#Fucking hell i cant take this

[liquidstar]

im afraid i may have i classically conditioned myself. i have a space heater in my room, the kind that makes fan noise when i turn it on. i think ive come to associate that sound with being warm, because i recently got a mini fridge that also makes fan noise, and now i keep feeling hot even though its the same temperature its always been (which is usually cold for me). my fridge makes me warm. thats all backwards. damn you pavlov.

#i say as if he invented it and didnt just bother dogs until he was like urethra! #i also keep thinking oh fuck i gotta turn the heater off but its not on #ill get used to it. #i told my brothers abt getting classically conditioned by a heater and they were like yeah that would happen to you #and i cant even fucking argue with them because it did happen to me. -_- #finn moment i guess #but i got the mini fridge from my dad who got it from work (someone at the library had it in their office and didnt want it anymore) #and i was like hell yeah ill take the library mini fridge

[chrisrin]

some more gemstuck designs!

#homestuck #hs #gemstuck #davepetasprite #davepeta #dave strider #nepeta leijon #terezi pyrope #so happy with these gem choices #most people turn terezi into a pyrope gem which is very fair BUT #i wanted to do something a little different #and like CMOOON she's the PERFECT zircon #nepeta as a cat's eye feels so right and her with dave? tigers eye? hell yes #also i did a little dave redesign #the idea in the lore is that dave after he escaped the empire was left with a crack in his gem #dirk as a bismuth is like #fuck #i cant do anything to help you #he can make all these weapons and all these tools for war and destruction but cant help the person he cares about most #so he takes him to pink diamond (fef) #and through some means #a deal or something #dirk gets fef to repair dave #and so he reforms with a new fit! #(and since it's kinda like dave dies it felt appropriate to base his reformed version's outfit on his godtier fit) #more of these incoming btw im having a lot of fun today with them #feel free to send me asks about fusions or characters u want me to see design #no promises ill get to all of them but im having fun #also if u want to ask about lore ur welcome to as well #i have Some things in my mind scoped out

[aether-weather]

manifesting summer rn (it's 18 degrees)

#i have something to tell you guys... #im...an american... #when i say 18 degrees...i mean in fahrenheit... #i hope you guys can find it in your hearts to forgive me </3 #anyways lol. ive been listening to a lot of 80s japanese pop/disco/soft rock and it's been inspiring me to draw summer stuff #also its really cold outside and my legs hurt like fucking hell so ive been trapped in my room for 4 days with nothing to do but draw #so im hoping it warms up soon!! cause i cant fucking take it anymore >_< #sonic the hedgehog #sth #sonic #amy rose fanart #amy rose #amy rose the hedgehog #summer #summer vibes #beach #dex draws #dex doodles #idk if this counts as a doodle but its pretty rough so im counting it lol #expect more summer themed art from me soon 0w0

[puppyeared]

man

#maybe im being pessimistic abt this. im not saying u should wear a mask every waking moment of your life god knows i cant #but also. hell no i dont trust u if anything i distrust u ppl even more after how things played out for the past 3 years #like there are situations where it might be inevitable catching covid. most of my family members are nurses and in constant contact #but there are also a ton of ways to make that risk low as possible like masking and wearing a face shield and having sanitizer #for me its not enough to just say oh we're in a small group and we're all vaccinated #motherfucker your kid is sick from preschool EVERY TIME WE VISIT. of course ill be wearing a mask she gave me covid last year #also no the fuck it isnt seasonal the cases go up because lack of caution makes the virus spread and mutate especially around times when #ppl gather. add that with virus transmission in cold weather and its a matter of different factors increasing the risk of spread #im also tired of ppl not understanding that i wont be their responsibility if i do get sick. maybe they can help me recover #but at the end of the day the risk of death and long term health is all on me. i cant change that #the govt barely gives me accommodations what makes u think theyll do anything for every individual case of long covid or worse #im so tired. im so tired #i dont even know if its possible to want this to be over anymore i just wish we didnt have to deal with this in the first place #ALSO COUGH INTO YOUR SLEEVE SERIOUSLY HOW IS THIS SO HARD TO REMEMBER #oh its just a cold/dry throat its not like i have covid or anything. no!! its basic hygiene!!! how is this so hard to understand!!!!!!!!!! #and no this isnt abt whether people have the means to protect themselves this is me bitching abt my relatives not taking me seriously #vent #my art #myart #doodles #covid 19

[sea-buns]

Holy fuck, man. What a trip Fearne has been on, huh?

