#Ania I love you forever

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the bird eater - ania ahlborn sentence starters change tenses/pronouns as needed !!  some lines have been edited for clarity / length / ease of roleplaying tw ; death , language , mental health

‘I don’t understand this, I don’t understand.’

‘old ghosts are just as important as new ones.’

‘don’t go back there. you’ll find nothing but demons.’

‘I don’t like the idea of sleeping in there.’

‘I need pancakes. my mental health hangs in the balance.’

‘rumor has it you’re supposed to be dead.’

‘nobody comes back here once they leave. it would be like breaking into prison.’

‘you had to lie to yourself to get over it. to get over him.’

‘you’re lucky to be alive.’

‘that house is haunted.’

‘just because you don’t believe in something doesn’t mean it isn’t real.’

‘I can see it in your face. something happened out there and now you’re putting it together. the wheels are turning.’

‘I don’t think you should call me anymore.’

‘I just got scared. I needed to tell you.’

‘I can’t do this anymore. I can’t live like this, okay?’

‘you always did believe in the weirdest shit.’

‘what are you trying to do, scare the hell out of me?’

‘don’t isolate yourself out here.’

‘okay, now I’m really concerned.’

‘look, I get we haven’t seen each other in forever, but you really think I don’t know? something is definitely up.’

‘I know that sounded like a suggestion, but it actually isn’t up for debate.’

‘i’ve been having nightmares.’

‘nobody comes out here for happily ever after. this town is a ghost.’

‘if I don’t say this, I’ll regret it for the rest of my life.’

‘when you disappeared, everything sort of fell apart for me. it was as though you had taken a piece of me with you wherever you had gone.’

‘I always regretted not having a chance to tell you how I felt.’

‘what if insanity is just a heightened sense of perception?’

‘I can’t cope, and she can’t watch me fall.’

‘I can’t be like this. I can’t stay like this. I feel like I’m dying all over again. I just want things to be okay again.’

‘I just want things to be okay again,’

‘I have always loved you. my heart has always been yours.’

‘you want to drown in your sorrows out here, all by yourself?’

‘do you regret it? today, what we did?’

‘I refuse to lose you again, do you understand?’

‘you want me to tell you what’s happening? i’m seeing things, that’s what’s happening.’

‘once a ghost, always a ghost.’

‘I don’t think I should be here anymore.’

‘are you going to let me in? or are you going to make me stand outside while you make stupid jokes all night?’

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[viornefni]

You're in my head

I had plans for the weekend

But wound up with you instead

Back here again

Got me deep in my feelings

When i should be in your bed

You and i go back to like '09 it's like forever

And you were there my lonely nights, yeah, keeping me together

So wouldn't it make sense if I was yours and you could call me your baby

But we say we're just, say we're just

Friends

Just for now

Yeah but friends don't say words that

Make friends feel like more than just

Friends

Just for now

Now I'm over pretending

So let's put the "end" in friends

Friends

Just for now

Yeah but friends don't say words that

Make friends feel like more than just

Friends are not supposed to get too close

And feel emotions that we're feeling now, now, now

We ain't slowing down, down, down

But once we cross the line, there's no denying you and I can never turn around, round, round

Know we'll never be the same

You and I go back to like '09 it's like forever

And you were there my lonely nights, yeah, keeping me together

So wouldn't it make sense if I was yours and you could call me your baby

But we say we're just, say we're just

Friends

Just for now

Yeah but friends don't say words that

Make friends feel like more than just

Friends

Just for now

Now I'm over pretending

So let's put the "end" in friends

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"It is not an issue of having grown tired of my position, or anything of the sort...though it would likely be a lie if I were to say that I were not feeling somewhat drained."

There's a small hum, and Sivel finally lifts his gaze from the mage pools to regard Ranadi and Alsina, who had eventually begun with a steady (albeit nervous) stream of questions. Why he had brought this up. When he had begun to think about it seriously. Would it be temporary, or permanent? Who would replace him, and what he would be doing, instead?

...What had happened to make him want to abdicate in the first place?

"I love Vasyri...I do. And I love my people just as deeply. But over these past few years, I have come to wonder if, perhaps, I have done all that I am able to for them. Vasyri deserves someone with a fresh outlook on things. Someone who does not look at potential alliances and associations that could benefit us, or end up overly focused on how things might go wrong. Someone that does not feel compelled toward the need to do things on our own, even if we do have allies, so as not to potentially open ourselves up to further threats."

"I think about my home, and I think of what I need to do so as to not fail them again. How I do not think I could stand to see any of my people suffer as they did in the past. And no matter whether I realize that or not, I am never able to shake myself from being almost as overprotective of them as I am of all of you. Of my family..."

"That makes any growth or evolution difficult, if not outright impossible. I know that, and yet...I find that, more and more, I am unable to justify the risks necessary to see much worthwhile change take place. So...while I do not necessarily believe myself to be a poor leader, I feel as though things have grown to be stagnant."

"And all of that is without mentioning the ire that so many outside of Vasyri view me with. I worry that, as long as I am Luminary, the stigma attached to myself and my deeds will continue to weigh Vasyri as a whole down, as well."

He talks through everything in a soft, even tone. It's obvious to both Ranadi and Alsina that this is something he had put a good deal of thought into, since a year or two ago, when he had commented half-jokingly about it to the pair of them.

"Besides...I miss it. How things used to be, when we were younger. Being able to go wherever we fancied at a moment's notice. Exploring and experiencing things with our claim-- something that I have never had the opportunity to do with Ania or Cyrus even once. It feels like, by becoming Luminary, I somehow came to believe that I had to give up so much of myself that, even in my earlier years of ruling, I would never have imagined doing. As if I gave up a part of my culture, pieces of who I am, moments with my loved ones...I look at the person I have become on occasion, and oftentimes, I do not like what I see. What I turned myself into, simply because I thought it was for the best of everyone involved. Because I thought that people would be more impressed, or more intimidated."

