#I don't know if they're still active in fandom in any capacity

[tacky-optic]

OK so i've been in this fandom for well over a year now (since the end of october, ew) and zenigata is still my favorite. so after all this time, i'm finally slapping down some of my thoughts about the version of the loud angry rectangle that runs around in my brain and this nightmare of a franchise in general. as a new year treat.

most of these have actually been in my notes since february or march, made as semi-sporadic thoughts while i trudged through the series. i wonder if it's obvious what installment i was watching/had in mind for each of these, lol. anyway i found these at the bottom of my lupin notes folder back in october, plopped them here, then forgot about them again, oops.

but they're here now! at the very end of 2023! under the cut! you can even read them, if you want!

zenigata is selfish. there is a genuine drive to help people and do what's right, but pursuing lupin specifically? 100% an ego thing. zenigata pursues lupin (the world's greatest criminal) because he feels like he's obligated to (as the greatest cop (and not that he necessarily thinks this about himself presently, but subconsciously)). it stopped purely being 'the right thing to do' after the amount of chases hit double digits -- probably even earlier than that.

so what does he really want to achieve here? who knows, because he sure as hell doesn't lololol.

but seriously tho. it's probably simple human connection. or acknowledgement. he's always operated on a different level from everyone else, likely to the point of boredom and/or unfulfillment, so once he comes across someone that might operate on a level higher than him, of course he gets obsessed. game recognizes game and it's liberating.

he's most likely used to "it's only a matter of time" and not much else, so i bet the realization that "it's gonna be tough to catch this guy, isn't it?" was exhilarating because he NEVER had to think that before. and honestly, good for him. he seemed to have been a different sort of miserable before, but at least this new version allows for some bouts of genuine enjoyment.

he had to have said "because i'm the only one who can" at LEAST once, right? which is true! he is the only one who can. that's why lupin keeps him around. zenigata is the single legitimate threat that lupin hadn't managed to get rid of/ sway to his side and that amuses him to no end. he really likes that stubborn old man. he's great.

it's obvious that his skills would be far more useful and impactful on literally any other criminal case, yet he ACTIVELY CHOOSES to allocate his time to chasing after someone who simply can't be caught. and what's even worse is that he IS the only person who can catch him, maybe even end it all for good, but it's reached a point where he simply doesn't WANT to, solely because the chase is THAT entertaining/enriching/compelling to him. calling it a compulsion is great, actually. he's obsessed, doomed by the narrative, consumed by his ideals, etc. etc, and he's completely trapped by cartoon logic. i doubt he knows anything else.

the dark infatuation is great and all, don't get me wrong, but i really enjoy those bouts where he kinda just exists. he's living his best life, candidly enjoying what's going on around him or the (comparatively) simpler aspects of his job, and all that stuff up top becomes irrelevant, at least for a little while. i don't think he's wholly doomed, per se, just that we won't be seeing an "after" for him in any official capacity. because again, cartoon logic. he's got a role to fill, even if it's an objectively shit one -- but he makes do, and the fact that he is allowed to do other things is enough for me.

y'know, in hindsight, i think the live-action show impacted how i view this guy the most. i really do believe he doesn't have to be defined by his role in lupin's story. at heart he's a chaser, a dreamer. he keeps trying, over and over, and despite everything, he hopes. if he was none of those things he wouldn't even be after lupin in the first place, or lupin would never recognize him as his true rival.

....maybe i'll actually manage to finish some of the wips i have about all that stuff one of these days, lol.

as far as other media goes: parts 1, 2 and 4, tokyo crisis, ep 0: first contact, g vs r, and fuma are all pretty high up there, too. maybe a smidge of koike if i'm feeling particularly angsty, but until zeni's title movie comes out i wouldn't put too much weight on that one.

i'd be remiss to talk about the guy's most popular pairing, right? i mean, i gotta. it's lowkey kinda wild how luzeni never fascinated me to a point where i'd feel compelled to write or draw much of anything for them. they're like, all the worst aspects of fujilup/jiglup smashed together lmao. THAT'S INSANE, THEY'RE INSANE TOGETHER AND IT'S SO GOOD. but nah, jigzeni. we'll, uh.... we'll leave that for later.

my guess is it's because the fandom satiated any itch for luzeni that would've been there otherwise, like, right off the bat. the fics alone are so incredible to me and have greatly impacted how i see zeni in their own right. i should really re-read some of them. and maybe you should too, so--

LIST JUMPSCARE!! i read all of these (and more!!) this year!! and yes, they all involve zenigata!! i don't half-ass this obsession, just like zeni lmao. just be mindful of ratings and tags, ofc. explicits are red but the rest is reader's discretion. and if by the incredibly slim chance any of the writers of these see this, thank you for sharing your works, they're really friggin cool B)

Knave of Diamonds/Thoughts May Dim/Under Your Hat

In The Margins Of Another Life

Sunrise, Sunset

Judo in the Schwarzwald

unsaid/lucky strike/cold hands

The Language of Flowers

With Enemies Like These/All Along The Watchtower/Fair Game

Friends Don't Let Friends Diss The Chef

Fates Entwined

The Many Deaths of Kōichi Zenigata

mean luzeni series/Secondhand Vanity

Disreputable Company

Smother Your Sorrow

Kintsugi/how to hit on Zenigata and not actually hit him

pour déplacer un autre/My Dear Icarus

Fifty-Two, No Longer Counting

Smoke and Moonlight/Off the Record

this doesn't even scratch the surface, hah. i think i might like to read but i can't be entirely sure.

my favorite part of this fandom is probably how moldable all of the characters are; you can pick and choose from so many different types of media and sculpt the finer details however you want, but at their cores the character's fundamentals still shine through. it's how we get those fics and fanarts and even text posts like these going on about headcanons. this cast feels like people that've taken on lives of their own outside of their (frankly problematic) source material and that's super neat.

so at the end of the day, there really is no definitive version of zenigata, or any of the others for that matter; just a handful of constants. all of those bits and pieces from up top are a part of my zeni, in one way or another -- but i like a dozen other zenigatas too, even ones that might go against those points. he's definitely been my favorite for a straight year for a reason. maybe one of these days i'll figure out how to actually finish a story all on my lonesome and you'll be able to see my version of him in action ;)

so that's that, i guess. here's to another year.... and hopefully more lupin content, lol. i might not trust tms but i trust the fandom. it's a small but strong and good one and i'm glad to be part of it, even if it isn't in the most active capacity.

anyway pls keep drawing zeni like twice the size of everyone else lmao. tms are cowards for giving him stick arms like lupin >:((

#poking him with a stick and seeing how he reacts #watching OTHER people poke him with a stick and seeing how he reacts too #lupin iii #z #lots to stew in #oh and if any of the ao3 fic links are whack or wrong lemme know. i'll fix em

[pixelkip]

Hey u wanna see how hard I can ramble about homestuck classpects AND hazy river character analysis at the same time?? Too bad!! You will!!

