#HOW TF DO YOU NOT CRY ABOUT THAT

[todayisafridaynight]

they could not have chosen ANY MORE different games to make this point

#snap chats #IM CRYING THO 1.) KIRBY AND KIRYU IN THE SAME PICTURE YIPPEEEEE #2.) I JUST SNORTED BEING REMINDED OF THE TIME I SPECIFICALLY REFERENCE KIRBY BEING ANGRIER #IN RESPONSE TO THAT ONE ASK MASU SENT ABOUT SAWASHIRO #AND HOW HE WAS PORTRAYED MORE AGGRESSIVELY IN THE STATES LIKE JAER JERLKAJ #also omg y3... hi lovr... #idc i love the Unreasoanbly Edgy USification of box art it appeals to the shadow the hedgehog lover in me #oh yeah. also. i got here in the first place cause my desperate ass WAS looking up how much itd cost to buy physical discs #and i stumbled on the jp box art of y7 and its so fuckin funny but like i also get it but also lol #CAUSE YK ON THE ART YOUVE GOT NANBA/ARAKAWA/SAWASHIRO LIKE. SPECIFICALLY FRAMED YEAH #on one hand i get it from the approach of 'oh hey you guys know these actors right check it' #and then theres also the approach of 'these three characters will cause SOME form of major conflict for ichi' #BUT ITS JSUT SO FUNNY LIKE nanba so tf are you doing there. come back here. #like at least for most of the game arakawa's suspicious but nanba chills with us for like. ok only like four chapters BUT STILL #the cover also makes me laugh cause of arakawa cause like. Perpetual Peepaw Syndrome IM SORRY HE JUST LOOKS CUTE #like pops you are not fooling anyone.. you cannot intimidate me im sorry.... ily... #funny as hell... #ok im gonna try drawing now fr bye #i hope my bitchass friend gets back to me soon i wanna play y3 on stream so bad... #i could try from my laptop but its SOOO slow. like its consistent but its like playing in slow motion #so id prefer to see if i could play it on my ps4 and then use my capture card to stream it to computer yk.. #ok im rambling again BYE

[seventh-district]

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#it is 5 hrs past my bedtime and i am awake listening to Two Hearts by Dermot Kennedy on loop and crying over Rotating Shifts. again. #i couldn’t resist the urge to read the latest chapter any longer but i knew when i did i’d get like this #so Why did i wait for my period to roll around. i have made. a silly decision lmaooo #i’ve complained abt it before but i’m conflicted about how much more sensitive it makes me #my nightmares usually don’t make me cry but oh i was a Wreck this morning #so why i picked tonight to read the fic that always makes me cry is beyond me #i have never met a fic before that had me in such an intense emotional grip #and it’s fucking hilarious bc it’s not that intense of a story!! like yeah there’s been devastating parts but i’m out here having to- #-take a break every single chapter bc i’ll read one line that hits my inner child like a truck and i have to take a minute to recover #but the whiplash this fic gives me is so fucking funny and the range in the storytelling from comedy to tragedy is just.. *scream-cries* #it has my favorite characterization of Sun and Moon that i have ever seen #this chapter wasn’t even that sad i’m just Making myself sad about it #but on another level it also makes me sad in the sense that i don’t think i’ll ever be able to write something that good.. #all that i want out of my writing endeavors is to make one (1) person feel as strongly and as much as RS makes me feel #and i don’t know if i can do that. i don’t know if my writing has what it takes bc i can’t even describe exactly what it is #i don’t think it’s a science that can be replicated. things either connect with someone or they don’t #the way Sun goes from worryingly innocent ‘wdym we can’t invite strangers to live with us?’ ‘wdym we can’t adopt an adult that needs help?’ #to fucking. tearing an animatronic in half in a fit of protective rage and blocking access to all dating apps to prevent you from- #-finding anyone else bc he’s your Special Friend and he can’t have his Daydream falling for anyone else!! no no!! #it’s not a new concept but i eat it tf up when Sun is actually the one you should fear the most #like no i don’t think he’d hurt Reader but i dread to think of the things he would do For them #the back and forth between childlike innocence and terrifying intelligence possessiveness and physical capability is just mmmmm 100/10 #and don’t even get me started on Moon. or i Will start crying again #he’s ​like yeah dumbass of course i’m gonna save you every time some POS man tries to **** you. of course i will you fucking crater-head #but i will complain at you about it the Entire way home and then i will steal your fucking toilet paper and pack you a raw egg for lunch #because i hate you 🖤 but Sun loves you and we would both kill for you 🖤 also i drank all of your chocolate milk 🖤 also i hate you :) #anyways i am paraphrasing obviously and dear god i hope no one who actually reads RS sees this bc i do not want my 2am ramblings taken as- #-any kind of Official Thoughtful Analysis of the story ok pls pls pls let me be insane abt my favorite fic without having to be articulate #i just have so many fucking FEELINGS about them. i am unwell. #i’m not even tagging this i’m just hitting post and going to sleep goodnight

