#APBS

[clpudsnstars]

I’ve just turned 18 and the world hasn’t caught fire.

I spent the better part of these 18 years planning to end it. Hoping to get in fatal accidents or praying for lethal illnesses.

I’ve spent countless days and nights sitting on my bathroom floor begging it to end, because i couldn’t take the idea of existing. I couldn’t see why i should go on.

It’s been two years since I decided to give myself a chance. Two years since i started looking people in the eyes and listening to them talk.

I’ve heard the birds sing and the wind speak. I’ve heard my friends laugh, over and over and over again. I thought that if there was ever anything worth living for it might be this.

I saw the best in people and was let down a lot. I was betrayed by people I thought would stay with me forever. I sat in my anger and it told me its name was grief. I sat with my grief and it told me its name was love.

I figured that it’s better to have loved people and to have been let down, rather than to have never given them a chance at all. My love for them taught me more about myself than anything or anyone else could ever.

I started painting again. I started smoking again. I started letting the little girl in me laugh more, with her laugh that was always too big and too loud for those around her. I found people who love her. I saw a little more of the world and realised how small my perspective has been. I decided I need to see more. I fell in love again, with someone I’ve missed for a while. I cried a lot.

Giving life a chance hasn’t been easy, in fact it’s probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. And I spend the better part of my days romanticising it so I can keep moving forward. But I’ve met so many people and I’ve felt so much love. I’m happy I didn’t end it.

I hope it’s only up from here

#words #dear diary #diary entry #birthday #words words words #poetsandwriters #apbs #18!! #jesus christ im old #i’m so scared #but so excited too #poetry #end #recovery #spilled words #talk to you later babies #thank you for reading if you have #cloudys word barf #spilled poetry #another vent #spilled ink #rants n rambles #short poem #personal vent #writers on tumblr

[oakappleday]

I love this so much

#queen camilla #she's just such a cool lady #I'm also always so fascinated by her continued friendship with apb. I think it's cool to be on good terms with one's ex #I wish I could be a fly on the wall for their conversations though like I bet they are wild

[romaroy]

Justin Kirk in APB s01e01 as Gideon Reeves

#justin kirk #apb #gideon reeves #jkirk #jeryd mencken

[whatiswrongwithlou]

#justin kirk #apb

[seud-luachmhor]

I was reading your fan fiction stories about Anne and Tim, very imaginative, Please write one with a twist everything cannot just be love,sunshine moon and rose's,.Tim's deployed, Anne's lonely, she's getting it from Andrew Parker Bowles, but Tim found out, so he goes to his ex girlfriend, she conceived, a child that he's been longing for,

I just couldn't, no, I'm sorry. I mean, I've said it before, but I can't do any sort of plot - my rickety brain can barely keep a thread of thought going, never mind a story. Plus, you're always better sticking to writing the stuff you enjoy, and for me, that is the love and sunshine and moon and roses of it all. ❤️☀️🌛⚘️ (Tbh the world is fucked enough as it is without any of us having to think about APB in any sort of way -no offence APB fans.)

But, cheers for reading and asking. Maybe you should have a go at writing the fics you want to read? 😊

#the only time i wanna think about APB is when him and Tim look accidentally married at Ascot #otherwise - ehnothankyou #asks

[jesterbells]

#my memes #sag strike #sag-aftra #sag #apb #breaking news #screen actors guild #wga strike #writers strike #writers guild of america #union solidarity

[heartsleybyul]

ugh imagine riddle falling inlove with you, in fact he chatted him out of the nowhere with a "hiya ! hru?" suprising him, did you need anything? now riddle isnt that well taught on technology but recently.. hes been spending more and more tjme on his phone.. even catching caters attention,, but although you and riddle dont meet in person, he feels warm and comfortable with even through text, as if hes able to let himself go freely and then all of the sudden you send him cute little pick up lines,, he feels his heart beating out of his chest as his fingers type on the screen hastily saying that "its inappropriate!" yet he finds himself re reading both of your texts.. then realization hits him, hes inlove.

#if you are in the apb server and is nian you know what this js based off #its 12:14 am here olease dont mind the typos #riddle rosehearts #twst #twisted wonderland #riddle rosehearts x reader #twst riddle x reader #twst x reader #✦ — thoughts written down

[weakling-grace]

Me at any given time ever:

#my sleep schedule is so fucked bc of APB #justin kirk #gideon reeves #jeryd mencken #dimestore darlings

[celestralferretdesigns]

Tawnypelt

#tawnypelt #tawnykit #tawnypaw #shadowclan #thunderclan #warriorcats #erin hunter warriors #warriors designs #warriors #warrior cats #digital art #deputy #the new prophecy #wc apb #clan cats

[undercoverpena]

Hoping you can help!!! I was reading a fic I thought was by you and now I’ve lost it and NEED TO find it 😭 it was a javi peña x reader, NNN/bet to not orgasm for a month, you work with him at the DEA and the first chapter you’re on a stakeout with him when things start getting steamy. Any ideas????

oh gosh, anon! I’m so sorry, I don’t think I’ve read that one! but let’s put a javi-APB!

people!!! do we know what this fic is? and if so can we link in the description and tag the author 🩷✨

#Javi-APB #asked and answered #kind souls #anon

[retrocgads]

USA 1990

#USA1990 #TENGEN #ATARI #ACTION #ARCADE #AMIGA #IBM #ATARIst #C64 #SPECTRUM #AMSTRAD #NES #MSX #XYBOTS #VINDICATORS #BLASTEROIDS #ROLLING THUNDER #ATARI LYNX #APB

[princessanneftw]

Princess Anne and Sir Tim Laurence planting trees in Bermuda in 2017 🌳

#cuteness #makes me think about what apb said about how he got her into gardening and plants when they got together #why’d they have to cut it right before she helped him water his tree #ffs #princess anne #princess royal #tim laurence #timothy laurence #british royal family #brf #throwback

[oakappleday]

Like, their continued friendship is just SO interesting to me

#queen camilla #apb #lord soames #royal ascot

[romaroy]

Justin Kirk in APB s01e02 as Gideon Reeves

#justin kirk #apb #gideon reeves #jkirk

[whatiswrongwithlou]

#justin kirk #apb

[la-novellista]

...solo tu puoi

E chi lo dice che non si possa sentire con gli occhi.

Se quando ti guardo sento il tuo desiderarmi , il tuo volermi, il tuo cercarmi, il tuo avermi.

E chi lo dice che non si possa guardare con le orecchie se quando mi accarezzi la pelle fa il suono più indecente mai udito, se quando mi baci le mie labbra ricordano il tuo nome come un'erotica preghiera.

Tu solo puoi.

#pensiero #a modo mio #Distorsioni emotive #Apb #Apnee emotive #Tachicardia d'anima #Solo tu puoi