#Delta Lotta Pain

[catscidr]

hi.. hello... may I request a dottore fic w/chronically ill reader? chronically ill as in, can't get enough sleep due to pain, doesn't clean themselves/shower, or doesn't eat a lot due to the pain and loss of appetite.

this part is a bit self indulgent but maybe reader can't walk properly due to it and needs assistance by dottore (or his segments) to hold her hand and let her cling onto them as they walk?

absolutely understandable if not! hope you have a good day :) 🕊

yes!! absolutely!! (included this other ask too bc i felt they were similar enough) im sorry i disappeared for a bit, life happened and this and that and i didn't have time to write and when i did i just.... couldn't write LOLヽ(；▽；) i don't have a chronic illness so i did my best with what i had (google and my own experiences with body pains n stuff(?) ) so pls lmk if there's like. any wording i should change and whatnot. big smoochies to u nonnie i hope this makes you feel at least a little better ♡♡ ⸝⸝⸝⸝⸝⸝ cw: a whole lotta fluff, established relationship, dottore is probably a little ooc bc he's very soft, him and The Clones are doting on reader HARD. reader is shorter than the men includes: fem reader, dottore and his segments (Omega is the oldest, Delta is webttore, Iota is the youngest), Columbina is mentioned, fatui npcs are also mentioned wc: 2,3k

The doctor was infamous for being cruel, aloof and barbaric. From his experiments to his way of treating his coworkers, practically everyone that worked in the Fatui wanted nothing to do with him, since even if they happened to not get on his bad side, even being associated with him meant other members of the organization would look at them funny. The only people the Harbinger spoke to daily, apart from you, were his many segments. 

The same couldn’t be said for you though. When you could, you’d spend time with Viktor or Ekaterina whenever they were in Snezhnaya, hang out with Damselette when she was free or simply just make small talk with anyone willing to stop by for a chat. Unfortunately, you haven’t been able to enjoy other people’s presence since your body’s been feeling quite sluggish as of late, exhaustion seeping into your limbs much quicker than it should. Your predicament made it so that you were confined to the four walls of your room most days, human interaction being limited to Dottore and his clones. 

Not that you particularly minded, since they were an entertaining bunch. Dottore took care of you most of the time, but since his job was quite demanding, he couldn’t be there for you all the time. Which is where his segments came in. 

“The soup isn’t that hot, and I already blew on it! Just eat already,” Delta grumbles loudly, his patience wearing thin as it made way for aggressive worry to take place. You stick your tongue out at him, a tired and petty act of rebellion despite your situation. 

“I dare you to take a sip. For sure it’ll be able to melt your mechanic tongue right off,” you huff in annoyance, both from the minimal hours of sleep you’d been getting and your own patience coming to an end. The man makes a tsk sound, torn between wanting to prove you wrong by humoring your suggestion or wanting to just grab an ice cube and tossing it in the bowl in malicious compliance. He doesn’t have time to decide though, because two people come into your room right as he opened his mouth to reply. 

“Prime told me to check in on you,” Omega says as he breaches the doorframe. “You’re taking too long.” he adds, crossing his arms. The older segment stares down at his maskless coworker, lips curling down in a frown. Delta scowls, readjusting himself on your bed- he was sitting to your right, his legs thrown over the side of the bed. He glances over his shoulder at the interruption, scowl now much more genuine as he glares daggers at the older segment. 

“I would have been back a long time ago if someone,” he doesn’t hide the way his eyes glance over at your sulking form, “had cooperated with me.” Still holding up the spoon he had tried to feed you previously, he lowers it into the bowl while gesturing for Omega to come closer. The latter walks over to the bed calmly while Iota saunters over to your left side, chatting up a storm about how he’s missed you and asking when you’ll be joining them back in the lab again. 

“Maybe if you knew how to speak to women,” the oldest taunts, lips curling into a small grin, the only feature visible on his masked face. You giggle as Delta bites back an insult, purposely ignoring his superior to instead try to make you get something in your system one more time. 

“Where’s Dottore?” you ask the Omega segment, turning your face away from Delta. The latter glares at you, handing over the bowl of soup to the other man. Iota suggests feeding you but is quickly dismissed by the other two, much to his dismay. 

“Busy. Although he said he would come by to test something, if I recall correctly... didn’t mention what it was, though,” the masked segment says, blowing on a spoonful of soup to cool it off. You nod, eating the spoonful when Omega presents it to you, earning a look of disbelief from Delta. “How are you feeling today?” the oldest asks, tuning out Delta’s many choice words aimed at him. You do the same, focused on eating and taking your time swallowing the food so as to not upset your already sensitive stomach. 

“Could be better,” you respond with a sigh. “I feel pain... everywhere. And I’m tired but I can’t sleep,” you add between spoonfuls. Omega nods, letting you rant as he silently listens to you while subtly observing the way your chest heaves up and down, as if your lungs were working overtime to accommodate to an elevated heart rate. 

He hums, dipping the spoon in the bowl to feed you again. You shake your head at him and put a hand up in front of your mouth, your brows creasing your forehead. The clone doesn’t push further and instead hands Iota the unfinished bowl of food, quietly asking for him to put it away. The young boy nods eagerly, happy to be of use as he scurries away. Delta follows after him to make sure he doesn’t break anything, but glances behind his shoulder to take one last look at you, worry obvious on his usually irked face. 

“How long has it been since Prime has last given your previous dose of aspirin?” he asks, leaning closer to you to push your hair out of your face. Expression scrunched up in discomfort from the sudden food intake, you make a noise of discontentment, a vague answer to his question. He frowns but doesn’t voice his displeasure aloud, instead comforting you through your nausea. Noticing pearls of sweat beading up on your hairline, Omega pulls your bed sheets away slightly, making you more comfortable. 

“Can you try swallowing for me?” he asks gently, tilting his head forward and to the side to look at your throat. It takes you a hot second but after some struggle you do as he instructed and swallow, your throat bobbing up as you do, and the segment hums in satisfaction. “Good,” he murmurs quietly, placing one hand on your shoulder to help you straighten your back. 

“Let me help you up. Hold onto my hand for me?” Omega asks, helping you slip out of bed, putting a strong arm under yours to help you stand up. You wordlessly interlock your fingers into his own and wobble slightly, knees weak and devoid of strength, but he holds you up, bending his own knees slightly to accommodate your height. The wave of nausea comes and goes, making your legs unsteady as the clone helps you walk towards the bathroom connected to your bedroom. 

Delta comes back without Iota in tow and immediately notices your discomfort. His legs work faster than his mind and he’s to your left in the blink of an eye, supporting your weight as well to help you and Omega out. The three of you reach the sink counter and as the oldest helps you sit up on it, Delta squints at his fellow clone. 

“Can one of you get my bucket,” you manage to croak out between deep breaths, head slumped forward to rest against Omega’s shoulder. While he rubs soothing circles on your back Delta quickly grabs the bucket you kept in your room, footsteps as silent as he could as to not disturb you. You murmur a quiet thank you to him, sitting up to the best of your ability as you shoot him a grateful smile. 

“Are you feeling well enough to bathe or are you still lightheaded?” Omega asks, one of his gloved hands coming up to your forehead. He feels some heat seep through the leather fabric but waits for your answer nonetheless, crimson eyes covered by his mask staring into you. You nod, leaning into the coolness of his hand. 

“Mmhyeah, jus’ help me out a bit,” you mumble sleepily, exhaustion taking over your nausea. Delta doesn't need to be told twice as he turns on the tap to fill up the bath, keeping a hand beneath it to make the sound of water splashing in the tub quieter to avoid bothering you. 

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With a towel resting over your head and newfound energy flowing through your limbs, you saunter into your partner’s main lab to find him. Omega had left shortly after you finished bathing, begrudgingly telling you that he had to go back to work- but Delta stayed with you long enough to keep you company while you let your eyes rest. He gave you some painkillers- nothing like what Dottore gave you to keep the pain at bay, but it worked as a temporary solution- and you felt energized enough to leave your bedroom to get ahold of Dottore. 

Delta walked behind you, not wanting to go back to the laboratory just yet but the last thing he wanted was to leave you alone, his mind working up a multitude of scenarios in which you’d get hurt. Although he was all bark and no bite, he still cared about you immensely- more than he’d ever admit. He watches your hair drip water onto the pristine white tiles as you walk and steps on the water with his boots, smudging the liquid to wipe it away. 

“Dottore!” you exclaim happily, eyes lighting up when you finally catch sight of the familiar mop of blue hair paired with his matching tired eyes and scarred skin adorning his face. The Harbinger looks up from his work, eyes displaying a mix of surprise and something akin to irritation- a result from catching him off guard. 

“Darling,” he says softly, quietly enough that you barely catch the loving nickname slipping past his chapped lips. “Did you eat?” he asks, brushing the dirt off his hands on his slacks. You engulf his torso in a warm hug, immediately comforted by the familiar faint scent of his cologne and whatever cleaning supply he used in his lab. He returns the hug gently and Delta looks away immediately, flustered at the sight of his boss being publicly affectionate. 

You respond with a muffled mhm, refusing to pull away. “Didn’t eat much but it was something. Omega ‘n Delta helped me bathe. Took something for the pain. Now I’m here,” you summarize, face still smushed against him. He hums in approval, but concern still creases his brows as he uses one of his hands to rub up your back and the other to dry off your hair completely using the towel on your head. Delta murmurs an excuse before leaving the premises, not able to withstand the pda. 

“You shouldn’t be out of bed,” he says sternly but softly. “I’m working on something that’ll help you in the long run, it’ll do you good to allow your body to recuperate as much as it can. Have you been sleeping alright?” 

You slump against him. Of course he’d notice how tired you were even if he couldn’t see your face. 

“...No,” you mumble. He doesn’t respond, but you feel his head moving as he looks around his workspace, seemingly looking for something. He lets out a quiet aha when he does and he brings his arms down to your shoulders to push you away. 

“I have something you can take to help you sleep. You shouldn’t feel nauseous nor dizzy when you take it as well,” Dottore says, immediately talking about the possible complications before you can even open your mouth to refuse his offer. “I tested it out myself,” he adds, lips curling into a small smile when he sees your face change from a pout to bewilderment. 

“You? The great Dottore, ex-scholar of the Akademiya, willingly taking medication to make him sleep? You never get rest, and you expect me to believe you when you talk about sleeping medication?” you say with an amused scoff. Dottore raises a brow at your teasing but doesn’t comment on it, instead he chooses to brush his pointer finger’s knuckle beneath your eyes. 

“You should believe me because I never get rest, my love,” he says fondly. “And because your dark circles are so prominent, I could probably see them from the other side of the laboratory.” he adds. You huff but lean into his touch, eyes drooping from the burst of energy catching up on your body. You hear him chuckle under his breath as he shifts his body to grab the medication in question and a syringe with a sterilized needle, preparing the equipment to administer it to you. 

“If you get an adequate amount of rest, I’ll take two days off work to take care of you properly. How does that sound?” he asks lightly, flicking the syringe to let out any air bubbles out. You look away with furrowed brows and roll your eyes, but still give him your arm. 

“Now you’re just trying to bait me,” you say, looking at him from the corner of your eyes. He shrugs, not arguing with your accusation because you were technically right. When he’s done with the syringe you feel his arms wrap around you, the warmth of his body making you sigh pleasantly. 

