#FUCKING KILLS ME !!!!!!!

[ghostlypanda]

reasons to watch rise: turtles hunting giant dog to retrieve his dog tags

reasons to watch rise: "may my sons proceed with caution just this- WHAAAAAAT?"

please support rise of the tmnt by watching the show and movie where available!! 💜💙❤️🧡

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise ep the ancient art of ninja hide and seek #rise splinter #rise mikey #rise donnie #rise raph #rise leo #rise gus #rise big mama #mikey slowly inching his finger to press the elevator button #while splints just ... fuckin stares #fucking kills me #this whole ep cracks me up #but damn that scene gets me cackling #also really love donnie's face there too #he looks so done lmao #gotta give it to my boy leo tho #his little 'blind spot' and slapping the drink into gus' face #i cry #god i love these idiots /aff #thanks so much for the ask!! 💙

[jtl-fics]

Fluent Freshman - Part 40

PREV

The Winter Banquet.

Where the Spring Championship announcements happen for Collegiate Exy. A formal event meant to allow the ERC to showcase how their stars weren’t just brutes on the court. Look at how beautiful and handsome they all were. Look at how they danced together. Look at the smiles and laughter and-

Wait.

No.

Put that down.

Who had the great idea to put the Jackals next to the Terrapins? Things have been tense between the teams since the Captain of the Terrapins stole the Captain of the Jackal’s date during the Fall Banquet!

I thought we all agreed that there would never be any more steak knives! What was the point of paying for all the pre-cut tenderloins if we’re just going to give them steak knives?! 

Really gotta find an intern to pin this fiasco on.

Oh great the Foxes are leaving! Did we even get a picture of Kevin Day in his suit? Fuck it’s going to be a two intern firing kind of day isn’t it.

Someone get an eye on the Ravens before they try and grab some hapless idiot and sacrifice him to revive Riko Moriyama. If there’s even one more damn tabloid with a blurry photo of ‘Riko Moriyama’ to prove that his death was faked then heads will roll.

Honestly, the biopic that some Edgar Allan Film student is making about him seems pretty interesting. The ERC just wishes people would stop taking pics of the ‘lead actor’ and sending it to tabloids as proof that the King hadn’t died.

Fuck, the Foxes left before we got any decent pictures.

Well just great.

You’d think that after all these years of the Foxes leaving early they’d have learned that getting pictures as they arrive is the most important thing. 

Oh thank god it looks like the Trojans are starting to mediate the fight. You can always count on good ol’ Jeremy.

Fuck.

A Raven got too close to Jean Moreau and now Jeremy Knox has punched a Backliner. Great. The Trojans have formed ranks around Moreau but the kid’s just too damn tall. Someone has hit him in the head with an especially saucy meatball, he’s not injured, just confused. The Trojans are acting like it’s a gunshot he just took to the head.

The refreshment table just seemed to collapse in on itself and god wasn’t that just an allegory for this entire damn evening.

Anita Flores sighs as she watches yet another banquet go down in a riot. Honestly, she doesn’t know why they think these will end up differently. She finds herself often missing when she used to coordinate banquets for football teams.

She sighs and thinks about her least favorite interns.

Alex had been getting a bit too cocky lately. He’d make a good sacrifice.

***

(Three hours earlier)

The Palmetto State Foxes were on their way to the Winter Banquet. From what FF understood it was categorically always a 90% chance of a shitshow. Honestly FF was surprised that the percentage was that low.

There was a general tenseness in the air surrounding it that went beyond the Banquet’s propensity to become a fight. 

This year the Winter Banquet was going to be held up at the Binghamton Bearcat’s stadium. The nation knew the story from the news and FF knew the story from both that and from the Foxes themselves who were there at the time in bits and pieces.

Captain Neil had been kidnapped from this stadium and then he’d been tortured. FF hadn’t even been on the team when it had happened and he was anxious about Captain Neil going anywhere near the stadium.

“He was just…he was just gone.” Matt had said, “Neil was gone and Kevin said that he was probably dead when Andrew got back with his phone.” He continued as the two of them sat up late in the living room of the dorm one night back in early October.

“I thought Andrew was going to kill me y’know.” Kevin had said bottle in hand as FF tried to help him up the stairs because apparently he would 100% guarantee vomit if he was in the nausea box. “I thought that maybe I deserved it, since I didn’t help Neil. I just let him walk to his death.” He said and despite assurances that he wouldn’t puke FF’s shoes did not make it through that journey unscathed.

“We called…we called everywhere.” Nicky had stared up at the ceiling of his hospital room, “Andrew was adamant that he was still alive even though Kevin kept saying he was dead and that dead was the nicest thing he could hope for. I thought that was a terrible thing to say.” Nicky curled up closer to him.

