#Ann rambles

[solreefs]

they love me for my enormous dark circles and unhinged stare

#i am. so sleep deprived. #it’s because i’d be too cool and sexy for this world otherwise so i had to get nerfed a little #Ann rambles

[emzular]

all of this billy attacked lucas billy attacked a kid he hit a kid-

no. watch it again.

billy came in, held lucas against a wall, told lucas to "stay away from her".

and then lucas kicked him in the nuts. lucas fought back, kicked billy, and billy staggered back. and then what did he do? did billy punch lucas? grab him again?

no.

"you are so dead sinclair," billy yells.

also side note; "he has a name now" billy says to max earlier in the series, yet here billy is using the kid's name. so billy clearly never had a problem with max knowing lucas' name, never thought of lucas as a second class citizen; he was just saying shit his dad woulda said, to try and get max to back off for both their sakes.

"so dead," says billy. but billy doesn't do shit. doesn't set up for a punch, doesn't get ready for a fight. he does fuck all.

because billy hargrove is the king of empty threats. "you know what happens when you lie," billy tells max in the car, when she says lucas is just a guy from school. he makes it seem like if she lies, there will be consequences. but in their next scene together, max is lying to billy about "mormons" being at the door, and billy knows she's lying, it's so obvious. and he doesn't do shit.

'you know what happens when you lie' - nothing. nothing happens when max lies.

because billy's threats are always empty.

because he's not his father. he's not abusive.

it's neil's threats that carry weight. neil threatens billy, and then hits him.

so when billy goes after max, and lucas, and holds lucas against a wall, threatens him; it's a warning. not to lucas, but to max. it's a warning that the next time it might not be him who comes after them. it might be neil. and if neil finds max with lucas, it'll be much worse. cos neil will start throwing punches. hell, if neil hargrove can hit his own son just for not knowing where his sister is, think about what neil would do to the black kid who's been helping max sneak out of the house.

billy's threats are empty. neil's aren't.

and when billy goes into that house and holds lucas against a wall, he wasn't there to beat up lucas, didn't want to go off on some kids. he just threw his weight around, grabbed lucas, to warn max that next time? next time it might be neil who comes looking for her.

and neil will start throwing punches at kids.

#billy hargrove #max mayfield #just analysing it #harringrove #ann rambles #im just so tired of the 'billy hit a kid' shit #he didnt do shit

[marriedchesters]

I'm doing my part 😌

#goncharov #Ann rambles #tumblr memes

[lightasthesun]

I need help. The decision making kind.

Context: I just moved. I wanna furnish and decorate my room with a green/orange theme.

For my walls I thought hey! You have enough blank canvases and acrylic paint how about you actually use them for a change???

Obviously I wanna make it star wars themed.

But I don't know what to draw 😭😭😭

I thought about the forests on kashyyyk just to fit the green theme but I don't actually have any kind of connection to that planet???

If anyone has any idea what I could paint that would be much much MUCH appreciated.

#ann rambles #i draw mostly abstract and surrealism so you can give me scenes or movies or whatever i will just adapt

[lewistan]

Let me start this by saying that I wanted to celebrate 1k but then things happened and time passed and suddenly we were at 1.5k and I hadn't gotten to it. So, a bit delayed but here we are. Such is life.

I genuinely don't know what to say except thank you. The fact that so many of you have somehow chosen to follow this mess of a blog is baffling to me, but I adore each and every one of you. I've been on this hell site for years and it hasn't always been great, but there have been moments and people throughout the course of my time here that have changed me (shoutout to my pocket friends -- you know who you are.) So, I've decided to celebrate you.

A few guidelines:

Since this is a follower celebration, you must be following me. Sorry to be a stickler on that point.

I'll choose three winners on August 13th (likes and reblogs of this post both count as entries, though I'll only enter your username into the drawing once to keep it fair to everyone.)

Prizes:

First place will receive 150 gifs and 10 dash icons of the fc of their choice*. Second place will receive 100 gifs and 5 dash icons of the fc of their choice*. Third place will receive 50 gifs and 5 dash icons of the fc of their choice*.

Disclaimers:

FCs chosen must be a fcoc and/or an underused fc. I will not create resources for fcs who have an abundance of resources readily available.

Turn around in prizes will be slow going but I promise they'll happen and I will keep the winners in the loop.

Anyway, thanks for being on this journey with me. I appreciate you all deeply.

