#COUGH IM SICK BUT WILL I REST

[baby-xemnas]

a breed of guy

(they couldnt be more different)

#ill love gin forever...best boy...if noone got him i got him #law can keep winning his popularity contests #my art #gin one piece #law #one piece #add: looking at refs (my own old art lol) and smiling cuz gin's nose have been broken many times #hes had so many broken bones that healed in less than optimal conditions #law is so well kept its not even fair to compare #i love thinking about gin as very sick guy. i so rarely do this but that is him to me. #remember i said i dont want law to keep spots on his skin? #well thats absolutely different for gin to me he is gonna suffer from effects of that poisoning for the rest of his life #he never had proper care #he is just broken all over from a real shitty life he lived. but hes the most stubborn beat up dog there is #he's never gonna die no matter how much blood he coughs up and scares the shit out of sanji with it #im using my personal familiarity with lung issues and blasting them on gin #i never do this fr. he's very special

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

#MOTHER FFFFUCKER #to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants #im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night #at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn #to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS #the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori #but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey #consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!! #just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick #outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to #animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better #at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH #i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc #im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over #where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands #there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE #ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles #but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your #health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!! #im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves #also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet #im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to #have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to #to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up #their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ #yapping

[cakiebakie]

its been a while since i drew a decent Snow ksjdfhsdkjfs i miss dragon age.............

#snow lavellan #my art #my oc #doodle #im so sick i have the flu and every time i cough my brain feels like its gonna burst #time to stop drawing and actually rest ig damn

[tenspontaneite]

Bruh people aren't fucking lying about COVID fatigue goddamn

#covid #life of sponty #ive been sick since i got back home on 12th #infected probably 1 to 3 days before that #so im coming up on 2 weeks of covid #and right now the worst symptom remaining is the fatigue and exhaustion #i got up and showered and sat at my desk for 30mins and now I'm so exhausted i have to go back to bed #it's effort to stroke the cat #the other day i did a small physical exertion and afterwards was so intensely tired it tooo about 6 hours of recovery #just to be able to lift small objects without dropping them #shits fucked bruh #also I'm getting the classic taste fuckery and bitter and alkaline flavours are literally making me choke #it's wild #desperately hoping it doesn't last because i really dont want to lose onions forever #i love onions #i was scared for a second that I'd lost mango too but it turns out it's just the mango skin flavour. the flesh is fine #cough was only monstrous for like a day #rest of the time it's not been any worse than ive had from normal nasty coughs. pretty manageable #the fatigue is wack though #I've never been this weak before #it's kind of fascinating from an authorial perspective #this is going to be useful experience for the writing banks

[sotc]

😑😐😑😐

#i've been taking antibiotics for 5 days now and i don't even feel better at all lmao #still coughing a lot. but i do feel like there's way more phlegm going on now than before so idek what that means #im just tired!! of being sick and tired!!! i want to feel better. i want to be productive!!!!!!!!!! #but i barely have any energy. i have no motivation. i can't even rest because im restless. #i need these series of unfortunate events to stop happening all at once fr lmao #sorry for venting im just agh. i feel so useless

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i feel like im building sandcastles with dry sand #im just. i dunno. im frustrated and tired and resentful of the fact that in order to recover u have to rest #bc i mean i haven't been like cough cough sick. my immune system was freaking thr fuck out for 10 days and i can feel the damage internally #like. i compulsively exercise and theres this feeling u get when u kno ur stressed and run down but u dont stop physically overextending #like u can feel the muscles start to tear and not heal. and thats how i started to feel last week #so its like i kno i need to rest but its like. u just had a 5 day weekend ur supposed to b refreshed for the end of the semester #but no. im just discouraged and tired. back to making dry sandcastles. shocking. when u feel bad its harder to function #lets see how this affects my ccaps score when i see my therapist Monday lol #itll b fine. just frustrating. im gonna meet with my advisor tomorrow and b like yo my ability to function had been severely limited in the #last week and a half. but yes im not ready to try reviving some new cultures. and hopefully i can autoclave at some point #i just feel like im being lazy and i hate it #the burdon of being ill of body and mind #unrelated

[orcelito]

Omfg I never actually posted about this but just like 2 days ago I realized that no it is Not normal to experience lightheadedness near daily when I've gone just a little too long without eating

I looked it up and apparently lightheadedness/dizziness CAN be a part of fibromyalgia (which I think I have for a number of different reasons), so like. It all makes sense.

