is a literal god that blew up a large section of yokohama in canon). dazai is dumbfounded by this revelation, not only because he didn't predict it despite predicting the majority of the events of fifteen, but also because it just doesn't make sense to him. as already established, he sees chuuya as like. the Meaning of humanity. he's so human. he has human emotions and human bonds and he's so heart-achingly alive, and yet here he is, revealing that he's only really existed for 8 years and that he's not even really a Person.

i think fifteen is actually the lowest point in dazai's life, because he's been working with mori for a year (mori is like. canonically a pedophile sadist who likes torturing people so. yk. there's some subtext to be taken from that.) and at that point didn't have any friends or anyone to associate with outside of mori. so meeting chuuya was his break and kind of set him up for the rest of his life, because no matter how terrible his life could become after that, he had someone to remind him of his own humanity.

ok next up, the dark era! the start of it all!

dazai is 18 in this arc, an executive of the mafia, and friends with two dudes, odasaku and ango. i don't remember a lot of his arc, so i'm gonna keep it kinda concise, but basically it opens with dazai in a bar with his friends talking about the shootout that he was involved in. he's injured, so they're all like, oh god did you get shot, but he just laughs and goes "nah i had to pee but i tripped and fell in a ditch and got a lil banged up :(" (<- this actually happens i cannot make this shit up)

so it shows that he's still suicidal, but again, his personality has shifted. rather than being completely apathetic and uncaring, he's enjoying himself and he's having fun with his new friends.

so blah blah, stuff happens that has nothing to do with his mental state, OH RIGHT ACTUALLY THERE'S THIS ONE SCENE. there's this scene where they're confronting a bbeg and the bbeg pulls a gun on dazai. dazai not only ignores this threat but actively Walks Towards The Bbeg, calling him a coward for not shooting him when his forehead is up against the barrel. so that's something.

also there's all this shit with akutagawa and the cycle of trauma that dazai passed onto him, but i'm talking specifically about dazai and that could be a whole nother essay on its own so i'm not going to touch on that.

ANYWAY, so odasaku ends up getting shot. dazai panics and runs up to him, (iirc) trying to stop the bleeding and begging him not to die. and then odasaku says fucking THIS to him:

(the ending is a meme i apologize this was the best version i could find 😭) (also tldr in case you Don't want to watch all this i'm surprised if you're even reading this far: "whether you're fighting for good or fighting for evil you'll never be happy, so go and do good person things even so")

and you can see how shaken up dazai is. this is the most emotion he's ever shown in the show, like. Period. odasaku was his best friend and he was also extraordinarily human, he had a future ahead of him and kids and he died because of mori, and his final words to him are literally just telling him he's never going to be happy. why wouldn't this make him cry. anyway i digress

so, because of this, dazai ditches the mafia, and he goes and joins the armed detective agency.

from here on, you get Present Day Dazai, who is an actual clown and uses humor as a coping mechanism. he tries to kill himself basically every day, to the point that when he calls his coworkers telling them that he's on the verge of death, all of them just tell him congratulations and hang up on him.

BUT. but.

if you take notice of his suicide attempts throughout present day, you can see that absolutely none of them are serious. attempted drowning in a shallow river (twice), mentioning a nice support beam and how good it would be to hang from, a Literal Non-lethal Torture Technique, eating sus mushrooms--they're all attention catching, but not particularly deadly.

and here is where i hit you with my thesis: dazai doesn't want to die anymore.

he might joke about it, he might try it sometimes, and yeah, he;s still incredibly fucked up, but he doesn't want to die. he's learned to fight for the side of good, and he's living not only for odasaku but also for all of his friends. after meeting atsushi in the first season, his suicide attempts also dwindle until theyre practically nonexistent in the later seasons. this might just be the author toning down on some incredibly dark jokes, but! it also might just mean dazai is finding his will to go on.

this theory is solidified by dazai's last few lines in season 4. even though his suicide attempts are coming to an end, it's clear that he still views humans as dull and confusing creatures that he doesn't understand and doesnt want to understand. but, when fyodor gives his speech about how weak humans are and how god looks down on them, what does he say?