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

Anyway rewatching the angels of death anime and I just noticed both of Danny's eyes dilate even though he has one glass eye

#random thoughts #angels of death #i wonder if it's a stylistic thing or if it was just an oversight by the animators #do characters with glass eyes in other animes also have their eye dilate? #idk i think it'd be cool if he just had one dilated eye. now he looks like a bad guy (bad guy) (bad guy) cuz he has just one dilated eye #he looks like a supervillain it DOES impair his visison and now he questions his life #but anyway i like the light glare on his glasses only affecting one eye at a time it's cool #also. forgive me if im being dumb. did they ever explain how zack got up to the second floor by himself? #also like. why did he do that. #they've had people down there before and he's killed basically no one since he's been an angel so ray escaping isn't like. new for him #like we can just assume it's either because of ray not crying out when zack stabbed the box (which he discovered after finding her hair) #OR because of the sewn-up bird #which like. if it was the bird it'd be a neat little bit to look back on when ray's freaking out about telling zack about her parents #like zack knew the whole time and he pursued you for it :-) because you're a little freak #but honestly i dont think it was the bird. i think it was probably because ray didn't cry out when he stabbed the box #the whole box-stabbing thing looked like a practiced move. he had done that before to drawn people out and to great success #he's IMPRESSED!!! HE WANTS TO MURDER HER MORE NOW #also how tf did he get to the second floor. did he fucking wedge the door open and climb the wires #anyway the whole reason he went after ray was because the chase left him overstimulated like a cat #and he needed to bite the proverbial owner's leg so to speak (kill kill kill)

[da-proti-toku-grem]

feeling like a total asshole today 👍

#an aunt's mom passed away yesterday night #i didn't really know her that much just spoke to her a few times for the typical merry christmas & happy new year you know #so when my mom told me i felt bad for my aunt bc i knew they were really close but i don't feel SAD #but my parents seemed to be like so shocked and sad and my little brother even started crying #and i felt absolutely nothing #idek what my mom saw in my face but she went like 'don't you feel anything?' and like wtf am i supposed to feel #like. i'm sorry for my aunt and everything but i just????? #that already made me feel like an absolute asshole but now we have to go there (like 2hours away by car) #and because i am an adult now i *have* to go to the funeral home (?) today and to the funeral tomorrow #and i REALLY don't want to and thought it's making me so fucking anxious bc i haven't been there since my grandma passed away 2 years ago #i really don't want that feeling that i felt back then to come back #not right now #not when i've been starting to feel a bit better this past week #but i'm already failing at that because they started to come back the moment i was told i have to go #and i feel like a fucking asshole because my aunt's mom literally passed away and she (and her whole family) must be heartbroken right now #and all i can think about is that i'm anxious #i'm anxious to go back there. i'm anxious just thinking that i'll have to express my condolences to people that i don't even know #i'm anxious because i'll have to TALK to people and at least try to look a bit SAD but i can't just fake it #bc if i don't look sad my brain tells me that i'm an asshole that doesn't have feelings like apparently everyone around me has #but if i fake it my brain tells me that i'm an asshole bc why tf do i have to fake my fucking personality #why can't i just express my fucking feelings like normal people do and the only thing that i know how to do is fucking complain #like. i know i rant a lot here but it's literally the only place where i talk about my feelings #i NEVER talk about my feelings with anyone because idk HOW to do it #i have like a million things in my mind that i want to tell my mom or my therapy for example but when i finally convince myself to do it #i just CAN'T. the thoughts won't leave my mouth because i don't know how to phrase them properly #so nothing ever leaves my mind unless i make a post here bc apparently writing my thoughts in english (my 2nd language) #is easier than talking in spanish #and at least if i write them here they don't just stay bottled up in my mind #but i'm too tired of myself and my stupid brain that tells me that i do everything wrong :/ #i'm gonna shut up now bc i once again reached the tag limit

