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ultfreakme · 11 months
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What are your top ten favorite scenes in Avatar the Last Airbender?
Thank you so much for the ask!!! Oh my god. This so hard, I've never thought of individual scenes as top favorites but I've tried my best and narrowed it down I think?
Katara v Pakku 'You can't knock me down!': So I watched Avatar when it was first airing as a kid, there weren't many dark-skinned main characters around, especially not girls who fight and certainly not against sexist men who try to stop people from learning. So when I saw this scene, I was at the edge of my seat, it taught me a lot about bravery and I still cheer and clap for Katara when I re-watch the fight.
Sokka throughout The Fortuneteller: I'm an atheist and people didn't exactly take kindly to that when I was a kid & I was infamous as the 'weird kid who probably has no morals'. So seeing Sokka outwardly express skepticism about the spirits & 'higher powers' was very comforting.
Sokka inventing the air balloon solution: I think it was one of the first scenes where I really started liking Sokka. The thing about hot air actually made me read my school textbooks & google stuff to figure out how air currents work, so that helped me with a few science classes about molecules.
Aang in The Storm: It was one of our first glimpses into how he felt about running away, the guilt, the sadness, the pain of being the last of your people with no one to turn to and thinking its all your fault.
Toph fighting the Earth Rumble goons when Aang & her dad are watching: The way she moves is so freaking cool!!! It was her showing exactly how capable she is, she isn't kidding when she says she's the world's best earthbender because yeah, who the heck else could do what she does???
Hama's flashback: Once again I watched this show as a kid, so this was the first time i got confronted with the fact that there will never be a 'perfectly good' or 'perfectly bad' side. People are complicated & I understand what pushed Hama to do what she did but that doesn't excuse it so in that vein;
Katara sucking the water out of the field to fight Hama: It's just badass even if it is angsty.
Aang pulling Ozai down by his beard and encasing him in rock: I mean-- like that is just objectively cool and very embarrassing for the 40-something year old guy. Aang was in top form.
Zuko in the bunker with Ozai: I don't watch too many new cartoons but I don't think any show has ever so explicitly called out the abuser and made sure the abuser is acknowledged as unforgivable. It really put into light for me a lot of things about child-parent relationships, what its supposed to be (forever angry at Boku No Hero Academia for using their Zuko-based character to forgive and redeem his abuser, lf you don't know anything about BNHA this means nothing to you jbcfjhbh sorry).
Yuekka last kiss: They're the ship that first introduced me to tragic romances,. My heart was broken and I kept waiting the entire 3 seasons down to the last episode for Yue to make a return and say "hey guys! so I'm a spirit I'm alive!". I still like it because idk I love angst a lot and the whole story of a princess finding glimpses of freedom in a boy who's traveled the world and yearning for it gets to me.
I'm not remembering other scenes that may have had more impact on me just yet, but a few honorable mentions; Ran and Shao's dance(I LOVE DRAGONS 100/10 they make everything better always), Zuko in the Cooler, Sokka and the cactus juice, Aang's anxiety episode.
Thank you again for asking! This was so fun to do~~
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franz-karma · 3 years
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Maybe I don't wanna be a lawyer anymore :/
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It's so easy to forgive what someone said to you but it's so difficult to forgive what they say about the people you love the most...
So make sure you don't say anything wrong about someone in front of their loved ones because they might eventually forgive but they would never ever forget.
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ofkleins · 4 years
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       𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠  here  and  do  i  have  the  tea  for  you  .  ariana  is  back  on  campus  ,  which  is  surprising  considering  the  threatening  note  i  left  them  .  yes  ,  i  know  all  about  how  despite  outward  appearances  ,  her  family  isn’t  as  picture  perfect  as  they  may seem  because  of  their  pride  .  imagine  the  tabloids  and  how  the  klein  family  would  feel  for  such  information  to  come  out  ,  not  to  mention  the  reputation  of  delta  because  of  their  actions  .  at  this  rate  ,  she  is  better  off  staying  put  in  beverly  hills  ,  california  and  living  off  that  $625m  family  net  worth  .  what’s  the  point  in  studying  applied  economics  and  management  with  plans  to  take  over  her  mother’s  abandoned  executive  position  at  her  family’s  company  ,  is  it  worth  it  with  what  i  know  ?  anyways  ,  they  may  want  to  continue  to  be  genteel  &  cosmopolitan  because  the  disingenuous  &  acrimonious  attributes  make  me  want  to  spill  .  (  ryan  destiny  ,  remy  ,  eastern  )  .
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          hi  angels  !  i  decided  to  update  ariana’s  intro  since  i  was  giving  christian  a  mini  update  ,  but  for  the  most  part  ,  everything  is  still  the  same  with  her  !  the  only  things  that  have  changed  majorly  is  changing  her  last  name  from  malabanan  to  klein  ,  a  middle  name  change  ,  and  updates  to  her  family’s  history  in  politics  .  as  for  everything  else  ,  it  remains  the  same  ,  but  i  knew  it  was  going  to  be  a  headache  to  change  in  html  ,  which  is  why  i  decided  to  make  a  new  post  instead  !  now  ,  though  ,  if  you  click  the  names  of  her  family  members  ,  you’ll  be  redirected  to  images  of  their  chosen  faceclaims  !
full  name  :  ariana  stephanie  klein  . nickname(s)  :  ari ,  mainly  . birthday  /  age  :  august  30th  ,  1998  /  21  . zodiac  :  virgo  . pronouns  :  she  /  her  /  hers  . gender  :  cisfemale  . sexual  orientation  : bisexual  . romantic  orientation  : biromantic  . height  :  5′5″  ( five  foot  ,  five  inches  )  . hometown  :  knightsbridge  ,  london  ,  united  kingdom  . current  location  :  beverly  hills  ,  california  . nationality  :  british - american  . ethnicity  :  african - american  and  unspecified  biracial  . languages  spoken  :  english  ,  spanish  ,  and  french  (  college - course  level  )  .
          daniel  klein  is  the  son  of  political  giant  nathaniel  klein  and  non - profit  founder  yvonne  klein  .  nathaniel  had  been  the  first  in  his  family  to  go  off  to  college  ,  and  he  specifically  went  off  to  law  school  in  order  to  become  a  politician  in  order  to  help  those  in  his  town  who  weren’t  as  well  off  as  he  had  been  while  growing  up  .  nathaniel  had  only  ever  wanted  to  do  great  things  ,  and  when  he  was  only  28  ,  he  was  elected  as  major  of  his  small  town  in  georgia  by  a  landslide  over  his  republican  (  🤢  )  opponent  .  although  there  was  public  support  for  him  to  run  for  a  second  term  ,  nathaniel  had  had  daniel  and  his  younger  sister  kimberly  ,  so  he  decided  that  it  was  high  time  for  him  to  become  governor  .  although  nathaniel  lost  the  election  ,  he  didn’t  let  that  stop  him  ,  and  decided  that  he  would  run  for  congress  .  he  campaigned  hard  and  gained  a  cluster  of  supporters  ,  and  in  his  30s  ,  he  became  a  congressman  .
          a  couple  of  decades  passed  ,  and  daniel  found  himself  graduating  from  law  school  at  the  prestigious  columbia  university  .  he  followed  in  the  footsteps  of  his  father  ,  but  initially  pursued  a  career  in  law  before  officially  making  the  switch  to  politics  .  during  his  time  in  new  york  city  ,  daniel  meets  his  future  wife  ,  wild  child  of  a  multi - billionaire  named  celeste  duvernay  .  celeste  had  literally  come  barreling  into  his  life  when  daniel  went  out  to  celebrate  his  first  job  at  a  famous  law  office  when  celeste  comes  stumbling  out  of  the  bathroom  with  a  short  veil  and  tight  white  dress  on  ,  celebrating  getting  free  drinks  for  pretending  that  she  was  having  her  bachelorette  party  with  her  friends  .  
          made  up  of  messy  brown  curls  and  the  liquid  courage  of  champagne  while  dancing  on  tables  ,  celeste  was  the  youngest  daughter  of  a  billionaire  family  that  wanted  to  enjoy  her  twenties  despite  the  pressure  from  her  parents  .  she  was  determined  to  live  her  own  life  ,  and  even  though  she  was  getting  what  she  deemed  a  useless  degree  in  business  administration  ,  that  didn’t  stop  celeste  from  living  her  life  to  the  fullest  .  she  spent  summers  on  yachts  off  the  tropical  island  or  would  splurge  in  neiman  marcus  simply  because  her  professor  told  her  one  of  her  papers  wasn’t  good  enough  .  while  she  was  in  college  , celeste  was  a  kappa  ,  and  it  fit  the  blonde  well  considering  that  she  was  rich  ,  spoiled  ,  and  made  sure  that  everyone  around  her  was  fully  aware  that  she  was  getting  dropped  off  at  school  in  a  rolls - royce  and  never  (  absolutely  refused  )  to  eat  dining  hall  food  .
