#I don’t wanna trigger people

[halfblood-princes-crown]

How about a trade? I can tell you about the stuff I did (I was a dangerous kid) in return for knowing why you ran into incoming traffic?

Sounds good to me. I’m not gonna go into too much detail because the situation is triggering, BUT

I was running from someone. My brain works pretty fast in life or death situations, which I am very proud of 😌. The man chasing me was older (70s) and I was in middle school. He was pretty spry for an older fellow BUT realistically I had a better chance at dodging cars than he did. I’m a fast runner and I figured the cars weren’t THAT close so I took my chances. Even tho the situation was fucked up, lemme tell you something…I never felt more alive. Running into traffic really buttered my croissant, you know what I mean!?

The idea of being in a dangerous position is exciting to me now. Like an apocalypse sounds SO GREAT to me. I’m so ready for that.

There was also this one time when I grabbed a snake without warning. I just grabbed the mf. The more common things I wanna do is hang gliding, rock climbing, and skydiving. There are also some wild animals I’d love to encounter

And some people don’t consider this dangerous but I do: abandoned buildings are my current thing. This is halfway on topic, but I recently found these horror movie inspired hide and seek concepts on Tiktok (If y’all wanna check it out lmk and I’ll link them) and my goal is to gather a group of people and go somewhere creepy and abandoned (hospital, warehouse) or maybe a cemetery and do the IT one (pennywise) because hiding, sneaking around, making creepy noises and slowly making people lose their sanity is my area of expertise.

#there are other things I’ve considered doing just to see if I could take it/survive it but #🤐 #I don’t wanna trigger people #I’m not even gonna lie #I’m a walking intrusive thought #I just don’t do the things that might get me arrested #although I’ve considered them

[ssreeder]

I started reading this like 4 days ago, time has blurred together. I have not slept over 5 and a half hours of sleep in that time, I had to get up at 6 for something and was going 'just one more chapter' several times until it was 2am. The only thing that I can think about is LIAB, I am quickly losing my sanity to Zukka and the prison camp. I came here for a fun time, a good time and the sheer amount of angst that I had heard this had. And, I was certainly not lied to.

I am the type of person to read hard core angst. Impaling, torture , doesn't even phase me anymore (bit concerning but ignore that), I have taken to the blank word document to get that sinking, queasy feeling when the angst gets really hard core. First few chapters of this had me captivated and then Zuko came into it, *Chefs kiss*

I can't read long fics because I don't have the attention span, but for this I make an exception, also if you read it all in like 4 days the attention span doesn't have time to run out! I am on the 3 part, chapter 2 and I actively plan to binge read it tonight. Do I have school in the morning? Yes. Am I still going to stay up until 1 in the morning reading this and make up for my lack of sleep with caffeine? Also yes.

I really hope that Jet dies in this, I hope that he has a really anti-climatic death as well, like he falls off a slightly too high ledge. NO ONE and I mean NO ONE gets to separate MY GAYS LIKE THAT BECAUSE HE JUST HAD TO TELL FONG THAT ZUKO WAS AT THE BLOODY CAMP!

and the Forest Lesbians, may they live forever in the local folk lore about two witches that lived the forest and used the power of being gay to cure people.

thank you for writing this, it has really made me happy reading this even though my favourite gays are getting traumatised (more traumatised than usual for Zuko). I have only been reading this, my friends are concerned about me since I don't think I have willingly left the house in... *looks down at fingers, realises I don't have enough fingers to count this* umm... too long!

*holds your hands* how are you doing friend??

your ask had me both nervous and excited haha & the greatest thing about responding to this a few days late is that you’ve probably finished it by now haha. I feel sorry for your sleep schedule but I also don’t feel bad haha <3

I’m glad LIAB met your expectations in the angst, it’s probably one of the more angsty/ darker zukka fics & it’s probably going to get worse lol. (Not for zukka specifically, everyone gets to join this time) But you’ll see… if I can hold your attention until the end haha.

as for your Jet thoughts I’m sure you found out what happened to him by now ;) <3

thanks for this amazing ask seriously you’re great & you deserve to get yourself a treat for taking the time to send me this haha YOURE AWESOMEEEEEE

