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murakamijeva-muza · 5 months

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i overthink.

i overlove.

i over feel.

i am the sea

or i am nothing.

Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction

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asoftepiloguemylove · 2 years

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"Some days I don't exist. My bed becomes a casket."

Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction

#juansen dizon #i am the architect of my own destruction #poetry #poems #words #writing #quotes

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haruosaki · 2 years

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"Some days I don't exist. My bed becomes a casket".

#juansen dizon #I am the architect of my own destruction #quote #text #literature #mood #dark academia

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nellesinferno · 6 months

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– Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction

#juansen dizon #i am the architect of my own destruction #stole from twitter

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cag3dsong · 2 years

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“ This is my ‘done’ face. ” the brunette deadpans. “ are you done lecturing? because I’m done listening. ”

#˚・` . 𝐎𝐩𝐞𝐧 I am the architect of my own destruction.#˚・` . 𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐬 Morgan Stark ❛ this is the story of becoming a hero the hard way. ❜

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oblitcm · 2 years

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“ The Doctors daughter, a murderer, “ a humourless chuckle escapes her lips, swallowing down the emotion that rises in her throat, forcing herself to keep her voice low and steady. “ Are you proud? “

#˚・` . 𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐬 Elizabeth Song ❛ She tastes like fairytales. ❜#˚・` . 𝐎𝐩𝐞𝐧 I am the architect of my own destruction.

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fuckyeahstufficareabout · 7 months

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I wish I had friends on here but I no longer know how to maintain online friendships lol

#also i never talk to anyone #also it's hard enough for me to maintain in person friendships anymore #my point i guess is that i am lonely and i have no one and i am the architect of my own destruction #loneliness #introvert

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mysterieuxclairdelune · 1 year

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{Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction page 24/ Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 6: 1955-1966/ Alice Hoffman, The Red Garden/ Anaïs Nin, from The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 5: 1947-1955/ Haruki Murakami: Norwegian Wood, page 276/ Michael Ondaatje/ Catherynne M. Valente, The Orphan's Tales: In the Night Garden/ D.H. Lawrence, from The Complete Works; The Plumbed Serpent/ Jean-Paul Sartre, from No Exit/ Alice Notley, from In The Pines: Poems; "In The Pines,"}

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thevalleyisjolly · 2 years

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On the plus side, I made it to the second last week of class before giving up on class readings! On the downside, I once again waited until the last minute to write a 2,500 word essay.

#the valley is posting #the valley continues to make poor life choices #i really am the architect of my own destruction (:#it's due in about 22.5 hours and i have about 400 words down #not to mention piano first thing tomorrow morning and then a three hour class #don't rb

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jeeyuns · 2 months

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✍️ I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction | Juansen Dizon

#911edit #evan buckley #evanbuckleyedit #911 abc #t gifs #t creates #userkrys #usercam #alielook #tuserrae

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murakamijeva-muza · 4 months

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conscious-love · 10 months

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She agreed to love herself deeply. She was finally the sun of her own life.

Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction

#Juansen Dizon #self love #self respect #self acceptance #recovery #growth #personal growth #personal development #love yourself #wellness #mental health #quotes

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rphelperblog · 2 years

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Camille O'connell Quote Rp Meme

- Cami is canonically bisexual just as the lovely actress who portrayed her- Leah Pipes-some quotes are slightly edited for rp purposes. feel free to change pronouns as well

“You are the architect of your own unhappiness.”

“Booze and board games... sounds like heaven.”

“You have lived long enough to never tell a woman that she looks tired.”

“Oh shut up, I am so mad at you that I can hardly speak.”

“Because against every ounce of my better judgement and my sanity and my common sense, turns out I have complicated feelings for a monster.”

“Love will make you strong. It will make you the man that I know you want to be, and you have to remember that because I won’t be here to remind you.”

“It never gets old for you guys. your like a dog with a bone.”

“I came through the front door. You appeared through the window like a creeper.”

“is there anyone not plotting your downfall? I doubt you would trust your own reflection.”

“Excuse me, if I have to drink something to get through the killing.”

“I know why I am here. For someone to hear your side.”

