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moodyseal · 6 months

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i hear you are 🤡clowning🤡 over Commodus coming to his senses so I have slid into your inbox to 🤡clown🤡 with you about it

What 🤡clown🤡 thoughts have you been harboring about this👀

for science.

🤡<-me and you

SOMEONE WILLING TO CLOWN WITH ME A BIT okay uhm. I was mostly having thoughts about the reasons for his behaviour, actually, and in the end I came to the conclusion that he's not entirely unredeemable, or at least he wasn't up until the fight at the Waystation in TDP, where he became a serious threat to the lives of the people who lived there (and actually got Heloise killed)

Like, if you ignore for a moment his past deeds and historical background (because if we accepted the atrocities as quirky parts of Apollo's personality we can do the same for him /j) and look at what he actually did for the first two thirds of the book, you'll notice that he wasn't as cruel as, say, Caligula or Nero. For example, he didn't kill all the prisoners he was holding captive, like Caligula would've done, even if Georgina (and maybe Hunter, since she's one of Artemis' hunters) was the only one that was actually useful in luring Apollo in, and at the end of the book he was still agreeing to let everyone go as long as Apollo and Meg went with him.

This shows that he is capable of some kind of restraint and not totally incapable to be reasoned with, which makes for some solid villain redemption arc material; the only problems, other than his small bloodlust problem that, again, we'll skip over for now and deal with some other day, are

a) the behavioural issues his relationship with his father led to (that could've been actually dealt with if only someone told him that therapists are an option today),

b) his ugly, horrid desire of revenge against Apollo,

and c) his narcissistic tendencies, which resulted in him not acknowledging the whole concept of. You know. Other people's feelings and how his actions might affect them.

They're all intrinsically tied together, and as a whole they're the main reason why, in the past as well as after his death and deification, Commodus was unwilling to accept any sort of help or suggestion coming from the people around him, and Apollo specifically. Before his death, he didn't acknowledge that there was a problem with his behaviour at all; to him, his actions were always right, and the people around him were vilifying him when he didn't deserve it, all while trying to suffocate his desires and needs. The lack of his father's support throughout his adolescence only intensified those feelings, and at the same time rendered him all the more vulnerable, making him latch strongly onto anyone he felt like would always support him—Apollo, in this case. Inevitably, the betrayal of the only person he trusted unconditionally (which was done for Rome and its citizens' own good, but was still a betrayal) had an explosive result, leading to Commodus' attitude worsening, him becoming effectively deaf to the guidance of anyone who didn't agree with him (when in the past there was a chance that maybe he would have listened to Apollo, at least, had he intervened sooner) and, finally, him making his life's goal destroying Apollo's life.

Despite the fact that any last bit of love Commodus had for him turned into blinding hatred, though, there were still some feelings in his heart that weren't rage. He didn't show them; on the contrary, he tried to hide them, and that's because they were a sign that there was still some vulnerability left in him—that he cared, to a degree. Had Commodus' revenge been the two dimensional kind, where he didn't give any sign of care about what happened two thousand years before and operated solely on the train of thought of "kill, maim, destroy" even when he barely thought about Apollo being the reason he died, I wouldn't have thought of there being a chance of him coming to his senses. But instead, with these feelings, Commodus demonstrated that he didn't forget, and that as much as he hid himself behind his glitter and his spectacles and his luxurious palaces, what Apollo did ultimately affected him. He still cared about what Apollo did in the past, and about what he was doing in the present too. In a way (and this is purely my personal perception, as everything I've written above is) it seemed that, consciously or subconsciously, he was even waiting for some sort of feedback, for a response that Apollo didn't give.

Why else would he insist so much? For what other purpose would he throw back his death in Apollo's face again and again, if not to get a reaction out of him?

I don't actually know how, exactly, it would be possible to fix all these issues, as well as their relationship. I have thought a lot about a scenario where Commodus realizes he's in the wrong, where Apollo manages to bring him to the good side just like he did with Lityerses, and this behaviour of his is exactly the reason why I never figured out how it would happen. How do you help someone who doesn't want to be helped? Apollo tried and failed, didn't he?

Maybe not enough.

It's true that Commodus was a selfish, arrogant man, as it is true that Apollo tried to help him, only giving up on his insistence when the man he loved went down a path of no return. It's also true that he didn't reprimand him for what he did once, trying to get to him through good humour and support, being too permissive when Commodus didn't need permissiveness, but some strength of character from someone he trusted. It's also true that Apollo never apologized.

I don't remember much about TDP and TTT, but didn't Apollo never mention once to Commodus the reasons for what he did? He cried about that day on his own, never with him, never showing Commodus that he has suffered for that murder just as much as he did.

