#10 May '13

[mindibindi]

Happy Fright Night 🐈‍⬛🌙🕸🕯️🔮

#txf #the x files #mulder x scully #fox mulder #dana scully #gillian anderson #david duchovny #gillovny #textpost #friday 13th #happy 10/13 xphiles #may a black cat cross your path #xf textpost meme

[icewindandboringhorror]

reminders of the passage of time moodeboard

#my blog is in his last year of middle school. he'll be off to high school next year (at least I think so..? 13 yrs old is usually 8th grade #at least from my experience. 9th graders are usually 14. 10th are 15. etc. etc. and then you're in 12th grade #and graduate high school usually 17yrs old.) ANYWAY.. wow he is so ancient.. #maybe he's still in a preteeny early teen emo phase or something.. I hope he gets some black and white striped armwarmers and black eyeline #r for his birthday. Maybe an MP3 player of course. Though because I don't really like most alternative music and he is my son he's actually #not allowed to listen to metal or pop punk or emo rock whatever stuff. I open the mp3 player and pre-stock it with only #disco and funk and classical music. he can have a little chiptune or techno stuff as a treat (sometimes emo adjacent maybe more #scene. I think a lot of scene kids were into that more.. emo's weird eccentric brother)) #Also he starts taking iron pills his 13th birthday because he's probably incredibly anemic just like me #so on and so forth and et cetera (I'm just being silly.. I am not pro-controlling your children down to whatmusic they #listen to or etc.etc. lol) #THOUGH I love that it's in january... january is one of my favorite months if not my favorite. yeeaaay #just such a nice cool month. I like that it's the start of the year mostly and that it's sometimes snowy here. Like where I live nov - dec #isnt really actually snowy?? You always associate those winter Months with snow but I think snow happens later on this coast #so it's more like Jan - March or even april sometimes. Though that may just be climate change lol.. But it's cool that Jan is winter AND #ACTUALLY snowy. plus the Beginning Of Year vibes and energy.. hrm... nice nice.. ANYWAY #AND this is not even my first tumblr blog. I had a different one before it I think.. #evviilll to be on one website for so long lol.. Very thankful that most websites I used to use as a 10 year old or whatever #are now defunct. There's something weird about how humans are just creating endless streams of words and pictures and all of this stuff #and it just goes out into the void and stays there long after the person themselves has forgotten it. not even like 'oh no what if i said #something bad!!' but more just the general sense of.. people create so much more ideas than they can actually hold in their heads. nobody #remembers exactly word for word every post they've ever made or etc. It's like parts of yourself that you've externalized and then fade awa #from you but they're still you but they're not so you just have little snapshots of yourself in time floating around entirely unbenknownst #to you. like making clones of yourself and then forgetting you did so but every once in a while going 'shit... there's clones out there.. #of me and I don't even have track or awareness of them anymore.. what an odd concept..' etc. not EXACTLY like that ghbj..you know what I me #n.. or maybe you dont.. hrmm... ANYWAY #I am just now slightly recovering from my most recent mysterious illness spell and etc. so I would like to post more again and mAYBE even #do a costume if I'm being ambitious.. but after so many times of being randomly stricken by problems I'm now fearful of ever being too #hopeful lol.. always like 'I would like to go to the grocery store tomorrow! .... MAYBE.. if i CAN.. possibly... NOT getting my hopes up'. #etc. etc. etc. every statement has a caveat and a backup plan and so on and so forth and such is life.. anyway. happy birthday evil tumblr