You can’t tell what it is that makes your body grow so incredibly tired so suddenly; if it was the medication, the strain on your body or if it was because you just felt that comfortable in Dottore’s arms, but you didn’t really care. As you felt Dottore move you to one of his couches, you reach out to grab onto his sleeve to keep him nearby. 

He complies, crouching to be at your level as you crack your eyes open to look at him. You murmur a quiet love you and shut your eyes contentedly, smiling softly once you feel his lips make contact with your forehead as you hear him clearly say I love you too back. 

#୧ ‧₊˚orderup! #dottore x reader #dottore x you #genshin x reader #genshin x you #dottore x fem!reader #dottore x afab reader #il dottore x you #il dottore x reader #uuauaoaoaoghghhh i love soft dottore #IM WRITING THE ASKS IN MY INBOX I SWEAR

[queenofcats17]

8, sunbathing, for the ask meme thing

Hope you don’t mind another Bioshock fic.

Also, sorry this took so long.

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Sinclair let out a contented sigh as he leaned back in his beach chair. It had been such a long time since he’d been able to relax in the sun like this. He could have drifted off right then and there, but he was trying to keep himself awake.

Right next to him, Delta (no, John, Sinclair reminded himself) had busied himself with constructing a sand castle, something the other man had confessed he hadn’t done since he’d been a child. He was looking much better than he had when they’d first escaped. Tenenbaum had done a damn fine job at fixing him up, Sinclair thought, admiring the way the sun brought out the brown in John’s dark hair.

The family had decided to go out to the beach for the day, to celebrate a year since they had emerged on the surface. By this point, they were beginning to feel more comfortable around the sea again, and Eleanor had wanted to be able to have a proper beach experience that didn’t involve worrying over her half-dead fathers.

Speaking of Eleanor, a few feet away Grace was attempting to rub sunscreen on the squirming teenager.

“Eleanor, honey, you have to stay still,” she said, gently but firmly.

“But I want to swim!” Eleanor protested, gesturing to the water. “And this is taking so long!”

Sinclair couldn’t help but laugh at her eagerness, although he tried to hide it. It made him happy to see her so excited at being able to have this new experience.

“If you don’t wear the sunscreen you’ll burn right up, dear,” Grace said.

“She’s right,” Sinclair agreed. “You’ll end up redder than a lobster and in a whole lotta pain, and we don’t want that.”

John nodded, signing his agreement with Grace and Eleanor. A gentle, apologetic smile graced his scarred lips.

Eleanor pouted a bit at this, but ceased her squirming.

“I’m almost done,” Grace assured her.

And, true to Grace’s word, she finished applying the sunscreen to Eleanor a few minutes later.

“Alright, you can swim now,” Grace said, putting away the bottle.

“Thank you, Aunt Grace!” Eleanor jumped to her feet, running into the surf.

“Where does she get that energy?” Sinclair laughed, shaking his head.

“You know how kids are.” Grace settled down on the beach chair beside Sinclair, preparing for some sunbathing herself. “They never seem to run out of energy.”

John made a low rumbling noise of agreement, smiling fondly at his daughter as he watched her splash in the water.

And so, on the beach, the sky a brilliant blue, the sun shining down, the water sparkling, the group was content, basking in the glow of an utterly mundane pleasure.

It was a good day.

#ask meme #bioshock #bioshock 2 #subject delta #augustus sinclair #eleanor lamb #grace holloway #fanfiction

[sugaredge]

frances' favourite songs from different bands

oasis - live forever

mazzy star - wasted

brian jonestown massacre - my man syd

smashing pumpkins - cherry

portishead - threads

cramps - human fly

nick cave and the bad seeds - henry lee (ft. pj harvey)

pogues - if i should fall from grace

flaming lips - she don't use jelly

nirvana - dumb (acoustic)

blur - country house

pulp - underwear

placebo - nancy boy

vines - get free

white stripes - blue orchid

jesus and mary chain - never understood

pavement - cut your hair

vaselines - son of a gun

knife - ny hotel

pixies - is she weird

travis - she's so strange

bright eyes - lover i don't have to love

gossip - coal to diamonds

queen - bijou

rolling stones - bitch

velvet underground - pale blue eyes

pj harvey - c'mon billie

neighbourhood - how

cranberries - how

veruca salt - volcano girls

muffs - oh nina

stone roses - waterfall

sounds - no no song

christian death - romeo's distress

elastica - connection

lost pigs - she said

peace - from under liquid glass

b*witched - c'est la vie

supergrass - diamond hoo ha man

trio - wildflowers

zero 7 - in the waiting line

vaccines - weirdo

knack - my sharona

abba - dancing queen

teskey brothers - carry you

foster the people - sit next to me

mgmt - time to pretend

kills - black balloon

butthole surfers - pepper

siouxsie and the banshees - christine

mercury rev - delta sun bottleneck stomp

television - friction

r.e.m. - orange crush

warlocks - shake the dope out

swervedriver - english subtitles

wire - i feel mysterious today

sleater-kinney - little mouth

young marble giants - credit in the straight world

raincoats - fairytale in the supermarket

flipper - ever

gang of four - ether

teenage fanclub - the concept

lemonheads - my drug buddy

violent femmes - color me once

cracker - low

la roux - i'm not your toy

bauhaus - bela lugosi's dead

charlatans - the only one i know

primal scream - zombie man

radiohead - high and dry

gogol bordello - start wearing purple

fleetwood mac - landslide

kooks - sofa song

boo radleys - wake up boo!

james - laid

manic street preachers - your love is not enough

telescopes - i fall she screams

spiritualized - cop shoot cop

spacemen 3 - lord can you hear me?

galaxie 500 - strange

slowdive - machine gun

dr dog - heart it races

fruit bats - humbug mountain song

edward sharpe and the magnetic zeros - home

shakespeare's sister - wish you were here

ash - burn baby burn

transvision vamp - i want your love

von bondies - c'mon c'mon

jet - cold hard bitch

beta band - dry the rain

drugstore - alive

sonic youth - 100%

glasvegas - go square go

smiths - william, it was really nothing

fountains of wayne - hackensack

lush - for love

kitchens of distinction - drive that fast

my chemical romance - cubicles

xray spex - oh bondage up yours

damned - machine gun etiquette

joy division - disorder

echo and the bunnymen - nocturnal me

chinese stars - shake the nurse

pink and brown - messy bessy get undressy

ravonettes - kill!

yeah yeah yeahs - zero

shins - caring is creepy

remy zero - fair

garbage - only happy when it rains

sleeper - inbetweener

verve - drugs don't work

lightning seeds - lucky you

sparklehorse - it's a wonderful life

bay city rollers - saturday night

beastie boys - paul revere

wannadies - you and me song

florence + the machine - dog days are over

gun club - she's like heroin to me

t.tex - 20th century boy

porno for pyros - pets

led zeppelin - whole lotta love

saboteurs - steady as she goes

patridge family - i think i love you

beach boys - help me, rhonda

chromatics - shadow

ok go - here it goes again

buffalo springfield - for what it's worth

simon & garfunkel - mrs robinson

doors - changeling

noisettes - don't give up

adverts - bored teenagers

eels - love of loveless

moldy peaches - nothing came out

magnetic fields - i don't believe you

stooges - gimme danger

teenage jesus and the jerks - orphans

wipers - romeo

public enemy - don't believe the hype

edie brickwell & new bohemians - what i am

jimmy eat world - pain

x - because i do

pretenders - brass in pocket

luscious jackson - naked eye

first aid kit - hard believer

runaways - i wanna be where the boys are

helium - baby's going underground

smoking popes - pure imagination

scarce - all sideways

scars on broadway - chemicals.

xx - angels

le butcherettes - henry don't got love.

descendants - silly girl

dead milkmen - punk rock girl

big star - daisy glaze

raconteurs - consoler of the lonely

witchcraft - please don't forget me

boomtown rats - she's so modern

distillers - dismantle me

now now - oh hi.

black sabbath - heaven and hell

spits - die die die

marked men - don't lose it

misfits - teenagers from mars

a tribe called quest - the jam

filter - hey man nice shot

harvey darger - flagpole sitter

catherine - four leaf clover

medicine - slut

bats - sir queen

cure - m

suede - she

weezer - pink triangle

moonpools & caterpillars - moonpool

archers of loaf - mutes in the steeple

melvins - shevil

mew - special

weepies - all that i want

dead kennedys - kill the poor

black flag - tv party

morphine - you look like rain

magnapop - lay it down

stranglers - peaches

queers - fuck the world

daisy chainsaw - i feel insane

beast make bomb - 1234

blouse - into black

rilo kiley - accidntel deth

gin blossoms - hey jealousy

velocity girl - i can't stop smiling

haim - forever

out crowd - drugsick

asteroid #4 - wicked wire

sex pistols - anarchy in the uk

cat's eyes - cat's eyes

esben and the witch - marching song

pastels - nothing to be done

broadcast - come on let's go

l7 - diet pill

sunny day real estate - friday

meat puppets - plateau

superdrag - do the vampire

tripping daisy - i got a girl

primitive radio gods - women

spacehog - cruel to be kind

godspeed you! black emperor - mladic

super furry animals - crazy naked girls

slits - i heard it through the grapevine

my bloody valentine - only shallow

dandy warhols - bohemian like you

black rebel motorcycle club - took out a loan

marcy playground - sex and candy

toadies - possum kingdom

presidents of the united states - peaches

sponge - slowed

verve pipe - freshman

dishwalla - counting blue cars

oblivians - i'll be gone

half japanese - charmed life

civil wars - poison and wine

felice brothers - whiskey in my whiskey

dresden dolls - girl anachronism

jawbreaker - boxcar

youth brigade - did you wanna die

agent orange - it's all a blur

cosmonauts - shaker

sugarcubes - regina

blonde redhead - 23

cocteau twins - lazy calm

magazine - shot by both sides

swirlies - pancake

lilys - dimes make dollars

chapterhouse - pearl

sleeping years - dressed for rain

feelies - let's go

drop nineteens - kick the tragedy

maccabees - toothpaste kisses

nada surf - popular

faces - ooh la la

hives - abra cadaver

tlc - waterfalls

sixpence none the richer - kiss me

aqua - barbie girl

nothing but thieves - wake up call

happy mondays - step on

darkthrone - transilvanian hunger

blossoms - cut me and i'll bleed

public access tv - metropolis

circles - gonna get to you

jacques - scum in a bottle

dead weather - treat me like your mother

johnny thunders and the heartbreakers - born to lose

#playlist #mixtape #this took so long

[wrestlingmgc]

 WOW World Tag Team Champions Caged Heat

#WOW #World Tag Team Champions #Delta Lotta Pain #Loca #Caged Heat #WOW World Tag Team Championship #Women of Wrestling #Indy Wrestling #Tag Team Title #Women's Wrestling #Independent Wrestling #Pro Wrestling #10s

[wowwomenofwrestling]

Rare promo shot of all three members of Caged Heat. Vendetta (Nicole Ochoa), Delta Lotta Pain (Jwaundace Candece Belcher) and Loca (Cher Ferreyra).

