#I CAN'T FUCKING SHOWER

[xenasaur]

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#🌻 #i love him so fucking much I'm obsessed with him I should be giving him what he needs #but he's stuck on the other side of the fucking country with people who don't fucking deserve him! #i should be holding him so fucking close #i should be kissing him and making him feel loved #i should be showering him in attention #i should be making him feel like the most beautiful wonderful loved boy on earth #but I'm not and I fucking can't #feeling: useless

[figofswords]

the post grad why did i get an art degree what am i even doing what do i want in life where am i going crisis has finally hit i want to. lie down in the dirt. or something

#WHAT AM I DOING!!!! #i get up i go to my stupid retail job i stick labels on bags they pay me fucking thirteen bucks an hour i come home i lie on the couch #too tired to draw in too much pain to go anywhere no energy to reach out to college friends to do anything fun #no idea where the even start with getting an industry job no clue what i even WANT at this point #trying to remember what i loved so much about comics i want it BACK i HATE this #WHAT IS THE POINT!!!! WHAT DO I WANT WHERE AM I GOING!!! WHAT COMES NEXT!!!!!! #there's no clear career trajectory i can't do freelance i need structure i can't work too much i need free time #my brain doesn't work every job requires me to move across the country the irs just took fucking three hundred stupid dollars from me #my friends live in different states i can't get a job without experience i can't get experience without a job #i can't work on my portfolio with no energy and no time and i dont have any money and everything is so expensive all the time #i can't get anywhere bc i dont drive and im too stressed to think about taking driving lessons again #and WHAT DO I WANT! #THE MOST INTERESTING THING I DO EVERY WEEK IS GO TO PHYSICAL THERAPY! #I AM EXCITED EVERY WEEK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!! WHY!!!!!!!! #anyway WHATEVER i need to go to bed #delete later #i got into spx. today. so. had to have a crisis about how i felt when i attended spx (energized. excited. a part of something. ambitious) #versus how i feel now (tired. unmotivated. kind of apathetic about art. disconnected) #i dont miss the stress of school but i miss being around other artists. ppl who speak your language and who want the same things you want #ppl who are excited abut art and that makes YOU excited about art. ppl who get you #i miss that i want that back #whatever. its 1am i gotta go shower i have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow. wahoo. $13.50/hr lets go

[preetrambles]

im so bored might as well drop a media post

#/preet's diary/ #pre shower makeup when I can't actually do a fucking eyeliner right

[sunshinediaz]

wip wednesday ♥️

happy wednesday friends <3 i was tagged by @wikiangela, @exhuastedpigeon, and @rogerzsteven to share something so thank u all mwah

this is from eddie vs the hoa because he and buck made a pallet of blanket in the living room floor to sleep on and i think it was cute so please enjoy 🫶🏼

“I know,” Buck says, a little drowsy. And he does know—Eddie’s told him everything. There’s no secrets between them. “It’s big enough for you and Chris to grow in.”  “I think it could be a forever home.” It’s a whisper because anything louder might disrupt the moment. “Mine and my son’s and yours, too.”  Buck blinks, slow and sleepy. He’s less than five minutes from falling asleep; he worked so hard today. He deserves to rest. “Mine?” he repeats, voice pitched high like he doesn’t quite believe it.  Eddie’ll make him.  “Yours.” He reaches out, picks at a dark eyelash resting on Buck’s cheek, and holds the tip of his finger near Buck’s mouth. “Make a wish.”  Buck’s eyes cross, twin blobs of blue in the flickering light of the laptop screen, and he puckers his lips to blow a bit of cool air. The eyelash drifts off somewhere over Eddie’s shoulder, but he doesn’t care to know because the color of Buck’s eyes is the same shade of blue the sky was the night he stayed up with his abuelo.  “What’d you wish for?”  Buck chuckles. “If I tell you, it won’t come true.”  Eddie hums. “I’ll make it come true,” he swears, and he thinks Buck’s cheeks tint red, but it might just be from the light of the laptop screen. 

no pressure tagging @honestlydarkprincess, @giddyupbuck, @eowon, @eddiediaztho, @wildlife4life, @watchyourbuck, @thewolvesof1998, @alyxmastershipper, @jeeyuns, @fortheloveofbuddie, @hippolotamus, @ladydorian05, @callmenewbie, @nmcggg, and anybody else who wants to share something!