          their  relationship  was  a  bit  of  a  whirlwind  ,  and  they  eventually  eloped  in  a  simple  wedding  on  the  beach  in  bali  the  summer  after  celeste’s  graduation  .  little  did  the  couple  know  ,  is  that  at  the  time  ,  celeste  was  pregnant  with  their  first  baby  and  eldest  daughter  naomi  .  celeste  decides  to  be  a  stay  at  home  mom  while  daniel  moves  through  the  ranks  at  the  prestigious  law  firm  moving  from  summer  associate  to  senior  associate  ,  but  daniel  knew  his  ultimate  goal  was  to  be  congressman  .  a  few  more  years  pass  ,  a  second  baby  named  dominic  is  soon  born  ,  the  family  has  made  the  cross  country  move  to  california  ,  and  daniel  is  running  for  congressman  of  california  .  
          the  family  settled  into  a  gorgeous  home  on  sunset  boulevard  .
          after  running  for  congress  twice  and  getting  beat  by  a  landslide  the  first  time  around  ,  daniel  is  elected  as  governor  and  celeste  begrudgingly  becomes  thrust  into  the  public  eye  and  is  under  constant  scrutiny  .  the  kleins  are  newcomers  to  the  world  of  politics  in  this  sense  ,  as  they’re  no  longer  skirting  around  the  edges  and  waiting  to  have  their  chance  at  all  the  glory  .  marriage  and  children  had  calmed  celeste’s  wild  ways  ,  but  when  she  was  twenty - nine  and  their  last  daughter  ,  a  bright  eyed  baby  they  named  ariana  was  brought  into  the  picture  ,  everything  changed  for  the  worst  .
          to  naomi  and  dominic  ,  celese  was  a  wonderful  mother  .  she  baked  cookies  ,  they  hung  out  by  the  pool  ,  she  helped  them  with  their  homework  ,  but  as  little  ariana  grew  up  ,  she  was  not  the  apple  of  her  mother’s  eye  .  the  first  strike  against  her  was  the  fact  that  she  was  born  via  c - section  due  to  a  complicated  pregnancy  ,  leaving  her  mother  with  an  ugly  scar  that  remains  to  this  day  .  she  was  born  in  knightsbridge  while  the  family  was  on  vacation  ,  actually  coming  two  months  before  she  was  due  .  celeste  was  annoyed  with  being  stuck  in  knightsbridge  as  she  waited  for  her  daughter  to  grow  stronger  ,  and  that  was  the  second  strike  against  the  innocent  child  .  being  in  the  public  eye  because  of  her  husband’s  job  made  celeste  quite  conscious  of  all  things  appearance  ,  and  made  sure  that  she  and  her  children  never  left  the  house  with  a  hair  out  of  place  or  a  shirt  untucked  .  naomi  ,  the  golden  child  to  her  mother  ,  immediately  began  participating  in  beauty  pageants  while  dominic  followed  his  calling  and  focused  on  academia  like  the  men  before  him  .
          little  ariana  liked  to  play  ,  and  she  liked  to  play  hard  .  she  wanted  to  play  soccer  in  the  rain  with  the  other  neighborhood  kids  and  roll  down  grassy  hills  until  her  skin  was  itchy  ,  but  her  mother  ?  she  wasn’t  having  any  of  that  .  ari  was  going  to  be  prim  ,  proper  –  her  back  would  be  so  straight  a  ruler  would  be  jealous  ,  and  those  soccer  cleats  her  father  bought  her  were  thrown  into  the  trash  and  replaced  with  ballet  slippers  .  for  years  ,  ariana  was  no  longer  the  only  klein  kid  who  played  with  the  others  in  the  neighborhood  ,  and  she  now  had  a  strict  schedule  of  working  out  ,  school  ,  ballet  ,  and  studying  at  the  tender  age  of  thirteen  .  when  her  freshman  year  starts  ,  though  ,  ariana  abandons  her  mother’s  dream  and  trades  the  ballet  slippers  for  a  pair  of  cheerleading  pom - poms  .  with  her  infectious  personality  and  warm  smile  ,  it’s  no  surprise  that  ariana  makes  the  coveted  harvard - westlake  cheerleading  team  .
          and  while  most  mothers  would  be  proud  of  their  daughter’s  accomplishment  ,  celeste  was  more  focused  on  her  daughter’s  appearance  than  anything  else  .  EATING  DISORDER  TW BEGINS  she  limits  what  she  could  and  couldn’t  eat  ,  often  making  snide  remarks  when  ariana  says  how  much  she’s  craving  her  favorite  cheeseburger  from  shake  shack  or  how  she  had  a  bit  of  cheesecake  after  dinner  .  celeste  wakes  her  daughter  up  at  five  in  the  morning  with  a  hellish  personal  trainer  that  makes  her  run  their  expansive  neighborhood  until  her  lungs  are  tight  and  she’s  gasping  for  air  .  breakfast  is  smoothies  ,  lunch  is  only  soup  ,  and  even  then  all  the  good  things  that  ariana  craves  have  been  taken  out  .  she  has  to  be  skinny  –  she  has  to  make  her  mother  proud  .
          the  lack  of  food  during  the  day  leads  to  binging  in  the  night  ,  tip - toeing  to  the  kitchen  with  the  aid  of  the  housekeeper  ,  who  kept  a  hidden  stash  in  a  cabinet  her  mother  never  dared  to  open  .  binges  turn  to  regret  ,  tear  stained  cheeks  and  the  horrid  sound  of  ariana  hunched  over  the  toilet  as  she  begs  to  be  forgiven  for  the  disappointment  she  would  bring  to  her  mother  .  it  all  comes  to  a  head  during  ariana’s  junior  year  ,  when  she’s  gained  an  ounce  of  her  mother’s  affection  and  dark  circles  that  are  hidden  beneath  luxury  concealer  ,  and  it’s  the  annual  homecoming  football  game  .  dinner  consisted  of  four  baby  carrots  and  a  bottle  of  water  ,  and  right  as  ariana  is  lifted  into  the  air  to  perform  a  basket  toss  ,  she’s  falling  –  and  she  lands  on  the  unforgiving  ground  with  a  sneer  on  celeste’s  face  as  she  watches  behind  saint  laurent  sunglasses  .
          ariana  goes  to  the  hospital  and  is  diagnosed  with  bulimia  ,  a  word  that  clouds  her  in  a  cloak  of  embarrassment  and  springs  tears  in  her  father’s  eyes  .  celeste  is  uncaring  ,  picking  at  her  hundred  dollar  manicure  instead  of  caring  for  the  daughter  she  allegedly  loved  so  much  –  at  least  ,  that’s  what  she  said  when  she  spoke  to  the  media  .  ariana  is  pulled  from  harvard - westlake  ,  sadly  for  her  senior  year  ,  and  begins  the  slow  process  of  healing  .  her  relationship  with  food  becomes  healthy  again  ,  and  she  cries  when  she  has  cheesecake  ,  her  favorite  thing  in  the  world  ,  when  she  returns  home  .  TW  ENDS
           she  makes  the  decision  to  head  off  to  college  ,  putting  all  of  her  eggs  into  one  basket  when  she  only  applies  to  hollingsworth  university  .  she’s  desperate  to  get  from  under  her  mother’s  criticizing  eye  ,  and  to  finally  be  her  own  person  .  during  freshman  year  ,  ariana  pledges  kappa  in  hopes  that  she’d  make  a  dent  in  her  tainted  relationship  with  her  mother  ,  but  nothing  ever  seems  to  work  in  her  favor  .  she  makes  it  through  rush  week  and  becomes  a  pledge  for  the  society  ,  bouncing  on  the  balls  of  her  feet  when  she’s  chosen  on  bid  day  .  all  goes  well  until  it’s  time  for  a  little  bit  of  hazing  ,  but  ariana  finds  herself  with  the  short  end  of  the  stick  .  she  has  to  clean  longer  ,  take  one  more  shot  ,  staying  awake  an  extra  hour  while  the  other  pledges  have  gone  to  bed  ,  and  being  utterly  humiliated  when  her  kappa  sisters  discover  that  she  had  an  innocent  crush  on  a  boy  from  sigma  who  had  been  dating  kappa’s  vice  president  at  that  time  .
           ariana  drops  out  of  kappa  and  goes  the  rest  of  the  semester  stewing  in  her  upset  over  the  pure  humiliation  she  was  forced  to  endure  .  when  the  spring  semester  rolls  around  ,  ariana  still  carries  that  torch  as  she  steps  into  the  delta  house  looking  for  a  fresh  start  ,  and  it’s  the  society  where  she  remains  today  .  she’s  in  the  college  of  business  and  is  also  a  cheerleader  ,  even  though  most  would  assume  it  harbors  too  heavy  feelings  ,  but  her  constant  work  in  therapy  has  helped  her  regain  her  love  for  the  sport  again  .