"...I do not intend to leave Vasyri forever, nor is this something I intend to rush. I want to be sure that whoever I pass this title onto, they are going to be the right fit. I still want to be around here and there to offer my support and assistance, and to teach people where I can-- both the new Luminary, and whoever else may want to learn from me. And when I'm not doing that, I think I would like to start by going along with Ania, Cyrus, and Sivan on one of their expeditions. After that, maybe I will take them on a trip to some of the spots that mother and father used to bring us when we were younger, with Naya and Nesimah...perhaps Quella. Both of you as well, if it is something you would be open to? It would hardly be the same, otherwise."

"Going back to my abdication, however. As I said, it is not something I intend to rush. I...am coming closer and closer to the conclusion that it is simply my time to take a step back, is all."

#[Sivel -drabble-] #Just figured I'd put the full explanation here #tl;dr? He feels like he doesn't have that much to offer Vasyri anymore #because he can't let go of the things he experienced back before he was killed #and he also feels like he's lost a lot of himself since becoming Luminary...or had to cover a lot of things up to make himself more #'appealing' #so yeah! that's why he wants to step down #he has a few others that he wants to talk to about it #Quella Nesimah and Naya for one group #and then Ania Cyrus and Sivan for the other #but after that he'll probably be starting to talk to the people he views as potential candidates to become his successor #so he can decide who he (and the others) feel would be best and start training them

[itsmaferart]

My Crazy SxF End Theories

If I had to bow to an end, I think I'd rather the idea than behind the possible war. There are one or more background plans that include the Apple project, and perhaps Desmond. But especially, for the connection there may be in the origins of Anya and Bond. Perhaps as "possible weapons of war" - Anya reads the mind and Bond predicts the future, they are two key elements for an "information war." In addition Anya the link to see the future to read the mind of the oracle dog

This is a threat that would affect both nations, the world, WISE, the SSS, and Garden. Which for me will denote the revelation of identities.

In this world, Twilight may lose Anya to its own. Perhaps, similar to the "Bond Arch," Anya gets involved in the conflict by going to rescue her parents, but ends up being kidnapped and Bond next to her.

At this point in the manga, we are unaware of Garden's true posture. Here I see two possibilities:

Garden supports the war and the purposes of someone superior. These same consider Twilight an enemy, which, quite possibly end up incriminating acts that he obviously did not commit, but is part of Ostania's smear campaigns. Here our deadly and beautiful killer must make a decision, upon discovering the identity of her false husband. Loid Forger doesn't exist, and Ania isn't his daughter. Yor will surely be in emotional conflict, where she believes she must kill Twilight for her country, and the pain of having believed that Loid Forger was a good man. However, she will not feel able to kill him because your feelings were always genuine, and what you both have experienced feels "real."

Garden's killers are against the war. They decide to destroy those behind the war because it does not fit their objectives, and consider them "traitors of the Fatherland." Here, Yor suffers from the same dilemma, with the difference that he does not see Twilight as a direct enemy. She will continue to doubt "that it was real and not" in their relationship. But at the same time, both have been used in mutual agreement.

In both scenarios, Yor is key.

In that case, I think on both lines. Yor will understand that Twilight is not the enemy, and that in the midst of so many lies, what both feel (Love/sense of family) is real. So they both reconciled to go save Ania. Whether your two respective associations are in favor or find

In such a case, at this point, Yuri himself may also discover the identity of the spy so wanted, Twilight. And he becomes obsessed with capturing him, seeing him not only under the eyes of the "SSS," as "the worst enemy in the country," but as the subject who "deceived and manipulated his sister." In such a case, Yor may end up confessing to her real job or Yuri will find out. The Briar's older sister may make her brother see that Twilight is not the monster of history, or in such a case, he deserts, for above his country is his sister. Who happens to be a hit woman. I feel Yuri will be in the middle as "enemy and possible ally" but for the love of Yor

I think Twilight is the one who can go through the worst, as he faces his big fears.

Let a Second War Happen Again

Losing your family for the second time

But, especially, realizing that he was "deceived" all this time. Finding out that Ania all the time knew that he was a spy, that from the beginning he was using her and yet she was happy being at his side and being his daughter. And like this little one, she accepted the enormous weight of a mission with the illusion that they would stay together forever

Although from the beginning it was clear that he would abandon her

Also, realizing that Yor was a Garden killer all this time and he never realized it. That might make him feel that he was "betrayed" and "used," but, like Yor, both were paid with the same coin.

I don't know how the characters of Franky, Nightfall and Handler. I suppose it will depend on their individual development. But I am inclined to the idea that he must overcome his false family, take action with the mission, or in such case, be a direct enemy of the potential weapon, Ania and the enemy, Yor Briar. Although Franky may be the only one of the three to end up supporting the Folgers

But, again, circumstances may cause Twilight to enter a kind of "epiphany." Where he finally fully understands what he wants, and what he really cares about. I don't know if Endo plans a conclusion regarding the mystery of Twilight's father and his uncertain whereabouts. It may turn out when we least expect it, or if it is a "trigger" for Twilight to decide to stay with his family

A world where "children can smile," but this world cannot exist if it cannot protect the happiness of Ania and Yor.

It is here that I believe that Twilight and Yor, together, with one or another possible ally, end up in search of Ania and her rescue and thereby end up with those enemies who attack the peace of the world and the false Forger family.

Twilight loves his family, and this time he won't let a war take his away

I think the last details would already correspond to the climax of the Forger family saving both nations. Building a new path for peace, where it is not based on lies, or political strategies of defamation. But, be it through the truth

So Twilight finally decides to propose to Yor a second time and they both stay with Ania as their parents and protectors.

And in the end, knowing his real name, and adopting the Forger surname as an official

If we're lucky, maybe we'll get the luxury of watching Twilight and Yor's wedding.