SO holy fuck I've been trying to come up with homestuck classpects for Annie and garcello for the LONGEST time and Annie has ALWAYS been a problem area for me cause of her lack of real story and canon characterization

Garcello imo is a rogue of doom, the rogue class steals their aspect for the betterment of others and well.... "stealing doom" in a way for someone else's benefit is literally exactly what he does in seos!! And the description of a doom player's personality really does fit him!! Easy right?

But then Annie. Oh my fucking gog

She has almost 0 canon dialogue and little to no story. The only instances of her even talking were the butter comic and snowed in. We might have some backstory shit that's been shared around before and Drowning of course but other than that she doesn't have much of a real storyline.

I've discussed this on discord and a lot of ideas were thrown around like maybe void, for her aspect, which does fit in a meta sense considering all beyond-surface-level characterization for her is pretty hard to find or completely unknown, and I've thought about either time or hope or rage being her aspect based on personality descriptions and her weaponizing rage in her liquid form but none seemed to really fit perfectly for her, especially when trying to pick a class.

(Before you bring up seos with lyrics as much as I ADORE how Annie is acted in it holy fuck dude it still gives me chills it is not canon)

Then it fucking hit me. Hope is literally perfect in a meta sense (and I'm operating on homestuck logic so I'm allowed to do that hehehhehe)

How we perceive Annie as a character is based a ton on fanon. Ideas like her having self esteem issues, for example, were extrapolated by fandom because of Good Enough being her first song. The butter comic, the first of only 2 times she's spoken in any official capacity, came from THE FANDOM MAKING SHIT UP and then anne making a comic based on it. Other bits of characterization from discord were gleaned from THE FANDOM ACTIVELY WANTING IT.

The hope aspect in homestuck is strongly connected with believing in something so hard it becomes real. This is seen with Jake's creation of brain ghost dirk, and eridan making a plain ass wand and then believing it's some powerful God weapon, and then it actually being powerful

Do. Do you see what I'm getting at here. Her whole character is heavily based in what we think it is based on what little we have. If that doesn't make her being a hope player fucking perfect i don't know what does.

As for class tho I'm a little bit stumped. I'm feeling like maybe witch since the 2 most prominent witches in homestuck do remind me a lot of her, personality-wise. They're also characters who have a particularly strong connection with the magic and power their classpect gives them. Jade's been experiencing the weird magicy shit that relates to her role within sburb and homestuck's narrative her whole life. Feferi's biggest move as the witch of life is very personal to her, talking to the horrorterrors to create the dream bubbles was only possible cause of her existing connection to a similar creature, being her lusus.

And annies liquid, while already being just a badass magical tool by itself, feels an awful lot like an extension of her energetic, over-the-top personality. Just more violent. The fact it canonically makes her more animalistic and instinctual just carries on her existing animal theming.

Also hope has a lotta religious theming and Annie has been connected with imagery of devil horns a LOT. Just thought that was neat.

Annieway tldr after over a year of thinking about this and having an epiphany watching a laureledeevees video about Jake English and lots of wiki and extended zodiac reading.. Garcello is a rogue of doom and Annie is a witch of hope

Disclaimer I am not the best at classpecting ik to people ho do this a lot I probably interpreted some stuff weirdly please don't murder me sjgjkdjgkdjf

#not sorry for being homestuck on main #i just really really like classpecting even if im kinda shit at it probably #also annie analysis is sorta my fandom expertise at this point lmao #hazy river #fnf hazy river #annie fnf #garcello #homestuck #classpecting #ramble post #long post

[tuiyla]

why did you distance yourself from the fandom if you don't mind me asking? miss seeing you here

Hey Anon, that's sweet, thank you. I haven't been active on here at all so it's less distancing myself from any particular fandom as it is being a lot less online in general. The second half of this year in particular has been the craziest, most eventful of my life and so being on here just fell off my radar entirely. The plan was always to return, to answer asks I'm so, so guilty about never getting to, to make the gifsets I wanted to make, to write the essays I wanted to write. That's still the plan, in a way, but I have to be honest and say I have no idea when or if I'll return, certainly not in the capacity I used to be on here in.

I'm hoping to chiller start to 2024 but I think it'd be a shift to put myself back in those fandom shoes and mindset. Don't get me wrong, I still sometimes randomly remember how much I love Santana and how frustrating Glee is when it doesn't live up to its potential. But yeah I've been way too preoccupied with Life to truly get back to that. Mostly in a good way, no one has to worry about me or anything. They say if someone disappears off Tumblr they're either doing really well or really badly. I've had both, but mostly been doing well and making the most of life.

It's crazy to think back on how many hours I used to pour into this blog, into the fandom. I genuinely did love answering asks with elaborate theories and making gifsets, I found that process to be really creatively fulfilling but it took up a lot of my time. The simplest I can put it is that I got a life, haha, and that's not shade at people who are still active. If anything, it's shade directed at myself for being such a full send or no send person who either lives on here or doesn't find the time at all.

I really appreciate everyone on here, people who are still active, people who reach out, people who shout out my old stuff. It's sweet and makes me feel good about the time and effort spent on contributing to the fandom. We'll see what 2024 brings, I am very much deluding myself into thinking I will one day reply to all unanswered asks and such. Hopefully it's not just a delusion.

Thanks for reaching out Anon, and to all who've enjoyed my stuff and presence on here, thank you. Happy holidays to all, and to emphasize this isn't goodbye haha, this is me checking in and letting y'all know I'm still kinda around and hope to be more active at some point.

#anon #nonglee asks #blog update #heeeeey all #guess what queer bitch has had the craziest queerest year of all #i really do appreciate those who haven't forgotten me despite the radio silence haha

[heymacy]

hi macy :) I read about your personal experience with finding yourself too invested in the gallavich fandom to the point of feeling upset about it and I have to say... that happened to me too. the compulsory need to engage even when there's no good feeling at the end of it, the constantly thinking about it to the detriment of other activities... I don't know if it's maybe because shameless and gallavich deal with heavy topics, or just one of the ways online engagement and hyperfixations can evolve, but I felt so much better once I removed myself from it, able to find joy in numerous other activities, and fandoms too! just wanted to share this - the fact that I had the same experience - and wanted to say I'm glad you're doing better now :)

hello my love! thank you for reaching out! i'm very glad that you were able to find solidarity in what i shared. re: heavy topics - i know that for myself, not being faced with content regarding my own disease on a daily basis has been a nice change of pace for me. i haven't felt as consumed by it since i took a step back. i think sometimes the content we engage with colors our real-world experiences and that was definitely the case for me. i've never been a casual viewer of media or a casual enjoyer of things so it doesn't surprise me that what happened to me, happened. i love having the capacity now to enjoy other things - and hey, i still engage with fandom here and there! i'm loving RWRB content right now (i have just a tiny bit of brain rot regarding those two) along with some jane austen adaptations and other such things! media is beautiful and transformative and i love putting stickers on the scrapbook that is my blog! thank you for your kind words - i'm glad i'm doing better now, too. it feels good. it feels healthy and normal. and i really hope everyone can find a balance if they're feeling off-kilter. also, i love you. did you know that? thank you for popping in 💛 feel free to do it any time you please, i'm always hanging around somewhere!

