#Carson Shepherd

[ghostlyfanparadise]

#mine #meme #photo edit #stargate #stargate atlantis #Stargate photo edit #Atlantis #john sheppard #john shepherd #Elizabeth weir #ronon #ronon dex #teyla #teyla emmagan #carson beckett #rodney mckay

[changingplumbob]

Foster Household: Chapter 8, Part 2

Summer is here! Carson enters a new phase just in time for a family BBQ where Kayleigh takes the chance to catch up with her kids that no longer live at home.

After Harvey shepherds Carson to bed he looks around for Kayleigh. Eventually he finds her in Reece’s old room.

Harvey: Hey sugar, what are you doing in here

Kayleigh: Just missing our kids. They’re getting so grown up. You don’t think the watcher could put off Carson’s birthday do you

Harvey: They probably could, but they shouldn’t. All his friends are teens, he needs to grow up and join them. You know, I got a little something extra done at the doctors

Kayleigh: A vasectomy?

Harvey: I can’t exactly expect our kids to give me grandkids if we’re still making some

Kayleigh: *laughs* I suppose you’re right. Come on, let’s get to bed. We’ve got a big couple of days coming up

The next day dawns bright and clear. Summer is officially here and BBQ day is upon us. Traditions include inviting guests over, having drinks, having a BBQ, and general merriment with others.

Carson decides to throw a wrench in my plans by entering a bear phase. Oh this is painful.

He sorts out his washing and after putting it in the machine passes Kayleigh on his way to breakfast.

Kayleigh: Carson why-

Carson: I’m hibernating until I’m a teen

Kayleigh: Sounds like a plan, just don’t overheat and die

Carson: I won’t mum, I won’t

Kayleigh sets up for her third Sulani still life. She has one done at night and one done at dusk. Time to add one done in the morning. After scoffing down breakfast Carson is off. I thought he might bike in something else but he is pretty attached to this bear suit. Watch out Sulani, here comes a bear on a bike.

Better call the family over for BBQ day! I wonder how long it will be before everyone changes out of their hot weather outfits because they’ve jumped in the pool. To refresh memories or if you’ve started reading sometime after the Woods Household, from left to right we have: Harvey Foster (dad), Kayleigh Foster (mum), Charlie Nishidake (eldest child), Kaori Nishidake (Charlie’s wife), Keira Foster (second child), Marta Romero (Keira’s fiancé), Reece Foster (third child), Samir Hadji (Reece’s boyfriend). Down in front we have in the very embarrassing bear suit Carson Foster (fourth child) and Clover Nishidake (Charlie and Kaori’s furbaby).

Carson: Here’s Reece’s copy of the photo

Samir: Okay?

Reece: Hey why aren’t you gifting it to me

Carson: I don’t give gifts to piles of poop

Reece: At least I’m not dressed like a knock off Teletubby

...

Charlie: Who posed good for the camera? Was it you? Was it you?

Clover: *barks*

Harvey: So… grandkids?

Kaori: Ah, we- kids…

Charlie: We’re focused on being able to summit the mountain dad, leave her be

Keira: You good Samir

Samir: *shrugs*

Keira: Don’t worry. People are less stress when you get to know them. Loners unite!

Samir: Huzzah?

Keira: *laughs in surprise* exactly

...

Kayleigh: Now Marta honey tell me all about your wedding plans

Marta: We haven’t planned anything yet

Kayleigh: Great! We can do it together

Charlie: Don’t let her bulldoze you, she tried to get me to wear a dress

Kayleigh: *tuts* Yes but you won that argument

Carson: *grrr*

Reece: That’s the worst growl I’ve ever heard

Carson: I hope a bear eats you

Reece: *sighs* There are no bears in Moonwood Mill, why does nobody get that

Carson: Shove over, I want to get in

Reece: Na twerp, there’s a whole rest of the pool edge. Find your own spot

Carson: I just wanted to tell you, it’s my birthday party tomorrow-

Reece: I know how to read a calendar

Carson: I’m not inviting you! Ha, take that!

Reece: *smiles* Suits me fine, more time at home with my boyfriend

Carson: But- I- You- GRRRR

Carson is not impressed that his snub has been ignored in this way.

Marta: Thanks for being so… welcoming

Kayleigh pulls Marta in for a hug then.

Kayleigh: I want you to know Marta, your blood family may be in the forever save, but as long as you and Keira love each other, you’ll be a part of this family

Marta: I think my mama and padre would have liked you

Kayleigh: Yeah? Did they have any wedding plans for you

Marta: Well now that you mention it-

Harvey: Okay people, Gumbo is up! Come get it while it’s hot

Carson: Last one there’s a rotten egg

Reece: But you’re already a rotten egg

Carson: I’m telling mum you’re being mean

Reece: Do you ever not tattle

...

Samir: Thanks for the food

Harvey: Huh? Oh, you’re welcome Samir

Carson seeks the comfort of his bear suit now that he’s not in the water. Most of the family stay on the deck, chatting and eating. Charlie keeps them occupied with tales from her latest soccer games while Marta and Keira flirt.