#ann rambles #idk what to tag this as

[lovetorn]

fourth wing has morphed into my body it is a limb if you cut it off me i will bleed out and DIE

#sue me it was the best book i’ve read this year #ann rambles #fourth wing

[kaymegami]

no longer

my soul aches to no longer be lonely

to no longer reach with hands that are never held

to no longer race towards the light of a constellation,

only to fall into the dark gaps between

to no longer be a flower, blooming

only to find the sun has already set

my soul aches to be seen

to be watched as a sunset instead of a storm

to be the piano that reverent hands caress,

pulling gentle melody and sweet memory

to grow a canyon with a stream,

or a story with a word

my soul aches to no longer be lonely

#poetry #free verse #writing #creative writing #sad girl hours #my thoughts #my writing #ann rambles #uni is hard #lonliness #the human condition

[introvertedtater-tot]

commentary for (the first 10 chapters of) NoI~

*mild spoilers ahead for aru shah and the nectar of immortality*

kara, you're already tugging at my heartstrings, you poor thing (ch.1)

i can always depend on aru for comic relief (ch.2)

nvm and also aww brynne :((

"bb" why is that adorable (ch.3)

sheela and nikita my beloveds <333

nikita to the rescue with her magical-wardrobe-creating powers

aru, you best believe you're beautiful- (ch.4)

aiden, you silly goose, what are you dOING

and now they know

oof the passive-agressiveness (pop off, protective sisters)

not the gossiping guests, i see you, rosh

oof the passive-agressiveness pt.2

not the lord of the ring references (ch.7)

rudy is making a comebackkk but what's the deal with mini 👀

again with the feels why

rudy, you sweetheart, we missed you <333

also your soft spot for mini is showing

HA RUDY YOU ABSOLOUTE LEGEND (ch.8)

"tortured artist" NO

i wish i had a grain of rudy's confidence /lh

guards? potentially the vishakanyas??

brynne turning down a snack? unheard of, she needs food asap

ooh the drama

hitting us with the self-doubt

ahh the ✨sense of foreboding✨

"Sad Boi Rocks™" (ch.9)

ooh the drama *the sequel*

so it is the vishakanyas, this'll be interesting (ch.10)

after everything we learned in bio, i think mini is raising some very valid points

someone help mini and brynne D: what did they ever do to you

here we gooo

#the potatoes are backkkk #long post #aru shah #aru shah and the nectar of immortality #tpq #aru shah and the nectar of immortality spoilers #ann rambles

[h-anyi]

m severely distraught over the fact i do Not understand the aven love... in the way that i DO love how tragique he is, and yet, i cannot bring myself to love him like i do blade and ratio (and other charas lol) 😭😭😭

#doesn't help that im surrounded by aven lovers too... #like i get it fam i do #but... #i digress 😔😔😔😔 #ann rambles

[thedamnephilimfangirl]

Help I have exams but I cannot FOCUS

Somehow I have ended up planning the storyline of an idea I scrapped last year instead of studying for my exams which are FOUR DAYS AWAY and I know absolutely NOTHING

Why can my brain not shut up and leave me alone and actually focus for once in its short life?

#ann rambles #exams are the bane of my existence #the school system must be scrapped one of these days

[fullmetalboob]

tumblr bumble time to actually logon my desktop.

#ann rambles

[solreefs]

I love you people who rely on spellcheck and autocorrect I love you people who have a hard time typing I love you people with messy handwriting I love you people who make lots of typos I love you people who make lots of grammar errors I love you people whose fingers just won’t do what they want I love you people who write letters backwards I love you slow writing and typing I love you people who obsessively check everything they write or type for spelling or grammar mistakes even if it’s a post-it note or text message and not something important

#my texts when i’m tired do not look like a five year old wrote them (affirmations) #anyway yes i do in fact obsessively check every post for spelling errors because typing issues #you do not want to see an unedited post. trust me. #going to bed for real now! #Ann rambles #i love you meme

[emzular]

jason vs billy, some thoughts.

tldr: jason wanted to kill eddie in cold blood, vs billy who was only violent because violence and abuse are all he's ever known.

i'll start by saying that when it comes to 80s tropey high school bullies, jason fits the bill perfectly. he's the jock, the cool rich guy. he's what steve was meant to be in season one. jason is your basic, white, rich school jock bully.

billy's different. he's a metal head and he doesn't conform to the sleepy town aesthetic of hawkins at all. he struts in, double denim, thick boots, curly long hair, rock music blaring loud as fuck. billy hargrove instantly doesn't look like the jock bully stereotype. he's the metalhead outsider, the new kid. but he tries to fit into the jock mould all the same. he plays basketball, he goes to the parties, he flirts with all the women, he fights king steve to be the top dog. because that's how he survives. his dad abuses him, we know that, but if billy has 'friends' and sports and parties and a reputation as the popular guy to uphold, maybe his dad won't end him. so billy plays the bully. and it's easy because he was raised by one. it's easy to play that role.

then again, it's likely easy for jason to play his role too. his dad was probably the popular guy at school, and he grew up rich. well off. of course jason's going to be popular, of course he's going to be a jock. but where billy's trying to fit the mould, jason is the mould. you can see that billy's trying to fit in by the way he practises his smiles, and his lines in the mirror. he's trying to be this perfect image. whereas jason already is.