“I told you, Andrew dragged me like I was nothing to get to Neil. I don’t think he even noticed the guns.” Wymack said to Abby as the two sat on the back porch during Aras’ going away party. “His eyes were on Neil.” he gestures towards where Andrew was watching Captain Neil wrestle with Matt.

“He looked like shit.” Aaron had said unable to stomach a diagram of different degrees of burn in his medical book. “At least he was alive.” He adds.

“A hero.” Andrew’s voice had been what could be considered teasing from Andrew, “Someone who looks like her.” he had said touching Captain Neil’s burn scars as they drove away from the stadium after coming back to pick FF up.

Captain Neil had come to him the day before they were set to drive out, “Take me somewhere no one will find me for an hour.” FF hadn’t quite understood what Captain Neil meant, he never hid anywhere. People just failed to realize where he was.

“Ok.” he says instead of trying to explain because being unnoticed means no one hid codes from him.

The roof of the Library wasn’t that much different from the roof of the Tower, only that it was taller and bigger. Captain Neil had shut his phone off after texting something, likely to Andrew, and then put it into his pocket.

FF settled on the roof, sat with his back against a heating vent to stay warm. Captain Neil settled next to him and they sat in silence. It felt like back at the start of this where Captain Neil and Andrew would come find him and just sit in silence. 

It was nice. He had missed-

“They act like the stadium is the thing that kidnapped me.” Captain Neil says.

Oh okay, quiet time is over apparently.

FF doesn’t say anything, figuring that nothing he could say right now would be the right thing and maybe Captain Neil just needs to talk through some stuff.

“That stadium is where I thought I’d have my last good memory.” Captain Neil explains, “I’m not scared of it and yet Andrew’s acting like I’ll die if I’m left alone for more than 2 seconds while we’re there. Every time we go there they all act like the most important thing in the world is that I get on that bus at the end of the night.” Captain Neil explains.

FF does remember how Andrew had grabbed Captain Neil after their October game up in Binghamton. How Captain Neil had complained bitterly but had gone after looking at Andrew.

“He’s dead!” Captain Neil exclaimed and FF couldn’t help but look over at the entrance and hoped no one heard them. “He’s dead! I watched him get shot! He can’t kidnap me again!” Captain Neil continued to yell and FF couldn’t help but worry that they’d be heard below, or worse bother a student trying to study below.

FF reached out and touched Captain Neil’s arm and bright blue eyes turned to him, “We’re on a library. Don’t yell.” FF said and Captain Neil looked at him incredulously.

Then he laughed. He laughed and laughed and FF was worried that he’d gone and broken his Captain.

He suddenly felt bad about his own bout of hysterical laughter a while back.

“Thanks Smith.” Captain Neil had said with a smile.

They had sat up there until it was dark and Andrew had started calling FF’s phone and Captain Neil took the call to say he was coming back.

Now they’re on the bus, dressed nicely, and on their way up to Binghamton’s stadium. Captain Neil and Andrew are hidden in the far back of the bus with Andrew looking far more like a watchdog than anything else the closer they got to their destination.

Captain Neil had seemed largely resigned to this treatment at this point. Eventually they were at the stadium and shown to their seats. They were sat across from the Trojans and it seemed like the rest of the team was quite pleased with that.

“Smith!” Captain Jeremy Knox is smiling at him, “Nice to see you again bud, nice name change too.” he says.

“It’s nice to see you too, Captain Jeremy.” FF says and doesn’t notice how Captain Neil’s head whips around to look at him.

“You two know each other?” Nicky asks looking between the two of them with excitement.

“Of course! We offered Smith a spot at the USC Trojans.” Captain Jeremy says and FF feels his stomach cramp at the memory.

That had been terrifying.

Coach Rheman and Captain Jeremy wanted to sit down to make their offer with his parents. He was still 17 and unable to sign anything legal without their permission. He’d tried to decline and move past them and Captain Jeremy had put the final nail in the coffin at the time for any thought that he could go to college on the power of his apparent Exy capabilities.

“I saw in your file that you have brothers! USC always gives a second look at student applicants who already have siblings in the university. You could go to school with your brothers!” he had smiled brightly like he wasn’t issuing FF one of the most terrifying threats he’d ever heard in his entire life.

He had given the firmest ‘No thank you, I’m not interested in playing Exy in college.’ he could and was running to his Grandma’s to breath into a bag for twenty minutes.

“I see you changed your mind about playing Exy in college.” Captain Jeremy said with the same smile that still feels like a threat.

