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#2015 seems so long ago wtf
danepopfrippery · 1 year
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Wtf is happening over on ofmd Twitter??
I dont tag in much so last i was aware was the ‘stede bonnet is a racist and u are too’ fluff. And this is of course my take. I only peak in anymore someone more involved might be able to explain better.
Theres some lovely ppl over there, gorgeous art and nsfw art too. But starting lets say may-ish a group of mostly young fans (judging by their profiles most were under 22) started saying most fans were racist for liking Stede Bonnet or Izzy and basically white people and straight ppl shouldnt be allowed to watch or be fans. If u like Con or Izzy (yup both) you were basically a klan member cuz clearly he thinks Ed is his slave etc. it goes on.
Look im white and cishet so im basically 3% of most of the fandom. But i found this particularly interesting cuz a lot of these people crossed over with Wwdits and no one wanted to talk about Kayvan Novak doing repeated blackface starting in 2015. They also didnt want to acknowledge Taika said some real terfy shit when he was my age in 2014 (mustve been an asshole era). Neither man has apologized (or mark proksch) and Kayvan doubled down on it last year.
So look i absolutely can not say how poc are allowed to feel. I just find it very odd they want to lynch Rhys and Con but are fine with Kayvan especially. Blackface to me seems like an ultimate sin.
So moving along… by the C2e2 they wanted to cancel Con for playing Izzy and slammed anyone who fangirled over him. A few weeks later Con made an insensitive comment about a tory having a coke nose, comparing it to a latine country. For some reason that didnt blow up til August. He did apologize and deleted or paused his twitter (he claimed before it blew up he would for filming and this coincided with filming beginning so hard to say). Most of them felt apologizing was no good and this was proof he was truly a racist playing a racist character.
(Fyi my personal belief is ppl should take responsibility, sincerely apologize, and never do x again).
Rhys’ wife is a royalist and when the Queen died they went after her and Rhys for saying Elizabeth’s death was sad. Wife doubled down. Ppl said proof shes racist and he should divorce her (i mean…i didnt love it but they really went after them. Im no royalist and think the queen was a colonizer.)
So then a few weeks ago Rhys Darby briefly replied to a friend that he felt playing Stede Bonnet was like reliving a past life. It was like 2 sentences. Ppl first thought it was cute, then this mob came to feast. They attacked any fan who liked it and attacked rhys so much he declared this is why he doesnt tweet much.
I personally took the tweet to mean he felt like he was reliving a life, not necessarily Stede Bonnet the real dude. But i mean shit if ur playing (or claiming) a rich white man pre 1860 the dude was likely a slave owner. Not a justification but liking a fictional character doesnt mean u think the fictional character is the real dude. I didnt know Stede Bonnet existed before ofmd. Real dude was a cunty slave owner who was prbly mentally ill and an asshole to his crew. I dont conflate Rhys’ bird of paradise bitchy queen with that dude. In my world Stede Bonnet is a fictional character. Fuck the real guy.
Soooo ive ranted nice and long here (sorry i have feelings). But the summary is theres a young mob of ofmd fans on twitter who want to prove they are activists by being assholes to real ppl who arent doing anything worth calling out…while also not calling out actors who really have done shit. Basically baby bullies. And oddly many of them are white so its even weirder. But thats that. I dont recommend bothering with it.
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vro0m · 1 year
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vro0m’s rewatch - 151/310
2015 Chinese GP
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I only have the race again. I'm sorry about that, it's going to be an issue all season. I'm trying to get that person from f1fullraces to reupload the 2015 season on their website because it seems the whole thing was there at some point but all the links are dead, for the whole season :( unfortunately they're not answering me. I've reached out by DM first in August 2022 and they didn't answer and I tried again not long ago and I also answered to some of their tweets because they answered other people there but no response. Kinda sucks. Anyway as always I'll check what I can find on YouTube and dailymotion after watching the race but it would be much easier if they answered.
AND THEY FINALLY DID SO HERE WE GO PRERACE CONTENT 
Lewis is on pole again! Nico says Ferrari is a threat, they have race pace. Simon says Nico was pretty upset he didn't get pole. Johnny says it was his best performance this season so far so he was grumpy indeed. In the drivers' parade, though, he says he's feeling good. Saturday was frustrating but still there's everything to play for. He can't talk about strategies because there's so many possibilities. Of course it would mean a lot winning here as that's where he first won and he needs to gain back points over Lewis and Sebastian. 
They talked with Bernie about Red Bull complaining about Merc's performance and even threatening to pull out of the sport. He says he spoke with Mateschitz a few days prior and he didn't mention any of that to his face. The journalist asks what Bernie thinks he wants, reg changes to bring Merc "back to the park"? Bernie says Mateschitz would be happy like most people if all the engines were more or less the same. "It's supposed to be a drivers' championship not a team, you know, constructors championship." Erm… that's. Both exist, Bernie, that's the point? Wtf is he saying. The journalist asks if that'd mean going back to a non hybrid engine or with less than a hybrid element. "So long as they're all the same," Bernie says. As the journalist starts another question he adds "It's the drivers' championship eh? Not the engineers' championship". OLD MAN THOSE ARE THE SAME THINGS. THEY ONLY HAVE ONE CAR. YOU CAN'T SEPARATE THE TWO CHAMPIONSHIPS. The journalist asks what about Toto Wolff because Bernie said he's partly to blame for killing F1 potentially (LMAO WHAT), so what does Toto feel about that? "He's waiting for the funeral." That's the most absurd interview I've ever heard. What an asshole. Apparently Niki said who cares if Mateschitz, Honda and Renault pull out of the sport, we'll provide everybody with Merc engines. Red-capped king.
Simon says they know Nico has been "effectively in Lewis Hamilton's pocket" and that senior management, particularly Niki, has said he needs to sort himself out. Hill thinks it's because they know they're under threat from Ferrari rather than Niki wanting him to challenge Lewis so they need Nico to be right on Lewis' tail the danger being of course that Nico still very much wants to win the championship and they might fight where Ferrari seems to have a good arrangement and there's no animosity between their drivers. (I mean sure but only one of them is competitive right now, so…) 
Lewis drivers' parade interview. They talk about how much support he has here, he points out to some banners in the crowd. She asks what's key to be successful on this track. He's not willing to talk. He hums. He says he doesn't know, you need to attack and drive your heart out, "I guess". She pushes a bit more asking what they need to do to make it more comfortable for themselves and keep the Ferraris behind. He doesn't answer, he makes her turn around to show her something in the crowd. She says "it's a marriage proposal". Lewis exclaims "Yeah it's crazy!" Rachel says she thinks the fan wants an answer. Lewis says he didn't see that one. He gets back to topic. You need to look after your tyres and they need to try and do a better job than Ferrari. "Attack at the start and get away well?" – "That's always the plan, but it's gonna be hard as always, but I hope that it's the outcome that I hope for." 
There's a Red Bull segment, for some reason Keanu Reeves is interviewing them? I'm confused lol. 
Time for the race! 
Oh and it's not the usual broadcast on top of it? Oh no wait… it's not in English. Yeah. I don't know what language that is. Ffs. 
Okay I've found the race in English but I think this season is gonna be a struggle. 
So Lewis is on pole again. Nico is starting right beside him. Then it's Seb and Massa, Valtteri and Raikkonen, Daniel and Grosjean, Nasr and Ericsson, and this time we do have 20 cars on the grid, for the first time this season. 
It's very, very hot. Hotter than in the FPs and quali. So there's a bit of a question mark on the tyres. 
Oh there's Sewis drama. Ted says Lewis feels like Seb blocked him on his practice starts at some point earlier. He says Lewis got agitated because of that but he's now calm. 
Formation lap 
Everybody except Kvyat and Sainz are on softs. 
Lewis is pointing towards Nico a lot. Brundle finds that extreme. Crofty thinks it might serve right into Seb's hand. 
And they're racing! 
Lewis gets a good start and is indeed ahead of both Nico and Seb. Valtteri overtakes Massa, he's very close to Seb. Raikkonen overtakes Massa as well. He attacks Valtteri and he's ahead! Sainz spins on his own. No damage. Nico sets the fastest lap. And again. But he's still 1 second behind. Kvyat has been told to not fight Daniel as they are on different strategies but he doesn't let him through. Then he does and Daniel locks up, and that's Kvyat back ahead. He does end up in front but that took much longer than it should have. 
10 laps in. Verstappen overtakes Ericsson for P10 and almost crashes into him in the process in what is described as a "REALLY aggressive move". Yeah, jesus. We have an overview replay and Ericsson comes down the straight, ready to take the corner, and Max moves himself right on his path, between him and the apex. They really should have crashed and it's unbelievable they didn't. Ericsson had to slow down so much to avoid him he basically stopped on track. It's just always been his style, hasn't it? I'll put my car there and if you don't wanna crash into it then move. Anyway. P9 is Nasr, P8 is Maldonado, P7 Grosjean, P6 Valtteri, P5 Massa, P4 Raikkonen, P3 Seb, P2 Nico and Lewis is of course still in the lead. Hulkenberg just lost the gearbox and DNFs on the side of the track. Yellow flags. Nico is still only 1.2 behind Lewis, and Seb is only 3.6 seconds down on him which is impressive. We're in for a good fight this season, I like it. Also Raikkonen is only 1.4 behind his team-mate so it's not just Seb, Ferrari is indeed doing well. Maldonado pits. The problem is that the medium is really not performing great, and the Mercedes are already under pressure. These pit stops might get messy. Seb is called in, they're going for the undercut. Weirdly both Mercedes stay out even though the radio comm was very early. Seb is indeed in. They're giving him another set of softs. Bono tells Lewis the gap to Nico is 2.5 and asks him what he thinks about going for another set of soft tyres for a longer second stint. Lewis says these tyres are lasting well. And so he comes in and gets out on another set of softs. He's out in P3, at the moment, behind Nico and Raikkonen who haven't pitted yet. Nico is called in and they're putting him on softs as well. Raikkonen also comes in. Lewis is back in the lead, Nico is still P2 but it puts Seb definitely closer to him. Ooooh and there's Kvyat, out on the gravel, in a cloud of thick white smoke. His engine has blown off. Horner is seen on the pit wall shaking his head. That's not gonna help the whole RBR-Renault drama. Nico's engineer : "So Nico gap to Lewis in front 2.6." Nico talks over him : "OK Tony, need to reduce the communication, please, I can see Lewis, I know what I have to do for now." Mmh. He's not enjoying it. 
Lap 20. It's another Max overtake, on Nasr this time, also less risky. The garage, again, erupts in applause. Brundle says "we've got a mega star on our hands in the making here… Young Max Verstappen. They told us to look out for him and here he is." Indeed. LMAO wait. I can't believe what I've just heard. Nico : "Lewis is driving very slowly so get him to speed up." Uh my man. Your job is to overtake him or did you decide to play second fiddle all of a sudden? If you're unhappy with Lewis' pace, overtake him. What the absolute fuck. Brundle says he's suggesting Lewis is gonna back him into the Ferraris but again. If you're not happy with that, get in the lead. Ah, it's so stupid. A little bit later we hear his engineer say "Copy that" in answer to something we didn't hear and again Nico is talking over him : "If I go closer I destroy my tyres like in the first stint, that's the problem." Lewis is told to pick the pace up a little bit, 43.7, when he was doing 43.9. That made me forget completely to give you the standings so let's do it now. The top 4 is obvious. In fifth we have Massa, then Valtteri, Maldonado and Grosjean, Verstappen and Nasr. Sainz just lost his gearbox, that's another Redbull car out? No he's going again. Okay. Back to the situation at hand, Nico is 2 seconds behind Lewis and Seb 1.6 behind him, Raikkonen 3.4 further. Oh but wait. Nico loses 0.2, and Seb gains 0.1. Crofty says Lewis is backing off Nico into the Ferraris again but Brundle points out Lewis is doing the times he's been asked to do. A bit later Lewis is extending the gap again and we hear a message from earlier in which Bono sets him a minimum target of 43.3, "otherwise we may have to stop Nico first". Oh are we threatening now? I don't like this vibe. Remember Belgium 2014 and my endless rant about Lewis needing to feel like people have his back? That's the complete opposite of that. As Crofty and Brundle now discuss, they ARE indeed threatening him to give the preferential strategy and undercut to Nico. Absolutely fuck this shit. Seb is asked if he can go faster than this which is such a funny question. He says not much. He is gaining on Nico though. Nico is complaining of his front left. 
