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monemin · 8 months
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Everyone told me testosterone would make me angrier. My family has a habit of attributing any anger I feel these days to the testosterone. I didn't feel any angrier, but my mother would still tell me that no, I am angrier now, and testosterone did make me angrier and *she* could tell.
A week or two ago, I got my proof to the contrary. I'd been having a difficult day, woke up late, and had to rush out the door, ran into minor inconvenience after minor inconvenience, and then the straw broke the camel's back.
I wrote out the kind of angry vindictive seething text message I used to write constantly. I didn't send it, of course, I copied it out and pasted it in the folder of my notes where I put all my rage venting.
And then I thought.
Huh, it's been a little while since I did that. And I checked the time and dates on my previous notes. The last one was a few days before I started testosterone.
And scrolling back, I noticed that they were *constant* at least one a week for *years* I used to get so angry that I would get the serious urge to say cruel hurtful things to or about people I cared about on a near-daily basis. I didn't realize how big of a problem it was until all of a sudden I hadn't gotten that angry in Eleven Months. Nearly a YEAR.
And then I realized in my rush to get out the door in the morning, I hadn't taken my T shot. My testosterone was the lowest it's been since August.
All of a sudden, I had demonstrable proof that testosterone really did make me less angry. That all that "you may not think you're any angrier but you are" was bullshit.
I feel like I should be angrier about this than I am. I know how angry I used to get. About everything. I just felt it again for the first time in a while. For once, it would feel justified to be that angry. But I'm not. I'm not mad. I'm just... disappointed, I guess.
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spacelazarwolf · 10 months
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people be fucking normal abt ftm bottom surgery challenge.
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threads-and-pages · 6 months
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Young trans men will come online, looking for community, guidance, and support only to be pushed away and mocked for expressing any vulnerability and insecurity, as if they were naive to think they deserved any ounce of care.
The cruelty is especially jarring when it's presented as some sort of common sense. Is it common sense to tell trans boys, because some of these people are boys, 13-15-17 years old, that they should expect and accept adversarial reactions because of their boyhood and masculinity because that's just what being a man is?
These are trans people, trans children, which everyone seems to care about so much when it comes to legislation, but a lot less when they actually express needs and wants beyond 'I wanna be alive'
why can't trans boys be met with comfort when they express their pain to older members of the community?
What kind of trans elder are you going to be if in your twenties and thirties you are telling trans boys that it's normal for other queer and trans people to isolate them because of their gender?
A shit elder, that's what you are going to be, a shit fucking elder who at best will be left alone in your toxic circles and at worst will actively harm younger trans people.
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thewarmvoid · 4 months
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most people actively hate trans men more than they hate cis men and it’s 100% bc they can project all of the things they project onto cis men onto trans men and punish us for those projections without any consequence or pushback
And a lot of trans men both accept this treatment and encourage other transmascs + men to bc “if you were a good guy / real feminist you would understand that no level of mistreatment you can suffer is the same as how devastating misogyny and patriarchy is for women”
Being a Real Man™️ means accepting you can Never be hurt Like a Woman Can and somehow this is not Toxic Masculinity but instead True Feminism
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grrrrrrrbarkbarkbark · 10 months
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This pride month I'm inviting everyone to partake in a challenge called "Stop Being Werid about Transmascs"
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autismdogg · 3 months
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Build-A-Bear vending machine, JFK Airport (Terminal 4)
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will80sbyers · 5 months
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Extracts from “ Boy, Girl, Boy, Girl... A Bi Chronology” by M. S. Montgomery in the Issue n° 16 of ATM (1998)
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a-polite-melody · 17 days
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“Omg the transandrobros trying to make autoandrophilia (AAP) a thing are so transmisogynistic. They see the transmisogynistic theory of autogynephilia (AGP) and say ‘how can I make this about me?’ There’s nothing here to reclaim for you, you’re just stealing valour from transmisogyny.”
Way to just make a bunch of assumptions.
There absolutely is a concept that’s been weaponized against gay transmascs from medical bs around transition (it was basically impossible for lesbian transfems, as well as gay transmascs, to transition in the US at least until the 1980s; look up Lou Sullivan for more on that) to social media callouts, dogpiles, and doxxings. It is a concept that doesn’t have a formalized name like AGP (though a quick google search shows that prominent people who speak about AGP have been using AAP in conjunction with AGP since 2009) but is a concept which is similar to that of AGP and used in some similar ways against transmascs as AGP is against transfems.
