#Explaining yourself

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[eclecticaddiction]

“Stop trying to explain yourself. People only understand things from their level of perception; within the parameters of their agreement with reality. Save your energy.”

― Steve Maraboli

#quotes #explaining yourself

[vagueconfusion]

Feeling real ridiculous for not having realized that Baron's "stark father" was the Nightmare King until now

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #fhjy spoilers #also #love cassandra's gender situation going on here tbh #hell of an episode. i am totally normal about it (they are in fact. not normal about it at all.) #am willing to explain my thought process here if need be #there is a slight temptation to write something about the possible relation between cassandra and baron now though #did cassandra know that was where baron was like she could always summon kalina? #the creator and creation (the thing you made at your worst) #father and son (you can barely sustain yourself. let alone others) #you were once a god and then you weren't and you made this being and now you are a god again and it still exists #hmmmm #hm! #things to think. thoughts to ponder. #sorry i keep adding tags. i keep having Thoughts

[robert-deniro]

VIGGO MORTENSEN

as Aragorn, in The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (2002)

#filmedit #tolkienedit #lotredit #aragornedit #tolkiensource #lotrgifs #userconstance #userlenny #usersugar #filmgifs #moviegifs #fyeahmovies #adaptationsdaily #viggo mortensen #lotr #aragorn son of arathorn #[REDACTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!] is all i have to say #anyway not him going through a breakup in this and then walking up to eowyn Like That after helm's deep. like. estel explain yourself. #edit: making this pre-breaking my arm is kinda mad ngl. like not me having the toe breaking moment on kicking a ball at a work thing #if only in my case it was the toes as well. anyway.....We Move.......

[that-rad-jewish-girl]

The irony of saying #landback and “we live on stolen land” while condemning Israel’s existence is so strange.

You want land to go back to the natives - no matter how long ago the land was taken - unless it belongs to Jews. Then they can go F off.

And because you don’t have a reasonable defense for this weird combo of beliefs, you just deny the indigeneity of Jews altogether. This is something that can be proven with simple google searches and logic. Our ancient artifacts and structures are in the land, and our “origin stories” are largely about the land and us residing in it. Yet, you refuse to believe we are indigenous.

Even more funny is that you then argue Arabs are the real indigenous people to this land. Arabs are colonizers in the Middle East and North Africa. Arabic is a colonial language. They originated in the Arabian peninsula, and took over MENA countries. They had nationalist policies that largely eradicated the people and/or cultures already present in those lands. A lot of the people present were Jews, who were killed or driven out by pogroms.

Educate yourself for crying out loud.

#jewish #israel #pro israel #israel 🇮🇱 #idf #israeli military #jewblr #jumblr #hamas is evil #antisemites #antisemitic #it’s getting ridiculous #like really old #sick and tired of explaining basic history to these people #read a fucking book #educate yourself #the only colonizer here is you

[tiny-stale-cupcake]

#WELL GALE? #explain yourself #gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #bg3 gale #bg3 #bloody boi #<3

[jazbell]

totally how that scene went right.

bonus:

#watching penny snapcubes streams it looks so fun #also everyone in chat thought the same fucking thing #how do you even explain the mess without outing yourself as an alien vessel or gay (the same thing) #marvel's spider man #marvel's spider man 2 #insomniac spider man #parksborn #is that their ship name? idk #jart #spider man 2 spoilers #spiderman

[dudesome]

Sup, everybody. I wonder if any of yous remember a pro-Palestine post I made that was close to reaching 70,000 notes. The post was specifically about this.

I guess Tumblr didn't like it cause it was taken down and I was shadow banned for a day. Care to explain, Tumblr staff, on why my massive post was removed?

#ireland #irish #palestine #pro palestine #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #Tumblr #explain yourself #I won't be quiet about this #free gaza #gaza #gaza strip

[torinlm]

toge in yuta's pov is just— BRO WHY DO YOU IMAGINE HIM LIKE THAT

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #yuta okkotsu #inumaki toge #inuokko #ottoge #yuta explain yourself

[hypewinter]

Right so what if Danny became a psychologist instead of Jazz?

His friends and family died protecting him. So when he runs away and starts a new life, he adopts traits from all of them (both as a way of grieving and a way to honor them). For Tucker and Sam, Danny splits his free time between being a white hat hacker and a vocal environmental activist. For his parents, he adopts more of their eccentric personality. When he's not in a professional setting, he is loud and in your face about the latest thing he's been working on (he's also just about the most loyal person you can meet).

And for Jazz, his precious big sister, Danny decides to excel in the career path she never got the chance to enter. He resolves to fulfill her goal of helping out those society has deemed irredeemable. The ones nobody else can or wants to help. The first one he starts with, is the Joker.