Lap 30. Lewis. Nico +2.9. Seb +2.1. Raikkonen +4.3. Is that far enough for Nico now? Ffs. It's pissing me off, this thing, I swear. Here we go again. Seb is told to push and box. They're trying the undercut again. Ted says they've put him on the mediums as they have to and that Bono has told Lewis he's doing well and to stick to the plan and it'll turn out good. It better. Nico is called in. Lewis sets the fastest lap. It's the same result as last time. Seb is still behind Nico but much closer and on hotter tyres. 1.6. Lewis is called in. Of course he's also out on the mediums and it's a very good 2.5 stop. He's still way ahead of Nico. Lewis complains that his seat is getting hot. 
It's lap 40.The commentators are again busy praising Verstappen. He is indeed obviously doing a good job. And he overtakes Perez for P8, Perez fights back but it's not enough. That's Nico 4.7 behind Lewis, Seb 8.1 behind him, and Raikkonen 2.7 behind him. Then it's still Massa, Valtteri, Grosjean as Maldonado has spun, Verstappen as we just said overtook Perez for P8, behind him is now Nasr though, as Perez gets overtaken again. Nothing much is happening at the front anymore but at the back Jenson and Maldonado just made contact. Light damage. They both keep going. 
It's lap 50, we're almost done. Rosberg is 5 seconds down on Lewis, the Ferraris have completely dropped the pace! Seb is 12 seconds behind Nico! Then it's still Raikkonen, Massa, Valtteri, Grosjean, Verstappen, Nasr and it's Daniel in P10. Maldonado retires. And that's Verstappen stopped in the pit straight. Engine blown up. That's your second Red Bull car out. Safety car. There's just a couple of laps to go so things are probably gonna end just like this then. Ted says the car is now "lightly on fire" which is a fun concept. The marshals are trying to push it away but it's not moving. Brundle is explaining where the clutch release is like they can hear him. Here they go, they found it, but then they smashed the front wing into the gate. And again. Lmao. It's a struggle. And again, and again. Last lap. The safety car is still out. Lewis asks if they're gonna end under safety car and Bono says affirm, it looks like it. The fans cheer on the marshals as they finally made it inside the pit lane. As the commentators remind us of the Michael Schumacher clause aka you can't immediately start overtaking once the safety car comes in, Bono confirms to Lewis there won't be any overtaking. 
And it's the end of the race! 
Lewis wins ahead of Nico and Seb.
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Ted asks Niki if the team truly needed the 1-2 and he says he definitely needed it because he was a bit depressed. He laughs. Ted asks if he knows what was going on in the middle stint when Lewis wasn't fast enough. Was he protecting his tyres? Niki says he has to talk to him but he thinks he did a good job. He heard there was some discussion going on, he heard it, "but I have to find out first from him what the problem was if there was one."
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He's not hiding his hair anymore.
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The guy who conducts the interviews asks Lewis what happened during the second half of the race. Lewis first starts by congratulating the team on their great work, "smooth weekend", and says it was really just about controlling the gap to Nico and saving the tyres for when he needed them. He says he had loads left in his tyres at the end and was looking forward to using them but then the safety car came out. He thanks the fans for their support. The guy asks about the safety car. Lewis says the safety car wasn't helpful to anyone because it's anticlimactic "but you know naturally as long as no one was injured and all the cars go back safely that's all that matters." As soon as we move on to Nico, Lewis moves to Seb.
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Then the last question to Lewis comes. I don't understand what he's being asked. The guy is rambling a lot. In the end he says it's better to be good than lucky but he is going to need luck. Lewis says of course. But the team as he said has done a great job. He says he's massively proud and happy they could get the job done. And that's it. 
On Wikipedia, it is said that Nico then accused Lewis of slowing down on purpose. Lewis said in answer to questions about the radio messages asking him to pick up the pace : "I wasn't controlling his (Nico's) race, I was controlling my own race." Nico then said "It's just now interesting to hear from you, Lewis, that you were just thinking about yourself with the pace in front and necessarily that was compromising my race." Niki backed Lewis up saying of course they're all selfish "what do you think these guys are here to do? I call them egocentric bastards. That is the only way to win and the only way to win the championship, they are all the same." 
Which. I mean. Nico. Just drive better and stfu, your team-mate isn't here to drive for you, except if there's more at stake for the team or he's out of the WDC running anyway. 
Ooooh I've found the press conference let's see.
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So yeah Lewis starts by saying that. He's very serious. Very closed off. He's happy, they thought the race would be a lot closer. He says he was just looking after his own car and he had no real threat from Nico throughout the race. He says the funner laps were the ones before the pit stops. He says it was a much smoother weekend than the last race and it made a real difference to the balance of the car. He's really happy, he says.
The camera pans out and Nico looks like he's dead inside.
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The journalist asks Nico to talk about his race, he started second and finished second but he sounded at times like he was under unnecessary pressure maybe? That's when Nico says it's interesting to hear what Lewis had to say. "Because driving slower than maybe necessary in the beginning of the stints meant that Sebastian was very close to me and that opened up the opportunity for Sebastian to try that early pit stop, to try and jump me." Lewis is just staring into the void.
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"And then I had to cover him so erm… first of all I was unnecessarily close to Sebastian as a result and also it cost me a lot of race time as a result." Lewis is staring at the back of his head with a bastard smile.
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Seb looks like me when my parents fight at the dinner table. "Because I had to cover him and then my tyres died at the end of the race cause my stint was just so much longer. So I'm unhappy about that, of course today and um other than that not much to say." The journalist asks Lewis if he'd like to respond. He chuckles silently.
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"Not really." Then he chuckles for real. "My job is not to… to… it's not my job to look after Nico's race. My job's to (inhales) to manage the car and bring the car home (inaudible) at the end and as fast as possible. And that's what I did. I didn't do anything intentionally to… to slow any of the cars up, I just was focused on myself. If Nico wanted to get by he could've tried but… he didn't."
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Okay so I think it's safe to say Lewis has the upper mental hand so far. Also Nico is really acting very entitled there so yeah. Pisses me off ngl. I wouldn't expect him to do that for Lewis if it was the other way around so. Yeah. Shut up and drive like Rihanna said. 
Once they get to Seb he has a stupid grin on his face like "... Yeah" you can tell that being in the midst of the domestic disputes is not comfortable lol. Anyway he says he wasn't worried about Raikkonen catching up to him at the end because he was in control. He says he thinks it's similar, him and Kimi, Nico and Lewis… he tried to be very aggressive and put pressure on Nico, which made the last stint very long so naturally in the end his tyres were gone. 
Let's see what the post race broadcasts had for us. 
Toto says a 1-2 is all they hoped for after a difficult race in Malaysia. Simon says even though Ferrari seemed to be able to match them on pace on the softs as soon as the medium went on they seemed to switch them on better than them. Toto said they were worried for a bit but they managed to go longer than them and Lewis did some impressive laps at the end of his stint. Their pace was good on both tyres and that's why they deserved to win. He does admit Ferrari developed impressively over winter and they have to take them seriously. 
They play for him Lewis' radio comm complaining about Seb's move from before the race. So here's what actually happened because LMAO Lewis what are you complaining about. The cars are lined up to leave the pitlane to get to the grid and Lewis decides to overtake them because why not I guess. So he pulls up to Seb's level, who just got the green light to go, and then complains that Seb's in his way like he didn't put himself right there. Actually Toto couldn't hear it because he doesn't have an earpiece so that's stupid. Simon sums it up for him : he said the Ferrari is dangerous and got in the way. Toto says everybody's tense before a race and Lewis judged it as dangerous. He shrugs. That's all. Then they show him the start, where Lewis was angled towards Nico on the grid. Hill adds that it's the most extreme such angle he's seen but it worked for him as he got a good start. They ask him if he has a problem with that. Toto says no, as long as the rules don't have a problem with that. He says he's not even sure he did it on purpose, they'd need to look at him getting to the grid. Hill says the second stint with Lewis backing up Nico must have been stressful for him, "certainly Nico was a bit concerned." Toto says of course that they race each other as well. In that situation he thinks Lewis needed to manage his tyres because they didn't know how long they needed to go and it became a problem for Nico and it was certainly not optimal for him but if you're the lead car you need to do what you need to do. So they'll analyse it. 
They're really LOVING Max, they're already calling him a future champion and it's his third race. You have to say it's clear he has the stuff when you look at it. 
Ted reports what happened between Nico and Lewis during the press conference. Apparently after what I already wrote down, Lewis said managing your tyres during a stint is like starting with 100£ and you need to get to 0 at the end and Seb laughed and joked asking if he still had a bit of money, and Nico, still fuming, said that he had a lot of money left at the end of the stint and that's the problem. Hill says Fangio famously said the goal is to win at the slowest possible speed. The others nod. He adds you should be proud of Lewis because he did exactly what he needed to, while Nico has shown twice his frustration this weekend by finding someone else to blame. Ted says he's with Lewis (he calls him Lewis) on this (and that's also what I said during the race) : if Rosberg (he calls him Rosberg) was so aggrieved why didn't he speed up? Although he then says Nico did say on radio that if he did he got in Lewis dirty air so that would have made him even more vulnerable by damaging his tyres. 
Lewis is being interviewed by Craig who asks what was the key to staying in control of the race. Lewis says it's bright so he's keeping his shades on. He says he got the balance absolutely perfect, he couldn't have changed anything to make it better. His engineers did a fantastic job, he's grateful. It was a much stronger race than the last. Lewis says the Ferraris were closer but not quite in firing range, the key here is to make the tyres last as long as you can to make the last stint as short as possible.
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Of course Craig brings up the controversy. He asks where the balance lies between him securing the win and the team securing the 1-2. Lewis is still not convinced it was an issue. It gets spicy, I'll post the snippet because it's amazingly shady. "I'm not quite sure… I'm not really quite sure how I compromised his– he was 4.4… 4.5… 5 seconds behind so he was never close. Therefore I was having no impact on his race whatsoever.”
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“If he wanted to get closer and… and if he was right up my tail and then I was going the pace I was going, perhaps they could say something but I wasn't, I was just, I was on my own. If they wanted to pit him early they could have pit– or, or… Before me or after he– they could have easily done that because I had life left in my tyre to keep going." Craig asks if it surprised him he had the option to pit first. "Erm no. It wasn't a problem as I said because I had– (stutters a bit) I was really happy with what I did with my tyres I was ready to go when I– you know you always try and keep a little bit in your pocket so you can keep pushing and I said I was supposed to go to the lap 11 and I think I went to 15 or 14 or s– no I was supposed to go to lap 12 or something like that but I went to 14 in the first and then eked out more in the second so uh… Ultimately there should be no problem in the team we got a 1-2 so… I'm actually really excited to see what the interview– meeting will be like when we go back.” (He grins and looks over his shoulder where Nico, in the background, looking the other way, is also giving an interview. Then he pauses and smiles)
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“Cause uh… (He turns around and look straight at Nico’s back then turns back, tilts his head to the side with the grinnest of grins.)
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“He's pretty uh…" He chuckles. Craig says he's a competitor, he's probably upset, he wanted to win because he didn't have the start that he did or even Sebastian did. Lewis gets serious again. "No, no, of course. I mean I'm not– that's not my, what I'm– we're both competitors, both fierce competitors, but ultimately today and this weekend we had a fair shot at getting the win, you know? And uh we did ev– we both did everything we could to bring the car back as fast as possible so… I don't think either of us are at fault." He has a hint of a smile again.
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The journalists are SIPPING THE TEA. They're loving every drop of it. And they're fully defending Lewis, because it's not his responsibility to take care of Nico. 