Maybe the apology wouldn't have changed anything, maybe Commodus would've stayed the same ruthless man he's been for the whole series. But I like to think that it could've potentially stirred something inside him anyway.

#this isn't to say that apollo was at fault for how things turned out #commodus' actions are his own responsibility #and he stays evil through and through because he CHOSE to do what he did #but still. still #it makes you wonder. what would've happened if they all behaved differently #lonely thoughts #ask #trials of apollo #toa #btw i remember people talking about this on the server #so if any point seems familiar it's because i've assimilated it from the conversations on there <3 #also sorry if this makes no sense lmfao it's really late and i'm tired

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pleasetiemyshoelaces · 20 days

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Is it true that people were pedojacketing Milena in your discord? Heloise said that’s why they told Milena what was happening. If that’s the truth, I think it’s a pretty valid reason to do what they did.

we were talking about milena being friends with annie, paying money to annie monthly and being in annies server

the one with the kids sending nudes

nobody pedojacketed her, we did the fucking math

and said OH GOD I HOPE NOT

and then i pointed out how the info came from the pedo themselves and so it wasnt exactly a reliable source other then the screenshots proving milena paid her money screenshots i didnt share becuase i dont have because i blocked the pedo on sight of her in my inbox

and then we moved on to milenas other snake behaviour like how its kinda fucking creepy that this 40 year old woman is harassing a kid when the kid and all the adults around the kid are saying leave the fucking kid alone.

because that is creepy. pedo? no but creepy? yes

but QP, you "Swore it wasnt you" lying fucking cunt

#milena

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sailorshadzter · 6 months

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Jonsa Abelard and Heloise AU (basically a teacher AU set in medival times)

not gonna lie

this just gave me an excuse to write somethign spicy lol

so thanks anon & sorry this has been in my inbox so very long!!!

send me prompts

The princess is beautiful.

Jon has tutored many noble born girls and boys alike, but never before a young woman nearly grown. In truth, she doesn’t seem to be all that much younger than he is, save a year or two. But there she sits at the table in the solar, with wide blue eyes the color of the sky when it’s just rained and long red hair that she wears loose, a few braids pinned into place to give her a windswept look that steals the breath from his lungs. “Princess,” he finally greets when he finds his voice, offering her a quick bow as a smile curves upon her lips.

“You must be Jon,” she replies with a Northern accent he’s only heard a few times before. It’s not everyday that a Stark comes South, after all. She’s come to seal a marriage treaty between the newly independent North and South, the former King Robert having betrothed his son and heir Joffrey to her before his death. In an effort to secure peace for the kingdoms, the betrothal was confirmed by both the King in the North, her brother, and the newly crowned Jofffey. Jon has grown up alongside Joffrey all of these years, bastard born as he was, a ward of Robert Baratheon from the hands of Rhaegar Targaryen himself. Jon knows well enough that the only reason he’s even alive today is because of the love Robert Baratheon bore both Ned Stark, his uncle, and Lyanna, his mother. They were cousins, in truth, he and this princess. Proving himself from a young age to be intellectual, in both battle and academics, he was put into Joffrey’s household, likely in hopes to make a man out of his heir… But, as most people have learned, there’s no changing Joffrey. Now that they’ve both grown, Jon has become the palace teacher, his usual students the young Prince Tommen and Princess Mrycella, along with a handful of other noble’s children.

And that was how he found himself where he was now, to tutor the newly arrived Princess of the North, Sansa Stark. He’s been told her education in the North was typical of any noble born girl, but the crown wishes to see for themselves, he assumes to ensure that she’s been as well bred as they claim her to be. “Aye, I am, my lady,” he says, approaching the table to set down the load of books he carries. “They say I am to be your teacher.”

Again she smiles, tilting her head so that her hair cascades across a shoulder. “So I’ve heard,” she replies, though if anyone asked for her opinion, there was little education this man could give her. Anyone that knew her knew she was a lady from three, a perfected curtsy before her fourth nameday could even come to pass. Her courtly manners were above reproach, far superior to even the most senior noble women of this court. Beyond that, her father had believed in education, even for his daughters, and so she had attended all the same lessons as Robb, excelling in all of them beyond even her older brother. “I hope to learn from you, ser.” She says sweetly, knowing better than to dare make a move against anyone in her husband-to-be’s circle. She’s known Joffrey all of a fortnight but she already knows well what she’s up against.

It’s Jon’s turn to smile as he sinks down across from her, opening the top book.

And so their lessons will begin.

