alternatively, 7-8 for a julian ship of your choice LOL
I was initially embarrassed because I genuinely want to do Julian x MC but the bitch has my name so I settled for Asra but you know what? Fuck it. I'm doing both
7) - What annoys them the most about their partner? Would they change it if they could?
(with Isak) Me- Isak- uh, my Apprentice-sona sjdjkg is initially annoyed with Julian’s theatricality, the air of danger around them, the lack of compromise. How he’s ready to throw himself in and carry the weight of the world but swats away any and all resemblance to a helping hand, pushing everyone he loves away. He’s so fucking pissed when Julian breaks up with him, all he wants to do is slap him in the face and shake him. Julian’s mostly just annoyed with how much he feels for him, how he feels like the control is slipping away from his hands when he’s with him, like the rug he’s been standing on have been swept out from underneath him. He hates the vulnerability it brings, hates that he needs to re-evaluate everything he knows, but he does it, and they both manage to change it for each other. (And eventually, Isak learns to appreciate a little bit of cheesiness, a hint of theatricality, some exaggeration here and some drama there.)
(with Asra) Asra is pissed with Julian's issues and his lack of self-awareness towards them - or they just assume Julian is not aware. Asra, to me, seems very straightforward: something is bothering you? Talk it out. You feel bad in a situation? Do your best to change it. He's pissed that Julian seemed to play with him and was indecisive regarding their relationship, hurting himself and Asra in the meantime, and he's pissed at Julian's inability to take care of himself and stop the cycle of self-sabotage. Julian, in turn, thinks that Asra is taking himself and their relationship too seriously; is what he tells them. Actually, he just wishes Asra could see through his mask and reach him, help him break that very cycle he's struggling with. I do believe Julian cares a whole lot about Asra, but there's not much he can do to express it, since Asra is a good thing he thinks he doesn't deserve. Also, he might feel a little weird about magic and people being enthusiastic about magic. As for changing, well - if they truly wanted to change each other, they could've done it in the past, but the whole thing is that they decided to end it instead.
8) - What do the like best about their partner?
(with Isak) Julian loves how resilient Isak is. How he’s patient with him, waiting out his tantrums and his repeated episodes of self-hatred, being with him every step of the way and managing to calm him down when the guilt and the self-loathing becomes too much of a burden to bear alone. He loves that he doesn’t get scared from a little danger, that he looks at all the ugly things in Julian, his kinks and his faults and his worries and fears and he decides to love him anyway, warts and all. And Isak loves Julian’s childlike curiosity and wonder, the smile on his face when he gets excited about something new - something he still haven’t encountered before, despite his long years spent traveling, seeking adventure, experiencing things all over the world -, that despite the pain, despite the self-loathing, despite the grief, despite everything, Julian is still soft, he’s still kind, he still has love and goodness in his heart, he’s still so painfully, magically, beautifully human.
(with Asra) As much as Julian has problems with Asra and their magic, it's exactly what he's so enthralled with regarding that person. Asra oozes magic, such a naturally captivating gracefulness that Julian can't help but be drawn in by. On the other hand, Asra feels like he might fall in love with Julian's good heart. He knows how deeply he feels, how much he suffers, they feel it in his every touch, can see it in his eyes: the drive to help people and make the world a slightly better place.
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