#women of wrestling #wow women of wrestling #womens wrestling #caged heat #vendetta #delta lotta pain #loca #nicole ochoa #jwaundace candece #cher ferreyra

[atinyrabbit]

love/hate songs

Since 8tracks is messed up and playmoss is gonna disappear and Spotify doesn't have many songs, I’m posting some of my playlists here. This is a list of songs about love/hate relationships for pairings. Enemies to lovers, tsundere personalities, hero/villain couplings, opposites attract, loving someone you know you shouldn't. This list is several years old so the songs are older and kinda ‘scene.’

Major trigger warnings for the lyrics of these songs. Some songs have violent lyrics. This playlist romanticizes conflict.

Song list under read more:

Love to Hate You - Erasure Nicotine - Panic! at the Disco Don't Let It Go To Your Head - Fefe Dobson Your Love Will Kill Me - Daniel Lavoie Bruises and Bitemarks (Remix) - Good With Grenades October & April - The Rasmus feat. Anette Olzon Violator - Son of Rust Sick Amore - El Creepo Disgusting - Ke$ha Dangerous - Depeche Mode Oleander - Mother Mother Fear & Delight - The Correspondents Love is a Suicide - Natalia Kills Sex as a Weapon - Pat Benatar I'd Love To Kill You - Katie Melua Before I Ever Met You - Banks Rent - Pet Shop Boys Helpless When She Smiles - Backstreet Boys Holy - Zolita Strangelove - Depeche Mode I Won't Say (I'm In Love) - Susan Egan Can't Feel My Face - The Weeknd Only You - Ellie Goulding Devil Devil - Milck Livin' In A World Without You - The Rasmus  

Hate Love - Adelitas Way Suddenly - Peter Heppner Sick and Twisted Affair - My Darkest Days Radioactive Mirrors - Amazinglyjon Dangerous - Cascada Violence (Club Mix) - Grimes & i_o This Is Love - Air Traffic Controller Make Hate To Me - Citizen Soldier Gently Break It - Beck Pete Portrait of a Female - Cruel Youth This Could Be Love - Alkaline Trio Lie, Lie, Lie - Myra You Give Love a Bad Name - Bon Jovi I Only Wanna Be With You - Volbeat Maybe You're Not the Worst Thing Ever - Cast of Galavant I've Got You Under My Skin - Seether Human - Oh Land Le Bien Qui Fait Mal - Mozart, L'Opera Rock Can't Help Falling In Love [Light x Dark Remix] - feat. Brooke Tommee Profitt Fell For You - Green Day Stupid Grin - Dragonette Broken - Lauren Hoffman Take Me to Church - Hozier Super Psycho Love - Simon Curtis Whip - Mr.Kitty   Get You Off - Fefe Dobson Crazy Girl - Ke$ha Vice - POP ETC Cannibal - Silversun Pickups Rest in Peace - Original Cast of Buffy The Vampire Slayer Hem of Your Garment - Cake Tear You Apart - She Wants Revenge Truth Or Dare - Marianas Trench We Sink - CHVRCHES Gingerbread Man - Melanie Martinez You Stupid Girl - Framing Hanley   Die For You - Red F*cking Boyfriend - The Bird & The Bee Mean - Nicole Dollanganger Must Be Crazy for Me - Melissa Etheridge That Girl - Alexz Johnson FMLYHM - Seether Bad Romance - Halestorm Aquarius - Within Temptation Flirt (With Me) - Zeromancer I'm With Stupid - Pet Shop Boys Stop This Song (Love Sick Melody) - Paramore Trying Not To Love You - Nickelback Kill for You - Zolita A Love Like War - All Time Low You Need Me - SWANS Hatef--k - The Bravery Bottled Affection - Cold War Kids True Love - ThouShaltNot Terrible Thing - Ag I Can't Decide - Scissor Sisters Exit Wounds - The Romanovs Gun - Chvrches Every Breath You Take - Chase Holfelder Whole Lotta Love - Smash Mouth Bloodsport - Sneaker Pimps XXX - Imran-C Bitter Rivals - Sleigh Bells Destruction Of Us - Mr.Kitty Teeth - 5 Seconds of Summer Love Me Dead - Ludo Paralyzed - The Used River - Bishop Briggs Neon - VERSA Sucker For Pain - Lil Wayne, Wiz Khalifa & Imagine Dragons I'm Your Villain - Franz Ferdinand Beautiful Monster - Ne-Yo I Own You - Birgit Let Me Be Your Armor - ASSEMBLAGE 23 Perfect Enemy - t.A.T.u. Straight for the Knife - Sia One More Night - Maroon 5 I Hate You (Don't Leave Me) - Ke$ha The Moth - Aimee Mann Mad Love - The Veronicas Toxic (Acoustic Britney Spears Cover) - Johnny Goth Bad Intentions - Digital Daggers Shut Up - Nick Lachey Soldier - Bitter Ruin First Bad Habit - Vanessa Hudgens In The Darkness - Dead By Sunrise Tearin' Up My Heart - *NSYNC You'll Be Back - Original Broadway Cast of Hamilton & Jonathan Groff Crazy In A Good Way - VERIDIA Combat Baby - Metric In Bluebeard's Castle - Unwoman When Doves Cry - Prince State of Seduction - Digital Daggers Whataya Want From Me - Adam Lambert Broken Inside - Broken Iris Murder (feat. Minx, Chilled) - Boyinaband Why Do You Love Me - Charlotte Lawrence Follow You Home - Nickelback Love To See You Cry - Enrique Iglesias Impressed - Natalie Imbruglia Die For You - Megan McCauley Your Kind (Speak to Me) - Danger Radio Tyrant - The Bravery Violent Games - Polica Toxicated Love - NEO Nemeses (feat. John Roderick) - Jonathan Coulton Miserable - Lit Running From My Shadow - The Velvet Teaparty Barricade - Stars Trouble (Stripped) - Halsey Brutal Hearts - Bedouin Soundclash Desire - Meg Myers Sticks And Stones - The Pierces Just the Girl - The Click Five Himerus and Eros - The Spill Canvas Blood - In This Moment I'm Insane - Myah Marie Fiction (Dreams In Digital) - Orgy Whore - In This Moment Monster - Ryan Adames Foundations - Kate Nash Only When I Lose Myself - Depeche Mode Hatchet - Archive The Beginning of the Twist - The Futureheads Change - Deftones Trust Me - Marc Senter Love Me Hate Kiss Me Kill Me (Scndl Remix) - Fukkk Offf Big Bad Handsome Man - Imelda May The Mighty Fall - Fall Out Boy My Obsession - Cinema Bizarre Stitches - Orgy Miss Kiss Kiss Bang - Alex Swings Oscar Sings! Sweet Dreams - Beyonce Fuel To The Fire - The Maine Closer (Nine Inch Nails Cover) - Niki Barr Band Clueless - Orla Gartland Devil Woman - Cliff Richard Hatefuck - Motionless In White I Love You But I Don’t Like You - Molly Moore Overpower Thee - AUF dER MAUR Get Down On Your Knees And Tell Me You Love Me - All Time Low Post Blue - Placebo Genghis Khan - Miike Snow Poison - Alice Cooper I Know I'm A Wolf - Young Heretics Little Toy Gun - honeyhoney I Miss the Misery - Halestorm Dirty Sticky Floors (radio mix) - Dave Gahan Clarity - Zedd I Get A Kick Out Of You - Frank Sinatra I Hate Myself for Loving You - Joan Jett and the Blackhearts Die for You - Otherwise Labyrinth - Oomph! Black Black Heart - David Usher I Want to Destroy Something Beautiful - Josh Woodward I'm a Priest - Daniel Lavoie You Need Me - SWANS Afraid of the Dark - Phildel Virus - Ryan Adames I Wanna Be Your Dog (remix) - Emilie Simon Hello Goodbye - The Beatles Sarcasm (Album Version) - Get Scared Use Me - Hinder Poison & Wine - The Civil Wars Pretty When You Cry - VAST Tainted Love - Soft Cell Scream - Avenged Sevenfold Think About It - Danger Radio Gallery Piece - Of Montreal Bang Bang Bang Bang - Sohodolls Little Girls - Say Anything I Hate Everything About You - Three Days Grace Love Runs Out - OneRepublic Disarm - Smashing Pumpkins Hit Me Like a Man - The Pretty Reckless Bang Bang (feat. Adam Levine) - K'naan Hurts So Good - John Mellencamp Addicted - Kelly Clarkson Whiplash - FEMM Paralyzer - Finger Eleven Crime - Temposhark Misery Loves Company - Emilie Autumn It Was Good for You Too - Marian Call Price Of Company - The White Tie Affair Burn! - Kobra And The Lotus I Love My Lawyer - Ofelia K I Want Blood - empires (I Always Kill) The Things I Love (ft. The Real Tuesday Weld) - Claudia Brucken Misery (Cutmore Radio) - Maroon 5 Fire and Ice - Pat Benatar I Lust You - Neon Neon Pistol Whipped - Marilyn Manson Bitches Brew - Crosses A Formidable Marinade - Mikelangelo And The Black Sea Gentlemen Control - Puddle of Mudd Scary Love - Skye Sweetnam Loveyouhateyou - Sad Robot Untangle Me - Snow Ghosts A Little Taste - Skyler Stonestreet E.V.O.L - Marina and the Diamonds   (You're the) Devil in Disguise - Elvis Presley Shut Up & Kiss - Me Orianthi Cool for Chaos - Nostalghia Oyeme - Enrique Iglesias I Hate You - Sick Puppies GirlShapedLoveDrug - Gomez You Only Tell Me You Love Me When You're Drunk - Pet Shop Boys Need You Like A Drug - Zeromancer Werewolf - Cat Power Bathwater - No Doubt Bad Dog - Neon Hitch Guns And Horses - Ellie Goulding Rev 22-20 - Puscifer Won't You Please Be Nice - Nellie McKay The Perfect Drug - Nine Inch Nails Until The Day I Die - Story of the Year Womanizer - Britney Spears Build Me Up Buttercup - The Foundations I Think I Love You David Cassidy Stalkers - Mindless Self Indulgence   Kill Me Every Time - Blue Stahli Preface - FKA twigs Every You Every Me - Placebo Want - Disturbed Spit It Out - IAMX Destroy Me - Mr Kitty My Sweet Prince - Placebo Psycho - Imelda May Monster - Meg Myers Figured You Out - Nickelback Suffocated Love - Tricky Satisfy Me One More Time - Frank Sinatra This Love - Maroon 5 Miss Jackson (feat. Lolo) - Panic! At The Disco Fire and Ice - Pat Benatar Every Other Time Lyte - Funky Ones How Do You Love Someone - Ashley Tisdale Poison - Gin Wigmore Bitter and Sick - One Two The Outsider - Marina & the Diamonds True Love (feat Lily Rose Cooper) - Pink Bad Boy - Cascada Irresistible - Temposhark Painkiller - The Queenstons Born to Die / Russian Roulette - Amazinglyjon Like Sugar - Matchbox Twenty Mad About You - Hooverphonic Stupify - Disturbed Problems - Mother Mother What Is Love - Haddaway Animal - The Cab Marionette - Antonia I Hate You But I Love You - Russian Red Carve A Name - Mother Mother Criminal - Britney Spears Danger - Hilary Duff Fell in Love w/an Android - Simon Curtis Demon Lover - Róisín Murphy Always - Saliva Too Close - Alex Clare Little of Your Time - Maroon 5 Sex and Violence - Scissor Sisters Electric Storm - Delta Goodrem Black widow - Susanne Sundfør Dangerous Kind - Rasmus You've Really Got a Hold on Me - The Miracles Over and Over - Three Days Grace Devour - Marilyn Manson Nature of Inviting - IAMX The Odd Couple - Weezer Hurt Me Harder - Zolita Terrible Love - The National Mad Love - Jojo Boomerang - Reliant K Bad News - Sleeper Agent I Was An Island (EP Version) - Allison Weiss Rock Bottom - Hailee Steinfeld You’re the One That I Want - Lo Fang Poison - Rita Ora Kill For You - Skylar Grey ft Eminem Wouldn't Be Love - Ritual Hate Me - Nico Collins Irresistible - Fall Out Boy I Love You... I'll Kill You - Enigma