Clover however is having a scratch and snooze in the shade. Samir has elected to eat inside. It’s the full moon tonight and he feels stressed about being here. Beyond just talking to people that he wants to think well of him, he’s worried he’ll beast out and scare them. After kicking over the rubbish bin he decides to try relaxing in the water.

Kayleigh: Samir could I speak to you

Samir: Ahh, sure?

Kayleigh: I know Reece doesn’t want to take more money right now but I’d really like to help out. I know you’ve got the electricity and water sorted at your house but can we give you some money for maybe a repaint

Samir: Reece doesn’t want it…

Kayleigh: Yes but would you like it

Samir pulls himself out of the pool and Kayleigh waits, hoping he’ll let her help. Instead he shakes off the water just like Clover would.

Kaori: That’s one way to dry off

Samir: I... if Reece doesn't... no thank you

Still mumbling half to himself Samir heads inside while Kayleigh figures she'll have to go back to the drawing board for ideas on how to get them to take money.

Worried by the exchange Reece follows Samir inside and finds him staring at the family photos.

Reece: Are you okay boss? If you’re not we can go home

Samir: I… this full moon *sighs and kisses Reece’s hands*

Reece: We’ve been here 3 hours already. It’ll be fine if we leave

Samir: I want to make a good impression

Reece: You will, but we probably shouldn't push it if you think you'll be turning soon. I would rather you be comfortable than have my parents impressed with you

Samir: Okay blondie, home it is. Thanks

Reece: Yo dad, we’re off!

Harvey: See you guys, safe loading screen home

Outside Marta is busy serenading Keira and Kayleigh has started on a new painting.

Kaori: What are you working on today

Kayleigh: I never seem to know what I’ll paint until I’m in the thick of it

Kaori: I get that. Sometimes when I snowboard it’s more like the board and the run are telling me what tricks to do

Kayleigh: The process just… is

Kaori: Exactly

After the guests have left Harvey sets about cooking another meal. The family are still full from a big lunch but the food will keep. Carson arrives back from scouts and goes to ask Kayleigh for advice.

Carson: Hey mum

Kayleigh: mmhmm

Carson: At recess last week no one was playing with me. It sucked and I didn’t know what to do

Kayleigh: Dear your friends are all teens, you’ll be one after your next school day. I‘d try to ride it out. If you really want kids to play with ask some if you can join in. If it goes badly, you never have to talk to them after that day anyway

Carson: Okay mum

The family spend the sunny evening doing their own things. Harvey goes for a run while Kayleigh tries to boost her logic skill for promotion. Carson bikes around the island, happy in his bear suit.

Kyle: Yo Mr Foster, can I interest you in-

Harvey: Sorry Kyle, I left my wallet at home

Kyle: Fair enough Mr Foster. Have a good night now

Harvey: Next time I see your boss I’ll tell them you’re working hard

Kyle: Sweet

Harvey sets about making a cake for Carson’s birthday tomorrow. Pink has always been his first favourite colour so strawberry it is. While it cooks he contemplates portraits Kayleigh has done of their backyard oasis. One of the showers busted earlier so Harvey takes care of it before he and Kayleigh head to bed.

It’s barely 6am when Kayleigh and Harvey are woken up by a sad Carson.

Harvey: Hey, what’s wrong

Carson: I don’t feel good

Kayleigh: You do have a temperature

Carson: I thought vaccinations were meant to stop me getting sick

Kayleigh: Not quite, but they help you be less sick. Let’s go see what we can get you from the pharmacy

When they get back home Carson tries some cough medicine, but it does nothing for the chills. Kayleigh gives him paracetamol which seems to work better.

Carson: Can I stay home today

Kayleigh: I don’t think so darling

Carson: But I’m sick

Kayleigh: Yes but the watcher can’t find any way to call in sick, only fake call, so we’re stuck for now

Carson: Stupid watcher

Harvey of course takes time to deal with the garden while Carson goes and has a hot bath, hoping the steam will lessen the pressure in his head.

Harvey: You’ll wait until I’m home to do cake right

Kayleigh: Of course we will

Carson: Bye mum. See you after school. I hope I don’t infect my whole class

Kayleigh: Come on watcher could you really not find a stay home option (I could not)

After completing some paintings Kayleigh heads outside to bring the washing in. There has been reports lately of high winds in the area so she also upgrades the clothesline before heading off to work.

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#sims 4 #the sims #the sims 4 #R0808 #ChangingPlumbobStorytime #FosterHousehold #HarveyFoster #KayleighFoster #CarsonFoster #CharlieNishidake #KaoriNishidake #KeiraFoster #MartaRomero #ReeceFoster #SamirHadji

[thelearningcurvephotography]

Liberty Building No 1.

The Liberty Building at 793 Gerrard Street East in the Riverside neighbourhood of Toronto Canada is home to The Creative Works Studio which is run by The Good Shepherd Non Profit Homes.

Original photography using a Canon EOS 5DS body with a Canon EF 24-105mm f/4L IS USM lens and Silver EFEX Pro as a Lightroom plugin for the Black and White conversion.

