#;sarcasm is my only defense ! (interactions - stiles)

[srcasm]

#srcasm m. stilinski

147 pounds of pale skin & fragile bones : with sarcasm as his only defense , mieczyslaw " stiles " stilinski : independent and mutually exclusive. unafilliated with tw fandom. canon divergent , heavily headcanon based + treated as an original character. driven in by willow ( she/her , 28 ) mature content , minors & personals do not interact. carrd ( personals , i'm not a resource for stiles. stop reblogging my stuff ) affiliated : vulpeshe ♡ , bansithe ♡ , foxfifteen

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[sparkwhorunswithwolves]

So, how much of Stiles just being mean do you think is a direct result of the werewolves (and hunters to some degree) using their abilities to force him in or out of situations against his explicit will and it being the only way he can fight back?

#teen wolf #stiles stilinski #Semi related to that dark Allison meta I reblogged (will reblog? Idk queues) #Because Allison is terrified and out of her depth for most of s1/2 and it translates into her wanting to kill everyone #But what about Stiles? He also needs to know‚ needs to be involved #And most werewolves he interacted with have either threatened him/his people or have otherwise taken advantage of him being human to force #Him to do what they wanted #Derek in Magic bullet/stiles room/together with Erica at the pool #Peter in 1x11/12 I can't think of anything else‚ anyone? #Scott during the first full moon/bb Derek at the clinic/a lot of their relationship in 5b #Malia just breaking into his room/scratching him #And he has no realistic way to fight back against most if not any of it #I'm 147 pounds of pale skin and fragile bones. Sarcasm is my only defense. #Stiles doesn't have Lydia's screams or Allison's weapons or training #His words are the only way he can pretend to fight back and not let everything just happen to him #Twin 1 threatens Scott's friends and Stiles immediately makes sure he's not seen as a victim #His entire relationship with a Hales in s1 is you're terrifying and could kill me before I even noticed but I won't just roll over and die #And by s4/5b he only really gives a token protest #He tells Scott explicitly that he doesn't want to leave the clinic but doesn't bother fighting back again explicitly telling him that he's #Only leaving because Scott is stronger than him and forcing him to #A Lot of 5b' let's get the band back together forcing Stiles to trust him again #Even the basement now that I think about it mirrors the pool #Stiles is so far beyond trusting Scott at this point but he has no other choice to rely on him to keep him alive because he's paralyzed #And can't protect himself #(kudos to anyone who has an idea what Scott and Stiles phone incident™ was. No seriously come talk to me) #He verbally acknowledged that Scott's making him do it but does it anyway because he has no other choice #So he's /mean/ because it's the only way he can fight back it's the only way for him to express that he did not want this #Because Stiles method of getting people to do what he wants isn't brute strength but influencing people to consent to it #Derek with danny/puking guy on the bus/werewolf yoda-ing scott/Malia is a mess on both sides/etc #So Stiles needs to say as explicitly as he dares I do not consent to this you're forcing me into this so they can't tell him you chose this

[leftinthedcst-archived]

“ no! don’t tickle me! “ (Malia to Stiles)

STILES huffed, a triamphant smile coming across his face. “Ah-ha!” he exclaimed, pointing up to the ceiling as if he just won a huge battle. Malia couldn’t fool him, he KNEW her. “I knew you were ticklish!”

He sat back on his bed, leaning against the wall. “You know, I’m a little OFFENDED that you didn’t trust me enough to just admit that you were ticklish. Being a badass were-coyote doesn’t excuse you of basic human functions. Now, I have the upper hand in ALL of our arguments and disagreements. You might as well just break up with me because I will hold this over your head FORVER. I will forever be preying on you, as the tickle monster.”

#scribedheart #( 010 ) >~> HERE IT IS! || ask box responses #( 001 ) >~> TO QUEUE OR NOT TO QUEUE || queue #[ INTERACTION: MALIA TATE / STILES STILINSKI ] #[[ MUSE: STILES STILINSKI ]] || SARCASM IS MY ONLY DEFENSE. || #[ idk what this is tbh ] #[ but stiles is adorable and him and malia have def had this conversation

[damagecompiilation]