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

how many times have you watched this scene or are you normal

#my thasmin is like. this little interaction but all the time #obsessed obsessed obsessed with it #the way she falls over the way yaz holds onto her basically the most tightly we like ever see anyone hold onto 13 #the way she wipes the sensation of yazs hands off her afterwards #the way shes so out of her mind #the way it's yaz who gets the worst of it bc shes always closest #shes always closest so she gets the ugliest side of the doctor. for her loyalty she gets this #and 13 Wants to give her so much more and she just...Cant #the way yaz knows this and accepts this #the way she knows everything and 13 knows she knows everything without her ever telling her anything bc #she knows yaz has been here. exactly here. right next to her every time. the closest #how could yaz /not/ know everything #she doesnt need to be told. shes seen everything. she may not know the details she may not know the stories. but she knows #'you dont understand ANYTHING' and she just goes 'alright. it's alright' #how many of these scenes have there been that we havent seen? if you ask me........Many #10 months between revolution and flux where it was just them and the doctor was chasing anything division? yeah Many #they barely touch each other too wheni write them #like they touch each other. duh. but it's like. its so tentative always its so careful and this is soooo physical #it has the same force as 'we were worried about you' but it lasts like. 20 entire seconds #i love when they touch each other like that i love when yaz steps over the boundaries #like when i made her beat up 14. feels good feels organic fhkghjg #or any time shes angrydepressed and she makes a pass at the doctor #its like jsut touch me just touch me just touch me for once #like how much time has she spent alone with 13 with no human around not getting any physical contact whatsoever #anyway

[sebnameyourcar]

love this girl at my work who’s watching old f1 seasons in full with not that much knowledge of what will happen (she’s on ‘06 now and doesn’t know if alonso or schumi will win). she revealed to me yesterday that mark webber is one of her favourite drivers atm. and she knows im a seb fan and she really loved him when she watched the ‘22 season last year (her first live season) so she said to me yesterday, and i am quoting: “i know vettel and webber are gonna be teammates soon i think they’ll really get along!!!”

#i have never been more excited for someone to watch 15 year old sports programmes #i cannot WAIT for her takes on fiji 07 on turkey 10 on abu dhabi 10 on britain 11 on brazil 12 on MALAYSIA 13 #how she hasn’t got much spoiled is incredible to me. i don’t think she grew up in an f1 house which may explain it #also she isn’t chronically online

[henrysglock]

S4 Victims: Story by Proxy?

Okay so. In spitballing with Em...something stuck in my head.

So we all know how serial killers leave crumbs because deep down they want to be caught/want the truth to be revealed? Well what if the Duffers, or even current Henry, are doing the same thing. That is, leaving breadcrumbs.

This mainly has to do with the S4 victims, their stories, and the order in which they're chosen.

So, it goes like this:

Chrissy: Abusive mother who resembles Virginia

Fred: Eaten alive by the guilt of being responsible for the accidental death of an innocent.

Max: Suicidal over guilt about Billy's death and her response to it. Billy, who died saving her/while she was saving herself from the Fleshflayer, a regenerated form of the Mindflayer.

Patrick: Abusive father, not much else told.

Max (again): Suicidal Ideation, dies, soul taken, but was revived by El. She's now in some limbo-state, where her body lives but her identity/mind is elsewhere. She will likely be brought back entirely by El in S5.

It almost feels like a story by proxy if we piece it together.

So, let's piece it together:

Person with an abusive mother...feels responsible for the death of an innocent...a sibling who was killed while this person was trying to save themselves from a monster which came from Hawkins lab, which leaves them suicidal...and this person lives in a situation with an abusive father figure. This person becomes suicidal, and their suicide attempt was not entirely successful. They were revived by El, and end up in a limbo state. They may or may not be brought back by El later.

Now, let's collect details about our serial killer:

Abusive mother? Check. (No matter how we frame it, Virginia was not a good mother.)

Innocent died? Check. (Henry has nothing bad to say about Alice, which we know he would if she were not innocent, since he does this with every other victim.)

Sibling died as a result of saving oneself? Check. (The Creel massacre was a situation where Henry was, with whatever intentions we may assign for the other family members' deaths, trying to save himself from Virginia and by extension the lab.)

Ended up with an abusive father figure? Check. (Well...an abusive Papa, one might say.)

Brought back by El multiple times? Check. (El was the one who took Soteria out and brought Henry back from being powerless. El was the one who put Henry in the UD/limbo state. El was the one who opened the gate for his return to the RSU.)

IT ALL ALIGNS. So let's put it together with all the feelings involved:

Citations (I guess? Explanations?) are in the tags listed by number!

Henry had an abusive mother who was at least trying to have him shipped off to the lab, if not actually trying to kill him outright. This situation builds and builds, him wanting to be left alone (1), putting out subconscious and conscious cries for help (2), and her targeting him about it, until March 25th, 1959.