[ x x x ]

Her breath comes in short, soft gasps, the feel of her grasping hands sending waves of pleasure rushing through him.

Jon can’t really say when this happened, but sometime after her marriage to the King took place, their lessons became anything but lessons. In truth, as he looks down at her, with her powder blue skirts up around her hips, head thrown back so her hair falls down her back, he can’t help but to laugh. Hearing him, she looks up, a perfectly sculpted brow arching with a silent question. “I just wonder who taught you to be so wonton,” he whispers as he leans over her, kissing her, cherishing the taste of her lips against his. He hates to think that she must share a bed with the tyrant King Joffrey, who certainly does not treat her as she deserves to be treated. Not in any sense.

“Why, I imagine it was you,” she replies breathlessly as he runs a hand across the swell of her breasts, the neck of her gown pulled low to give him access. His other hand is sweeping lower, down past her hips which he cannot even find beneath the folds of her gown, instead to slip between the warmth of her inner thighs. They are in the very same solar they’ve spent many days within, the very same one they met in so many months ago; anyone could walk in and find their queen in such a state- perhaps that’s what made this all the more thrilling. “I believe it to be all you’ve taught me since we met,” she giggles, but a moan follows as he brushes his fingertips along her most sensitive of places.

“Surely I’ve taught you something else,” he quips back, raising his own brow back at her, a grin on his lips.

As her hands reach for the laces of his breeches, she’s peering up at him from beneath her lashes, weakening his knees with her lustful gaze. Her lips, swollen from his kisses, are twisting into a mischievous smile as she takes him into her palm. “There’s this,” she reminds him as she begins to move her hand in a way that has him throwing his head back instead, the sound of her given name falling from his lips more like a groan than speech. She loves to hear him say her name more than anything else. Especially like this.

“That can’t be all,” he gasps when he’s so close to the edge that he must pull away, if only to position himself between her legs. When he’s inside of her, she’s softly crying out, hands in his hair, legs anchoring themselves around his hips, keeping him close. “I don’t remember this lesson,” he says, voice husky, gaze smoldering as he looks down at her, the roll of her hips against his a new move she’s never done before, but it’s one that has him breathless.

A sly smile perches itself upon her lips, blue eyes dark. “Self taught,” she replies with a laugh and Jon cannot help but to think of her, alone in her chamber, thinking of him while she thinks of new ways to please him. That alone nearly undos him. “Jon!” She must sink her teeth into his shoulder to keep from crying too loudly as he increases his movements, every fluid movement sending shockwaves through her body. How he can do this to her, she’ll never understand, but she hopes it never will end.

But, as always, it does come to an end, leaving them both panting, grinning, hands tangled together between them as he helps her to straighten her skirts. “I fear you’ve learned nothing,” he says when she’s standing on her own two feet, hands in her hair, pinning pieces back together, hoping it will look as it did when she left her rooms that morning. Her grin is his trophy and he leans in, slinging his arms around her hips so he can draw her in close. “Your lessons will simply have to continue.”

“I apologize for being such an unfitting student,” she says, tilting her head back so his lips can find hers in a long, sweet kiss, one quite unlike all of the others they’ve been sharing this past hour. “I did try to warn you I was a slow learner.” He laughs, because she’s anything but, he tips his forehead against hers, breathing her in, realizing right then that what he felt for her went beyond what he’s ever felt for a woman in all of his life. “Perhaps we even must meet more often… So the lessons really… Sink in.” Her words bring a chuckle to his lips and he gives her a tender squeeze.

“I think I can arrange that,” he murmurs back, thinking of how little the King minds what his queen does, so long as she’s there on his arm for state dinners and on her throne beside him when he calls upon her to be there. His mistresses keep his bed warm enough that his once regular visits to her bed have dwindled to nothing, save for the once or twice a month to try and put a new heir in the royal cradle. Though, he’s yet to sire even a bastard, making many wonder if their king was not as potent as he thought himself to be. A worrisome thought, depending on who you asked.

When the knock sounds on the door a short while later, they’re settled next to one another in an appropriate manner, a book open between them. It’s not a book of lessons, but rather a book he’d read and enjoyed, which she was now reading herself- despite the nature of their growing relationship, they do often find themselves holding delightful conversations over texts they’ve read, sometimes agreeing, sometimes not. “Your grace,” it’s her handmaiden Shae, who comes to fetch her back to her room, as she always does at the end of her hour with Jon. If anyone knows about the two of them, it’s Shae, who has often fixed her queen’s hair or helped her into a fresh gown before the evening meal. “My lord,” she nods at the man sitting beside her queen, though he stands up alongside her, as he should when the queen rises up.