#i'm really happy that my experience doesn't seem to be this unusual isolated thing and it makes me feel better knowing others like. get it! #i've been reading a lot of books and watching a lot of movies and writing my book and it just feels GOOD #and i guarantee if the gallavich/shameless spark ever reignites for me i would be able to engage in a far healthier and more casual way #it just didn't go that way the first time around #and i'm glad i was able to recognize that and make that distinction and work through it and come out the other side more clear-headed #also i feel like i should say this bc i got a message about it the other day: #i am not speaking negatively about the fandom whatsoever when i share bits and pieces of my experience #i love the fandom. i love the people and the characters and the content and the fics and the art and everything about it #it's just how MY BRAIN decided to handle things #it is not a reflection on anyone or anything else #i don't want anyone to think i'm shit-talking the fandom or shit-talking fandom in general or anything like that bc i promise i'm not #i just had an experience and i felt compelled to share it in case anyone else could relate #and also so i could maybe not feel so alone and isolated in my experience #and it seems like i succeeded which feels really good #i love you fandom i love you anon i love everyone and everything that the gallavich/shameless fandom gave me #i will treasure it forever #always in my heart etc etc etc #macy babbles #anons

[iamthecomet]

Hi Comet! Do you have any advice on getting more involved in the Ghost fandom? I’m mostly just reblogging things because I’m too self conscious to post my original works/headcanons/etc. but I want to be more active and make friends and I’m not sure how -A

Hi!! Yes! I can do my best to help! I've been chewing on this for a little while trying to figure out what I want to say--and the best way to say it. But it still might be a little disjointed--I have a lot of thoughts. The biggest one is: talk to people. Send people asks. Reblog stuff and add your two cents. Insert yourself in conversations (this one is scary, I know). Tell people how much to love the things they're creating. You don't have to do it off anon if you don't want to, we have plenty of anons who are staples in the community who we know only by their signatures, and they're no less a part of it than people who talk off anon. This community is full of an unbelievable amount of love and support. It is constantly surprising me with just how warm it is. I love talking to people, I LOVE when new people show up in my ask box (usually at the strangest times, it's wonderful). And I will make space in this community for you--in whatever capacity you need me to. That being said.

You should post your stuff. You should post your works and your headcanons. Because those things drive conversation to you. And look. This community LOVES fics, and artwork, and headcanons. We go fucking FERAL over them. Head canons are a GREAT place to start. I could literally talk about them all day. Once I start I have to force myself to shut up. And I'm not the only one.

In fact, send ME your headcanons. I NEED THEM (do it on anon if it makes it less nerve-wracking, but I WANT them I want to talk to you about them!). And I KNOW it's terrifying. When I wrote Flip of a Switch I buried it in my documents so deep I hoped I would forget it existed and tried to tell myself that writing it was enough (it wasn't). I hadn't written fanfiction in ten years. The idea of having other people look at it made me physically ill. And then I didn't forget about it. and I looked at it. over and over again. And then, I still don't know what possessed me to do it, I posted it. And then it got a couple kudos, and no one commented on it for a LONG time (until well after I'd posted other fics). And I told myself I was done, ghost brain rot conquered (lies). But then I resurrected my ancient Tumblr, and looked at this community longingly (like pressing my face against the glass to look inside). And then I wrote another fic. And I tried to wiggle my way into conversations with varying results. And then I wrote the boot fucking fic (it's my claim to fame at this point, god damn it), and things...just...happened after that. It wasn't all the fics, but they helped. They opened up conversations and relationships. Posting my stuff made it easier to talk to people (because I had something to talk ABOUT). It's REALLY hard to take the leap. It feels impossible. I know the doubt is LOUD. But believe me, we WANT your works, we want your headcanons. We want YOU. There is more than enough room in this community for you and we are SO happy you're here. You are a part of it already, I promise you, even if you don't feel like it yet. And, if you want to share your stuff with a test audience before you put it all the way out there--you can always DM me about it (or about anything else). I'm sorry this turned into an essay. And I really hope it's helpful. And if anyone else had other advice, feel free to chime in. ♥♥

#comet comments #A #community advice #ghost community #to be honest #I also think we're all just #winging it #a little #and that's ok

[audiovisualrecall]

I miss the days of writing out rps and stories with friends, even if I've always been bad at sticking with something and would get bored or stressed out or too busy at times. I miss that fandom culture thing, forum boards for big role play story games. I miss the active primeval fandom (family). I miss when even stevetony fandom was more active than it is. I haven't been able to participate in any events due to lack of spoons and time, but I miss when there were like 20 stories in the bb/rbb events and tons of bingo fill posts. I miss when I had the spoons and time and motivation to participate, too. It just seems so exhausting to try, now. Or uncomfortable.

Maybe I cringe more than I should at the thought of doing things that I used to like, even tho I'd never put down anyone else for it. Idk. It's like how I can't really play pretend at all anymore I used to make up these epic story games with friends and with my younger cousins when we were young. At some point they didn't want to play anymore, and I felt self conscious about being x age and playing pretend crawling around as a cat and chasing bad guys and saving the day and whatever else we did, I stopped because no one else wanted to play, and I beat back the urge to play pretend and tried to make the boring adult talking thing interesting to me. And then my sister had a kiddo and as he got big enough to play, I realized I couldn't do it anymore. I'd lost the magic. I felt self conscious, uncomfortable, even though you're supposed to play with kids, I cringed, I tried anyway and it was like there was a semi-opaque wall between me and the story games he made and I tried to participate in. We played hide and seek a lot when I wasn't good at playing at star wars. That was fun, until people would comment on me being his playmate and paying attention to us and I became self conscious and uncomfortable. I didn't want to sit around talking about boring things when me nephew wanted to play, though! So we played anyway, but the magic of playing pretend is lost to me. And then my cousins had little ones, a whole gaggle, and after initial awkwardness for them meeting new people, I was instantly their playmate, and I didn't mind or care what others thought, it was fun, and with so many of them running around, everyone else was playing on and off, too. But I still couldn't play pretend, much. I was happy to be the jungle gym and had 4 or 5 of my cousins' kiddos climbing and jumping on me and to tickle them and chase them and be silly, and race toy cars around with them. But the stories where you grow up and you can't touch the magic anymore? Yeah, I Haye the stories because for me they're true, and it's not because it's inherent but because social pressure made it happen.