#enemies to lovers #fanmix #three days grace #simon curtis #love hate #Playlist

[cksmart-world]

SMART BOMB

The completely unnecessary news analysis

by Christopher Smart

August 17, 2021

THE STUPIDITY CYCLE — THE U.S.  IN AFGHANISTAN

Well, Wilson, there we went again. For you and the guys in the band this must seem like Vietnam Redux: We invade a country for reasons that require pretzel logic. We have little understanding of the people but assume they'll act like American suburbanites. We prop up a corrupt regime. Throw hundreds of millions of dollars at it. Assemble an army that doesn't really want to fight. And then bolt, leaving those who helped us caught between the Taliban and a hard place. After 9-11, Bush, Cheney, Rumsfeld et al went after Osama bin Laden and Al Qaeda, who were camped out in the remote mountains near the Pakistani border. But instead of sending in Special Forces, as we eventually did to get him, we dispatched tens of thousands of troops and hundreds of millions of dollars in U.S. military hardware. Al Qaeda was soon routed from Afghanistan so we had to have another reason for staying. But no one could say exactly what that was. In any event, we were bound, sooner or later, to get out of Dodge. In Rolling Stone, Matt Taibbi sums it up succinctly: “This stupidity cycle is the hallmark of American foreign policy.” To date, 2,448 Americans have been killed there and 20,722 wounded. Luckily we declared victory or more would have died.

COUNTY COUNCIL ON KIDS AND COVID — QUE SERA SERA

You've got to hand it to 'em, the Salt Lake County Council knows the old song and dance routine — “whatever will be will be, the future's not our to see, que sera sera.” A salivating mob crowded into the government center demanding the council rescind it's own health department's mask order for elementary schools or they would shoot them with squirt guns. So, after careful and prayerful consideration, in a 6-3 vote along party lines, the council's Republicans sang a chorus of  “Que Sera Sera” and noted that parents should be free to choose whether their kids die of the Delta variant, which is at least three times as contagious as the initial virus. Triumphantly, the crowd chanted USA, USA...freedom, freedom... Previously, the Utah Legislature had blocked school districts from making mask rules and left the decision to counties. There have been more than 37 million Covid infections in this country and more than 636,000 deaths. Hospital ICUs are now at capacity again. But Councilwoman Aimee Winder Newton said this: “[N]one of us have a crystal ball to see how our decision today will impact the future.” WTF. No, you don't need a crystal ball, just stack 636,000 bodies on top of each other, climb to the top and jump off. Que sera sera.

PSYCHIC OLGA PREDICTS TRUMP'S FUTURE

What will happen now that we know Trump tried to employ the Department of Justice to overturn the election? No one seems to know, so we turned to Psychic Olga, who has proven time and again that she can see what no one else can.

Smart Bomb: What's going to happen to Donald Trump?

Psychic Olga: As I gaze into the future, I see that he will continue to grift hundreds of millions more from his MAGA droids, who believe he is their savior.

Smart Bomb: OK, but what about the New York tax fraud case and fallout from new evidence of a botched coup?

Olga: Trump's chief financial officer, Allen Weisselberg, and his sons will mysteriously disappear, crippling the D.A.'s case. The FBI will search the bottom of New York Harbor for people with cement shoes.

Smart Bomb: Well, what about treason charges?

Olga: Evidence will mount that Trump conspired with Rudy Giuliani to take over America. Rudy will go down, but Trump will escape on a Chinese billionaire's yacht and plot a comeback with a new reality TV show called “I, Me, Mine,” which will co-star porn stars in leopard-skin bikinis and the The Pillow Guy in a Tarzan outfit.

Post script — That's gonna do it for another fun-filled week here at Smart Bomb, where we keep track of tragedies in Haiti so you don't have to. If you've planned a beach vacation in Haiti you might want to reschedule. Sources close to Albany say Andrew Cuomo may book a discount Air B&B on the Dominican Republic-side of Hispaniola to avoid reporters covering the earthquake and tropical storm Grace that have ravaged Haiti. Laws against sexual harassment are lax there, we're told. And speaking of water, it may be up to the Utah Legislature to save The Great Salt Lake — in which case we are totally screwed. The West's largest remaining wetland ecosystem has been sucked dry by growth and drought and is in danger of crashing in the coming months. It's a critical habitat for 8 million migratory birds. Meanwhile, everyone along the Wasatch Front has a green lawn, drought or no drought. Although the Bear River is a crucial water source for the lake, the state is looking to move forward with a project that would divert 220,000 acre feet of the Bear for new development. And if we know anything about our lawmakers, it is that they love progress, which for them is synonymous growth. Oh yeah, and they love the color green. Fore!

Well, Wilson, the more things change, the more they stay the same. Still, for some, the Vietnam War-era produced better music. Seems like the Pentagon forgot the painful lessons learned in Southeast Asia, so maybe you and the guys in the band can take us back for a little refresher:

Well, come on all of you, big strong men Uncle Sam needs your help again He's got himself in a terrible jam Way over there in Afghanistan So put down your books and pick up a gun We're gonna have a whole lotta fun And it's one, two, three What are we fighting for? Don't ask me, I don't give a damn Next stop is Afghanistan And it's five, six, seven Open up the pearly gates Well there ain't no time to wonder why Whoopee! we're all gonna die

(“I Feel Like I'm Fixin' To Die Rag”

— by Country Joe and the Fish

— modified by The Smart Bomb Band)

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[liuwdere]

the gay ass anime masterpost*

*not actually a masterpost, since i give about two and a half fucks about keeping this updated or properly categorized. real loose classifications to follow. shit i haven’t seen in italics; stuff i’d highly recommend in bold. now updated w/ streaming links (some are US-only tho, sorry)

no predatory lesbians or okama joke characters or else we’ll be here all day. k? k.

LGBT-THEMED: anime that directly addresses LGBT identity as one of its primary focuses

Revolutionary Girl Utena

the ez one

Yurikuma Arashi

Class S is bullshit, did u know that. Also, thirsty-ass bear girls and a real angry takedown of the patriarchy

Flip Flappers

I don’t know how you can read this show as anything but lesbian sexual awakening, especially given the Class S Yuri Hell episode

Wandering Son (Hourou Musuko)

pls pay attention to the T friends

Aoi Hana (Sweet Blue Flowers)

Showa Genroku Rakugo Shinju

Kikuhiko is def not cishet and i will fite u if u insist otherwise. Half the show’s choices make no sense without that lens

Yuri!!! on Ice

fite me

LGBT-THEMED; LIMITED REP: anime that addresses gender or sexuality as a secondary focus, though perhaps lacking explicit representation (e.g. LGBT narratives in the secondary cast). 

The Woman Called Fujiko Mine (from the director of Yuri!!! on Ice)

One of the supporting characters is a gay man struggling w/ masculinity

Gay schoolgirl episode all about female sexual repression

did i mention the titty is good

Princess Jellyfish

Prominent focus on gender presentation

Kuranosuke can be read as a closeted trans woman

Paradise Kiss

Heroine’s love interest is bisexual

Trans woman in the supporting cast; trans identity plays a major role in her story

Ouran High School Host Club

Discusses gender + gender presentation, though protagonist isn’t explicitly stated to be nonbinary

Protagonist’s parents implied to be genderqueer; father definitely bi

Plenty of gay subtext among the male cast

Scum’s Wish

Strong focus on female sexuality; main character is bisexual

Central cast also includes a lesbian

Simoun

Discusses gender as more of an abstraction? Takes place in a world where everyone is born female to later choose a permanent gender. It does less to directly address gender than you’d expect, though, which is why I’m sticking it here

From the New World (Shin Sekai Yori)

Future dystopia where societal norms practically mandate bisexuality. Honestly, I dunno where to put this; the story’s more concerned with sexuality in general than with LGBT identity

Devilman Crybaby

Classic characters reinterpreted through a queer lens; important theme of coming to terms with one’s own sexuality and identity. Ryo is the definition of disaster gay 

LGBT REP: anime w/ positive depictions of LGBT characters, though not necessarily concerned w/ addressing queerness directly. 

Samurai Flamenco

Four words: gay naked gunpoint proposal. the show makes about that much sense but it’s a lotta fun

i don’t care what the director said

bisexual girl in a poly relationship 

No. 6

boys kissing tho???

Miss Kobayashi’s Dragon Maid

pls ignore the manga and its magic dick nonsense

Haruchika

One of the two leads is a gay boy. He explicitly says so in the first episode. Avoid the live-action movie like the plague.

I should probably list Kase-san and Bloom Into You here

Mikagura School Suite

The heroine is REALLY THIRSTY for all the cute girls

Gankutsuou: The Count of Monte Cristo

Beyond the obvious homoerotic overtones of Albert/the Count, there’s Franz’s gay crush

Sympathetic trans girl character in the secondary cast

Michiko and Hatchin (from the director of Yuri!!! on Ice!!!)

Girls are good ok

Atsuko is gay

Macross Delta

two girls in the supporting cast do a hell of a lotta cuddling on screen

some versions of Sailor Moon

namely the ‘90s anime

Sailor Moon Crystal and the manga do address gender in… questionable ways

Tokyo Godfathers

Trans woman in the main cast

Tiger and Bunny

Reasonably respectful portrayal of a gay man once it gets going

Central relationship between two men could be read as romantic

Genshiken

Whispered Words (Sasameki Koto)

Psycho-Pass

One of the officers is a lesbian. She gets a focus episode

Monogatari series

Really just limited to Kanbaru, but she’s the most accurate depiction of the constantly horny dank meme problematic gay (e.g. me) i’ve ever seen, ironic propositioning of her straight dude friend and all. The rest of the franchise is obnoxious though, so ymmv

Kill la Kill?

i don’t know how else you interpret one girl kissing another on the mouth

Attack on Titan

If you’ve been living under a rock and somehow haven’t heard about it Ymir and Christa are all but explicitly stated to be in love with each other

Kino’s Journey

Kino asks people to use non-gendered pronouns, apparently? I haven’t seen this yet.

Knights of Sidonia

Non-binary character in the main cast

The manga goes some iffy places with their character tho, be warned

Really though, I mostly like this show for the sentient pink penis alien

Gatchaman Crowds

Several gender non-conforming characters

Trans girl in the main cast

Cardcaptor Sakura?