#if anybody's wondering we're over 15k in and no eddie's not anywhere close to realizing he is in fact head over ass in love with buck #it's all planned out and can i just say. can i just say that eddie has no inner monologue because he says everything on his mind always #and yeah yeah whatever buck's being a doll and mowing his yard before he gets ANOTHER ticket but does he have to do it shirtless #does he have to draw a whole crowd of people that eddie has to chase off because what the fuck #eddie's got groceries in the backseat he can't be arguing with his neighbors ogling buck #because if his ice cream melts he's going to throw a big fucking fit #he's waited mONTHS for the store to get lavender honey back in stock goddammit and if his nosy neighbors don't let him enjoy it #he'll have a fit #and it's all buck's fault really like why is he mowing SHIRTLESS #buck don't you know that's going to irritate your skin #BUCK DON'T YOU KNOW YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO SHOWER BEFORE YOU GO HOME #might as well not go home at that point #that's what your room is for buck just stay the night #matter of fact just stay forever #platonically tho #anyway #tag games

[venvellan]

touchstarved is such a sick twisted game. i'm not talking abt the plot or theme at all that's all good and dandy. i mean the way that it's possessed my soul and body.

i seriously need and want all five of them. to a sickly degree. i don't wanna have to pick a route. i want five lovers. yea some of them hate each other but i'm not making them hang out it's fine.

tack on a 2 year wait for the full release and it's only a matter of time before i'm hysterical

#i could go on #kuras is objectively the perfect man #vere is my gayest and evilest alter ego and i am in love with him #and just like vere i too am compelled to start purring when ais is around #dont get me fucking started on mhin i can't get into it #mhin is genuinely GENUINELY the love of my life in the most serious way #they don't get showered with the love they deserve on this platform and i fucking love mhin so much #leander like aint my type traditionally but smthn bout him #the mageness the touching #he's speaking to me in a way i couldn't have predicted #i hate this fucking game its a violent illness in my head #the power of queer poc creatives is unmatched #touchstarved #touchstarved game

[camellcat]

gwen cooper. gweeeenn cooper. idk who the hell she is or anything about her but I can't stop rotating her around in my brain like a little creature that needs to be examined. I love u freak girl <3

#I can't wait finish dw so I can wake up at 4am every morning and watch 2 eps of torchwood bc that's how I enjoy starting off my days #I want it to fuck me up like dw does but a little differently #I want it to hit 6am and be going through The Horrors as I take my shower and get ready for the day #I seriously don't know shit about this show but I have heard it will emotionally wreck me and I am expecting that #I will be disappointed if it doesn't #and then I'll also be be losing my mind the whole time bc I'll finally get to see gweennnnnnn #I've started recognizing her face in different shows dsjndj #I'll see her and go “GWEN COOPER?!” and hoot and holler even tho I don't know nothin #ferdie this is ur fault I want you to know that #gwen cooper #torchwood

[babacontainsmultitudes]

So I made this post a little while ago regarding dndads characters and the tma entities and didn't really include any explanations cause that would have been very very long for a somewhat niche post. But, if you'll humor me, I feel compelled to make the quickest case for Vast! Taylor cause I'm thinking about him lol, and specifically without even getting into personality traits, I just want to point to Taylor's track record and note that he (off the top of my head):

Climbed to the top of the tallest tree he could find and shot a clone of himself off of it

Had to be physically held back from jumping off the highest floor of a twelve story building

Did a high-dive into an ocean of paper and abandoned Normal in said ocean of paper.

Had the chance to at least partially spare Scary from the damage of a very high fall. Didn't.

Submitting this as evidence to the court, people of the jury thank you for your time.