Let's hear from Nico then. (Spoiler : 🙂) 
Craig : "I know you're frustrated Nico, did you feel your race was compromised with the way Lewis drove in that second stint in particular?" 
Nico : "No I didn't FEEL, it's a fact that my race was compromised and this is a scenario we went through in details before the race that uh for the individual in front to make sure that you know, for his, his, himself, best possible race you back that guy who's in second into uh Sebastian Vettel. That was the best race for the guy in the front but not good for the team (bro you have a 1-2 the team literally can't ask for better than that) because it puts the guy in second into an unnecessary risky position uhm… Did Lewis do it on purpose or not I don't know. I can't answer that. He said in the press conference that he was just thinking about himself, that's an interesting indication, interesting statement. Uh… That's it and yeah of course I'm frustrated as a result because my race was compromised and in the end my stint was too long in the last one you know cause I had to cover Sebastian cause he tried to attack me with an early pit stop and so my tyres just died in the end of the race."
Craig is very brave and asks "is it not up to you though to go faster?" saying Lewis said he didn't take him on. Nico says the problem is they have the same car, as soon as he tries to take him on, he'll make sure he has a gap to him on the long straight so he can't get by. (My god, my god, listen, Lewis had his moments of bad faith but like. Did Lewis not overtake him plenty of times in the same car last year? And now Nico says he can't do it because they're in the same car? Shit excuse. IT’S MOTOR RACING ffs) And after 1-2 laps his tyres will be badly damaged, which is exactly what Seb was saying in the press conference when he said he was trying to overtake him because he was quicker but he couldn't get in the DRS zone and all he did was destroy his tyres. He says he learnt that in the first stint trying to stay really close to Lewis. It doesn't work. 
Craig says Nico is suggesting this is a strategy in the championship battle between the two of them. Nico reacts but Craig is not done. Won't Lewis be happy to see his reaction, him being upset about what he did? Nico says he didn't suggest that, he's just stating facts, "it's impossible to know from the outside what went on." He hums. "Other facts are that of course once we pitted his pace was a lot quicker or looking a lot stronger overall, you know, so that's another fact which suggests that it would have been good for the team if he would have sped up earlier on a little bit more." 
Last question, when will they discuss it, does it need to be sorted out? "It needs to be discussed of course, yes, we will do it now."
Somehow they decided to interview Lewis AGAIN. But Lewis is taking a photo with a baby (look at her saying bye 🥺)
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and then signing something for a fan. They walk followed by a few of them as they talk. Brundle asks him if he thinks it might be a bit tense in Mercedes' hospitality. He says "uh I don't… I don't think so…" with the high pitched voice he uses when he knows he's in delicate territory. "I don't know why." Still high pitched. "We won! And we came one and two so…" Brundle says it was a walk in the park for him really. "I was enjoying myself," he says. They exchange a knowing look. They had a very good setup "so today was just… so fine in the way you drive," he mimics it with his hands.
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"It was just kind of… It's funny cause my driver that's driving me this weekend, a Mercedes driver, he drives like this." He pretends he's steering a wheel by holding it between his thumbs and index fingers. “With two fingers on the steering wheel," he laughs. Brundle asks if he tried that today. "I tried the same!"
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Brundle says he came past them this morning at a million miles an hour coming to the track. He says he was holding on for dear life in the car. He laughs. But then he stops joking. Today was about being smooth and not sliding and not killing the front tyres. Brundle asks if he meant to have such an angle on the starting line. Lewis says he didn't. He meant to point a little bit but he found himself facing the wall and was worried about it but it's not like you can reverse and park again. But ultimately it didn't get in the way of his start. Brundle sums up the whole issue at hand : Nico says he could have been jumped by the Ferraris with the undercut but Lewis' opinion is that's Nico's problem and not his, his problem being his own race. "Uh I think so yeah… and erm… at the end of the day he didn't so…" He shrugs.
Then they ask Toto AGAIN. Really quick : did Lewis do anything wrong? Toto says you need to be careful pointing fingers half an hour after the race. It was a difficult situation because he did have to manage the tyres and it did put Nico in trouble. They need to look at whether the race result for the team was ever at risk, what was the radio comm always proper and followed, and they need to do it carefully, internally, and make sure it's not escalating. Craig asks if Lewis' pace after Nico pitted doesn't answer that question about the race result, the answer being no. Toto says it needs to be analysed with all the data but the cars had the pace, Lewis had the pace, he was the quickest out there and made the tyres last longer so he thinks the order is right. Oooh Craig asks if Lewis' first responsibility was to win the race or to guarantee Mercedes a 1-2. Toto says the second one, because there's 1500 people working for that result, and equally he's a racing driver and he needs to look after himself and you need to balance it out all the time. "You can drive your race and you can race your team-mate hard, but never bringing it to a point where you risk the team result." Craig asks if Nico is just hurting because he hasn't had the same start Lewis and Seb have had this season. Can't Lewis be happy to see Nico angry with the result? "This is a rivalry and it was always a rivalry and it's gonna be very intense in the future. I think you need to expect these kinds of discussions and controversies, it needs to be contained and managed well without an escalation. Sometimes escalation helps and you can stop it then, but today I don't think there wasn't many reasons to say that mistakes were done."
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So I finished the book #97 today (the third Dr. Gretchen White book- I enjoyed this plot more than the prior, for sure).
I couldn’t really decide what I wanted to read next because a new book in a world set in a really cheesy and kinda mindless series release on KU today. Like the writing isn’t anything spectacular, the plot is always like wtf, but it’s entertaining because i can have my brain “off” mostly. I’ve been gravitating towards those kinds of books lately- maybe some allegory but nothing difficult and mostly just fun- to give my brain a break.
But. I have other options to start that I think might need to be read sooner.
Smoke Gets In Your Eyes (the nonfiction book by the mortician Caitlin Doughty). I borrowed it from the library then got sucked into some KU series and forgot about it so it was returned yesterday… but… and this is the big but… I have Wi-Fi off on my actual kindle, so it’s still on there. It was on hold for a while, and I AM really interested in it, so unless I want to wait again, I can’t sync my kindle again until it’s read. I can still read Kindle books on my phone so it’s not a huge deal, but I generally prefer to read via kindle. It’s not very long and I could probably finish it in a few hours, but I read like 5 pages of it yesterday and really struggled to stay focused.
Neurotribes by Steve Silberman. This is also from Libby. I got it on audiobook (less wait time) and it’s like 19hr long. I listen usually at 1.5x speed. Because it’s an audiobook from Libby, I listen to it from the app, and once it’s due, it’s gone. It’s due in 12 days. I’ve already started it and I’m ~21% through. So far I’m kinda mad because he talked positively about Hans Ass-Burgers (making fun of HIM, not the particular “pattern” of autism he described, because he was FULLY AWARE of his involvement in the murder of numerous autistic kids)…. But also it was published in 2015, which was before much of his Nazi involvement was really discussed publicly (Herwig Czech’s article published in 2018; Edith Sheffer’s 2018 book and subsequent articles). So idk. Also anytime anybody brings up the “extreme variant of male intelligence” BS I want to punch something (even tho the author essentially said it’s more likely that women just mask because socialization).
Technically I have The Book Eaters by Sunyi Dean also due in 12 days, but I haven’t downloaded it to Kindle yet, so I could only read it on my phone.
I’ve also started to read The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck, of which I’m on page 26/216. This one feels like a “not much thought” kind of nonfiction, but still some thought is required, of which I’m not thrilled about, but I downloaded it from KU a while ago and I do want to “empty out the vault” so to speak.
I also downloaded another KU series, Te Princess Chronicles, that seems mostly just fun. I did open up the first book a few days ago and read about 10 pages in that before I got distracted and decided on finishing Ninth House instead. But I’m oddly drawn to it again because it just seems fun.
So you see my problem? I have technically started on 4 books (have reasons to finish 3 of them ASAP) and have 3 more on my list… but I only want to read the ones that I have no pressure to finish.
It’s like the autism part of me is interpreting the reasons why I “should” finish the couple books I should finish first as a “demand” and thus I don’t want to read them (PDA profile?)… and though the ADHD part of me is like “oh but look this book is ✨N E W✨” it’s also like “oh, no sense of urgency? Ugh boring.”
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I find it ironic you can spend the time answering someone’s post about Randy, but can’t seem to find the time to write a prompt about the Marshes. WTF? Think about it for a minute. How would you feel if someone said they were going to write your request and 2 years later, they still haven’t wrote it? But they can respond to posts that have to do with those characters and their answers are about the same length that the prompt would be. I don’t know about you, but that would annoy me to no end.
I did try to fill this request at the time you sent it in, just as I tried to fill everyone's. I also haven't filled some art requests and I believe there was one other writing request I didn't. I enjoy trying to do it because I like writing, I like drawing, and I like to do things for people. Trying is the key word here because it's something I'm doing for free, in my own time, when and if I have the inspiration. I understand that it sucks. I did start writing it and then didn't finish it. Which sucks for me, too. This isn't an intentional dig at your prompt or at you.
A passion project I had in my last fandom has over 100,000 words, over 20 chapters, and was last updated 2 years ago. In that same fandom I updated a fic from 2015 in 2020 and haven't finished it. The fic I'm 'actively' working on now, which you mentioned in your last message to me as something I shouldn't be doing because I committed to your prompt first, is my baby of a project-- something I started as an original fiction script which I sent to horror movie production teams in 2010. And it still hasn't ever seen its final form. I've been actively answering asks and not writing my pet project, the one you were upset at me for writing, for months.
I don't want to be a prick about it because yes, I do in fact get how it's frustrating. I am even in fact the kind of person who feels bad about not filling any/all requests that I may get. But on the flip side of that, I'm a person doing something for free- this was never a commission or anything like that, and I know I've been frustrated by the tone of the messages you've sent me on it. I was in fact actively trying to work on it, like I've tried to work on projects outside of Tumblr, for a very long time. I'm trying isn't good enough, so I'm not trying. Your response this time is you're right, I'm not doing it.
And I'll save both of us the frustration of situations like this and not do those request memes in the future.
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Here's what I missed on ! Tumblr !
It's pretty weird to return to this site after so long. (I'm not exactly a "Twitter refugee" as they seem to be called lmao, more like someone who, because of the whole Twitter stuff, realised that there are still people on Tumblr? And apparently the site stopped their weird filtering/post banning system bc they now allow porn again? Anyway,) I don't remember when I was last active on Tumblr because I deleted my old blog some years ago, but if I had to guess I was probably active from around 2013 to 2015/16 at the latest? And boy, there's so much new stuff...
Firstly, the quality and functionality of themes seems much higher? Maybe that's just because I'm older now, but there are just so many original and innovative themes and pages that, like, are so interactive?? And such a broad variety as well!!!
Adding on to that: Javascript is sort of forbidden?? The work-around is pretty fast and easy (just ask support for permission basically), but still, that sucks lol.
Then there's the whole "you can have an account but no actual blog"-thing?? Idk if I really like that. A lot of people seem to use the site like that, so it's apparently at least somewhat popular. But as a Tumblr-conservative (as in conservative about Tumblr, not a conservative on Tumblr) I must say that having a blog and customizing it was sort of the whole Unique Selling Point of the site, so... interesting choice. (As long as that's still possible I'm still happy either way, I think)
The whole Dashboard experience in general is just so different now. For one, there are ads? I'm not a fan of ads (shocking opinion, I know) and I'm sure had they done it right Tumblr could have become like Ao3 and not even needed them. Still, I don't mind them too much (haha certainly not bc I use adblock :) idk what that is, sounds very morally wrong to me) and I read somewhere that the premium version is only 40€/year, which isn't a lot a lot, but still unfortunate.
I can't even tell which features are new and which aren't most of the time (except for the replying to posts? and THE CHAT?? now that there is one I can't help but wonder why there wasn't one from the start?). I think there's a lot of stuff Tumblr implemented that used to only be possible through xkit before.