#twiyor #yor forger #spy x family #loid forger #twilight #yor briar #anya forger #loid x yor #sxf #spyxfamily twilight #loidyor #yorloid #spyxfamily theories

[emiliosandozsequence]

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currently reading: the sparrow by mary doria russell (annotating, but like....i haven't gotten past where they first meet the runa bc that's where it starts to make me batshit); 86: run through the battlefront by asato asato (second book in the light novel series that the anime is based on); brother by ania alhborn (this was inspired by the movie chained for anyone who loves that 👀; this is taking me forever to read tho bc it keeps triggering me rip); dune by frank herbert (i wanted to reread before the next movie comes out because i didn't do that before the first one came out); gideon the ninth by tamsyn muir (also rereading this series before the last book comes out in september).

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currently working on: several things rip 1) finishing what i'm reading, which is taking me way too much time due to depression 2) watching something new every day my fiancee works 3) sparrow – the novel i've been working on for the past year (also taking me way too long bc of depression) 4) elfen lied – the manga i'm presently reading 5) love death + robots – the tv show i'm currently watching (i've only watched one ep rip)

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[plantdad-dante]

Book #113 - Spellhacker by M. K. England

(oh why did you need to disappoint me. why are you bad.)

I wrote out a rant about this one. Not gonna post it, because it's mainly just about how the main character is an awful person engaging in zero self-reflection and like... hey, I got that fit into a single sentence. What a marvel the English language can be.

I don't want to rant again. I'm tired.

Instead, this is going to be about all the things I liked about this book, because there were... some. Mostly small ones, but that's okay, too. Overall, just keep in mind that this book is told in first person present by a very annoying, self-absorbed character who exhibits serious trauma and mental health problems that are never acknowledged as such and in the end just get "resolved" when Miss Protagonist vows to "try".

Anyway.

When I picked this book up, I expected from the blurb that it was going to mainly be about crime and heists, and while it had that, I was surprised to also find a plot all around corporate-caused, man-made environmental disaster. It might be quite a simplified and slightly childish take on it, but the problems caused by the antagonists here do map quite well onto real-world problems caused, for instance, by fracking. And I liked watching a diverse group of friends take on a company in this way and winning. It felt good.

The magic system is a nice and interesting take that maps very well onto the sci-fi setting. I especially like the ways the magic integrates with technology, for example with the concept of "techwitches". Technifying magic would be very in character for humanity, I think.

I liked the friends, as incoherent as their characterization could sometimes be. Have I learned much about Ania or Jaesin or Remi? No. Do I still like the idea of them? Yes, yes I do. Remi especially just seems like a very chill, yet headstrong person that would have made a great main character. And yet...

It makes me sad that they ended up with Dizzy (main girl). Their relationship is going to descend into toxicity within a month and Remi doesn't deserve that. The healthy decision would have been to encourage Diz to go to therapy and then keep their distance while she gets better on her own for a while. And then a few years down the line, they could have met up again and checked if the spark was still there. But the way it went... yeah, no, this will end a trash fire.

I loved the professor and his husband, though. How do I still get emotional reading words like "his husband"? Old married people who are still so tender and loving with each other... they have been married for forever and you can just see that every day of that forever was spent thoroughly besotted with each other... It just melts my heart.

That's it. Hated the rest. Bye.

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[thelastconfessor]

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274 notes - Posted January 21, 2022

#4

alexiaputellas I don't know how to start writing these lines. I look at the photo and I see how quickly everything can change in a support or a second but the first thing that this situation has confirmed for me is the real and pure love I feel for this sport. I could blame it on why now, why a day away from the start of the European Championship that I have been looking forward to and working for so long, but I don't. I feel I have been privileged for so long. I feel I have been privileged for a long time. I can only be grateful for all that daily happiness that is so difficult for anyone to achieve. I realised it a long time ago and I can say that I enjoyed it all the way until today.

Now a new stage is beginning. For as long as I can remember, I have never gone more than 5 days without touching a ball, training or competing. It was and is my passion and this process will be a challenge but I hope to recover, get back on track and finish what I started.

Without a doubt, I will be one more fan for a while and I will live, shout and vibrate every moments from the stands.

Teammates, I am with you and with full confidence. I know what you are capable of doing every day and how powerful you are. Believe it and go for it 😉.

I absolutely appreciate all the messages and details I have received. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

See you soon.

Best regards,

Alexia ⚽️❤️🩹

279 notes - Posted July 6, 2022

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@FCBfemeni 🗣 @alexiaputellas to her teammates:

"𝖨 𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝗄𝗇𝗈𝗐 𝗂𝖿 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅 𝗂𝗍, 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝖨 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗐𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗐𝖾 𝗁𝖺𝗏𝖾 𝗁𝖾𝗋𝖾 𝗂𝗌 𝗌𝗉𝖾𝖼𝗂𝖺𝗅. 𝖠𝗇𝖽 𝖨 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗄 𝗂𝗍'𝗌 𝖺𝗅𝗌𝗈 𝗐𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗌𝖾𝗍𝗌 𝗎𝗌 𝖺𝗉𝖺𝗋𝗍 𝖿𝗋𝗈𝗆 𝗈𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝖾𝖺𝗆𝗌, 𝗌𝗈 𝗅𝖾𝗍'𝗌 𝗉𝗋𝗈𝗍𝖾𝖼𝗍 𝖾𝖺𝖼𝗁 𝗈𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋, 𝗅𝖾𝗍'𝗌 𝗄𝖾𝖾𝗉 𝗐𝗈𝗋𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀, 𝗆𝖾 𝗋𝖾𝖼𝗈𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗂𝗇𝗀, 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗆𝖺𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗎𝗌 𝖾𝗇𝗃𝗈𝗒 𝖻𝖾𝖼𝖺𝗎𝗌𝖾 𝗇𝗈𝗐 𝖨 𝖺𝗆 "𝗎𝗉 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋𝖾" 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗐𝖾 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝗅𝖾𝗌𝗌. 𝖣𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝗐𝗈𝗋𝗋𝗒, 𝖻𝖾𝖼𝖺𝗎𝗌𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗋𝗍 𝗐𝗈𝗋𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝗀𝗈𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗈 𝖾𝗇𝗃𝗈𝗒 𝗂𝗍 𝖺 𝗅𝗈𝗍 𝖺𝗀𝖺𝗂𝗇. 𝖨 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖺 𝗅𝗈𝗍."

