btw this might be me swinging a bat at a hornets nest but like. absolutely none of my disappointment from the tl finale comes from ship baiting or any relationships that didn’t happen (though to be clear, i think the tedbecca fake outs were meanspirited and served no narrative purpose - in noted contrast to the season's earlier jamiekeeley fakeouts, for example, which were explicitly there to demonstrate jamie's growth + maturity)
tedpendant is a really fun concept for me, and i LOVE the characterisation + thematic potential there!
but as someone who personally resonated with a lot of ted’s struggles, the idea that ted could leave richmond so… seamlessly, for lack of a better word, really doesn’t sit right with me. the thesis of the shows entire first season - assuming it can be said to have only one - was about how everyone needs the love and support of a community, whether that comes in the flavour of someone who hypes u tf up or someone who will relentlessly call u on ur shit (or, as happened quite frequently, both!).
rebecca, roy, jamie are the clearest examples as the characters with the most screentime: they were all deeply isolated and disconnected from the people around them, and that was making them miserable. the connections they made with the team, the vulnerability they finally allowed themselves to express (the ghost banishing ceremony comes to mind!), and them going on to want *more* out of their life are what made their arcs about *progression* rather than *regression*. without that clear theme of compassion + community inspiring positive growth in everyone who encounters it, there is, frankly, no season one.
my personal favourite scene from season one comes right after michelle walks away from ted, when they’ve agreed to get divorced. ted sits down on the bench looking gutted, and a little shell shocked - and beard sits down with him. hands him the drink, and they sit there together. silent, but together. to me, that scene is an implicit promise from the episode, to the audience: ‘it’ll be okay. it’s going to be hard, but ted isn’t alone, and his friends won’t leave him behind.’
it also makes it clear to the audience that ted isn’t the saintly-giver-of-grace who needs nothing in return, as one might assume on first brush, but rather that he’s Also struggling with his own shit (as is everyone, always, in real life!) and he has something he needs from the people around him too.
and looking at the text of s3, and the conclusion to his arc in the finale, i just don’t believe that he got it. he wasn’t just sad that he was leaving (which would be understandable!), he was completely closed off. unresponsive to the people around him reaching out, borderline confused as to why they were trying so hard!
(side note, while i completely respect the read of ted and trents last interaction being rather rude + ooc on ted’s part, i personally read a different motive into it. for me, it was more like… he didn’t understand where trents enthusiasm was coming from? like, he read that as trent being too invested in what other people think of him, and responded in a way that he hoped would emphasise that ted doesn’t *need* to laugh at everything trent wrote, bc trent Already Knows that he’s done something really cool and kickass, and he shouldn’t value anyone else’s reactions above that. basically, based on his demeanour in the episode, i genuinely don’t think it would’ve even occurred to him that trent was more invested in HIS reaction than he would’ve been with anyone else.)
again, looking purely at the text, the show had already established that ted has really strong depressive + avoidant tendencies, as well as panic attacks (largely triggered by his fear of not being ‘good enough’ in various roles, ie: a father). we saw one area he was able to calm HIMSELF abt these fears (worry for henry, which is a Hell of a choice considering the ending…), but in literally every other heightened moment, he had to rely on his support system to help him make the choices that he WANTED to make, rather than ones inspired by avoidance and fear (ie: confronting michelle abt jake, talking to his mum abt why she was visiting + his dads death).
and to be clear, this is a GOOD THING! we’re not supposed to go through life alone, no matter how bad OR well we’re doing. rebecca and keeleys friendship isn’t worth less for all the scenes where they’re both in good places. if anything, the opposite is true - it’s lovely that they both have someone who want to celebrate the achievements in their life!
and fuck it, we’re sure as hell not supposed to go through life with exactly one (1) person whom we expect to fulfill ALL of our emotional needs at all times either! like, im sure i don’t need to labour my point here, but tying everything to one (1) person in ur life doesn’t make u any less isolated than if u were going it completely alone, whether it’s a family member, a friend, or a partner. i won’t pretend to know the first thing abt what it’s like to be a parent, but i don’t think it’s unreasonable to say that no parent would be at their best if they had absolutely no support/camaraderie/general love provided to them from Anyone other than their child.
so when ted is SPECIFICALLY shown to be in a bad place, over and over again (did he come to terms w his fear to be close to henry overnight???????), and then removed from his community? of COURSE the audience is left feeling unsettled, and like the rug has been pulled out from under them. there was no time in this finale dedicated to how ted would still be in contact with anyone from richmond. no promises of visits, or phone calls - fuck, nothing about emails!! according to the text, we might as well assume this is a clean break (and the maybe-dream-sequence does Fuck All to assure us otherwise. if ted doesn’t go to beards wedding, what WOULD he go to????). and since the show has ALSO completely failed to give us even an IMPLICATION of who/what ted’s support system would be in kansas, there’s… a reasonable argument to be made that this is It for ted. that, after two seasons doing NOTHING but attesting otherwise, the audience is supposed to suddenly believe that ted can (and SHOULD!) pull himself up by his bootstraps, and cope entirely on his own.
that, to me, is a betrayal of the show’s premise. we were promised a show about how, no matter how dark things may get, none of the characters would be left to struggle alone. and then they ended the show with ted alone.
i don’t know. i guess if i had to give this post a tldr; if anyone has any gen fic/meta/Literally Anything in the pipeline, i would absolutely love to be tagged/directed towards it. i’ll be endeavouring to write something myself, as well, but it might take a while before i can return to my WIP, lol.