tag dump - tv muses pt2

#;out of worlds #;do you know what it takes to be able to look like this... to be able to look normal? it takes power. (interactions - jennifer) #;look like the innocent flower but be the serpent underneath it. (character study - jennifer) #;you have to show them you can get back up. leaders don't run. (interactions - scott) #;life can't ever be all bad or all good. eventually things have to come back to the middle. (character study - scott) #;i’m 147 pounds of pale skin and fragile bones. sarcasm is my only defense! (interactions - stiles) #;some of us have to get our hands a little bloody sometimes. some of us are human! (character study - stiles) #;i'm just like you - one of the experiments (interactions - zach) #;doesn't it make you wonder what the success is going to look like? (character study - zach) #;i tried finding my happiness the right way. but i got desperate. (interactions - henry) #;in this realm stories are written in blood and tears. (character study - henry) #;there's one final twist... i am not the monster you need to worry about. (interactions - hyde) #;everyone sees their worst self differently. some as a mirror image others as a literal monster. (character study - hyde) #;when there's something i want... i'm good at tracking it down. (interactions - ruby) #;i sort of found someone in myself that was more than i expected. (character study - ruby) #;i'm not afraid to kill. i'm just... afraid. (interactions - lizzie) #;sometimes we have to kill them. but sometimes we don't (character study - lizzie) #;they weren't human. they were monsters. (interactions - kit) #;there is no god. not a god who would create the things i saw. (character study - kit)

[damagecompiilation-a]

tag dump for teen wolf muses - scott mccall, stiles stilinski, zach

#;out of worlds #;you have to show them you can get back up. leaders don't run. (interactions - scott) #;life can't ever be all bad or all good. eventually things have to come back to the middle. (character study - scott) #;sarcasm is my only defense ! (interactions - stiles) #;some of us have to get our hands a little bloody sometimes. some of us are human! (character study - stiles) #;i'm just like you - one of the experiments (interactions - zach) #;doesn't it make you wonder what the success is going to look like? (character study - zach)

[wheredidhiseyebrowsgo]

Hi!! This is a completely self-indulgent ask, please feel no hesitation to deny it if it’s too much! I feel like I’ve read a few but can’t seem to find many others that fit this criteria. So I was wondering if you could help me out!! I’m looking for Sterek fics where stiles is sick/hurt and Derek is super protective of him and maybe a dash of possessiveness coming through due to his wolf? Those are like my fav hyper specific hurt comfort fics and I feel like I’ve run the tap dry on them. Thx!!!

Hmmmmm....let me see.

College 301: Health and Wellness by midnightcas

(1/1 I 2,740 I Teen)

This was not on the schedule. And to be honest, Derek Hale wasn’t on the schedule either.

AKA Stiles gets sick during finals week. Enter our favorite grumpy college student.

I'm Burning Up for You, Baby by spaceprincessem

(1/1 I 3,683 I Teen)

So, Stiles was being good. He was staying out of trouble, letting his body rest and trusting that his pack could deal with the threat on their own. Of course, it was just Stiles’ stupid fucking luck that he would get kidnapped anyways. Really, it wasn’t his fault this time! The supernatural was just unfair! It was like they were moths and he was a giant fucking neon sign that read “Hey, I’m Human Kidnap Me Please!”

Ugh, what was his life?

Subject Style5 by Cuppa_Char

(1/? I 4,251 I Mature)

Derek. Cop and Zone Patrol Officer. It’s been 10 years since the fire. 9 years, 11 months and three weeks since he was given a permit to leave the Outskirts. 5 years since he earned a permit to work the zones. It’s only been 2 since the world found out about Manticore.

Stiles. Escaped Manticore Subject Style5. A sub-division from the X-5 line. One of a kind. Stiles isn’t like the others. He has a unique ability. One that none of the others have. And Manticore wants it back.

Hunters And Wolves by JusteAmusant

(3/3 I 6,077 I Teen)

Expecting to hear the usual, “go home, Stiles,” he’s taken aback when Derek asks, “Who the hell are Sam and Dean?”

“We’re hunters,” a deep voice rumbles behind him.

Stiles squeaks in surprise and whirls around, blinking rapidly to clear his vision so he can take in the two six-foot-plus hallucinations standing in front of him.

“Hunters,” Derek growls, and the fact that he has no idea who he’s looking at somehow makes it through the haze of Stiles’ brain.

“Derek, wait-”

“Hunters,” a second deep voice, with a little more roughness to it, confirms. He raises his gun and points it straight at Derek’s chest. “And we kill werewolves.”

The first fall by Iceaxx

(5/5 I 6,079 I Teen)

All Stiles wanted was some Ben & Jerry's for his Game of Thrones episode...

Still He Didn't Cry by Artymys

(1/1 I 9,402 I Not Rated)

After the Nogitsune, everything went down hill. Scott shunned Stiles; kicked him out of the pack and ordered the pack to not interact with him ever again. The death of his father and the threat of losing everything pushes Stiles to his breaking point.

Bruises and Bitemarks by orphan_account

(27/27 I 121,566 I Explicit)

Biologically, Stiles is weak. When he presented as an omega, he knew that to be the truth but that never stopped him from running his mouth as a defense mechanism. However, it could only save him so many times before he ended up pissing off the wrong person. After he's attacked in the parking lot outside of school, Stiles realizes he can no longer protect himself with just pure wit and sarcasm. When the attack lands him in the hospital, his dad forces him to pick between two options, report the alphas who attacked him or join a kickboxing gym run by omega rights activist and alpha, Derek Hale, a man Stiles has been in love with for many years.