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#2022 year in review #so my best posts are all alexia. Not surprised. Apparently the queen of my blog lol

[moontherapy]

Let it matter.

Let's go from the beginning.

Parents, you did what you could I understand. But you royally fucked me up. I have such trauma, such people pleasing tendencies, I'm so shit with money, I crave love and to feel amazing, because I never got that from you. I felt like a burden for so long, and only felt important when you needed me, that was the only time I felt you cared. It's been tough living with dad's heart attack. I'm so overprotective. Mama, I love you, but you can be the worst mother. The comments, the hurt, the shitty parenting, the verbal abuse, the things you use against me. I'm so troubled because of you. I'm happy I have dealt with alot of my shit in therapy and writing, but you have affected me so much. Suicide attempts because of you, my weed to relax to deal with you, my need to make everyone happy. I didn't feel like you loved me, because you were always so mad about everything. We aren't you. Just because you did it. Doesn't mean we want too. Back off and enjoy life. Learn from tatos life. He almost left us. And you are such a fucking asshole to him. I wish you divorced. At least one of you would be free. And that's something else you both taught me. I won't take mama's bullshit from ANY man. I'm worth more than that, and dad is too. I'm also a fixer, due to my childhood. I only felt valid when I helped people.... thanks.

Ania. I've been a shit sister for along time. Just never wanting to let you in, and I'm sorry. You are amazing and seeing you in life, accomplished, I'm so.. jealous. I want your life. I wish I took after you and your savings, and how good you are with money. Let alone, a friend. You are always here for me. And I know I tell you here and there. But you've proven that time and time again. I love you beyond words.

Elementary school was a joke. I felt so outside, I didn't get to have those friendships. I don't know why. I mean, I was bigger. That's the only thing I can think of...

Jason. I was a fucking devil. And I'm so fucking sorry. It still sucked that you cheated on me kinda... I know it was obviously the right decision, qnd I'm so happy you found love qnd had a kid. I'm so happy. It hurt dude. I felt so betrayed you were my first.... I was head over heels for you, handsome soccer player. Who wouldn't be. I'm grateful for you for being an amazing first. Even though I wasn't.

Bryan. I didn't love you. I wish I did. It hurts now looking back to what I did to you. I know you loved me. You were my plan b. I was a horrible person to you. I never thought I could do better, I honestly would've been an even worse gf and wife to you.

Kerry. Oh, this is a novel. I can't believe everything that happened, happened. I'm happy it all happened, I'm in a better place now. But I felt so betrayed. Lied too. Abused, tormented, traumatized. Unlovable. Unworthy. Disgusting. Ugly. Unpretty. You did a number on me. But I also allowed myself to get to that point. I didn't know better. I settled with feeling that way, letting myself get to the size I was. And sticking by you. I felt so taken advantage of.... so broken. You denied me the truth, I was begging for it. Begging for the bare minimum. Any human shouldn't have let it get to that point. But yiu didnt know better. You were given so many options on how to get this to work. I let myself open up, be vulnerable, open our relationship, there was nothing that could've been fixed and I wish you let me in on that. It was super rough...

Raffi- I loved you, as q human as a friend, as someone I could have in my life forever. I don't know if I could've married you. I shouldn't have let it get as long as it did. But the things I learned from you, the confidence. The beauty in taking a break. Living in the moment. The sex. The selfishness I got to feel. The love for weed I found. You are the most beautiful man I've met. I wish it ended differently. But you opened my world to a new view. And for that forever grateful. I'm indebted to you. I felt so beautiful. Loved. Heard. Seen. Soothed. I felt safe. I felt vulnerable and it was okay. I felt courageous. I also felt... like I had to love you. How could I not with someone like you? I was taken care of, in every way. But I felt like something was missing, the drive to work. The car. Unfortunately it made a difference to me.

Roger- I was blessed to meet you. You opened my eyes even further to what life is about. I felt so happy, whatever we did. I felt like I needed to love you, to fix you. To help you in life. I fix people and you and the others were apart of that. I felt so gorgeous around you, so beautiful, so sexy. So loveable, so happy, so addicted. Walking away from you, was something I had to do. You didn't want what I wanted, and that's okay. You helped me feel such amazing things during our course together.

I'm a fixer- I like to fix people. And it's a problem. It's my need to help others because it's the only time igot attention, or felt loved. When I saved the day. I have a hero concept. I've always felt more than others back to me. I love harder. I fall faster. No more rushing just. Get to know them, see how they are. You deserve happiness. All the above you've been through. You've learned all these lessons. You've gone through the feelings, now it's time to let it matter, release and begin q new. With loving yourself as much as you love others.

[oceanics]

—ANIA’S NEW YEAR’S FOLLOW FOREVER—

a — c

@annabetths  ☆  @aredhels  ☆  @brekkers  ☆  @carstairsjames  ☆   @ceseilannister  

d — f

@darnelcress  ☆  @dayneashara  ☆  @dearemma  ☆  @dralington  ☆  @elizera  ☆  @farleydiana

g — j

@graecian  ☆  @hermionegrangcr  ☆  @hhelnik  ☆  @housecalore  ☆  @howls  ☆  @ilysansa ☆  @jynerso

k — p

@kuweiyulbo  ☆  @ladyeowyn  ☆  @lilabard  ☆  @mercyzhaos  ☆  @montesere  ☆  @padmeskywalkers  ☆  @parkinsonpansy

q — s

@safifonhasstrel   ☆  @safingenyas   ☆  @samosevangeline   ☆  @santacalores  ☆  @starkovalina  ☆  @starkrobb  ☆ @swainlake   

t — z

@talkngfishbone  ☆  @wesper  ☆  @yelennabelova  ☆  @zenikninas  ☆  @zoyalinas

#this is by no means a list of everyone i follow or every mutual #it's more of a mini-follow forever #of my ultimate faves #but i love so many more people that i probably didn't add here! you are all lovely :( #follow forever #ania speaks #(words? idk them owo)

[wordsablaze]

6/13 - matching scars

A Dozen Denials Soulmate-identifiers exist to make things easier unless you’re Jaskier, who’s equally as deep in love as he is in denial. But there’s only so many excuses you can make to avoid the truth… (aka jaskier’s soulmate is definitely a witcher, just not the one he first assumes)

A/N: of course my first witcher-related writing of the year is jaskier being a lovesick fool...