#dp x dc #dc x dp #dpxdc #dcxdp #winter's tales #twisting yourself into a hodge podge of your loved ones personalities and aspirations isn't healthy #in caee i needed to point that out #but danny was in a bad mental state for a while and needed to start a new life anyway so.... #he's more well adjusted now but still #i'ma be honest i just kinda wanted danny channeling his inner jazz #as he systematically breaks down the joker's arguments and persona #without ever breaking eye contact #this is the result of that one scene running away from me #just like these tags #but oh well we press on #because i also want to explain #how effing hilarious it is to think about the batfam getting word about a new employee at arkham #which already has them in panic mode #and then they find out he's working with joker!? #double panic #then they talk with him and he sounds like he has a whole box of screws loose with the way he rambles on #alright everybody prepare for a new rogue to hit the streets soon! #until they get their hands on the first session danny had with joker #and he's clearly not the same guy they talked to weeks ago #his personality is just way too different #what the hell is going on?

[peach-moths]

four brothers + four moths

Rottmnt Moth List | Raph | Leo | Donnie | Mikey

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt fanart #rottmnt moths #rise raph #rise leo #rise donnie #rise mikey #rottmnt raph #rottmnt leo #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt mikey #peachmoths art tag #THIS PROJECT WAS SO MUCH FUN!!! THANK YKU EVERYONE FOR FOLLOWING ALONG!!! I HOPE YOU ENJOYED IT!! #if you draw any of my moth designs PLEASE PLEASE tag me!!!!!!! #theres some deep symbolism in each of these with the posing the background color and the placement but i dont wanna explain it #you van figure it out for yourself its not that hard to see a pattern and reasoning lmfaoooooo #lemme know if you figure out my intentions tho #also is this an au now???? idk lemme know

[rui-drawsbox]

im 100% sure that we all live in someone's fever dream because what the fuck is this timeline

#rui draw smth #twst #twisted wonderland #ruggie bucchi #ruggie explain yourself #on mama's day! the audacity

[dathomirdumpsterfire]

#it explains SO MUCH #that's definitely exactly what bisexual means a hundred percent for sure #sith #zabrak #nightbrothers #opress brothers #savage opress #darth maul #he's so dumb #cringe fail babygirl #star wars #maul opress #dathomir #you know this is an obimaul reference don't lie to yourself #obimaul #maul #obi wan kenobi #sw shitpost #tcw #clone wars #dumpsterfire content

[bleue-flora]

Ok, so can we talk about Punz for a second? Because like when I rewatched that stream the other day, not only did I notice that is was Punz who avenged Dream by killing Tommy and returning all of his stuff, after Sapnap and Tommy had ambushed Dream and refused to return it [details] (making him truly the mvp, who really doesn’t get enough credit). But I also noticed some other fun things.

Specially this.

And this.

Tommy punches Dream -> immediately killed by Punz [clip].

Like okay maybe we could make the point that Dream pays him to kill Tommy and reclaim all of his stuff [clip], but pretty sure Dream isn’t paying him to be so protective.

#Punz… care to explain yourself? :) #c!dream #dsmp #dreblr #dream smp #protective punz from the very beginning #he has friends. I’m right here. <3 #dsmp analysis #dsmp lore #staged duo #okay this does kinda make punz partially the starter of the disc wars by gearing up Dream… #c!punz #c!stagedduo #he’s so cute I’m losing it #c!drunz #dsmpblr #dishing up lore #staged duo my beloved… and like clearly canonical wholesomeness #but this was early in the lore… like you can’t tell me that isn’t some good friend behavior right there #c!tommy #c!discduo

[leverage-ot3]

say what you want, sambucky and hardisoneliot are the same ship in different fonts:

insufferable coworker

serving looks on the job

camaraderie

it’s been a long hard day

bro power

hugs, of course

totally not in love

and their chaotic (iconic) first meetings

so if you sambucky fans want a smart witty tech guy in love with a smart grumpy punchy guy, I highly recommend leverage! five seasons plus the reboot that is running that has two seasons so far

#look it’s all about hating your coworker to being willing to die for them and in love with them pipeline #enemies to loathed coworkers to friends to found family to lovers pipeline #parker is there too for the ot3 of course but for the purpose of this post ykyk #I’m not explaining the last photo watch the show for yourself #whatever you think it is it’s five times funnier #sometimes I think about how that eliot smiling at hardison pic was from season ONE and I combust. seASON ONE YALL #O N E #sambucky #hardison x eliot #leverage ot3 #parker x hardison x eliot #marvel #tfatws #the falcon and the winter soldier #bucky barnes #sam wilson #alec hardison #eliot spencer #mlm #lgbt #mine #sometimes I like to imagine they’re in the same universe #i love those fics #I’m not into marvel too much anymore but I love the fics where eliot and sam are exes or that eliot is related to bucky #popular posts #1k

[haaam-guuuurl]

#dimension 20 #dungeons and drag queens #brennan lee mulligan #dropout #like yes of course the intrepid heroes one is exagerating but lol watching d&dq you can see such a difference #he's so nice and helping them in their first quest and explaining everything and accepting all their suggestions #but with the intrepid heroes it's “you better pray” and “explain yourself hilda hilda” and “real life take a test in the middle of a battle #🤣 #my posts #also if someone has made this before i'm sorry i swear i haven't seen any posts like this #but it seemed like an obvious meme lol