Desolate by Vague_Shadows

(27/27 I 130,463 I Explicit)

Derek stops short the moment his eyes fall on the huddled mass in the corner. The beta lying crumpled there is trying desperately to make himself seem as small as possible and cover his most vulnerable areas. It takes Derek almost a full minute to realize who it is and another to realize that he’s wearing tattered, blood-stained remains of the clothes he disappeared in over four months ago. The acrid stench clinging to him tells such a vivid story of the atrocities he must have endured while he’s been missing that Derek thinks he might be sick.

“Stiles?” he asks in disbelief.

Do Not Go Gentle by MojoFlower

(51/51 I 195,878 I Explicit)

Derek Hale, Beacon Hills Alpha and Dom, wakes up in a dark cell already housing another captive – a mute, traumatized sub with a cruel collar around his neck. His only goal is to get them both free of their brutal circumstances; but even as he tries to get his young companion home, a bond between them grows. Nothing comes easily: danger and harrowing echoes of their ordeal shadow every step they take.

[bluestm]

                *     𝖌𝖗𝖊𝖊𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌𝖘 𝖑𝖔𝖛𝖊𝖉 𝖔𝖓𝖊𝖘   .    y’all  ever  wondered  what  an  actual  angel  looks  like ?  lemme  point  y’all  in  the  direction  of  oNE  zendaya  coleman ,  blessing  to  humans  everywhere . i’m  taking  the  torch  from  ares  n  her  beautiful  rendition  to  try  and  keep  this  lil  goddess  on  the  dash  in  the  form  of  my  darling  soft  sarcastic  fool , 𝒃𝒍𝒖𝒆 𝒔𝒕 . 𝒋𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒔 !  

  ⋆  ╰  another   year  at  hollingsworth  ,  another  year  of  the  big  six rivalry  .  i  hear  that  BLUE  ST.  JAMES is  ensuring  CHI MU OMEGA  gets  a  solid  pledge  class  and  stays  at  the  top  of  the  ranks  .  oh  ,  you’re  not  familiar  with  HER  ?  BLUE  is  the  ZENDAYA  look  alike  from  SEATTLE , WASHINGTON  .  a part  of  PC  ‘16  ,  she  is  majoring  in  HISTORY  and  has  plans  to  AUDITION  FOR  THE  AMERICAN  BALLET  THEATER  AND  REBUILD  HER  CRUMBLING  DANCE  CAREER after  undergrad  .  it  makes  sense  they  pledged  their  house  ,  their  SHARP-WITTED  &  ASSIDUOUS   attributes  make  them  perfect  matches  .  however  ,  their  ACQUIESCENT  &  OBSESSIVE  attributes  keep  their  name  alive  on  greek  rank  .  if  you  don’t  catch  them  dancing  to  SUPERMODEL  -  SZA  at  a  fraternity  band  party  this  year  ,  you’ll  be  sure  to  catch  them  nursing  their  morning  hangover  at  THE  CHI O  HOUSE  .  cheers  to  another  wild  semester !

⋆  ╰    𝑺  𝑻  𝑨  𝑻  𝑰  𝑺  𝑻  𝑰  𝑪  𝑺   .

𝒇𝒖𝒍𝒍        𝒏𝒂𝒎𝒆 :         blue    ocean    st . james   𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬         :        i  applaud  u  if  u  can  make  a  nickname  out  of  “ blue “ 𝒃𝒊𝒓𝒕𝒉𝒅𝒂𝒕𝒆        /        𝒂𝒈𝒆 :        september    3rd  ,    twenty  -  one  𝒛𝒐𝒅𝒊𝒂𝒄         :        virgo 𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓        𝒊𝒅𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒕𝒚        /        𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒔         :         cisfemale    identifying        with        she   /  her   /   hers    pronouns           𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏         :         openly    pansexual    ,  panromantic 𝒐𝒄𝒄𝒖𝒑𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏        :           student   at   hworth   majoring    in    history     (   with   a   focus   in   the  history   of   art    and    literature    )  and    minoring   in    african  -  american  studies   ,    aspiring    pro   ballerina   𝒉𝒐𝒈𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒔        𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒔𝒆        :        hufflepuff 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏        𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒑𝒊𝒓𝒆𝒅        𝒃𝒚         :       amy   from  booksmart   (  !!!!  ) ,  rory   gilmore    from  gilmore   girls   ,    stiles   stilinski   from  teen  wolf    (  !!!!!!!!! )   ,  grace  cardinal  &   cam  saunders  from  degrassi .       𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒊𝒕𝒔      :        -        melancholic  ,    overly-critical   ,    obsessive   , neurotic ,  teeteringly  non-confrontational   ,    astray   , acquiescent  ,  craven