“So be a good little boy and get back into bed.”

“Don’t do that crooked smile thing. i haven’t seen you for months and then you show up..”

“I realized that all my saddness was swallowing me up... and I couldn’t let them.”

“Is she right? Do you see me as some fragil thing to keep behind glass?”

“Bartender with a grad degree in therapy- I know a bit of an oxymoron.”

“somethings not right. I just can’t figure it out.”

“I don’t know who you are, but if you have a problem with me. Let them go.”

“You are such a coward. This isn’t about me.”

“This is my time. You steal it from me.”

“I am beginning to think your sister is a bitch.”

“You are to scared to trust.”

“Has it ever occured to you that I am less interested in fixing your problems than I am at swallowing my own.”

“This is not about you. This is about me. And who I am.”

“You are not annoyed me. you are angry at yourself for getting us into a mess.”

“But today you saved someone who doesn’t mean a thing to you, why?”

“We are called therapists these days. And you could do with some couch time.”

“All of your violence is pointless.”

“what if someday his demons become mine too.”

“Who is this dirt bag eyeing me like a lack of lamb? Old friend?”

“I would step in front of a bus before I let your mother control my body.”

“I really don’t have another tomorrow do I?”

“I wanted to be brave, I wanted to handle this with dignity, but I can’t. I don’t want to go, I’m so scared.”

“I guess that makes me immortal.”

“You won’t kill me while the sun is still out.”

My mom said beer wasn't lady like so I learned to love it as an act of rebellion”

"I need to feel that pain. Without it, I feel broken. Empty. Like there is someone to blame and I'm letting them get away with it"

“No one can control you unless you let them.”

“You don’t get to delete the details that annoy you. If you love something you have to accept the good with the bad.”

"Maybe we just do the best we can and never give up."

“My sanity is not a joke.”

Oh goodie, the mystical knife of ludicrous torment. Glad that's still around."

“Oh than you served your purpose don’t let me hold you up.”

“It sounds like booze.. do we have anymore booze?”

“Some people don’t want to be saved.”

“I always imagined that having a woman’s mouth on my kneck would be a lot more erotic.”

“Look at you repeating the cycles of destructions again.”

“This is my time. You steal it from you.”

“You are a scared little kid convinced he will be tossed aside the second he isn’t needed.”

“Don’t patronize me.”

“He’s charming, sexy, confident, incredibly hot. Let’s be honest, he’s a bad guy just like you.”

“Would a laptop kill you?”

“No one is taking that away from me.”

“No I am just getting started.”

“I don’t think you want to hurt me. See he is the most ruthless man in all of history- and he kind of likes me.”

“I don’t know how but I will undo whatever the hell you have done to me.”

“You know I have a black belt in karate.”

“I think I am a pretty good drunk.”

"I know your heart. You're so much better than this."

Because love will make you strong. It will make you the man I know you want to be. And you're going to have to remember that.. because I won't be here to remind you.”

“whoever is out there, make yourself known or I will gouge out your eyes.”

"Every artist has a story you know. He's angry. Dark. Doesn't feel safe and doesn't know what to do about it. He wishes he can control his demons instead of having his demons control him. He's lost. Alone. Or...maybe he just drank too much tonight. Sorry, overzealous psych major.”

“Oh lovely, than instead of hating you darkness, she will become a monster herself by example.”

“I came here because you need me. You needed me to tell you that this is not you.”

“I know you are hurt, but please listen to me, you are better than this.”

“ Am I supposed to fear you too?”

“There is more to life than the pain that they made you feel.”

“There are good things and you need to see that too.”

“If it not for that, someone else would be standing here.”

We were bonded our whole lives. And I know... know he didn't just snap. And I need to know who did this, and I need to make this right. No, no don't take this away from me."

“I was never naive enough to think that I was your light, but there is light in you. All that anger, the cycle of abuse that your father began, you can end it. You have to, so you can be the light for your little girl. “

“You know, sometimes I ask myself why I let people like him into my life. I have this destructive pattern. I’m always drawn to the bad boys. Maybe deep down, I feel like that’s what I deserve.”

