#Every Fuckin Day I Swear

[wearily-confused]

i wish it was acceptable to ask to dtr friendships

like are we treating this as bfs or acquaintances or talks casually every other month or every day gm and gn or what

like please tell me what amount of energy and care you are willing to reciprocate without pingponging between loving me and not even giving a fuck if i die, just stop with all this hot and cold bs

#like okay i get going into depressive slumps or shutting off sometimes but fuckin tell me #so i dont think you are ghosting me again with no forewarning or reason #its not like it'll be the first time #it's been more than a week #and going from gn gm and every single detail about your day from straight up no reply? #is it gonna be like last time(s) again then #dropping me for months and then getting all sorry and self destructive #its already been twice (ik i am pathetic for forgiving her but ffs i thought you had changed) #argh #ARGHHHHHHH #friendships #i swear #i hope she's just busy and nothing jas happened to her #rant #but just in the tags the post i still think is fair #thoughts #desiblr #eph #</3

[spotsupstuff]

Do you think ancients have nerves in their anemone hair? And if they wanted to cut it to a shorter length would they need to numb it first?

stars and heavens above you've no idea how much i had been mullin this shit over, fuckin.... cuz like Technically that hair is what a proper (our real life) sea anemones are. that's literally just it, the rest of the body is some weird ass evolution stunt circus that i've given up on tryin to explain to myself an hour into initial designing process. so by That logic they REALLY probably shouldn't be cutting it

but we don't have the evolution stunt circus rest of the body for nothin n they already do worrying body modifications so feckin hell might as well, right?

you can notice with Sparrows that she never really cuts it and it grows rather slowly

(and also i am shit at watching out for the hair length most of the time)

so "haircuts" would be probably pretty rare and usually done by the wealthy or smth

but Also when i drew Wind as an Ancient

my thought process was that the "hair" can be either pulled out completely (probably for those religious purposes again) or fall out naturally despite being a much more solid part of the Ancients than our own hair. es probably Some kind of medical condition

#Spot says stuff #rw #the hair shit has been agonizing me for So long. from like. the Form that it takes (i often find myself thinkin of hair texture of- #-black folks even though regionally the ancients are inspired by a different race) to tryin to make it special in like different hair- #-stylization and and possibly Texture. euros as ancient hair bullshit is the most agonizing Fucking thing ive ever done n Right Now i have- #-a question for that design n my ass decided to go big boy on it so i have to draw those STUPID curls in a SERIOUS manner its KILLIN ME #yall dont see it but im fucking squaring up with some parts of the design philosophies every goddamn day. That Fuckin Hair Bullshit i swear #it looks sick though so we shall Weather

[coldvampire]

anyway as soon as i pry myself off this couch im gonna share some screenshots of bg3 protags on my sideblog. just gotta like. reach the desk first.

#all i can think about is the shelves im gonna get installed here over the next little bit fdghj #yall dont understand its so hard to keep things clean and brain friendly when you just dont have anywhere to put stuff. #hellish #& then i get overwhelmed and turn into a massive bitch when i try to get it under control fdgh #instead its been like. 2 straight days of dopamine i fucking swear?? my body probably definitely wouldnt let me do this for a living #(my hip is screamingggg dfghgjj) but actually if i could & if i could work in a team then yeah. ykw i enjoy it. #organization go brrrrrrr #i dont think she was expecting me to work that fast either but ive been like a feral animal. skittering over clutter. #finding Spots for Things #okay i lied the flood was actually beneficial in one way to me specifically. #estranged father just forgot a Bunch of tool sets here & ive claimed them now fdghjk #that nail gun is MINE #she suggested i look out for an actual tool chest/bench thing (ykw the ones with wheels and stuff) for everything and i havent been that #excited for anything in months fdgh tools are expensive alright. too bad he took the table saw. #i dont talk much abt my Masc Hobbies as i call them lmao no real reason to but hoooboy i love to Build Things #give me that ikea desk ill have it done in an hour or less every time #maybe trade school is still on the horizon for me gfhj always wanted to Weld Stuff i think id be good at it #as much as i fuckin loathe yard maintenance i was a real garage sooooo bad its not even funny #shame i wasnt just inherently expected to know car stuff tm i feel like i would have loved it too #scarrier to learn on your own later in life especially with a lease vehicle but ill get there eventually #anyway yeah bg3! new mods. new ocs #have not done much with them yet but they Exist and theyre pretty