Brian Carson The Learning Curve Photography linktr.ee/thelearningcurvephotography

#photography #original photography #toronto #black and white photography #architecture #black and white #photographers on tumblr #original photographers #bnw addicted #lensblr

[sarcasticsciencefictionwriter]

Jack/Daniel Stories on Fanfiction.net

@i-am-morrigans-apprentice

(disclaimer, I have only read one of these and cannot vouch for the content of any of them, I am just making a list for some friends)

*Also, I had these all nicely linked, story and author, but Tumblr is being a bitch and won't allow it, sorry it's not more convenient)

K & K+ Rated

Confirmation by WritinginCT

Scars Upon The Heart by SecretArt

Things You Miss by SecretArt

Whispers In The Dark by xfirefly9x

A Study of Squabbling by HeartofSword26

JackDaniel's by corbeauprophet (this one is in French)

A Midnight Call by WritinginCT

Bringing Home Baby by LadieLazarus

Against Earth Customs by Pixie Child (Crossover with SGA, including John/Rodney)

Flashes of Loss by WritinginCT

Speaking O'Neill by Jaz22

The Reason by Chance

Danny Boy by ninja-hamsters

Rêve ou réalité by Cybelia (this one is in French)

A Better Offer by magickmoons

No Time by magickmoons

Pendulum by Eilidh17

Trust Me by abstractwhisk

Big Boss Man by cestmoi01 (mild slash only)

Chapstick by Couldbeaswampdudette

After the Abyss by JackDanielForever (preship)

Dreams of Another Life by lilyleia78 (UST)

They Can Too by gatehead81

Most people notice when they've been teleported by KitCatty

Not What I Had in Mind by Daria234

Vows He Never Broke by WritinginCT (includes Jack/Sara)

Are You Lonesome Tonight? by cestmoi01 (implied only)

Daniel's Gift by WritinginCT

You can't always be his prince in shining armor by Daria234

Zonck, the magic word by Malin o Frida

The Idiot's Guide To Relieving Boredom by Amarin Rose

All Shook Up by cestmoi01 (mild)

Sara's Gift by WritinginCT

Grippe by Schattentaenzerin (this one is in German and includes Sam/Janet)

Five People Jack Wishes He Could Have Saved by WritinginCT (implied)

First Sights by Schwester Aurelia (SGA crossover, background only)

Be careful what you wish for by Malin o Frida

Coming Out Of The Closet by LaurAmourFromOz (SGA crossover, includes Jack/Daniel, Shepherd/McKay, Sam/Janet, Lorne/Zelenka)

Conversation qui fait mal by Ptitepointe2 (in French)

I'll Do It! by T4L3R

Zawsze, gdy by euphoria814 (this one is in Polish)

The Case of the Summer Flu by T4L3R

The Eagle Has Swooped: And The ANZACs Are Not Happy by LaurAmourFromOz

T Rated

The Things We Couldn't Say by Gypsy Lupin-Black

Distracting by Rivulet027

Tal Pat Ryn by Orrymain

Destiny by JackDaniel4ever

Jack Daniels Straight Up by Crossbow

Jack's True Love by Emono

Sharing Recipes by magickmoons

Warnings by kangeiko

Coffee Shop by stage crew

A Little Gift by WritinginCT

Subtle by Sorrel

A Little Gift by WritinginCT

Learning to Get Along by Rivulet027 (SGA crossover)

CG 5: Truth by Foreverwolf (this is fifth in a series)

Great Minds (Galian Alliance Part 1) by Alobear (preslash)

Honesty by Alobear

Birthday Smutfest I by ellenscult

Reflections by Alobear

Someone I Trust by samantilles (SGU crossover, includes slash version and gen version)

Carbon Copy by JolinarJackson (SGA crossover, includes Rodney/Carson)

Artifacts by EntreNous

Don't You Know My Heart is on the Line? by catiepie182002 (preslash)

I Know You Need Me by Classical Sorrow (dark!Jack, also OOC Jack)

Speaking in Tongues by Ssergit

Anyway You Want Me by cestmoi01

Running With Blue Eyes by Fidella

Indian Summer by failsafeparoxysm (is actually Daniel/Sam, Daniel/Jack/Sam)

A Cold Homecoming by KalipsoRed (this is actually Sam/Daniel/Jack/Teal'c)

Pi pies are the best pies! by Schwester Aurelia (SGA crossover, includes Daniel/Jack, John/Rodney)

Saving Sam by JackDanielForever

The Runaway by Alobear

Some Things Are Meant To Be by T'Pinto

The Storage Closet by T4L3R

My Immortal by T4L3R

Books aren't worth risking your life by MelimeGreenleaf (English version)

To say I love you by MelimeGreenleaf (English version)

Inquiétude by Miss Emeraude 13 (this is in French)

What about that? by T4L3R

Le jour sans fin by nardy (also in French)

Can't Stay Away by T4L3R

Belated Observations by Gryvon

M Rated

Rumeurs by Sevy Snape (this one is in French)

Caveman by Yami no Ryu

The Walk by AnnieBooker

Clue by Four by RaeC

Surprises by Deaddlykissesno3

Resurrection I - The Ties That Bind by Annejackdanny (This is an 8 part kid!Daniel series, not linking the other seven to save space)

en l'homme l'existence précède l'essence by numb22z (also in French)