#I always get nervous when I get long asks #I think I have negative comment PTSD or something haha #I’ll get an ao3 comment or tumblr ask and I get all nervous like OH NO THEYRE GOING TO CRITICIZE MEEEEEEEE #& then it’s really nice and I feel SILLY #anyway yeahhhh I’m sure LIAB is one of the more darker zukka fics lol #I say that casually but also warn the shit out of people in the tags #I don’t want anyone to ever get triggered #Because I do think people sometimes don’t take tags seriously #But I’m glad you liked it so much you got all the way to the third book #You’re seriously amazing for reading all thay #I wrote all of it and I don’t even wanna read it all haha #I had to go searching for something the other day and I had to like suit up to dive into all that and find my fact #I’m very serious about connecting facts haha #I may have foreshadowed something in chapter 2 book 1 that I’m holding onto for chapter 20 book 3 haha #I’m crazy sorry haha #Anywayyyy I’m curious if you did catch up #I’ve got another 20k chapter almost done lol #Well anyway THANKS FOR THE ASKKKK #LIAB #RIA #ITF #ask

[davidgrandorder]

Fun thing people should try: if you’re going to tell trans people they shouldn’t view a trans character as trans- don’t! 💖

#I have a bunch of posts saved in my drafts now but they’re just too hefty and I don’t wanna trigger people #so this is all I’ll say rn #if trans people relate to caenis and his story as a trans narrative then he is trans #you don’t have to agree you don’t have to share that view but you also don’t have to tell others they shouldn’t have that view #one day I won’t have to talk about this anymore

[athetos]

Okay this is something that has taken me years to come to terms with and I just need to get off my chest especially since im not in therapy anymore and honestly only a few close friends know this but talking about it is still hard and I want to be able to better forgive myself and get rid of some of the internalized shame that plagues me because of this, and like, just be more comfortable admitting this fact to myself so I can better heal from it. And I know it’s also triggering to a lot of people so I never feel like it’s ever appropriate to discuss I should have a therapist again maybe sometime. But I’m gonna just say it and maybe delete this later. But I’m a rape + abuse survivor and it’s took me years to even “unlock” this trauma and properly process it. I’ve come a long way but idk I just wanted to get this off my chest because it’s been aching to come out but I also don’t wanna burden people.

#I want to ‘move on’ from this but I’m always gonna have ptsd and complicated triggers and. trying to make peace with that. #idk why it’s been at the forefront of my mind the past couple weeks #maybe because I’m yearning for a long term relationship rn and this is barriers I need to break through #like oh man if I wanna love someone and marry them I have to learn to trust them and take that leap #and the fact that I’m afraid of falling into an abusive relationship again #because as much as I tell myself I’d recognize the warning signs and would leave immediately #I truly will never know what I would do until it actually happens #and I think just the fear of falling for someone and having them turn out to be a scumbag is alone too much #I need to vet potential partners through multiple friend groups or something #my therapist always told me that the reason toxic and/or abusive people try to enter my life is because they can tell I’m vulnerable #like that I’m some sort of easy target because I was a people pleaser and empathize easily #and people realize they can get away with some shitty stuff and take advantage of me since I’m loyal and forgiving #I don’t think I’m like that anymore. I feel like I’m a lot more assertive and like. cognizant of red flags now. #but again… it’s a fear I have #idk what I’m even saying anymore.

[whimsycore]

I called a warm line today because I’m going through a lot and this woman LITERALLY told me to just “let it go”

#the event that triggered this was asking my sister for help #and her telling me to never contact her again btw #I don’t wanna keep calling warm lines but like I need to talk to someone about this and I don’t want to burden people

[woundedheartwithin]

I don’t know what ship you’re talking about but people calling shishido/nishi3 shippers freaks is what converted me into shipping them

THATS THE ONE. It was instantaneous. I hadn’t even thought about them as a ship until I saw what folks were saying 😂 like I love toxic ships and I missed that one entirely, thanks for pointing it out! The whumper/whumpee dynamic alone is to die for! And them both being forced into the daidoji together??? Oh man, that shit hits. Two men who could not have been on more uneven footing— one who tortured the other, who turned the other into a monster by making his life a living hell— suddenly thrust into a situation where they need each other to survive, because there’s no one else around them they could ever trust? It’s like the jock and the geek he bullied both moving to the same new school and becoming friends because they’re the only familiar thing they have to cling to, but turned up to eleven. I dig it, man