Somehow the way I can't imagine participating in fandom, in ways that would longterm make me happy, because I get self conscious or exhausted, it comes from or is the same thing that cost me the ability to play pretend. I used to write stories all the time,too. We're they any good, who cares, but I enjoyed it, and I wrote a lot for them. Original and fanfic. Now 'I'm not a writer'. I can barely make myself make art sometimes but at least I still feel I'm an artist, it's who I am, that's not changing at least. I don't write much, though.

I guess it's a potent mix of depression and social anxiety, intersecting with adhd and autism, and being a busy adult who has to work, that just leaves me... nothing. I do a lot of nothing, sometimes. Sometimes I do something, a bunch of somethings, I make some art, work on a project, I read a book or a fanfic or a few, I interact with one or two friends online in some capacity. I'm bad at my job that doesn't help anything, and rsd brain hates that. I have lots of hobbies, and projects half started, I buy things and enjoy things.

But I don't do certain things that I know used to bring me joy. Some because tbe internet has changed, and the old things don't work or exist anymore. Some because I can't get myself to. I'm tired of being tired, I'm tired of not having any real friends, I'm tired of not reaching out or talking to friends I know I have if only I did just that. I can't, though, I'm exhausted, talking sounds so exhausting, uncomfortable. I overthink everything I type in a message to a friend. I overthink everything in general. I can't get myself to reply. And then I forget. And time passes and it becomes Hardee and then impossible to. For me.

[pixelslr]

hi, so I wanted to do an intro of sorts. super basic info that I need people to know is I'm 29, so if I unknowingly follow a minor please block me or whatever. I'll also block any HP/HL haters because I'm too old and tired to care about anyone else's opinions and moral posturing. super long intro under the cut bc I'm long winded that way

I mainly play sims 4, and have a sideblog for it that I'm not active on, but I also play Hogwarts Legacy, No Man's Sky, I used to play Blade and Soul and miss it. I also played Planet Zoo like three times and might try getting back into it. I play ACNH and sims 4 the most but might keep ACNH to my dedicated sideblog for that. I bought Baldur's Gate and haven't gotten past the character creator lmao

I'm not sure how often I'll use this, as I don't play pc games so much anymore, partially due to health problems. I used to have friends to play with but now I don't soooo it's quite lonely playing games despite being a solitary person. Anyways, I also have an ACNH and pokemon sideblog I may link if anyone asks, but they're connected to my main blog. They need to be asked for because I don't want to get hate from here spread to my main like what happened last year upon release of HL. I ended up deleting that blog because of it. I super don't appreciate death threats over enjoying a video game and fandom, and I can enjoy said content and media while still being able to criticize the creator for their bigotry. I'm marginalized in multiple ways that she messes up with her franchise if it means anything.

I'm not sure exactly to what capacity I'll use this blog, I may get more involved with ~fandom~ style posts ie art and HP lore etc to keep it off my main blog, but I'm not sure tbh. I'm not a great content creator, I just like taking photos/screenshots of pretty things and putting the screenshots somewhere I can keep them other than the black hole that is my computer files. HP is one of my longest lasting special interests and I've tried to distance myself from it over the years as JK gets more and more bigoted but I can't. I'm autistic and it's the only thing I've consistently been able to ground myself with over the years. At this point I just read fanfics and sometimes play HL.

I have health probs that make it difficult to consistently tag, but I'll try. I'd love connecting with other gamers in the future, but I'll have to be more active for that if the time comes.

[freedfromthegalactichivemind]

Meanwhile with she-ra, and to an even greater extent steven universe, and ESPECIALLY homestuck, oh boy, they make SO many mistakes, i cannot believe how much trouble the crews for those teams got themselves into. i do think however with she-ra there was an unfair level of scrutiny reinforced by how socially active the crew were when maybe they shouldn't have been. i also think there's a difference between what they do with Entrapta, which is sincerely write an autistic character with an autistic story but fuck it up from time to time (yeah i... have no justification at all for the leash jokes), and what other series do with autistic characters, which is keep all the dehumanizing jokes without any meaningful storytelling, or write the autistic character as suffering for their autism and getting killed off.

With She-Ra reboot, I think there are two main problems with how... toxic / controversial / AAAAAH! the fandom is, including issues with the crew. 1. It is expressly Progressive Media. That means, it's going to be scrutinized more closely and harshly. Things that don't set out to be progressive which may have some progressive elements, but are more like, "Hey, we just want to tell a badass sci-fi / action story!" or something are given a little more leeway. I think problematic elements are easier to overlook or gloss over by progressive fans and even fans that are hurt by one background element or another if they came into something they knew wasn't specifically progressive. They knew the thing wasn't made expressly "for" them, they're just adopting it, anyway. With something that sets out from the get-go to be progressive, like Spop, there's a higher standard. The people running things are supposed to run it "for" certain groups - they're supposed to know things or to do their research. There is an expectation of sensitivity and treating things right, so when something fails (yay for LGBTQ+ representation, something decidedly off / perhaps un-intentionally ableist about the disability rep), it stands out all the more. 2. As you said, the creators have a big media-presence. I honestly do not like interacting with creators / celebrities. I don't think professional creators need to shut themselves off from having a fun Internet-life, but there is an inherent danger in interacting with fans too much in a semi-professional capacity without putting up boundaries. Many fans will inevitably treat your word as law if you say too much about your project and are very casual with your own (possibly shifting) opinions on the things you create. I actually think Ray Geiger has been pretty decent about this - from what I've seen, when they release an artwork that wasn't an in-production piece, they make sure you know that "this is fan-art." I think they even decline to do She-Ra art upon request unless they are being commissioned for it and they still make absolutely sure that it is labeled FAN ART, not in any way related to the production. I think some of the other creators may have gotten a little too close in access with fans, when they should have said "My opinion doesn't matter, it is up to your interpretation as the audience" and left it at that, moved on. Or they should have had a lot of their "official she-ra stuff" done through a proxy, PR people. I don't know. I tend to shy away from any creator I see on social media I am a part of, just because, as a fan, I WANT that space. I think "My fanworld is not your creator-world." Or something. In short, I do think they did well overall, had some fuckups, but they were more or less honest fuckups. I don't sense any malice, just a bit of ignorance. It does still help my personal fan-experience to have a lot of fingers in the pie, though. Keeps any "pedestaling" from happening for me.

[anotherneworld]

You ever just read that SPN Indian Runner AU by candle_beck and 

#I don't know who candle_beck was or is #I don't know if they're still active in fandom in any capacity #but SHIT y'all. #they've been getting me through some stuff by flinging me directly into other stuff #what's great is that it's been over a decade since I first read all their fic #so now it's like reading everything again FOR THE FIRST TIME BLESS #I do hope that in their unfortunate encounters with fanfiction that j2 at least had one brush with this greatness #like if you're gonna read some wincest you might as well read the Very Best

[inevitably-johnlocked]

I'm recently seeing posts where they write "BBC Sherlock fans don't Interact" and. Idk I guess I'm just confused? And wanted to ask someone also in the fandom.