Virginia starts it, attacks, and this time she's out for blood (3). Henry defends himself (4). Virginia, being the parent with powers (5), doesn't actually die (6). Victor, Alice, and Henry go for the door (7). Virginia's on the stairs (8). She's got to finish what she started, since her original plan was botched (9). Henry puts his energy into trancing Victor (10), protecting him from Virginia, since logically two people can't occupy one person's mind.

This leaves good, innocent Alice to fend for herself, standing directly in front of the staircase. She's a loose end (11). Virginia kills her, but can't kill Henry or Victor while the trance is occurring. She figures Henry's going to run himself into the ground (12). She figures she can call Brenner in to collect Henry, like they planned (13). If she disappears, she figures it'll go into the news something like this:

"World War II veteran kills entire family in deranged fit of insanity. Wife missing, presumed dead. Son dies in hospital."

And on both counts, she's essentially right. It does basically go into the papers that way. Victor is taken in for murder, and Henry is taken by Brenner, but not before he sees that Alice was caught in the crossfire (14).

Henry ends up with Brenner, the abusive Papa. He's got the guilt about Alice's death, something that makes him sad and angry. Brenner, maybe, decides to push this in order to increase Henry's powers, but it backfires. Henry's powers increase, but he does...something. He lashes out, he snaps, maybe he even tries to kill himself. He's Brenner's prized pet, though, so Brenner can't let that happen. He seals Henry's powers away with Soteria. It's a death for Henry's entire identity, so far as to have him under the name Peter Ballard. Then comes along 011. She removes Soteria from Peter Ballard...and revives Henry Creel. She then exiles him to the Upside Down in 1979, only to eventually bring him back in 1983 when she opens the Mothergate.

All this to say: It could be his own story, told through the stories of his victims.

Breadcrumbs, or maybe...obvious things, which nobody by any chance ever observes.

Below the cut is where I speculate into motivations for his actions after Soteria's removal, so...not required reading for this particular analysis.

Years of MKUltra torture warp Henry's guilt about the situation into a bastardized, violent, brutal, unethical savior complex based in the notion that he's a predator by nature, but a predator for good. He "saves" the lab kids from a future like his own, filled with nothing but torture. He "saves" El from her ignorance about the lab and intended to have her join him, thereby attempting to "save" her, technically his little sister, from the lab entirely.

He "saves" his s4 victims from their guilt and suffering, which so closely mirror his own, which no one saved him from. I could even go so far as to say he was "saving" Will, who is set up to be so much like him, from a world of horrible people who (from Henry's viewpoint based on his lived experiences) would only serve to abuse and betray him.

This of course isn't to say any of it is right. None of it is right or good...but it makes sense. It follows a pattern. It coheres. The math...maths.

#Citations! #1: Henry often hides alone in the attic. #2: Victor's burning cradle vison (a child in need of help). The drawing of the Shadow Monster. Possibly Alice's nightmares. #2 (cont.): Can all be interpreted as calls for help. Children in distress act out and make disturbing art in hope of conveying that need. #3: Virginia may or may not have been trying to kill Henry but based on the Fleshflayer parallel re: sibling death...it's probable. #4: Henry himself describes that night as self defense/being forced to act. #5: Virginia likely had powers given that Henry has powers #6: Her powers are likely similar to Henry's and Henry has regenerative powers. There are also fishy scenes of her death which imply #6 (cont.): that she may have still been alive. These include: shots from her POV. The fact that her eyes are bloody-- #6 (cont.): but still intact in some shots. The unexplained POV from the top of the stairs. #7: Henry looks very nervous and fidgety at the door like he's antsy to leave with Alice and Victor #8: Again the unexplained POV on the stairs...stairs she earlier runs down after Henry gives her her mirror moment in the bathroom. #9: Henry was successful in disabling her initially which exposed her culpability. #10: Henry puts *so* much time into Victor in canon with basically no explanation why. #11: Alice seems to be a smart and upstanding girl. She might not be controllable re: Virginia being alive/the whole scheme with Brenner. #11 (cont.): The only way to eliminate that risk is to kill her...and we've already seen that Virginia is not good to at least one child. #12: If Virginia has powers like Henry's she likely has a sense of how long someone can be tranced before the trancer runs out of energy. #13: Who called Brenner to come get Henry during his coma? How did Henry end up in Brenner's hands specifically? #14: amerion-main's recent post re: Henry's position change in the foyer shots #End Citations! #This is all very much speculation when it comes to the actual path of events re: the Creel Massacre #but we can all agree that we don't have the full story about the Creels yet...so who knows. #henry/vecna/001 #henry creel analysis #henry creel #virginia creel #creel family #stranger things #stranger things analysis

[ride-a-dromedary]

Halsin's eldest brother was the victim of a hunting accident when Halsin was still quite young and spending the summer with him, and while it wasn't the first death he had experienced (that would go to his grandfather), it is one that he most vividly remembers.

