The Terror (2018) - S01E09 ‘The C, The C, The Open C’
“The next week when it came time to dress, I... I pretended to be ill. They knew I was pretending. To this day I don’t know why I did it. They never asked me to join them again. We never spoke of it. It was the last and only time I stepped into a papist church. But tonight, when I close my eyes...I’m there.
If I were a braver man, I'd kill Mr. Hickey. Though it would mean my death, too. But I'm hungry. I'm hungry and I want to live.”
The trouble with rewatching The Terror is you know exactly which bits you never want your eyeballs to cope with again so you look away from them and then promptly notice some other devastating little grace note the showrunners stuck in there
(this post brought to you by me being all FUCK THAT about poor Goodsir’s corpse in ep 10 and then spotting how Hodge’s bizarro!dinner set up with his seperate seat and china has gone from Cruel Mockery Of Chain Of Command to Literal Infantalisation He’s In A High Chair He Might As Well Have A Dunce Cap Oh God)
“For in this world dwell the Angels who keep us, the Lord who will not leave us, and the departed, who though cleaved from the frame that carried them, yet live. The newest to their ranks - our bright Captain, Sir John.”
Thinking about when Dave K said that he has “come to love the characters who aren’t victorious, that don’t necessarily rise to the challenge — the Hodgsons and the Littles — and I just find them really interesting and moving to kind of watch them as they sort of fail”, and The Hodgson Failson Problem.
Hodgson’s speech to Goodsir in 1x09 confirms to me that he has almost returned to a second childhood. I think of all the characters that episode he is most shown as being stuck in the past, a past order, a past life. Eating apart from Hickey’s mutineers on his fancy china with fork and knife like he’s still a Lieutenant, recalling the Virginian ham, recalling that childhood summer with his Catholic aunts. When he’s telling Goodsir about the wafer and wine and he says, “I felt forgiven of every poor, weak, or selfish thing within my soul” (Christos Lawson hits the tear drop at exactly this note; handshake with Tobias Menzies for great timing) – he’s talking about how he knows himself to be now, his conduct through this entire crisis; poor, weak, and selfish. He wants to go back to childhood. To feel faultless again. It’s this very Hodgson characteristic you see in 1x08 as well, when he’s whining at Little, wanting reassurance that he did the right thing by ordering the slaughter of a Netsilik group based on Hickey’s flimsy say-so. Little does not offer him absolution – he tells Hodgson, “If [your instinct and your training] told you to proceed with what you ordered...then be easy with yourself.” Hodgson can’t have that, and has to follow up with the hysterical story about Native Americans. Come on, I told you about the scary Native Americans, won’t you reassure me now?
(My hunch is that even if he got the absolution he so wanted, he’d cringe away from it, he wouldn’t believe it – the giveaway is in the story [he never went back to Mass]. Just enough self-delusion to spin justifications around his missteps, just enough self-awareness that they don’t do the trick.)
I couldn’t tell if Goodsir was moved by “I’m hungry, and I want to live.” (I always am.) The problem with that line, which on first viewing made me ask myself, “Did Hodgson just make cannibalism … ennobling?”, is how hollow it is. Gibson’s flesh and blood, ill-gotten through murder, does not compare to the strange and illicit but ultimately beautiful Catholic communion that Hodgson so badly wants it to be. (That would be Fitzjames’s flesh and blood; he calls himself Christ on his deathbed, and offers his body to his men freely, even if they don't take him up on it.) The way those men try to survive is not ennobling. Hickey was right. It is a nasty piece of business. I’m thinking of the other small and big cruelties that go on in Hickey’s camp (the way Des Voeux shot Hartnell though Hartnell was lowering his gun, the way at the start of 1x10 Crozier is bleeding from his forehead and nose without explanation). I wouldn’t be surprised if Goodsir was moved by that telling. But I also wouldn’t be surprised if he was bored out of his mind.
It always amazes me how there aren’t more Christos fans in The Terror fandom. He has given us two hugely popular behind the scenes videos now and he actually has a really interesting acting CV, despite not being that well known.
Fandom: The Terror (TV 2018)
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Thomas Jopson/Edward Little
Characters: Edward Little (1811-c.1848), Thomas Jopson, Francis Crozier, George Henry Hodgson, Henry T. D. Le Vesconte, Lady Silence | Silna (The Terror), Other Character Tags to Be Added, Some Inuit OCs, Doggos
Additional Tags: Collaboration, Suspense, Horror, Angst and Drama, Eventual Happy Ending, mute character, Blood and Gore, Serious Injuries, Psychological Trauma, Cannibalism, Eventual Romance, Living in the Arctic, Dundy is the bad guy in this one, Edward is just trying is best
A part of the Curse for Loyalty series. This is Edward's a story about Edward's journey through an alt timeline of The Misery.
Have you ever watched the 9th episode of The Terror and wished that you could listen to George Hodgson’s Eucharist Speech for, say, 10 hours and 54 minutes?
Well, now you can!
Back in 2018, the audiobook for The Sacrifice Box by Martin Stewart was released. It’s classified as Young Adult, but it’s a surprisingly gory and spooky book about five friends who each make a sacrifice in 1982. Four years later, they have to deal with the aftermath as strange things start to happen around town.
It’s a bit like Stranger Things with a heavy dose of 1970′s/1980′s Stephen King. It’s absolutely beautifully written and read and honestly, Christos has the perfect voice for a spooky book like this. Definitely recommend! 10/10
It's available for download from Audible, Google Play Store and iTunes. Downloads are £7.99 from what I’ve found. You can also get an MP3 CD like I did. I paid about £10.00.