#4. die i guess

[ftcatv]

2 | NEON from @falloutober prompts i swear im not gonna make all these prompts about nick

#oh man that background took me way too long #i was wondering recently about contrast in my pieces #my art is always so soft and i guess thats not a bad thing some people might even say its my *style* #i dont really mind but its not really an artistic choice - more a lack of commitment you know #i think im afraid to go BOLD #so i really wanted to yk try to really embrace the *noir* vibe #*snorts* my art style is just die and retry #fallout 4 #falloutober2023 #nick valentine #fallout companions #fallout 4 fanart #fo4 #ftcat ftcating

[inkskinned]

one of the oddest arguments i've ever gotten into was like. i had agreed to give a dude a chance. we were on a first date. and he got. just. so mad. because i had told him i read about 2-5 books a week.

but he found out it was actually that i listen to 2-5 audiobooks. he was dead set on the idea - that's not reading, it's just listening. that i was lying, somehow, by implying i'd "read" the book.

language has a beautiful ability to adapt over time, particularly in the face of technology. when i "connect to the internet" i'm referencing the oldschool method of literally plugging into the internet - which i very rarely physically do. i roll down my window, which is a reference to the circular mechanical action it used to take. hell - the floppy disc remains our resolute save file icon. when i say i "ran to the store," nobody expects me to actually run - and what my version of running to the store looks like and your version are probably pretty different.

i told the guy, baffled: i look at things through glasses, that's still seeing. nobody complains i'm filtering the image.

he says: that's not the same and you know it.

i use audiobooks because i have adhd, and it makes it so i can actually focus. i am using it to help a medically diagnosed condition.

language also has a really cool ability: when we read something, our brains look at a word and make an image. when we hear a story, our brains hear a word and make an image. whether we hear it or read it - the word means the same thing, written or spoken. there is no quantifiable difference in the knowledge-encoding experience - i still happily hallucinate while i'm listening.

and i just kind of stared at him while he was telling me that "claiming" i had "actually read" a book that i had actually-listened-to was lying

and my only baffled response was like: "... are you gatekeeping the experience of... reading?"

#1. do you think someone who listens to 2-5 books a week DOESNT read with her eyes? #2. i was fucking BLIND for TWO MONTHS #so YEAH maybe im SENSITIVE #3. shut the FUCK up i am not DESTROYING SOCIETY by being like ''hahaha this experience is basically the same for me'' #i am still fucking engaging with the literature dude #4. i consider it reading. die mad about it #5. this is just a personal note but they are LITERALLY equivalent to me #bc i mean i guess 7k posts in i should probably finally admit #i have a lowkey form of synesthesia #to be fair i didn't know until like this year when my therapist was like #''... you WHAT'' #but like when im talking i see words and when im writing i legit hear them #like HEAR THEM #i just thought everyone had that #thats called thinking #but it turns out the fact that i sometimes mishear a word and write down what i misheard #means maybe i am fuckt a little in my head #anyway obvi when i read i hear the word too #i cAN sometimes see other people's words but it's usually just my own #and i was like #(again) #thats just like how . people talk #but it turns out if u sometimes misread what you're supposed to be saying #something might be . uhhhhhhhh #not normal #fun fact. #it turns out (i havent googled but she said) #that it's not UNUSUAL for neurodiverse people to have like #SOME lowkey form of synesthesia #but we only associate it with REALLY severe cases so we just assume like .... couldn't be me

[cccotard]

quick littol joe :p

#hes so awesome #love him so bad i have like 4 wips with him in it its crazy #joe pilled recently i guess #Alsooo i ordered a handful of stickers last night. !!! so keep an eye out for the next couple weeks !!! #anyways #joe tazuna #yttd #your turn to die #yttd fanart #your turn to die fanart #kgs #kimigashine #joe yttd

[hamartia-grander]

I'm a real tragedy enjoyer but Luis's death is no longer narratively enjoyable for me, now it just feels like an insult. I'm tired of characters having to die to be "redeemed". It's not their death that is the redemption, it's the fact that they were willing to die in the first place; it's the intent of sacrifice. I much prefer a narrative where Luis survives and is forced to every day atone for his past mistakes. I much prefer when characters don't get the respite of death, when they have to live with their demons, when they have to face their past and maintain their growth. And it's especially maddening when the only reason Luis dies is because he did in the original. They'll change his character so much to give him substance but they won't change his fate? I don't want that.