You tell her how grateful you are to have her in your life, you flatter her, you tell her you need her, that you have to do this together. You have her make a promise that has this woman, born of chaos and fey, agreeing through shaking hands and a trembling voice.

You make her deceive your friends; you make her follow where they cannot know; you make her help you into this contraption; you make her feed this thing into you despite the fact that you both have been warned extensively of the risks. You make her watch you crumble and splinter and shatter and fracture and burst and implode. You make her watch you die, over and over and over and over, for a minute in agonizing bullet time.

You make her do all these things, because when she tries to back out, when she tries to not be the one who let you do this—how could you do this—

you tell her, "YOU PROMISED."

Because if there's one thing you know, it's that the fey do not break a promise.

#cant wait for her to fucking pissed for a very long time. shes really packing the entire human experience in a very short period of time. #critical role #cr spoilers #c3e77 #fearne calloway #ashton greymoore #bells hells #just gonna get ahead of the um actually mfs and state that i am aware that its not confirmed that thats why ash brought up the promise #but boy howdy would it make for some great drama down the line huh? #edit: apparently i did not get ahead enough cuz ive had to turn off replies #since ppl were somehow interpreting this mini introspection piece as me infantilizing fearne?? #anyway the first line is now changed to something a bit more neutral. after sleeping on it i do see how it was a bit aggressive at the top #other than that im not sure how else to reword without completely disregarding the core of the post #i might make more posts addressing this but im not sure yet. i wanna try to approach it in the best way possible. #but if it helps any the point of the post was not to say fearne had no agency. she had plenty of moments where she tilted one way or the #other. the POINT was to just shine some light on the emotional pressure she had been put under. #hasnt your friend ever asked you to keep a secret or promise that felt wrong or unsafe or made you anxious? #it has nothing to do with the amount of agency she had. ash wasnt holding a knife to her throat and forcing her to follow against her will #all i was trying to do was take this detail about his reminder of the promise that i thought was interesting and have some fun writing an #overview of the kinda stress she was under BEFORE theyd reached that scene. this entire ep was everyone discussing how grateful they were #for this family theyd made. and while im not saying ash was PURPOSELY emotionally manipulating fearne.. #there is a level of unintentional manipulation when you pair the severity of his request with the convo theyd had 2 seconds prior #as well as the desperate need they all have to save each other NO MATTER WHAT. #ash was giving incredibly strong energy of a friend who peer pressures you into helping them do something that you know in your gut WILL #cause problems. hes a fucked up guy. theyre all fucked up guys. even if he didnt mean to “force” her into anything the pressure was THERE. #<- i feel like all of this overall gets my message across. i think maybe ill clean it up later into its own post. #im gonna try not to rush myself to get it done tho. #im under no obligation to explain myself. especially when ppl approach the misunderstanding by being rude af. but i do think it CAN #be clarified so id at least like to try to some degree

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

oh waow maybe having friendly neighbors is a Good thing (said in the voice of a guy who just received free cookies)

#ough theyre so soft and theyre pumpkin w/ cream cheese frosting... #they will be Gone by the end of the day i cant stop eating them #ive been a little worried bc yk. small town. neighbors tend to be nosier #and i am a nervous person! i would like to be left alone! dont perceive me dont knock on my door dont look in my windows! #but hey. tasty homemade cookies. maybe this is all right #god theyre so fuckign good what the hell did she put in them... #absolutely unprompted #today is a Decent day #nice weather. hauled wood. got cookies. went for a lil walk & saw some cool moss and sap. gonna have some tasty beef for dinner #and there was a new casual geographic to watch! & a new wendigoon video for tonight!! yippee! #and im drafting fresh scribbles for november since im doing repostober #things are decent and ill take it while it lasts. even if im perpetually cold because this house is fuCKING FREEZING- #oh heated blanket we're really in it now

[airlocksandaviaries]

THE LEGO MOVIE IS TEN YEARS OLD THIS YEAR??????????