[hauntingblue]

YAMATO NEW NAKAMA PLEASE 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️LUFFY PLEASE!!!!

#do kaido and big mom end up in the same hole??? lmaoo yamato get luffy!!! hell yes!!! #now a military trial for all the beast pirates come on!!! everyone to udon jail #APOO IS STILL ALIVE???. FUCK OFF!!!!!!! #i understand law is not on a state to be a medic but marco.... pick up some slack.... #toko :((( no fucking way they are coming out of the hole..... they aren't.... the better not.... #HIYORI!!!! no reunion??? :(( #tama first girl to adopt a mother... also why do they have the same eyes... also is nami not enough for you.... or luffy.... your uncle... #hiyori girl dont kneel.... thats your 8 year old brother.... tama backstory omg.... tama dont cry omg.... she's gonna make me cry too... #izo is dead for real.... he was shown on the dead people highlight reel.... omg.... kinemon looking like a proud dad... #that hiyori and momo reunion.... i need more... what was that.... #episode 1078 #talking tag #watching one piece #who tf is that talking to the cp0... #hawkins is alive.... oh now he regrets it.... now he is dead... well..... #can't believe izo is dead... marco saying he cant believe he is alive... WELL YOU FOUGHT TWO TIMES AND THEM DID FUCK ALL WHILE IZO DIED???? #i am so mad at this man you dont understand. HIYORI DROPKICKED MOMO AJSHAJA YEAHHH!!! #luffy and zoro waking up at the same time... it started with them too... oof #in my bliss of luffy winning and gear 5 and all i hadn't realised my pink haired samurai hasn't appeared in a while... i fear the worst.... #i love how luffy having a meal is animated like a fight... omg zoro too... using his three head technique... #nami being the first to hit momo akdjaks. well deserved also #yamato not bathing or eating for zoro and luffy and hiyori bathing zoro ajdhskjs. omg this looks like sanji is jealous FA- #nami having to think hard about who bathes where lmao sanji and brook need an execution #OTAMA WHAT ARE YOU DOING AJDHSJSHSJ ME ASF ALSO SORRY. also where tf is robin. DID THEY TAKE HER??? oh nvm there is another group... #kid you are so right he is annoying. kill him. come on!!! SAKAZUKI DIE!!!! they just wanna make me mad atp... ALSO WHERE IS ROBIN?? #episode 1079 #why is there a country with a giant picture of sabo in their clock tower lmaoo #luffy looks so little beside yamato omg.... omg soul king brook ft kozuki hiyori rock version.... AND I DONT GET TO HEAR IT???? #robin with her poneglyphs of course.... AND BROOK OWES HER TWO MORE!!!! #MOMOS GRANDFATHER???? AND HE TOOK CARE OF TAMA WHO HAS ORICHIS LAST NAME!!!