Why would someone not want other fans interacting? We all love the same charecters? We all love Sherlock and Watson? Why does it make a difference how you got to know them?

Idk. You see the same in the star trek fandom. People who got into trek will sometimes say "IF YOU LIKE DISCO YOUR NOT A TRUE FAN" and it never made sense to me cause like. We both like the same show? We just got into it differently?

Idk idk. I'm just confused

Hi Nonny!

Yeah, it's SUPER weird, but it's their blog, so and whatever makes them happy. It could be a variety of reasons: perhaps they had a bad experience and it's for their own mental health (which is completely valid) OR it could be the alternative and they just prefer to be in an echo-chamber, which I think is a not-good thing, but again, not my blog and not my choice.

A very small (and loud) minority of people think only the BBCS fandom is the "most toxic" fandom on Tumblr as if any other sect of any fandom doesn't have toxic people in it, or, on the flip side of the coin, they're very militant about the "purity" of fandom (and I won't go into that at all, because it's upsetting and gross). Hell, I found out years ago (and still recently) I'm blocked by a big name popular Benedict blog simply because of my username, and I have NEVER previously interacted at all with them, nor have I ever tagged any of their Ben posts with Sherlock tags because the one time I tried to reblog from them, I couldn't (even though like.... I checked the tags of the posts and a lot more controversial tags are on those posts than I ever would have put on them). It's so ridiculous, BUT it's their right and their blog, so I suck it up and move on, their loss. I'm too old to care anymore. I get salty for 2 seconds when I realize I can't reblog a post still, and then move on.

Granted, in the hey-day of the Sherlock fandom, it was a goddamned mess, lots of in-fighting and harassment, and a lot of cliques and gatekeeping and "if you're not this, then you're that" thinking, and I understand if they probably had a bad experience from that. Nowadays, though, I find it's a lot more community-focused in the parts of the fandom I lurk in because it is all about sharing our love for all versions of Holmes, and I try to encourage interactivity here.

Maybe I just have dealt with so much shit in my life that after 40 years it just... I'm tired. I don't CARE. I just want to enjoy my time here now, and I do that by creating a blog I enjoy. Just as those people who have "dni"'s on the posts, in a way, I suppose, are creating a place they can be happy in. I may not agree with it, and I can have contradictory opinions about it, but again, not my place to tell them how to run their blogs, and that's that. I would be a hypocrite if I said otherwise, since I have told people before "it's my blog, if you don't like it, block me and be happy". So, as I said, be salty, and move on, their presence (or lack there-of) is not worth your time, especially when 90% of the fandom is generally welcoming and encourages interaction and community and a general love for all-things-ACD/Holmes.

On the point of "real fans", I've discussed "real fans" before, and how fucking stupid this term is. There's no such thing; I still consider myself a Sonic fan (the first fandom I was ACTIVELY a part of in the same capacity as I am in this one), even though it's been years since I engaged in fandom content.... if you want to talk about toxic fandoms... WOOO be part of the Sonic fandom in the late 90s/early naughts.... EEE. The term, to me, just screams "gatekeeping" to the worst degree. It's in all media types of fandom too: Music, TV, books, movies, SPORTS... I can't even.

So on that count, Nonny, I'm just as confused as you are. If that's the case, then I guess I'm not a fan of Star Trek either because I've only watched TNG and own the complete first-distribution box sets with the coloured sides that were 100$ each season, know really stupid nitpicks and facts about TNG, and only watched the TNG movies and the new-Trek movies, all 6 of which I own and watch and love dearly... But nope, not a real fan because I don't like TOS. *shrugs*. Fucking ridiculous.

The way I see it, you spent money and time into and/or got ENJOYMENT from an IP, then you're a fan. Period, end of sentence.

ANYWAY, all that said, Nonny, I understand it's super upsetting to see those kind of things, especially if we're just here to make friends and talk about the things we all have in common, but we don't know their situation or personal history with the fandoms themselves. If they don't want to interact with you, then it's their right to not do so. Just continue on your merry way; there's WAY more people who DO want to chat than there are not. And, if some day they choose to want to interact with various sectors of the fandom, then we can only welcome them and show them the GOOD stuff we have to offer: fanfiction, fanart, gifsets, silly posts, and just all around good cheer. And in the case of my blog, MAYBE show them that some of us are just as disappointed about BBC Sherlock too, hahah.

Hope you have a good day Nonny. You are always welcome here, regardless of fandom or area of adaptation of fandom, heh. <3

Feel free to add on, all.

#steph replies #chatting with nonnies #fandom life #some negativity #tumblr things #sherlock fandom #my thoughts

[duckprintspress]

hullo!! would you happen to know of any publications that are looking for poc and/or queer voices? have a nice day :)

Hi! Oh my gosh anon I'm so so sorry I didn't respond sooner, I only saw this ask yesterday.

In general, we don't do tons of tracking of Calls for Submissions, though we do retweet some on Twitter. On Twitter, there's a lot that's aimed specifically at BIPOC and/or LGBTQIA+ authors; following accounts like @/MinoritiesinPub, @/LambdaLiterary, @/callforsubs, and @weneeddiversebooks (which has both a Tumblr, linked by their name, and a Twitter) can help you see those opportunities as they arise. And of course, we reblog on Tumblr and/or retweet on Twitter when we see them, so that our authors and followers can see them and, if they want, apply.

For current opportunities actively accepting applications right now, the only one that springs to mind is @oficmag. They're currently accepting submissions for the first issue of a quarterly publication. They don't specifically say LGBTQIA+, but they exclusively work with fanfic authors, and if there's one thing I've learned after years in fandom, it's that we're an overwhelming queer group, especially those who choose to post on AO3 as opposed to, like, Wattpad.

You can read their Call for Submissions here.

Going forward, I'd love to also start xposting some of the most interesting calls I see from Twitter onto Tumblr, but right now that's just more work than we're able to take on in our current capacity.

I'm sorry I can't be more help! But there's a LOT more active communities for this kind of thing on Twitter than on Tumblr, so baseline, my recommendation is, start following the bigger accounts in Queer and BIPOC publishing on twitter (such as the above - if you want more you can see the list of who we follow) and keep your eyes open. There's still not tons, but there's more all the time!

Thanks for asking!!!

-unforth

#diversity #calls for submissions #twitter #i'm not sure how to tag this #queer fiction

[bigskydreaming]

Have you watched Sarah Z and Melina Pendulum's videos on anti culture, fandom purity etc? I wish to know your opinion on those, if you feel up for it. Have a nice day.