          when  it  comes  to  ariana’s  personality  ,  she’s  something  of  a  spitfire  .  she’s  not  afraid  of  confrontation  and  she  can  be  extremely  petty  at  times  .  for  her  positive  traits  genteel  and  cosmopolitan  ,  ariana  is  respectable  when  she  needs  to  be  (  like  attending  galas  with  her  family  or  when  she  debuted  at  the  debutante  ball  in  new  york  city  )  and  since  her  family  traveled  as  well  as  met  dignitaries  around  the  world  a  lot  thanks  to  her  father’s  career  ,  ariana  is  quite  sophisticated  and  she  carries  herself  as  such  .  as  for  her  negative  traits  disingenuous  and  acrimonious  ,  it  simply  means  that  she  will  fake  the  funk  sometimes  in  order  to  get  something  she  wants  .  her  disingenuous  ways  especially  shows  when  she’s  being  petty  ,  and  she’ll  pretend  to  not  know  the  full  story  to  either  a .  confront  the  other  person  with  the  facts  or  b .  gather  up  as  much  information  as  she  possibly  can  .  as  for  being  acrimonious  ,  it  means  that  ari  is  bitter  as  hell  ,  especially  when  talking  about  kappa  .
secret  .
when  it  comes  to  her  secret  about  her  family  ,  the  klein’s  are  similar  to  the  kennedy’s  in  the  sense  that  they’re  the  ‘ perfect ’  family  with  no  issues  ,  but  only  on  the  surface  .  in  reality  ,  celeste  leaves  daniel  frequently  and  jets  off  on  exotic  excursions  with  billionaires  she  just  met  ,  attempting  to  get  what  she  thinks  she  lost  because  of  marriage  and  children  .  dominic  ,  despite  holding  a  high  position  at  his  maternal  grandfather’s  company  ,  has  developed  a  drug  addiction  he  believes  no  one  has  noticed  .  as  for  naomi  ,  she’s  notorious  for  never  marrying  any  of  the  women  that  she’s  dated  in  the  past  ,  and  also  works  for  their  grandfather  .  despite  that  ,  friends  and  extended  family  of  the  kleins  always  get  the  perfect  holiday  cards  when  the  season  rolls  around  and  they’re  always  written  as  ‘  family  goals  ’  on  instagram  and  twitter  .
short  headcanons  .
ariana  lives  off - campus  and  in  a  gorgeous  apartment  .  
she  drives  a  black  porsche  panamera  ,  but  originally  wanted  a  cherry  red  ferrari  ,  and  threw  a  minor  fit  when  her  dad  said  no  .  he  eventually  gifted  one  to  her  as  an  early  christmas  gift  .
her  style  is  all  over  the  place  .  one  day  she’ll  be  wearing  all  black  with  a  leather  jacket  ,  another  day  she’s  dressed  like  a  carbon  copy  of  outfits  on  pinterest  ,  and  on  another  she’s  wearing  high  heels  and  a  midi - skirt  .  there’s  no  in  between  for  her  ,  but  you  better  believe  that  everything  is  designer  ,  even  down  to  her  hair  accessories  .
she’s  most  comfortable  in  her  home  ,  and  there’s  a  chance  that  when  she’s  home  she’s  blaring  music  .  she’ll  be in  a  giant  shirt  with  her  hair  tugged  up  in  a  top  knot  .
her  favorite  food  is  a  shackburger  with  cheese  fries  and  a  creamsicle  float  .  she  is  absolutely  obsessed  with  cheesecake  in  any  and  all  forms  .
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OC INFORMATION:
What’s your name? Caitlin
Preferred pronouns: She/her
Timezone: London – GMT?
IC INFORMATION:
Character Name: Lily Evans Potter
What’s a hobby or pastime that your character enjoys? Gardening when the London weather permits, sparking chaos in a kitchen after a long day of working, creating a big Sunday Roast for James and her friends, whoever stops by. Playing piano – a methodical being, her nimble fingers pour over the classics whenever she sees fit. Reading – missing academia, Lily pours over biographies, historical texts, and commentaries to keep her brain’s electric waves sparking ideas left and right. She reads aloud to her growing baby bump, and each time the unborn child kicks or moves, she yells to James down the hall that the little one is a big fan of the day’s topic. Driving a Muggle Car out in the countryside of England, over the mud pie winding roads through farms and prairies. She knows how to operate a car, despite her husband’s unyielding curiosity for Muggle machinery. Although she wasn’t a prankster in school, Lily has evolved into an amateur meddler, from placing James’s invisibility cloak over his glasses to tricking the Marauders – call it karma for those years of tomfoolery. She’s a collector, as well. She finds stories in antique items from Saturday markets, and convinces James these kitschy tea sets are necessary to bring into their tiny home, damn it!
Do you have any preferred ships or anti-ships? Lily and James are the constant symbol of sacrificial love in the series, tried and true. I do see her having a conflicting hatred / fondness for Severus – whether that could’ve been a romantic affliction way back when, despite their complicated history, as much as she loathes him he’s always stuck in the back of her mind - unable to pinpoint why she has any ounce of care left for him.
What do you think your character’s Boggart would be? If their greatest fear isn’t something that could easily take a solid form, what is it? Why? Lily’s boggart has changed over the years. When practicing in school, she saw the terror of failure, and losing her family. But as she’s grown and evolved, and the weight of the world grew far more tangible, Lily now envisions her boggart as the death of those she could’ve been able to save. Her unborn child, James, her parents. Her parents. This was her nightmare, and after the murder of the Evans couple, she felt her dread, paranoia, sorrows escalate to a hovering beast she struggled to tame, and the beast knew it could conquer her if it dug deep enough into her fears.  
What’s your character’s biggest pet peeve? Injustice. Blood snobbery. Lily is stubborn, herself, but she loathes when people are too shut down to listen to any idea other than their own (sometimes she can be quite hypocritical with this). Low blows.
What would you consider to be an eccentricity of your character? She speaks a mile-a-minute when she’s flustered, or has an important thought. She’s too fearless, at times, when it comes to her Order Missions. She’s tough- relentless, even, quite pregnant and yet snapping at others if they don’t do their duty. She’s too passionate, especially lately seizing the day as the stakes continue to climb and rack her brain.
What is/was your character’s favorite subject in school? Why? There were times when Lily was bullied for being too bookish. She’s proud of this attribute, however; the only subject she didn’t fully appreciate was Muggle Studies – she’d grown up around this subject, although she liked to see the wizarding world’s take on her world’s events. Her favourite subject was hard to pinpoint. From potion concocting to Transfiguration, Lily was in awe of the possibilities that magic provided. So be it, she was a nerd. And she loved every second of it.
What time of day is your character’s favorite? What time of year? Time of day: Early morning, when the fog hasn’t yet cleared, Lily walks around the small cobblestone streets of her village just to see the magic as the light greets the sleepy thatched roof buildings and the dewy grass. She greets the same old Saturday market vendors as they set up their stalls, she welcomes the day in a moment of calmness before she has to apparate into the gritty city streets, clustered and loud. Equally, she loves the evening, crammed into a pub with her loved ones, cozied up next to a log fire and playing a heated game of cards or dancing with the girls as the boys shove and laugh to the soundtrack of  the acoustic band playing in the corner. Time of year: Spring. Perhaps it’s due to her floral nature, but watching the blooming petals sprout up from the cool earth, going to parks, rowing down rivers, spending more time outdoors. Lily finds that the best things happen in spring. English people turn more social, she sees smiles in commuters. The world expands for possibility and adventure.
What’s your character’s Patronus? If they can’t conjure one, what would it be if they could? Why? A doe. A female deer. Her happiest memory is of her wedding day, seeing the way James looked at her down the aisle, surrounded by friends, proud parents, even Dumbledore and McGonagall. Or, the moment she realised she fell in love with the one boy she never expected. Feeling her baby’s heart run wild against her stomach in the quiet of an evening, when the windows are sealed and the doors locked. Her happiest memories abound, it isn’t difficult for her to conjure her Patronus.
What is your character’s biggest vice (bad habit or immoral craving)? Lily’s terrible at poker faces. If she’s annoyed or upset, amused in an inappropriate moment, it’s quite easy to see on her fair features. Sometimes, she dreams about revenge. For such a good, upstanding witch, wife, Auror, the more she thinks about the brutal wrongdoings, the more she feels like she could turn to aggression in a way she’s never supported before. This creates a dilemma for her psyche, for a girl who’s never believed in an eye for an eye.  