Fuckin fibromyalgia. It's the source of like 95% of my physical problems, I swear. Every Damn Thing can be traced back to it. What a pain.

#speculation nation #'what a pain' haha get it bc chronic pain #frankly speaking the chronic pain part of it isn't the Worst. it's only a few times a month that i get my arm and leg aches #(though sometimes ill have bouts that last longer. like in january i think when i had arm aches for over a Week) #then again my rib cartilage inflammation is a permanent thing. my ribs Always are fucked up. #and i dont know 100% that it's bc of fibro but this condition has been linked to fibro and it didnt go away with anti-inflammatories So #in the end the pain isnt my biggest concern for treating my fibro. aside from the frequent headaches. i Would like to counter those. #what i really need is help with my chronic fatigue and weakness spells #i hate how fragile i feel so much of the time. bc im NOT weak. for my size im actually surprisingly strong. #but im quick to tire and if i push myself too hard then im practically bedridden #i will literally get symptoms of sickness if im too fatigued. including nausea and coughing and headaches #all fixed after ive gotten some rest. so im not Actually sick. #im tired and fed up with how finicky my body is and how i have to eat on time always or i'll be threatened with passing out. #havent passed out Yet but ive had some times where i end up Having to sit bc i get tunnel vision and my scalp is prickling #and it feels like my brain is squeezing and i know i Have to sit down Right Now #idk. there are many things like this. and i am sooooo tired of it. #i want a fibro diagnosis so i can actually get some help for the things that make life so hard to live. #im not depressed im just chronically fatigued. and so very tired. #give me some Energizing Meds or smth. help me please 😭😭😭 i hate living like this 😭😭😭😭😭 #i wanna be able to do things without being bedridden for the rest of the day 😭😭😭😭 please 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[thegreatbeyondmp3]

bro it sucks so much to have to go to work when you're sick

#i dont wanna go but literally if i miss another day they could fire me 😬 #i don't have covid at least according to the home tests but like. i still have a cold or something #and i can't call out because our time is so restricted #and its not even the worst attendance policy i know of but it still sucks to have to work around #esp coming from my last job where i could take off literally as much time as i needed to basically whenever i needed/wanted to #added on top of the fact that i just don't want to fuckin be there anyway #and that im scared im gonna pick up covid bc my immune system is currently weakened #ugh. i have to get through tomorrow and the next day #and then im off again #and then im on one more day before im back off again #so i will have a rest day again pretty soon at least #after being off the last three days #(the first was my legit day off but it was very busy and few days before that were the roughest of a tough couple of weeks - #the second i took off bc i had to babysit and. being completely honest. i watched all of fellow travelers thr night before. and esp after #how bad a time id been personally having lately. all the suffering and the loneliness and the romance just hit me so hard #tbh i just felt like i deserved a break and i could do some work at home to balance things out - #third day i woke up feeling sick and coughing pretty hard and just feeling generally miserable. which continued for most of the day. #but with less coughing until now bc im laying down) #i just wish i could take an extra day or two to actually kick this 😭 #sorry this is so long i can get locquacious when im tired

[eefozlab]

shoutout to girls and other things who are sick all the time

you are so so strong

#im not tho OUCH OUCH OWIEEE #i am sick btw can you tell #you can but BUT I BET YOU CANT TELL WHATS WRONG WITH MEEE *slams a basketball into a hoop but coughs mid-air and the ball completely misses #nobody knows whats wrong with me #doctors dont know anything either #this sucks #i hate being sick #lowkey not looking forward to the future because what if i spend 70% of the rest of my life sick??? #like that would be fucking awful #hurting all the time and not being helped all the time and eating yucky medicine all the time and having brain fog all the time is not fun #i dont think i can live like that #curse my weak immune system #ahhh its so fun to rant

[nerdie-faerie]

Determined to speedrun my way through this cold cus I refuse to be sick for longer than a week, that's just ridiculous