“Thank you for the lesson, as always, ser.” Sansa says with a pleasant smile, her blue eyes flashing as she steps around the table, the borrowed book tucked beneath her arm. “I look forward to our next one.” They share a single glance and then she’s gone, turning away so she can slip from the room, Shae on her heels.

When she’s gone, Jon sinks back into his chair and smiles, his hands still glowing with the warmth of her skin beneath his touch.

#jonsa #actuallyjonsa #jon x sansa #jonsa au #anon asks #writing prompts #anon prompt #this is one of my favorite au's so anyone can ask for these and i will happily oblige lol #my writing #i wrote this

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tazzy-the-eighth · 6 months

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SHORT Q&A

What is Misery High?:

Misery High is my own personal AU based off the original television show, Jimmy Two Shoes.

Where the characters are set in a high-school setting, all aged and placed appropriately to fit their individual stories. For example, Heloise is now a freshman, keeping her original age from the series, Jimmy a junior (16) and Beezy a Senior, now the oldest (17). All with new backgrounds and dynamics.

Why The AU?

Jimmy Two Shoes was my favorite television show growing up, I've been inspired by these characters and have been making my own art and headcanons about and for them for years.

Apart from the series, I always wondered what these characters would be like if they were placed in a more realistic setting, given they were/ Are literal teens in hell.

This AU is to give them life, putting them in a highschool allows the story to go by easier through their day to day life. Aging and separating them allows them to have more age appropriate struggles and.

What Changed?

Apart from what was originally stated. The only things that changed were the canon the events of the show. The only thing that sticks is names, characters, their location and identity. As well as no more weavils.

If you'd like to ask me anything else surrounding my AU then please, feel free to DM me or send any questions to my inbox.

All I ask, is that questions remain appropriate.

#AU #alternate universe #storytelling #fanwork #fanart #Jimmy Two Shoes #teletoon #2000's #early 2000s #nostalgia #q and a #summary

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heloisedaphnebrightmore · 3 months

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💗 incoming love train! I appreciate you and recognize the amazing presence you have on this site, thank you for contributing to our community! 🌷send this to all the blogs you love! Don’t forget to share the love. 💌💐🌷🌻🌺💐🌸🌹

Ohhh, thank you so much darling! These are so sweet <3

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heloisedaphnebrightmore · 3 months

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drop this sunflower🌻into the inboxes of the blogs that make you happy! lets spread a little sunshine ☀️

Aww thank you so much sweetheart <3

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heloisedaphnebrightmore · 7 months

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Just wanted you to know that your Oliver Wood fics make my day, every time I read I get butterflies. So glad someone loves him as much as I do! ❤️

Awwww thank you, I'm glad you are enjoying them. Oliver deserves all the attention 😁

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heloisedaphnebrightmore · 1 year

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what are sone of your personal favourite romance books??? as in absolute favourite

No! No no no! You did not go there! You do realise this is a very biased list, right?! 😁 I don't mean biased because everyone has a different favourite, but because when we talk about romance as a genre, it means a different kind of book to everyone, still the genre is decided by publishers. Not only fantasy, contemporary, historical, and dark romance etc., but like one of my favourite romance books is not even romance! It's political fantasy with a romance subplot, still it belongs to romance, because for some unknown reason someone decided to market it like that.

Yes, Hot Keys, Bonnier Books ltd., I'm looking at you! 😅

Anyways, you asked, so you shall receive! 😁 Keep in mind, this is my personal opinion, they are not in order and my taste changes faster than you can blink, so I take no responsibility.

‘Heloise the book addict’ masterlist | Heloise’s map

Side note: I know I always add trigger warnings, but like I'm so damn tired, please check trigger warnings for yourselves this time here or here. I'm so sorry, but I honestly don't have the energy to go through them all.

So, let's begin;

The Folk of the Air series by Holly Black (The whole series which belongs to The Elfhame series by Holly Black, same world setting, different couple)

The Cruel Prince #1

The Lost Sisters #1.5

The Wicked King #2

The Queen of Nothing #3

How the King of Elfhame Learned to Hate Stories #3.5

In January 2023 comes out the companion duology of The Folk of the Air series, The Stolen Heir duology, with its first book, The Stolen Heir: A Novel of Elfhame which will then be part to The Elfhame series.

I am a complete and utter simp for Cardan. You can tell me how you didn't enjoy the book, how the romance was barely there or how it was too political. Nah, don't care. I love politics, I study business after all. I love fantasy, and it was fantasy and more. Romance? Wasn't there? We all have a different expectation when it comes to romance. I'm a character and romance focused reader and it was still simp-worthy for me. Everyone can judge for themselves, but I am a sucker for Cardan and Jude even if I'm still slightly mad at Jude. 😅 However, objectively speaking, it is a political fantasy and should not be marketed as fantasy romance, but because it is, it's now on my list.