Is your character an introvert or extrovert? How well do they handle social situations? Not nearly as extroverted as her husband, Lily finds herself happily in the middle. She’s an incredibly kind witch to nearly everyone she meets, but the more she’s seen with her career as the war escalates, the more she doesn’t feel the need to hand out unnecessary information about herself to strangers. However, she is witty, clever, full of banter when need be and not above using the power of language and persuasion to get what she needs.
What is your character’s diet like? What’s his or her favorite food? Since the start of her pregnancy, Lily’s eating habits abound. She has no shame in ordering the oddest combinations, from midnight kebab pickle and ice cream cravings to pumpkin pasties for breakfast. The redhead appreciates farm-to-table cooking, and the Potters’ small but significant garden is home to tomatoes, potatoes, root vegetables, cabbage and more. Cooking calms her, especially without the use of a wand. Being able to sprout life from her fingertips and hard work in tune with the earth is rewarding to her – and so she indulges in her food when she can. She has a huge fondness for firewhiskey and red wine, and longs for the day when she can treat herself to a few glasses by her fireplace once Baby Potter is in the world.
How do you think your character’s psychological issues have manifested and changed your character up to this point? Discovering she was a witch hit her like a lake of cold water. It started when she was young, and whenever she and her sister, Tuney, would play outdoors, a freak event would occur that would send Tuney running away. Her parents thought she could’ve been ill. Her grandmother thought she could’ve been possessed. But once she received her Hogwarts letter, and what seemed to be a legendary phenomenon turned into her reality, everything that Lily knew to be true had to turn upside down. Thrust into a hidden realm of possibility, Lily was forced at a young age to trust herself, trust Severus, and support the other underdogs of the universe. As she grew into adulthood, and as she continued to fight for the righteousness, the very idea that such a horror as Voldemort existed tested her. Targeting her kind. As more of her comrades and colleagues perished, disappeared, suffered, she had to diminish Voldemort’s powerful reputation into being a mere soul who she couldn’t fear. Not when she had so much to lose, and so much to gain in his demise. In the back of her mind, she’d spent years contemplating her value as not only a young woman, but a witch. When Severus turned on her, calling her that unforgivable name, she knew she had to turn into a vigilante alongside the other radicals who sought for a permanent change in prejudice. No turning back. If she had one goal, was to show other Muggleborns that they weren’t victims - they have been gifted with the opportunity to make their lives significant.
Give us a headcanon for your character. Anything is acceptable: Lily volunteers at her village shelter regularly, secretly charming blankets to be permanently warm for the homeless. She’s managed to know many of them, sharing stories, laughs, a hot meal. She’s already volunteered to sign up her child to help whenever they’re old enough. Even in school, Lily was incredibly involved in community services within the magical realm.
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That Got Away: A Criminal Minds Fanfiction 2/?
A/N: I am so humbled by the amount of love the first part of this new Spencer x Reader story has received. I do not own any characters, lyrics or images. xoxo Stu
***Update: I wanted to apologize with the chronological error I originally made in a paragraph about Hotch. It had Haley and Jack in Witness Protection too soon. A genuine thank you to everyone for not being judgemental about it, it has been fixed! xoxo Stu***
Inspiration: Katy Perry’s ‘The One That Got Away’ and Darlin’ Companion sung by Johnny Cash and June Carter Cash
Setting: Season 4      Rating: Teen    Warnings: Grief, Teen Angst, Bad Kissing
Spencer Reid had held Y/N until she had cried herself to sleep on the floor of her hotel room. He very carefully covered her half-naked form, cushioning her head with extra pillows from the bed they hadn’t made it to. He remained there, watching her sleep, the gentle rising of her back a hypnotic rhythm. Spencer did not want to leave her, but she needed more rest than he had time to give. He sat at the oddly placed desk, found the hotel stationary and prepared to write Y/N a confession.
Hotch had the hotel issue wake up calls for the BAU team at 6:30am. Spencer had made it back to his (much simpler) hotel room around two in the morning. The four hours of sleep left the doctor with an anxious stomach. After showering and dressing in a very typical Reid ensemble; he headed to the lobby. It was there he, naturally, bumped into Prentiss at the coffee cart.
“Morning Emily,” Spencer’s soft voice greeted the black haired beauty.
“Well, well, good morning, Reid,” Prentiss teased, feigning surprise in seeing him.
He remained patient, anticipating all the inevitable questions he would be fielding after leaving the team at the precinct to return Y/N’s luggage the previous night. His utter exhaustion was ensuring a shorter temper than was strictly professional.
“Late night?” Prentiss pressed after taking her coffee from the barista.
“You could say that,” Spencer nodded, his voice cracking. “How was your evening?”
“Mine?” Prentiss sighed, “Wild night. I took a bath and passed out to the hotel access channel.” She waxed sarcastically. “See you by the cars, Reid.”
Spencer placed his order, thanking the barista with a slight tilt to his head. He noticed Hotch near the entryway, speaking on his cell phone. Hotch was on edge with The Reaper in the wind. Spencer felt awful for him, knowing Hotch had lost his marriage to the job already. A tenuous situation was that much more paralyzing for someone like BAU chief Aaron Hotchner, someone who had to be in control.
The team assembled into the waiting SUVs and returned to Pasadena Police Department shortly after 7:30 am. The team dispersed into the previous decided assignments; Reid and Prentiss going through Y/L/N’s contacts and research. Just after 8 o’clock, a distinguished man in his fifties was escorted to the office the BAU had annexed for the case, by Detective Chang.
“Agents,” Chang announced,”This gentleman claims to be the guy who wrote the threatening letter sent to Dr. Y/L/N last month.”
“Who are you?” Emily Prentiss approached the new suspect.
“Byron Osbourne, ma’am,” the man nodded to the female agent with an English lilt to his voice. “I saw the press coverage footage this morning and knew I had to come forward before anything got out of hand.”
“Dr. Y/L/N is dead,” Spencer uncharacteristically spat at the man,”I would say we are passed out of hand.”
Agent Prentiss eyed Dr. Reid suspiciously. She then formally arrested and cuffed Mr. Osbourne. After reading his Miranda Rights, she passed him to the stocky lead detective who escorted him to interrogation room 1.
Spencer was quick to make the call to Quantico. “Garcia? We need background on one Byron Osbourne, a possible British national. He just voluntarily admitted to writing the suspicious letter Dr. Madison mentioned that Graham received nearly a month ago.”
“Good Morning, to you too, Boy Wonder,” Garcia grumbled. “I am all over this, but in the mean time... “How’s your reunion going?” The savvy analyst coyly pounced on the inexperienced doctor.
“I am going to hang up now,” Spencer responded testily, “And catch the unsub that killed my mentor.”
“But!” Garcia couldn’t use her vicious wit against a grumpy and determined Reid.
At some point during the night, you had found your way into your excessively large bed. Your body was stiff from traveling and sleeping on the unforgivably flat surface of the hotel room floor. The inside of your head was inflamed from dehydration, your chest gaping with the hollowness of grief.
The only reason you made yourself get out of bed for the day was because you knew you had absolutely no reason to do so. Across the pillow tops, you recognize the scrawl on a folded piece of paper Spencer left for you on the bedside table. You leave it, knowing that whatever he had to say could wait.
“But Aristotle didn’t say that,” Spencer argued, “That is attributed to Plato.”
“Sorry, Professor,” Your 18 year old self teased,”Ancient Philosophy isn’t on my course schedule until spring semester.”
Spencer had stopped over on a Tuesday afternoon the second summer you knew him. You were clearing the debris from your built in swimming pool, one of the many chores your Dad made you help with. You obliged because you were, in fact, the only one who used said pool.
“I’m just surprised you got that quote wrong.” Spencer twisted his lips in a smug smile.
You eyed him, shaking your head at his taunts. “Watch it, or you’ll end up in my net too.” You intended to whip a trail of pool water at the skinny genius, but he had hopped backwards, avoiding your wrath. You, however, lost control of the momentum along the length of the net, which knocked you off balance. You fell into the pool, fully clothed.
You remember the dread of trying to act normal when internally you were freaking out over the pair of black granny panties you had on underneath your now soaked khaki shorts. You stayed in the pool, chatting and cleaning until Spencer had to leave for the day. He always had to leave quickly, it was almost like he was sneaking over to see you. Though you knew your dad was fine with you spending time with his young protegee, you guessed your dad knew you didn’t interest Spencer that way.
You remember waving at him from the shallow end of the pool, as he walked his bike out of the side gate.
Morgan and Rossi were waiting for the M.E. to bring them back to examine the body of the late Professor Y/L/N, Y/N’s father.
“Oh, Baby Girl, please tell me you got some dirt for me!” Derek Morgan crooned into his phone.
“Easy there handsome,” Garcia directed. “I’ll give you work now, and need-to-know later.”
“That’s my girl!” Derek chuckled. His brilliant smile lighting up the dreary corner’s office.