[kkpwnall]

i wish all credit reporting companies a very die

#eat my entire ass experian i swear to god #it’s a service no one ever signed up for and no one can ever opt out of #and it controls too much of every day usamerican life #and it only started in the fuckin 80s!!! #never let them convince you it’s been around forever it’s always been done this way so we have to keep doing it this way forever #kk rants

[liverpool-enjoyer]

i wanna be a pretty girl so bad

#its so fuckin unfair #all my friends plus EVERY SINGLE NURSING MAJOR IN MY SCHOOL are so pretty i dont hold a candle to them on my best day #i dont mean this in a funny way #i mean it in a its two am n im crying cause i saw a picture of a pretty girl kinda way #pretty girls make me so irrationally angry #i genuinely honest to gosh feel like my ugliness is like a limb #like its a tangible physical object i can feel on my face thatll never go away #n i swear to you guys im not like those fuckass girls on tiktok w shiny hair clear skin n button noses who complain abt being ugly #im ACTUALLY CONVENTIONALLY ugly

[transmechanicus]

Calls you over to my desk, kisses you gently, and then takes detailed notes on your response before grabbing your collar to repeat the experiment~

#my stuff #im reading my papers and taking notes like wow cannot BELIEVE no one is here to see me be a sexy little bookworm #so upset that modern research does not involve the library unless you're insane. how am i supposed to bump into other cute ppl in the stacks #how am i supposed to act all haughty and superior to cover up that i think they're super pretty and i think they should invite me over #wym grad school isn't romantic. well it SHOULD be #also basically everyone in my program is already married or has a long term partner like HELLO #we've got a range of ppl from 22-29 and i swear everyone is either taken or guaranteed not interested like who has the time for a- #new relationship when every day but saturday has you so so busy #like i fuckin BET this experience is easier when you have a guaranteed rent buddy and source of physical affection ooh i fuckin bet #like i read an article last year that you need 10 hugs a day to be Emotionally Fufilled and um well im not meeting quota

[darlinjester]

sorry no killjoys today have this instead

#comics #autism #i swear this is every fuckin day man #true story

[todayisafridaynight]

desperate to make a swearing compilation of Y7's eng dub

#snap chats #see thats what my five year old brain likes about the eng dub- japanese doesnt really have heavy swear words like that #it HAS swearing of course but.. just doesnt hit the same as a good ol fat Fuck yk. american ass statement but ill deal with it later #i was playing y7 with my friend the other day and every time we heard ichi say fuck we cackled #not because we're 12 and we laugh at cursing- i actually get annoyed when my friend curses so excessively LMAO #BUT NO ITS CAUSE SOMETIMES KAIJI JUST PUTS HIS WHOLE HEART INTO SAYING FUCK AN ITS REALLY FUNNY #and in my brain i have that scene of aoki yelling 'fuck' in the elevator saved as an eternal reaction clip to things #its so fuckin funny idc #i prob wont tho because. Thats A Lot Of Footage LMAO #but just know ichi tellin the soapland owner from chap 1 to fuck off and ichi goin What The Fuck after adachi says he tracked him tickles m

[indefiniteavatar]

holy shit these israeli propaganda ads lack self-awareness - ‘no country in the world would allow repeated threats to its existence’, huh?

the unholy fuck y’all think you’re doing to palestine?!?

#every time i see that shit my brain short circuits #i was just reading a perfectly good manhwa serial #then from the commercial break on the bob ross channel of all places that acts as my bg noise specifically cos it’s calming #‘oh no we’re getting attacked poor us’ #i swear it’s an instant fuckin rage spiral #maybe if you didn’t epitomize being given an inch and taking a mile since day one of us being allowed haven (which was problematic enough) #the rest of the region wouldn’t be so goddamn hostile #war in the middle east #israel #save palestine #jewish antizionism

[adhdslugcrimes]

Weird crack fics are my drug, I spent two hours looking for one of these fics because it was horrible, honestly therapy is gonna be half regular trauma and half fic related trauma.

And yes majority of them have Shrek to the point if I watch the movies I just stare in horror of all the shit I read about him.

