#GOD. GOD!

[crimeronan]

Empress Luz AU: Obsessed with Luz finding out more about Eda and Raine's relationship. Especially that she's hearing it from Raine's perspective. A big aspect of what became the tipping point for them back then was being completely shut out by Eda who refused to accept any help while Eda was trying to suffer through her curse alone because she doesn't want to end up hurting anyone else.

Just. Raine maybe using the story as an opportunity to try to nudge Luz in the direction that confiding in people she can trust and reaching out for help is good and okay and that they're always available if she ever needs them, even if just to talk. (Just really hoping that maybe she might open up about the things Raine & Darius already found out via the mindscape)

Meanwhile, Luz just sorta zeroed in on all of the negatives of the story and how things are mirroring just a bit too closely and Eda and Raine haven't spoken in decades and the internal screaming has reached up to whistling teakettle and she's completely missing Raine trying to be supportive.

HEAD IN HANDS. THIS IS SO SWEET AND TRAGICALLY HILARIOUS AND HILARIOUSLY TRAGIC OHHH GOD.

luz being like "oh no, raine can tell that i'm keeping secrets and they're trying to nicely tell me to fuck off and even if they HAVEN'T clocked me, i should never have gotten so comfortable and i should be better at handling my stuff alone because i am emotionally unavailable and Bad :(((" is SO DEEPLY IN CHARACTER IT'S KILLING MEEE. she did almost EXACTLY the same thing to hunter, back before they worked their shit out. i am fucking yelling. GOD. LUZ MY SWEET ANGLE

it's especially interesting if luz is working semi-regularly with a still-kinda-resistant eda. and eda is definitely keeping her cards close to her chest because like HELL is she going to be emotionally vulnerable to The Fucking Empire. and so luz sees even more of herself in eda through these interactions than through raine's stories. all of eda's wariness and hesitance to trust and the way her guard only comes down during moments when luz is being disarmingly kind or excited....

i feel like in this scenario, luz WOULD eventually break down in front of raine and tell them.... well, a lot. whether she admitted to patricide would depend on the circumstances, but Certainly she'd fess up about the amount of stress she's under. luz has been playing politics really well and subtly unraveling the empire, but she's also aware that there are Enormous risks if she chooses the wrong allies or makes the wrong decisions. and the only person who Fully knows what happened or what she wants or who she is... is hunter. and hunter will bounce ideas off her and tell her if he thinks she's making a mistake, but he's also 100% loyal to whatever she decides to do. which is scary for her!

and she's sixteen. seventeen if this is a few months into her reign. seventeen is old enough to run a country if you're a YA protagonist, but Oh God the concept is Fucking Terrifying in any other genre. she's under SO MUCH PRESSUREEEE

luz knocking on the door of raine's room and barely managing to get inside before she's bursting into tears like "i asked the titan to help me and i promised i'd fix the world if he did and i don't know if i can even keep that promise i'm ruining it i killed my father and i promised not to be like him and i can't HELP being like him and i don't know what to do i don't WANT to be like him i don't want to be like this i don't want to ruin everything"

and a startled raine not even being able to calculate a response beyond just. "i know."

and luz is like.

wh.

you. you what????

#replies #long post #toh #princess luz au #raine whispers #luz noceda #this poor girl. get her a hug six weighted blankets and twelve straight days to nap #she absolutely would be like 'i have to pull away from raine they either already hate me or will soon :(((' #while raine is like 'please for the love of god just TALKK TO ME you tiny child' #god. god!

[calamitydaze]

. cquackity

#god. GOD! #okay goodnight #bella talks

[ante--meridiem]

Biggest con of study group: contains arrogant condescending guy who likes the sound of his own voice too much and I'm spending about 20% of the time actually thinking about maths, the remaining 80% internally chanting "shut the fuck up" at him.

I thought a pro was "make friends?" but nope we're making enemies here.

#You're not the only one who knows how to solve the problems and we don't need you to teach us #So you can take your 'key insights' and shove them up your ass #His girlfriend was their and when she tried to explain her solution he was just like 'I know you did it my way :)' #God. God! #I usually defend people whose enthusiasm gets misread as arrogance/condescention but this time was just too much #Can't believe I thought he was cool and was sad he didn't want to talk to me until now #If I show up to study group again it will be with the sole purpose of showing him up #Liveblogging my masters #Personal #....well at least I was right about it activating my competitiveness

[leaflingsound]

calling in sick to work tomorrow and telling them it's due to babygirl related injuries.

#the last of us spoilers #god. god! #even with knowing what was gonna happen it still hit me like a fucking train #ellie's face at the end... :'( #you can just see her shutting down as soon as she realizes she's safe and it makes me want to go lie down in the dirt. for a long time #gray's talkin tag

[daenerys-targaryen]

you heart was glass i dropped it

#leah rambles #song post #god. GOD!

[r-18g]

the amount of times today where i have been turned on by the awful torture bits in criminaI minds... an embarrassing number.