         +                benevolent    , magnanimous    ,  tactful ,  inventive   ,   perfectionist ,   steadfast ,  sharp-witted   ,   rigorous  ,  assiduous  , sympathetic  

⋆  ╰      𝑨  𝑵  𝑻  𝑬  𝑪  𝑬  𝑫  𝑬  𝑵  𝑻 .

my  concept  was  that  her  mom  ,  sonya  ackerman  ,  was  a  world-renowned  ballerina  ,  like  one  of  the  first  on  the  east  coast  and  had  a  massive  studio  that  took  off  in  seattle  as  one  of  the  premier  ballet  academies  for  dancers  of  color !her  dad  ,  theodore  st.  james  ,  was  a  criminal  prosecutor  training  to  become  an  assistant  district  attorney  in  georgia  ,   but  would  commute  out  to  washington  bc  obv  blue’s  mom  isn’t  gonna  just  abandon  what  she  worked  so  hard  to  build  .  her  parents  were  a  rather  stable  couple  ,  but  blue  can  easily  admit  what  a  piece  of  work  her  mom  was  and  the  fucking  number  she  did  on  those  around  her

part  of  pushing  so  hard  for  success  meant  having  a  lot  to  lose  ,  and  sonya  made  that  the  driving  point  of  not  just  her  life  ,  but  her  only  child’s  ,  a  bright-eyed  baby  girl  with  a  gaze  as  pensive  and  thought-provoking  as  the  color  she  was  named  after  .  blue  ocean  was  a  miracle  ,  a  gentle (  but  rather  prone  to fixating  )  soul  from  the  moment  her  curls  came  into  the  light  of  this  world  ,  and  was  her  father’s  pride  since  the  moment  he  held  her  .  suddenly  commutes  were  that  much  harder  ,  the  tension  of  having  a  marriage  and  a  daughter  only  on  the  weekends  and  being  left  a  stranger  to  your  own  child  all  because  of  your  wife’s  unyielding  stubbornness  really  did  a  number  on  theodore  which  led  to  the  eventual  demise  of  their  marriage  :/

blue  doesn’t  remember  much  leading  up  to  the  divorce  ,  but  she’s  smart  enough  to  recognize  her  dad  didn’t  just  up  and  leave  out  of  nowhere  .  he  later  tells  her  he  was  sure  he’d  get  at  least  shared  custody  ,  but  the  courts  surprisingly  ruled  in  sonya’s  favor  with  no  rational  logic  behind  it  other  than  her  claim  of  motherhood  .  being  raised  with  the  world’s  weight  on  her  shoulders  hugely  influenced  blue’s  personality  ,  ballet  being  the  only  thing  she  remembers  as  a  constant  in  her  life  .  never  one  to  lash  out  ,  blue  took  the  oppressive  upbringing  as  an  opportunity  to  prove  herself  —  maybe  this  wasn’t  her  dream  ,  but  she  was  a  perfectionist  obsessed  with  control  ,  and  she’d  take  whatever  path  her  mother  put  her  on  and  do  a  damn  good  job  at  it .

highschool  was  highschool  and  she  was  gone  almost  as  soon  as  she  had  arrived  ,  graduating  with  only  enough  friends  that  she  could  count  on  her  hand  ,  and  whisked  off  to  the  city  in  which  she  had  heard  in  countless  of  her  mother’s  nostalgic  throw-back  stories  growing  up  ,  attending  julliard’s  prestigious  ballet  program  as  if  to  honor  her  late  mother’s  legacy  at  her  alma  mater .  

excelling  through  classes  ,  nailing  audition  after  audition  for  a  coups  de  ballet  role  but  never  a  principal  ,  blue  builds  her  reputation  among  the  new  york  dance  scene  with  grace  and  humility  ,  inching  her  way  towards  her  ultimate  goal  of  the  american  ballet  theater  as  paved  by  misty  copeland  ,  the  only  hero  who  even  compares  to  her  mother  in  blue’s  eyes  .  she’s  just  a  few  more  well-timed  performances  away  from  the  life  she’s  always  envisioned  ,  until  a  sudden  phone  call  flips  her  life  on  it’s  head  .  she  hasn’t  addressed  her  mother’s  passing  ,  nor  its  details  ,  and  it’s  unlikely  a  person  with  such  an  emotionally  reserved  disposition  such  as  herself  will  ever  really  come  around  to  processing  it  out  loud  .  the  news  hits  halfway  through  sophomore  year  and  she  makes  it  until  finals  week  before  she  spends  a  week  in  the  hospital  ,  unravelled  and  unhinged  ,  dehydrated  from  her  sobs  and  weak  from  her  inability  to  keep  food  down  due  to  an  unrelenting  anxiety  she’s  never  known  quite  like  this  .  this  subtle  childhood  nature  of  fixation  and  perfection  manifests  as  a  full  blown  obsessive  compulsive  disorder  diagnosed  during  her  psych  eval  ,  releasing  her  with  a  script  and  a  recommendation  to  go  somewhere  where  she’s  got  a  support  system  .