[hasarjunadoneanythingwrong]

what's that insane theory about archer juna's np?

ok. so

you know how this is titled pashupata and the game treats it as pashupata and everyone refers to it as pashupata?

i dont actually think its pashupata.

cause here's the thing: i KNOW that hindu mythology is heavily nerfed in fgo but arjuna never even used pashupata when he was alive. like not in response to ANYTHING. even when ashwatthama killed his unborn grandchild he used the brahmashirsha astra in response-that was still incredibly deadly and powerful, but it was also still LESS powerful than pashupata. this is the personal weapon of shiva and kali that he only managed to get through completing heavy penances-no one else in the mahabharata had it and in other texts iirc only rama and a sage, Vishvamitra, also possessed it.

it was easily leaps and bounds stronger than vasavi shakti, despite what fgo may say, and could literally destroy the universe if used carelessly. id honestly say if we were putting up a comparison to a fgo weapon to it ea would be the closest thing-it was basically unavoidable, unresistable, and destroyed everything in it's path. and he knew this and so didnt use it bc in the context of the wars he fought in it wouldlve been massive overkill, and he was pretty responsible all things considered with the weapons he used

but like, hes ok with letting mages potentially command him to use it against their enemies? this incredibly powerful attack gifted to him by shiva that could obliterate the universe? like ignoring the logisitics of the fact they'd probably need a boatload of mana, and that the earth has protections in place to prevent gil or whoever from going 'lol' and laser beaming it in twain, why would mr 'thanks for the wmd but i will not be using it' suddenly ok the use of it for a bunch of backstabbing self-serving mages who would sacrifice their own children for a chance at upping their magical power?? like 'oh yes zouken, i'll use pashupata to blow up that orphanage for you right away. clearly this is a good use of this holy astra bestowed upon me by the gods :)'

imo he looked at his legend, looked at the fact anyone who looked into him would know about the fact that he'd have that astra, and renamed one of his less potent attacks 'pashupata' so that when he was ordered to use it he could follow their command WHILE also not fucking. using pashupata for incredibly petty and asinine reasons. like do we really think the average mage can tell the difference between the different astras anyway? no. hes gonna do that so when they pop their command seals and yell at him to use pashupata he can be like 'of course master :)' while also not going against his principles as like. person who was given a turbo nuke and was like 'yeah theres no reason to use this against normal people' like COME ON

though tbh i do still think he has access to pashupata as an archer-like when he blew up the 18 demon pillars that. that seems more like something he might actually have used it for.

i know that this theory has no water bc every time he's referred to it there's been nothing to suggest his np wasn't pashupata, its been described and treated in his materials as pashupata, plus parvati ALSO makes note of him having it and it being pashupata. it just bugs me that they shoved it on him as his generic np and also massively undersold it when he has like 4000 other big explody attacks that couldve been slotted in just as well, and when its a legitimately interesting fact that he never used it in his lifetime.

#lasengle stop underselling juna challenge difficulty: impossible #youd think theyd at least make note of it in his bio like how they did w ash and his big wheel but nope. gotta devote all that space to k #my other insane theory is juna wrote his profile at 2am on a pstd-induced guilt spree which is why its #a) all about how he 'unjustly' murdered poor karnie #b) has a bunch of weird ass inconsistencies like it accidentally made him k's uncle and says duryo was like a dad to k when k was the older #im not joking about arjuna accidentally being made karna's uncle in his bio btw #it lists his dad as 'king kuru' which was like his grandpa which would have made him karnas uncle instead of his brother. his dad was pandu #i wish theyd rewrite bios tbh his is. a nightmare like why #but yeah my theory is 2am hell guilt trip he wrote while crying into his desk which is why its so biased #look if youre fighting a guy and ask to stop to fix ur tire and he says no #and you then stop and turn your back to him anyway to fuck w your tire #what the hell do you expect to happen? karna was a dipthong #'uh ik i beat up and murdered ur kid when he was in the same position w like 20 other guys but can u please give me 5 min?' #'uhhh (hey krishna what should i- (DUDE JUST SHOOT HIM TF-))' #and then no one shuts up about you shooting him ever again but conveniently they all forget about the shit he did #lmao if i were arjuna id be so tired #'yeah i was told it was my moral duty to shoot him but once i did no one ever let it go ever' #my asks #i did say this was insane. sorry