#she speaks #like obv I have my own squicks and I don’t begrudge folks having theirs #but being nasty to people just for shipping two lines of code? #nah I ain’t about that #ship and let ship my friends #and use the filter function if you see something you don’t like #I don’t often write these ships because I don’t think I have the chops to really commit #but there’s nothing better than reading a fic that hits the dynamic right on the money #yakuza gaiden spoilers #spoilers #toxic relationship #and now #I’m the interest of tagging my shit #in* the interest of tagging my shit #and hopefully #with enough tags ahead of it to keep #it out of #the main tag if one even exists #but so the filter will catch it because #I don’t wanna trigger folks who #don’t like the ship #for their own reasons #because I’m not about that either #and again I don’t begrudge folks their squicks #I just think it’s dumb to be nasty to folks for shipping pixels #shishido/nishi3

[danielnelsen]

there’s so much i wanna do this week/month/etc but i’m just too sick, i have no energy, i can’t sleep, i’m constantly nauseous and headachey and on the verge of a migraine, i’m stressed and irritable and impatient and panicky…….how tf did i survive nearly 5 years of high school untreated if i can’t even manage this when i don’t have any major obligations rn

#at least i finally got my meds so hopefully i feel a little better soon #although i’m now on 20 pills per day which is Just Great #whenever i’m in remission it’s nice to just. forget sometimes that this can happen at any time #kinda wish i had the typical kinda chronic illness that people talk about with ‘flares’ #or at least triggers that i can plan around #the other times have all had an easily identifiable stressor tho tbf. idk what caused this one #the first time was whooping cough and the next few were all very major life stressors like my cat dying right after i started uni #and i think also towards the end of my honours thesis? #but this…….there’s no major stress right now. nothing wildly beyond normal #i’m a little concerned about my joints tho. they’ve been so much worse than normal the last few months #so i’m kinda worried i’m developing rheumatoid arthritis (also an autoimmune disease and it runs in the family specifically) #so if that’s happening then it could set my thyroid off? probably should get to the doctor at some point #obv i’m seeing my endo for thyroid stuff. but i should see my gp and get her to run all the autoimmune blood tests again #i’ve done that before but it’s been a few years and my ankles and knees are so painful i can’t even walk properly a lot of the time #BUT I JUST WANNA DO THINGS I ENJOY AND I CANT AND I WILL CONTINUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT IT #‘oh you’re so lucky you don’t have as many obligations because you’re chronically ill’ ha ha ha please swap lives with me immediately #personal #but seriously. i wasn’t diagnosed until i was nearly 17 and we can trace it back to whooping cough when i was 12 #so it was the last half of year 6 and then all of years 7-10 and the start of year 11 of just being. uh. ‘very lazy and complaining a lot’ #and TEACHERS joking about me and my sister (who was dealing with an arguably more severe undiagnosed disease) missing so many classes #wow so funny pdhpe teacher who’s supposed to be teaching is about health #and the thing with being a mentally ill teenager is that hyperthyroidism can just look like a very severe anxiety disorder #so i didn’t go to the dr until i was too sick to go to school at all. and luckily had a good dr who did a blood test #i’m just rambling now because i can’t sleep and i don’t wanna lie here doing nothing #might go play pvz or something. that’s been keeping me entertained

[bcofl0ve]

So when do we find out what your “mollie doesn’t want to get sued” post was about? lol

ideally before mid march but genuinely i have no idea LOL, i wish i did bc the longer i have to keep my trap shut the more feeling like this guy

is going to drive me to the brink 😭

#maybe the right people who watch my blog will see this and think of if it’s already floating let’s pull the trigger here LOL #dw you don’t need to do it as mollie insurance like #scouts honor i don’t wanna step on toes but also yyooohooooo please don’t make me be party corner guy for a month ill lose it #a bit #also if it hits production weekly i will take that as it being okay to talk but it has not #so if y’all wanna manifest that! #all love xoxo

[cicadaknight]

The fastest way to make me bristle is by a non-USA person saying something like “I just learned that America is in it’s 7th stage of genocide from an optional course in my Canadian high school. And our education system is sooooo much better than America’s, don’t know if you learned about that. So let me explain it to you!”