Speaking of which: xkit! There's a new version - xkit rewritten - and it's incredible. I didn't even think about re-installing xkit until I stumbled upon a post that mentioned it. Now that I am aware of its existence again, god have I missed it. Being properly on Tumblr without it just isn't the same, man...
Pretty sure the search and follow tags/trending/etcetc stuff is completely revamped as well, but I don't think I used that very often back then anyway. Once I followed a big chunk of blogs I just found new ones through snowballing.
The last thing I can think of that noticably threw me off was the slang? Like wtf is a blorbo? (I actually think I get that one now) What are those other scrinkly, scrumblo, beedy weeby words? Why do I feel several generations older all of a sudden? I can feel the immediate and visceral impulse of disgruntled rejection welling up inside me everytime I see people use any new slang word (or meme, looking at you old scorsese movie that doesn't exist) whose invention I wasn't there for. (please if you've been (back) here for a while, feel free to educate me on the new tumblr etiquette, memes and slang words, I'm curious, I wanna know)
Though that being said, the overall vibes have not changed much. It is still a site that embraces its nerdy lameness and unnecessarily deep deep-dives into ANYTHING. And after the last few months to years of seeing people attacking anyone and anything, and feeling angry/depressed every time I spent some time on my social media site of choice, I think this is a very nice change of pace.
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It’s my five year anniversary on LOTRO!
Back in 2015 I was looking for a easy enough, laid back game that I could listen to music to as i played. (4x4 evolution was my last to-go-to game before lotro). I remembered the one time I dabbled in the game a few years back before the Rohan Expansion came out, but I only made it as far as Bree before losing interest. Armed with new knowledge and love for Tolkien’s legenderium, I decided to give the game a second chance. 
Daerhovan (Halordin back then) was not my first toon on this second round. But he became the first one that stuck and is still my main to this day. And so much has happened! I got into the game when Central Gondor was still in the works and was a part of the quiet but competitive Firefoot server. When the world transfers began I had heard good things about Landroval and packed my things to move there. And it was the best decision ever made. I’ve made great friends through a couple of wonderful kinships since joining who feel like such a big part of my life now, and I can’t imagine playing this game without them! 
Thanks to all who’ve shared in my journey through Middle Earth! here’s to many more years of adventuring! 
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nct-lian · 3 years
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JENNIE + LIAN: JENLI
so iconic omg like how they do it, i have no idea
they hang out all the time and lian is literally ALWAYS on jennie’s instagram
the two of them once had an instagram story conversation over pigtails
like,, jennie posted a picture of lian’s pigtails for that one bicycle performance on her story and captioned it “pigtail baby” and then lian reposted it on her own story with a picture of jennie’s pigtails, captioning it “pigtail eomma”
speaking of eomma, jennie is genuinely her mother
jennie takes her shopping all the time
and in return, lian buys her food
the interactions these two used to have at award shows were SO CUTE
everyone remembers when jennie pretty much yelled out lian’s name and she just came running over to the members of blackpink after taeyong let her leave :(
i’m crying just thinking about it help
jennie also posted a full on instagram post for lian on her birthday and had such a sweet caption with it
it was something like “my daughter is finally 21 today! i hope she has an amazing day and i can’t wait to see her later tonight to give her a gift :) haneullie, lots of love from jennie eomma”
SPEAKING OF THE GIFT,, jennie bought her a whole ass $9000 necklace from chanel because she knew that lian was looking for more
IM IN TEARS AND SO ARE YOU ADMIT IT RN
jenli kpop bestest duo
dispatch once thought jennie was on a date with a girl but it turned out to just be her walking lian home after going shopping with her so they never posted anything about it
they were embarrassed they got something wrong so i get it
omfg when news came out that lian and jinwoo broke up mama jennie was threatening to punch the shit out of him
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KEVIN + LIAN: LIMOON
what i’ve been waiting to write for so long okay here we go
so mf chaotic like there are compilations made of these two that scream “go crazy go stupid”
their time as guest mc’s for inkigayo was probably some of the best kpop content we’d gotten in a long ass time
KEVIN IS CAUTIOUS WHEN LETTING HER MEET HIS MEMBERS
cause she’s such a good friend to him and wtf why would he wanna share
“mine mine mine mine” constant dory vibes 24/7
lian thrives off of calling him by his korean name because she knows it annoys him
he’s constantly teasing her for having bagged milk in toronto so he deserves it
the one time lian and jacob talked to each other they seemed to be getting along too much for kevin’s liking so he really went:
“okay lian isn’t it time for you to go” because he WAS GETTING JEALOUSJCLSJX
their styles are pretty much complete opposites and everytime they take pictures together kevin never forgets to mention how off it all looks
“tf is that why are your clothes so boring”
“okay sNaKe pAnTs” because of that one eric moment on kpop daebak show where he said kevin had pants with snakes on them
ALSO BTW LIANS CLOTHES ARENT FUCKING BORING SHES JUST FANCY LIKE THAT
i’m getting heated let me calm down.
they normally speak in english to each other but since lian seems to be stuttering over her words when she isn’t speaking korean, he mixes in a few korean phrases every now and then to help her out
kevin is arguably the most hype every single time lian performs, like he really thinks there isn’t anything better
LIAN MAKES SURE TO UPDATE HER INSTAGRAM STORY WHENEVER TBZ HAVE A COMEBACK SO NCTZENS GO SUPPORT THEM
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LIA + LIAN: LILIA
more lian x the canadian line WOOHOO
lia spent her trainee days really looking up to lian and she’s even mentioned before that she’d love for itzy to get the chance to collab with her for a song
she really has her fingers crossed for that btw
they actually met during an award show when ryujin, chaeryeong and yuna all had to leave because it was past curfew
lian decided to sit next to them and during all the intermissions between performances she, lia and yeji conversed to pass time
they ended up growing a friendship together but lian has a stronger bond with lia
she loves all the girls either way but yk
lia and lian love going to cafes together and taking adorable pictures :(
like whenever lia posts on itzy’s instagram midzeys don’t exactly know whether or not lian would be on it too :0
like lian normally posts all the scenery pictures she gets to keep her instagram pleasing whereas lia posts the pictures the two of them take together
my heart </3
lian treats lia like a whole daughter because it isn’t often she finds girls that are younger than her
*screams in the fact that majority of sm’s female artists are all from 2015 and under*
like when i say lian SPOILS her i’m not joking
she will randomly call lia up like:
“hey i’m gonna get you out of that dungeon, come get some chicken with me”
and then they’ll just hang out together
but only if lian is out of the dungeon herself because wbk she ain’t treated very well </3
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EUNWOO + LIAN: WOOLI
their chemistry is fucking insane holy shit
like their acting for past to present was seriously so praised, netizens found it hard to believe it was all just for the show
dating rumours follow these two everywhere,, like everywhere
it’s one of the most popular ships inside ncity when it comes to lian and other idols
i kid you not one tweet said “chanhyeok treated jihye so well in past to present, i’m only wondering how well eunwoo would treat lian 👀”
LIKE STOP PUTTING IDEAS INTO PEOPLES HEADS YOURE KILING ME HERE ISTG
but yeah they do look really good together
and they’re an amazing pair for acting
when eunwoo started working with inyeop for true beauty, he said:
“hyung’s dating my girlfriend” because of the fact that both of them have acted with lian and BOTH of them dated her in the dramas
what a coincidence though
we all cried when we saw chanhyeok and jihye kiss for the first time DONT LIE
EUNWOO FOLLOWS HER ON INSTAGRAM
and they wished each other happy birthday on their instagram stories
there’s actually people who like to think that they dated while filming for past to present andddd they radiate big delulu vibes
like you know liskook shippers? wooli shipped are kinda the same, but not as intense (thank god)
BUT CAN WE BLAME THEM LIKE THEIR CHEMISTRY? THE WAY THEY TALKED TO EACH OTHER? PLEASE
they took a lot of cute pictures together behind the scenes (ノ﹏ヽ)
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MOMO + LIAN: LIMO
DANCER DUO DANCER DUO
this ship isn’t actually as popular as we would like it to be, but nonetheless people love limo
a lot of interactions during award shows !!
like for example momo’s fancams always captured her dancing perfectly to lian’s choreo
and lian smiling in momo’s direction
i love them
when lian found out about heechul and momo’s relationship, she asked momo if she was her mom now because of how much of a father figure she considers heechul to be JDFJK
“i mean sure”
they’ve actually done a vlive together before (ᗒᗨᗕ)
it was when lian visited her at the twice dorms and they ended up getting bored so they decided to do a vlive in the living room
THEY PLAYED DARE OR DARE AND LIAN HAD TO DO THE TEARS CHALLENGE (so chan whee) ON MOMOS KARAOKE MACHINE
her throat was dry for the rest of the night
after seeing momo’s hair for the i can’t stop me era, lian actually wanted to cut it like that
but she decided against it because she loves her long hair too much
the two of them met on hit the stage where they competed against each other in a freestyle dance battle
after that they just started casually talking over the phone and became great friends
with the way momo talks about lian, you’d think they’re dating-
“oh, lian- she’s so pretty! i love her a lot!”
and the same goes for lian, she loves talking about momo’s dancing skills
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JACKSON + LIAN: JACKLIAN
her dad :/
adopted her with amber liu like a year ago so now she’s just his daughter
supports each other like crazy not even joking
jackson promotes her on instagram and twitter 24/7
THEY HAVE SO MANY INTERACTIONS THANK GOD
lian was once given a ridiculously short dress while attending an award show and jackson gave her his jacket to wear over her legs because she wasn’t provided a blanket :(
(keep in mind, she went there without the members!)
lian added all his music to her playlist :)
once got drunk together and spent like three hours doing karaoke but it’s okay cause it was fun
speaking of getting drunk, jackson’s the cool dad that lets her do whatever she wants
he has his protective moments where he’s like “ma’am where are you going on that short of a dress” but he’s also like “hey wanna go get chicken and soju”
they both appeared on a radio show together as guests and they ruined the whole broadcast because they were too loud
like they kept getting out of their seats to go wave at all the fans outside the window and they were just fighting back and forth about whether or not lian’s extensions look real
according to jackson, they’re “NOT AUTHENTIC ENOUGH- LOVE YOUR HAIR FOR WHAT IT IS, LIANNA HANEUL BAE.” lian’s hair lives matter :/
PLSSS WHEN HYOSEOP AND LIAN STARTED DATING- no
jackson was so proud that his good friend was smooching his other good friend but the protective dad instincts really kicked in
“break her heart and you die no cap”
was surprisingly chill when they broke up though, he was just glad lian didn’t cry
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SUNMI + LIAN: SUNLI
SUNMI IS HER MOM OHMYGOD
so many interactions
honestly took lian under wing once she debuted as a soloist
female kpop soloists gotta have each other’s backs in this industry man :(
sunmi calls lian her princess SOBS
lian always hugs sunmi at award shows, like if they’re sitting close together
or if they’re standing next to each other on stage
you bet your ass lian is gripping onto sunmi for dear life
did a photoshoot together for marie claire korea
they’re so hot bro
BUT THEY FIRST MET ON WEEKLY IDOL NOT LONG AFTER LIAN DEBUTED AS A SOLOIST
they were kinda awkward ngl uh
but by the end of it they were besties :DD
and they’ve been besties ever since
lian is the ceo of doing dance covers for sunmi’s songs
cmon lian we’re waiting for tail 👀
sunmi has actually met lian’s grandma </3
like her and lian were hanging out at the dorms while the boys were out on a schedule and her grandma just randomly showed up with homemade food so that was definitely a win
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BANG CHAN + LIAN: LICHAN
they’ve been friends for a LOOONGGG time
and chain’s known her since dating back to like, smrookies era when lian was still a red velvet member
like at that time she had no idea he existed, but he was keeping up with her daily :(
chan plays her music on vlives all the time and he always knows the dance moves
like he just dances along in his chair and mumbles the lyrics
we love to see it
a lot of fans ship them together
SURPRISE SURPRSIE AH
only because chan gives off big pining energy
lian only looks at him like “:D” whereas he looks at her like “♡•♡”
kinda sad but
lian promotes him on live so often HVKSVU
“my friend chan is coming back with his group soon, you should check it out! :)”
and the way she just says “my friend chan” LIKE ITS SO OBVIOUSLY A FRIENDZONE BUT HE THINKS ITS ADORABLE
he once got a comment on a vlive to react to lian moments, obviously complying because who wouldn’t
there was this one clip of her saying “my friend chan from stay kids!” and whoever edited the compilation added in squishy noises right after while zooming in on her face
AND CHAN BLUSHED SO HARD NOO
“oh- hahaha, uhh, she’s so cute aw hahahah”
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ASHLEY + LIAN: ASHLI
oh god not another lian x mom ship
ASHLEY LOVES LIAN WOAH
like she’s submitted lian’s resume to bm so many times so they could be part of the big tiddie committee together
ashley is constantly, and i mean constantly, reposting all of lian’s posts on her story with captions like “LOOK AT HER GO”
and lian has even discovered all the cool instagram filters because of ashley, and now we get the quality content from her that WE DESERVEEEEE
back when lian’s album came out, all ashley’s story really was was just screenshots of her streaming all the songs and calling them bops
when they first met in person after texting back in forth, ashley spammed her instagram story with pictures of lian that she took without her looking
these two radiate a lot of “YES GIRL WORKKK ITTT TURN THIS WAY OKAYYY POSE POSE POSE” energy
lian’s been featured in one of ashley’s youtube videos and it was when they met for the first time :)
they exchange a lot of gifts through the mail
like lian once found a mug when shopping with doyoung and she thought that it would fit ashley’s taste so she sent it to her apartment
and ever since then they just send random little gifts to each other’s houses
it’s so cute
MATCHING BUCKET HATS THEY HAVE MATCHING BUCKET HATS !!!!!!