#ace is a mess #i hate being sick but i double jinxed myself so alas there are consequences #started getting sick before my shift on Thursday so if im still sick by the timd my next shift rolls around on Thursday im gonna be pssed #im indulging in rest and hydration im slathered in vicks vaporub im getting all my vitamins taking paracetamol and cough medicine #i am doing my best to get rid of this cold mainly just by doing things i should always being doing like overloading on veg and drinks #im definitely not getting as many vitamins as i should or as hydrated as i should be this year but i always correct when im sick

[fangomango]

Love the way that I'm so sick I want to die but I still have to go to school even though last I check most doctors didn't recommend that

#like i feel nauseous and i cant breat #im coughing like a horse stelped on my lungs #but who cares that most doctors tell you to rest and take medicine #i got spanish work to do :D #...all lf that was sarcasm...i wish i was at home...laying down...resting #because what sucks is that...i can dl so much of my school work at home so if i have the opportunity to stay home #and work and feel better....why not take it #i think my mother thinks im faking it #which can we talk about that #how come when im sick at home over the weekend we all believe im sick and need to rest but the second i wake up that Monday morning and #still feel sick its all “you can still work” and like...i feel sick fucking walking #idk if you know this but i have to do alot of walking...mostly very far distances #we were all fine with me laying down all day yesterday feeling sick but the second i want to rest on a school day its illegal... #...my mother told me that i can go to the nurse....only if i #ima put a warning for the mention of throw up (though its only the word...i. not getting into detail) but its mostly for my sake #anyway she said i can go to the nurse only if i throw up....when she fucking knows im scared of throwing up #my fear of throwing up...even fucking feeling nauseous makes me feel 1000 times sicker then i normally feel

[gay-jesus-probably]

So I haven’t really done any serious writing in years - turns out a significant part of my writing process was ‘writing fanfic while bored in class’, and being done with school ruined my whole system lmao. I had an idea for a fic last week and did a bit of writing for it. It was honestly just a handful of random scenes I wanted to get out of my head, I figured there was no way in hell I’d ever put them together into a coherent narrative.

Buuut then I got a little confused about the sequence of events, so I did a bit of brainstorming on the overall plot, and had to write it down to sort things out, and I automatically broke that up into chapters as I went. I do this with a lot of ideas though, so that still didn’t mean I was making a complete fic.

Aaand then inspiration slapped me in the face a few days ago, I wound up completely reworking a section I’d gotten stuck on, and then the second take worked absolutely perfectly, I was able to connect it to the very first scene I’d written for the fic, and then before I knew it I had a chapter that was completed, revised, and it turned out SO GOOD. The scene I was struggling with came out perfectly, I realized my problem was trying to drag it out for too long so I cut it down to being just what was supposed to be the first half and it flew from there, I even wound up realizing I’d set up some damn good symbolism and contrast between characters and it worked so well it’s going to be a recurring theme for the rest of the fic. I fucking love the chapter so much, I absolutely want to post it right now for people to read...

The only problem is that I finished writing chapter 2.

And not only is the first chapter not done, but also like the entire first half of the fic is pretty dark, so I really don’t want to end up abandoning the fic halfway through if I do post it, I want the recovery arc to be there too. So not only do I need to finish the first chapter to start posting it, I want to have the other chapters done too so I can make sure it gets finished. At the very least I want to have a scene ready for each chapter before I start posting. So that’s... a lot of writing ahead of me. And, as previously mentioned, my old writing system is lost to me.

So I’ve wound up breaking out the ol’ NaNo rules for myself. I’ve got the whole fic in my head, I just need to start typing it and let things happen. I’ve got the whole thing in a single google doc so I can just scroll to work on random parts, and I’ve been aiming for 2k+ words a day. Going well so far! It definitely helps that now I’m on a keyboard that isn’t completely fucked; trying to write on my old laptop after the backspace started sticking was Not Great, so I’m glad that’s over with lmaoo

#the real punchline to all this is that the fic is for a pretty niche fandom lmaoo #well okay not that nice i mean its a zelda game #...specfically a manga of a zelda game #cough four swords adventure cough #unfortunately the purple boy betrayal arc brainworms have consumed me #i have so many thoughts and they're gonna be everyones problem #also i may need to trans some genders #just cause im sick of literally every character using he/him #its not gonna be red tho i dont like how many ppl write him as a trans girl #he's the gentle emotional one so everyone making him the only girl is. a bit sus #let the rest of the colours have transed genders sharing is caring people