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Jaskier grew up clumsy.

He was careless in his adventures and thoughtless in his quests and he very rarely stopped to try and avoid landing himself in danger.

And yet, he seemed to have luck on his side. For all the mess he made and clothes he ripped, he very rarely broke skin or bled. If he did, it was only ever superficial, small grazes or cuts that healed before he could get in much trouble for displaying them - the bruises he gained were rarely even noticed by his parents for the maids would cover them up with longer sleeves or darker fabric colours in fear of punishment.

Unfortunately, luck could do very little in the face of Destiny.

It didn’t take long for someone to notice the faint lines that shone on his skin, seemingly under his skin really, where there was no reason for him to have scars. It didn’t take long at all, for infants rarely wielded the weapons needed to create even one wound, never mind the sheer amount that Jaskier seemed to wear right from when he was born.

“Oh, you poor dear,” a healer murmurs as she looks over the silvery marks on Jaskier’s back. He’s none the wiser, babbling at her with a grin on his tiny face and a sparkle in his eyes.

A sparkle that his mother’s eyes do not share as she frowns down at her child. “What’s wrong with him?”

The healer, Ania, shakes her head as she lets Jaskier, who is still Julian, curl his fingers around her thumb. “Nothing. He is destined to someone with a dangerous profession, that’s all.”

His mother just sighs, pinching the bridge of her nose.

Years later, she’s doing the same thing, an older but still young Julian perched on his bed as the same healer cups his face in her hand, frowning at the silvery ghosts of scars running all the way down one side of his face.

“Do you have to make them go away? They look so beautiful!” Julian protests as a potion is placed in his hands.

His mother glares at him. “We cannot have an heir running around the place with imperfections, Julian!”

Ania winces at her words but says nothing as Julian folds his arms. He looks up at her with hope in his oddly bright eyes. “Please don’t make me! I like them,” he whispers, desperate.

“Julian, enough! You will drink the potion and I won’t hear another word from you!” His mother orders, waiting until Julian swallows down said potion before leaving the room, ignoring the way his shoulders slump in bitter resignation.

“I’m sorry,” Ania murmurs, “but it’s best not to argue with your parents on this.”

“I hate them,” Julian mutters angrily, his chin wobbling. “I hate them and I don’t want to pretend I don’t have an other half!”

Ania brushes a tear from his eye and offers him a smile. “They’re not totally gone, you know. There are no ingredients that can hide Destiny away forever.”

Julian bites his lip, eventually frowning as he registers her words. “You’re helping me?”

She winks. “I might be knowledgeable but even I can’t heal what hasn’t been broken.”

But Julian shakes his head, sliding off the bed and making his way to the door, but not before turning back to look at her again. “I’m im- imperfect, of course I’m broken. That’s why I’m here, isn’t it?”

Ania’s heart breaks for this child who should be excited about his destiny but is instead worried that he needs to be fixed in order to please his family, a family that he hates. She wants to tell him that his marks are normal but even she can’t deny that they’re not and she finds herself lacking the right words.

“Thank you,” Julian whispers, neither of them quite sure what he’s meant to be grateful for when it’s clear he’s decided she’s not helping him after all, before he leaves and she’s left in his empty room with an empty vial.

Decades later, Jaskier is once again thanking a healer, a different one in a different town and not for himself this time but on behalf of Geralt, who doesn’t always use his words at the best of times, never mind after nearly dying at the hands of a basilisk.

“That one’s going to scar, I’m afraid,” the healer tells him.

Jaskier just smiles. “That’s okay, better a scarred muse than no muse at all.”

The healer laughs, shaking his head in amusement before handing Jaskier a salve. “I know you said he heals fast but he’ll need more of this applied to the wound before you leave. You’re welcome to rest here but I’m needed elsewhere.”

Glancing over Geralt with a small smile, Jaskier takes the salve. “Thank you, that’s very kind of you. We won’t forget it, I swear.”

The healer nods in satisfaction and once he’s gone, Jaskier hesitates only a moment before walking over to the mirror and turning his back to it, craning his neck so he can inspect his skin and not exactly surprised when there’s nothing to match where Geralt’s wound was. To be fair though, there’s really nothing at all on his skin.

He sighs, settling into one of the chairs beside Geralt’s bed and letting his head fall into his hands.

It’s not that he doesn’t remember Geralt reluctantly telling him about the witcher trials and how they interfere with anything magic-related as a way to stop him from asking after the scars Jaskier often seems to be missing, the problem is that he also remembers the Pankratz family healer telling him how there are no ingredients that can hide destiny away forever.

“I guess you were wrong, Ania, because it’s been forever and here I am with only my own scars to show,” Jaskier mutters to himself, sighing.

He misses the patterns on his skin that he’d trace in the dead of night, staying awake so he could marvel at them under the light of the moon; he misses making up all sorts of impossible stories about what his other half is doing to end up with such wounds at all; and he misses knowing that even though his soulmate might be injured, they’re still alive and out there, with him vicariously adventuring through the scars they share.

Just as he’s wishing he could remember exactly where all the silvery marks he used to have were, Geralt stirs and Jaskier’s head snaps up, only to drop back down when he sees the witcher is still asleep, just getting comfortable.