[blye-flower]

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#my thing is always gonna be this #how are you upset with me because im trying to have a boundary??? #how are you upset with ME that YOURE ALWAYS OVERSTEPPING MY BOUNDARIES #like yes i babysitter im a babysitter but you cant expect me to babysit just cause you need a babysitter!?? like what??! #“oh we needed to go to another church and the kids didnt wanna go” okay?? so you just dropped them off without saying anything to me??! #you didnt even ask if i could you just assumed i would cause im home??? like i dont deserve a moment??? #like im not a parent #i dont have any kids and i definitely dont fucking plan on it so why tf do i feel like a single mother in my day to day?? #why do i never have any free time to myself why is my free time volunteered to making sure children are supervised??! #“well since you decided this im just gonna come get the kids” yeah im within my fucking right so why are you phrasing it like im wrong #god ive never been this frustrated that im fucking crying like can i have some fuckinf breathing space AWAY from other ppls kids #blymi rants #update:: my sister did in fact come and get them #and told the kids “yall cant stay home cause auntie doesnt feel like watching yall” #definitely feels like shes putting the blame on me cool cool cool #just peachy. #love that for me lets make it MY fault whatever #god i really cannot catch a fucking break #and trust and believe im gonna have to hear some stupid ass better than thou speech about how i need to help out my sister #“because shes a student a mother AND working” as if any of those choices are my fucking concern yep wonderful #especially for a sister. that while i love her. feels entitled to peoples help because shes “going through so much” #and now i cant even fucking relax or draw or write because im so fucking pissed #which is why i wanted the afternoon to myself ANYWAYS so no matter what the fucking days a goddamn bust for me regardless

[blue-jos10]

ronan: i put the 'penis' in 'happenis' haha

adam: you really don't

#blue: no #noah: you are the last person to put anything in happenis #gansey‚ crying: why is no one talking about the spelling of happiness #does this post even make sense lol #ronan lynch #adam parrish #noah czerny #how tf do i tag gansey with his 3 gazillion names #gansey #richard campbell gansey iii #richard gansey #gansey iii #what the shit #trc #the raven cycle #the gangsey #pynch #blue's bs #sorry henry

[frecklystars]

Sierra Six canonically has c-ptsd and has a scene in the movie where he's triggered and having a flashback. The first time I saw that, I had to pause and process it... not only did I immediately feel safe when I saw him on screen for the first time, because he's such a protective person and his main weakness is his loyalty and devotion to his loved ones, but ALSO it comforts me knowing that he'd be so patient and understanding with me when I'm having my own flashbacks or panic attacks from my own abuse. He became a strong comfort character in less than 40 minutes, possibly a new record, I wasn't even done with the movie yet.

I literally paused the movie my first time watching it and NEEDED to write a self ship fic w/ him asap because I was so overwhelmed with how I just... I knew, I knew he would comfort me if I needed it. I knew he'd be here for me. I'm so certain of it. I wrote 30 pages in just a couple of hours and it was also the first time I wrote anything in over a year.