“This is a city of death, fires, floods. To say nothing of the violence we do to each other. We may laissez les bon temps rouler, but really we’ve turned life into one big party to distract ourselves from a single, unavoidable truth: We’re all going to die.”

“I took a beer bottle and smashed it in his face.”

People are not awful. They want to be good. Something makes them bad, makes them snap. There are always signs. Symptoms before someone has a psychotic break.”

It’s an ancient mystical plot that I am using to destroy you.”

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fancypersonaskeletonturtle · 2 months

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So….. my holidays are almost at an end, and being the procrastinator I am, I’ve decided that in the next couple of days I’ll be spam posting some random ninjago au ideas that have been bouncing around my head for a while. These are mostly just brainstorms, new oc characters and plot points that I may or may not write. I’m mostly posting the au’s so that I can make ongoing art around the au and its characters as well as just getting the ideas out there and not just letting them rot in my sketchbooks ^~^

Au’s include:

*Bruise kids au

A.K.A Cole and Jay accidentally adopt three kids, Lily(4), Morgan(6) and Riley(13) as a group project, while struggling to keep their ninja identities a secret from them. When family secrets from Jay’s past are uncovered, though, how will Jay and Cole explain their roles as element masters to the kids? This au is set right after Skybound and explores the unrequited?:) bruise dynamic we saw in skybound. Its sole purpose is to fulfil my desire for bruise related family fluff :) and to see Jay live the girl dad experience, because why does everyone else but Jay get to be a mentor/ parental figure but him?

Walker Family tree Bruise Kids Riley Walker

*Storm Chaser

A.K.A I just wanna see dark/ morally grey Jay be the master of the skies and have an epic sky battle with Nadakhan. A Skybound Au, where Nadakhan manages to capture all the ninja in his djin blade, including Nya, after she refuses to marry him. Jay, however, evades capture and manages to convince the crew of Misfortune's keep to join him. Jay reminds them that Nadakahn is only interested in himself and that he will betray them when they are useless to him. Seeing that his crew have turned against him Nadakhan flees into the sky, taking his djin blade, and Jay's friends with him. In this au, the only way to return all the souls that were stolen by Nadakhan is to strike him with his own djin blade. So as the new captain of the Misfortune's keep, Jay embarks on a sky voyage to save his friends and put a stop to Nadakhan's destruction. But can Jay stay focused on his true goal? Or will this become a journey of revenge, seeing our hero hellbent on destroying anyone who gets in his way?

*ATLA au

So…. this plot isn't exactly an original, it’s more of a mashup of ATLA and Ninjago, ‘cause I was curious how each Ninjago character would fit into the ATLAverse.

Avatar Lloyd lives with his Uncle Wu in the Earth Kingdom, and works in his tea shop beside Earth bender- tournament champion and part-time jazz dancer Cole Brookestone. Lloyd soon learns that his father, banished to the spirit world, has found a means to control the spirits, and plans on releasing them into the mortal world as revenge for his banishment. Desperate to grow in elemental and spiritual power to stop his father Lloyd, alongside Wu and Cole, venture across the globe to help Lloyd master all four elements. Having mostly mastered Earth, Lloyd and his companions set out a path to travel to the fire nation, water tribes and finally to the air nomad temples. On the journey Lloyd meets the hot tempered blacksmiths, Kai and Nya, accident prone (but skilled) inventor Jay and architects Zane and Pixal, as well as a mysterious master of air.

#ninjago #fancy rants #imma keep adding tags and au’s to this as I go along #bruiseshipping #skybound jay #skybound au #ATLA au

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pharawee · 1 year

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I honestly expected the Chains of Heart finale to go the usual route and have Din and Ken reunite at the very end.

Maybe they will. They hinted at it by mentioning the 7th day of the 7th month (so I was kind of right with them meeting one year later on 7th July - it's an open ending but I'll take it).

But maybe this was never what the series was about in the first place.

This is what the CoH ig posted tonight:

"Love and separation are the truth of life. No one will stay together forever. Live happily and love the best before it's too late."

Ouch. 🥲

But yeah, Din and Ken loved each other for seven years, but then Din chose duty over love (a duty that wasn't even his to begin with) and they both paid the price.