Like… hon. Could you be any more condescending and out of touch with day to day American life? Your overwhelming vision of the USA might be a bunch of entitled, white, ignorant fucks, but that doesn’t make it so. BIPOC have known this shit. Queer people have known this shit. Working class people have known this shit. Disabled people have known this shit!

America is heavily manipulated by propaganda and political theater. Yes, our public systems like education and transit are severely controlled and underfunded. (Most importantly, they’re inequitably underfunded and controlled by region. Either because of regional poverty or regional political dominance.) Yes that has consequences. But it doesn’t mean everyone (or even a majority) is universally uneducated, salivating for individualism, and unaware of our predicament. And I’m not even gonna go into the impact of the internet on our ability to access knowledge and community (for better or for worse).

I saw a post on here awhile ago that said most foreign hot takes about the US boil down to an ignorance about how classism, racism, and corporate greed impact the very core of our existence. Y’all need to stop falling for American propaganda too.

#almost 100% of the time if you’re shitting on america you’re shitting on populations of our people who have been completely fucked over #and also i wanna say i (in an average suburban public school) did learn about this #i could rant about everything those teachers taught me that went far outside their state mandated curriculum #they taught me to think critically and analyze the motivations of sources #they taught me that my world will be small if i don’t broaden in intake of art and experiences #they taught me to problem solve and collaborate #and yes they taught me that america is FUCKED #and all while getting severely underpaid and under appreciated and then shit on by everyone #this was all triggered by some canadian teen on tiktok makin a video about how she just learned about the stages of genocide in america #and i know she’s just shocked and wants to help #but i’m tired #vent #h #also this is my thousandth plea to tumblr staff to let us edit typos in tags on mobile

[mthevlamister]

Stuck between Leanna Firestones “happy wife, happy life, I could be happy with you” and Chase Petra’s “I’m a bitch, I’m a whore, I’m a slut, I’m a cunt”

Those are the two moods

#I’m constantly flip flopping between them #use of c word #idk if that triggers people #but I wanna make sure I don’t trigger anyone so I’ll tag #c word

[vampireknitting]

I have to get my wisdom teeth removed here on the 4th and I really wish medical anxiety wasn’t so dismissed or laughed at.

The anxiety has been slowly ramping up since Christmas and now that I have to cut out the only thing that’s managed the fibromyalgia bs. I mean sure it’s just weed. But when my health tanked and I was throwing up half of everything I tried to eat and losing weight like it was nothing. Unfortunately it was the only thing that helped stop the vomiting.

I’ve been put on and taking off several medications over the years for being the unlucky type that doesn’t react well to different meds. All the gut pills they wanted me to take hurt or was you know making me digest my own blood.

The Fibromyalgia began creeping in when I was in high school and the doctors I had told me to eat pills and go away. I had injured my knee and it just didn’t get better. I still have issues with it. Being a childhood cancer survivor means health complaints must be cry’s for attention or drugs.

They asked me to not consume any weed because they don’t know if it’ll hurt me to be put under so they can cut out the heavily impacted teeth. Which fine, I won’t fight because they could label me as some sort of user or drug obsessed or whatever. But the only drug that I know can kill you while being put under is meth.

My sister’s dental surgeon said don’t stop smoking weed because there isn’t anything out that supports either side. Pro weed or anti-weed before surgery. He didn’t want anything to add to the stress of the surgery so he said keep doing what you’re doing.

#disabled homemaker #just some thoughts #too much anxiety #i just wanna cry #how do you stand your ground against people who are so quick to label you as some sort of druggie #they argue with me when I say painkillers make me sick #I’m not asking for special treatment just for straight answers. #it’s made worse when I get eye rolls for saying my health issues started before I started smoking #I’m not asking you fucks to smoke with me I’m asking you why #how do you even begin working with an anxiety type that is triggered by medical professionals? why are drugs the only fucking answer? #I was diagnosed with leukaemia at 4.5 years old. my most important years of development #have been dominated by adults who kinda treated me like a fucking animal who couldn’t understand a lick of English #or ignored because she only misses the treatment she use to get as a child. #because I love being talked over like I don’t fucking exist or I’m just crazy #I just love the sneer I get when they read cancer survivor in my charts and suddenly I’m the paragon of health #even though I’ve been asking for help for most of my life because I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t keep up with the other kids. #because the cancer is gone you can’t possibly have any other health issue ever because that’s a direct insult the medical professionals #to insinuate that they couldn’t play god and make me magically so healthy that chemotherapy couldn’t possibly leave behind issues. #no that only happens to adults because children are supposed to be rubber and bounce no matter what #just ugh #fuck the medical system #medical anxiety