#Rant I guess. Idk the more I think about Luis's death the more I realise why it's never really satisfied me narratively #resident evil #Luis Serra #Luis Serra Navarro #Resident evil 4 remake #Resident evil 4 #Re4 #Re4 remake #Re4r #Luis Babygirl Serra #Like. One of the things I love so much about star wars the last jedi. Besides it being the best SW movie. Is that Finn doesn't die. #He is so ready to sacrifice himself and that's a big significance to his character development. But he doesn't. Die. #Because it's not death that redeems you it's the intent of sacrifice in the first place #If someone wasn't willing to die for a cause and they did that doesn't make them a martyr that doesn't mean they're redeemed #Look at kylo ren! Fuck that guy! He wasn't redeemed at all! Yet he died #Idk I'm just. I'm just tired of Luis's death not being given more thought like the rest of his character was #At first I was like ah yes I love the tragedy of it but now I'm just tired

[geekgirles]

At this point, if Amalia doesn't end up fusing/becoming the Tree of Life to ensure her people's well-being, I don't know if I should feel disappointed or relieved.

#on the one hand yay!! #maybe she won't actually die!!! #on the other hand #if she doesn't end up becoming something super cool and essential to her people then what's the point of her not appearing in Waven? #i mean as long as she doesn't die-die and nothing else I guess I'll be good? #wakfu #wakfu season 4 #wakfu spoilers #wakfu season 4 spoilers #amalia sheran sharm #sadida #armand sheran sharm #tree of life #ankama #krozmos #yugo the eliatrope #yumalia #waven

[minty364]

DPXDC Prompt #34

Season 4 Spoilers for Harley Quinn below

So like, I’m still a little mad that they killed Nightwing in Harley Quinn, so what if Danny is with her that night and he stops her from killing Nightwing… that’s it that’s the idea

#dp x dc prompt #dp x dc #dc x dp #danny fenton #danny phantom #batman #harley quinn #nightwing #I want to tag nightwings ass again but I feel bad because he died #why did he die? #I know this prompt is a little lazy but like I’m really upset about this LMAO #i feel so strongly about this #I guess you could have Danny overshadow her and like get stuck temporarily until whatever she was on that night wears off #harley quinn spoilers #spoilers #s4 spoilers #season 4 spoilers Harley Quinn

[ty-ty-the-tyler]

First post! Decided to post my favorite little fellow.

H E A D A C H E .

#crying child #evan afton #fnaf #fnaf au #fnaf 4 #He is my everything god i would die if he died #wait #he did die oops guess im dead now

[bumblingbabooshka]

Do you think Kes' ability to pick up on things so quickly is linked to her being an Ocampa? Like, since she's 2~ years old in canon (and has distinct memories of her father) I imagine her species doesn't spend much time as children and I wouldn't imagine they'd have formal schools (like entire buildings for schooling) and would instead learn from like, primarily parents or other elders. In that case learning things very quickly would be extremely beneficial for their survival. Kes: Oh yes, childhood...what a lovely few days~ Kes was a baby like for a day and then the next day she was up and ready to learn. Kes meets Naomi and every day that passes she becomes more and more amazed that she's still a baby. Wow! It's been like two months and she still can't do anything?? The doctor told her it was normal but wow. What I'm saying is they should have had Kes as a jack-of-all-trades character who could slide into pretty much any of the teams on Voyager. The Doc misses her when she's not in sickbay though!

#Kes: Doctor I'm sorry this is just the sort of wisdom you have when you get older v_v #Doctor: You're only 2 years old. / Kes: You're 'only' a few months old. #Can you imagine Kes learning that Tuvok's like a hundred? That'd be like someone saying they're over a million years old in Human aging #I'd imagine even Janeway's 40~ years is like a hundred to her #Kes gives Samantha Wildman a very difficult biology book and is like 'for When Naomi's.....(trying to guess)....4?' #'Kes is a child because she's 2 years old' boo - engage with the unused horror and hilarity of a humanoid species that is fully matured #before they are a year old. #I just think Kes is a very interesting character who had a lot of WASTED potential (like seriously she was SO squandered) and I wish she #wasn't only mentioned to like dunk on Neelix - she's a fun character in her own right even if the writers don't think so!! #Kes #st voyager #I wish Kes had stayed so we could see the makeup department try to make her look old or the writing team bullshit ways to keep her young #It would also have been emotionally devastating to see her die of old age (in the version of Voyager where she bonded with the crew and had #more episodes devoted to her personality etc etc) #Doc: What're you learning today?? / Kes: Lieutenant Torres is teaching me rocket science :)

[blorbodiaz]

- They Both Die At The End by Adam Silvera

#guess which book i just finished reading heh #…PAIN #anyway im sorry #angel edits 911 #911 on fox #911 season 4 #911 edit #eddie diaz #evan buckley #buddie #buddie edit #they both die at the end

[randomthunk]

I'm finally in DS9 season 7 and oh my GOSH how cute are Kira and Odo, it makes my kokoro go doki doki.