I'll have to get into this more later, might make a video essay on it myself, that's something I'm trying to get more into because its easier for me to expand on a lot of the thoughts I have on these things in that format than trying to articulate them in posts that go on and on, lol.

I will say though that I've seen Sarah Z's video on anti's vs pro-shipper, but Melina Pendulum is a new one to me and I'll have to check that out at some point. Personally, I found Sarah Z's take to be....very superficial, tbh, and aimed more at like 'can't we all just get along' and taking the stance that a lot of pro-shipper vs anti discourse is just crossed wires and misunderstandings due to the vagueness of various terms and criticisms.

I vehemently disagree with this take and think its actively Part Of The Problem, Actually, because it glosses over a large facet of the ACTUAL problem, which is that many MANY people who are pro-shippers or anti-antis actively EXACERBATE the vagueness of various arguments, criticism and the like....

Because their own arguments fundamentally rely on being able to swap out criticism of fic or art about an adult being shipped with a literal twelve year old with more generic criticism of adults being shipped with children period, when that can technically apply to like, a college-aged person being shipped with someone in high school when the college-aged person is still just nineteen themselves and the high schooler turned eighteen.

Now, whatever your personal feelings on either of these proposed ships, the biggest issue that immediately jumps to my mind here is that like....those two scenarios are not REMOTELY interchangeable, and a person's thoughts on one don't necessarily have anything to say about their thoughts on another.....and people KNOW this but still blithely respond to criticism of the former by treating the situation as though everyone who talks about CP or pedophilia in fandom is baseless because they're obviously all talking about situations like the latter.

And this in practical applications, allows people to hide behind how broad fandom populaces in GENERAL view something like a year or two age gap that puts shipped characters on opposite sides of a high school and college divide....

As a shield even for criticism that was EXPLICITLY intended to be about something like that college-aged character being shipped with a character they literally baby-sit in the canon they're from.

So no, I personally believe a lot of the problem in these types of discourse isn't crossed wires....its deliberate and willful misrepresentation aimed at allowing people to defend actions or choices behind arguments that aren't even about the specific characters or dynamics that incited a specific bit of criticism in the first place.

Many, MANY people have very specific, very CLEARLY defined criticisms of different types of content that never get heard or addressed in any capacity at all, because people are too busy quickly responding with something that isn't honestly aimed at acknowledging the actual criticism sent their way, but rather with a shell-game style defense that swaps the raised inciting scenario out for a more defensible scenario, and literally RELYING on the vagueness of terms like anti and proshipper and the POSSIBILITY of crossed wires to act like this is all just much ado about nothing and people are blowing things out of proportion, when the reality is they just raised a smokescreen that kept the actual criticism in question from ever even being addressed.

There's actually a hell of a lot more about her takes that I vigorously dislike, lol, but I mean, that's enough just for right now I think. (And it covers about the first twenty minutes of her two and a half hour video on this topic, so like, yeah, trust me, I have a LOT more opinions on various other aspects of this topic that she raises, and I uh. Yeah, her takes are Not Good, essentially is my take. Just very shallow and never actually touching on the heart of the real issues I and many others raise about these topics at all, despite couching her video as being an earnest attempt at seeing both sides of the equation. Many of her arguments are simply just pro-shipper dressed up in Reasonable Clothes that must be reasonable, obviously, because didn't we all watch as she tailored them specifically to the various arguments at hand? Well no, actually, we watched as she tailored them specifically to her PRESENTATIONS and framing of the various arguments at hand, which is not actually the same thing at all).

But mostly, my opinion here is just that Sarah Z attempts to treat this all as very abstract and academic and the simple reality for a lot of us is that's not accurate at all, and thus can never adequately address the arguments and criticisms being made.

Because there's absolutely nothing abstract or academic about arguments that rely and depend on shell game defenses to even EXIST, because people aren't willing to even step up to the actual specific criticisms made and defend their positions against THOSE, specifically, and personally, I think that says all that really needs to be said about anti vs proshipper discourse.

If I know damn well what my specific argument is, and I also know equally damn well that a person's response didn't address a single actual element I raised and attempted to twist the situation into being about something else entirely and then defending THAT.....

Then I also know damn well that not a single actual defense was made to criticism I raised. Only deflection.

And again, that's not the same thing at all.

[bleachbleachbleach]

HELLO.

I just wanted to say that I love, love, love your tags on that character/tool post a lot! Some of my favorite shows/books involve characters that can't keep it together and just barely make it to the end of the story or make it there in an "inconvenient way" and tbh I find that usually the narratives that follow these characters don't really work away from them either--the narrative is just usually more questioning instead of fully formed.

Like, 'what if/how would', y'know? There's less of a clear meaning and more just 'what if they hadn't done that. what if they had done that. what if all that meant nothing. what if that struggle was all there was'.

But oh boy, when they DO work away from the narrative. *chefs kiss*

I mean, most of my favorite Bleach characters are narrative nightmares who either hinder or cut off lines of theme in the story entirely. And, in general, I think there are A LOT of characters in shonen--a genre known for very long narratives that can't possibly complete every thought but also can't just abandon all those characters introduced ESPECIALLY the fan favorites or personal favorites--work in the way you described.

Tbh i think your tags really highlight why so many ppl get drawn to these characters/why they're so fun to play with in fanfiction.

If you have more to add or more thoughts about this you want to lay down I am here, eagerly awaiting and ready to pick them up.

Also, who do you think in Bleach is the most fun characters who sort of drop kicked the story, in your opinion? Who's the one you like the most? And who's the one you dislike the most?

[For posterity the referenced post is this one.]

Aww, thank you! That’s really lovely to hear. I was anxious about even putting it in tags because I don’t think I presently have the capacity to explain it well—and even if I did might still sound bananas to many. Or at least the bit about negotiating with characters and how *they* feel about being subjects in stories. Because as much as that really is my practice saying it out loud takes me back to like… FFN in 2003 where every store was prefaced by extensive chat-form back-and-forths between the fic author and their character "musies" and that is not something I think fandom would benefit from bringing back in force, hahaha. But anyway.

Here’s the part where I disappoint because I don’t think I actually know Bleach well enough to speak to it in this context. WHICH SOUNDS DUMB EVEN AS I TYPE IT BECAUSE LOL WTF IS THE NAME OF THIS BLOG WE ARE CHARLATANS AND POSERS FOR CLAIMING AS OUR NAMESAKE NOT ONE BLEACH BUT THREE BLEACHES but truly, my experience of Bleach has a shallow depth of field. I feel like I have weirdly intimate knowledge of some severe rabbit holes but a non-existent to uneasy sense of the gestalt.

