#After spending 3 weeks fighting with my insurance and the incompetent assistants at my doctor's office.

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June's met him once or twice when he's stopped by, his leather jacket limp around one shoulder. He's nice, but mostly yawning in his coffee with her boss.

She watches them sometimes while she restocks the shelves, Dave playing some garage band's demo tape, and Matt from Midnite Madness half asleep, nodding along and asking for a copy for the station.

"You could just tell him that you like his show," Kim teases. It's not like she's aware how much they talk, how often June calls in when she can't sleep.

And lately, she's up almost every night.

Matt yawns again, and moves on to the stack of brand new vinyl. It's mostly for his personal collection, the stuff that even WZRA won't let him air. June likes the way his eyes light up, that slow, ironic smile he thinks he's hiding. Kim's ducking in the back to claim her smoke break.

"Excuse me, could you please ring these up?"

"Yeah, sure, that's $17.24 all together."

"Hey, are you sure that I don't know you from somewhere?"

June doesn't want to disappoint him harder.

"No, I don't think you do," she lies.

"You just sound so familiar that-- I'm sorry."

"Oh, it's alright, I get that pretty often."

June watches him leave and wishes she were braver, prettier.

He's been playing a lot of country when she calls in that night, at 2 a.m.

"I wish that we could really meet," he tells her.

June hugs her knees close to her chest, and tries to count the stars stuck to her ceiling.

#May 9 2021 #I still don't have my medication. #After spending 3 weeks fighting with my insurance and the incompetent assistants at my doctor's office. #And getting approval for my medication. #And getting confirmation from my stupid pharmacy that yes they have it in stock. #So it says here you take the generic. #No. No I don't. #I haven't taken the generic in almost 4 years. #Because it makes me want to hurl and makes my hair fall out. #Seriously. #If I could take the generic without feeling like complete shit you think I'd be paying 5 to 15 times more for my meds? #I just want my fucking medication. #By the time I get it (assuming the pharmacy actually gets it when they say they will) it will have been almost a month. #I need this shit to function. #I'm more than halfway through my emergency stash of a weaker dose of my prescription than I need. #So I'm only kind of not functional instead of completely not functional. #Why do pharmacists think it's okay to ignore the DO NOT SUBSTITUTE doctor's note? WHY? #Anyway I still hate everyone and this is garbage. #Did I google radio station naming conventions for this garbage? Yes. Yes I did. #This is a fake station call sign. As far as I can find in 10 minutes of shitty googling a TV station uses the name. #So I'm gonna pretend it was free and there aren't any other naming conventions I'm missing. #I was half tempted to use the name of the station I did my (very brief) DJ stint at. #But then y'all would know where I went to college and I don't need the internet knowing that. #I may have also looked up historic vinyl prices... #And I'm too tired to fuck around with historic sales tax rates so I went with something closeish. #This is why we can't have nice things. #Research rabbit holes and my inability to write. #Garbage.