One place you can very easily find this attitude (to go back to the stuff about social media, though there are implications beyond the scope of just social media here) is baked into the transmed “criticism” of gay/mlm transmascs/AFAB nonbinary people which featured (unfortunately) pretty prominently in the tumblr trans world for a long time, and while it may not be nearly as prominent now, it’s still around and easy to find if you look specifically for transmed stuff. Hell, it moved out of transmed spaces and became a tumblr-wide phenomenon of harassing (and worse) the “fujoshis”—these gross women who were so fetishistic of gay men and into gay fanfic and bl manga they deluded themselves into thinking they’re the gay boys in their favourite anime—in the name of protecting the trans community and the gay community from these infiltrators and walking conversion therapy fakebois.
I denied that I was transmasc for so long because I was worried that this “phenomenon of delusional women tricking themselves into thinking they’re men to absolve themselves the guilt of being fetishistic creeps toward gay men, reinforced by encouraging each other into the delusions” was an actual, real thing I needed to worry about, and that I might have been falling into this trap.
I worried, because the world was telling me that this (though not called the phrase) AAP phenomenon existed at the same time as when I had to actually like… actually fully delve into learning about the LGBTQ+ community after realizing I was bi to even know that being trans in a way that was something other than MTF even existed. It made more sense to me that I, while actively trying not to, was actually internally fetishizing gay men and falling into delusions than it did for me to be transmasc, because being transmasc seemed like hardly even a thing while the problem of these “fujoshis” seemed like something huge.
But yes. Absolutely nothing to reclaim here. Only wanting to steal valour from trans women and be big huge transmisogynists by making trans women’s problems into our own, not talking about any actual problems transmascs actually have because we don’t have those kinds of problems because some dumbass on the internet says so. (/this whole paragraph is sarcasm)
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shiftythrifting · 4 months
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1. A giant elvis head, the picture doesn’t show the scale that we’ll but it’s HUGE
2. An ATM????
3. Green Day
All from a very strange shop in NH
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fuzzyghost · 3 months
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zestys-stuff · 11 months
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A bit of drunk Ralak i’ve drawn recently👌🏻 Quote belongs to @tiredmamaissy, check out her impeccable work❤️
Please accept my kind offer, thank you🙇🏻‍♀️
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trans-androgyne · 1 month
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Hi everyone, I’ve just created a community on Reddit to discuss transandrophobia. I don’t know about all of you but I really need to get off this site right now, but don’t want to stop talking about transmasc experiences. I figure it’ll help give us a fresh start and make it easier to keep TERFs and transandrophobes out. I’d love to have help filling it out a bit. It’s r/transandrophobia. Thank you.
Edit: I’d appreciate a reblog for visibility if you get a chance! Tysm <3
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spacelazarwolf · 1 year
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“ur just mad bc testosterone turned u into an ugly hairy bald fatty and not an anime twink”
i wonder why young impressionable trans ppl who want to go on t would be afraid of being hairy and bald and fat. i wonder if it’s maybe bc they’ve watched the queer community treat fat queer people in general, but particularly fat queer ppl who are hairy, bald, and/or not feminine, like absolute fucking shit. i wonder if it’s bc our society assigns morality to looks and fat hairy bald ppl get literally treated like predators simply because of the way they look. i wonder if it’s because they watched the rest of the queer community idolize and prioritize white thinness. i wonder if maybe, just maybe, there are deeply seated issues in the queer community that we might wanna address when they make themselves obvious instead of falling back on mocking individuals for the way they look.
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ATM Machine Outside Kmart, 10 W Lake St, Minneapolis (1978) via HCLIB
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thewarmvoid · 7 months
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The sooner everyone accepts that all trans people are always going to be Schrödingers gender, the better off we will all be. Transmascs and men are seen as women when it’s convenient and men when it serves others. Transfems are seen as women when it’s convenient and men when it serves others. Non-binary people are seen as trans when it’s convenient and “cis adjacent” when it serves others. Intersex trans people are seen as a strange deviant third sex when convenient and as quirky brainwashed cis people when it serves others. There is no box they won’t put us into to achieve their goals. The goal is to be right, regardless of how contradictory the path is that led them there. It doesn’t matter what you really are. They will see us as whatever they want that reinforces whatever narrative they’re trying to spin about us at the time. There is no such thing as transphobia, misgendering, degendering, ungendering that only one kind of trans person suffers from. We’re all Schrödingers transgender.
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lonestarflight · 3 months
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