hu  ,  only  a  half  hour  drive  from  her  father’s  firm  and  the  current  school  of  her  childhood  best  friend  ,  receives  an  application  days  later  ,  declaring  an  interest  in “ a  change  of  pace  from  the  world  of  ballet  and  an  interest  in  their  world-renowned  history  program .  ” she  gets  sucked  into  the  greek  world  without  truly  meaning  to  ,  wandering  aimlessly  through  her  new  life  as  she  auditions  for  different  ballet  troupes  and  bombs  each  attempt  .  feeling  empty  ,  distant  ,  and  the  impending  sense  of  personal  failure  ,  her  new  sisters  in  chi  mu  omega  give  her  a  constant  push  of  go-go-go  to  fill  her  days  with  a  distraction  from  her  thoughts  .  senior  year  rounds  its  head  ,  and  blue  wants  to  spend  it  pushing  herself  to  return  to  her  former  glory  ,  eyeing  the  next  year’s  productions  at  the  american  ballet  theater  and  her  dream  to  once  again  reach  the  point  she  receives  an  invitation  to  audition  .  she’s  not  quite  sure  if  this  will  fill  the  void  in  her  heart  ,  a  void  she’s  sure  she’s  known  nearly  her  whole  life  ,  but  she’s  got  nothing  prepared  in  her  back  pocket  ,  so  it’s  really  ,  at  this  point  ,  all  she  has  left  .

⋆  ╰      𝑨  𝑵  𝑨  𝑳  𝒀  𝑺  𝑰  𝑺  .

for  a  lil  personality  blurb  ,  my  renditions  of  blue  have  always  been  really  soft  and  nuturing  and  i  want  to  keep  an  element  of  that  ? she’s  a  gentle  soul  and  part  of  that  absolutely  stems  from  her  upbringing  bc  her  mom  was  ..  .  .  .  not  a  nice  lady  lmao  .  but  somehow  ,  between  her  mom  at  home  and  then  her  mom  in  the  ballet  studio  ,  it  just  made  blue  more  compassionate  ?  she’s  admittedly  a  little  intimidating  ,  and  her  defense  mechanism  has  become  a quick  wit  that  manifests  most  amusingly  in  her  sarcasm  .  the  world  can’t  hurt  u  if  u  make  fun  of  it  first  ,  right ! i  also  wanted  to  sprinkle  in  a  little  bit  of  doe-eyed  buffoon  which  i  think  fits  in  well  with  her  whole  quiet  type  persona  ,  so  her  humor  deviates  into  goofiness  that  also  occasionally  manifests  as  an  awkward  as  shit  interaction  if  she’s  feeling  a  little  off ( as  in  :  the  bitch  has  a 50/50  shot  of  delivering  a  SEARING  burn  or  stammering  so  hard  she  ends  up  rlly  just  roasting  herself  :/  it’s  a  mystery  to  see  what  u’ll  end  up  w  when  it  comes  to  blue  ,  sigh )

delving  in  a  little  deeper  ,  even  if  she  seems  like  this  sarcastic  scattered lowkey  dork ,  who  gives  the  illusion  she’s  mellow  and  unbothered  ,  she’s  a  severe  overthinker  and  any  convo  longer  than  about  10  minutes  will  yield  to  the  fact  that  blue  is  constantly  stressed  the  FUCK  out about  the  smallest  things  .  she’s  really  observant  and  has  an  uncanny  ability  to  clock  ppl  ,  which  would  make  her  QUITE  the  devilish  fiend  to  exploit  ppl’s  weaknesses  but  alas  ,  for  a.  she  does  not  give  a  shit  abt  anything  enough  to  treat  people  cruelly  and b.  does  not  have  enough  braincells  to  spare  from  her  stress  and  misery  to  be  fiendish  and  manipulative  KSDJFKJSDHF  this  makes  her  a  really  great  person  to  tell  secrets  to  bc  literally  who  the  FUCK  is  she  gonna  tell ?  is  her  argument  n  lowkey !  she  right ! SDFHSKDHF  