Fuuka

One of the dudes is canonically gay, not that it makes much of an improvement to the show

A Centaur’s Life

there’s a moment where a lesbian objects to her PDA being considered more obscene than the straight equivalent, which is nice but pretty off-the-cuff

Rose of Versailles

Oscar’s debatably genderqueer, though the show goes some real questionable places towards the end

Gay ladies?

Hunter x Hunter

Trans girl in the supporting cast. Her story’s extremely minor in the grand scheme of things but it’s there and it’s good

Love and Lies

potato-kun gets a harem that includes his male best friend

Land of the Lustrous

non-gendered rock people searching for meaning in life

Bodacious Space Pirates

via @madscientist212​: “two explicitly lesbian characters who are lovers, and one of the story arcs involves the crew helping one of them avoid being forced into an arranged marriage to a dude by her uncle”

Banana Fish

Extremely dated BL-flavored crime drama; unfortunately falls into the pitfalls of old-ass exploitation films: csa, sexual assault, etc. It’s such a problematic fav tho

Kiss Him, Not Me

Reverse harem includes a lesbian

Double Decker! Doug & Kirill

heavy gay subtext between leads and secondary cast members; well-intentioned trans representation that’s... kinda clumsy, tbh

Zombie Land Saga

one of the zombie girls is a trans girl who dies from the shock of puberty. it’s p incidental to her character but the show’s real cute otherwise so go for it

Anima Yell

apparently one of the girls admits to having a crush on a female teacher. or something. idk this show looks hella boring why bother

THE SUBTEXT IS STRONK: not textually gay (some you could argue could fall under category #2 and vice versa; not the point of this post) but can be read that way, even though these shows aren’t super concerned w/ romance in general

Puella Magi Madoka Magica

Neon Genesis Evangelion?

Depending on the version, Shinji’s sexuality can be read a variety of ways. Manga Shinji is pretty clearly bi; TV anime Shinji you could debate. 

Free, I guess

Love Live (Sunshine esp.) if I’m counting Free

Symphogear

Dear Brother (Oniisama e, otherwise known as BE STRONG)

Kids on the Slope (Sakamichi no Apollon)

Nominally they’re straight and pining for the same girl but BOY do Kaoru and Sentarou have a LOT of chemistry with each other, so much that it’s hard to read them otherwise

Marimite (Maria Watches Over Us)

Izetta: The Last Thing I Would Watch Even If I Had a Gun Pointed at My Head

Despite what you may have heard, this show is bad and 100% plays in bait territory. Also, obnoxious gun fetishism and way. too. much. goddamn. phallic imagery.

Tanaka-kun is Always Listless

Umamusume: Pretty Derby

Princess Principal

Spiritpact

I have complicated feelings about this goddamn trash fire of a show, but halfway through the second season it turns into a genuinely compelling gay pseudo-romance (?) about two boys navigating heteronormativity. also i guess the main couple exists, tho they spend a ridiculous amount of effort no-homoing

Amanchu

basically any sports anime ever tbh 

Golden Kamuy

MADE FOR THE STRAIGHTS BUT STILL OK: the yuri, BL, etc. that’s clearly targeted at a heterosexual audience but respectful enough to be enjoyable for the people they’re about

Doukyuusei

This Boy Caught a Merman

This Boy is a Professional Wizard

Strawberry Panic

Love Stage??? I have some qualms about putting this here but of the trashy BL anime that exist this is probably the least offensive

Maria-Holic

TEXTUALLY GAY BUT BLUGHHHH: the yuri and BL that just sux

Sakura Trick

Junjou Romantica (how the hell does this thing have three seasons)

Sekaiichi Hatsukoi

Gakuen Heaven

Dramatical Murder (POTATO DOGGO)

Super Lovers UGH

idk Gravitation and all that other crappy BL I don’t have the patience to list

GIMME THE TRASH NOW: problematic as all hell but i sure ain’t complainin b/c i’m gay ass trash

Netsuzou Trap (NTR)

Riddle Story of Devil

Love to Lie Angle

if you ever wanted a generic ass harem comedy except with a potato girl instead of a potato guy, here’s that compressed into 3 minutes

Citrus

Corpse Party wwww

Gakuen Handsome FITE ME

NOT TOUCHING THIS HORNET’S NEST WITH A TEN FOOT POLE: pls,,,, save me from the Disk Horse

Sound! Euphonium

One of these days I might organize this a lil better. Maybe if/when Tumblr figures out how to make editing not a pain in the ass

#gay shit #long post

[mixterglacia]

Dime A Dozen: Maine/Wash Eta+Iota!AU

((Beware, ye who enter: Canon Typical Violence, Past Child Abuse, Past Trauma, Angsty AF.))

They all dealt with nightmares. Project Freelancer didn’t have enough funding to fix them up when their bodies broke, let alone their minds. So each of them had their own customized little slice of hell to explore when they couldn’t stay awake anymore, and found their ways back to the barracks.

York couldn’t be left alone for long before he started pacing, by the end he was chewing at the ends of his fingers until they were raw. He’d been abandoned as a kid so it hadn’t come as much of a surprise when his nights were filled with seemingly wonderful places, the only catch being they were devoid of all life. Any companionship you could think of was absent. No people, no dogs, hell he’d take robots or even zombies if it meant he could speak to something that animated. Nightmares as they were, that would never happen.

North had frighteningly realistic visions of his sister dying in various ways. He haunted the halls, having to reassure Theta that, no they weren’t real, it’ll be okay. Since he had to talk his AI through it, he was able to recount his nightmares with the most accuracy. It didn’t help that most of them were more extreme results of past injuries.

The Freelancer in question was petrified of having her independence, her free will stolen. Before Eta and Iota came into the mix she often ran into Wash (literally) in the otherwise empty mess hall. The two of them woke up from their own around the same time, North and York having settled back in roughly an hour or two before. So South started venting to him. In her dream she’d been given that AI she wanted above all else, but it stole her body when she looked away, chaining her up in a box. She said it reminded her of Sigma, in the voice at least.

Wyoming required sound, of any sort to sleep. It was the real reason he and Florida had started rooming together, despite the rumor (Lies spread by West and Indiana.) that they both met before Freelancer, in some wild kinky orgy. (They hadn’t even been hired in the same month and came from different colonies.) The way he’d described it, it was like some strange puzzle room, full of brick walls with no sound. No echoes, no footsteps, not even breathing. Just oppressive silence. Without the stereo blasting, he didn’t sleep. When Wyoming didn’t sleep, he took over the kitchen and started cooking with no reason other than an excuse to rattle the bakeware.

Florida, as it turned out (to everyone's surprise) was only a little creepy by default. He explained to Wash when he showed up during one of Reggie’s cooking sprees, that he ramped it up in public to keep people distant. His voice was softer than usual as he elaborated that it wasn’t a good idea to get close to him. He said he was to blame for this trend of his relationship partners (romantic or platonic didn’t matter) getting hurt. With a seriousness he didn’t believe the man capable of, he made it clear he didn’t just mean bruised ego’s. Nothing good happened to the people he cared about.

Wash, ever the unofficial therapist at this point, countered by asking about Wyoming. Florida just tilted his head, long hair not quite hiding the sad way he smiled. As it turned out the man didn’t really care if he got hurt, because he’d be damned before he lost his “Little song bird.”

...Okay they could still be a little odd if they wanted to be.

CT was afraid for people. She kept reminding them hers weren’t just nightmares. No they were very real. Some day, she had snapped at Wash, they’d all be torn to shreds by this damned project, and they’d never be whole again.

To top off, all of their own nightmares, most of the ones with AI had to deal with double the demons. Theta feared just about anything remotely unsettling, Delta has issues when he can’t just logic a problem away and works himself into feedback loops trying to get a solution, Gamma would rage after having dreams of the slightest thought of being stolen from Wyoming, The twins easily whipped into absolute fits at the suggestion of being separated, and Sigma...well the crackling AI had only spoken once to Wash about them. All he said was he was plagued by the thought of not becoming real.

Everyone in the group other than Carolina and Tex had come to Wash at some point, eyes dark and heavy, voices unsteady. Even those with no voice at all.

The whole coin joke had gotten a little (a lotta) bit old at this point, but even what lurked in their dreams went hand in hand.

Maine had been tormented with drowning ever since he was little. His mother, he said, had snapped when he was seven. She had nearly succeeded in holding him under the bath water, but his fingers had snagged into the shower curtain, sending the metal support rod crashing to the tile and alerting his aunt who came to his rescue. If it was any deeper than a tub, he wanted nothing to do with it if it was up to him. Not that anyone ever asked before sending him on dive team missions.

It didn’t bother Wash to sit on the sidelines when the Director gave in to the demands for one shore week a year and dumped them in whatever beach town was closest to hand. He’d already guessed that Maine didn’t like water before they’d been given their AI, but when the full story was laid out before him, his stomach twisted into a sour lump.

So he shared the source of his own night terrors for the first time.

They were a total 180 Maine’s trauma, even in the root cause was similar. The older man’s voice broke before he could launch into it, thick with repressed emotion. Iota relayed the basic path the dreams seemed to take.

They always began with a smothering atmosphere. It could be a building, or a totally open space, but the air was always the same. Like a tiny broom closet in the height of summer. Then came the heat. The all consuming heat. He could feel the heat on his own arms, and when he looked down, Maine swore he saw his skin beginning to distort with blisters. Then he realized they were too dark to be his own.

He looks to Wash. Silence hangs between them for longer than normal. It gives him time to examine the patchy scars on his partner.

“...I told you my mom smoked.” was all he saw fit to say. It was all the explanation Maine needed. The penny had finally dropped. One side was water, the other side was fire.

The heat bloomed across his face, curling lazily along, as though it was pretending not to be either capable or intending to sear his flesh. Still, heat meant fire, and David could smell the acrid fumes from the rug that had caught first. When he looks to his hands, he doesn’t see the burns, but his power armor instead. Instinctively he flexes them, and the walls shimmer. Now, it’s his room on the Mother Of Invention. Maine walks in, chuffing a greeting.

The heat has not eased, nor has the smell. He is not awake.

Dream-Maine still had bandages stretching around his throat. They look filthy, like they’d never been changed. Instead of stitches and blood, the skin looks like charcoal. It’s cracked in places and infected pus oozes from everywhere. These observations are forgotten when an orange light flares into the place Eta is meant to be.

“Hello Agent Washington.” is all Sigma says before the room is consumed in flame.

Iota wakes him as she always does. By waking Eta, who then wakes Maine, who then wakes Wash. It’s a perfectly functional, and not at all round about system.

Maine can feel it before he’s even totally awake himself this time, the fire clawing at his arms. This was a particularly bad one then. Normally he just has the smell of smoke faintly hanging in the air. Reaching out, he gently tugs on a handful of Wash’s dreadlocks. The man jolts back, and Maine is lucky his nose just hurts like hell and isn’t broken.

“M-Maine?” there’s always this raw edge to Wash’s voice when he’s woken up from a fire dream. His hands reach back as he rolls over, thumbs brushing over where Maine had been shot. “Eta?”

The blue AI flickers into sight, curled up next to where Wash’s hand rests. “Yes?” he responds quietly, the small bunk bathed in blue light. Iota also fades in, making it an almost cheery spring green. There was a silent understanding that when either of the two woke like this, they both showed up, to chase away the colours of their nightmares. Green was safety for the pair. Green was grass on solid ground, untouched by fire or water.