#WHAT THE HELL #IM #I CANT TAKE THIS #the lego movie #I feel old as fuck wth

[oatbugs]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art. #you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea? #if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

[monstertsunami]

smoking that shit that turned my future self into golb 😳

#art hell #betty grof #magic betty #i hope its ovbious that ive never done any kind of weed in my life #drugs cw #nobodys allowed to complain abt Bong Accuracy.. i asked the potheads (affectionate) i know for input but they didnt want to take away #its whimsical charm #bettycest #bc any two bettys in range of each other WILL fuck within minutes and you cant stop them

[regardingjenmish]

WHO ALLOWED Y'ALL TO DO THIS?!?! [X]

#i saw this all over twitter and it took forever to find the final source #but fucking hell #im gonna need yall to stop exiting that blondie with dean! #I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE #dean winchester

[lambjock]

i have too many thoughts on the deleted jackienat scene for a girl who's supposed to be enjoying her birthday lol. i think at the root of it all, it's highly likely that when the actresses breathed life into the characters, and scenes got improvised, some things just stopped making sense for characters to do. including good things, like with jackie's 'i love you' to shauna! and i think this is the case for natalie looking at jackie with hatred before leaving her out in the cold. maybe at one point in her early stages of characterization it made sense, but clearly the people on the show didn't think that way anymore at some point, hence the cut. also ngl people taking this deleted scene, which for all we know didn't even make it into the final script, as some sort of 'gotchu' for jackienat enjoyers ( romantic or otherwise ) is weird as hell to me. like, it was removed for a reason.

#my posts. #yellowjackets #im tired and its my birthday so maybe this doesnt make much sense but #i have lots of thoughts i cant stop thinking abt this scene #a mix of good and bad tbh #but mostly watching people act as if this completely destroys jackienat is hilarious to some degree #since a huge part of their appeal has always been how similiar they are. that's what jackienat is founded on #and with that similarity comes a hatred especially since both girls have a self loathing streak #so regardless whether people view this as a huge characterization moment for nat or not doesn't change this #people seem to forget how much natalie genuinely hated lottie and was jealous of her as well! it doesn't mean she loved her any less #natalie at her core is a teenage girl like the rest of them. she has flaws and pettiness and does things she regrets. a *lot* #but on the other hand she'd do anything for travis. that's who she lives for. and the only one who helped her save him was jackie #jackie might've stolen him away for the night but the others were gonna take him away forever #which is something natalie would hate more than jackie fucking him. hell in the show she even says she could care less about the sex #she just wanted travis to be *alright.* #had natalie been in the cabin when jackie was calling the girls out for what they did last night you KNOW she would've sided with her #would she have cared about the highschool drama between shauna and jackie? who knows. #but no matter her personal feelings on jackie they had a mutual hatred and disgust for what happened during doomcoming #and i think that would've mattered more to nat at the time. in a swarm of angry feral teenagers the only one she could trust then was jacki #of course these are just my personal opinions which im purposefully keeping brief lol #but like. i just have too many thoughts on this it would take an essay to iron them out so here's this i guess!

[reel-fear]

Hey if anyone wants to check out Moving Pictures Redrawn [a fan-made remake of the first chapter of BATIM that Mike n Meatly may have ordered to be taken down? It's unsure at the moment] Guess who downloaded a copy before they did that~

#batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #honestly if they did order the take down um lmao tbh #I guess Id do the same it must be embarrassing for a fan to make a better game than you did literally improved your damn #flagship title bc it fucking sucks #but yeah in the name of preserving this piece of art this person mustve spent forever making hmu if u wanna download it <3<3 #its genuinely so cool I hope it turns out someone was posing as the bendy devs bc like this is so awesome #to have it taken down just feels so shitty #idc if its just a better batim if I could fucking sue Meatly n Mike for selling me a piece of shit of a game #thats not fun to play buggy as hell and has some of the worst storytelling ive ever seen #then took this down bc actually we cant let ppl play chapter 1 for free anymore ugh its just salt in the wound of how shitty they r #this remake is so cool I cant believe I got it to run on my computer #the way they redesigned the general areas is so damn cool too this is genuinely such an improvement and meatly n mike should be fucking #begging on their knees for the fans to forgive them if they did take this down fuck them so so much #mike literally has flaunted his fucking wealth in the past do we really think he needs the extra 20 bucks from some poor soul #buying his elaborate scam of a game that has a broken save system really? Does he need that money? No the fuck he doesnt #ramblez