contrary  to  what  her  performance  background  may  lead  many  to  believe  ,  she  really  is  not  fond  of  being  at  the  forefront  of  attention  and  feels  more  comfortable  lingering  in  the  background  ,  minding  her  own  business ,  and  staying  in  her  lane  so  catch  her  being  all  but  INVISIBLE  to  the  greek  rank  blog  !  her  critical  struggle  in  life  is  her  obsessive  personality  ,  deeply  rooted  in  the  trauma  of  being  riased  with  the  unyielding  expectation  for  absolute  perfection  .  she  has  a  hard  time  letting  go  and  comes  close  to  having  a  meltdown  if  things  in  her  world  arent  completely  under  her  control  (  as  exemplified  by  the  mental  breakdown  faced  during  the  most  stressful  time  in  her  life  .  )  she’s  incredibly  hard  on  herself  and  really  ,  truly  is  lost  as  to  who  she  is  without  the  fixation  of  perfection  in  her  life  .  this  is  incredibly  curious  due  to  her  selective  nature  —  in  terms  of  grades  ,  she’s  only  slightly  above  average  ,  and  is  rarely  interested  in  being  competitive  with  other  people  .  it’s  almost  exclusively  a  competition  with  herself  regarding  the  most  interesting  and  unassuming  things  : especially  considering  that  ballet  ,  her  whole  life’s  work  and  effort  ,  isn’t  even  her  PASSION  .  on  the  low  ,  she  kinda  hates  dance  culture  ,  especially  the  ridigity  of  ballet  !  like  bitch  wha t  the  FU C K  are  u  working  so  hard  on  it  for  ?  n  that’s  one  of  her  major  fears  ,  deviating  from  what  she  knows  and  pursing  her  true  passions  ,  because  at  least  with  ballet  ,  she  knows  it  and  she  knows  she’s  naturally  exceptional  — something  she  can’t  guarantee  with  her  true  passions  ( yet  tbd  but  have  something  to  do  with  art  history    !  ) and  would  rather  not  pursue  if  the  option  of  failure  ,  aka non-perfection ,  is  something  she’d  have  to  face  .

hcs  : she  doesn’t  drive  bc  she  doesn’t  have  her  license  as  she  has  rlly  bad  test  anxiety  and  ate  shit  all  4  times  she  tried  to  take  it  (  suffice  the  implication  of  her  failure  rests  in  the  sulking  pout  she  wore  for  about  2  weeks  straight  as  she  refused  to  try  again  a  5th  time )  ,  is  an  on  and  off  vegetarian  and  HATES  herself  for  it  ,  usually  that  friend  who’s  goin  “  i’m  not  sure  about  this  guys  ..  .  ..  ”    while  still  allowing  herself  to  get  dragged  into  shenanigans  ,  hates  her  own  drama  n  avoids  it  but  wants  to  BATHE  in  the  tea  of  those  goin  on  around  her  sdfsdfs  ,  goes  to  bed  at  9:30  on  the  dot  so  parties  are  oft  a  STRUGGLE  ,  has  strong  mom  friend  energy  despite  barely  being  able  to  manage  herself  ,  is  a  nerd  n  knows  it  yet  uses  nerd  as  an  insult  ,  cannot  cook  for  her  LIFE  ,  and  a  lil  pinterest  board  is     here   ! oh  !  and  she  does  NOT   fuck  w   being  touched  unless  u  get  her  express  approval !!!

plots  :  i  didnt  think  i  would  get  this  far  in  one  go  so  hit  me  up  on  dis/cord  for  my  list  of  plots  that  im  abt  to  pull  out  of  my  ass  ;))))

#rank:intro #* ╰ . 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐄 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐓𝐎 𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐇 / 𝑏𝑙𝑢𝑒 . 𝑭𝑰𝑳𝑬𝑫 𝑼𝑵𝑫𝑬𝑹 ; ooc . #i would have posted this a half hour ago but it fucking DELETED N REFORMATTED N I WAS BIG MAD >:( #but i ;-; finally bring u all my child blue !

[stardustlogan]

what are your favorite ships and why? (from any fandom you are in)

👀 👀 putting this under a cut because it gets kind of long. i chose one per fandom or this list would get ridiculously out of control lmfao

in no particular order, my otps:

logan & roman || sanders sides

you guys are probably painfully aware of how much i love these two. their dynamic—working brilliantly when together, wreaking absolute havoc when they’re on opposing ends, and never seeming to agree on anything despite their similar intentions, and their playful banter—is absolutely to die for.

newt & thomas || the maze runner

my first otp ever, i think. honestly the perfect balance between reason and impulse, chaos and calm, thought and action. there’s more than enough quotes in the books that shows how gay they are for each other. i would know because i bookmarked them oops

jake peralta & amy santiago || brooklyn nine nine

honestly, they’re one of my only het ships lmfao but their relationship has progressed so much from season 1… they’re married… i still can’t believe it. from an outsider’s point of view people might see them as a couple where one is a goofball and the other is a stickler for rules but in reality they’re both dorks and deserve each other.

magnus bane & alec lightwood || the mortal instruments

funny story, when they first interacted i messaged my friends saying something like “i’m kind of picking a gay vibe here” and they messaged back “they’re literally boyfriends, sapph” so that was my first introduction to malec. they’re the badass couple but they’re also soft af,,, they deserve the world and more.

david rose & patrick brewer || schitt’s creek

david’s tendency to be overdramatic, patrick’s sarcasm, and the banter they share is the reason i’m alive,, their relationship is so adorable and you can See how smitten patrick is with david since the moment they met. you know those moments when patrick teases david and then kisses him to make him feel better? i’m gone. 