#star trek ds9 #star trek #kiraodo #kira nerys #odo #odo ital #kat arts #fanart #it's White Day that's my excuse (I don't need an excuse) #I'm just crying at how cute they are or laughing because they're still like 'go hard or go home' on everything #'well if this is a problem I GUESS I'LL DIE FOR IT' 'ME TOO' #I'm only like 4 eps in to s7 but one of the recent ones was Kira inviting Ezri to dinner and Odo is over her shoulder like 'ouo' #and Kira going '=<= he counts how much I chew pls come to dinner to distract him' #*pounds fist on desk* I. love. them. your. honor.

[electoons]

she was the silliest billy 🥹

#dogs #rip babygirl i love you so so so so much you were better than all of us #mia.txt #jojo #we had to remove all her front teeth not long after we got her bc they were rotted so i have a ton of pics of her sticking her tongue out #she had a sense of humor too btw she was so playful #she was abused in the past so it took her about a full year to trust us but once she did she was so so so loyal and loving #mia.jpg #goddd i wanna die i cant believe im like. looking at pictures from two weeks ago where she was running and playful #and in the past week she just. gave up. she just stopped eating and stopped being able to even stand on her own #i had to hold her while she used the bathroom cause she kept losing her balance :( #sorry if this is too gross and upsetting i just. feel like i need to reach out. to anyone #like she was diagnosed with chronic kidney disease with no real chance of recovery several months ago so i should have like #prepared myself. but idk i guess i just had blinders on lol. the vet said his dog lived with it for 4 years before dying #idk. i guess i just thought she could survive longer

[joelletwo]

way too late to be articulating this thought but every time i loop hayloft and see the goofy utsuro!takasugi->oboro!takasugi noooo lil sibling dont kill sensei by killing sensei. kill sensei by killing ourselves. convolution. i am more and more fueled into getting as stupid as i can in my gntm postcanon lol. takasugi's eye has always been fine and he crawled out of that tower miraculously alive. so did oboro. separately. bc they. separately. uno reverse took over shouyou and utsuro's bodies respectively. all the other altana bodies in the terminal died for real tho so shouyoutsuro did as well. so whos that baby? why its my good friend shouyou(tsuro. theyre integrating.) the fourth :)

and the shouyou body takasugi took over just had a normal ass stab wound thats easy street hes fine now. but the utsuro body oboro took over was 1. largely metaphorical 2. also stabbed 3. more importantly underwent ego death something bad. so oboro's still on borrowed time he just gets enough to hang out with everyone until they get bored of him after a month and then he goes crawls in the woods and dies. one more time

#sopping wet gintoki posting #oboro gets to play peekaboo w baby shouyou and then get his ass kicked sparring w child shouyou #and they spend a lot of time playing. throws a dart at the wall. stardew valley together. #one must imagine a postcanon altana being that can function like um that one village in mushishi #that was just reincarnating every ancestor as a descendant. however that worked #shouyou baby 4 gets to live a full life and then die and then get reborn as a new guy. no more shouyou except by lineage of #being raised by descendants of the same takes-a-village that shouyou baby 4 did #so the Cycles continue but the suffering gets diluted a bit instead of concentrated into one insane guy #moths in sinks #<- I GUESS? im avoiding altana baby sugi there so that the tkgn wont be weird but is it less weird if sugi used to be shouyou. #i mean its LESS weird than a sugi who grew up renesmee fast to come be with his boyfriends again. but still weird. #handwaves. all the bodyswapping was negotiated and agreed to in the altana mind palace lobby. shouyou vacated the premises. #just gave him a blood transfusion basically. everything transplant. ship of theseus'd him.