[humanitys-strongest-bamf]

what happened in undergrad with Greek life? You don’t have to answer I’m just legit curious

lol. not going to fully get into it bc I know a lot of people have great memories with Greek life so I don’t wanna shit on it but

Basically got kicked out for being autistic

They also encouraged my ex’s abusive behavior so you can see why I’m a tad :/ about it

#if this was a few years ago I probably would’ve been hella triggered even talking about Greek life #even now I’m like lakfkskfkskf about it if someone ends up getting defensive #I know people love it and I don’t wanna knock it #I’m sure that many wonderful memories and communities form from it #I just #I can’t just forgive and forget with this in particular #I’m sorry #Kat chats #tw: mentions of abuse #sorry nonnie #this isn’t directed at your question and I’m glad you felt comfy enough to ask #I just still get rly anxious when talking about it

[bugdogg]

It’s a little upsetting that the edibles actually lessened the thoughts

#tw weed #I don’t wanna rely on these but they help me more often than I’d expect #I really hate complaining and telling others about my issues #worried about triggering people #i don’t like worrying others but Ik I need somebody #to say something to #but I don’t do well when I forced to relax #I’ll be fine

[ironysgrace]

Anyone else struggle with going from a cool beige in the winter to a warm brown in the summer?

Like I get an identity crisis when the seasons change 💀

I mean not only do I need to change the way I dress and apply makeup but also I go from white passing racially ambiguous to very obviously not real MaYoNnAiSe

And idk it’s just a weird way to exist? From white people who know me grabbing me randomly to freak out over how tan I suddenly got and/or asking if it’s real, to the up tick in people wanting to play the “what are you game”

And because of my curls a lot of people make the assumption that I’m part Black or Hispanic/Latinx and that feels weird cause I’m being assigned like complex weighted social identities that I don’t really have anything to do with while never having the ones I actually do be recognized?(I’m Athabaskan, Alaskan native)

I honestly don’t know how to word all the feelings around that or if it’s even worth trying for or if it’s more just internalized issue that I need to work on personally and not worry so much about other peoples perceptions

Which is a bit of an identity crisis in its own way because being able to clearly articulate nuanced ideas in a meaningful way is something I’ve had grafted to my idea of self since I was a child

And I mean struggling with the reverse of this when the sun leaves and my melanin recedes with it is also really hard because instead of being conflate with the wrong minority I start to wonder if I still have one at all

Which is weird because it’s not like I turn ghost white or my hair is turns straight so it’s not like everything disappears but also those aren’t even really things that I associate at all with my native identity at all, in fact the curls are from my Irish side of the family, they’re simply things I know others use to gage my otherness

I guess I just feel I’m constantly trying to juggle having cultures that aren’t mine handed to me and then exchanged for another while never getting to really hold my own, I wanna be so careful because if either I drop or hold anything I’m handed I can easily hurt and offend people

even holding the white culture I’m actually kind of a part of feels not only disingenuous but dangerous

But there is one thing growing up like this has taught me, if all that I am can appear subjective, then why would I ever take anyone’s appraisal of my beauty as written in stone?

If all the pain, love, and knowledge passed from my ancestors to me can be mistaken for blood sweat and tears of another with the passing blase of small talk then how on earth could I take another’s word for what is or isn’t beautiful about me?

You can’t tell me my features aren’t beautiful if you don’t know who’s beauty they were born from

#I have no idea how to even begin tagging this #also I don’t wanna trigger any just trying to enjoy their daily mindless doom scrolling #I don’t wanna tag the wrong people or leave out the right people or just generally offend anyone but also I wanna know I’m not alone #cw racial profiling #that doesn’t feel like the right tag but idk what else to put #it’s what auto generated so Ig I’ll try that #native beauty #alaskan native #athabascan #native people #indigineous people #mixed race #racially ambiguous