ashley talks about lian all the time
she always says that for someone so young, she’s accomplished a lot and she’s really proud of her
they wanna do tiktoks with each other but they never have the time </3
lian spam comments on ashley’s instagram like “WOAH” “OKAYYYY” “YESYESYES”
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Ranboo and Karl Jacobs are the same person In terms of how they use friendships to Move their way to the top. Call me crazy but does anyone feel like Enderbees is getting less and less authentic everyday . Like it feels like we made the shift from 2015 Phan to 2021 Phan in 3 months . Maybe its that they rushed into living together, but I also have a feeling a huge reason why their friendship thrived was the Content Ranboo got out of it . The less content Tubbo does, the less connection in their friendship. Similairly to Karl Jacobs, who became incredibly close with Dream and Quackity and made his whole DTKQ (Dteam Karl Quackity) Group (Feral boys?? Right??) And less than 2 months later, They havent streamed together at all . Also I think Dream fr said that it annoyed him when Karl and him would be hanging out and Karl would ask to stream . Idk . Ive been thinking about it more lately (Especially with the Ranboo crit that Jason (Thank you jason) has been bringing on the Dash and I really do agree with a lot of it . So many Cc friendships are manufactured and I wish people looked more into it, but at the same time it's like . yeah We know . I mean My prime area of expertise is the Kpop Industry and when you comopare what Ranboo and Karl are doing.. its literally the Same as what They do there. Companies organize group Collabs and manufacture Friendships between Coworkers to gain more traction for their groups and it WORKS. Ranboo and Karl are seriously in it to win It in Terms of how big they can get with their Streaming careers, when In reality They are soo not suited for it . Getting big means knowing How to deal with it too . Ranboos mental health is destroyed. Karl Jacobs seems unwell . Both are rendered Mostly friendless because their closest Friends were just there for content (Maybe a little exageration, but you Get what Im saying) . I guess there is a price for trying to Hack your way to the top using other People and you see R and K paying the price for that right now . Its sad but the more I think about it, maybe its less Necessary for us to critique the two of them, but Rather be aware of it and Try to steer Ranboo away from his ways . karl Jacobs is long gone (Considering Hes an industry plant basically controlled by a company that manages him) Ranboo needs to take a long hearty Break, and start hanging out with people he genuinely Likes being around . Idk . SOMETHING JUST FEELS OFF ABOUT HIM AND TUBBO . Its not entirely manufactured but they definitely Arent as close as they make it seem . 3 Weeks ago i wouldve Given up my life to say they were About to start writing Vows to each other and Now its like. girl wtf . Anyway long post Cuz this was mostly a ramble IF I SAID ANYTHING STRANGE SORRY . Just woke up . Im insane . But I feel like I know what Im saying
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lostworldss · 3 years
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Choices Rant
Just wanted to rant about the direction PB has gone with Choices.
(very long post below)
Before I start, let me just speak a bit about my personal experience with Choices. I started playing Choices when there were only like 3 series available: the Freshman, The Crown and the Flame, and Most Wanted (so like 2015/2016?). I can’t remember what even made me download it in the first place, most likely I saw one of their stupid ads and downloaded it out of boredom. I remember TCATF being the first book of their’s that really stuck out to me and kept me interested. I remember being there when Rules of Engagement first came out as the next series (nobody even talks about those books anymore lol).
I remember being there when the first chapter of Endless Summer came out (and being like wtf is this art style why is it different). Looking back, it seems so crazy to me that I can say that about a series that spanned 3 whole books with hiatuses in-between and still ended years ago. Anyway, this isn’t me trying to be like “look at me I was here before it was cool” or anything like that. I’m just saying that I’ve been on this train wreck for a long time.
Here’s the thing that stuck out to me about Choices.
It was an app that felt like a Choose-your-own-adventure book. There were all these cool stories about Fantasy, Mystery, Adventure, and all sorts of genres. Yes, there were Romance books too, but they weren’t ALL about romance. They had books like ROE and TRR, but they also had books like ES and ILITW.
Choices was different from other visual novel/story apps that I had played before. It was different from apps like Episode or Chapters.
And I think the thing that made it unique was that they had diverse, genuinely well written stories that actually had heart and effort put into them. You’ll never find a book series like Endless Summer in Episode, or Chapters, or any other of those same copycat visual novel apps.
That’s why it physically hurts me to see Choices now, abandoning the very thing that made them unique in the first place. Now, they just want to focus on writing Romance and Steamy stories. Which isn’t inherently bad, following the money makes sense for a business to “keep the lights on”. But they also wouldn’t be in this situation in the first place if they didn’t put themselves in this very position.
Ever since I first downloaded Choices, all of the ads have always been the same. It’s the same kind of ads Episode and Chapters put out. You know, the ones about you catching your spouse cheating on you, and its like:
What do you do?
(Yell at them)
(Set his entire house on fire)
And it’s just like, what do you expect? Putting out ads like that? Do you really expect the kind of people who would play TCATF or Hero to download your app if that’s what they think it is? Like OFC not.
The only people who download apps based off of ads like that are either A) middle aged facebook soccer moms AKA the majority of the Episode/Chapters player base or B) People who are just plain bored or curious.
And it’s a cycle. By advertising Romance/Steamy/Cheating books, you’re going to attract players who want to read Romance/Steamy/Cheating books. Of course those are the books they’re going to read. And then BECAUSE more people are playing and spending money on Romance books (according to your player statistics), you’re going to want to put out more Romance books.
And then you wonder why not as many people are playing the other books.
It’s so painful because they had so much POTENTIAL if they just didn’t go that direction. Just imagine if they had advertised themselves as an app with Choose-your-own-adventure stories, with ads that previewed books like BOLAS instead of TNA.
There is a big audience out there for people who like adventure/mystery/fantasy stories. Just think of all of the people who go out and watch things like Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Marvel and DC movies, etc. They could have catered to that audience instead of the same one as every other app they’re competing with. If they had just chosen to embrace what made them original and unique, they could have distanced themselves from all of their competition.
Yet instead of this, they do the opposite and just become more even more similar to the competition. I get that maybe it’s more risky to do something new, but you’re not going to get much of anywhere by playing it safe and being just like everyone else either.
It’s just disappointing seeing what has become of Choices now. You can tell that even the writers don’t put any effort into the stories they write anymore. I've seen so many people in the fandom come up with better theories, storylines, and fanfics than what actually ends up happening.
But no, let's save money by releasing half assed books, where we put just enough money and effort into it to make it so we'll lose profit if it doesn't do well, but not enough to actually make it good enough to actually do well. (Big Brain moves by PB)
And now they’re literally going so far as to prioritize certain LI’s within books over others. Sidelining POC and female LI’s so they have more time for the white male LI instead. They’re not even trying to hide their racism anymore. I mean, why bother when you can just block all criticisms on twitter and not have to hold yourself accountable. (All of this is a whole nother post I could get into).
Anyway, I just think it's sad to see the direction Choices has gone from when it started. Especially when I think that it had a lot of potential to be something more unique.
Congratulations Pixelberry, hope you enjoy becoming Chapters 2.0.
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you answer about celebrities being prudent with dating got me curious as western boys in bands, especially in the rock/alternative/rap scene, seem to have a reputation for dating/sleeping around a lot, do asian idols just not date/sleep around a lot or are they just better at hiding it because they are expected to?
Hi, anon! I’m slowly working through all the asks, but I remembered yours when I was watching this week hotpot episode from SDoC S3 (I’m wondering if I should write a post compiling all the candies, but I have so many asks pending).
To start with the answer, let’s put the disclaimer first: I don’t know celebrities, I’m a simple fan just like all of us. Whatever they do in their private life it’s their own thing, and I just simply try to place an objective view of their situation here.
Just a clarification: when we talk about idol or celebrity, I’m talking about those that are pretty successful in the industry (with their number of fans ranking in the millions). These are the tip of the iceberg in the industry however. The bulk of them have less fans, but are also less subjected to scrutiny by the public.
1. First of all they are prudent because it isn’t widely accepted as “good” that people date/sleep around a lot, especially among the older generations. However, many young people also feel that it’s unacceptable, and their opinions may vary from “they must be very promiscuous or they flicker a lot” to “if they haven’t been able to keep a relationship for long, there must be a problem with this person”.
2. We’ve already talked about the fact that celebrities are expected to uphold a clear and good moral example for their fans. They’ll be heavily criticized if they do things that aren’t socially approved, and it’ll impact negatively on their work prospects. So, I suppose that in the case any celebrity did date/sleep around, they’d have to be masters at hiding their “affairs”.
Let’s just imagine how a male idol’s gf fans (the type of fans that fantasize being their idol’s gf) would react if their idol publicly dated around with many girls. I don’t think that would end well.
3. Like I said at the beginning, I’m going to talk about those idols and celebrities that have more success in the industry.
So, when we talk about dating/sleeping around, there’s something that we can’t ignore: time.
I don’t know about the workload of the boy bands (especially, as you said, in the rock/alternative/rap scene) but the workload of an Asian idol is terrifying.
Let me show you a few examples:
a. Even before he debuted in the boy band, dd spent almost everyday hours dancing, no free weekends and barely vacations, since he was 13 and entered the company. As a child, he got myocarditis when he was learning to dance. As soon as he got discharged, he went back to dancing, and spent his summer vacations (just a month in China, btw, August) dancing from 1 pm to 9 pm everyday, to recover the lost ground (this really was a test for his love for dancing, but just imagine it: he could do 8 hours a day just because he liked it, how many hours would he pull when pressed by the company?)
b. To anyone unfamiliar with Asian culture, the Lunar New Year’s Eve is the most important celebration in Asian culture, a night when family gathers together to celebrate the arrival of the new year. Asian idols usually are full of work, even that same night, so they almost never spend the New Year’s Eve with their families. A famed actress (in her fifties), once said in a program: “my father died last year... and one of the things I regret the most is that I haven’t spent a single New Year’s Eve with him in the last 20 years”.
c. In 2015, a year after his debut with Uniq, dd posted on w/ibo: “Just another year that I can’t be with my parents on New Year’s Eve... just a little sad” (and from what I know, he hadn’t spent a single New Year’s Eve at home since his debut).
d. I don’t know if any of you are familiar with Running Man, another c-variety show that’s very popular in China (I recommended it, btw). They did a night-life special last year, and when the director announced the theme (that they’d start filming by 4 pm and continue through the night), the host were like “just that?”:
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“Then like our usual jobs”, “I can stay awake longer than an owl”, “I’m also good at spending all-nighters”.