“I probably shouldn’t spend all night thinking about Destiny when you’re going to suggest travelling as soon as you’re awake,” Jaskier sighs, not caring that Geralt couldn’t listen even if he wanted to, unconscious as he is.

After a moment, he leans against the wall behind him and curls up on the chair, letting his eyes travel over the scars of Geralt’s that he can see and sleepily tracing where they would be on his own skin, smiling at the thought of another lifetime in which he can see the marks they share instead of having lost the chance to match with his other half due to mutations and magic and messy childhoods.

(little did he know he was yet to find that chance in the first place.)

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i actually adore this trope so writing it was both fun and immensely frustrating but hey we’re halfway through jaskier’s obliviousness now so yay for that :)

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[slavicafire]

so recently i found out my grandma is first gen polish. she’s the only person i have to ask abt it since her family disowned her for marrying my black grandpa—she also lives across the country. i want to start getting into polish folk practices, ancestor worship, and maybe slavic paganism, but im worried that my ancestors wont like me very much. im a lesbian hellenic of color, theres a lot that most probably wouldnt be a big fan of. do you have any advice on how to approach my polish ancestors?

I hope this journey of exploring your roots will be a thrilling one! I’m here whenever you want to ask anything. 

now, there is no reason to assume your ancestors will inherently not accept you - neither when it comes to the colour of your skin, your sexuality or identity, or any other path in life that you follow. as with every family - alive or not - there will be those who won’t accept you just because they’re assholes, such as those who dared disown your grandmother: and to them we say sleep tight and fuck you too. I mean it - if you approach ancestral veneration with love and care in your heart, all the assholes are automatically excluded from it. 

they don’t deserve your attention or prayer, and you are in no way obligated to accept them. we all have relatives - dead or alive - who don’t accept us. I’m sure some of my ancestors are less than happy simply because I love girls, I’m progressive, and because I’m not catholic - but that’s their problem, not mine. if they do not desire to be included in the prayer from their alive blood, it’s their loss. more bread for the fun aunts. 

the only ancestors who will be truly celebrated will be those who would - who do - love you, in their own countless ways. because our heritage spans across centuries - and across many lands and cultures - and there will always be souls whose lives led to ours who adore us, who dreamt of living as we do, who were more like us than we can ever imagine. 

and death, I believe, is quite a big event - it changes everything and ties us to this big, neverending and scary cycle. quite often with ancestral veneration, you are not celebrating particular people as they were when they were alive - often it’s not exactly Uncle Pete or Granny Ania that you include in your practice and celebration - but rather the lives across many centuries that led to yours. souls that walked this earth - maybe more than once - and who contributed to you being born, directly or not. by blood - or not. souls who might still carry the likeness and character of their mortal bodies - but those who might not, too, not anymore. 

there is so much we do not know, and ancestral veneration allows us to celebrate all those who passed yet led to us being born - and through this, the grand mystery of life and death, and our own existence. 

approach them with an open heart - and no apologies. approach them with a prayer and an offering but demand respect in return - you have a right to it. feel no fear or shame or worry - those who love you will always be there for you, and will be forever grateful for your prayer. 

good luck, dearest stranger, and I hope this path will be thrilling. 

#of course this is not to say ancestral veneration cannot be very personal and particular #it can be celebrating precisely THE people in your family that you know or remember #but more often than not it's not only about these particular couple of people #Anonymous

[bluekaddis]

You almost mentioned Cullen as the best written character, but tbh he is written quite bad, his abuse and hate is never confronted in Inquisition and he is made victim by narrative, while he was the very problem why Chantry sucks. Even his fans admit that. He is mostly liked because of romance.

Ugh.

I was waiting for that moment when admitting I like Cullen’s character and story arc will bite me in the ass.

TL; DR (for those who don’t want to get through my long rant) 

Let everyone enjoy any characters/romances/game choices they want. I have my reasons for having Cullen as a fav DA character and liking his story arc and I don’t think there are more problems with writing of his character than the majority of other companions in DA games. 

Full answer below

First of all – I don’t want to argue that everyone should like or dislike the same elements of fiction as I do – it would be stupid. We all have different tastes, like different character archetypes and have varying opinions on what makes a good story. I’m trying to keep my blog character positive and unless someone asks me directly to share my opinion on a certain character or plot element I prefer keeping my critique to myself. I also don’t feel entitled to confront fans who, in their own posts, state they find Cullen boring, unredeemable or overrated, even if I personally disagree with all these statements. 

If your ask, anon, stated the words “i think” or “in my opinion” I wouldn’t probably bother with such a lengthy answer, HOWEVER, you write your personal opinion like it was an objective statement, like you were in position to tell me how I should view the certain character. What did you expect, that I would suddenly realize “oh crap, NOW I see that a character and plot I had liked for my 200 hours of gameplay is actually bad, I was just too stupid to notice it!”.

Haha, no.

So, let’s go through your comment.

“tbh he is written quite bad”

In. Your. Opinion. There are people who don’t like Cullen’s character development. Some like the general idea but would make some changes if they could. Others (like me) don’t have problem with his story arc and just like to add some headcanons to fill the gaps.

It is understandable that when years pass between games, fans have time to develop their opinions and wishes of what they’d like to see. And because none of them actually writes the story it is very easy to feel disappointed and say “well, I would do it better (= my way)”. But the truth is - your way is not necessary a better way. It may be the case that “your version” would be even more hated by the fandom. Some opinions are just more popular than others and therefore may seem like they are objective but it’s an illusion. A well designed pool, with large sample size and good statistics may be objective. Opinions, on the other hand, are like farts – you always think yours are less stinky than the others’ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

But I digress.

Yes, I think Cullen is a well written character and yes, I like his story arc. Cullen’s redemption works for me because I see it not as much about atonement for his actions as for his lack of action.

Let me explain.

Anti-Cullen fans tend to assume that he personally did a lot of atrocities, but when you look not at fandom assumptions but at his actual actions we see in games or WoT, you can see that he caused most evil by not doing shit.

He should have protected the mages.