“Coach Wymack and Captain Dan were convincing.” he says and looks to see if there’s any way he can move further away from Captain Jeremy’s attention.

“Can I ask what convinced you to be a Fox?” Captain Jeremy asks, “I’m always trying to see what support we should be offering. I found out last year that we missed out on Andrew because we didn’t offer spots to Aaron or Nicky. I thought since you had brothers that’d be the thing that got you.” Captain Jeremy leans across the table but stops when he notices the Foxes all tense. “Whoa, what’s up?” he asks.

Jean Moreau sighs from next to Captain Jeremy, “Not everyone wants to go to college with their family, Jeremy.” Jean says, “Did it not cross your mind that he changed his entire name?” he asks with a raised brow.

Jeremy blinks, “Oh,” he looks at FF, “I guess that wasn’t the right thing to offer.” he says leaning back in his chair.

“I guess I should thank you for offering that?” Nicky says wryly before turning to look at FF, “You look better in orange anyways.” he says.

“Thank you Nicky.” FF returns loyally.

The banquet gets started shortly afterwards. Food is served. The bar is opened. People are talking. FF finds himself relaxing the longer the conversations around him go on. Matt is talking with a backliner on the Trojan line named Todd in good cheer. Captain Neil, Kevin, and Jean are all talking about the latest updates with Ichirou in French with the occasional gesture towards FF. Jean Moreau looks at him with a raised eyebrow but gives him a single nod when Captain Neil explains what happened.

Jeremy is chatting with Jack and even Jack was finding it hard to maintain his usual level of rudeness in the face of such unbridled positive energy. Nicky was talking with Katelyn and Alvarez. Aaron was chatting with a fellow med student college athlete who was an offensive dealer. 

It was shaping up to be a good night.

MASTERPOST FOR ALL PARTS OF FLUENT FRESHMAN AU

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#Fluent Freshman AU #Jeremy Knox essentially threatening FF on accident #With a huge smile #Fucking kills me #Winter Banquet getting into full swing #Ya'll know where it's heading but not all the parts that happen #Foxes are on high alert #No one likes Neil being in Binghamton #There was definitely an all-hands meeting about how Neil is not allowed to go anywhere alone #That if a security guard approaches Neil you treat that security guard like an active threat #Nicky just thinks it's Andrew wanting an excuse to hold his BF's hand all night #Andrew: “Smith you're on covert operations. Keep an eye out for threats.” #FF: “Aye aye Captain.” #Neil: “OH SO NOW HE'S A CAPTAIN TOO? WHAT'S NEXT?!” #Neil is butt hurt about the whole “Captain Jeremy” thing #He could accept it for Dan #But JEREMY? #Neil's gonna need a lot of TLC to get over this betrayal TBFH #In adult news #My closing is next week Friday! #Wooo #I really speedran the whole owning property thing #Thank you bullshit luck #AFTG #AFTG AU #AFTG OC #Andreil #Wow 40 parts on this thing #Still wild #Thanks for joining me on this ride

[whollyjoly]

in those heavy days in june, when love became an act of defiance

song - june by florence + the machine

special thanks to @xxluckystrike for getting me back into f+tm and to @panzershrike-pretz @ronald-speirs for giving me feedback/hearing my rambling brain thoughts as i made this!

#this song actually kills me for them #bonus lyrics include: “hold on to each other” and “im always down to hide with you” #fucking kills me #i love them your honor #winnix #otp: we'll go to chicago i'll take you there #(bonus chicago reference in the song lyrics!!) #dick winters #lewis nixon #so at first with this song i was thinking of doing it from lew's pov to dick but #that last image with the “i can see an angel” of dick looking up at nix came to me in a dream #and i knew i had to do it the other way #there's also something so precious and pure about the love and care and devotion dick has for nix okay #anyways it felt right and sparked joy #band of brothers #bofb #hbowar #em's edits

[frnkiebby]

happy fronk lero friday🎉

👏🏻👏🏻FROMK LERO👏🏻👏🏻

🦅

🏃🏻

#fucking kills me #i love him so much he’s so stupid #prettiest idiot at the party #frnkiebby #cyanide-sodapop #frank iero #mcr #frnkiero #mcrmy #frnkie #mcr5 #my chemical romance #my chem #ilhsm

[mudgazing]

Guys guys guys PLEASE I need to see more stuff with Alex and kids. Fics, drabbles, art, anything PLEASE. Take one look at that man and tell me he doesn't have a soft spot for kids. Deep down he wishes he had some of his own but thinks he'd be a dogshit dad, so looking out for the kids is the best he can do.