One of them actually said: it seems that they don’t really get what an actor’s job is... everyone say how many days and nights have you gone by without sleeping in you busiest times? Angelababy (that’s her stage name, yes): “When I was a model... I really spent  three days and three nights   without a single moment of sleep.” Li Chen: “Before I came here to film yesterday, I spent 4 days filming night scenes for my drama, so 4 nights without sleep.”
Song Yuqi: “If we count sleeping an hour a day... I went a full week without a full night of sleep. Yesterday was the longest I’ve been sleeping in the last month”.
Their attitude is what surprises me the most, to be honest... It’s like, “of course we would spend a whole night awake, no problem!”
e. One of the previous hosts from this show once said that from his daughter’s birth to her first birthday the amount of time he spent with her totalled to three months.
4. I actually remembered your ask yesterday when I was watching the hotpot episode because of this:
The hosts mentioned getting back at their hotels after filming at 6 am (I think they had been filming the episode during the day and most of the night, and wanted to film a part of the dance using the first daylight). Actually, dd was talking about ZYX making noise in his room practicing dance moves at 6 am (wtf dude, you just pulled an all-nighter, please sleep).
There was a stalker photo of dd taken at 3 am when dd was coming out of the filming site for SDoC S3, one of the other day (just imagine it: you’re leaving the workplace, after a hard day of work, and instead of getting into the car peacefully you have to escape from these people). 
This kind of workload is insane. When they aren’t filming, they are travelling to filming sites, filming tv shows episodes, filming commercials, doing interviews, photoshoots, practicing whatever show is coming up next, reading scripts, and a long list of things they do. Almost without a single moment to rest.
I remember an interview of another actor, in which he said that if he had a free moment in his schedule or a free day, he spent it sleeping and talking with his family.
I’m not saying that with this kind of schedule keeping a relationship is absolutely impossible, but it resembles greatly a long distance relationship, no matter where your home actually is. So dating around a lot is quite of... difficult? (at least in my opinion). And about sleeping around... maybe it’s just me, but if I had a free night with their workload... I’d pass out as soon as I was in my room, and that’s all the sleeping I can envision.
(Btw, this kind of work pace is a trend in China. I've been told that it’s actually common to have surgeons doing 36-hour shifts... here I was thinking that 24h shifts were outrageous).
5. However, it’s not impossible. It wasn’t so long ago that a scandal got out about an actor who was married and with an adult son AND still had time to keep a mistress.
I hope I haven’t rambled too much, anon, and that you find my answer useful!
Edit (thanks to @gremlin-02!): “you're missing the part about propaganda. chinese idols have to hold up "chinese culture/good morals/examples of good citizens" they are not gonna be promoting a play boy idol since it "corrupts" the family values and state system.”
You are absolutely right, and it’s also a point that supports the second part of this post. We tend to forget about it, but the national propaganda has shaped the country from its core. Without it, the country would be very different today. Not better or worse, just... different, since propaganda, for all its bad reputation, has played a large part in their economic growth and their position in the world economy today.
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Hi. League lore is a nightmare that contradicts itself and has the nasty habit of spawning fan theories that, while interesting and honestly sometimes more clever than canonical content, are most likely not intended to be canonical.
What I’m talking about mostly is this thing that I really started thinking about in earnest yesterday, although I think I’ve had it on the backburner for a while. The thing in question is people taking all of League’s lore to be simultaneously canonical - assuming that it’s part of a grand overarching plan, or treating it as if it was all written at the same time. This is... not a good way to approach League lore, although it may seem it.
Example one: the theory that I heard that Annie’s parents actually moved to the Noxian borderlands to keep Annie safe from the academy Rell was held in. (Annie wasn’t born at the time they moved, but magic seems to work along familial lines in League and her mom was a witch, so it seems a safe bet.)
On the surface, cool theory! It works if Rell’s been in the academy since age 8, which isn’t exactly specified but is definitely possible. Annie’s parents could potentially have heard about missing kids and assumed something bad was up. Unfortunately, while it may make sense when you take lore as a combined bundle, it doesn’t make sense if you look at the out-of-universe timeline. Annie’s lore update came in 2018 and Rell came out about two years later. We know the champion production timelines are about a year (I think? Please correct me if I’m wrong), so Rell probably started taking shape in 2019. This means that the whole Noxian sigil magic evil academy thing probably wasn’t on Riot’s radar when they made Annie’s update - and, besides, her lore has always portrayed her as coming from an area adjacent to/on the outskirts of Noxus. It’s much more likely that Riot just rehashed elements of her original lore into something that worked in their modern setting, instead of them having this master plan where the true reason Annie’s out in the borderlands is to keep her safe.
Now, since Riot does often seem to have a habit of taking concepts from fans in one way or another... Maybe there will be another Annie lore that ties the academy in. It would certainly make the world feel more connected. But at the moment, it’s a fan theory that was probably 99.99% not intended to be canon, because the timelines don’t match up.
(Also, I think Rell lore could have been handled better. Not even from a “Swain wtf are you letting the Rose do” standpoint, but from a character standpoint from Rell. But that’s an aside. Also also, how long has Swain been in power? Annie’s lore has Darkwill in power 8 years ago. Also also also, I think a lot of people who subscribe to this theory might not think about the fact that Rell is 8 years older than Annie - they may see all the events as happening simultaneously, since there isn’t exactly a canonical timeline. If that makes sense?)
Example two: hi, Viktor and Blitzcrank lore.
Blitzcrank’s lore directly contradicts Viktor’s new lore, showing that Riot isn’t exactly interested in maintaining continuity. Maybe it’s just for champions that are less popular, but whatever.
Viktor’s lore update (which I think came in 2016, along with Piltover-Zaun unification? I wasn’t active in League then, so I don’t recall) describes Blitzcrank in the following manner:
In the midst of his studies in Piltover, a major chem-spill devastated entire districts of Zaun, and Viktor returned home to offer his help in the rescue efforts. By grafting a sophisticated series of cognitive loops upon existing automata-technology, he crafted a custom-built golem, Blitzcrank, to help in the clean-up. Blitzcrank was instrumental in saving scores of lives and appeared to develop a level of sentience beyond anything Viktor had envisioned.
Even with the spill contained, Viktor remained in Zaun to help those afflicted by the released toxins. With the golem's help, he attempted to use his techmaturgical brilliance to save those whose lives had been blighted by the spill. Their attempt was ultimately unsuccessful in preventing more deaths, and the two parted ways.
Blitzcrank’s lore currently (circa 2019) does this:
Useless to all but one person. The inventor Viktor discovered the abandoned golem and, seeing the potential still within the inert chassis, inspiration struck. Viktor began a series of experiments, seeking to improve the automaton by introducing a new element that would elevate it far beyond the original scope of its creation.
Hextech.
Implanting a priceless hextech crystal sourced from the deserts of Shurima into the chassis of the forsaken golem, Viktor waited with baited breath as the machine rumbled to life.
Zero mention of at what time this occurs. Zero mention of Blitzcrank being designed specifically for a rescue effort. The lore continues to diverge. The post’s long enough already, but you can read it and see for yourself. Blitzcrank’s 3rd lore (see wiki) is slightly more in line with Viktor’s, but still doesn’t make sense if you try to read it in concert with Viktor’s lore:
An ambitious young inventor known as Viktor longed to create a durable machine that could clean more effectively and eliminate the need for costly repairs. He gathered broken parts from the retired golems, avoiding the flashier components popular among his peers. Even employing an assemblage of unwanted materials, Viktor designed a more resilient machine.
He named his creation Blitzcrank, hoping the golem would quickly eradicate all waste and become far greater than the sum of his discarded parts. After instilling in Blitzcrank a relentless desire to serve the people of Zaun by removing the toxins in their path, Viktor sent him into the Sump to help.
What’s going on here? I don’t know. Also, it’s 2021 and I really wish Riot would stop using “golem” as a synonym for a robot. I know that fantasy generally does this, but like. Come on.
Example three: Talon’s lore.
It hasn’t been updated since 2015, man. I really can’t take the idea of Riot having some master overarching plan that everyone fits into when Talon (and I think some of the Void monsters?) hasn’t gotten an update since they snipped the Institute out of his lore.
TL;DR: League lore is piecemeal and any attempt to make any lore that came out about more than a year or two apart fit in with each other is probably not going to work. It may spawn some interesting theories, but those theories probably weren’t intended. It may also just directly contradict character backstories. It may also just be completely outdated and incoherent in the modern narrative.
Stuff like this is why I have trouble taking any lore analysis channels on YouTube seriously, because it really does feel like they don’t acknowledge the out-of-universe fact that Riot really doesn’t seem to have an overarching plan for more than about two years at a time. Maybe they have individual plans for each area - even that looks unlikely, considering Viktor and Blitzcrank’s issue - but something larger? I really doubt it.
Maybe this will all change with Ruination and Riot’s second attempt at doing a Big Event. Maybe they’ll realize that there’s at least one character lore contradiction (I don’t read all the lore, so while I have no doubt that there’s more contradictions I’ve really only spotted Viktor and Blitzcrank) and try to shore that up with minor edits. But at the moment it’s kind of a mess that sometimes feels like the fans think more about the impacts of the lore than the writers do.
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reasons why i love Tom Hardy.
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All is said in the title.
It’s really funny, because I just found back this screen cap from Tom Hardy iconic myspace era. I did this screen cap in 2015 (yes, I know, wtf do I keep in my files) and already, I was having a tad of a crush on him. But now, it’s 2020 and I’ve been through some growth and just reading this text he wrote today made me fancy him even more.
It’s like I am reading his words for the first time, and understanding them in a brand new light. Definitely, I’m not the same Audrey I was in 2015. I don’t think people do change but my impulsivity n’wisdom did something to me. Anyway, here’s to a pretty long post on WHYs I love Tom Hardy.
First, his talent. As most of his fans, I highly respect his body transformations. He doesn’t do it halfway. It was very striking in Legend, where he plays two twin brothers. It’s him but it’s not. These two roles were very emotionally touching, i mean if you forget my never-ending obsession with gangsters, this was truly one of my favorite movie. Besides the stud apparence he developed, the vulnerability pouring out from Ronnie was heart wrenching. If you haven’t seen this picture, I highly recommend it. I also recommend the soundtrack, full of sixties vibes. Then, I love his crazy. What he does in Peaky Blinders is extraordinary. 
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What is funny about Tom Hardy is that I’ve seen around 65% of his filmography before developing a crush on him. Like, I really like the directors he worked with, and as I’m a bit obsessed with british everything, well, it’s like I was in the mood before even knowing I am (if that does make sense). From Stuart a Life Backwards, to Lawless, and of course, Inception and The Dark Knight Rises, in the early 2010s I was pretty on point. Funny thing, when I watched Inception in theater I was seventeen, and this movie made me literally speechless, but I was having a crush on J-G Lewitt, and the more I watched this movie as the years went by, I preferred Eames which made me realize how, once again, my growth as a young woman was having a impact on my... tastes?
I remember around that time watching a light action/romance movie called This Means War, and when I first saw him on screen, and I went like “Damn!” and still, the dots didn’t connect in my silly brains.
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Then, of course, Mad Max Fury Road came out in 2015 and like thunder, it stroke me. I went INTENSE about the story of this amazing picture (can you hear me scream feminism) and the cast. I mean, Hoult, Kravitz, Theron... This was the dreamboat. Also, it’s all about the context. What I really like here again, is that the previous summer, I watched the Mad Max trilogy with my Dad and as I found it super weird and cool, the themes and plots were very 80s while Fury Road was full of preoccupations we are having right now. 
Previously to all of this, I think in 2012 or 2013, I did this Buzzfeed quizz about which Tom actors was a total match for me, and as I was hoping to launch Hiddleston ; I had Hardy and was annoyed. Funny how the internet can be perceptive, sometimes!