Like idek man, in my "slow re-read where I am actually paying attention" Ichigo hasn’t even met Byakuya and Renji yet. ToT

I'm gonna put this behind a cut because it spidered all over the place, but in summary:

characters and their capacity to produce narrative failure

the charm of longform serialized series and their invitations to imagine stuff

me attempting to talk about Hitsugaya and feeling a fool, as usual

I guess in general terms, I’m really interested in characters and their capacity to produce narrative failure. Not failure as in 'bad' but failure as in things that break form or are circuitous or are actively detrimental to a narrative arc. All my strongest examples of what I’m thinking of are from a different fandom and therefore not relevant to this blog, alas. By comparison I think anyone in Bleach can keep it together better than the characters that are immediately coming to mind, lol. But I think this idea dovetails often with trauma narratives, or depression narratives, because these things are often… non-narrative? Like, there’s no fourth or fifth for minor fall or major lift. Sometimes it’s the same thing over and over again, or maybe nothing. Maybe it’s the exact same self-sabotage narrative dictates could have been avoided. Maybe it’s some act that emanates forth but cannot be explained because it cannot be explained and will never be explained. That’s a version of what I’m talking about, in any case, though not the only version.

Your note about longform shounen definitely resonates with me, too. In my mind I don’t like long things and I prefer series that are more self-contained but whenever I have ever landed in a long-term fandom, with a piece of media I felt obliged to carve out chunks of my life for, and to interact with at that level of creative fannishness, it’s always been something stupid long and serialized by the seat of its pants. I know plot holes or dropped threads bother a lot of people (makes total sense, don’t get me wrong) but I find these things incredibly attractive. I see them as invitations to join in the fun. Especially when it’s so much a part of the form and genre to have this, as you said, lack of real expectation that every thread will be followed to its conclusion (or that it would be worthwhile to do so) and every thought completed.

There’s this piece by David Grann that was published in The New Yorker in 2004 that I really love that speaks to part of this idea, albeit in terms of fictional universes versus fictional characters. But Grann is talking about Sherlock Holmes (Doyle original) and the ways that Sherlockians would like, approach apparent lapses in narrative and then solve them according to the established rules of the universe. I just love that. There’s also the line, "Never had so much been written by so many for so few," which LOL if that ain’t fandom I don’t know what is!!

I feel like I’m actually talking about three distinct but related facets of these thoughts in this post, except all at once and without clear transition, uhhhhh.

Gah, I am broken and now can ONLY think of examples from my not-Bleach fandom, but to try a different tack and add yet another facet to this already funhouse-mirror post, my various attempts to write Hitsugaya often feel like they come up against a version of this. I think Hitsugaya has aggressive side character energy, and I find it difficult to make him the center of a story and have it feel right to me. He feels different to me than writing other minor characters, where they can be the center of their own stories even if their story is not the main story. Like, two of my fave characters in my other fandom have literally like… three lines in 350+ episodes and it feels easier to imagine THEM at the center of their story and I think what it comes down to is that Hitsugaya probably prefers what he not be written. And when he does become more narrative I think he’d prefer that none of it was happening in the fist place. But at the same time he always seems to be…around??? whether there is really a good reason for him to be present or not. XD So while, say, he and Bartleby "would prefer not to" (because THAT'S what this post needs, a Melville reference), Bartleby actually opts out and Hitsugaya out here volunteering.

He also often feels non-narrative to me because he feels very declarative, if that makes sense? Like, the coming-to-decisions or coming-to-realizations parts of existence happen pretty quick, or are approached perfunctorily. I feel like I find narrative in the "coming" part of that equation and instead Hitsugaya will be like, well, I’ve already done that part without you, and/or plan to do that part in the future and it will still be without you, the audience. Anyway, here’s the determination I’ve made, here’s what I’m going to do, and here begins the long and probably tedious process of my doing that thing (off 2 go train in a cave for a bit). I don’t think he actually believes the world is that simple, Tab A into Slot B, but I do think he’s already made that assessment and can see coming to terms with that as a horizon, if that makes sense. So even if he doesn’t know the answer to something, or is completely at a loss of what to do (what to say to Hinamori? how to productively address the number Aizen’s done on him) there’s still not necessarily a story there. Maybe the answer is you grind, and it is repetitive and boring. Maybe you just hold things. There’s not even the act of learning how to hold things, necessarily, just the practice of doing so.

Wow, that probably doesn’t sound good! I feel like I need to suffix this with the assurance that Hitsugaya is my absolute runaway character in the whole series and this was true 15 years ago and it is still true now (truer, even) and everything I just said are reasons why I love him.

#i feel like this is one of those 'well.... that sure was a Post' situations #and i will have to try to articulate this better in the future #probably multiple times #ideally with concrete explicated examples for the sake of clarity lol #but please take this as an invitation to talk about YOUR read of Bleach/Bleach characters and/or elaborate on your also excellent tags

[tuiyla]

I often come to this glee blog to vent, and this time is no different.

I was scrolling down a glee confessions blog from the fandom's hayday, and holy fucking shit what a mistake that was. Glee was the most terrible fandom in this planet. Never have I seen a fandom insult and bully each and every cast member to such a capacity. The racism, the misogyny, the hate, the bullying. My god, never I have seen so many people insult and spread lies about Cory Monteith and his passing. I am disgusted and I am angry, so very angry that one of the pillers of the glee tumblr fandom had allowed and encourged slutshaming, fatshaming, bullying, and homophobia on their page just in the name of free speech. The amount of times Naya and lea had been called sluts, whores, and other degrading nicknames in regards to their bodys and careers. No wonders so many of the actors distanced themselves from the show, the fanbase was insane.

At least I can rest knowing the glee fandom could never be the same as it was and be somewhat hopeful of the progress it achived.

I wasn't in the Glee fandom in its heyday and there's maybe a teeny tiny part of me that regrets that, if only because there's always something special about a live fandom where episodes are still coming out. That said, most of the time I thank the lord I was never tempted into keeping up with Glee as it was airing and that's because the Glee fandom was always notorious for its intensity. You couldn't have paid me enough to touch it with a 10 foot-pole in 2012. So all in all, none of this surprises me.

I tend to stay away from confessions blogs as they're often an excuse for people to spread their horrible opinions - not horrible in that I merely disagree but in that they're actively hateful and often towards the actors, not even the characters, just as you described. Don't get me wrong other fandoms could be wild too and active fandoms nowadays are still yikes sometimes but Glee... Glee was a beast of its own, I think.

It's disgusting. No other word for it. I can only hope those who disrespected Cory and called the cast horrible, horrible names were too young and immature to realize how fucked up all that was. I hope they're grown now, looking back in regret. That's the most I can hope for, really. But you know, I also watched from the sidelines two years ago when people said absolutely appalling things about Naya - as she was still missing, her loved ones dreading the worst. As she was found, not even buried yet but pathetic terminally online trolls already spewing their hate, their ignorant takes on a human being who just lost her life. The mother of a then 4-year-old boy. I have to believe they were too damn young to realize how utterly despicable that was. I have to, because the alternative is, what? That someone could be so willfully rotten? Heck, I saw horrible horrible takes on the cast on reddit about a year ago, too. People up on their high horses, speaking about ~problematic~ things the cast have done, judging them like they were just people on our TVs created for our consumption. They aren't.