anyway, jason goes on a rampage across hawkins, starts accusing literal children of satanism and accuses eddie of being a cult leader, all because his girlfriend died. and while that's heartbreaking as fuck for jason, his girlfriend died and he went crazy. jason wanted to kill eddie and the hellfire club. the worst thing in jason's life is that his girlfriend was hanging around with a potential satanist, and he decided he wanted to commit murder.

the worst thing in billy's life? pick one. he's abused by his dad, controlled by his dad, forced to live under his dad's strict rules; and then he's captured by the mind flayer, abused and used and controlled by the mind flayer until billy literally kills himself because it's the only way out. billy never wanted to kill anyone - yes in season 2 he makes comments, says he'll kill them, but he wouldn't. he's a seventeen year old angry hurt boy, and he's lashing out. he wanted to hurt, but that's because he was being hurt. he wanted the easy life he thought king steve had, he wanted the friends that max had, he wanted what everyone else had. but he never wanted to kill anyone, even if he said it. you can see his threats were just an excuse to throw fists (because fists is all he knows, from his father). he never started a witch hunt:

that was jason.

so tell me how the rich, easy life jock boy jason is better than the poor abused and tortured new kid? tell me why billy deserves to be vilified and called the worst villain in the show, when all of his actions stem to the fact that his father beats him up? jason became unhinged so fucking fast, because his perfect life and his perfect girlfriend was taken from him.

jason fought lucas in the end, literally encouraged the witch hunt of a group of kids. he was not going to stop. he did to lucas exactly what billy did in season two. but where jason is somehow "understandable" in his actions because his girlfriend died, billy isn't? billy found his thirteen year old sister in a strangers house with a bunch of boys, one of them being his own age; tell me he's not got a reason to be angry.

and hey: jason wanted eddie to die. he wanted to fight him and to kill him. jason wound up the entire town, and got a bunch of his friends together, convinced them to tag along in his murderous quest. jason was willing to commit murder.

billy never would've taken it that far. he got close, in season 2 with the fight at the end, but he's not a murderer. he didn't go there intending to kill steve, or lucas. he went there (weaponless) to get his kid sister back home. unlike jason, who went to the house in season 4 with the intention to kill.

billy was just looking for his sister, and found steve, an eighteen year old guy, with his thirteen year old sister. of course he fought. but jason? jason went after eddie with the intention to harm.

look at jason and his gang in season 4, vs billy and his in season 3.

jason rounded up a gang, got weapons, and was ready to kill eddie. billy was being mind controlled and abused the entire time. he didn't have any part to play in the villainy of season 3. but jason? in season 4? that was all him.

it reeks of classism, you know? going crazy/bloodthirsty for love vs finding your kid sister in the middle of the night with an adult male is not the same motive: one has privilege, the other does not. and also, jason does what he does by choice. billy never had a choice, he’s abused and mind controlled. jason chose and had the freedom to turn on eddie and to spread hate against him. billy was being told what to do by his father and then the mind flayer. billy was not acting of his own wishes. but jason was.

at the root of jason, is someone willing to kill.

at the root of billy, is someone willing to be killed.

and saying billy is worse than jason, saying billy is worse than someone who wanted to kill someone is saying that anyone who's trauma comes out in a way that isn't deemed "perfect" or "normal" is a villain. anyone who doesn't "fit the mould" of society like jason does, is a monster, and deserves to die.

#stranger things #billy hargrove #not talking about the racial side of it because i've made three essays about that already #ann rambles #i hope that the actors one day realise this #cos saying all this shit about billy really only perpetuates the stereotype that abuse victims go on to be abusers #saying billy is worse than jason #who wanted to literally murder someone #is barbaric. #i wont sit here and say that a character isnt racist if a poc thinks they are #but i hope that this reaches people because racist or not billy is not worse than a literal wannabe murderer. #im sorry #he's just not #harringrove #added bits. #classism innit

[marriedchesters]

who knew Hannibal invented the phrase "let him cook"

#this is a joke please don't take this seriously #hannibal #Ann rambles

[lightasthesun]

I asked the cute flight attendant for his number AND HE GAVE IT TO ME?! I may have girlbossed too close to the sun!!

#asking someone out #listen we're in different countries now but still!! #what do i text #do i ask how are u or what's up or or or #HELP?!! #hes too good-looking for me i didn't think id actually GET HIS NUMBER #fuck #yay me #am proud of myself for going for it too #dating #real life stories #ann rambles #wtf do i tag this so you guys see it and reply #in need of advice #send help

[lewistan]

My Binx died quite suddenly and unexpectedly last night, and I don’t think I’ll ever be okay again.

#binx tag #ann rambles