“Byron Osbourne just confessed to writing that threatening letter to Dr. Y/L/N. Hotch and Prentiss are going to question him, very soon.”
“Garcia, who is this guy?” Rossi chimed in.
“He’s, well he’s, a wannabe,” Garcia confided,” He comes from money, old British money to be exact. He uses philanthropy to strut his family name about academia. But he never finished “university” himself.” She finished in her own mock accent.
“Wonder what the professor did to set this guy off.” Rossi supposed.
“Penelope,” Derek added, “Were the victim and Osbourne on any boards or committees together?”
“Oh sugar bear, you know I am all over that like a cardigan is on grumpus Reid,” Garcia muttered,”Hotch and Emily already have what they need. Now do you have time for the need-to-know? Or do we get to rendezvous later?”
“Later, Baby Girl, sadly I have a very different body to go examine,” Derek lamentably flirted. “Just warn me if this one is off the rails.”
“Nope, peaches, you’re good. I mean, Reid is good, “Garcia bumbled, “Well, who knows if that’s true, then. I’m going to stop thinking and talking now. Okay? Okay, bye!”
Rossi looked at Derek sideways, “That woman is very multi-faceted.”
“Oh, Rossi, you have no idea, man,” Derek agreed, shaking his head.
You had slowly gotten dressed. Remarkably you were early enough to make the tail end of the complimentary continental breakfast buffet held in the small nook off of the hotel lobby. You rifled through the remaining stale doughnuts, claiming a chocolate cake flavored one, that was calling your name. The ambience was perfect there, the warm sun coming through the skylights. You lied to yourself, pretending you were vacationing for a few quiet moments.
Your phone buzzed beside your mug of bland coffee. You check the name before answering.
OLIVIA MADISON
“Olivia, how are you,” You answer quickly.
“Y/N, hi, how are you?!” Olivia rushed back.
“As good as can be expected, I suppose.” You recite.
You make small talk and arrange to take lunch the following day. Cal Tech’s spring break was over, so Olivia would be lecturing for your father’s senior seminar in the morning. Your stomach lurched at the image. As another female nontenured professor in academia, you respect the shoes that Olivia has been asked to fill. You would be excited for her, if it weren’t so devastating.
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Spencer had just left his mother with a therapy group she had been attending for the summer months. He was finding it harder and harder to balance school and care for his mother as her disease progressed. The long summer days found him yearning for a more normal life, a less complicated, a less responsibility-riddled life. He rode his bike on the familiar route to Y/N’s house. Spending time with her made him feel like a regular seventeen year old guy, not a prodigy, not a caregiver. She was intelligent, funny and so easy to talk to. Y/N was a geek, too, a sheltered only child with a single father who was a celebrated Mathematics professor.
“Oh, a little saucy mare like you should have a steed. Oh, a little bridlin' down from you is what I need.
Darlin' companion, I tell the mountains and the canyons, Long as I got legs to stand on, I'm gonna stick by you.”
The crackling recording poured through the Y/L/N house as Spencer pedaled up the welcoming driveway. He knew that you were home alone, Dr. Y/L/N would never let you keep the speakers at that high of a volume. He left his bike near the back door that lead into the kitchen. The door was unlocked, so Spencer went in to find Y/N.
This was always when he began to panic, the time between entering their house and finding Y/N. Spencer scratched his neck as he made his way up the winding staircase in the house’s cavernous center. He wiped his palms on his pants and continued towards her room. The song had finished leaving the hum of the speakers awaiting the cd change in the air. Spencer cleared his throat, his head down as he knocked on the door frame to her bedroom.
The door was ajar, he didn’t hear Y/N inside as the next cd began. He knocked again as he pushed the door open, strolling into the room. Spencer froze, he had no idea how to move. There she was, on the bed, sitting on a bath towel, rubbing lotion on her outstretched leg. Completely naked. His prodigious mind was useless as his pants constricted around his sudden boner.
“Spencer!” You screeched when you finally saw him. “What the hell?!” You struggled with the towel beneath your butt, trying to cover your bare body.
Spencer spun on the spot, but didn’t flee. He just started reciting facts. “Did you know that many people attribute the model Betty Grable as the inspiration for women to start shaving their legs? The shorter skirts of the forties and stockings made it more desirable for women to emulate the style icon...”
“Spencer,” You shouted. “It’s okay, um, I’m covered now.” You had shut off the deafening grunge band that had followed the Man in Black. Spencer just stood there with his back to you. After a moment he sort of side stepped to the desk chair, where he crossed his legs. Finally he looked at your face. You were both blushing and couldn’t hold eye contact. You had thrown on your awful yellow terrycloth robe.
“Did you try “Margaret Thatcher” to cool him down?” You asked out of nowhere. You slapped your hand over your mouth. Why did you always say what was on your mind?
Spencer open his mouth to respond, then closed it. He thumbed his nose and sheepishly answered. “I don’t think I understand that reference, Y/N.”
“Ignore me, it was from a movie, when this British spy was trying to stop an erection,” You tried to explain, like you always did with pop culture to Spencer. “And I just said erection. Again.” You finally stopped talking. After a few agonizing minutes, you sat down on your bed.
“Spencer?” You asked, cautiously. Remarkably he hadn’t left, you both had just sat there looking around your bedroom and not at each other.
“Yeah?” He replied, his voice faint.
“I am very flattered.” You admit. “Is that alright to say? Like, I know it is does not prove anything, it’s just a thing that happens to guys and it does not reflect my level of attractiveness or not-attractiveness...”
“Y/N/N?” Spencer interrupted your rambling.
“Yeah?” You ask, your face growing warm and your chest feeling tight.
“I am sorry, that was rude of me to walk in without a confirmed invitation,” Spencer was talking to the pile of clothes on the floor. “Also, I want to apologize if I in any way offended you or jeopardized our friendship by making unintentional advances towards you. I just could not help it, honestly you took my breath away.”
What? Your brain was repeating the last words he spoke like a broken answering machine, ‘you took my breath away’. Shocked could not cover the amount of surprise that was flowing through your bloodstream at that moment.
“So you’re not like, traumatized?” You push, “Like seeing me, all of me, doesn’t change how you feel? Is it going to be weird now?”
Spencer, cleared his throat. “It only makes me care about you that much more.” He actually looked at you now, his brown eyes searching for yours. But he only holds your glance for a second, because this is so new, so unique for two friends to overcome in a few moments’ time. He smiles nervously, you are stuck in place as a ribbon of hope is sliding through your mind.
“Spencer, can I kiss you?” You said it, out loud. “I mean, is that something that would interest you? Am I a girl that you would like to, with, maybe?” In the entirety of your friendship you had not heard him mention girls like the guys on the floor of your dorm did, this was not a weird question.
Spencer blushed. “Am I a guy you would like to kiss? Or is this a test?”
“Not a test,” You held up your hands in mock surrender, smiling nervously. You stood up, walking towards your friend, who was now one of the only people to have seen you naked. Spencer stands up as you approach him, backing up into your clutter filled desk.
“Um, Y/N, I don’t know if we should be doing this.” Spencer’s hand was pulling at his hair, his voice catching.
“Spencer, can I kiss you?” You asked, but it was stronger than the first time. You wanted this and you were not getting reasoned out of it now.
“I don’t know how,” Spencer whispered.
You caught his bony face in your hand, looking up into his scared eyes you smiled, calming both of you for a split second. You took a deep breath and leaned in to him, with eyes closed and heart on your sleeve. After kissing his chin, you found his lips, his large hands were resting oddly on your shoulders. This went down in your shared history as the most awkward moment of your lives.
”The murder weapon appears to be a long, metallic, needle like instrument, about four inches long.” Dr. Shearer stated.
Morgan and Rossi were taking notes. Dr. Y/L/N was a typical guy in his fifties, he could have been one of Rossi’s buddies from his days in the Marines. The agents were being extremely diligent, for Reid’s sake.
”How many stab wounds were there?” Rossi verified.
”Thirty-seven.” Dr. Shearer replied.
”And no defensive wounds, Doc?” Morgan double checked.
“Correct.” Dr. Shearer answered. “The tox screen does show a decent amount of alcohol in his blood, but not over the legal limit. Perhaps he was asleep when the assailant struck, agents.”
”It’s possible, but he was sitting up right at his desk.” Rossi countered.
”No, that tracks; no defensive wounds, late night, maybe he had someone over for a night cap?” Derek worked further.
”What kind of strength did our unsub have?” Rossi went back to the coroner.
”Moderate, nothing impressive.”
”Are we looking for a female unsub?” Rossi asked cautiously.
“Mr. Osbourne, can you tell us why you would send such a violent letter to Dr. Y/L/N’s office?” Hotch asked succinctly.
“Well, frankly, I am extremely embarrassed about it now, as you can imagine.” Osbourne smiled placating.
