Wish I didn't care about what people
I do not know think about me.
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figured out why i've been feeling so off. todays my dads birthday,
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I'm not sure if i'll ever be ready for a relationship. I don't know if i'm ever going to be mentally ready for that ever. I imagine having someone I can be close like that with but I don't think I have the energy for it. I don't think I could handle anything serious.
Don't know how to explain what I mean. Imagining anyone looking at me and seeing anything worth while is already hard to imagine. Feel like I wold just drag someone down with me and make someone miserable with how sad I am, All the time.
I do not talk, I do not go places, I lay in bed and sleep- don't know why anyone would put up with that. Sometimes I feel like I have: so much love and I wanna share it w someone(s) but I'm just too much- I'm too loud and too tired and too sad.
just. hm. feel like i am impossible to love and impossible to deal with.
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Ever since my dad died, it constantly feels like
I'm waiting for the next horrible thing to happen.
Nothing ever seems like it's getting easier its jurt worse and
I'm waiting for the next horrible thing to crash down on me.
Too tired to try and brace for impact i'm jus
layinghere on the floor waiting for it to happen .
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Can't cut my nails short enough so I cannot
claw out chunks of my scalp and hair.
Sitting here with blood under my
nails and blood in my hair.
Hyper aware of how much my head hurts but fidgeting
w my fidget cube to try and not let myself pick more.
Tells myself this is Normal and I am Fine.
This means nothing even though I want
To rip all my skin off and my hair out.
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