#kids are so silly #but 30 minutes with them and I feel like I need a cigarette #something about tough dudes with kids #fucking kills me #cod #cod modern warfare #alex keller

[tender-emotional-music]

damnit, broke my “listen to Being Different without crying” streak… I’m just a sucker for the tender, emotional music y’know

#the part where it turns into the riff from the first lie #fucking kills me #byler #byler tumblr

[mythoughtsxxblog]

I hate that every once in a blue moon I'll watch an old movie that stars an actor that passed away a long time ago and get up in my feels about it as if I knew this actor personally or some shit. I watched Stand By Me, and now I'm here watching all of River Phoenix's filmography. It's so heartbreaking. He was such an amazing actor, and from what people who knew him have said an amazing person, too. Really wish things turned out better for him, and he was able to win his fight against his demons. To think he would've gone on to have more amazing roles and awards. So fucking sad...

#i feel the same way about heath ledger #fucking kills me #they were both so great and they deserved better #especially poor river #river phoenix #stand by me

[niishi]

#the way that chopper says #its rehab!! #fucking kills me #one piece #sanji #chopper #zoro #brook #franky #im glad at least that sanji has friends who understand his mental illness #snd dont abandon him for it #if i were them #id put him down

[mcralien]

the setlist getting updated before the first notes even play because everyone knows the silly little noises that come before each song

#fucking kills me #mcr la 4 #mcr tour 2022 #mcrla5 #mcrmy #my chemical gerard #my chemical return #my chemical romance #my chemical reunion

[deityforged]

I am not going to lie to you all, Ashmi does take up 3/4ths of the room in bed and will try and gaslight your muse into thinking that THEY are the ones responsible and she is falling off the bed

#headcanon. #fucking kills me

[antisolanum]

#achewood #nice pete #teodor #“your writing of women has really improved!” #fucking kills me

[ichabodcranemills]

MAG 102, Jon and Elias are best friends, actually

#the banter! #fucking kills me #Jonelias

[aphrogeneias]

you know something that's been bugging me and it has turned into the whole spiral in my mind

my name is spelled with a z, right? but my boss, who's known me for several months now, still spells it with an s. luisa. and that may seem insignificant, and maybe it is, but it has me thinking, maybe if i spoke up more, maybe if i was a little more outgoing, if i was a little more interesting to get to know, maybe she would learn to spell my name right, maybe she would remember

and that bleeds into everything else in my life. maybe if i was better, if i was different, if i made more of an effort to be less like me and more like someone more likeable, maybe they would remember me. maybe they would care to know me. but i can't be anyone else, so i'll die forgettable.

#fucking kills me #luiza.txt

[frnkiebby]

listen. listen listen listen listen~🎃

#he obviously has something very important to say #he’s got his serious nail polish on #why does he have to be to pretty #fucking kills me #and i love every second #the green nail polish is a vibe #just picturing frankie sitting cross legged on the floor biting his tongue in concentration #frank iero #frnkiebby #mcr5 #mcr #mcrmy #frnkiero #frnkie #my chemical romance #my chem

[jshualyman]

don't mind me I'm just in my Noah Kahan wallow depression hole today

#notes from the pie shop #stick season #and ill dream every night of a version of you that i might not have but i did not lose #fucking kills me

[hearties-circus]

Thinking about the zending and well. Being completely fucked up about it, i suppose

#gamer txt. #it just gets to me so much #that room is truly the only place the narrator can be happy #and the only ways to leave are to either exit the game and erase his memory of the place #or to throw yourself off a staircase over and over in front of him all while he begs you to stop all while you give no indication of caring #-for him or this place he created just for you both #everything he says is soul crushing but his little 'stanley? lets go back to the other room. can you do that for me?' the 2nd time you fall #followed by 'yes perhaps you can. perhaps you finally see what im talking about. i know you'll see. you'll see that we cant be happy if we #leave this place. you can see that cant you?' if you return to the zen room #only for you to go back to the staircase and for him to say 'no. perhaps not..' #fucking kills me #that false hope instilled within him only for it to be shattered afterwards. it doesn't matter if it were mere moments or hours #he felt that maybe you would listen that maybe you would stay with him and not subject him and yourself to that awful staircase again #but it was never going to happen. either you turn off the game or you go back to the staircase #there is no way to just stay there with him there is no way to just let him be happy #and there is no way to do it while ensuring you're happy either #its heartbreaking #this little room this little lightshow that he created just for the two of you to be happy was never going to accomplish that #at the end of the day you would leave #one or both of you will be dissatisfied with the experience and more often than not utterly miserable about it #there is no way for you two to just be happy together it is impossible to just stay in that room #what a sad little ending