#....cool. i am Also going to leave now.

[automatonknight]

here's the prick i was talking about^ i have so many thoughts and notes about him but they're mostly incomprehensible so when i organize maybe them i'll post them who knows

#art #oc #id in alt #um ummm #idk. if you have any questions as always feel free to ask #ANYWAYS. geez making him has been so fun i love this asshole so much i'm going to put him through the horrors #salute to you Kordian if you see this if you hadn't shown me stalker i probably wouldn't be running in circles about patches now #more notes. i actually have no idea how magic works in-universe i just thought it would be cool. he's not good at using it he sucks. he's #shocked himself so many times probably. will that stop him? no #he practiced fencing for a few years so he actually like. knows how the fight flows or whatever. i think he definitely picks out targets wh #don't get their bearings quite as well and dances around them and shit like that he just likes to be mean i guess #idk idk. also he joins the lovelies at one point. that's like. semi-canon. it's sorta like with triumphant and normal walenty to me. like #they both exist but the. so to speak. evil one kind of doesn't in a way if you get me. i mostly thought it would be a fun thing to think #about. and also patches would do that and then he'd freak out like what the fuck am i doing and leave #another random thing about his pronouns. well i mostly use he/him for him. that 'any' is more in a way that if you referred to patches as #she or they or it or anything else he wouldn't care #but he usually doesn't mention it and stuff

[beesorcery]

hello it's part 3 of 3 for my cool fun graphic design adventure!! part 1 and part 2 got too long. to recap i am recreating this t-shirt design but with the magic 8 ball songs instead of city names:

here is the current draft, updated through 3/27 (pittsburgh) (!!!!)

#aaaa!!! #tried doing image descriptions for this one #feel free to send me better ones though and i can update the alt text!! or just put them in the replies/reblogs lol #bees' graphic design adventure #only 7 more shows........ wowie #OH ALSO ppl have been expressing interest in getting this as an actual shirt which is!! cool!! #idk how to do that though!! #if anyone has recommendations for websites or something to do that please please send them or reply to this post or something #at the very least i'll make the file available at the end so ppl can print it on whatever they want #i was gonna make a poster #but yeah let me know if there's a good way to do that!!! it's really cool that people are enjoying this i am having a lot of fun doing it #fob #fall out boy #2ourdust #gonna update after nashville des moines and minneapolis so 3 left!!! #i have already changed it since posting this because i am a freak <3 and i cant leave good enough alone lol #also i now have all the fonts <3 for the cities anyway #not the states but i’ve only used the states a few times so far for like the parentheses or punctuation or whatever #so if i end up needing those ill go find them whatever #anywayyyy yeehaw see u all in like 4 days

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[derpinette]

i miss going to school because i always knew everybody's business but nobody knew mine due to being a huge loser. & it ruled

#now i am still a loser ( well actually this cool bubbly normie girl likes to pull me along with her but it makes me feel bad ) #( also i hate going outside & barely do now because i am having an androphobia flare RN which is to say agoraphobia like i vomit... gay AF #but anyway i also went to small private schools with declining enrollment numbers all my life Well only two one for 13 years #& then i switched to a cheaper one on my senior year. i would lurk & people would be like No worries you can say it it's only nyumie here #or they would tell me directly when nobody would want to talk to them due to drama & then leave & forget me as soon as they could #nobody would ever ask about my business it was so effingg awesome. altho there were rumors i was gay ( completely true ) #the fact that both schools were small made it so that it was easier to know what was happening in most grades #but now IDK ANYTHING EVER even if i were to eavesdrop my faculty is just way too big & i barely even attend anyway +i hate that dump ETC ET #this is so detrimental to my QOL & need to Observe &Lurk my life is so EMPTY & boring i want to know somebody's petty drama #& i KNOW it happens you just have to be in a circle & attend everyday which I CBAAAA. when people pull me aside to hang out i know then #but i want NO INVOLVEMENT !!!! i just want to be in the background leave me alone i already have a girl i can relate & be loyal to #& she dropped out i never thought i actually would but here we are. i just want to acquire information from a distance on a regular basis-_ #the reason why i never hated going to school despite bullying up until like my last year is because well i grew up in my original school #so i was familiar with everyone & everyday there would be something new & funny to discuss with my bestie who lives far away now -_- #i meanwe only really saw eachother at school anyway Man i wish i could GO BACK but not really vut yes but no...

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[askinnyblackman]

i was asked to do a presentation for a work-adjacent thing on saturday and boy let me tell you i do not want to do it

#i am doing it for GROWTH and PERSONAL/PROFESSIONAL DEVELOPMENT and GETTING OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE #it was supposed to be in like november of last year but they rescheduled it to this weekend #fortunately i already had everything ready to go in november so now i'm just rehearsing it #also it was gonna be in-person then they changed it to all virtual which is cool because now i don't have to leave my house #anyway. i'm sweating and dying

[hannie-dul-set]

all those fake dating fics where reader suffers from evey family gathering bcs of the routinely grilling of "so do u have a bf yet" and she's sick and tired of always having to say NO I DON'T HAVE A BF YET LEAVE ME ALONE so she hires a guy to fake date her are onto something. seriously. one more dinner with my relatives and i'm going to fucking ask my hs friends to pretend to be my bf this is maddening 😭😭😭.