#BG3 Musing #Halsin Posting #death tw #this is a hc for the record #but i may or may not be writing something and in case i don't finish it #i need you to know that my brain has gone completely rogue #the lore in my mind is snug and secure #halsin was about 10 - 13 - his brother was just over 103 #he's ashamed to admit he doesn't remember his adult name - just what halsin called him for half his life

[fidgetspringer]

Pony boys ready for paint

#hands stop wobbling challenge #i need this group done by may #currently one horse is taking me around 10 hours #why did i take this commission again? #this is only 13 out of about 200 models

[randomfoggytiger]

Wait you have the same birthday as Mulder?! You lucky get! Anyway happy birthday, hope you have a wonderful day!

I do! Happy birthday to me! >:DDDDDDD

Thanks so much for the wishes-- and I hope to continue to have a great day~.

#asks #frogsmulder #Birthday Day #10/13 #the best birthday imo #I may not have been born on a Friday like Mulder #but sharing the numbers is just as good~

[mrkspo]

tô assistindo ao superbowl pq finalmente consegui entender como futebol americano funciona

#💭 ruth pensée #meu pai explicou tudo #kelce eu tô tentando torcer por vc #mas tá difícil #kansas city tá perdendo de 10 a 6 #edit: kc conseguiu virar 10 a 13 #edit 2: 49ers fez mais um touchdown #😭

[inhidingxoxo3637]

How I feel with my Suzuki clothing collection that should've cost me £120 but I got it for £43 BC I LOVE bargains

#slightly damaged suzuki team jacket (i repaired it dw pookies) ? £10 #alex rins team suzuki shirt? £15 on clearance but £5 shipping so £20 but it was brand new sp #team suzuki shirt in great condition? £13 #i also have wdc mir shirt but that was a gift #i want to get the matching Mir suzuki team shirt but atm hes gone from clearance so may be a while b4 i find 1 #anyways i got the team jacket+shirt of depop (separate sellers) yippie woohoo whatevs BUT #the shirts listing killed me bc it was like *team suzuki shirt 🔥 very nascar vibes 💨*......NASCAR??? BABY GOOGLE THE TEAM ON IT??? #but it was ok bc originally it was £16 but i added it to my likes n they sent an offer for £13 💋💅🌹 #motogp

[quibbs126]

I feel like the more we see the Ancients and Dark Enchantress Cookie, the more the prologue doesn’t make sense

Like, from what the prologue tells us, the Five Heroes fought against Dark Enchantress Cookie, then Dark Enchantress takes the five Soul Jams and they’re shattered, and in the wake of her and Pure Vanilla’s spell clashing, the five heroes, Dark Enchantress Cookie, and the Vanilla Kingdom all disappear (also the rest of their kingdoms are supposed to essentially crumble over time, but that’s less important)

And the game seems to go for the most part with this up until the reveal of Dark Enchantress Cookie’s true identity as White Lily Cookie. But honestly, I think that’s fine. Honestly I think it does work with what the prologue shows of her. Yes there’s now the confusion of why there’s essentially two White Lilies, but there’s also been evidence to show that there’s more to this story that we don’t know, and that there will be an explanation. Everything else however seems to be as we were told

In Pure Vanilla’s storyline, things seem to still line up. Now that Dark Enchantress Cookie has been freed, so have Pure Vanilla Cookie and the Vanilla Kingdom, and while we don’t see it, you could assume so have the others, but perhaps they were just scattered to other corders of Earthbread, hence why we don’t see them. Nothing contradicts that they disappeared too. Pomegranate also mentions how the Soul Jams are in shattered pieces across Earthbread, which we also know from the prologue. She also says that the spell going wrong between him and DE cursed the other Ancients, and yes, he calls it lies initially, the following dialogue implies that it’s true and that he was just telling himself that he didn’t