[steinstrand]

Die Kommissarin - Falco

#mord mit aussicht #I guess it's that time of the year again #memes mit aussicht #hallo liebe fandom gibt es euch noch? mich gibt es jedenfalls wieder #ich hab da n 3/4 jahr dran gearbeitet und kann endlich wieder in frieden schlafen #ich hoffe es gefällt euch!!! #hat mir auf jeden fall spaß gemacht und war ne gute ausrede alles noch mal durch zu schauen #sophie haas #dietmar schäffer #bärbel schmied #tagge ich jetzt wirklich #falco #der kommissar #die kommissarin

[formulaonedirection]

Monza ‘22 wrap up

#daniel ricciardo #lando norris #*dando #this unboxed was a hate crime #literally box it back the fuck UP #rebox #this is the only good thing so this is the only gifs i guess... #daniel looks so done i'm so.... want 2 die about it #lando and his princess nose 4 rina #okay bye gonna watch monza unboxed 2021 #nadia's things

[gregoftom]

GOD i am trying so fucking hard not to read into the fact that tom repressed the shit out of how he actually felt when he learned he probably won’t go to jail and then when he went to greg, he could. express it. you know. he could be himself. i really hate so much what i read into it BECAUSE I SHOULDN’T BC I KNOW WHAT HAPPENS LATER AND I SHOULDN’T TRUST THIS SHIT BUT ARHJARHA HOW CAN I NOT WHEN HE’S REPRESSED ASF PER USUAL BUT THE MOMENT HE GOES TO GREG OR IS ALONE WITH GREG HE EXPRESSES HIMSELF FULLY, HIS RAGE, PAIN, [MANIC] HAPPINESS, AFFECTION. I HATE THIS SO MUCH. AND GREG IS IN THE CORNER COWERING BC HE DOESN’T UNDERSTAND THAT THE REASON TOM ACTS THIS WAY AROUND HIM IS. no. i Refuse to read That into it. but yall get what i’m saying right. 

AND THEN THIS

are you fucking kidding me. like was that really fucking necessary.

#tomgreg #god i hate thi IS S how #im gonan. i gotta sit down for a sec i'm jahving a jhemmhorrage #hemorrage #mhem?? you know that ththing #oh yall are prob expecting a novel in the tags wel like i said in the post. i think it's interesting that tom is like. Himself. around greg. #when they're alone. he can be like. maybe his core self? i don't know. maybe it's some kind of. parallel. #to how he tries to be a roy. which can be compared to say. roman. who was confirmed to have had the concept. #of being gay. like. they put on a show right. like roman's true self is he'd die for his family. but he won't say it outright. #and in fact hates being called out on it/makes excuses for it. #you see where i'm going with this. they pretend to be. yk. something they're not. #but around greg HES SO EXPLOSIVE and SO AFFECTIONATE and so PLAYFUL. like i said. he's like a schoolboy. #we get glimpses of that with shiv but she doesn't seem to like it so he learns to repress it. #when greg refused his little wrestle to the ground [by the way. ok gayass] he got snippy and took it as a rejection. #but it won't stop him from continuing to be himself around greg bc there's something about him i guess. #like obviously i'm trying really hard to think rationally about this bc i don't know if i can trust the writers with something like this. #and i'm getting conflicting thoughts and feelings and ideas from stuff i've seen about season 4. #but like. yeah. i don't know. it's interesting to me. this scene was interesting to me. #i'm not gonna cap the whole tom going koo koo bananas bc well he flipped a desk and beat his chest unga bunga. but. yeah. #ALSO GREG ASKNG ''IS IT REAL'' BEFORE TOM KISSES HIM GOD SEND THE FLOOD #DONT FUCKING DO THAT #anYWYA IM GOING MY BLOOD PRESSURE IS RISING little lord fuckleroy has left the call #txt #SORRY SORRY ALSO tom calling them the waystar two hAHHhhhhhfdne wowowoewoewd what is he your fucking boywife. fuck outta here

[zabiume]

dating when you're a shonen character must be so hard because all of your formative experiences are so tied into what happened when you and your friends had the Big Plot Events going on. how would you even comprehend sharing that with someone outside of your circle

#i guess it's easier for shinigami characters in bleach or shinobi characters in naruto because these are common occupatonal occurences #but i'm mainly thinking about ichigo/orihime/uryu/chad and their extremely specific histories #that could never translate into something understandable to an outsider – say. an oc – they're dating #for better or for worse some people are just going to be the only people that 'get it' having been there for the 'it' in question #you can't put it into words. you don't want to either so you stick to the people who don't NEED you to explain it to them #that's a dynamic that's interesting to me – especially when you consider that those 4 know more about each other than their own families do #their civilian/other lives are entwined; they fight together but they also hang out frequently #i don't like freely using the term 'found family' but there's really no other explanation for it #for better or for worse but mostly out of necessity these people WILL be in each other's lives at least tangentially until they die #it would be way easier for me to picture hisagi dating some random shinigami oc than say. URYU. #<- not because he's awkward or aloof but simply because i don't see him being able to explain being a quincy to them #much less explain the time he and ichigo wanted to strap zangetsu to their foreheads to defeat a gillian/menos/whatever