“Let’s start at the beginning then,” Prentiss pressed. “How do you know Dr. Y/L/N?
“We were on the Board of Regents at the school, agent, surely you know that.” Osbourne cheeked.
“What made you write a letter stating that you, “Would see him destroyed?” Hotch asked.
“Well, he just so happened to vote against the use of some funds that would have benefited the school, greatly.” Osbourne elaborated.
“And would have trumpeted your name.” Hotch deduced.
“Well, if we had gotten to that stage of the development, yes, my name would have been attached to the project.” Osbourne admitted. “As it should be, I was a major backer and had spearheaded the development.”
Spencer shifted on his feet in the observation room. This man was a narcissist, but not the unsub. His patience was straining, he left Hotch and Prentiss to continue the interview. His long legs brought him to the evidence boards, his racing mind, back to the stack of evidence bags holding the papers Dr. Y/L/N was reading over the night he was killed.
Spencer Reid lost himself in the equations before him for the next few hours.
Your phone rang with an unfamiliar number. The amount of planning you had started with your dad’s lawyer had you seeing spots. Welcoming the distraction, you took the call.
“Dr. Y/L/N.” You answer.
“Yes, hello, this is Agent Morgan with the BAU.” A sultry voice answers you.
“How can I help you, Agent?” You wonder why someone besides Spencer was calling you about the case.
“I was calling to inform you, that the Medical Examiner has released your father’s body, ma’am.” Agent Morgan gently explained. “Now if you need help with arrangements, of any kind, please let us know and we will ensure you are getting the help you need.”
You exhale a ragged breath, “Thank you, um, Agent Morgan?” You answer, forgetting who you are speaking too.
“Yes, ma’am.”
“Can you tell me, did my father suffer?” You ask because you need to know how much to hate this son of a bitch.
“No, ma’am,” Agent Morgan soothed. “He was asleep when he was attacked, he never saw it coming.”
A single tear leaves a trail on your cheek, you sniffle loudly over the line. “Thank you, again. And, please, catch this guy.”
“We are doing everything we can, ma’am.” Morgan confirmed, “I don’t know if anyone told you, but we have our own personal genius working on it as we speak.”
You smile through your tears, this guy was a good egg. “I might have heard about that guy, takes a lot of sugar in his coffee?”
A pleasant chuckle answered your retort. “Yeah, that’s our guy.”
To Be Continued...
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(asks for fanfic writers)
Gonna do this out of order because one of them needs a readmore tag.
4. name three authors that were influential to your work and tell why
Ohhhhh boy.  Ohhhhh my god. What a tough question. Okay.
1. Guy Gavriel Kay - I read The Fionavar Tapestry when I was maybe 14 and it shook the foundations of my world, devoured everything else he has available, and even though as an adult I see a lot of his limitations he shaped me so much–huge amounts of my entire praxis of moving through the world as someone with chronic, persistent, unremitting depression came from him. There was a time when I thought I wanted to write exactly like him. My sense of scope, of story, of what to hold onto and what to let go, of what language can do.
2. @dsudis - Slash fandom generally has done a lot to help with my internalized shame about sexuality, about taking what we do seriously, but I think Dira’s the person who’s inspired me most in the past few years. Because sometimes the things we feel drawn to are weird and problematic and there’s no way to make them less weird or less problematic without taking away our reasons for wanting them–so she’s an inspiration and a role model for me when it comes to navigating that fearlessly and ethically.
3. Monica Hughes - whom basically nobody knows, but I do, because she was Edmontonian and I went to elementary school in Edmonton, so her books were pushed on us a lot. She was my introduction to science fiction–while other women I know came to the genre through the misogynistic greats, my hand was held by a comforting friend who knew the land I came from and spread women through the stars for me to follow. (Sadly, she died before I ever got to meet her.)
14. easiest character to write
Andy Scarlatti, queen of my heart. It’s not that she’s me–it’s that she gets to be angry, and that feels so fucking good to write.
26. story you’re most proud of
Still possibly “Les hivers de mon enfance”? It’s the most like I think my writing should be (it’s the Guy Gavriel Kay-est OMGCP thing I’ve written). If not that, then “leave your lovers like campsites”, because it’s complicated and long and has a plot and is complete, and it those things are so hard for me to write.
13. hardest character to write
Justin Oluransi. Cut for discussion of suicide, emesis, gore/injury, trauma, feces.
(*looks at trigger list* It’s not actually that heavy of a response, I swear)
Okay so for a year during my Masters I worked in a university counselling department. (It was great–I def recommend anyone with mental illnesses to see what their counselling departments and disability offices can offer them–although ask how they handle student suicidality before you disclose if that’s something you deal with–sorry, I’m getting sidetracked)
So a lot of people would come in looking really stressed and overclocked and fragile and say, “I’m having trouble with coping. I’m in six classes and I’m on the track team and I’m president of the student business association and I’m doing great but, you know, I’m puking from stress all the time, my hair is falling out, and I haven’t slept in three days. So what I need are some tools on how to better manage my workload.”
So the thing about therapists is you’re having a real human experience–we can’t just be replaced by clever robots because the experience of being seen and subjectively experienced by another human being is really valuable. But the downside is, everyone has areas of relative strength and weakness. Some therapists are better with some issues than others.
And the thing about me is that I’ve been mentally ill, disabled, and traumatized since I was a child. There are days when walking six blocks causes me a level of pain other humans don’t get unless they have broken bones or third-degree burns. The first time my mother told me she wanted to divorce my dad I decided to repress my emotions about it for 12 hours, and my fully adult body responded by making me literally explosively shit my pants the moment the child I was caretaking left the car in the loading zone at their school. My clinical area of speciality is complex trauma, also known as “being so fucked up for so long you don’t know what normal looks like and your issues literally won’t let you function”
My area of specialization is not “basically healthy people who want coaching to achieve top performance.” I have classmates who wanted to do that and had no affinity for complex trauma. They’re different specializations.
So I would smile politely at those people and say, “Have you considered dropping part of your workload to decrease the pressure on you?” and they would say “No!” in a horrified voice and we would stare at each other in mutual incomprehension, and I would try to talk to them about sleep hygiene and grounding meditation and cognitive distortions, but in the back of my mind I was like why would you do that to yourself just for social status and achievement and to please your parents? because whatever shreds of ambition or competitiveness or achievement orientation I possess have been ground very thoroughly under humiliating years of having to accept my very strict and unforgiving limitations.
I wasn’t a good therapist for them; I don’t think I’m suited for academic environments; students like that rarely came back to me for a second session.
And I see Justin Oluransi in them a lot. Frat bro, hockey star, 4.0 GPA, coral reef, about to break, so fucking strong and ablebodied and so fucking fragile. So when I write him my instinctive response is to swaddle him–wrap him up in cotton wool, let him relax and feel less pressured, remove the burdens on him. Let him get Bs or stop playing hockey or party less often. 
Where I trip up is that he probably wouldn’t want that–he’s one of those people who probably does physical exercise because it feels good, achieves academically because it pleases and interests him, socializes because he wants to be around his fellow humans. If you gave him my ideal retreat of a quiet, cozy, solitary vacation, he’d probably go stir-crazy. 
So like… a lot of me is tempted to read this “consulting” storyline from the tweets as Ransom seeing the light, realizing that he has to gracefully bow to his limitations and not put himself through the pain and horror of med school or further academia, but… when I write him, I also want to remind myself that he wants very fundamentally different things from me; we have chosen what are essentially polar opposites in some major life values. And instead of just smugly converting him to mine, I have to temporarily slip myself into his mindset.
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        𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠  here  and  do  i  have  the  tea  for  you  .  ariana  is  back  on  campus  ,  which  is  surprising  considering  the  threatening  note  i  left  them  .  yes  ,  i  know  all  about  how  despite  outward  appearances  ,  her  family  isn’t  as  picture  perfect  as  they  may seem  because  of  their  pride  .  imagine  the  tabloids  and  how  the  malabanan  family  would  feel  for  such  information  to  come  out  ,  not  to  mention  the  reputation  of  delta  because  of  their  actions  .  at  this  rate  ,  she  is  better  off  staying  put  in  beverly  hills  ,  california  and  living  off  that  $625m  family  net  worth  .  what’s  the  point  in  studying  applied  economics  and  management  with  plans  to  take  over  her  mother’s  abandoned  executive  position  at  her  family’s  company  ,  is  it  worth  it  with  what  i  know  ?  anyways  ,  they  may  want  to  continue  to  be  genteel  &  cosmopolitan  because  the  disingenuous  &  acrimonious  attributes  make  me  want  to  spill  .  (  kelsey  merritt  ,  remy  ,  eastern  )  .