“It...it wasn’t mom this time, Maine.” Wash’s fingers are trembling against Maine’s scars. “It was Sigma. He was your AI, not Eta. Instead of y-” his voice breaks. “-...you weren’t shot. You were burnt. It was awful and i-infected...he started the fire.”

“The fire’s gone, Wash. You’re awake, and we’re here.” Iota soothes him, petting his knuckles lightly.

“A-And we’re here.” Eta parrots, like he usually does when he’s unsure of what else to say. He tries to smile even if he knows it won’t be seen through the helmet. The pair can feel it through their bond and that’s what matters.

“Like he’d ever leave Carolina.” Maine rattles.

His mind felt like it was full of cotton. Just the voices. Wait...no.

The lack of voices. Voices that used to be there.

Still, he could make out Eta, Iota, and S-...well everyone he guessed. They begged, He begged Maine to just take Epsilon, take Beta, to escape and remember them all.

“Or-” the one that was the faintest, and yet the clearest of them all, “Do us a favor and just forget.”

Snow is swirling around him, he can feel everything as though it is real. Can see Wash, hear him pleading with the Meta.

He can’t stop. Fire is licking at the back of his mind, to just take the unit, to just remember- -or forget! Shut Up!

He shakes his head to try and clear the voices away. There are so many ghostly words. Candy coloured sim troopers are darting in and out of sight. Then he sees the cliff. He hears the icy water crashing below.

Pain laces in his chest, he hears the metal before he sees the hook being jammed into his wound. It burns with the hollow demands of Sigma, because of all the voices, his is the only one wanting to push through the pain, to be real, to be remembered.

At least in the nightmare, anyway.

Because that’s all it could be. As he’s dragged over the edge, he can see Wash. Hears him cry out his name for the first time in what feels like the history of the nightmares. Not Maine, not Meta, but his real name.

That’s what shatters the feeling of water in his lungs, of the weight of his armor pulling him under, because Wash would never do that. The dream falls apart around him because Wash would never call out his name. The name he hates.

Maine wakes to Wash’s elbow prodding his ribs. Judging by how hard the smaller man is coughing and gasping, he must’ve felt the water too. Wash checks again to be sure they are both awake, AI’s illuminating the darkness, before weakly croaking, “Holy shit, we gotta spend less time around Carolina if that fucking AI of hers won’t stop invading our dreams.” he thinks for a moment before adding.

“It’s almost like he’s setting up this whole other universe in our nightmares.”

#logan writes #alternate universe #RvB #Red vs Blue #points if you find the refrance

[the-innocent-papyrus]

It’s Beginning to Look a Lot Like Gyftmas, Part 13

((Still cleaning up. Roan and Dread discover that they do not, in fact, like tongues very much.))

((Muses:

Roan, from here

Dread and WD, from @the-dread-papyrus

Undyne, from @the-hcroine-appears

Ace and Spade, @acetheskeleton and @spadetheskeleton

CB and Slob, @coolskeletonsdontcry and @slobbyseconds

Zax, @holdusfast))

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 Ace hummed as he got food, filling up one plate and going to hand It to Slob before he went back and started filling up another. Christ, there was a lot of food. He blinked and looked back at CB, smiling at him.

🍯 "s'not a big deal, really. it's givin' me somethin' to do, after all."

CB & s 🐽 an' givin' me one less thing to do! it's honestly a win-win here.

🐝 🐽 [Crybaby lets out another G R O A N. Slob just laughs.]

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 Ace chuckled a little before going back to piling food onto the plate, humming. Dang, he might need one more.. yeah no he's gonna need one more plate, just one though at least. He goes back over to Slob, hand him the second plate, before going back to fill up the last plate with whatever's left and bringing that to CB. He smiled.

🍯 "heh, i actually. didn't quite realize just how much food there was till now, honestly. hopefully that's enough of everything, though."

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 YEAH, I WAS NOT EXPECTING TO END UP WITH QUITE SO MUCH FOOD, HONESTLY! BUT THAT'S OKAY. AT LEAST I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MAKING SURE EVERYONE IS FED, NYEH HEH HEH!

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 Ace looked back to Roan with a nod, then looked around.

🍯 "aaalright then, we good to try n' shove alla this in the fridge now?"

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 [Roan grabs another handful of sweets to eat and decides to just. Shove them all in his mouth at once. It's fine, he can handle it.]

🌹 YES, I THINK SO! LET'S GET THESE ALL PUT AWAY!

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 Ace blinked at him as he shoved all those sweets in his mouth and started to laugh, snorting a little. Nerd.

🍯 "geez calm down man, you're gonna have plenty of sweet things to eat. no need to cram em' down your throat like that."

He shakes his head and picks up two different dishes and heads off to the kitchen to put them in the fridge.

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 NYEH! WELL, THEY'RE GOOD!!! AND BESIDES, I NEED MY HANDS FREE ANYWAY.

🌹 [He grabs another couple of dishes and follows.]

CB & s 🐽 🐝 [Slob's pretty happy about his two plates. Crybaby, a little less so. He's going to have to wash those before returning them. Then Ace hands him a plate, and this is just. It's so much food. This isn't even the first time he's been given a whole bunch of food to take home for the hell of it. At least this time it's genuinely extra. But he can't help but smile back. And he keeps that smile as he watches Ace head back off into the kitchen. Slob notices.]

🐽 you gotta date more people that'll go outta their way to set me up like this.

🐝 AAAAAAA, SANS!!!

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 Ace didn't notice what Slob said, at least, as he headed off and put those two dishes in the fridge. Then he goes back and grabs two more, going to do the same thing. God so much food... He keeps in mind what Roan said and leaves the cereal where it is, at least. He's actually genuinely surprised that all of this food fit on that table, how lucky.

🍹 Spade's just watching him and Roan take those foods to the fridge, sighing.

🍹 "geez ace, you really are becoming your brother. can't believe my boyfriend's being converted into a blue pap, heh."

🍯 Ace just shoots him a glare, huffing at him and sticking his tongue out.

🍯 "shuddup you jerk."

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 [Just goes to show Roan's table setting skills are second to none.]

🌹 I CERTAINLY DON'T SEE ANY PROBLEM WITH SOMEONE TAKING AN INTEREST IN CLEANING UP AFTER THEMSELVES, NYEH HEH HEH! 📖 <COME TO THE DARK SIDE. ALSO KNOWN AS THE CLEAN SIDE, SHYEH HEH HEH.>

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 Ace shook his head and gave Roan a smile.

🍯 "i mean, i just figured i'd help out. least i can do after all, y'let us come by n' all and let slob n' wasp over when i invited them too."

He blinked and looked over at WD, chuckling a little and sticking his tongue out at him too.

🍯 "geez i'm just helping out, don't go makin' a fuss outta it. m' gonna be right back ta bein' lazy and all that when i get home anyways, so don't y'all count on this lastin' very long, heh."(edited)

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 I APPRECIATE THE HELP, ANYWAY!

📖 <HM, SKELETONS WITH TONGUES. THAT'S DEFINITELY NEW. BUT AH WELL. I SUPPOSE GETTING A LAZYBONES TO CHANGE THEIR WAYS IS ABOUT AS EASY AS CONVINCING A GO-GETTER LIKE PAPYRUS TO TAKE A BREAK.>

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍯 Ace blinked and looked to WD again, tilting his head a bit.

🍯 "ah, y'don't know about ecto? y'know, solidified magic? i think.. i think all skeletons can do it, but not a lotta them do do it, if that makes sense. s'just like, i dunno. it's neat."

He shrugged with a chuckle, heading off into the kitchen to put away food once more.

CB & s 🐝 [Crybaby blinks. It's new? Huh. Maybe he's not so weird... And speaking of lazybones. He sets the third plate down next to Slob, before going over to the table to gather things to put away.]

🐽 i can do it, too, see?

🐽 [Slob summons up his tongue, where it just sits there, anchored on the front of his teeth.]

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 📖 <NO, IT'S NOT SOMETHING I'M FAMILIAR WITH. PECULIAR.>

📖 🌹 [WD casts a glance towards Roan as Ace wanders off to the kitchen. Roan just shrugs. It hadn't really registered as something particularly noteworthy, to be honest. Their attention is drawn to Slob, as he summons a tongue as well.]

📖 <FASCINATING! I WAS ABOUT TO ASK HOW ONE WHO CAN'T MOVE THEIR JAW WOULD GO ABOUT UTILIZING AN APPENDAGE LIKE THAT.> 😬 PLEASE DON'T TELL ME YOU'RE THINKING OF TRYING TO EXPERIMENT WITH SOMETHING AS SLIMY AND GROSS AS A TONGUE, BROTHER.

📖 <I'M NOT SANS, BROTHER. I'M NOT INTERESTED IN THE GROSS-OUT FACTOR.>

CB & s 🐽 yeah, i was real fuckin' pleased with myself when i figured out how to move the anchor point. for the longest time, i was stuck with it bein', y'know, inside my mouth. that was a pain. but now i can make out just as easy as anyone so it's all good, hehheh. 🐽 [His tongue doesn't wiggle when he talks. Just hangs there for the moment.]

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍹 Spade blinked and rolled his eyes.

🍹 "oh c'mon, they ain't that slimy and they ain't gross. s'natural."

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 📖 <WELL. I'M CERTAINLY NOT LIKELY TO BE MAKING USE OF THE MAKING OUT ASPECT ANYTIME SOON.>

😬 📖 🌹 [Dread and WD glance to Roan, who goes red and attempts to hide his face with his new scarf.]

📖 <...AND I THINK NOW MIGHT BE A GOOD TIME TO BACK OFF ON THE TEASING, SHYEH HEH HEH. I DON'T THINK HE CAN GET ANY REDDER.>

🐟 "Spade's got a point, y'know! Tongues aren't that bad!"

🐟 😬 🌹 [Undyne illustrates her point by sticking her own tongue out. Roan and Dread make exaggeratedly disgusted faces, dramatically throwing up their hands to protect themselves.]

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍹 Spade snorted as he started laughing at WD's comment, but at least didn't take the teasing further himself. He blinked as the two were making an exaggerated fuss over the tongue thing, rolling his eyes.

🍹 "oh psh c'mon they ain't bad. honestly, and with reactions like that you're practically beggin' for someone to just go over and lick y'alls faces."

🍯 Ace blinked at Spade as he came out of the kitchen again, frowning.

🍯 "tongues are one thing but that's disgusting?? oh my god don't do that you hardly know them. then again you don't really have many standards do you?"

🍹 Spade just laughed with a shrug.

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🐟 [Undyne bursts out laughing.]

🐟 "C'mon, lick 'em! You know you wanna!"

🌹 😬 EWIE??? PLEASE DON'T LICK THE SKELETON!!!

CB & s 🐽 [Slob's just laughing. He desummons his tongue, but not before wiggling it in their general direction, and chuckling some more.]

🐝 [Crybaby sure is going to take these armfuls of things into the kitchen and away from talks of licking people's faces, yep.]

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍹 Spade just grinned more, poking his tongue out a little.

🍹 "i dunno. i got someone cheerin' me on over here n' y'all are already givin' out great reactions. sides i am kinda buzzed to, i might just do it, heh."