Good Idea by Deaddlykissesno3

Fireworks by lilyleia78

Adoration by lilyleia78

Then and Now by magickmoons

A Shadow Falls by Kitchyy (includes one-sided Sam/Jack)

Broca Boy by djenie

Teach Me A Lesson by Lady Shyla (dom/sub)

Spring Cleaning by Kitchyy (very adult themes)

Unification by MicheleB (sequel, is actually Sam/Jack/Daniel)

Star Light, Star Bright by magickmoons (actually Sam/Jack/Daniel)

Happy Halloween by KroBlack (this one is in French)

Driving me Crazy SLASH jack daniel by Ximeria

Across Worlds, Throughout Time by ellenscult (contains explicit sex)

The Road to Follow by Annejackdanny

Gate to Vannas by AkinaSky (an 8 part series that includes adopted children, Sam/Teal'c, and mpreg.) <- the only one I actually read.

Believe - Traduction by Lady Arianna (this one is in French)

Boucle temporelle by SongePermanent (also in French)

General O'Neill by T4L3R

Battles of Jealousy by T4L3R

Battles of Jealousy II by T4L3R

On the Edge by babs-sg1

The Whole Story by magickmoons

Believe by MelimeGreenleaf (this is the English version)

Wolf in Sheep's Clothing by MelimeGreenleaf (English version)

Can't Stay Away: Trouble by T4L3R

Infinitas by FireKali Chaos

Knocking At Death's Door by Aussie-mel

Blindfolded by Aussie-mel

#stargate sg1 #jack o'neill #daniel jackson #jack/daniel #daniel/jack #m/m #fanfiction #fanfiction.net

[protofans]

via mailer:

New single from Act III, “The Fight,” is now streaming on all the platforms. Click this link and pick your poison. We’re already up to like 30,000 plays on Spotify, so that’s something like 50 dollars! About 4 of us are gonna get to eat a burrito with that chunk of change (the other 4 will starve)!!! But seriously, we’re glad you’re all seeming to like it. There’s plenty more where that came from.

Cover design and new logo done by Caspar Newbolt with artwork by John DeLucca. I think they did a hell of a job, if I do say so myself.

And yeah… James Cameron may have beaten us by getting Avatar 2 out before we could release Act III, but mark my words, I almost somewhat guarantee that we’ll have Act III out before Avatar 5! The gauntlet has been thrown, Mr. Cameron. Come at us.

—FIGHT MERCH— Like that Fight art and new logo? Get it on some shirts! We’ve got a regular coal colored (nearly black) Tshirt, and girl-style scoop Tshirt to choose from.

And on top of that, we’ve got a pretty rad new raglan sweatshirt (raglan is the only way to go with sweatshirts. Believe me, I’m an expert). 

We’ve also got a pretty awesome windbreaker (with some rain protection) pullover with silver-ish print. This sort of a jacket is a first for us, so let us know how you like it by buying it or not (whichever is funnier). 

**please note** this new FIGHT merch will not ship in time for the holidays.

—CHICAGO— Our 2 shows at Reggies with Cybertronic Spree are now super sold out and we couldn’t be more excited to get back to Chicago for some Italian Hot Beef Sandwiches!…. and shows. See you there!

—EURO TOUR— And let’s not forget our upcoming Europe and UK tour! Get to a show and you’ll hear “The Fight,” as well as some other Act III jams. So get your tickets and help spread the word over there. Send your friends the link to “The Fight” to see if they like it and then bring them to a show even if they don’t. Maybe bring them to 5 shows. While you’re helping us with promotion, go ahead and start requesting “The Fight” at your local radio stations. And call in to TRL and demand that Cason Daly puts us on the show. Then Google who/what Carson Daly and TRL are.

MARCH 10th – Paris – Les Étoiles 11th – Amsterdam – Melkweg 12th -Berlin – Frannz Club 16th – London – Shepherd’s Bush 17th – Great Yarmouth – Sci-Fi Weekender 18th – Swansea – Sin City 19th – Oxford – 02 Academy 21st – Wolverhampton – KK’s Steel Mill 22nd – Glasgow – Stereo 23rd – Bradford – Nightrain

Remember that time in the last email where I said, “see you back here in about 3 weeks?” This is what I was talking about. Now that “The Fight” is out there, we’re gonna do the holiday thing for a bit, but then get right back into the studio at the start of the new year. Feeling good about this one.

-Commander

#protomen #the protomen #the fight #tour #merch

[mattmurdocksthighs]

MY OCS + THEIR LOVE INTERESTS

Amelia Thompson x Rafe Cameron

Astraea Collins x Matt Simmons

Juliet Shepherd x Alex Karev

Astryn Stark x Jacaerys Velaryon

Riley Morris x Reggie Mantle

Nina x Raphael Santiago

Lucas x Jace

Celeste Lucas x Daryl Dixon

Celeste Lucas x Eliza Moore

Olivia Cohen x Toni Shalifoe

Celia Rhodes x Reggie Peters

Lady Dove x Sir Leon

Mila Carson x Kirin O'Connor

Theo Barnett x Michael Gray



Leah x Finn Shelby



#original character #outerbanks oc #criminal minds oc #greys anatomy oc #house of the dragon oc #riverdale oc #shadowhunters oc #the walking dead oc #the wilds oc #multifandom #merlin oc #julie and the phantoms oc #peaky blinders oc

[lightthewaybackhome]

Stargate-Atlantis S5: E2 The Seed

While we do get to love Woolsey eventually, he's quite annoying in the beginning, and Sheppard seems to shoulder... shepherding the team. He's there when Carson wakes up and gently tells Keller to get some sleep.