john watson & sherlock homes || sherlock

i tend to oscillate between fandoms a lot, but johnlock is a ship that i always manage to fall back to. the change in sherlock after meeting john, their domestic moments that we get to witness, and pure love and respect they feel for each other—that we can clearly see—is beautiful. 

tony stark & stephen strange || marvel

they aren’t the otp of my otps, but if it means anything i did go straight home after watching avengers: infinity war last year and read the entirely of the ironstrange tag on ao3 so there’s that. i mean, come on, the wink and the smirk, the tentative alliance they make, them making sure they’re okay when in distress (on both ends, multiple times :D), and their spider son… there Are reasons.

misc; ships that i shipped very briefly / only lowkey ship

- stiles stilinski & lydia martin || teen wolf- sam wilson & bucky barnes || marvel- alexander hamilton & thomas jefferson || hamilton

okay i literally have no explanation for the last one but in my defense we were learning about hamilton and jefferson in history and a girl said “they fight like a married couple” and i was CURIOUS and before i knew it i was reading a 40k jamilton fic at 3am

#ask #anonymous #shh sapphire #3 of my 7 otps are canon #i consider myself lucky

[bonkaiqueen]

ok then harry potter, teen wolf, shadowhunters

harry potter

the character i least understand: voldemort

interactions i enjoyed the most: the twins 3

the character who scares me the most: voldemort, i guess

the character who is most like me: luna, hermione

hottest looks character: sirius prob

one thing i dislike about my fave character: draco was a racist bully

one thing i like about my hated character: idek i guess i like how snape loved lily (bc she’s amazing and deserves all the love - other than that sn*ly is trash)

a quote or scene that haunts me: all of dumbledore’s quotes tbh

a death that left me indifferent: none oh my god. crabbe?? voldemort???

a character i wish died but didn’t: umbitch

my ship that never sailed: dramione *sniffs*

teen wolf

the character i least understand: deucalion

interactions i enjoyed the most: stydia, sciles, maleo

the character who scares me the most: alpha!peter

the character who is most like me: stiles (sarcasm is my only defense)

hottest looks character: stiles or liam s4/5

one thing i dislike about my fave character: nothing

one thing i like about my hated character: nothing

a quote or scene that haunts me: “scream lydia scream”

a death that left me indifferent: victoria, aidan, erica, boyd, donovan, etc.

a character i wish died but didn’t: kate

my ship that never sailed: maleo

i’m really sorry but i haven’t watched enough of shadowhunters to answer this :) thank u tho! 

#sorry this is really late #hp #tw #anon

[perfectioncursed]

❤ stiles

ultimate ship meme || accepting || @oftroubledsouls

affectionate: holding hands | cheek kisses | hugs from behind | cuddling | hand kiss | PDA | spooning | shared baths | whispers | affectionate texts | caressing | stroke hair | no displays of affection

sex:  shower sex | wall sex | neck bites | oral | morning sex | drunk sex | public sex | backseat of car | BDSM | no sex

dates:picnic | cinema | restaurant | sports game | hike | coffee | museum | club | bar | beach | no dates

would my character…marry them? yes | nohave sex on the first date? yes | noconfess their attraction first? yes | nohave children/adopt? yes | no die for your character? yes | no cheat on your character? yes | no lie to them? yes | no cuddle after sex? yes | no

#oftroubledsouls #[ interactions ] sarcasm is my only defense → stiles stilinski ( oftroubledsouls ) #[ meme ] what does he have to say about a teenage girl’s diaries #did you know i love these two

[leftinthedcst-archived]

‘  the fact that sloths aren’t extinct somehow proves that if you go at your own pace and mind your own fucking business you too can succeed.  ’ @whoever you’re feeling right now!

stiles stared at her for a good few seconds, trying to process exactly what was said. there may have been a blunt pinched between his pointer and middle finger as he visibly broke down what she said. “ya know what?” he said, leaning back on the wall before taking another hit, inhaling deeply through open lips. “you’re totally right. i’m totally going to start saying that to people. like, finstock, when he bitches at me for breathing.” he chuckled to himself at the thought, shaking his head. “that’s the best thing you’ve ever said.”

#selfxmadexqueen #tw: drug use #[[ MUSE: STILES STILINSKI ]] || SARCASM IS MY ONLY DEFENSE. || #[ INTERACTION: ALIYAH ANDERSON / STILES STILINSKI ] #[[ VERSE: A HUMAN AMONG WEREWOLVES. ]]

[leftinthedcst-archived]

‘ i hate knowing that people that ruined parts of me still live and function like nothing ever happened. ’ (for whoever)

Stiles felt bad for Derek, he couldn’t say he didn’t. When your whole family was taken from you, it sucked. But it sucked even more that Derek felt that he had a part in it. And sure, he did, but there was nothing that he could do to turn back time. None of them could. If he could turn back time, maybe he would’ve gotten the fuck away before he killed Allison. Before he did any of the shit that he had fucked up on. And there was a lot of it.

