#AUGH! NO i dont want to go over to your house at 8:30 PM. IM ALREADY GOING TO BED!! IVE RETIRED FOR THE DAY!!

[charlestrask]

man this SUCKS

#i dont know how i keep accidentally leading people on . this sucks #how to very politely tell someone that actually contrary to what vibes i may have been giving. i do not want to see you again. #literally every time i try something with someone during it im like ok. cool. this is going fine. and so im like sure ok we can see #eachother again. because at the TIME i was like ok cool this is fine. #and then IMMEDIATELY when i get home my brain always does a 180 and is like actually. #you need to be a hermit you need to be a monk you need to retire within yourself and only be best friends with yourself forever. #and i form a small hatred and fear of seeing that person again. even though it was FINE!! #wait. okay. beginning to understand what people mean when they say commitment issues. i am like a small frightened dog. #AUGH! NO i dont want to go over to your house at 8:30 PM. IM ALREADY GOING TO BED!! IVE RETIRED FOR THE DAY!! #also beginning to realize that i just genuinely dont want to be in a relationship. which is good i guess. now how do i fucking tell her 🤬🤬 #* #argh.