[soldier-poet-king]

Trying to organize all my crafting supplies with a single rubbermaid bin and a handful of tote bags and also it all has to fit in like 4 sq feet on the floor of my closet bc I am not allowed To Take Up Space except my bedroom is already really small and my closet half sized as it is and so it's just

#the duality of fran #i love organizing this is just hell #bc i cannot create an effective storage system under these situations #let alone a visually PLEASING SYSTEM #did i fuckin mention. #got home from my catsitting staycation #there is now a stationary bike in the room outside my bedroom #but when i wanted to set up a weight lifting bench there??? not allowed #when i wanted to set up a crafting area??? it was a maybe #For fucks sake yall #i cant even just have a folding table permanently set up in the basement #for crafting #like. HELLO???? HELLO????? CAN I EXIST??? BLEASE??? #it is very hard to have hobbies without being able to take up any space permanently #textile crafting is not something that is. uh. easily portable #when youre all organized and set up by material and colour and supply type #ONE (1) TABLE #i cant use my room bc there is no floor space it is literally a bed a bookshelf and my desk #and theres barely room to walk #and that's WITH my books all double stacked #and having installed extra floating shelves for storage #There is literally. no space #ngl i am kinda genuinely upset about this

[babygirltony]

need him so bad its fucking SICKENING

source: totaliykafkaesque on tt

#i cant take this shit anymore #jesus fucking christ #why must i live like this #UGH #fucking HELL #tony dalton #flor salvaje #telenovela #telemundo #video edit #not mine

[tlgtw]

MGSV really is *so* misogynistic it is honestly hard to believe. It has ONE named female character, just one. And holy shit, the things they make that single woman do.

I don't know what happened. Or how Kojima thought what we was doing was defensible.

I could just link to the introduction of the SKULL snipers from Mission 28 Code Talker but even that I feel is so unbelievable to see with your own eyes that it would exit the mind as soon as it stopped playing.

Literally every criticism made during that era toward's this game is accurate. Every single one.

It might legit be the WORST example of "male gaze," literally literally ever. Out of everything.

If MGSV had outright no women in it whatsoever it would be better than what this is.

The cutscene for when Big Boss comes to Mother Base after not showering was what sealed it for me.

And the fact that there were people back then who thought they could defend this perhaps makes it even more deranged.

#mgsv #completely incoherent post #I love love love playing this game but holy shit #It is fucking unbearable. #Play it on your computer with the mod 'Take Me of the Grid + No More Timers + Free Deployment' installed #The game is legitimately hot garbage without it. #what the fuck happened to result in the difference between how woman are treated in this game and then... Death Stranding????? #Wtf??????? #its inexplicable #Kojima; as skilled a designer and director as he certainly is #is absolutely also a misogynist #I think MGSV is the hard fucking proof frankly #You can't make this. AND whine about how people refused to like it. That shit definitely counts augh my god #still a completely incoherent post #aough #i cant even put the words together #the actual moment to moment core gameplay is so fun its ridiculous #but oh my god everything else is SO so bad #how can I even like it? #I don't know. I do. but somehow maybe I should not ldjfjskjfsjkdf #dfjkbgjkdbflglbksbkfgbjkdsfbgbdfgbkjbjkdfbjkg #and it's still stupid as hell that you can't fulton yourself like you do in Peace Walker. Literally just to make you waste more GMP #to force you to depend on the online features. Which gives you millions of GMP at the drop of a hat #Evil game

[themetalvirus]

eggy amy i think shes neat =)

#exoticbutterstxt #strong as hell. and kinda fucked up #lives for other people and not herself and thinks little treats equal self esteem #not self esteem i think she has that. i cant think of the word. she thinks little treats mean her life is going fine #and she is taking good care of herself. because of the treats #GIRL GO TO THERAPY