It’s May 3, 2021.
I’m here with another entry, so I can tell you one good thing that happened to me today. So here is my daily log, in an effort to see the good in my life and put out some good vibes along the way.
Today was my first day back at work, and boy was it something. I, apparently, missed a Whole Lot while I was away. I had left with a lot of work still left to do, and I came back to more than I had thought. As an aside, something that was funny was that my boss’ boss had joked that if CDPH came though on my days off, she’d call me back in. And guess what? She jinxed it. (She didn’t call me in, though.)
Anyways, all that to say that I was acutely aware that, even though it seemed like work was piling on at increasing rates, I wasn’t as stressed as I was before my two-ish day vacation. The thing that cemented it for me was the lack of heavy, overbearing worry. I would feel like I was running out of time, playing catch-up with all my work. I would not use the restroom for far longer than I should have gone without a bathroom break, to the point where my bladder would hurt before I rushed to the bathroom. I would work during lunch or eat during working. I would essentially be working eight straight hours, in my cave, isolated from everyone. (You know, unless they found me to add more work.)
But today, I was just. Super chill? I did feel stressed, but I took a breath and just... let it go. I think before the break, I would have felt so much more stressed.
But, the thing is, I didn’t feel like I was stressed before either. I was pretty good at leaving work at work, and not think about it at home. I was stressed, but I felt super fine. Tired, but fine. Like nothing was really wrong, that everything was okay, that I could keep going. And that’s not to say I couldn’t. But it’s without consciously realizing it, I was wearing myself out at work. I would be okay overall, but just worn down and tired.
I really didn’t know I needed a break until I took it, and sort of just reset my system. I’m still super tired, since it was a whirlwind of a few days, but it gave me the breathing room from work I didn’t know I needed.
And I’m so glad because now I know the feeling of non-stress and essentially being at peace with whatever stress I have. And that will make me better at recognizing when I *do* need a break in the future, even if I do feel fine.
Finally, an Extra Serving of Dumplings. Zazu Sighting #17!
I saw him staring into my yard from his side of the fence. I walked up to him and he chirped at me, rolling over and over on his back. He first rolled rather far away, but gradually rolled closer and closer to me, and he gently held my hand in his paw as I reached out to him through the fencing.
Talk to you tomorrow.
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ngắm sao thì tự nhiên sao nó chạy đâu mất tiêu, ồn ào quá, lấy bông nhét tai như phụ nữ mang thai, hôm nay mình không tắm rửa người có vẻ mệt, nhớ thời gian mười mấy ngày mình không tắm thì thật sự rất kinh khủng,
trăng còn có một nửa à,
một nửa của hai là một,
một nửa của bốn là hai,
một nữa là ba,
đêm và em như hai điều xa lạ,
đêm từng đêm thì lại trở nên thân thương,
trời hôm nay không mưa nhưng lòng mình buồn bã,
có đôi lúc, giật khóc giữa đường đi,