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          hello  again  my  angels  !  it’s  remy  here  with  my  second  bby  ,  miss  ariana  !  i’ll  keep  this  greeting  short  since  my  one  over  on  christian  is  a  bit  lengthy  ,  but  i’m  super  excited  to  write  and  plot  with  everyone  !  i  will  admit  that  ariana’s  intro  is  a  bit  lengthy  because  i  pay  a  little  too  much  to  details  ,  and  i  also  placed  indicators  for  where  the  eating  disorder  trigger  warning  begins  and  ends  if  you  choose  to  skip  over  that  content  .  other  than  that  ,  once  again  my  discord  is  𝕥𝕒𝕕𝕒𝕤𝕙𝕚 𝐡𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐚#6936  if  plotting  is  easier  for  you  there  ,  and  i  can’t  wait  to  get  the  ball  rolling  !
trigger  warning(s)  :  mention  of  drug  addiction  ,  eating  disorder  ,  and  abusive  parenting  .
full  name ��:  ariana  bernadette  malabanan  . nickname(s)  :  ari ,  mainly  .  birthday  /  age  :  august  30th  ,  1998  /  21  . zodiac  :  virgo  . pronouns  :  she  /  her  /  hers  . gender  :  cisfemale  . sexual  orientation  : bisexual  . romantic  orientation  : biromantic  . height  :  5′8″  ( five  foot  ,  eight  inches  )  . hometown  :  paris  ,  france  . current  location  :  beverly  hills  ,  california  . nationality  :  french - american  . ethnicity  :  caucasian  and  filipina  . languages  spoken  :  filipino  ,  english  ,  and  french  (  college - course  level  )  .
         daniel  malabanon’s  family  immigrated  to  the  united  states  back  in  the  nineteenth  century  from  their  home  country  of  the  phillippines  .  through  the  decades  ,  despite  the  trials  and  tribulations  ,  the  malabanon  family  rose  through  the  ranks  of  politics  and  business  ,  with  daniel’s  grandparents  having  ten  children  between  the  two  of  them  .  the  malabanon  family  as  they  became  more  influential  in  american  politics  was  also  building  their  business  empire  .  while  daniel’s  grandfather  was  pursuing  the  levels  of  politics  from  law  school  ,  his  wife  was  pursuing  business  ,  with  the  dream  of  someday  having  her  own  cosmetics  line  .
          as  the  decades  passed  and  the  malabanon  family  amassed  their  meager  beginnings  to  becoming  a  part  of  the  country’s  elite  ,  soon  comes  grandson  daniel  ,  who  decides  to  follow  in  his  father  ,  uncle  ,  and  brothers’  footsteps  of  going  into  politics  .  smart  in  his  own  right  ,  daniel  heads  off  to  the  prestigious  university  of  pennsylvania  ,  where  he  pursued  a  degree  in  political  science  before  eventually  moving  on  to  law  school  .  of  course  ,  the  malabanon  name  was  known  throughout  the  country  ,  but  daniel  didn’t  receive  any  special  treatment  while  he  was  in  college  .  after  graduation  ,  he  keeps  his  head  in  the  books  as  he  gets  his  law  degree  from  yet  another  prestigious  university  (  columbia  )  ,  and  it’s  in  new  york  city  that  daniel  meets  his  future  wife  ,  wild  child  of  a  multi - billionaire  named  celine  duverney  .
         made  up  of  messy  ,  blonde  waves  and  the  liquid  courage  of  champagne  while  dancing  on  tables  ,  celine  was  the  youngest  daughter  of  a  billionaire  family  that  wanted  to  enjoy  her  twenties  despite  the  pressure  from  her  parents  .  she  was  determined  to  live  her  own  life  ,  and  even  though  she  was  getting  what  she  deemed  a  useless  degree  in  business  administration  ,  that  didn’t  stop  celine  from  enjoying  her  life  to  the  fullest  .  she  spent  summers  on  yachts  off  the  shores  of  a  tropical  island  or  would  splurge  in  neiman  marcus  simply  because  her  professor  told  her  one  of  her  papers  wasn’t  good  enough  .  while  she  was  in  college  ,  celine  was  a  kappa  ,  and  it  fit  the  blonde  well  considering  that  she  was  rich  ,  spoiled  ,  and  made  sure  that  everyone  around  her  was  fully  aware  that  she  was  getting  dropped  off  at  school  in  a  rolls - royce  and  never  (  absolutely  refused  )  to  eat  dining  hall  food  .
          when  it  came  to  daniel  and  celine’s  relationship  ,  the  two  started  dating  while  daniel  was  in  his  first  year  of  law  school  and  celine  was  a  junior  .  their  relationship  was  a  bit  of  a  whirlwind  ,  and  they  eventually  eloped  in  a  simple  wedding  on  the  beach  in  bali  the  summer  after  celine’s  graduation  .  little  did  the  couple  know  ,  is  that  at  the  time  ,  celine  was  pregnant  with  their  first  baby  and  eldest  son  dominic  .  celine  decides  to  be  a  stay  at  home  mom  while  daniel  moves  through  the  ranks  at  a  prestigious  law  firm  moving  from  summer  associate  to  senior  associate  ,  but  daniel  wanted  to  be  congressman  .  a  few  more  years  pass  ,  a  second  baby  named  naomi  is  soon  born  ,  the  family  has  made  the  cross  country  move  to  california  ,  and  daniel  is  running  for  congressman  of  california  .  
          the  family  settled  into  a  gorgeous  home  on  sunset  boulevard  . 
          after  running  for  often  twice  and  getting  beat  by  a  landslide  the  first  time  around  ,  daniel  is  elected  as  senator  and  celine  begrudgingly  becomes  thrust  into  the  public  eye  and  is  under  constant  scrutiny  .  the  malabanans  are  newcomers  to  the  world  of  politics  in  this  sense  ,  as  they’re  no  longer  skirting  around  the  edges  and  waiting  to  have  their  chance  at  all  the  glory  .  marriage  and  children  had  calmed  celine’s  wild  ways  ,  but  when  she  was  twenty - nine  and  their  last  daughter  ,  a  bright  eyed  baby  they  named  ariana  was  brought  into  the  picture  ,  everything  changed  for  the  worst  .
          to  naomi  and  dominic  ,  celine  was  a  wonderful  mother  .  she  baked  cookies  ,  they  hung  out  by  the  pool  ,  she  helped  them  with  their  homework  ,  but  as  little  ariana  grew  up  ,  she  was  not  the  apple  of  her  mother’s  eye  .  the  first  strike  against  her  was  the  fact  that  she  was  born  via  c - section  due  to  a  complicated  pregnancy  ,  leaving  her  mother  with  an  ugly  scar  that  remains  to  this  day  .  she  was  born  in  paris  while  the  family  was  on  vacation  ,  actually  coming  two  months  before  she  was  due  .  celine  was  annoyed  with  being  stuck  in  paris  as  she  waited  for  her  daughter  to  grow  stronger  ,  and  that  was  the  second  strike  against  the  innocent  child  .  being  in  the  public  eye  because  of  her  husband’s  job  made  celine  quite  conscious  of  all  things  appearance  ,  and  made  sure  that  she  and  her  children  never  left  the  house  with  a  hair  out  of  place  or  a  shirt  untucked  .  naomi  ,  the  golden  child  to  her  mother  ,  immediately  began  participating  in  beauty  pageants  while  her  dominic  followed  his  calling  and  focused  on  academia  like  the  men  before  him  .
          little  ariana  liked  to  play  ,  and  she  liked  to  play  hard  .  she  wanted  to  play  soccer  in  the  rain  with  the  other  neighborhood  kids  and  roll  down  grassy  hills  until  her  skin  was  itchy  ,  but  her  mother  ?  she  wasn’t  having  any  of  that  .  ari  was  going  to  be  prim  ,  proper  -- her  back  would  be  so  straight  a  ruler  would  be  jealous  ,  and  those  soccer  cleats  her  father  bought  her  were  thrown  into  the  trash  and  replaced  with  ballet  slippers  .  for  years  ,  ariana  was  no  longer  the  only  malabanan  kid  who  played  with  the  others  in  the  neighborhood  ,  and  she  now  had  a  strict  schedule  of  working  out  ,  school  ,  ballet  ,  and  studying  at  the  tender  age  of  thirteen  .  when  her  freshman  year  starts  ,  though  ,  ariana  abandons  her  mother’s  dream  and  trades  the  ballet  slippers  for  a  pair  of  cheerleading  pom - poms  .  with  her  infectious  personality  and  warm  smile  ,  it’s  no  surprise  that  ariana  makes  the  coveted  harvard - westlake  cheerleading  team  .