“Well, that’s the thing about life,” Stiles started, making overly dramatic motions with his hands as he spoke. “You can either sit around and bitch about it, being all sad and shit, or you can make yourself better from it. What does it matter if they’re still walking around, when you have the potential to actually be a good person? You still have that potential, dude, but you’re wasting the years away pining about people that have ruined you. Instead of that, work on making yourself better.”

#fireorphaned #[[ MUSE: STILES STILINSKI ]] || SARCASM IS MY ONLY DEFENSE. || #[ INTERACTION: DEREK HALE / STILES STILINSKI ] #[[ VERSE: TEEN WOLF ]] #( 010 ) >~> HERE IT IS! || ask box responses

[leftinthedcst-archived]

🍆 stiles oops

NOT-SO-ACCIDENTAL NUDE // ACCEPTING.

[[ sms: barbie werewolf ]] uh.

[[ sms: barbie werewolf ]] was that meant for me?

[[ sms: barbie werewolf ]] if it wasn’t, i def didn’t look.

[[ sms: barbie werewolf ]] wow though

#vampbarbic #[[ MUSE: STILES STILINSKI ]] || SARCASM IS MY ONLY DEFENSE. || #[ INTERACTION: CAROLINE FORBES / STILES STILINSKI ] #[[ VERSE: A HUMAN AMONG WEREWOLVES. ]] #( 010 ) >~> HERE IT IS! || ask box responses

[leftinthedcst-archived]

‘  let me just make one thing clear… i have no clue what’s going on, ever, at any moment, at any point in time. who knows what’s going on? not me. not ever.  ’ to stiles

STILES pursed his lips together, offering a shrug and a head nod. “Fair enough.” He stopped for a moment, turning his head towards the redhead. “You pretty much just described my entire life. Does it look like I know what I’m doing? NO. Does it look like I know what’s going on? NO.”

He shrugged,”I don’t know shit until Scott decides it’s convenient to fill me in. Kind of frustrating sometimes, considering he has the memory of a GOLDFISH WITH DEMENTIA.”

#thatfirehairedshifter #[[ MUSE: STILES STILINSKI ]] || SARCASM IS MY ONLY DEFENSE. || #[ INTERACTION: KASSANDRA MORGAN / STILES STILINSKI ] #[[ VERSE: TEEN WOLF ALT. ]] #( 001 ) >~> TO QUEUE OR NOT TO QUEUE || queue #( 010 ) >~> HERE IT IS! || ask box responses

[leftinthedcst-archived]

‘ youre a coward if youre not on the way to my house right now to give me a kiss ’ - ( to stiles )

THAT was enough for Stiles to not question anything in life ever again. Like ever ever ever again. He thinks he actually broke a world record with the amount of time it took him to throw on actual clothes and jump in his jeep and arrive to Caroline’s house. He’s pretty sure he temporarily turned into Sonic the Hedgehog, so maybe he WAS supernatural after all.

You definitely couldn’t have guessed that he was so quick, because he sat out in his car for, like, five minutes trying to get his hands to stop shaking so he didn’t look like an absolute IDIOT. After a sufficient internal pep talk, he walked up to the front door, hesitating before knocking. Alright, Stilinski, game time.

#vampbarbic #[[ MUSE: STILES STILINSKI ]] || SARCASM IS MY ONLY DEFENSE. || #[ INTERACTION: CAROLINE FORBES / STILES STILINSKI ] #( 001 ) >~> TO QUEUE OR NOT TO QUEUE || queue #( 005 ) >~> ASK ME SOME THINGS! || ask box prompts

[leftinthedcst-archived]

“are you keeping me a secret?” ( Malia to Stiles )

STILES looked back at the werecoyote, an obvious look of offense on her face. Well, he couldn’t blame her. It wasn’t until he saw the look on her face that he realized he had practically shoved her away from him when he had heard someone turning the corner. It wasn’t necessarily INTENTIONAL, but instinct. As far as he was concerned, Malia had only wanted something casual, relaxed. But, by the slight anger on her face, he realized that he probably had not taken the best route of action.

“What? No,” he stammered, turning to face her completely. “I just didn’t think PDA was apart of the arrangement, Y’KNOW?”

#scribedheart #[[ MUSE: STILES STILINSKI ]] || SARCASM IS MY ONLY DEFENSE. || #[ INTERACTION: MALIA TATE / STILES STILINSKI ] #[[ VERSE: TEEN WOLF ]] #( 010 ) >~> HERE IT IS! || ask box responses #( 001 ) >~> TO QUEUE OR NOT TO QUEUE || queue