🍯 Ace just gave him a kind of disgusted and embarrassed look before he shook his head, grabbed the two last dishes and back to the kitchen he goes with CB.

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 😬 [The two Papyruses dash into the next room. Roan then doubles back, grabs the last couple of plates, and dashes back in so that he has a reason to hide in the kitchen for a bit.]

🐟 [Undyne, meanwhile, doubles over laughing at their antics.]

CB & s 🐽 [Slob's laughing hard enough to cough, leaning to the side and maybe a little at risk of dropping one of those plates of food.]

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍹 Spade laughed and snorted a little himself, shaking his head. He drank down the rest of his beer and set down that bottle, walking over to and leaning against the frame of the entrance to the kitchen.

🍹 "oh come on, it ain't gonna hurtcha."

🍯 Ace looked at him with a huff.

🍯 "spade oh my god don't be weird, please."

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 😬 🌹 [Dread and Roan exchange dubious looks.]

🌹 PLEASE DO NOT LICK THE SKELETONS, THANKS!!!

🐟 "Oh my god, is he seriously gonna drunk-lick someone."

CB & s 🐽 i fuckin' hope so! 🐝 SLOB, SHUT UP!

Ace/Spade/Delta 🍹 Spade rolled his eyes and laughed some more, pointing above him.

🍹 "alright, fine. y'don't wanna get licked? someone other than ace gotta smooch me then, heh. not just a little peck on the cheek neither, gotta be a nice ol' teeth clank."

🍯 Ace blushed and shook his head, setting down what he was carrying in the fridge real quick before going over and dragging Spade away from the kitchen frame.

🍯 "spade oh my god this is literally so embarrassing."

🍹 "oh come on why are you such a buzzkill? c'mon! that woulda been hilarious."(edited)

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 🌹 [Roan goes VERY RED at the mention of smooching.]

🌹 ABSOLUTELY NOT!!!

😬 🌹 [Both of them noticeably relax when Ace drags Spade away. Awkwardness averted. For now, at least.]

Zax 👽 [Someone seems to have made their way back downstairs. Seems confused and maybe a little irritated that there are still people in the house.]

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 📖 [WD glances up and spots Zax. He offers the kid some head pats.]

Zax 👽 [Huff... He rubbed his eyes and looked around, squinting.]

"Why everyone es still here?"

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 📖 [WD clears his nonexistent throat, switching to a more understandable font.]

📖 CLEANING UP.

Zax 👽 [Zax felt a little bad, wishing he knew how to understand him how he normally spoke. Though, he supposed WD probably didn't understand Zax's language, either.]

"There es even not so much ta picking up though!"

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 📖 THERE WAS FOOD TO PUT AWAY, AND PEOPLE WANTED TO TAKE SOME HOME.

Zax 👽 "But.... They es taking alla our food?"

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 📖 NOT ALL. JUST SOME. WE HAVE A LOT.

lazy [oh lazy probably is gone. naughty man doesn't help clean smdh. I HAD HIM BUSY DURING ALL THE GYFTMAS STUFF]

Zax 👽 "Ahm... Are you going ta taking tha food also?"

Roan/Orion/Dread/WD/Undyne 📖 SOME, YES. 🌹 😬 [Roan and Dread finally make their way back into the living room, eying everyone else warily as they pass under the mistletoe. It's not clear whether they're more worried about someone telling them to kiss each other or someone deciding to kiss them.]

#!papyrus talks to people #!off tumblr rp logs #!long post #!it's beginning to look a lot like gyftmas

[undyingtale-the-story]

The Fight

[Warnin there a lotta swearing and blood and gore this chapter so if you dont want that stuffs to reach your ears dont read this chaptah]

I woke up, and basically flipped out of bed, grabbed my clothes, pulled my armor on, and realized that it was 3:00 in the morning and nobody would be awake yet.

I resolved that since I got up so early, that I should train. But then I realized that I was too tired to see my two feet in front of me, and I ended up sleeping until 11:00 in the morning, which was a better time to go outside and slay children.

Now that I look back, I should've murdered the child at night when I got up the first time. You know, the usual night murder you hear about in anime and other manga horror stories, that you find out about about when your friend (Alphys) drags you over by the hair to their house late at night just to binge-watch anime. Then she kicks you out of her lab-house to run as fast as humanly possible scared of any living creature around you, and collapse on your own bed scared for your life.

Boy, that was a good time.

But the next time I woke up, I started to grab everything I would need during the day and I realized that I fell asleep in my armor.

No wonder I was uncomfortable.

I started to walk out of the house, and I thought that I forgot to cover up the burns on my arm and then I realized that had my armor on and I didn’t have to cover it up anyway.

“Un...undyne? What are you doing w...with armor on?” Alphys asked, concerned.

“N-Nothing!” I said, swinging around to face her.

“U… Undyne, stop lying,” She narrowed her eyes at me.

You have to lie, The voice persisted, and it sounded worried.

You can’t tell me what to do, I thought back to the voice, almost yelling.

“W… Wait, what?” Alphys echoed, looking at me, confused. I instantly realized that I said that whole thing out loud.

“Oh crap,” I paled.

“You mean, Oh carp,” Alphys pointed out a horrible pun, and I groaned in annoyance. “You’ve have a lot of things you have to explain, Undyne.”

“... Yeah, sorry about that…” I scratched the back of my neck, and realized that I had burns there and winced in slight pain.

“A… and the fact you were w...wearing bandages all around today, and s...said it was my idea t...to Asgore,” Alphys raised one of her eyebrows at me, curiously.

“He told you?!” I gaped at Alphys.

“Of course he did,” Alphys said without stuttering.

“Fine. Let me take my armor off and sit down,” I frowned, and sighed in inconvenience.

DON'T YOU DARE TELL HER, The voice screamed. ITS FOR YOUR OWN GOOD, UNDYNE.

I tend to do things my own way, I noted to the voice, as a headache started throbbing softly. I shook it off, and took off my armor to show my usual everyday clothes. Alphys was sitting at the table, and I walked over and sat across from her. I put my arm out on the table, and delicately peeled off the bandages to show the burns below.

“U... UNDYNE?!” Alphys shreaked in horror. I looked up at her in pain, scared of what she thought of what I was hiding.

“Yeah… that… It goes down my back and down my legs too. T… Theres a lot of it on my feet…” I sighed in both relief and pain as the voice started screaming in my head again, making a huge headache that throbbed painfully whenever I talked.

“W...what have you been doing to y...yourself?” Alphys looked up at me, very concerned.

“Nothing. It hasn’t been me. Heck no, I would never jump into a pot of acid, yet I have acid burns on my arms and I have no idea why,” I paused. “And then, the soul thing. I think it’s all the result of the soul, and… I can talk... to the soul... in my mind… and-”

“W...Why did you not t...tell this to me?”

“I… It…”” I started to say when the headache grew so bad that I had to hold my head in my hands.

“U...Undyne, what’s wrong?!” Alphys looked at me with the concerned look she always gave me whenever I ran out of the house or whenever I made her feel bad because she thought “she wasn’t good enough for me.” But, interestingly, she might be the one who has been keeping me mentally stable.

“I… It told me n… not to t...tell you anything, a...and I t...trusted it but i..it-” I stuttered in pain. I rested my head on the table, tears running down my face in grief and pain.

“U… Undyne,” Alphys stood up and walked around the table to me.

“J...ust wanted to make y...you feel a...alone and I d...dont want that-” The pain grew progressivly work.

“Undyne,” Alphys said, and put her hand on my shoulder.

“A...and the dreams t...they hurt I… I hate them… b...ut they won’t s...stop…” I said, now full out crying, and Alphys hugged me.

“U...Undyne, its fine,” Alphys smiled.

“W...why?” I stuttered.

“Because you a..actually told me w...what was going on. I knew t..that something was up from the start, and I knew you didn’t like whatever it w...was,” Alphys stuttered. “I… I was worried.”

“...” I thought quietly as the battle roared in my head.

“I’m s...sorry,” I said, hugging Alphys and resting my face on her head. We sat there, breathing in unison for a second, letting our heartbeats be as one for a little while.

You have to stop this happy stuff. It’s not going to HELP because there’s-

Be quiet. I’m enjoying being myself for once, I thought to myself, happily. Alphys withdrew from the embrace and looked up at me.

“I… I’m sorry, Alphys,” I told her sincerely. Alphys smiled for a second and then looked at me seriously.

“W… why were you in your armor, Undyne,” Alphys looked at me, very concerned. I hesitated, and then realized that I had to tell her to truth.

“I was going to kill the kid, Chara. H...He killed my parents,” Alphys looked shocked. “I...I only just realized that and-”

“Y...You’re staying in this house, from now on,” Alphys said seriously. I gaped at her serious expression, and she didn’t change her look on her face once.

UNDYNE LISTEN TO ME, The voice screamed. I quickly winced because of the pain that went through my head.

I KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN! I TOLD YOU!, The voice screamed in a sort of hysterical happiness. I winced again, as the screaming stopped.

Oh, sorry. Okay so this is what you have to do:, The voice told me.

You have to go the last corridor in front of the king’s castle, and like go there right now. Chara has a horrible plan and you need to stop him, right now. I started to panic, but then the voice continued: But don’t panic. There’s windows all around you, and you don’t have time to get your armor. Try doing the “going to the bathroom” trick that Papyrus always uses to get out of your lessons.

Wait is that why he does that? I thought, curious.

Maybe. I still haven't figured out. I mean, he’s a skeleton and I have no idea if- The voice stopped awkwardly as I realized what it was about to say.

...yeahhhh, I thought back, awkwardly.

“Uh… Undyne?” Alphys asked awkwardly.

“Hmm, oh yeah, sorry about that. And, uh ill stay in the house.” I suggested.

“... Okay,” Alphys said in a unconvincing way. I smiled and stood up tenderly on my feet, and went to walk upstairs to the bathroom. As I walked inside, I closed and locked the door, and checked with the voice quickly about what we were doing.

Okay so do I just go out of the window, or what? I asked, and waited a decent 3 seconds when I realized that the window was open, and I could plain just go out the window. I launched myself stealthily to the tree, and quickly and quietly stepped down branch by branch to the cold fall ground. I snuck through the forest, until I was close enough to the elevator in the middle of the road so I could run to it. I tried to cover the burns as I slid across the road to the elevator, and slammed the button.

Darn. I forgot to remind you to put the bandages on. Sorry about that. The voice said.

It’s cool. I thought, and smiled as the elevator lurched down to the underground. I leaned against the side of the elevator, letting myself breathe a little bit even though my heart was beating as fast as a drum.

What’s your name, anyway? I asked the voice.

My name? The voice echoed.

Yeah, you must have a name, right? I questioned, and the voice paused for a secound before answering:

You can just call me Two. The voice answered, quieter than usual.

That’s a interesting name… I commented, and Two seemed to cheer up a little more. I exited the elevator and ran as fast as possible to the hallway, and slid into the hallway to the throne room where I saw two unexpected guests fighting.

Chara and Flowey? What are they doing here? I wondered.

Don’t trust Flowey, Undyne, Two recommended.

But I have to kill Chara. I protested. Two sighed in annoyance.

You know what’s happened when you don’t go with my plans. Two breathed out steadily.