Electric Idol by Katee Robert (Book #2 of Dark Olympus series. Kind of a stand-alone, but the books are somewhat linked.)

Other books in the Dark Olympus series include;

Book #0.5: Stone Heart [Medusa and Calypso]

Book #1: Neon Gods [Hades and Persephone]

Book #1.5: Hades and Hades [Hades and Persephone; a Patreon short story]

Book #2: Electric Idol [Eros and Psyche]

Book #2.5: Zeus and Hera; a Patreon short story

Book #3: Wicked Beauty [Achilles and Patroclus and Helen]

Book #4: Radiant Sin [Apollo and Cassandra]

Book #5: Cruel Seduction [Aphrodite and Hephaestus and Adonis and Pandora]

Book #6: Untitled [Charon and Orpheus and Eurydice]

Book #7: Untitled [Minotaur and Ariadne]

Book #8: Untitled [Poseidon and Icarus]

Book #9: Untitled [Hera and Zeus]

Book #10: Untitled [Hermes and ?]

The series is contracted for 7 books as of now but Katee said even if something happens, all 10 books that have been promised will be published. I might add, she said it because fans are going crazy over Zeus and Hera. I'd also like to add that once Zeus and Hera's story is out, you bet it will be on my list because I've been a sucker for those two since the very first book!

I'm a sucker for Eros and Psyche's relationship. He is a simp for him, but they start off along the lines of "I should hate you, but f*ck it, I can't" and I am here for it. It is very spicy, like the plot is pretty much just there in the background, but the characters themselves, the banter, the chemistry, the witty remarks make up for plot that's lacking a bit. Many people started this book off as "meh" only to come out simping. It'll make you swoon if you let it. 😅

The Unhoneymooners by Christina Lauren (Stand-alone)

It was a funny, witty, enemies to lovers but also not, but also yes, with a lot of swoon-worthy moments. I love this book, it honestly makes my little heart swell. 😁 It's one of those little books that has a plot, but doesn't require you to use your brain much. Just a simple little read. I'm still mad about the conflict though, it made me quite pissed off. 😅

The Summer King Bundle by Jennifer L. Armentrout (Book #3.5-3.7 of A Wicked Trilogy, consists of 3 novellas: The Prince #3.5, The King #3.6 and The Queen #3.7)

Wicked #1

Torn #2

Brave #3

The Summer King Bundle: #3.5-3.7

The Prince #3.5

The King #3.6

The Queen #3.7

The Summer King bundle is basically a collection of 3 novellas that follow a different couple, though it is heavily connected to the series. I liked the Wicked Trilogy, it was a good read, but The Summer King Bundle stole my heart. Caden and Brighton are just so sweet together, they gave me cavities. It's full of drama, so not a sweet little paranormal fantasy romance, but I loved it.

A Court of Thorns and Roses series by Sarah J. Maas (The whole series except ACOFAS; I still can't get over that one scene, makes my stomach churn)

A Court of Thorns and Roses #1

A Court of Mist and Fury #2

A Court of Wings and Ruin #3

A Court of Frost and Starlight #3.5

A Court of Silver Flames #4

This whole series made me so immersed, I finished the books in 5 days. 5 days when I was hella busy. I was reading like a maniac and only so many books can do that to me. Although Azriel's book didn't come out yet, I'm such a simp, that SJM could literally write the worst book about him and that book would still be on this list.

And last, but not at all least, the person who introduced me to paranormal/fantasy romance books back when I was 14!

J.R. Ward (I'm a sucker for this woman's writing! I own almost all of her books, except 3. But no, it shouldn't be read under 16 😅)

Black Dagger Brotherhood series

Black Dagger Legacy series

Black Dagger Brotherhood Prison Camp series

The Lair of the Wolven series

Fallen Angels series

Though my absolute favourites are—

Lover Eternal (Black Dagger Brotherhood #2)

Lover at Last (Black Dagger Brotherhood 11)

Blood Vow (Black Dagger Legacy #2)

Blood Fury (Black Dagger Legacy #3)

She writes paranormal fantasy romance with male leads that make you swoon. She writes diverse characters, back stories, personalities and her whole writing is brilliant. I know I'm biased, but she is amazing! Each story is about a different couple, but the books are interconnected so they have to be read in a reading order which you can find here.

Well, that would be all for now. My brain is not functioning well. I hope you'll find something you like <3

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