He didn’t.

He should have questioned Meredith’s actions.

He didn’t.

He should have noticed she’s going mad.

He didn’t .

He should have stopped her before she evoked the Rite.

He didn’t.

He was very passive and basically let either Meredith or Hawke make all the choices for him. If he let Meredith decide – people died. If he listened to Hawke (based on player’s choices) he voted for whatever Hawke had proposed.

Why was he behaving like that? Probably because he had lost faith in his own judgment so he put all the responsibility on authority figures (Templar Order and Chantry teachings). Cullen’s core motivation throughout all games was to protect people and it never changes. What changes is his belief of what methods are moral or necessary to achieve that goal and whether he, as an individual, should be in a position to decide it.

In Inquisition Cullen does the opposite. He is a workaholic. He makes his own decisions (leaves Kirkwall, stops taking lyrium) and takes full responsibility for them. He doesn’t follow his leader blindly but openly states his own opinions and advice (whether they are correct or wrong is another topic). He gets really furious when someone in position of power lie to or sacrifice people under their command (like in case of Samson or Rainier). Finally, he dedicates his life, health, skills, basically everything, for a cause - to stop the war that can be blamed mostly on his former organisation, without complaint or asking for forgiveness.

And I love that aspect of his character.

In Inquisition Cullen is still a work in progress. He tries his best but his templar past comes back sometimes - and it’s good. If he was completely free of his biases, it would be damn unnatural. 

I would never say that Cullen is a flawless ray of sunshine. He can be stubborn, biased, narrow-minded, hypocritical, bitter, aggressive and vengeful. But guess what – so can all the other characters. That’s why they are interesting.

“his abuse and hate is never confronted in Inquisition”

It is, at least for the standards of this particular game. DA:I doesn’t have full developed friendship-rivalry mechanics like DA:2 and you can’t even get approval points from advisors. The Inquisitor basically has far less options to condemn the Inner Circle’s actions or change their worldviews than Hawke (you don’t really argue with Dorian about slavery or with Iron Bull about Saarebas or Reeducators either).

But even if the Inquisitor has limited dialogue options to confront Cullen’s actions directly, Cullen himself brings the topic to the player. Cullen’s dialogue and actions in DA:I show that

he is ashamed of the person he became after Uldred’s uprising    

he knows he needs to atone for his actions and he wants to work for it

but doesn’t really believe he can fully atone for what he did

supports the reform of the Chantry, Templar Order and Circles rather than agreeing to their traditional methods

That man already hates himself, give him some rest.

And if you still think he needs an extra punishment for his crimes - Cullen is actually one of only 3 companions/advisors in DA:I whose life you can literally ruin through your choices (the other two being Blackwall and Iron Bull). If your Inky thinks that Cullen’s actions are unredeemable and he deserves nothing better than to forever be chained to the templar life he has chosen as a kid - they can order him to take lyrium again. For me it’s a heartless and morally wrong choice, but anyone can play their game however they want.

„he is made victim by narrative”

Ok, that part really bothers me. Are you saying that it is a bad thing that a narrative treats a person who has been physically, mentally and sexually abused for weeks as a victim of that abuse? Or encourages empathy towards a character fed drugs, manipulation and propaganda? Acknowledging Cullen’s PTSD doesn’t automatically result in ignoring or diminishing traumas and abuse that happened to Anders, Carl or any other character. Empathy doesn’t have to be reserved to people you personally agree with, just saying.

„he was the very problem why Chantry sucks.”

I’d say he was an example showing why Chantry sucks. A symptome, not a cause. Chantry benefits only high ranking members of that intitution + some nobles and rich dudes. Mages are abused and denied most of the rights because of the Chantry. Templars are drugged and brainwashed because of the Chantry. Common folk can’t freely benefit from things like healing magic because of the Chantry. Non-humans are treated like heretics and barbarians - because of the Chantry. The Chantry, as we see at the beginning of DA:I is a corrupt, powerful institution that has forsaken almost all ideals it had been built upon and desperately needs a reform. Everyone can see that. I have NEVER met any fan who said „yeah, Circles, Templar Order, the Chantry – they were perfectly alright, no need to change lol”. Same goes to characters labelled by fandom as pro-Chantry (like Cassandra, Cullen or Vivienne). They all see that major changes must be done, they just believe the reformation is better than abolition.

„Even his fans admit that.”

Some, yes. Others don’t have a problem with his arc. Personally I don’t think there are many Cullen fans that would agree with every single point you made.

„He is mostly liked because of romance.”

Um, no. The reason why the game developers even bothered with making Cullen a romance option in DA:I is that he was already quite liked and popular among fans, despite being just a secondary character. I’d agree that the romance plot made Cullen even more popular, especially among players who didn’t play previous games, but it is wrong to assume that the only reason people enjoy his character is because he’s a pretty boy. I played the games in order and Cullen was one of my fav characters in DA2 - I just like paragon anti-villains with redemption potential. Fight me. 

To conclude this overly long rant - I’m generally under impression that some DA fans tend to point certain aspects of Cullen’s character and story as “stupid excuses made by Bioware and fans to redeem a son of the bitch” and then use almost exactly the same arguments to defend their own favs. It’s the topic for maybe another discussion, but I think it’s a good thing to confront your own biases sometimes.

P.S. I also recommend watching this video about writing redemption arcs. Just for fun.

I rest my case. 

(thanks, Ania, for the high quality picture to sum up my feelings)

#ask #cullen rutherford #cullen positive #fandom critical #my writing #rainhowls rambles #don't be afraid #i am generally open to discussion #just please state your opinions as actual opinions #not facts

[blackroserelina]

Alright, so I wad going though my docs and stumbled upon this. I don't know where I was going with it. So I decided to post it here and hope someone will find an interests in it. I hope someone will find inspiration in it and maybe write it. All I ask is if you do please give me some credit and tag me in it. I would love to read it.

Kiba x .hack G.U.