“FOR THE LOVE OF THE DELTA RUNE, UNDYNE, JUST DON’T STAND THERE!

HELP ME OUT!” Flowey panted, while dodging an attack from the kids knife. Flowey summoned some bullets and chucked them at the kid, while Chara ran down the hallway, and turned right into the Throne Room. I ran after Chara, as Two made a overly annoyed sound.

Are you serious? Are you defying me again?! Two seemed very annoyed.

The more you ask that, the more I will, I smirked as I launched myself at Chara. Chara ran and stumbled, and hid behind the throne as if I didn’t see them. I summoned some spears behind the throne, and Chara ran to in front of the throne, panting. I quickly noticed another spear straight through the circle in the Delta Rune, and I shivered at the thought of that being there during our fight.

Hey, Two, do you know anything about the spears? I asked, curious.

They were placed there right before the last reset, and haven’t been activated… Two tried to explain, but I was still confused.

Whats a reset? I asked.

Nevermind. You won’t understand. The voice gave up as I quickly side stepped Chara’s attack, and Flowey hit the kid with a vine making him almost slam into the wall. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed Frisk run into the room, with a worried look on their face.

“Well look who it is,” Flowey smirked. Frisks previously tense face lessened when they saw the Flower, as Chara looked at Frisk menacingly. Frisk pointed at me and then at Chara, and shook their head ferociously.

“This wouldn’t have happened if you didn’t spare the demon, you know, Frisk,” Flowey seemed to hiss at the child. I started hearing a scraping noise, as I suddenly noticed that the two doorways at either side of the room were being covered up by thorny vines just like the ones that poisoned me on Mount Ebott months before. I yelped as a figure jumped through the hole, just as the thorns closed.

“FLOWEY YOU HAVE GONE TOO FAR,” The figure yelled. I blinked my eyes, and instantly recognized the figure.

ME??? I blinked in confusion. Both Frisk and Chara looked overly confused, while Flowey looked at us both in his usual happy expression.

“Have I? I told you what you needed to do last reset,” Flowey chuckled, as this other me griminced. “Undyne, isn’t it obvious, you failed. Your little clone did not obey what you said, and therefore what I said before will happen, just as I said!” Flowey laughed evilly, and the other me summoned some spears, and attempted to hurt Flowey. I frowned and blocked the other Undyne’s spears, and she looked at me, clearly pissed off.

“I told you about the spears, Undyne. You should destroy Flowey,” The other Undyne seethed. I blinked, still shocked, as she facepalmed.

“SNAP OUT OF IT, PARTNER,” The other Undyne snapped. “I told you what you had to do, and you didn’t do it, and I know what I’m talking about.” It took me a couple seconds to realize who I was talking to.

“Two?! You were me all along?” I gaped. Two nodded, and looked back at Flowey.

“What’s your plan this time, huh?” Two said in a sort of hatred. “What’s your big-”

Suddenly, I heard a swish of a knife and the sound of scattering dust. I jumped as I saw Two die into a pile of dust and blood, with Chara behind her.

“YOU,” I growled in anger.

“Me?” The child laughed insanely. “What about ‘me’?”

“YOU KILLED TWO,” I said angrily from a sort of anger that came straight from my soul.

“Yes, and?” Chara smiled evilly.

“AND YOU KILLED MY PARENTS,” My hands shook in pain and shock. Chara laughed at my obvious anger, and I started to walk forward when I realized…

I can’t move. I glanced down at my feet, which were tangled up in vines that snuck up on me, and I frantically went to summon spears from my outstretched hand. Suddenly, thick vines wrapped around my hand, and I pulled on them but they wouldn’t budge.

“WHAT THE HECK, FLOWEY?” I growled at the Flowey. Flowey laughed in amusement, and both Frisk and I glared back.

“You’re not supposed to tear yourselves apart yet, Undyne. I have to explain something first,” Flowey chuckled, his face spreading into a horrifying wide grin.

“Undyne, I have to say I find it hilarious that you would fall right into my trap,” Flowey laughed. “I thought that you would remember me, and do what I told you to do. But nooo, that ‘double’ of you had all of your memories, and fell write into my hands! If you were to be smarter to realize that I knew you and I slipped that fact multiple times to you during when we wrote those stupid maps, then maybe you wouldn’t have failed!”

“But being as inconsistant as you are, you just went on life as if you weren’t getting burned and hurt by numerous ‘dreams’ that you have had for the past, what, year or so? You only just told Alphys, didn’t you? Kid, you have to understand that I have no soul and no compassion, so why the heck would I care if you’re hurt?”

“I don’t care. And that’s the thing you're missing.” Flowey’s vines slowly curled up tightly around my legs until it was hard for me to feel them. “You thought I was your ‘friend’. My question to you, is why in the world would I become friends with a fish?” Flowey paused for a second. Fear creeped up my shoulder, and I struggled violently to get out with no prevail. “... My vines are as strong as metal, Undyne. You can’t win,” Flowey commented.

“So if you wanted me dead, then why didn’t you let me die in the ruins?” I retorted. Flowey smirked in the way I always did in the Underground, and tightened his grip on my arms.

“Because I knew how the timeline would plan out since I’ve seen it once before! I know what to change to get to my goal, now that the resets restart when you all exit the underground. But now since you’ve been remembering resets and what happened before, I’ve needed to change my plan,” He started to swing around to Frisk, when I commented:

“I don’t remember anything, Flowey. What are resets?” I asked as politely as I could in this situation. Flowey looked at me, one of his ‘eyebrows’ raised, and slithered over to me.

“You dont remember?” Flowey laughed.

“I.. I don’t-”

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“How did you gain so much determination?” I heard a voice. I opened my eyes to see Flowey looking up at me, in the same situation as before. I struggled, refusing to answer, as Flowey’s deadly poison seeped into my veins.

“I… I don’t know,” I answered, and I truly meant it. I had no idea how in the world I was in the situation that I was in, but still he didn’t care. There was more spears littered on the floor than there was before, 13 spears to be exact, but still Flowey was uninjured and menacing.

“How about this. I’ll give you a redo. You clearly failed this timeline, and now that you have that power you can reset,” Flowey offered. I instantly nodded, my vision blurry, and the thorns came out of my skin and the fuzziness stopped.

“There is two rules, however:”

“You must kill everyone in your next timeline,” Flowey chuckled.

“No nononono,” I shook my head in pain.

“And if you don’t kill them, your own spears will activate and kill them all,” Flowey hysterically laughed. “It’s not that hard! You’re a monster and you know it! You killed many children before, and why not end all of their suffering now?” Flowey continued. I shook my head in anger.

“Because I’m not a bad person,” I seethed.

“NOT A BAD PERSON? You make me laugh, Undyne. You realize that all of humanity thinks that you’re going to kill them at any moment, right?” Flowey chuckled.

“I know that,” I answered.

“And you’re not going to follow that? I mean, there’s no reason not to,” Flowey smiled. I sighed in annoyance.

“Just show me the damned reset screen already,” I groaned in pain. I felt the vines release me and I fell into a dark void. I slowly stood up and looked around, noticing that this was just like my Sans dream from a while ago, and also from the more recent death dream. I turned around and noticed two buttons; one that said reset and one that said continue.

I pressed reset two times…

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“I remember,” I seethed in annoyance. Flowey laughed and winked.

“I knew you would,” Flowey said and slithered away. Flowey went over to Frisk, who was trembling but still amazingly calm.

“Why the hell does Undyne have the determination?” Flowey asked, his eyes soulless pits of black. Frisk trembled now in fear more than determination, and shook their head.

*I only realized that Undyne gained my powers when she reset, Frisk said quietly. Flowey narrowed his eyes at them, and then turned to me.

“So if you really remember, you know what will happen?” Flowey chuckled. I growled and pulled on the vines so I could look at Flowey right in the face.

“You better not,” I hissed under my voice. Flowey turned around and laughed, and slowly made his way to the throne.

“Golly, you look so mad,” Flowey smiled with his happy face again. “But as I always say, in this world…”

“It’s kill or be killed.”

As soon as he said that, small gaping holes appeared in the wall, showing 11 of the 13 different spears. I quickly noticed that it showed each of my friends doing their usual everyday tasks near the spears, just as Flowey predicted.

“No! NO YOU CANT!” I yelled, tears slowly running down your face.

*I’ll see you next reset, Frisk was crying too, across the room. It was clear that the spear in the king's garden which was right near my feet would hit them. I stretched to try and move it so it didn’t hit them, but my leg was around a inch away from the stick.

Suddenly, the spears blazed with energy. I suddenly realized that there was nothing I could do. I was stuck. I was hurt.

I was not determined.

Before the spears reached their max power, I looked at the holes that showed my friends that I thought as family, and watched them do what they usually did everyday one last time.

Grillby was cleaning his cups that the people drank out of with a slightly burnt cloth. Napstablook was floating near some rocks in the forest, crying. Asgore and Toriel were eating butterscotch pie. The dragon dude that I trained was also in the forest, and talking to his best friend. Mettaton was in one of the human's house, and giving them a hug.

Tears started flowing out of my eyes faster.

The kid, Tristan, was wandering on the top of Mount Ebott. Tem was wandering around his village. Sans was in the fun room, looking at a wall and sleeping while standing up.

Papyrus was in the hospital, gazing at the ceiling. He seems to be the only one actually ready to die, being all solitude like he is.

And Alphys…

Alphys

Alphys was helping the Greater Dog with a thorn it its paw. She poked out the thorn and The Greater Dog whimpered, but she pat his head nonetheless. The Greater Dog quickly sighed and-

The spear went straight through its chest and speared Alphys. I gasped in horror as they all turned to dust, and I glanced to either side of me to see both Chara and Frisk do the same. I suddenly felt sick to my stomach, and seeing all of the blood and the dust didn’t help.

“So how was that?” Flowey laughed.

“You’re fucking sick” I growled.

“Language, Undyne,” Flowey winked and tightened his vines even more to the point that I felt that I would explode.

“Fuck you,” I yelled. Flowey completely ignored what I said, and turned around to look at the ashes of what was left.

“You understand that if you continue, everyone is going to blame it on you?” Flowey chuckled again, and I clenched my hands.

“I understand,” I said through my clenched teeth.

“So you can reset, and then do what I want, right?” Flowey stuck his tongue out. “Kill everyone, and then you get to be happy with who you really are.”

“Fine,” I growled. “Just let me reset already, okay?”

“You have to do it yourself, remember? I can’t reset anymore,” Flowey shrugged. “Have fun passing the time there.”

“#!&$!@*#&$!*@#&$ ARE YOU SERIOUS?” I yelled in both annoyance and pure hatred.

“Golly, you look mad,” Flowey said as he popped into the ground and went away.

“ARE YOU SERIOUS COME BACK HERE YOU LITTLE PAIN THE THE F’N ASS,” I yelled, but nothing came out of the ground. I screamed and struggled but nothing happened. I just stayed there, but nothing happened. I focused all of my thoughts to this reset thing but nothing happened.

I blinked quickly, and something changed. I was in a black room that I remembered before, and there was two buttons just like before: Reset and Continue. I quickly faced the reset button, and reached out to click it.

I clicked it 1...2...3….4……..5

6...7

8

9….10

11

12

13

My hand then disappeared into darkness.