yall, please do yourselves a favor and read this fic. its the most perfect thing to fix a broken heart after watching swan song, and the fact that it was posted back in 2010 really adds something to it. its so cool to see fans’ reaction to the episode back when it had just aired and there was no way of knowing what the rest of the show would look like.
its beautifully written, very tender and warm. there are sections that take place in dean’s dreams (sort of, its complicated), and the whole thing has such a beautifully dreamlike quality to it. and its just so full of love :)
been on an expanse rewatch and I definitely need to reread the books because I remember first watching the show and being disappointed since it seemed like they’d really toned down the prax/amos subtext from the book. but rewatching I’m like “wow this is EXTREMELY gay” and now I’m extremely curious how much more blatant the subtext was in the book if the show seemed like a letdown.
i know people don't like it but please imagine it from dean's perspective for a second. you spend 4-6 years (the show's time is fucky) trusting cas, sticking your neck out for him, believing in him when no one else does, and he just keeps leaving. he leaves in 05x22 and spends a year away, he is distant and hard to reach in s6 (and turns out he's been lying to you the whole time), he leaves at the beginning of s7, he fucking dies, he comes back not him, you spend a year fighting to get to him and he leaves you again, and then to cap it all off you say you need him and he leaves again. this is the best friend you've ever had. you love him. and it sure seems like he doesn't want to be around you and doesn't trust you even though you trust him. so yeah, maybe you finally snap and try to push him away so you can just get it over with because you know he's going to leave again. so why not make it your fault so you don't have to wonder what else you could have done to keep him? why not let him get on with his life since he's clearly doing fine without you?
"You know, I've waited all my life for this moment. I imagine it so many different ways—that day far in the future when I'm in the spotlight, and you're in the shadow."
A hint from first season about some character in show
In this scene Prince Ali shows his unhapiness about his royal duties and Andre seeing this moment and he strangely reminisces something and feeling sad about young Prince
We will meet another young noble who hates her royal responsibilities and extremely unhappy about being a heir in Repesentation : Emilie Graham De Vanily
I must remind you Andre is very old friend of her and also talked about being so close with her and Gabriel when they were young in 05x22
Andre sympathizes with the sadness of an heir, even though he is portrayed as a bit of a bad guy who is his daughter's slave in the first season and not so nice to other people
Why did they show such a sadness in his face ? Maybe that's why