#dndads #taylor swift dndads #posting this at the weirdest time but that's fine I just needed to ramble about this lol #but I like Eye! and Hunt! Taylor too those make sense to me #I'm just saying that if there's someone who would willingly yeet them-self into the void it'd be him (...And Hermie that one time but-) #it's also a personality thing though #that's harder to articulate concretely... #but idk he's *resilient* the way a lot of the vast avatars tend to be like he just moves forward lol #life is long after all #he's got Crew's determination... and Fairchild's... w-wealth and cane lmao #I think there's definitely something to be said about all the space stuff I just can't put a proper finger on it atm #even the fucking showering outside in the rain thing hahaha he's a ranger! he likes the great outdoors! the wide open spaces! #well was a ranger but you know what I mean lol

[hella1975]

there's a very specific kind of vibe that comes with living with your friends in final year that it just does not have in first year or even second year. like as a fresher it's usually the first time any of you have lived away from home let alone with SO MANY people your age and it's terrifying and exciting and randomised to boot so it's generally carnage for a whole year in the best and worst ways, and then second year you pick who you're living with and it feels like for the first time you're doing this adult thing PROPERLY. you have a place of your own now. these are the people you've chosen to live with. studying gets serious etc. but it's still fresh. it's still new. you still don't know how to navigate it. but final year? final year is when you actually get it right. you know how to manage your time better. you know what works for you and what doesn't. studying is the main focus and you've been out in the world for three years now and it's not loud and boisterous like it was in first year and you're not exciteable and awkward like you were in second year. you're comfortable. every single one of my flatmates has their own friend group and we mainly keep to our own social circles, but we'll still meet each other back at the house after a night out and sit in the kitchen or my room to do the debrief. sometimes i'll go days not seeing either of them despite sharing a house but every now and then someone will softly call up the stairs that 'the heating's on!' or one of us will sneeze and the other two will yell 'bless you!' through the walls. the lack of interaction isn't interpreted as dislike in ways it would have been even last year, because we're all just old enough to be past that now and settled enough in our friendship not to worry about it. idk. uni is very loud and unsettling a lot of the time so it's been really sweet to see how almost boringly comfortable final year is.

#like my day today was literally drag myself out of bed at 10am to meet my econ friends bc we're in a group together #and i spent two hours with them writing a fucking TRADE REPORT before coming home #and the rest of the day was kinda lost. i showered. i put a wash on. i had a nap. i mainly stayed in my room #which sometimes is the End Of All Things but today was quite nice #and i can hear in their rooms how my flatmates are doing the exact same thing. pottering about and getting on with uni #and we've barely spoken all day but earlier my one flatmate ran into my room all excited to show me her nails #bc she's been teaching herself to do gels and it took her 2 hours but im still one of the first people she wanted to show #and just now we all went to use the bathroom at the same time and it led to one of our Stair Sessions #where we all inexplicably just gather on the stairs and chat for no reason with a cup of tea #idk it's just nice. it's such basic shit but i can't belive in first year i used to spend EVERY DAY with these girls #and we were one single friendship group and that was all we had #and then in second year one girl branched off bc she lived in a studio and got into her societies #but me and the other girl lived together again and it was the same thing of she was a friend before she was someone i lived with #and weirdly that can actually be detrimental to a dynamic. but this year we're all just very solidified and confident in ourselves #and where we stand and yes we all have our own friendship groups outside of the house now #but there's still that love and simple comfortableness around each other that you only get with time and a hell of a lot of proximity #and a sense of being settled that maybe is just what happens as you get older #idk it's just really nice. if i had this exact same day in first year (doing economics and barely leaving my room) #it would've been a really bad depressive day for me so the fact i can find such contentment from it now is really heartening #i love my little life here im very proud of what ive been able to achieve :) #hella goes to uni #feeling nostalgic because SOME BITCH decided to ribs post

[noctglaive]

Hello, I have to apologise for the lack of a lot at the moment, especially art. I got a full time retail job back in August and it has been killing me mentally and physically, so I'm looking for something else in the spare time I do have, and also a bit closer to home. Thank you for sticking around, I'm gonna draw so much Ardyn when I'm finally free again.