There is the question of how he suddenly has his whole Soul Jam back, but that’s like the only major contradiction, and it’s not one that’s really touched on. But overall things generally hold up

It’s at Hollyberry’s story that things start to get confusing. Now it does still use the “Soul Jam is shattered” thing (and is frankly the only one to keep that fact, aside from at the end where the Soul Jam suddenly becomes whole again but shush), with her shield’s pieces having been reconstructed over the years, but it’s the other things that start to contradict. For starters, Hollyberry didn’t seem to disappear as a result of the Dark Flour War, rather her disappearance seems to be that she left of her own accord, presumably sometime after the Dark Flour War, implying that she did not disappear. Also her memory problems aren’t like Pure Vanilla’s, since she seems to remember who she is, at least to some degree (I feel like it was very selective what she did and didn’t know, and the whole thing confuses me), but I suppose that doesn’t really matter as Pure Vanilla’s amnesia may just have been some sort of trauma defense thing, and thus just personal to him. I mean, Dark Enchantress remembers who she is

…I felt like I had more contradictions for her, but now I feel like the only major one here is that it’s implied that she didn’t disappear, but she stayed and went back to her kingdom

Oh wait, there’s also the fact that the Hollyberry Kingdom is fine and prospering, other than the whole dragon thing but no one seems too bothered by that. The whole idea that the world is suffering without the Ancients, specifically their own kingdoms, or that they were ever absent, just doesn’t feel like it’s there

But now let’s move on to Dark Cacao’s storyline, which I feel has the most contradictions

Hollyberry’s story feels a bit ambiguous whether the Ancients disappeared, but in Dark Cacao’s it outright says no they did not. Dark Cacao has been here and nothing implies he ever left, at least not for a significant period of time. Also, he has his whole Soul Jam, and again, nothing implies that he lost that or had to reconstruct it. He’s just had it the whole time. Both of these directly contradict the prologue

And while yes, his kingdom is suffering, and it’s partially because he lost his way, it wasn’t because of the Dark Flour War, rather this seems to have been a much more recent development with Affogato Cookie and particularly Dark Choco’s betrayal and exile. While some evidence may suggest things got worse for them after the Dark Flour War (in Dark Choco’s memories, his younger self seems to imply that the kingdom is isolating itself and is worse off for it), but things didn’t reach that breaking point until after Dark Choco’s banishment

Maybe that’s why the Dark Cacao storyline feels weird to me, because the conflict didn’t start because of things that happened in the Dark Flour War, nor does that seem to have had much effect on Dark Cacao or the kingdom, but rather it was because of something entirely separate

But yeah, going back to how things are presented to us now, the Ancients, other than Pure Vanilla alongside Dark Enchantress Cookie, never disappeared, their Soul Jams might have remained whole and with the heroes, and all the kingdoms seem to be doing fine (Dark Cacao’s not so much, but that’s due to external forces). So basically, pretty much all the points we see in the prologue don’t add up

Honestly at some point I start to feel like what happened in the prologue didn’t actually happen and rather that was just a fabricated story, and that we end up seeing what really happened

#cookie run kingdom #ancient cookies #pure vanilla cookie #hollyberry cookie #dark cacao cookie #golden cheese cookie #white lily cookie #dark enchantress cookie #I’ve been writing this post for so long I feel like I may have forgotten what my original point was #but you get what I’m saying #stuff in the prologue just doesn’t add up with what we see later #maybe that’s why I’m making the all ancients disappear au #because that actually lines up with what the story originally presents to us #I dunno I think I’m getting carried away #but yeah #is this intentional or poor storytelling? #maybe it’s just me but Episodes 1-10 all feel like one cohesive story #but Episodes 11-12 and 13-14 feel a bit disconnected #anyone else feel that? #ramblings #questions