I still jolt awake from nightmares and I barely get 3 hours of sleep every night, sometimes no sleep at all. Insomnia is a part of ptsd and my sleep schedule was already a wreck before I had to deal w/ my abuser. And it feels SO comforting to know that when I wake up gasping, sweating, crying, Six is bursting through the door (or if he's asleep in the same room with me, he's immediately alert and scrambling to my side) and he's scooping me into his arms and he's immediately saying it's okay, it's okay. Keri, you're safe. I'm right here. His hands are scarred and calloused from years of fighting, but they're as gentle as his voice when he's holding me. His gaze is soft. He knows exactly how this feels. He knows grounding techniques. He guides me through breathing exercises. He has been through this same hell for decades. He knows. He gets it. He protects me when I'm awake and when I'm dreaming. I could not possibly be anywhere safer than in his arms

#and my fear with my TF F/Os since theyre a trigger and my abuser was always saying how abusive they'd be #is that any F/O of mine would easily be manipulated by my abuser into betraying me bc its what she wanted #but with Six? impossible. perish the thought. #he's trained to know signs of manipulation/red flags #he would not be manipulated into betraying me or hurting me #he would not allow others to do the same #and he has this... strict idk what to call it... internal code #in the books he says there are ppl who rly deserve to be executed especially when they're abusers #he killed his own father for torturing him and his brother #and i know if he ever crossed paths with my abuser. no chance. it's on sight. #i never have to worry about this F/O ever hurting me bc he is written to be the most protective and loyal motherfucker #he sees how im broken and i cry abt how im not myself anymore #and he gets it and he holds me and he says one day i will be #one day this will feel so far away from me and ill breathe again #but in the meantime he's here. he's holding my hand and i know as long as i keep thinking of him. im gonna be ok. #woof #abuse mention #love notes #💕♡☆ I'll always protect you ☆🖤🎆

[gayday]

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#not to be a problem but #how tf can ppl complain abt lack of appetite/losing weight ur so fuckig lucky i would kill to not have an appetite i dont wanna gain weight #i hate when ppl r like ur so brave :) to ppl who have illnesses that make them skinny/are recovering ed havers #but fat current ed havers/people with illnesses that make them eat/gain weight are problematic and unhealthy #i just wanna be normal i dont want to be body positivity or a fat icon for wearing clothes i wanna be beautiful for being beautiful #not beautiful even though shes fat #sorry i didnt get the cute pretty waif depression where i dont want to eat i got the ugly obese slob kind #where all i can do to make myself happy is shovel food in my fat ugly face #and then cry about it #might delete. anyways send me mean asks if you want i need encouragement #yea its such a tragedy that you get to be lovedand get treated 10x better than fat ppl just for existign our struggles are comparable ttl

[arrow-guy]

my partner very gently “you don’t have to ask, it comes with the service”-d me last night and i cried

#erin rambles #i got to see him for the first time in a week yesterday and it was so nice #but i've been feeling bad #complained to him about how shitty i feel and my symptoms blah blah blah #jokingly blamed it on him #and made sure he knew i was joking bc even if it's true it's still fuckin mean #but last night i dozed off and woke up with a sore throat and it sucked ass and i complained a little #and he was v nice about it asked if there was anything he could do #there was not #i had to head home and i thanked him for putting up with me #and with zero pause he just said it was an honor and a pleasure #and i immediately started crying bc who tf says that when you're at the lowest they've ever seen you #i mean come on #i think i found a good one

[spacedlexi]

trying not to get my hopes up about andromeda being incorporated into the new mass effect but also 👁👁

#went back and rewatched the 2020 trailer with cc on this time and.................... #i shouldve done that 2 years ago........... #a 6TH ARK??? #like the initiative arks?? but there were only 5??? so wtf??? #the deliberate showing of both andromeda and the milky way in the first shot............. #i thought it was just a mean joke...like haha bye andromeda we're going back to the milky way now #andromeda has so much potential i am hoping so hard that they dont abandon it #but i dont want to get my hopes up #but also like a 6th ark.....theres no way they wont connect to andromeda somehow right.... #do you think theyll do anything with the 5th ark.... i dont remember much about the book except for the virus stuff #but since it shipped after the first 4...and those got out Just before the reapers hit...the 5th ark shouldve gotten caught up in it #the 6th DEFINITELY DID #ohhh man what if its the milky way learning about the existence of the andromeda initiative.... #bc the 6th ark got downed.... #but who tf wouldve been on the 6th ark i thought 'the rest' were all on the 5th #sorry to my followers that dont know anything about mass effect lol but im getting excited about n7 day #and every time i think about mass effect i cry about how much potential andromeda had #the theories i have.......shit couldve been sooooo fuckin cool #it speaks #mass effect