Second, his story. I remember being all, “okay so strangely I watched of his movies but who is he really?” and geez, I’m not dumb, I know that we can’t know-know a person, especially a celeb, from only what you learn behind a screen (no offense there) but I was like, I want to read more and see what his motives are. And I wasn’t disappointed. I read interviews, watched interviews. I really loved that he wasn’t just the quite attractive body he is, but that in anything he did, he was genuine. Yet, yet there was more and more to analyze through the way he picked his roles and projects. The fact that he was an addict, hit rock bottom at a moment in his life made sense. I saw an video he did for The Prince’s Trust on youtube, you could see how bad he wanted to give back. I like that the blunt, roughness he exhales was for a reason, and not for play. And I can tell that, even if he ever was or can be some kind of asshole, he’s never sold for the low. Like, he’s the kind of person who would never speak shit about someone else, or be racist or misogynistic, you know? 
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Third, he’s true. If you read the words from the screen cap I posted, I don’t know. The language he uses is something I can relate to. It’s so hard to open up, to be real and to not expect all at once. “i am often afraid. so I have to share. I want to help, it’s not my business to judge, I made mistakes, I stand corrected, I accept casualties, and walk with hope because I fucking LOVE.” aren’t these the words of a legend? In a world so full of shit and assholes, I just dig people like Tom. This must feels comfortable to be around someone who will tell you what he thinks instead of pretending for whatever motives he might have. Of course, I’m projecting a little here. But it’s cool because I know I do. It’s just kind of freeing to look up to someone who made mistakes but believe and hope and love, but not in pink. Just through his own vision, because he is entitled to. And that makes me feel like that, somehow, I do as well. I’m far from perfect and I love my bad side which makes me even less perfect but eh, just like he said “don’t be boring, that’s the fucking worst!”. Man, I couldn't agree more!
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Fourth, he’s kinda pretty. Don’t get me started on the tattoos. I’ll admit, my sexual awakening fitted my crush on him back then. It’s cool. I never had a single crush before being around 22, so to fantasize on men and not little boys was kinda strange at first. It’s like I forgot a step in the manual, but I get around it. I will stop this paragraph here because I know that when I will re-read it tomorrow, I’ll find it embarrassing. 
Fifth, I wrote him a letter two years ago. Here’s the funny thing, I don’t expect an answer. Writing him that letter was freeing, and I can’t really tell why. Sending it was like closing chapter full of doubts and hurt I went through in my early twenties. I felt like writing this letter and opening up about experiences and what I went through to a total stranger, and this was one of the best therapy I ever did. For all the reasons I cited above, I felt like he was relatable and so, I went for lashing all my fire into the papers and felt like I could let go of what hurt me all the years before. It’s like I would be heard, not seen, and never judged. This is weird, I am weird. I believe and trust my guts because this is what life gave me best in my entire body. The instinct to know which road I should venture on, no matter what, who and whys. 
“I chose the path of spirituality, spirituality seems to me to be for those who’ve been to Hell.” How true is that. I’m very grateful to have humans who inspire me like this, like Tom Hardy. 
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Thank you reading my nonsense, and if you feel the love, feel the same, just know that you’re not alone. The world can so fucking beautiful when you embrace yourself, ugly tears, powerful truths and lunatic smiles. We’re all bloody together in this whatever!
#audreytheartiste
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~February 20th, 2020~
Santana isn’t sure how Brittany got her to agree to this. All she knows is that they’re not going to spend their anniversary in Lesbos this year, and she isn’t happy about breaking that tradition at all.
~February 2015~
“I can’t believe we have the same anniversary now” Brittany wrapped an arm around Santana as they walked out of the auditorium with Blaine and Kurt.
“I can’t...wait, hold up WHAT WAS THAT?” Santana looked up at Brittany, who was happily smiling.
Brittany continued “Yeah you guys, were in this together now. Okay? You can count on us. And I think we should make a pact to celebrate our anniversaries together every year for the rest of our lives.”
Kurt laughed “Or maybe every fifth year?”
“Okay, fifth year.” she relented, and Blaine and Santana reluctantly agreed as well. As soon as the boys were out of earshot, Santana gave Brittany her signature “WTF” look.
“Britt! I don’t want to celebrate our biggest anniversaries with the gays!” she crossed her arms, and tried to pout.
“It’ll be fun San, please?” Brittany pulled off a pout, and Santana groaned before agreeing and kissing away that pout.
“Now, let's go to the Bahamas!” Brittany smiles, pulling Santana to the car.
~2020~
“Why exactly are we not just staying in the city and spending the day with them?” Santana asked Brittany for the millionth time as she pulled their suitcases from the taxi trunk.
“Because” Brittany paid the cabbie who sped off “I still want our anniversary to be fun.”
“Hawaii with the gays, who are going to call Rachel every hour about her surrogacy sounds like fun to you?” Santana grabs Britt’s hand as they make their way into the airport. Brittany smiles and nods.
“Where are they anyway? Wouldn’t it have been easier to meet at one house and share a cab?” Santana shows her ID to TSA watching Brittany do the same.
“Well yeah, but this is more fun. They’re already at the gate, Blaine apparently thinks Starbucks is best at the airport.” Brittany said, tossing her shoes in a bin with Santana’s.
“Well I think an extra hour in bed with you on our anniversary is better than any coffee” Santana kissed her lightly, retrieving their shoes.
“Totally worth it.” Brittany agreed, grabbing hold of Santana’s hand so she wouldn’t get lost in the airport. Brittany only let go when she saw Kurt and Blaine, running to hug them. Santana dragged her feet, catching up and side hugging the other couple reluctantly. Blaine offered for but her coffee while Kurt and Brittany reminisced about the one time they’d dated and she gladly agreed.
“You don’t seem excited. Hawaii is beautiful and quiet this time of year.” Blaine paid the cashier for Santana’s caramel latte.
“If it was just me and Britt I would be. No offense, but I like to keep our anniversary just for us.” she grabbed the coffee, taking a couple gulps.
“None taken. I wasn’t thrilled either, but Kurt reminded me that we agreed, and that he was actually looking forward to it.” Blaine rolled his eyes, casting a look at the other two giggling.
“Same here. She hasn’t stopped talking about it since our honeymoon ended years ago.” Santana played with the large diamond on her finger.
“That sounds like Brittany. How are you two doing anyway? I know we talk frequently, but you two seem like you are in the same place you were five years ago.” Blaine took a seat beside Kurt who had Brittany preoccupied with a video of a new Broadway dance number.
“We are great. You know I passed my LSAT and I still sing every once in awhile at clubs.” Santana said “And Britt’s studio is booming, she loves the kids, she loved the day you two visited.” she smiled.
“But that’s your career. Haven’t you two thought about starting a family? Kurt and I are so excited for our bundle of joy.” Blaine nudged her.
“Yeah, we have. We just don’t know who’s going to put their career on pause. I keep telling her that I should do it, since I’ll be able to work longer and from home, but she’s really adamant that she can take time off.” Santana sighs “I don’t think she realizes that it could have a long term effect on her.”
“I do.” Brittany said, kissing Santana’s cheek and frowning “I just don’t want you to do it just cause your career is more flexible. What if you miss a huge case that could make or break you?”
“There will be more. I promise.” Santana squeezes Brittany’s hand “What do you say, we start trying when we get back?”
“Yeah…okay. But if you carry this one and we want another, I’m carrying number two.” the blonde insisted.
“Deal Britt.” Santana kissed her.
“Hawaii, here we come!” Kurt screamed as the overhead announced it was time to board.
“Happy Five Years Everyone!” Santana said.
“Happy Five Years!” the other three smiled.
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certified-disaster · 4 years
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Why do I feel like I’m old compared to some of the 5sosfam?
Like I’m 22 now in 2020 and I started listening when I was about 14/15 in 2013.
When the title album was released it was the summer before my JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL in 2014.
I went the rock out with your socks out the following summer.
Sgfg was released the first semester of my SENIOR YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL in 2015.
My first day of college I had gone to class then went to the sounds live feels live concert in my hometown.
Like wtf am I old now? Why do these seem so long ago?
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griimhilde-a · 4 years
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      1, 9, 11, 27  ,                                               from @hecrowned​
what     was     your     first     impression     of     the     roleplay     community     on     tumblr     ?     and     what’s     your     impression     of     it     now     ?
i’ve     only     written     on     fb,     ever,     so     the     first     impression     on     tumblr     was     :     what     ?     how     ?     and     it     seemed     difficult     to     organize     and     navigate,     really     hard     to     make     personal     connections,     and     just     overall     seemed     closed-off-ish.     suuuper     difficult     to     get     into     if     you     don’t     already     have     friends     to     help     you     set     up.     and     i     came     into     tumblr     like     october     2019     (     yes     ik     not     that     long     ago     )     completely     new,     on     my     own,     absolutely     zero     experience,     zero     friends     on     tumblr,     and     figuring     things     out     on     my     own.     also     formatting,     wtf     even     is     that.     the     lingo     ?     “dash”     ?     what     ?     but     now     it’s     just     .     .     .     nice     ?     it’s     interesting     seeing     how     people     format     and     icon,     it’s     a     place     where     people     make     their     material     from     scratch     and     put     a     lot     of     work     into     their     blogs     and     characters.     it’s     definitely     a     place     where     you     gotta     be     careful     with     what     you     say     or     someone’s     gonna     get     offended     and     take     something     personally     (     it’s     like     .     .     .     people     look     for     drama     here     and     an     excuse     to     get     upset     )     but     .     .     .     it’s     nice.
how     long     have     you     been     roleplaying     ?     how     long     have     you     been     writing     evie     ?
i’ve     been     rping     for     so     long,     about     10     years      ?     since     2010     ?     all     of     it     was     on     fb     and     i’m     pretty     sure     i     still     have     an     account     from     2010     still     standing     lmao.     i’ve     been     writing     evie     since     2015     and     have     been     developing     her     ever     since.     she’s     :     baby     and     deserves     the     world. 
what     made     you     start     wanting     to     roleplay     ?
ksfjksldfjlkdsfksd     oh     boy     i     thought     i     met     the     real     nina     dobrev     and     was     like     holy     ---     what     you     can     write     as     charas     you     like     ??     and     i’ve     always     been     a     writer,     always     writing     short     stories     and     starting     novels     i     never     finished     so     this     seemed     like     the     perfect     way     to     just     keep     writing     and     trying     out     new     things     ?
what     songs     do     you     listen     to     when     wanting     to     get     into     the     mood     of     roleplaying     ?
hmmmm.     i     listen     to     just     about     anything     ?     i     have     this     playlist     that     i     started     years     ago     with     songs     i     like     that     i     just     kept     adding     to     it     over     time,     so     that’s     my     go-to     playlist.     it’s     very     broad     in     terms     of     genre,     like     i     got     some     harry     styles,     some     chicago,     dorothy,     80s     bops     .     .     .     everything. 
                                ♡   ♡   ♡
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         ... claws my way up from hell once more and vomits onto the dash.... hello. its nora. i used to write rory bergstrom, but if u were here before that u might remember me as greta or alma putnam or..... som1 else.... an endless carousel of trash children..... this is finn, who i actually wrote for an early version of this rp abt 5yrs back now...... grits teeth..... so forgive me if im rusty i havent written him in a long time but seein honey boy gave me a lotta finn muse n im keen to get Back On The Horse yeehaww...