But yeah. My own mini venting aside, there's a reason I stay away from reddit now and why I curate my fandom space, not just in terms of Glee as much as possible now. I don't have the patience for this bullshit. I barely have the strength to give them the benefit of the doubt and hope they have, or will eventually change. I don't like focusing on the actors instead of the characters in general; sometimes appreciating them, sure, and in times like these with Cory and Naya's anniversaries it's nice to keep them in our thoughts. But in my experience, things tend to get out of hand once fans allow themselves to look at the actors as anything but human beings whose private lives we do not have any kind of entitlement to. Real-life shipping is a good example. Getting mixed up in made-up dramas and having the audacity to assume we could ever possibly know the life Cory had, the life Naya had, being another one.

Here's the thing about free speech, since you brought it up: just because you can say stuff doesn't mean you should, and certainly doesn't mean anyone's obligated to provide you with a platform. I've never run a confession-type blog myself and I doubt I ever will, but I have run fan sites and just for me personally there would have been rules against confessions about the cast and hateful rhetoric. This sense of... entitlement that people feel towards actors and celebrities. It's disturbing. It's an ugly, ugly side of fandom.

I'm glad you feel safe and comfortable enough to vent. I hope it's okay I vented in return. I suppose, times like these, it's the "basic human decency" and "media studies" parts of my brain automatically starting a conversation. I'd like to think people, in general, are more respectful towards Cory now. Naya, too, of course, but I feel like Cory had even more lies and hate spread about him due to the circumstances of his death. With the 9th anniversary of his passing coming up, I can only hope his loved ones feel more at peace now. Not that nine years matter all that much when you lose someone - I recently had a 9th anniversary of my own grief. But hey, this is still about Glee! So, yeah. Let's be grateful for the progress. I'm grateful for the people I surround myself with in this fandom and I don't need more. And reading this I once again thanked the heavens I was never even tempted to join the Glee fandom at its peak.

#anon #glee asks #glee fandom #tw death #tw grief #cory monteith #naya rivera #discussions of their deaths please be warned #just lamenting on the cruelty of celeb culture i suppose #and fan culture too #i have a feeling as to who you are anon but dw i'll keep it between us haha #for real i'm happy to be able to create a safe space #glee cast

[ornithia]

again? ohboy let's take a look:

still a racist, i see

so ... you admit to trolling? in other words, you knowingly and willfully instigated drama in the fandom tags, fully aware that your "cohorts" in this entire mess were likely fabricating the true extent of their "reactions"? wow - and the craziest thing is i can't tell if this is actual honesty coming from you for once or if you're just attempting to downplay the role of your own antics by throwing your own 'friends' under the bus now, i mean - really? color me surprised_pikachu.jpg

i mean, you keep using our names and talking about us, so yeah, anons are gonna let us know bc you're basically shit-talking behind our backs instead of actually confronting us directly by unblocking and having an actual conversation. and SPEAKING of assumptions and viv, i can't believe you're actually making an ass out of yourself over this:

look at all these ASSUMPTIONS you've made! what a shame i'll have to tear them down one by one:

i have 0 interest in FNAF. like, i legitimately think it's a bad game specifically for the reasons you described about it just now (i don't scare easily at ALL, jump scares are stupid and cheap, and the character designs are hideous and aesthetically displeasing to ME (though i wont shit on people who did like the game bc separation of art and artist is a thing that exists). idk who your anons are/were, that's how internet anonymity works but fuck them if they sent death threats, they should take their own advice if they're going to sink to that level

whatever gave you the notion that i might support the republican agenda in ANY capacity? it's laughable, seriously - i won't condone doxxing but also fuck the FNAF dude for actively funding the oppression of marginalised groups. i literally don't care enough about him to even recall his name from all of the whole doxxing drama or to even google his name right now, but viv was right

and viv was so right, in fact, that i spent days literally reporting doxxing posts and blogs targeting her - here's proof:

(there's more btw but i'm not going to screenshot every single instance bc this post has a 10 image limit, lol. but there you go, i actually did something about the situation and helped remedy it to some extent (and i'm still going, btw - i've also done this for the times the tags were spammed with kpop stans' fancam gore and drug peddling posts, too, but no you just think i'm just a "bully" for calling out your bullshit boohoo ;;uwu;; )

actually, i don't regret stepping in to call out an older fan for using their age/disability as "leverage to blow up at a younger fan unnecessarily for the crime of not knowing the full situation, that's completely on you - what goes around comes around (ALSO i'd like to add that throughout this whole situation, i merely pointed out all of the inconsistencies in everyone's arguments, and there were many. if you personally felt i was defending her, then maybe it wasn't me defending her so much as your own guilty conscious realising you weren't 100% in the right of the situation and that's not my problem, that's yours to recognise and reflect on)

oh "honey, sweetie" - i know how the @ function works. but the reason i or others use it is for our own legibility, regardless of whether it actually notifies you or not due to your little blockade (and this isn't the first time i've explained it to you either - who knows if it'll stick this time). like so, @heartshapedcreaturefromcriptoon - did that work? not a fucking chance, but it looks nicer imo so i think i'll go ahead and keep using that format to my heart's content my own blog, tyvm

again, the only person vague-blogging throughout this entire ordeal has been you. i've directly addressed all matters pertaining to me directly, or referenced people who have gone more in-depth on the topic bc why regurgitate what's already been accurately said? also, this may come as a shock to you, but 6c6 actually reached out to me directly and thanked me for one of my call out posts. this was after my bigger post regarding his and trickster's whole drama with petit, which they undoubtedly saw (trickster, for sure, considering he reblogged me, and you KNOW he did bc you commented on it). and STILL they reached out to me, civilly, without having to resort to blocking me bc nothing i did was actually a threat to them or to anyone else involved (unflattering, for sure, but without ill-intent). proof below (post-deactivation obviously, bc i don't take screenshots unless i have a reason to):

anyway, so where were we? oh yes - that whole thing you went off on about guillermo del toro? added absolutely nothing to this convo. using your disability (or any other irrelevant token about yourself) as a shield against valid criticisms is not just inherently abelist ("i'm disabled so i can't be held accountable for my hot takes!" - do you not see the problem here?) it's also dismissive as fuck about the greater discussion at hand that affects everyone in the conversation, not just you. pulling oppression olympics will get you absolutely nowhere, not even in your own community. now let's see if you'll actually read this post or just pretend you did so that you can type out another long-ass rant highlighting your reading incomprehension.

#discourse #heartshapedcreaturefromcriptoon