#I'm reading this one about a book series which only has one person writing these fics about fuckin a printer #i just #there's trauma in there #Tumoas Saloranta might've not seen ot coming but also i didn't either #i would love to live post my reactions but idk #friends get it if i feel up to it #crack fics #they're my drug #to the point Nebby wrote me a crack fic and i cherish it every day to her dismay #reading crack fics is like harmful for me but also therapeutic #idk #tho some ain't #some keep me up at night drenched in a cold sweat because i remember #also shrek is just cravk fic god i swear

[hazardsoflove]

fall out boy if you’re not doing the mighty fall because u don’t have anyone to do big sean’s part get my ass on stage

#hello yeah i know you said not to call unless im dying well im driving and i can't stop staring at my eyelids but even though my eyes closed #i still see you ​i just hope that when you see me im not see through you know how we do sometimes i swear #i need a day just for me to lay with some t and a but the way we the way we do is deeper baby straight up chemistry dna #make me wanna give you every dollar out my b of a like i let her climb on top im either fuckin or workin so the grind dont stop #THEY SAY I GOT SCREWS MISSING WELL HELL ONLY WHEN IM MISSING YOU AND HELL YEAH IM A DICK GIRL ADDICTED TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! #r.txt

[downtherabbitholewithlucy]

T O P H Y🏆H U S B A N D

#Wesley looks too fuckin' cute with his award & his quarter sleeve plaid button down & those jeans & his haircut & his nice watch #I fall in love with this man more and more every single day I swear #Wes Borland #Limp Bizkit #nu-metal #Black Light Burns #down the rabbit hole

[stephaniedola]

i like that even when we dont talk to each other a bunch we're still okay. i like that he didn't get mad when i cancelled on him the other day. i like that we feel comfortable talking about our "gross" disability stuff with each other.

i like that i have not yet lost this new friend lol

#thots et al #ta saga #i found out i have a class 3x a week in the building his office is in god help me #i swear if i start running into him on campus after i NEVER did all of last semester i will scream #we need to have more gay autism sex tho like i need it #I CANT REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I HAD A PHYSICAL ATTRACTION PERSIST THIS LONG #halp #i have said it before and ill say it again: i want to eat his arm like a turkey leg #i wish he didnt share an office with another grad student bc dude i would be fuckin him in there every. day.

[ghostlygunk]

not sorry for the small flood if i see anyone else follow me who thinks pan ppl aren't valid i'm gonna start clubbing ppl with waffle irons

#if i hear one more ' WELL THEYRE THE SAME SO ONE ISNT REAL ' im gonna blow up the USA i swear to god #boo fuckin hoo two labels mean alnost the exact thing do you want your dick sucked for figuring that google search out #i will kill you motherfucker #bi and pan ppl can co-exist in fact i make out with pan ppl every day #SCRYBE.txt

[sammyloomis]

i just want it to be summer i just want it to be summer i just want it to be summer and warm and not cold and dark and wet all the TIME I WANT IT TO BE SUMMER ARARRAGGGHAGARRAH

#ash.txt #i feel like im going fuckin insane bro #every days the SAMEEE #ohhhh im losing my damn marbles i swear #wakin up in this damn house to go to these damn lessons to do this damn work #to come HOME TO DO NOTHING TO EAT FOOD TO SLEEP TO DO MORE NOTHING AHHHHH #man idek what i want aksbak

[hanarchy]

it‘s not necessarily warranted bc my track record with people younger than me is actually like… great but. we have two new 18yos at the office and they genuinely make me anxious bc teenagers scare me

#theyre absolutely fine but like #idk how to describe this anxiety bc its so DUMB #but theyre both very skinny and always wear makeup and put themselves together every day #which are all things i dont care to do and am fine without #but also i knooooow those girls from being a teen and uh #yeaaaaah they were not great #but yeah im definitely in no way their peer and i know they must be nervous its their first job etc so i will #do my very best to make them feel welcome and good abt working there and at ease #but also like 17yo me still lives inside me and she is being v weird #good thing she hasnt been in charge of the n 13 years lmao #like god i always sound insane and i swear im not #oart if why my track record is good is that i very much am 30 and good with that #but also teens are judgmental #most people kinda calm down as life goes on bc they realise that everyone goes thru shit #and like have themselves been pieces of shit tbhhh #but teens just fuckin judge u on sight lmao #personal #life