Welcome to Atlantis, Mr. Woolsey. This is the place where you simply throw the book out.

Woolsey's only option is to risk someone else's life to attempt to save Keller. Ronon offers to be tested, but there's no way Sheppard's gonna let him risk it. He'll take the risk himself. Later, he has to let Ronon take the risk, and it almost kills Ronon.

Carson tells Sheppard to relax as he administers yet a new virus. Sheppard, with the deepest sarcasm: oh, okay, yeah, I'll relax.

Sheppard: if you'd played by the rules, she'd be dead right now.

This sums up Sheppard's life philosophy.

Woolsey is uncomfortably aware that it might have to become his philosophy as well.

What you have to love about Woolsey is that he always comes through for Atlantis in the end.

#stargate atlantis #john sheppard #sga #rodney mckay #sga s5 #currently rewatching #the seed #the team #ronon dex #teyla emmagan #jennifer keller #richard woolsey

[stephschoices]

Can we know who the ROs are before deciding whether to make you decide randomly or by vote?

Sure!! The ones I have currently in my inbox are:

Elijah - the wrath of sekhmet

Mira - the twilight order

Shea - virtues end

Ajmal - eight year’s revolution

Carson - haunt the bodies

Belladonna - the night market

Dominik - peripety

Kiran - the unseelie

F!seven - infamous

Min - the Phoenix

Statler - the dropout

Jay - the dropout

Travis - the dropout

Naomi - paved in ashes

Chase - shepherds of haven

Sherry - shepherds of haven

If I get more suggestions I’ll just add them to the possible list lol

#ask #anon

[ghostlyfanparadise]

#mine #meme #photo edit #stargate #stargate atlantis #atlantis #stargate photo edit #carson beckett #elizabeth weir #john shepherd #john sheppard #rodney mckay

[trivialbob]

Several years ago my city changed dog and cat licenses from annual to lifetime. My guess is because most people don’t bother, and it was a waste of time.

Me, I’m a rule follower. My dogs have always been licensed. One thing the city didn’t make clear was whether it was going to be the pet’s lifetime, or the owner’s. I’m assuming it is the latter.

Little Sulley just found out that he will be nicknamed Carson. If anyone asks, he is a 17-year-old Australian Shepherd/Terrier mix. Carson had a tail, Sulley doesn’t. We will overlook that discrepancy.

Sulley has some big shoes to fill.

[night-dark-woods]

current to-read list in no particular order (asterisked are bc seth dickinson mentions them in the reddit ama...)

haunting of hill house

left hand of darkness (reread)

eros the bittersweet - anne carson

autobiography of red - anne carson

antigone & antigonick - anne carson (first is a translation, as much as any of her work can be considered strictly such, second is a version)

(i also have the greek but thats. a long term project.)

grief lessons - anne carson

the illiad: a new translation by caroline alexander

*authority & acceptance (books 2 and 3 of the southern reach trilogy after annihilation)

*blindsight - peter watts

*the luminous dead - caitlin starling

*the devourers - indra das

*the cartographers - peng shepherd (seth mentions a different book, but i wasnt grabbed by the premise, but this one sounds rly cool)

*downbelow station - cj cherryh

*ninefox gambit - yoon ha lee

three body problem - liu cixin (even tho i keep trying to read the beginning at the bookstore and not getting sucked in)

a broken blade - melissa blair (ya book for fun)

broken earth series - n k jemison

how to hide an empire: a history of the greater united states - daniel immerwahr

the bright ages: a new history of medieval europe

on looking: eleven walks with expert eyes - alexandra horowitz

ancillary justice - ann leckie (finally lol)

why fish don't exist - lulu miller

caliban's war - james s a corey (maybe. the first book was. predictable and tropey in a very fun way BUT so clearly SciFi Written By A Man)(two men, in fact)

gardens of the moon - steven erikson (fourth(???) time's the charm to actually read the full series?)

assassin's quest - robin hobb (maybe. i may give up and dnf this book about the whiniest protag since holden caulfield)

what moves the dead - t kingfisher

too like the lightning - ada palmer

#bookposting #half of these are in a giant pile on my bedside table... #my posts

[mina-van1104]

🍀💚☘️🌈Happy St. Patrick's Day! Haven't been to Oklahoma since I was 13 or 14 years old from our trip to Oklahoma & Texas! Every time I hear a Carrie Underwood song, I think of Oklahoma! Haha.

Had yummy doughnuts & actually lost 2 pounds the next day surprisingly probably because I exercised. I remember I went hiking with my white friend before eating sushi & the next day I lost 2 pounds instead of gained weight & no my scale was not broken because I have 2 scales! It was exciting & surprising haha!