[godzexperiment]

*posts that brain rot only to post more xD* -nix encountering gabriel is quite literally an inner dialogue like "ah yes I can work with fellow victim of Cosmic Horrors, if I am tolerated and just maybe ignore my own issues." (could be bloody, having just done some fatal stabbings *highly moody* and nix is just like unphased by it) -ironically, in contrast encountering michael for nix would be far more terrifying for nix (his internal everything would be like 'neat- this is cool and he seems pretty adjusted... so how about you feel like you're in extreme danger despite that' and nix is just forced to be cagey as shit more than normal by forces out of his control)

#<<insomniac vampire speaking>> mun post #(this is very d.ominion specific and so what im being emotional given almost done with another rewatch lol) #(have more thoughts but im just mostly full of these two cases specifically) #(-nix full on dying internally and slamming the gas encountered by michael especially if is kind-) #(meanwhile with gabe it's like yeah he seems cosmically terrorized and beyond exhausted i can vibe with that) #(*cough* not it also going with how safety is scarier than chaos for him *cough*) #(plus like can be of help vs would only be stuck maybe being helped) #(nix 'why focus on my issues when-' *gestures at gabriel* i could try get this one 5 minutes of rest) #(he is stupid but that's why he is lovable) #(nix could be vibrating from his inner horrors and just like 'hold up i need to negotiate for everybody to just get an solid nap damn') #(-does an first murder and is far more concerned about others sanity than with the sick feeling inside him-) #(k- now to continue rewatching the ouch that is lots of the last episodes of s2 lmao)

[ghostzzy]

update mishka is okay and has medicine and should be totally fine

#it’s probably allergies and not kennel cough which is a relief #because she has coughed in the faces of two other dogs so far and i would hate for them to get sick too :^( #but yeah. phew. should be okay. and the rest of the weekend should be okay too. #and now im gonna turn my brain off. jc. #izzy.txt

[faarkas]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HILARY BELOVED!!!🎉🎉 i hope this day will be full of fun and delicious food!! i really really love you so much, you're such a beautiful and amazing person and you deserve the best 💜💜 ily

THANK YOU RENA MY ABSOLUTE DARLING <3333 i hope ur having the same type of day!!!

#im home sick prepping for hurricane fiona and puttering around my games and stuff BUT I have made some tea for my throat and some toast #(brioche no less. insert pumpkin soup wooden spoon meme here) with some butter and honey so that was good. and im trying to get my dad to #bring home a whole chicken and stuff for my aunt and i to make chicken soup out of. he has not texted me back. serious doubt in my heart #that i will get my chicken soup. BUT I WILL NOT GIVE UP HOPE ! #ANyway just wait til i post the rest of the wishes and then SHOW U ALL THE GORGEOUS PIECE THAT OLEK GIFTED ME. LIKE O U G H WATCH OUT BESTY #(i ran out of words hence...bestys..) #first thing mom said to me when i old man shuffled to her bathroom in my robe to get the thermometer was 'how does it feel to be 23 on the #23rd' and i was like *croaky raspy voice. mid cough.* ma...im dying. it feels great . #answered #🎂

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

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#my stress and lack of sleep has caught up to me 🙃 #truly unfortunate. last night at work i nearly died and now im calling off of work today cuz i feel like shit #i havent been sleeping much lately. like not sleeping at night and then taking a five hour nap in the day and thats it #and im moving in may. which im so incredibly stressed about. there's so much to do and soooo little time to do it #last night at work (saturday is the worst fucking day) it was so hot and i felt like i was going to throw up AND pass out #i nearly did pass out. i remember cleaning up dishes and starting to sway #it sucked but i did it. also started to get a really shitty cough peobs just from talking so much #i let my manager know i might be calling off today and she said its fine. and i got someone to cover me if needed #so today i just need to let my managers and replacement know for sure #ive never called out in my seven months of working there. and sunday is a slow day. so theyre cool with it #thank god because i still feel like im gonna throw up #but im gonna spend my whole sick day thinking about how i should be more productive #and thinking about how much money im losing and how much shit i need to be doing #no rest for me