And then, when he and Ken miraculously survived, he did it again. And again. And again. Right up until the very end when he shot the man who - did what exactly? Shot him first two years ago? Because the way I see it police had things well under control. They didn't need a rookie forest ranger then and they sure as hell didn't need an unhinged vigilante killing key witnesses left and right now.

Sure, Inspector Don probably appreciated the intel (guess he wasn't that much of a good guy after all - he was just pragmatic) but he could have done without it. I guarantee you that if Din had chosen to walk away on that day two years ago, Chief Ingpha would have been arrested sooner or later (would it have stuck? who knows. but that's beside the point).

And remember this bit?

I always thought Din was just being playful here (with fate immediately accepting the challenge lmao) but now I think part of him was always like this. Part of him always chose to "let go of his loved one's hand."

The tragedy of it all is that none of it was even necessary. That he put his family and Ken in danger. That he caused them grief. That he chose to surround himself with people who enabled him and deliberately excluded everyone else. Injustice didn't make him that way. He made himself that way.

And I wonder if he even realises that he's smiling when he takes his revenge.

And I wonder if he realises that he's risking his sister's life by duelling Ingpha with her right in the middle (when family is the reason for his revenge in the first place). By that point he's so consumed with wanting Ingpha dead that he doesn't even check on her as soon as it's safe to do so.

Not even Ken is able to stop him until it's too late.

And it's the shame of Ken seeing him for who he's become that snaps him out of it. Because by choosing to pursue his revenge he's effectively destroyed himself and any chance of a future together (something that even Ingpha didn't manage to do).

So in the end I wonder if Ken not recognising Din was ever about his appearance at all. Because by that point he'd already turned himself into a human ship of Theseus (only more monstrous - because remember he'd already killed several people in cold blood), ridding himself of everything that made Din... well, Din.

And how do you recognise, how do you love someone who's become a stranger?

That being said, I love this show despite its very messy script and overly confusing scene/character hopping. I appreciate what they were trying to do and how ambitious they were with their action sequences and cinematography. Plus, the costumes and make-up were ON. POINT.

I'm not even a little sad we didn't get a happy ending (although I like to believe they'll meet again on 7th July). The whole "I am the architect of my own destruction" trope is a favourite of mine and Boom's (and Haii's) acting made it work beautifully. My heart is so full for Din and Ken. If only they had access to therapy and grief counselling. 🥲

A few other things:

I wonder if Din's mum really recognised him or if her tears were for a memory. I like how it's kept ambiguous.

Doctor Chayeon having the nerve to look shocked when he's part of the reason why things turned out this way. And all because the real Peter Lue's death would have probably cost him his career. Obviously that's far more important than any kind of ethical dilemma (where's even the dilemma? Maybe just don't 3D-print someone a new face so they can commit crime).

Hin and Phayu might as well not have been in this ep at all. We were robbed. 😭 But I actually like how Ken was barely in this ep either - if only to show how distant he had become from Din.

Not Sai still buying into Din's bullshit even one year later. I know I said that I wanted Ken and Din to meet again but damn.

That scene when Din took off his gloves was seriously such a strong moment for me. Maybe I'm overthinking things but for him to wear gloves throughout (almost) the whole show and then taking them off at precisely this moment? And little his smile? That was so good.

I like to think Chief Ingpha died wondering wtf was even going on.

I also like to think that whatever evidence Din had gathered on that recording device didn't even matter because between the organ harvesting and the illegal logging, what more do you need to arrest him?

And I'm really curious if the novel has the same ending. I doubt it but I'll let you know as soon as I find out.

#jane watches stuff #don't mind me i'm just trying to put things into words #and failing miserably lmao #chains of heart #chains of heart the series

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cag3dsong · 2 years

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“ a suit? like… armour? like dad’s…? Nope. Definitely don’t have one of those. Must be some other copycat woman, man, person. ” There’s a strained smile as nervous rambling ensues.

#˚・` . 𝐎𝐩𝐞𝐧 I am the architect of my own destruction.#˚・` . 𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐬 Morgan Stark ❛ this is the story of becoming a hero the hard way. ❜

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