The children of morganna find themselves transported into another world in the body’s of their characters. With the power they wield will they be able to find a way home or will they be stuck there forever. But first they need to find each other.

This summary is based of a dream I had that I couldn’t get out of my mind. I will tell you what happened in the dream first. Then I will tell how I would change it. This all starts after they get Ovan back. When the world was going to be deleted Skeith didn’t want to be torn from Ryou again so he fused himself and the other phases into their players in the real world. But in doing so they changed into how their PC characters looked. I don’t know why but they where transported into the world of Kiba. I don’t know what happened after that(my dreams end up like my imagination they jump from one point to another and leave out the middle part) all I remember is Haseo ending up I Zymot injured with some sort of back injury.(I should of mentioned this earlier but in my dream Haseo was a girl. The PC she played with was a boy but in real life he was a she. So her character took on a more female body but keep the more basic looks.) That made her unable to escape at the time. I don’t 100% know why but Hugh had a big interest in her. I didn’t see why in my dreams but I can guess it is ti is because of Skeith. He must of saw her use its power and wanted it for himself, but when he realized it wasn’t a summon he captured her to try to figure out how to control her to use it.

They all are able to still use magic and their weapons from the world the same way they always do. They still can use there avatars but everyone can see them now. They are kind of like summons I guess?

They are able to summon their avatars outside their bodies, but it will make the avatar weaker than if they summons them normally.

Now what I would change is where people would end up and I would add someone to go with them. Aura would sense what Skeith is doing and fuse a part of herself and the Azure Flame God into Aina's PC and fuse it together with her real world body. She does this as a precautionary measure again the avatars if they try to take over. Aina would go with them to Kiba.

Where I would have everyone appear at is:

Haseo:

Atoli:

Kuhn:

Yata:

Sakubo:

Endrance:

Pi:

Ovan:

Ania:

As you can see I never figured out where they would appear at so that's up to you guys to decide. I hope you like it.

#anime / manga #kiba #.hack//g.u. #crossover #fanfiction #au universe #dream

[nipuni]

Time for an obnoxiously long post full of various replies to many different things that I am very late to answer!!

(Some of them are about ffxiv so miiild spoiler alert! just in case)

I’ll go in parts because there are so many

@simplysapphiix AAAAAAAAAAHHH thank you so much!!💕💕💕 It makes me so happy to hear this because I fell so hard for this character you have no idea, I want to draw him so much, please commission me to draw him forever I LOVE HIM 😭😭😭😭

@ anon fkjawhfsd thank you so much!!! I love how easy to read I am when it comes to favourite characters 😆 ABSOLUTELY see the parallels and they are...so many, there is something about this particular plot that gets me everytime!!!

@ anon Thank you so much!!! It is a great game!! I’ve played for a couple of years then left for a few more and now that I’m back it is still amazing, it never ages!!

@ anon I am so happy too!!! I am so motivated to draw now!! 😭

@under-the-blood-moonlight thank you so much!! welcome back 🤗💕 have a nice day you too!!

@ anon  😭😭😭 AHHH THAT IS SO FLATTERING!!! this made my day!!  thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️

@ anon OH MY GOD 😭 that is so wonderful to hear!! you are too powerful!! you definitely deserve all the credit here!!! congratulations I’m so happy you reconnected with art, it has always been such a fulfilling path for me I hope it is the same to you!!

@ anon and @tytonocturna I am now on Crystal datacenter on Zalera server! 😄 I must warn I am super shy though so If I meet someone there is a high chance I’ll combust 😆

@gabettb AHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH!! ;; ❤️❤️❤️ I’m relieved to hear my art reads as powerful and not overly ambitious!! 😆 everytime I draw I think to myself, am I being dramatic again haha thank you oh my god ;; you are kind!!

@ anon hmmm I don’t remember, I think I dont! I remember making one about Solas’ head specifically but not heads in general 😆 , I could make on in the future, thanks for the idea!!

@firedupauthor Hello thank you so much!! you can find more about what info usually I need in this post 😊👍 I’ll be opening on the 8th this month I believe! thank you for the interest!!

@karinaamatus please don’t cry or I will too 😭!! haha thank you so much!!

@stuckypancakes @trinetteslayer @ anons @honey-diamond-seraph 

Thank you so much!!! 😭❤️❤️❤️ you make me feel so much better about my art I’m super grateful!! thank you for sending these messages they are so lovely

@ anon Hello!! ahh it is always so strange and wonderful to hear I am part of someones life somewhere in the world ;; I’ve been drawing for at least 15 years digitally but I’ve always enjoyed drawing since I was a kid so it is hard to tell 😆 I am not sure what first motivated me, I remember I started drawing animals as a kid because I watched so many nature documentaries, my family on my father’s side was always very art inclined so I think that helped as well! about being uncomfortable with the results, I think that is a constant that never really goes away no matter the level, but I did notice a significant difference in my attitude towards art in my mid and late twenties, maybe it is just a part of growing up in general that also affected my relationship with my work but I stopped worrying so much about my performance, the ups and downs, comparing myself to others, style consistency, I realized that none of this mattered and all I really care about is enjoying what I do and having others enjoy it too, it doesn’t need to be the best to be enjoyable 😄 I hope any of this helps! thank you so much for your message!!

@highkeylokied Thank you so much!! oh I don’t think I will I’m sorry 😣 making mods is really time consuming for me, but I’ve seen a couple of dress mods that are really close to it though! just maybe with sleeves instead ;; maybe a more experienced modder can make something closer to it! I don’t mind if anyone else wants to use the design 😊👍

@darimq Hola! hahah es una buena pregunta!! Anya se pronuncia en ruso, seria Ania o Aña!! ahh que lindo segundo nombre!! 😍

@pebster hahahh thank you so much, I’m flattered!! 😆 I am not sure what that would mean but sounds positive!! 

I will continue on another post because this is so long already I feel bad 😨

#long post #nips replies #god this is so long I hope the read more cut works #and it is only part 1 #forgive me