80 notes
·
View notes
So I once made a funny shit post about the Young Wizard actually beaming to the Spiral at the tender age of 45 but it got me thinking of the opposite. What if the Wizard was incredibly young
Since in the game it isn't specified at what exact age we arrived in the Spiral I think it's just up to the player to come up with that part. I personally like to think The Wizard was around 7 or 8 when this happened but what if they were actually like four or five years old
Like shieeeet that's young enough where we wouldn't really remember our time on Earth very clearly right? Our family and maybe our friends but unless we had like ungodly memory powers, we wouldn't be able to remember all of the details of our original home. Like isn't it proven that human beings first gain self and special awareness at 3 or 4? Something like that
And this can open up for some sweet scenarios - little kid Wizard running up to Malorn with a scribbled drawing of him with a big smile on his face, or us and Ceren reading picture books together or clinging onto Nolan's robes as we attempt to stand on his feet as he walks like a penguin, but there's also this sad and messed up undertone that in this universe Ambrose took what was essentially a child just out of toddler stage and decided to keep them in the Spiral instead of returning them to their family
And like imagine how that would affect us. We would see it as normal at first because we grew up in the Spiral, we spent more years in the wizard world than in our home on Earth, but what if the Wizard gained awareness later on in life and actually realized what happened. Would they even care at that point because the Spiral was integrated in them at such a young age? Would they feel any yearning towards their original family, would they miss them at all? Would the Wizard be bitter about not getting to know them?
It's different when you're 7 - 10 and onwards because at that stage in your life you've more than gotten used to Earth life. You've gained awareness and it has been emotionally and mentally established that THIS (Earth) is your home. You know your parents and you know your friends and you know your environment. You will miss that when it's gone and feel it's absence because you're old enough to at least notice when you're taken away from it. But when you're still at that impressionable and oblivious stage of like 4 - 6 years old? The Spiral is all you know now. Your parents faces will be blurry, you may not even remember the details of what your home looked like. You may remember certain smells, colors or feelings you experienced when you were on Earth but that may be about it. And the saddest part about that is depending on what Ambrose and the other adults put our Wizard through, we may grow to completely forget even those essential memories. That Earth part of us would TOTALLY be gone and that would include even our parents (or other caretakers). I'm crying actually
42 notes
·
View notes
Ride 708: The resolution from now on!!
Pag 1
1:400m until the peak!!
300m!!
2: Both Rokudai and Kinaka
3: aren't slowing down!!
5: …. that's this town's high school's bike club
6: Are they doing the race for the spring newcomers?
Is it already that season?
Pag 2
1: Rokudai is getting closer!!
Pag 3
3: He passed him!?
6:He got through!!
No, he fell back!! Kinaka is still in the lead!!
Pag 4
1: The match for Kinaka's pride as an experienced rider!! He'll never give up the lead!!
Pag 5
1: I'll never let you!!
2: But!! This guy!!
He has been attacking over and over again!! Rokudai the wall!!
3: I get it.... but still, I can feel it....
4: This guy
5: He's not running to get to the finish line!!
Pag 6
1: He's only thinking about passing me!!
I'll pass you
3: Nh..... gi....
4: Ah!!
5: His hands became numb and he can't even move them properly!?
Pag 7
3: Road bikes don't have suspensions, so the vibrations of road surface pass through and get to both hands, so when you first start your hands always get numb!!
4: He probably already lost his grip almost completeley
5: And yet.....
Pag 8
1: What is this will of moving forward!!
Pag 9
2: 200m left until they reach the peak!!
Pag 10
3: They collided!!
At the shoulders!!
5: Idiot, of course we'll collide if you try to pass me on the narrow inner side of the road!!
Ro.....
Pag 11
1: The guardrail....!!
…..dai?
2: He can't hear my voice.... he's just moving face on!!
4: The last thing Kei-chan told me
His “words”.....
5: Roku chan
From here on....
His “word”....
You decide
Pag 12
1: Will you “go”?
Or “stay”?
3: Ah....
4: Th.... that's!!
5: Whatever you choose, we'll support you
7: Goo Roku-chan!!
8: Yes!!
Pag 13
2: There's just 100m until the peak!!
Just 100m!!
3: Kei-chan knew, and probably Kyou-chan did too
4: I finally understood in that moment
5: I'm such a dull person, teh
6: “Passing Kinaka” in this race
Pag 14
1: Means that we won't be in the same club anymore, teh
Pag 15
2: We'll stay in this club until we make sure he surpasses that guy
3: Huh!?
That day, I was so surprised to hear that they would be joined the club
4: When I entered high school, I told myself “I'll do everything by myself”
I was so proud of myself when I found Back-gate-slope-san's club all by myself
I brushed their helping hands away and tried to do it alone
Pag 16
1: But they still supported me to the point they joined the club
4: If I give it my all, I feel like I can do it
Same!!
Oi, Roku-chan, can we chase this guy now?
5: And they stayed with me, who is still lacking, and gently lent me hand
6: Kei-chan....!!
Kyou-chan!!
Pag 17
1: “Surpassing Kinaka-kun”
2: means to “go” after this
3: And stopping my legs now.... if I don's pass Kinaka-kun
4: I can stay with Kei-chan and Kyou-chan
That's what “stay” means
5: That's unfair
6: Whatever you choose, we'll support you
If you
7: say such kind words to me
Pag 18
1: Strength wells up inside my body!!
Pag 19
7: It's the end
Pag 20
1: I want to push forward in the end!!
2: And to do that, I want a heavier gear!!
3: But....
Ngh.... I have no strength left in my hands, teh
4: That's..... move, fingers....
5: Ngh..... ugh.....
Pag 21
1: Higher!!
Pag 22
1: Rokudai switched to a higher gear!!
2: He's pushing forward!!
3: It's the final sprint!!
There are 100m left until the peak!!
98 notes
·
View notes