DYLAN O’BRIEN / CIS-MALE — don’t look now, but is that finn o’callaghan i see? the 25 year old criminology and forensic studies student is in their graduate year of study year and he is a rochester alum. i hear they can be judicious, adroit, morose and cynical, so maybe keep that in mind. i bet he will make a name for themselves living off-campus. ( nora. 24. gmt. she/her )
shakes my tin can a humble pinterest, ma’am....
finn has a bio pasted at the bottom (n written in like.... 2015.... gross) but it’s long  so if u don’t wanna read it here’s the sparknotes summary..... anyway this was written years ago n a lot of it seems really cliche and lame now but..... we accept the trash we think we deserve
grumpy, ugly sweater wearing, tech-savvy grandpa
very dry sense of humour and embraces nihilism. 
if ron swanson and april ludgate had a baby it would be finn
he was raised in derry, just south of dublin.
from a big family. elder sister called sinead. he also has a younger sister (aoife), a younger brother (colm), and a collie named lassie because his father lovs cliches (finn hates cliches but loves his dog). 
his father was a pub landlord and his mother worked at the market sellin fruit n veg when they met but got a job as a medical receptionist when she had kids cos it meant she cld be there with them in the day and work nights.
his parents met when they were p young and fiesty and rushed into marriage cos they were catholic n just wanted to have sex. his family were literally dirt-poor, but they had a lot of love i guess
hmmmmm his relationship w his father wasn’t the best cos i can’t write character who have healthy relationships w their parents throws up a peace sign. yh, had a pretty emotionally distant, alcoholic violent father n so gets a lot of his bad habits i.e. drinking as a coping mechanism and poor anger management from him BUT anyway
as a kid he was never very motivated in class, he always had a nervous itch to be off somewhere doing something else. struggled under government austerity bcso there just wasn’t the resources to support low income families where the kids had learning difficulties n needed support. fuck the tories am i right 
his mum suggested he try sports to help w his restless energy but he was never any good at football so he took up boxing and tap dance instead. he took to tap dancing like a fish to fuckin water. as adhd n found this as a really good way to use his excess energy in a creative way
had a few run ins with the police in his early teens for spray painting and graffiti, but he straightened himself out n now actually considering becoming a detective inspector??? cops are pigs.
he had a youtube channel where he posted videos of him tapdancing and breakdancing as a kid, basically would be a tiktok boy nowadays, n had like... a small fanbase in his early teens. attended several open auditions unsuccessfully, until he was finally cast in billy eliot when he was fifteen.
during billy eliot he began dating an italian dancer called nina. they became dance partners soon after and toured across the republic with various different shows (inc riverdance lol the classic irish stereotype). their relationship was p toxic tbh, they were both very hot tempered people and just used to argue and fight all the time.
he went semi-pro at tap dancing, and nina couldn’t stand being second best so she moved back to italy with her family. ignored his texts, phone calls, etc, eventually he was driven to the point where he used his savings to buy a plane ticket, showed up at her house and she was like wtf?? freaked out and filed a restraining order accusing him of stalking.
he was fined for harassment and then returned home to derry, but after the incident with nina he quit dancing for good and finished his leaving cert before heading to university in the US to get as far away from nina and his past life as poss. and basically since he quit dancing to study forensics (death kink. finn cant get enough of that morgue. just walks around sayin beat u) he’s become a massive grump and jsut doesn’t see the good in people any more.
u’ll find finn in an old man bar drinking whiskey bc he is in fact an old man at heart or sat on his roof smoking a joint, drawing wolves and lions and skeletons and shit, playing call of duty or getting blazed or at the corner of the room in a house party ignoring everyone and scrolling through twitter. is a massive e-boy. always up-to-date on memes and internet slang. has reddit as an app on his phone
not very good at communication. rather than solve his issues by talking, he’d prefer to just solve them through fighting or running away from his problems hence why he has come halfway across the world to get away from an issue which probs cld have been solved w a few apology emails.
takes a lot to phase him, but when his beserk button gets pressed he can become a bit pugnacious like an angry lil rottweiler. in his undergrad he was in a few fist fights but doesn’t really do tht any more as he doesn’t condone violence.
 in the previous version of this rp he was hospitalised like 5 times. pls, give my son a break. stop tryin to kill him. he literaly got a bottle smashed over his head and bled out all over his favourite angora rug that was the only light of his life
works at the campus coffee shop n always whines about how he’s a slave to capitalism. always smells of coffee
lives off campus with an elderly woman named Marianne, and basically gets reduced rent bcos he makes her dinner / keeps her company. they have a great bond
fan of karl marx. v big on socialism
insomniac with chronic nosebleeds
cynical about everything. too much of a fight club character 4 his own good n has his head up tyler durden’s sphincter
always confused or annoyed
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full name: finnegan seamus o'callaghan nickname(s): finn age: 25 astrological sign: aries hometown: derry, ireland occupation: phd student / former street entertainer fatal flaw: cynicism positives: self-reliant, street smart, relaxed, intelligent, spontaneous, brave, independent, reliable, trustworthy, loyal. negatives: hostile, impulsive, stubborn, brooding, pugnacious, untrusting, cynical, enigmatic, reserved.
physical
colouring: medium hair colour: dark brown, almost black eye colour: brown height: 5’9” weight: 69kg build: tall, athletic voice: subtle irish accent, low, smooth. dominant hand: left scar(s): one on the left side of his ribs from a knife wound that he doesn’t remember getting cos he was drunk distinguishing marks: freckles, tattoo of a wolf howling at a moon allergies: pollen and the full spectrum of human emotion alcohol tolerance: high drunken behaviour: he becomes friendlier, far more conversational than when sober, flirtier, and generally more self-confident.
psychological
dreams/goals: self-fulfilment, travel the globe, experience life in its most alive and technicoloured version, make documentary films, help the vulnerable in society, grow as a human being.
skills: jack-of-all-trades, very fast runner, good at thieving things, talented tap dancer, good in crisis situations, dab-hand at mechanics, musically-intelligent, can throw a mean right hook and very capable of defending himself, can roll a cigarette, memorises quotes and passages of literature with ease, can light a match with his teeth.
likes: the smell of the earth after rain, poetry, cigarettes, shakespeare, whiskey, tattoos, travelling, ac/dc, deep conversations, leather jackets, open spaces, the smell of petrol, early noughties ‘emo phase’ anthems.
dislikes:  the government, parties, rules, donald trump, children, apple products, weddings, people in general, small talk, dependency, loneliness, pop music, public transport, justin timberlake, uncertainty.fears: fear itself, drowning alignment: true neutral mbti: istp – “while their mechanical tendencies can make them appear simple at a glance, istps are actually quite enigmatic. friendly but very private, calm but suddenly spontaneous, extremely curious but unable to stay focused on formal studies, istp personalities can be a challenge to predict, even by their friends and loved ones. istps can seem very loyal and steady for a while, but they tend to build up a store of impulsive energy that explodes without warning, taking their interests in bold new directions.” (via 16personalities.com)
full bio (lame as fuck written years ago..... pleathe...)
tw homophobia
born in quigley’s pub on the backstreets of sunny dublin, young finnegan o'callaghan was thrown kicking and screaming into the rowdy suburbs of irish drinking culture. the son of a landlord and a fishwife, he never had much in the way of earnings, but there was never a dull moment in his lively estate, where asbo’s thrived, but community spirit conquered. at school, finn was pegged as lazy and unmotivated, though truly his dyslexia made it hard for the boy to learn in the same environment of his peers and only made him more closed-off in class. struggling with anger management, finn moved from school to school, unable to fit the cookie-cutter mould that school enforced on him, though whilst academic studies were of little interest to the boy, he soon found his true passions lay in recreational activities. immersed into the joys of sport from as young as four, finn was an ardent munster fan and anticipated nothing more than the day he could finally fit into his brother’s old pair of rugby boots.
his calling finally came unexpectedly, not in the form of rugger, but through dance. to learn to express himself in a non-academic way, he began tap dancing, finding therapy in the beat of his soles against the cracked kitchen tiles (much to his mother’s disgrace). it wasn’t a conscious choice, finn just realised one day that dance was something that made him feel. a king of the streets, finn made his fortune on those cobbled pavements – dancing and drawing to earn his keep. by default, finn became a street artist, each penny he earned from his chalk drawings saved in a jam jar towards buying his first pair of tap shoes. though many of his less-than-amiable neighbours called him a nancy and a gaybo, finn refused to quit at his somewhat ‘unconventional’ hobby, for the young scrapper found energy, life, and released anger through the rhythm of tap. soon he branched out into street dance, hip hop, break dancing, lyrical, his days spent smacking his scuffed feet against the broken patio into the night.
when he was thirteen he took up boxing, and as expected, his newfound ‘macho’ pastime conflicted with his dancing. the boxers called him ‘soft’; the dancers called him ‘inelegant’. he felt like two different people; having to choose between interests was like being handed a knife and asked to which half of himself he wished to cut away. he couldn’t afford professional training in dance, with most schools based in england and limited scholarships available. instead, he made the street his studio, racking up a small fanbase on youtube. when he was fifteen he made his debut in billy eliot at the olympia theatre in dublin. enter nina de souza, talented, beautiful and italian; ballet dancer, operatic singer, genius whiz kid, and spoiled brat. she was selfish, conceited, hell bent on getting her own way, and every director’s nightmare. finn fell for her like a house of cards. he’d always had a soft spot for girls who meant trouble. and so their hellish courtship began.
by the time they were seventeen, the two young swans had danced in every playhouse across the republic. they were known in theatres across the country for their tempestuous personalities, their raging arguments with one another, their tendency to drop out of shows altogether without any notice, yet the money kept rolling in and the audiences continued to grow. for three years, their families continued to put up with their hysterical fights followed by passionate reconciliations. he was too possessive, and she was too wild. their carcrash of a relationship finally came to a catastrophic halt when nina broke off the whole affair and returned to italy with her family. for months finn tried to contact her, yet his phone calls, texts, facebook messages were always ignored, until finally he was driven to drastic measures and used his savings to get a plane to her home town. when finn turned up uninvited at nina’s house she freaked out – and rightly so – she contacted her agent, accused him of stalking her, and had a restraining order placed against him. finn was arrested, held in a station overnight, and charged with harassment before he was allowed to return to dublin.
after the incident with nina, finn lost the fight in his eyes. he became far more hostile, far less likely to retaliate with his own fists, and picked fights not for the thrill of feeling his own fists pummel another into a wall, but for the sensation of his own brittle bones cracking. he dropped his tap shoes in a dumpster, stopped talking to his friends, followed his father’s advice and went back to school to complete his leaving certificate. a few short months later, and finn was packing his bags, saying his bittersweet goodbyes, and travelling half-way across the globe to be as far away as possible from his past self, his mess of a life, and most of all nina. it seemed somehow ironic that the boy who had been cautioned by the garda so much during his youth for spray painting, busking without a liscence, and raucous parties would become the grumpy, aloof overseas student studying a degree in criminology; that his once reckless spirit could be crushed so easily. 
of all things that finn could be called, straightforward would never be one of them. ever since his first days in atticus, the boy was pegged as hostile, hot-headed, cynical, rude. he seemed to spend more time in his thoughts than engaging in conversation. like a ticking time-bomb, finn’s anger was of the calm kind, liable to explode without a moment’s noticed. his unpredictable personality make him something of an enigma to those who aren’t amiable with the lad, though hostile as he may appear, he harvests a good heart. loyalty lies at the centre of his affections, and whilst his friends are few in number, he makes a lifelong partner. somewhere within finn, there’s still some fight left, but mostly he has recognised that his hedonistic lifestyle did little to leave him fulfilled – mostly, it just emptied him out – and over his three years at university has resigned himself to a nihilistic predicament.
        if u wanna plot with me pls pls pls im me or like this post!! i am always game for plots i love em so excited to write with you all here r some ideas
study buddies. finn is now a phd student so has to start takin shit seriously. he gon be in the library every day doing that independent study. if he had ppl who were also regular library goers n they get each other coffees to save time.... tht wld be sweet
ppl who love techno dj sets and going super hard on the weekends!!! fuck yea
friends with benefits. exes on bad terms. ppl he tried to date but couldnt because he’s always emotionally hung up on someone else. spicy hook up plots
ppl he met touring?? maybe ppl who were also in the entertainment industry..... anyone got a character who is ex circus hit me up
does anyone else study criminology / forensics / criminal psych / law? phd students sometimes lecture so he cld be an assistant lecturer / tutor if ur character is in a younger year
gamers !!! social recluses !!! hermits !!
finn goes to the skatepark and all the young boys there think he’s a gradnpa which he is! 
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