[doctorwhoisadhd]

the 10th doctor kissed a male zygon on the mouth in the 50th anniversary. the 14th doctor called isaac newton hot in the 60th anniversary. you think david tennant will do something gay as the Doctor for the show's 70th anniversary

ok not to be like no fun allowed but 10 does NOT count for this at ALL bc 1) the zygon in question was disguised as a woman at the time and i cant even find evidence for that particular zygon being male (NOT saying you're lying, i'd just like to see what your evidence is). and 2) he is by appearances easily the straightest doctor in that he kissed 8 different women onscreen (BY FAR the most of any modern who / torchwood / sja / class character!!! and in fact he is the ONE single character who kisses 5+ different people who does not kiss people of both binary genders) and ZERO men and never said or did anything truly explicit unlike every other modern who doctor. and like when i say that please keep in mind that i am talking about a FICTIONAL CHARACTER which is different from a real person. if a character only does lowkey things that can be waved away by the audience yes they might be queer from a queer fan's perspective but how a queerphobic cishet person is going to receive them is very different.

that said i do think david tennant would do that yes

#whether or not i think he SHOULD is a different question though lol #and 10 lowkey aint shit a little bit in this particular regard im sorry anon but he comes across to the avg viewer as straight as fuck #9 and 11 both kissed men 12 talked about missy in a very queer way and besides EVERY one of his companions is explicitly queer #and 13 talks about her wife and has a female companion in love with her. like. 10 doesnt do basically anything in comparison #WHICH TO BE CLEAR IS SO FUCKING SAD AND FUCKED UP. #for the record the 5 ppl in the whoniverse who have kissed 5+ different people are: #owen harper and the eleventh doctor tied for fourth with 6 each (both 1 man 5 women) #gwen cooper in third with 7 ppl (5 men 2 women) #ten in second place with 8 ALL OF WHOM WERE WOMEN (the ONLY one in the top 5 who has only kissed the one gender) #and of course jack in first place with 11 (7 men 4 women) #(he also has the high score for most men kissed on screen even above literally any female character god bless i love jack harkness) #btw yes i made a spreadsheet for this. im normal. #(i was curious.) #(blaseball may have had lasting effects on me) #ari opinion hour #askbox

[hazellvsq]

i can “well actually 🤓☝️” my way out of caring about the frazel age gap but the age hazel was when she died does bother me. sammy valdez being the person she wanted to spend her life with or whatever might have had more gravitas had she not been 12 for the entirety of their relationship

#i DO understand why people care about the frazel gap believe me #and i'm not letting rr off the hook for writing that she was 13 #but the fact that she spent 10 months at camp jupiter does matter to me #she had a miserable prechristmas birthday to ME #and sammy valdez may have contributed little overall but #a period romance AND it’s doomed and its during ww2???? sorry sorry wish they’d been several years older sorry #its concept of all time with bad execution

[food-log-life]

唐揚げ🐔#夕食

#Food #May 13 #2023 at 10:32PM

[wind-becomes-lightning]

That kid Kakashi with his team art makes me think again about that idea of team Naruto time traveling back to see their parents as children...

EDIT, 03.09.2023:

since this still periodically gets likes and i guess its recommended or found or whateve I wanna make it very clear that this is about MY AU team naruto: obito, mai and aoki, the children of kakashi, gai and iruka

ok bye

#nisi rambles #kakashi would be 13 gai 14 aori and iruka around 10 #aoki would just watch his mother tease his dad relentlessly and be like how did they get together? #spoiler alert my boy they dont understand it either #but irukas parents would still be alive so he could see how much his sister looks like his grandmother..my heart #mai would just love baby gai and be surprised by her mom being open and not so anxious #as kaiya was at that point not yet shut in #baby obito would be deeeeaddd scared of Kakashi #kakashi would be ruthless to this teenager thats scared of everything and the world #naruto would just look through the windows of the hokage office #see his mom and dad and enjoy that view #think about the life they could have had #im emotional goodbye

[soundtrack-for-lovers]

Completely losing myself in them again I love them so much this will forever be my favourite live performance of theirs

Theo's vocals are just so perfect

#i don't think anyone truly grasps how much this band is part of my life #going on 13 years now #the tumblr fandom may be nearly nonexistent now thanks to their tendency to take long hiatuses #(and I've certainly let my hurtsblog go in recent times lol) #but you ask me what my favourite band is now - in 10 years - or in 50 years the answer will always be Hurts #ANYWAY I've got nostalgia worms in my brain excuse my rambling #Youtube