#I cant go back to my mother's house bc she's athsmatic

[notcatherinemorland]

hm. I am in the deep shit

#me meta #so 3 days ago I had a go at my stepmother for her self flagulatory comments on her weight because I was DONE with the matyr act about it #shit blew up from there #I gave into my ridiculous compulsion to check the doors and windows downstairs at 3am last night #her office window was open and I shut it and promptly broke down in panic spiral bc home invasion is my no1 biggest fear #oof baring my soul today #anyway. I was not believed until my dad got home from work #step mother wants me to leave house by sectioning me or other #dad wants me to go half way up the country to my aunts for a few weeka #I cant go back to my mother's house bc she's athsmatic #and I'm full on breakdown about everything ever #so. either way I am fucked up the creek. #I'm not saying this for sympathy points or anything this is mostly because I want to remember this moment later #im not posting anything about anything on my better blog rn because i am full mess I am so so so sorry about it #I feel horrible bc it looks like I no lo ger care but I'm also like. Full mental health emergency rn I can't even type things rn #god i cannot wait to move out