The touch of my lover still lays on the skin of my soul.
There is Love, holy love. Unconditional love. Wild and God created love in this world. But when they say one can't love whom they love for fear of being unholy, how can one be holy be denying and abandoning love? How is the withdrawal of love from a desperate heart that is beating for only the reason of obtaining love & breaking the heart of your beloved, a Holy thing? Would God forgive a lover for loving one who is shunned by others in the fear that they could earn God's wrath too as if wrath were contagious? Why would God rage at one of His children for their Love if God is Love?
And if one loves 2 souls and gives them all she has, would God multiply her blessings since she doubles the blessings she provides? Why would God take His Love from her instead when she needs God's Love to fill the cup she pours out to the others?
All I ever wanted to know in this world was what to do. I never know if I step right, I only know Love is real. Now I hear words of judgement from people who are human and blind just like me. Do I choose to listen to them? Do I choose fear instead of joyous life-giving love?
Please hear me God. I love You. I need you. I also need them. All need to be Loved. No one is a pious silent island without the natural ache to dream that the waves and the moon will touch in ♥ love ♥ one day.
Hey- been a while. I just want to ask for prayer rn, I’ve been going through the toughest few months of my life and I feel my relationship with God is not where it should be, it’s super hard staying consistent right now so I need a lot of prayer.
Especially with the Israel vs Palestine situation- being partly Israeli myself it’s been very hard hearing what’s going on both sides. Please pray for my family and all of Israel and for Gaza to be free from Hamas and for those kids to be set free.
I also ask for prayer for my dad’s foot, since it had broken and had torn ligaments. He may need a second surgery soon.
Lastly pray for my mental well being, I have been constantly spiraling into anxiety and had very very bad thoughts lately, I’ve been abandoned by a lot of people recently as well and it feels like my heart has been stabbed a million times over.. I really need help getting back on track with God but I cannot do it alone with how badly I’ve been fighting these battles lately. Everything hurts. I can’t catch a break from anything.. I’m scared and I don’t know what to do with myself.. it feels like I’m going crazy and I can’t even show it to anyone anymore because it feels like I have nobody anymore, the more days I don’t read the Bible the more I slip into sin and I can’t even feel anything anymore. The amount of numbness I feel scares me.. I wanted to be numb from the pain and the bad emotions but the exact opposite happened and I feel like it’s all my fault. I want to get back up. I don’t want to feel like this pathetic 16 year old that is bound to fail at everything. So please if you have time please pray for me. I’m in desperate need of deliverance.