[ridiculously-over-obsessed]

Living with her is such a weird limbo now I’ve decided to go no-contact when I move out, like I’m sad and annoyed all the time about her bs and her attitude and her gaslighting, but I also know there’s an end in sight so I don’t feel... anything about it at the same time.

Idk I’ve got all these weird feelings/non-feelings going on and I just want to reach that end date so I can get on with my life, I’m feeling very weird lately...

#gs rambling again #like rn she's asleep (yes it's 6pm here) and i had to get my sister up because she's got dnd online with her friends #which is fine but like... she's 19 and doesn't get herself up and i'm sick of it being my responsibility #and mum got snappy at me for daring to wake her up at 4pm because i was going to do food because she was tired and needed more sleep #like why tf are you snapping at me you're nearly 50 years old you should know how to communicate with ppl by now #so i just went back to my room because fuck that and had a cry because it's exhausting and i'm exhausted but i also just feel... empty?? #like i don't feel any type of way about my decision to cut her off i'm not sad i'm not angry i'm not relieved i just... am. #idk i've had enough and i want it to be august already so i can get out and stay out and maybe then i'll feel something about it #just praying sfe doesn't fuck me over again this year 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻 #also i really need to talk to my friends about this but i know theyre in a great place and i don't want to bring my sad shit into it #i feel bad for needing them which i'm aware is not a rational way of thinking and i need to open up etc etc #but i'm... i just got so used to keeping it to myself that i don't know what to say or how to open up #and now i'm just spiralling and feeling bad for not talking to them but also bad for even considering it #*gently thuds head into wall*

[non-un-topo]

Had to say goodbye to my favourite professor yesterday, who’s retiring ;_; Tears were shed, hugs were had. And she said she’d like to keep in touch with me and now I’m freaking out because I don’t know how dfgfds

#you know how you replay conversations in your head 12353 times? #well she asked me what was next and i said 'finishing the next two weeks' and she asked me again #and i said 'might visit family in the summer. i live away from them' and i realized 10 minutes later that she was asking about school #so now i feel like i sounded lazy or directionless AAAHHHHHHH #but she knows --- we were emailing --- that my nana literally just died. so she knows i've been having trouble focusing. #but how do i stay in touch with a prof? ;_; like for a reference in the future? #i should have told her i'm considering applying for a master's of information. someday. #damn iiiiiiiiiiiit and even though everyone was crying i'm still embarrassed lol #but she liked me a lot!!! and she hugged me!! #the class group chat was gassing me tf up too like they were saying i'm one in a billion and i'm really smart and they loved my insight. #IDK HOW TO TAKE A COMPLIMENT HGFDFG LIKE THANK YOU BELOVEDS I LOVED HEARING YOUR THOUGHTS TOO #fuck im gonna miss this class..... there was nothing like it

[ethicstownpod]

This has a point - bear with me! I turned twenty-two a non-specified number of days ago. I was at work. My colleagues, upon learning this, got me a card and a cake and threw me a party before our DnD game. They put all this together in the span of my right hour shift; I've only worked there six months. My colleagues are some of my favourite people in the whole world.

My flatmate loves tiktok, an app I despise. But every day she saves rat videos, and then shows them to me when I get home from work/class. My other flatmate once hand-drew me wrapping paper of a hideous little cartoon man because he knew it would make me laugh.

My cousin, who’s eight, always asks everyone else if they want to play with his X-box before he does. There’s a girl in my class who always stops people on the way out to tell them she really liked the points they were making in discussions that day. Every discord server I’ve ever been in has a channel for sharing pictures of your pet. I’ve never met a person who doesn’t want to brag about their friends. I love when you make a baby laugh on the bus, so they try to make you laugh in return.