"humans aren't nearly as boring as you make them out to be."

i think the true character development of bsd is dazai's growing fascination with being alive. it starts before the present plotline even begins, and it continues on in stride just as easily. when he meets atsushi, dazai admires his conviction and will to keep going. it inspires him, and it causes him to keep going.

i really do think at this point that dazai's final line in the series will be something along the lines of "ehh i dont really feel like suiciding anymore" or something like that bc i mean. just LOOK at this development

#bat <3 #endless asks #you have unlocked Luce Rambling!! #luce rambling #<- tag for these kinds of posts lmao #sorry but not sorry i needed to get this out of my system #apologies if this is incoherent im sick and rushing this #bsd #suicide mention

[angeldiaries777]

tmi i dunno boobs + life

finally happy with having boobs slay. wouldnt want it any other way. love them. oml cringe but when u spend ur entire life being insecure for no reason and then realize u have always been a gorgeous angel things start to feel sm better. i enjoy being a girl a little more everyday. don't think i will ever go back to being super fem sadly its just not my vibe or who i am anymore but hey atleast im okay with the things i should be okay with instead of the shallow shit. eeee. ive been in my not caring era for a while but its like exceeded everything so im like sooo idc rn its scary im trying to remain grounded though and use this newfound skill for good so. no more weird evil energy i cant do it anymoreeee. only real people who's actions align with their words. liars are banned from my life. liars and just boring people. like everything has to be extremely intentional or i will cry. im gonna try to do what i say im going to do instead of being a bitch. like love me im cool but i can't keep lying to myself sometimes. yknow. over it. see i like self deprication SOMETIMES its fun. its also a good way to test people. i dislike people who never self depricate and put themselves on pedestals and i also dislike people who do it too often. both just come off sooo ew. and no i don't think self love is bad but cmon it gets arrogant. its just like communcation and basic decency at some points to admit that ur wrong or an idiot. and people who do it too often are just either losers or need sympathy to live. like im sorry theres people who r trying to heal or whatever and they just become a shell of themselves and a narcissist and they suck. i cant with this generation being oblivious. only allowing mentally stable people into my life who can actually learn from their mistakes. like im soo bad at social cues i never leave my room and yet somehow people manage to be worse than me. like at that point just leave. wanna so badly just hide like i always do but im forcing myself to live in the real world

[dyke1]

my pc keeps turning off every like 10 minutes idk what to do anymoreeee I don't wanna fix itttttt........

#i dont have any clue what it could be

[angelicalacrimae]

UEHHH .... I DON'T WANNA DO THIS ANYMOREEEE

[wolfp-ck]

EEeEe awesome!! N because of recent trauma stuff that I’ve just gone thru which also brought up old stuff, guess who’s not fully fused anymoreeee ✨✨ But yeee, we got new headmates, plus one OG which is Soul! If you wanna squawk to us anytime we’d love to, plus I could tell you about the newbies! Also love you guys too aaa! <3 /p

-Bird

Oh i hope you're okay ^^; BUT DO TELL SOUL HI FROM ME !!! ALSO IM DEF GONNA SQUAWK TO U !! I'll send some asks to ur blog but if you wanna tell me about the newbies through my blog here then I don't mind that ^_^

#★ : ask. #🍂 : anne hops. #🪶 : bird! #< is that a good tag? /genq

[uglyhomopunk]

why do I have to exist within the shackles of capitalism I just wanna look hot, drink beer and listen to modern baseball what the fuck

#sigh #I don't wanna do this anymoreeee #I am definitely having a bruh moment right now

[blennie]

..

#my mom is Mad capital M bcoz I didn't practice flute todayy #i wanna quit soo bad #n when I tell her she gets disappointed and says it's cos I don't put in the work on the little things that she /knows/ I can do #but the point is #a) I can't do it cos I suck #and b) I don't WANT to do it anymoreeee #yeeeeaaaahhhhhhaaaaa #why couldn't I have picked a simpler hobby like knitting

[the-hellgirl]

The stress is literally killing me, like, it's 2:30 am and I have to get up in like 3 hours, my body is giving up and I'm beyond tired but can't sleep 'cause I'm scared that I'll fail everything in college so yeah, I'm currently studying even tho I can't do it anymore, physically and mentally and nothing stays in my head, like, I forget is as soon as I read it. I never asked for this, why do I have to suffer and go to college to be someone, I just wanna be in my bed all day and sleep, that's all I've ever wanted and I can't take this anymoreeee. I really don't know what to do, it's only getting worse.

[outarou-mikado]

My finger isn't bleeding anymore it just hurts were I sliced it with a blade But my hand hurts from holding the blades to cut the paper.... Guess who's buying an actual paper cutter thingy tomorrow?

#I quit #I don't wanna do this anymoreeee

[cutechesters]

Me: Hey, I just met you

Me: and this is crazy

Me: but here's my url

Me: so follow me maybe

Person: *closes tab*

#oh gosh I jsut finished studying two of the three courses I have to study #and I'm so tireeeed #I don't wanna do this anymoreeee #call me maybe #adding tags just now #because YOLO #lol

[helloimcatherine]

2... more.. finals...

#i don't wanna do this anymoreeee #i don't wanna be the reason why #but really #i'm dying #I HOPE YOU DIE #ECO #NOM #ICS