Also had to commute to Carson City a few days ago then went hiking afterwards & a big German Shepherd (with no owner around) followed us-wonder if it was an angel in disguise. Stray dogs I've noticed in the past, love to follow me so those dogs definitely know I'm a good person! They love my high vibes! Their sixth sense is on point!

I remember last year when a dog that looked like my yellow husky mix, ran towards me as if the dog knew me and the dog jumped in my car. The owner said to me "my dog surely likes you" to me. My dogs didn't come with me during that time. I had no dog food anywhere near me either. The dog just liked me & the dog thought it knew me from somewhere I guess haha.

Also got blondish/brown highlights in my dark hair again. I dyed my hair myself this time & it came out good yay!😍New hair is in the picture where I'm wearing my green tank top.💚

Song played on Instagram is called " Blown Away" by Carrie Underwood! An old song but a good one! 🩵🙌

✞♡ # Selfie # Nurse # Coach # NativeNevadan # StopAsianHate # Biden2024💙 # JesusChrist 🦂 # Buddha # GuanYin # MotherMary # NevadaBornAndRaised # HakkaChineseRaised # ProChoice (though, in politics) # Equality # Justice # Healthcare # Running 🏃🏻‍♀️ # NevadaNative # athletic # HomeMeansNevada # Nevada # UNRnevadaAlumnaMay2016 # 3collegeDegrees # 3MedicalLicenses

•2019:OlderSisterCatherineVan&Adam Schwartz’sWedding&TheirWebsiteOn: https://www.theknot.com/us/catherine-van-and-adam-schwartz-aug-2019•ReminiscingMoreThan200PeopleCame.

[sgnscoops]

Congrats to Phillips & Banks and the SGN SCOOPS Top 20 Bluegrass (January)

1 Man In The Middle Phillips And Banks/Independent 2 Because Of Me Eagle’s Wings/Independent 3 I Want To Be Like You Chosen Road/Thoroughbred Records 4 Hell’s Fire Jimmy Howson/Independent 5 It’s Too Late Carson Peters & Iron Mountain/Billy Blue Records 6 My Shepherd Britton Family/FMG 7 Can I Tell You About My Jesus Primitive Qt/Mountain Heritage 8 Thank You Lord For Grace Authentic…

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Back in Brooklyn, in Micaela’s apartment, our home for the last year, there’s a long corridor with maybe two dozen sheets of paper taped to the wall, each crowned with a name, followed by desires, listed. We called these “want lists.” Anytime a friend visited, they filled a want list, adding to our collage of collective yearning. The wants where of all shapes—material minutia, 5-year-plans, utopic wishes for kinder worlds. The purpose was in part practical—the wall served as a community board, where we all could post our needs and meet other’s— and metaphysical—a nod to whatever possibility speaking one’s intention slightly tilts the universe towards it’s manifestation. More than anything, like most of what we started, it looked like an art project, a series of poem-portraits of the people we loved, ephemeral markers of where desire shifted and where it stayed.

The “lists” in this irregular series attempt to take this form as an entry point and departure. They cover desire, but they also cover doubt, struggle, process, collected as constellations of what I am reading, what I am working on, what I am working through. A map through my unlearning.

On a more technical note: some of you signed up to be here, and some of you were inscribed, because… I wanted you to read this. Excuse the intrusion, the doors are open, you can go at anytime. /gallery.tinyletterapp.com/8470b6c81ab4ff0ca7206fb25d33e9f4dbe1ac68/images/4298c639-03c4-430f-8ccf-7638f5465354.jpeg"" style=""width: 640px; max-width: 640px;"" width=""640""/>

WANT LIST 1/11/2017

To “get out of my way”

Writen in my notebook during a poetry class last semester. I told my professor that I wanted to write how I watercolor—intuitively, trigged by a curiosity with material, handled with the levity of suggestion. The tact and trust required to let a piece sit, and float, and dry. A drop of ink on page. Now that, but with language.

I wanted to be a priest, an empty vessel, to abdicate control in the service of flow. But I cannot pretend as if my hands move freely. They do not. With effort, I strain every word.

Loosen. Let the poem write itself. Or: don’t let grasping, precious projections desensitize the subject from the form. Attend to the unknown on the page.* Leave a space so God can rush in (Anne Carson, via Maggie).

Loose, freely.**

*How? C.A. Conrad’s So(matics) come to mind, rituals to enact presence in the process of composition, so that a poem isn’t produced, it’s divined. In one ritual /soundcloud.com/rawmaterialpodcast/otherworld-episode-4-the-diviner"">Conrad described interpreting a Shakespeare poem by feeding it line by line to a chosen crystal, placing said crystal under his pillow, and asking it translate the line’s meaning to him in his dreams. He would wake and place his collaborator on his Third Eye, and write. Attend to the unknown might mean: come with humility.