And now the point! The point is that I think people are so good. So unbelievably, fundamentally good. And I want to write people like that. Even when they’re not being actively good, there’s So Much Good inside of them. There are so many wonderful people in my life, I feel I would be doing them a disservice by not portraying just how amazing people can be.

#writing #positivity #ethics town #writeblr #podcast #and for ppl who like reading tags here's a nice story about rhys (january rhys) #the first time we met he asked me what i wanted to do #like as a job #and usually i dont tell ppl or lie bc its embarrassing but i thought 'this is such a nice boy and and ill never see him again #(lolllll) may as well tell him' so i did #and he was like 'wow thats so neat i bet youd be good at that ppl could do with that my friend does that you should talk!' #yknow bc hes adorable #anyway its like 2 1/2 months later were at a mutual friends b-day. weve spoken about like 1 work thing in the interim bc #rhys aint big on discord and i really have no need to be talking to cast most of the time and like we dont really know each well tbh #but he asks me how my thing i want to do for a job is going and for just a second i genuinely think im going to cry #ive never told ANYONE i wanna do this before. so ive never been asked about this before. and more than that this was a maybe three minute #conversation we had amidst a 50 hour w/ 3 hours of sleep weekend during which time many more interesting topics were covered #why and how tf he remembered that will always be lost on me. but i said 'yeah slow but its happening' and he said 'good i hope you do it' #and then i segued wildly before i did cry at someone elses party #anyway ppl are so great #just so so unbelievably great #there isnt really an end to that story the thing i wanna do takes a reeeeally really long time #buuuuut rhys and i are actual friends now (in case you cant tell by the Everything i say about him lol). which is nice

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I feel like the idea of "forgiveness" for people who've hurt you is like... Pretty christian based? Bc ngl. Why tf am i forgiving someone who abused me a lot. If we're talking "mental peace"... Well bud i kinda just gotta not think about it or when i do to work on my emotions around it so i can cope better with my trauma. Literally why am i forgiving people who dont regret hurting me and who would never apologize and how exactly does that bring more "peace"? Bc personally id feel like im ignoring something that bothers me a lot just so i can tolerate being around it when idk. Theres people who i definitely dont need to tolerate being around lol.

#forgiveness #quote unquote #some of these people would actively continue trying to hurt me if i was still around them and literally wtf is the use #of forgiveness then??? #being unfazed by their presence seems to be the better alternative as well as ignoring them..? #or idk. literally fucking leaving the room if they arrive. #'forgiveness' is what christians do towards non christians who fail to fail to be christians. its patronizing. its assumptive. #as if those people are somehow spiritually crying out that theyre sorry. thats how christians are w forgiveness. #how tf is what id be doing if i 'forgive' my abusers any different #its 'forgiveness' with the assumption that some day the person whos hurting you or in this case simply not christian will actually #decide you were right and 'apologize' for going against them #idk about you but i dont want to live in a false reality daydream that my abuser will someday be normal and nice and empathetic #how is that a useful belief at all in the long run. im just convincing myself somethings gonna happen that wont. #i think more ppl should go about the world assuming their abuser doesnt give a fuck and never will bc quite honestly that seems more likely #ive never felt peaceful when i attmept to forgive people knowing inside im still upset with them #however i feel much more peaceful when i embrace the fact they dont care and thus i dont have to care about them either 🤷 #like accepting the current facts brings me more relief than speculating on the future. #idk but i kinda refuse to forgive people who dont regret their actions towards me and who dont give af about me #if getting caught up in resentment is the issue... then you need some therapy of sorts to work on the resentment so you can get to a point #where you dont give a fuck if they do apologize. not assume someday like a pretentious asshole that theyll apologize #literally im nowhere near that important to my abusers for them to do that