#v speaks! #god. god!

[its-raining-cats]

So last night I beat the final lightwarden and uh. What the fuck. What the fuck.

#what the fuck! #rain plays ffxiv #ffxiv #shadowbringers #shadowbringers spoilers #ffxiv shadowbringers #god. god! #I knew the exarch was graha but still that reveal tho 🥺 #I haven’t seen a character this in-love with the wol since haurchefant #also god the fact that his plan was to pretend to be evil so we wouldn’t feel as much pain from his death……. hhhh #me abt ardbert when we met: I’ve had a enough of this guy #me now: hello my angel my beloved my dearest #Now That’s What I Call Character Development! #ghost that lives in my brain my beloved <3 #AND FUUUUUUCK THE SCENE WHERE UOU ALMOST TRANSFORM INTO A WARDEN #AAAAAAAAAAA #also I predicted vauthry being a lightwarden ever since they mentioned the mind control thing #didn’t expect them to yassify him tho

[ieropski]

I’m hearing the bass in kids and I’m thinking about that mikey interview

#god. god!

[mohabbaat]

december???? what next??? 2024?????

#god forbid 2025

[kochei0]

I turn to Ares.

Thanks to Tyler Miles Lockett who allowed me to draw inspiration from his ARES piece for page 2! Look at his etsy page it's SICK

⚔️ If you want to read some queer retelling of arturian legends have a look at my webtoon

#greek mythology #ares #athena #greek gods #dont get me wrong it aint athena slander but it sure is ares praise #on some level at least #man justly accused of bad things deserves some mid praise more at 11 #thank you romi for helping me with words though i duly noted you insisted on ares not being cautious rather than him not being careful #romi be like “i want him to care” and honestly good you should say it #also EPIC led to this and i just..... i want to draw some animatics man i just need infinite time now #my long lost love for greek myths just will never stop coming and they dont stop coming and they dont stop coming #i want some vulture design in here for ares but not sure about this one #kochei doodles

[lotrmusical]

never let anyone tell you that trawling through mediocre victorian poetry isn't worth it. we just happened upon an absolute BANGER of a worm poem. go read it or else 🪱🪱🪱

#was calling beckett and scouring the works of eliza cook looking for lesbianism #good amounts of lesbianism in evidence but unfortunately very little in the way of good poetry #APART from this worm one which DOES NOT MISS #eliza cook #is there a thriving eliza cook tag on tumblr. somehow i doubt it #the hand of the giant and the heart of the brave / must turn weak and submit to the worm and the grave! #not an original theme ofc but GOD the treatment is delightful. so fresh so gleeful some rlly nice use of sound. rlly solidly constructed #words #gay belligerence

[tariah23]

Oh…. Well, it’s over for Crunchyroll I guess

#Crunchyroll #piracy #funimation #money hungry ass streaming service #rambling #I’ve never paid for a streaming service in my life thank god #I appreciated using others accounts but I personally cannot see myself paying this much for a service if I had the funds 😭! #get back to pirating kings!!! #anime has always been one of the easiest forms of media to pirate anyway so y’all got this #CR is definitely not worth paying for though #CR is certainly not worth paying this much for even if it’s a yearly one time fee #capitalism #the fact that CR has always had pretty bad quality as a streaming service anyway #it buffers every time you pause or rewind anything

[brightlotusmoon]

#humans are a fun species #good for them #master splinter would approve #for the city #humans will always make gods out of the absurd

[lautakwah]

EDIT: CHECK MY LATEST ADDITION BEFORE YOU START SHIT IN THE NOTES, THANKS.

warning for discord users

If you're on the app, immediately go to your dms and then "add friends". After the latest update they allow your contacts to find you and have that option turned on by default, so make sure it's unchecked!

This is very obviously not great for a multitude of reasons, but especially for people in vulnerable positions who do not want people in their contacts to see who they are on discord and/or know they have discord in the first place. I've also tried finding out if this is a thing on desktop but haven't been able to find any mention of it, so either it's not a "feature" (yet) or they've hidden it. Either way, stay safe, and turn off finding friends via contacts!

[ID: three screenshots from the discord app with circles around the buttons to press to get to this "feature". 1: the messages/DM button, 2: the "add friends button", 3: in the add friends page, the "allow contacts to add me" checkbox. /END ID]

#ling.txt #discord #fascinated by people seeing the edited post and then not even bothering to click on the bolded underlined capslocked link #in huge letters at the start of the post #tumblr is full of idiots god bless <3

[fairycosmos]

this too shall pass this too shall pass this too shall pass this too shall pass this too shall pass this too shall pass this too shall pass this too shall pass

#my god .

[slavicafire]

sobbing into my plate after overhearing a conversation between a mom and her tiny daughter in this shopping centre food court

#żmija gada #I will elaborate once I get home but gods. loving conscious and tender parenthood just makes me #break down