Or Gertrude: “Stein shut her eyes and travelled where the sentences led her, and didn’t describe the destination but rendered instead the systematic movement of sentences toward the unspecified.” (Wayne Kostenbaum)

Or Fanny Howe: “I was trying to explain that I let the words write the poem. That is, as you said, making meaning, but at the same time I have this other side, which seeks what’s unknown. I see it come to meet me if I let the words do the work and write the poem”

Attend to the unknown might mean let the words do the work. Which reminds me of my most beloved writing credo, /www.poets.org/poetsorg/text/why-i-write"">from Reginald Shepherd: attend to the senses and sense will often attend to itself.

**from Trihn T. Minh-ha’s Women, Native, Other (read it!), and possibly, my next tattoo.

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Ana Mendieta

To decenter and expand

(Conrad also describes sending students to commune with trees in a writing workshop. The returned dismayed because, “trees hate us … The hubris of our species is that we don’t believe a tree has any thoughts until we cut them down and grind them up and put our own thoughts on them with pencils and pens.”)

A soft spot for philosophies that extend conscious beyond the matter encased in our skulls, matter made of the same matter made of all else. Humility. Decentering the mind as a first step towards unlearning dominion. Our hubris. This both appeals to whatever Zen sensibilities I inhabit, but more importantly, acts as a foundation for an ecological ethics. A decolonization of the spirit.

If God is infinity, then everything that exists is in God; therefore, all creatures and things are part of the single substance that is variously called Nature or God (Jackie Wang on Spinoza).

Or Yusef Komunyakaa: I am the space my body believes in (A kind of material faith).

Such expansiveness undermines any (false) sense of self-containment. Blessedly—

We seemed to be alone but I knew we weren’t. Skin was some temporary solitary confinement. I assumed things would ratchet up to a better version of awesome with my death—at which point I would resume the ecstatic, breezy, primordial bustle of simply flying around with everything (Harry Dodge in /harrydodge.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/04/Harry_Dodge_final_spreads.pdf"">The River of the Mother of God).

A stew of everythingness. Or, like/loneberry.tumblr.com/post/153995404787/oceanic-feeling-and-communist-affect""> Wang on “oceanic feeling”—an experience of expansiveness where one’s illusion of a bounded self dissolves into an experience of infinite communion. Freud’s denial of such oceanity as a dissociative regression gives away his dismissal of an infant’s (our) sensorial envelopment with the Mother. However—Freud coined the phrase from his correspondence with Romain Rolland (a Spinozian) who, rather, described oceanic feeling as a mystical encounter, “the affective state underlying all religious experience,” limitlessness, unbounded.

Wang asks: Is our experience of ourselves as bounded, discrete selves just a trick of the ego? Is it an effect of language, which operates through differentiation and naming? Or is the self a construction or mode of perception conditioned by an idea of the “individual” articulated in the discourses of the Enlightenment, psychoanalysis, and liberalism (which locates freedom in individual choice and agency)?

And, more importantly: How does the disintegration of the ego alter one’s orientation to the world and to others?

A hunch: inhabiting a flesh, a space, beyond the body might (must) deepen an empathetic experience of the Other, of all other beings, of the world. A communion of feeling. Or—

Hapticality, the capacity to feel through others, for others to feel through you, for you to feel them feeling you… (Fred Moten & Stefano Harney).

And, finally, hauntingly, Clarice Lispector: Am I free? There is some thing still holding me. Or am I holding it? It’s also this: I’m not entirely unbound because I am in union with everything (She was a Spinozian too).

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Grete Stern

To let words fail

Slowly reading through /cup.columbia.edu/book/teresa-my-love/9780231149600"">Julia Kristeva’s fictional analysis of St. Teresa de Avila (thank you Fi), a marriage between my preferred modalities: mysticism and psychoanalysis. Kristeva reads Teresa’s mystical testimonies as halting approximations of the (inherently) inexpressible mystical experience.

Teresa is Lacan’s poster-girl for the Other-jouissance: the ineffable, unspeakable, coming. Upon seeing Bernini’s Teresa, agasp in ek-stasis, Lacan concludes that the essential testimony of the mystics consists in saying that they experience it, but know nothing about it. (Again, attend to the unknown!)

Wang applies this to oceanic feeling and writing: if oceanic feeling is a regressive state, akin to a return to immersive child’s play, the artist/writer can, in a process of concentrated creativity, oscillate between this “incommunicable world” (a mystical state) and a sobered consciousness that allows for the mystical experience to be (haltingly) assimilated into signification.

I would also add that oceanic states animate writers and artists precisely because they are inexpressible. If we agree with Lacan’s assertion that the subject’s desire is animated by lack, then the impossibility of expressing the oceanic state may paradoxically incite the subject’s desire to symbolize that state (Wang).

Enter a poet’s fetish of the failure of language: to be an artist is to fail, as no other dare fail (Beckett). Still, it’s idle to fault a net for having holes (Nelson).

I do not feel constrained by language’s disappointments. They keep me humble. And hopeful. The fact that our perception is delineated and thereby inherently limited allows for something else, for the beyond-words, for, for example, Merleau-Ponty’s phantasmic: something (or, more properly, some non-thing) that escapes our attempts to…survey it…a register characterized by an ungraspability.

The phantasmic may or not be material. It is not necessarily invisible, but it is indefinable, rendering the phantasmic as that which cannot be encompassed by our knowledge of it*, rather than that which cannot be perceptually grasped (Gayle Salamon via Dodge).