          and  while  most  mothers  would  be  proud  of  their  daughter’s  accomplishment  ,  celine  was  more  focused  on  her  daughter’s  appearance  than  anything  else  .  TW BEGINS  she  limits  what  she  could  and  couldn’t  eat  ,  often  making  snide  remarks  when  ariana  says  how  much  she’s  craving  her  favorite  cheeseburger  from  shake  shack  or  how  she  had  a  bit  of  cheesecake  after  dinner  .  celine  wakes  her  daughter  up  at  five  in  the  morning  with  a  hellish  personal  trainer  that  makes  her  run  their  expansive  neighborhood  until  her  lungs  are  tight  and  she’s  gasping  for  air  .  breakfast  is  smoothies  ,  lunch  is  only  soup  ,  and  even  then  all  the  good  things  that  ariana  craves  have  been  taken  out  .  she  has  to  be  skinny  --  she  has  to  make  her  mother  proud  .
          the  lack  of  food  during  the  day  leads  to  binging  in  the  night  ,  tip - toeing  to  the  kitchen  with  the  aid  of  the  housekeeper  ,  who  kept  a  hidden  stash  in  a  cabinet  her  mother  never  dared  to  open  .  binges  turn  to  regret  ,  tear  stained  cheeks  and  the  horrid  sound  of  ariana  hunched  over  the  toilet  as  she  begs  to  be  forgiven  for  the  disappointment  she  would  bring  to  her  mother  .  it  all  comes  to  a  head  during  ariana’s  junior  year  ,  when  she’s  gained  an  ounce  of  her  mother’s  affection  and  dark  circles  that  are  hidden  beneath  luxury  concealer  ,  and  it’s  the  annual  homecoming  football  game  .  dinner  consisted  of  four  baby  carrots  and  a  bottle  of  water  ,  and  right  as  ariana  is  lifted  into  the  air  to  perform  a  basket  toss  ,  she’s  falling  --  and  she  lands  on  the  unforgiving  ground  with  a  sneer  on  celine’s  face  as  she  watches  behind  saint  laurent  sunglasses  .
          ariana  goes  to  the  hospital  and  is  diagnosed  with  bulimia  ,  a  word  that  clouds  her  in  a  cloak  of  embarrassment  and  springs  tears  in  her  father’s  eyes  .  celine  is  uncaring  ,  picking  at  her  hundred  dollar  manicure  instead  of  caring  for  the  daughter  she  allegedly  loved  so  much  --  at  least  ,  that’s  what  she  said  when  she  spoke  to  the  media  .  ariana  is  pulled  from  harvard - westlake  ,  sadly  for  her  senior  year  ,  and  begins  the  slow  process  of  healing  .  her  relationship  with  food  becomes  healthy  again  ,  and  she  cries  when  she  has  cheesecake  ,  her  favorite  thing  in  the  world  ,  when  she  returns  home  .  TW  ENDS
          she  makes  the  decision  to  head  off  to  college  ,  putting  all  of  her  eggs  into  one  basket  when  she  only  applies  to  hollingsworth  university  .  she’s  desperate  to  get  from  under  her  mother’s  criticizing  eye  ,  and  to  finally  be  her  own  person  .  during  freshman  year  ,  ariana  pledges  kappa  in  hopes  that  she’d  make  a  dent  in  her  tainted  relationship  with  her  mother  ,  but  nothing  ever  seems  to  work  in  her  favor  .  she  makes  it  through  rush  week  and  becomes  a  pledge  for  the  society  ,  bouncing  on  the  balls  of  her  feet  when  she’s  chosen  on  bid  day  .  all  goes  well  until  it’s  time  for  a  little  bit  of  hazing  ,  but  ariana  finds  herself  with  the  short  end  of  the  stick  .  she  has  to  clean  longer  ,  take  one  more  shot  ,  staying  awake  an  extra  hour  while  the  other  pledges  have  gone  to  bed  ,  and  being  utterly  humiliated  when  her  kappa  sisters  discover  that  she  had  an  innocent  crush  on  a  boy  from  sigma  .
          ariana  drops  out  of  kappa  and  goes  the  rest  of  the  semester  stewing  in  her  upset  over  the  pure  humiliation  she  was  forced  to  endure  .  when  the  spring  semester  rolls  around  ,  ariana  still  carries  that  torch  as  she  steps  into  the  delta  house  looking  for  a  fresh  start  ,  and  it’s  the  society  where  she  remains  today  .  she’s  in  the  college  of  business  and  is  also  a  cheerleader  ,  even  though  most  would  assume  it  harbors  too  heavy  feelings  ,  but  her  constant  work  in  therapy  has  helped  her  regain  her  love  for  the  sport  again  .
          when  it  comes  to  ariana’s  personality  ,  she’s  something  of  a  spitfire  .  she’s  not  afraid  of  confrontation  and  she  can  be  extremely  petty  at  times  .  for  her  positive  traits  genteel  and  cosmopolitan  ,  ariana  is  respectable  when  she  needs  to  be  (  like  attending  galas  with  her  family  or  when  she  debuted  at  the  debutante  ball  in  new  york  city  )  and  since  her  family  traveled  as  well  as  met  dignitaries  around  the  world  a  lot  thanks  to  her  father’s  career  ,  ariana  is  quite  sophisticated  and  she  carries  herself  as  such  .  as  for  her  negative  traits  disingenuous  and  acrimonious  ,  it  simply  means  that  she  will  fake  the  funk  sometimes  in  order  to  get  something  she  wants  .  her  disingenuous  ways  especially  shows  when  she’s  being  petty  ,  and  she’ll  pretend  to  not  know  the  full  story  to  either  a .  confront  the  other  person  with  the  facts  or  b .  gather  up  as  much  information  as  she  possibly  can  .  as  for  being  acrimonious  ,  it  means  that  ari  is  bitter  as  hell  ,  especially  when  talking  about  kappa  .
secret  .
when  it  comes  to  her  secret  about  her  family  ,  the  malabanan’s  are  similiar  to  the  kennedy’s  in  the  sense  that  they’re  the  ‘  perfect  ’  family  with  no  issues  ,  on  the  surface  .  in  reality  ,  celine  leaves  daniel  frequently  and  jets  off  on  exotic  excursions  with  billionaires  she  just  met  ,  trying  to  get  back  what  she  lost  because  of  marriage  and  children  .  dominic  has  fallen  into  a  drug  addiction  he  thinks  no  one  has  noticed  ,  and  naomi  is  off  doing  whatever  it  is  she’s  doing  .  despite  that  ,  their  friends  and  extended  family  always  gets  the  perfect  holiday  cards  when  the  season  rolls  around  and  they’re  always  written  as  ‘  family  goals  ’  on  either  instagram  or  twitter  .
short  headcanons  :
ariana  lives  off - campus  and  in  a  gorgeous  apartment  (  minus  that  ugly  blue  bed  lol  )  .
she  drives  a  black  porsche  panamera  ,  and  she  originally  wanted  a  ferrari  ,  but  she  threw  a  minor  fit  when  her  dad  said  no  .  eventually  ,  she  got  over  it  .
her  style  ?  is  literally  all  over  the  place  .  one  day  she’ll  be  wearing  all  black  with  a  leather  jacket  ,  another  day  she’s  dressed  like  a  carbon  copy  of  outfits  on  pinterest  ,  and  on  another  she’s  wearing  high  heels  and  a  midi - skirt  .  there’s  no  in  between  for  her  ,  but  you  better  believe  that  everything  is  designer  ,  even  down  to  her  hair  accessories  .
she’s  most  comfortable  in  her  home  ,  and  there’s  a  chance  that  when  she’s  home  she’s  blaring  music  .  she’ll  be  in  a  giant  shirt  with  her  hair  tugged  up  in  a  top  knot  .
her  favorite  food  is  a  shackburger  with  cheese  fries  and  a  creamsicle  float  .  she  is  absolutely  obsessed  with  cheesecake  in  any  and  all  forms  .
wanted  plots  :
i  think  a  roommates  plot  would  be  so  much  fun  !  ariana  can  be  hella  standoffish  at  times  ,  but  she’s  probably  the  best  roommate  out  there  .
umm  ...  👀  i  don’t  know  about  you  guys  but  i’m  in  love  with  angsty  plots  ,  so  i’d  love  anything  like  that  .  whether  it  be  exes  ,  something  toxic  ,  or  even  a  friendship  that  turned  sour  ,  i’d  be  down  for  all  of  it  .
high  !  school  !  plots  !  i’d  really  love  to  explore  ariana’s  life  outside  of  her  struggles  ,  so  i’d  love  to  high  school  boyfriend  or  girlfriend  ,  crushes  ,  friends  ,  enemies  ...  anything  !
a  tag  full  of  desired  relations  (  which  will  be  updated  periodically  !  )  can  be  found  right  here  .  i’m  also  down  to  go  based  off  chemistry  if  that  works  best  for  you  !  i  also  have  a  desired  relations  tag  for  christian  but  i  forgot  to  link  it  ! 
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