#text post #like i can't express to you how depressed i am that i only have about three hours a day now to eat shower and rest #the workplace is also toxic as fuck and treats new people like shit so #i value my health too much now

[scorndotexe]

i need to get top surgery as soon as possible

#im not looking forward to doing this whole thing again but. im really gonna need to #im gonna have to. i cant live like this #i can't fucking live like this #i don't know how else im going to get out of this #i feel so hopeless constantly #i shower and then i have to do my best not to burst into tears #and i end up crying anyway #it's all so. terrible. hopeless. #persimmon's rambles

[remyfire]

Me when any of you make even the tiniest possible reference in tags to wanting BJ and Margaret to kiss after I've written 78% of the BJ/Margaret fics published since 2015

#this image but bass boosted tbh #where the fuck are you all get in here there have been exactly four people in my canoe for SO LONG #THIS DOESN'T HAVE TO EXCLUDE HAWKEYE OKAY I NEED THEM /ALL/ KISSING #bj and hawkeye are soulmates yes yes we all know this but the THING is that— #i can't even talk normally about it sorry #why did bj say he wants to see margaret in her underwear #why did bj and hawkeye offer to tag team margaret in the shower #why does bj get pissy and bitchy whenever margaret has a love interest #why is margaret always interposed between bj and her love interest of the week when they're on screen together #i am shaking the bars of my enclosure #my ramblings

[cervidaeic]

calvin is just a bundle of "i hate this guy so fucking much, i can't not fuck him" and that's that.

#smoking thoughts #like shower thoughts except these realisations come to me when i'm outside smoking and doing fuck all. #calvin: i can't fix him but i could fuck him. #(it will only benefit him. he needs to get his anger out). #(and maybe the other person. if he feels generous). #(who knows). #law log

[aster-geminis]

In light of the recent announcements regarding Maghni AI (And Big Al being confirmed for it?!) I decided to redraw this Big Al I drew last year. Image on the bottom is the original, image on top is my redraw! ❤️

#vocaloid #vocaloid big al #big al #vocaloid2 #maghni ai (can i use that tag yet? kshfsikfd) #still can't believe my son is getting a fucking *ai update vb* #vocatone may god shower his choicest blessings on you all

[hauntingblue]

Try not to make fights between two women look homoerotic challenge level impossible

#if franky isnt good with swords why does he have a sword on his mecha 💀 just for the shogun bit #inu inu fruit??? he is just like inuyasha... omg.... crossover of my favourite things.... yamato i love you..... #yamato eating the protector deity of wano fruit.... calling himself oden.... his father must be fuming he is the antithesis of his person #obv its very much on purposes but lmao rip bozo (kaido) you didnt think much about that one.... maybe the deity of wano wants its people to #be free and not slaves of a weapons industry idk.... #not olvia omg... and saul.... and clover... they changed little robin's name.... and her mom's voice is the same as hers lmao it's too much #robin said this is way too nice.... can't be real #once again thinking about robin holding her mothers hand..... and becoming an archeologist to make her proud.... the hands.... #but now it's not about her mom now its about her friends.... also her childish heart omg.... truly #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1042 #robin defending sanji's honor akdjsks #robin that was so slay... take care tho.... ily.... until next time #luffy on the floor passed out having a tantrum about food. incredible #fucking caribou again.... DIEEE!!!! #MOMO FLY AGAIN!!!! GET OVER YOUR FEAR OF HEIGHTS #also yesterday i was showering and thinking about like dying like this cant be right... i am on thay level.... #episode 1043 #'i am not soft on women' oh yeah i bet... #see how good armor haki would have been here..... i have been saying this #robin's face..... strongest element in all of one piece..... #robin wanting to become strong for someone else.... just like nami..... #OHHHH SHIT!!!!!!! she said i wanna be with my friends 😁 -> 😈 #that was so cool. also black maria is DEAD. that was a CLUTCH WWE STYLE. DAMN. robin getting there by thinking about his friends :))) #what love and human connection do to a mf (positively) #OH SHINOBU'S ABILITY.... MOMO..... OMG #episode 1044 #robin ily that was so cool. call me any time btw.