*A fine expression for (of) God.

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P.S. For folks in L.A.—I will be participating in a Kathy Acker-inspired reading next Tuesday at the Standard, with Chloe Maratta, Chris Kraus (!), Matias Viegener, and McKenzie Wark, hosted by beloved Fiona Duncan. It will be (mostly) reading about bodily fluids. You can find the details /www.facebook.com/events/1295613550495388/"">here.

[archermuses]

maria isabella sanchez. 27-30. she/her. bisexual. bartender. sofia carson.

married when she was young. eighteen, fresh out of high school. thought her husband at the time was her prince charming.

moved to another state with said husband. he alienated her from her family, and basically turned her against them.

turns out, he wasn't all that he was cracked up to be. was apart of the mob. their number one assassin. killed too many people to count. all the money he had, the gifts he had given his wife - was no thanks to the blood on his hands.

when maria found this out, she was really locked up. he wouldn't let her leave the house unless she had work, and constantly had security detail, making sure his enemies wouldn't find her.

during this time, she was working as a blood spatter analyst.

eventually, her husband turned abusive. it wasn't a good situation to begin with, but she had hoped it would get better. it became worse instead.

a few years ago, her husband was found dead. murdered, left alone in a pool of his own blood. the cops first looked at maria, since she would be inheriting a whole lot of money and would know how to cover it up thanks to her work - but ended up getting cleared.

ever since, she has taken off and tried to start a new life. erased her old one, and hides it from everyone she meets. took none of the money. struggles to make ends meet as a bartender, but doesn't care. she wants nothing to do with her former husband.

lives in a shitty apartment with a shitty landlord. doesn't have the nicest things but doesn't care. makes do with what she has. owns a german shepherd named sarge that she adopted a couple of months ago for protection and company.

....was she the one who killed her husband? and is she still killing?

" good thing my daddy made me get a boating license when i was fifteen, and i've cleaned enough houses to know how to cover up a scene ... "

#the life of ... maria sanchez ! #muse ... female ! #muse ... high !

[leanstooneside]

Elevated jawbreaker

Adele's cheek (Corneal ulcer with hypopyon, unspecified eye)

Sherri Shepherd's lower leg (Toxic effect of venom of black widow spider)

Goldie Hawn's shoulder (Benign neoplasm of connective and other soft tissue of unspecified upper limb, including shoulder)

Matt Damon's lip (Nondisplaced fracture of lateral condyle of unspecified femur)

Jackie Chan's leg (Pathological fracture, unspecified shoulder)

Larry King's finger (Other contact with crocodile)

Mary-Kate Olsen's knee (Other hammer toe(s) (acquired), left foot)

Natasha Bedingfield's foot (Malignant neoplasm of left orbit)

Idina Menzel's nostril (Other contact with crocodile)

Lisa Marie Presley's wrist (Perforated corneal ulcer, unspecified eye)

Tony Romo's lower leg (Exposure of implanted mesh and other prosthetic materials into surrounding organ or tissue)

Frankie Muniz's lower leg (Malignant neoplasm of other and unspecified female genital organs)

Kelly Clarkson's elbow (Contusion of unspecified thumb without damage to nail)

Jennifer Grey's hand (Kaschin-Beck disease, left knee)

Amanda Seyfried's back (Cyst and mucocele of nose and nasal sinus)

Sophia Bush's elbow (Osteophyte, left hand)

Kevin Hart's head (Complications of anesthesia during labor and delivery)

Gabrielle Union's lower leg (Motorcycle passenger injured in collision with two- or three-wheeled motor vehicle in traffic accident)

Demi Moore's head (Basal cell carcinoma of skin of other parts of face)

Rosie O'Donnell's ankle (Contact with hot household appliances)

Carson Daly's arm (Intraoperative and postprocedural complications and disorders of eye and adnexa, not elsewhere classified)

Kris Jenner's ankle (Other contact with crocodile)

Kim Cattrall's finger (Influenza due to other identified influenza virus with otitis media)

Toby Keith's foot (Unspecified occupant of heavy transport vehicle injured in collision with heavy transport vehicle or bus in nontraffic accident)

Frank Ocean's eyebrow (Acute appendicitis with localized peritonitis)

Levi Johnston's lip (Burn of unspecified degree of upper back)

Nick Carter's nose (Retinal hemorrhage, left eye)

Kevin Durant's eyelash (Varicose veins of left lower extremity with inflammation)

Solange Knowles's fist (Transient synovitis, hip)

Scarlett Johansson's nose (Pathological fracture, unspecified shoulder)

Fergie's bottom (Swimmer's ear, left ear)

Colton Haynes's lower leg (Osteophyte, left hand)

Kate Middleton's finger (Torus fracture of upper end of humerus)

Bruno Mars's knee (Juvenile arthritis, unspecified, left hand)

Cate Blanchett's back (Atherosclerosis of other type of bypass graft(s) of the extremities with intermittent claudication, left leg)

Blake Shelton's tongue (Alcohol abuse with intoxication)

Seal's back (Intervertebral disc disorders with myelopathy, thoracolumbar region)