#ALWAYS THOUGHT THOSE PLOTS WERE DUMB BUT HERE I AM...... ACTUALLY CONSIDERING IT 😭😭😭😭😭 #get off my ass!!! none of the men asking me our r my type ill start dating when i meet someone worth dating!!!!!! #friend told me to go on tinder and put on my bio 'not looking for a serious relationship i just need a fake bf so my family leaves me alone' #i think she's also onto something #might fucking do it if i have to sit through another dinner of 'ur cousin is in highschool and he has more exes than u' SHUT UP. IDC. #so hot so cool so successful in all aspects of life except love @ god im literally giving u the premise already its now ur turn #let the next man that asks me out actually be my type please 😭😭😭

[moinsbienquekaworu]

I'm sorting & checking files for past exchange students and man I do wish I'd had the grades + motivation to go to the US. Traveling to the UK is complicated but less than taking the damn plane over a whole ocean, y'know?

#like man i am never going to see my mutuals at this rate 😔 #i mean that's not the main thing it's more a nice bonus #but like. taking a holiday to the us is a bigger thing than the uk if you live in france #and now i still have to bother with visas and i don't get the european scholarship #but i'm just going across the channel #if i'm going to go live abroad for a year it would have been cool to go all in and leave for the us #but alas. grades not good enough. and my parents aren't rich enoug for that #and i don't think i want to be in a country where the sociopolitical situation is.... like that. #also i can't drive lol #wow i have a ramble tag now

[motokeith]

can we stop treating our participation in the voltron fandom as something horrific and shameful or is every single voltron post going to be prefaced with self-deprecation and disgust

#before anyone jumps down my throat I am being hyperbolic #but also!! I think we can all agree that vld deserves criticism & its ‘16-‘18 fandom had some miscreants #I think we all collectively understand that custody of these characters/this universe has been revoked from dw by the remaining fans #the miscreants have retired. they left. you’re safe #you can make positive posts I promise I swear to god you don’t have to justify being in this fandom to the rest of us… also in the fandom #yes even in 2024 who cares #use your filtered tags and enjoy your stay my liege #I am just exhausted by the constant negativity and the qualifiers and the criticism of other fans just?? expressing themselves normally #‘I don’t like this trope’ ok cool!! it’s actually way easier to scroll away and not think about it than to make a post shitting on it #we don’t need to know that you don’t like it honestly #filter it and enjoy never seeing it again! #but considering how small the fandom is now there’s a good chance the person who created that piece of art or that fic is going to see your #post proclaiming your hatred of it #idk just leaves a sour taste in my mouth #everything doesn’t have to be For You #anyway there are so many fandoms in the same boat as Voltron where the fandom has largely disengaged with the source material bc it’s bad #and not just bad but at times painful to consume #rant in the tags

[kakusu-shipping]

Another big Mario Self-Insert sketch page I’ve just been doodling on for the past few days. I’m obsessed.

#Emile's Arts #Mariocest #YES it gets the tag leave me alone #I haven't even made like a proper POST for this S/I yet I've just been making things for him #I have three different decent references already posted but no actual about #I'll get to that in the next few days. Hopefully #The whole thing is eating my brain it's 4:30 in the AM and I am just #Running thoughts around my head #I put him in the first two Paper Mario games AND Sunshine already (not a big roll just there) #I'm also running with Partner's in Time because I LOVE that game also not a big roll just there but the concept is so cool I keep going bac #Because you know. Babies. #I have no idea what else to do honestly I don't have a lot of other thoughts about other Mario games #So it's unique scenarios time. Like babysitting Junior and such. #I want to isolate and color the Uncle Mario sketch so bad you have no idea #I love Mario and his many many children that he's not the DAD of per-say but he IS in their lives forever now #He takes them to McDonalds and Orders Pizza and Shows them cool secrets in Video Games #And also chucks them like 20 feet in the air he's the kinda guy to just throw a baby around #I love him so much #I also love Toadsworth I love you Toadsworth please come back sir #Nintendo really wants that old man dead it's unfair to me who loves him

[elytrafemme]

guys i laurv college like actually. went out w a group of ppl and went to CVS and a mediocre pep rally. had a really sweet exchange w a bus driver. roommates are going out in a large group to have some of that sweet liquid sillies allegedly. i am alone in my dorm despite thinking i'd be the last one awake i am literally the only one here. and i'm happy i think :D

#nightmare.personal #we have to be up at like 7:30 am though so God bless my poor roommates #it's just two of them out person no 3 is unaccounted for #hypothetically i couldve stayed up but the group i was hanging out w are all roommates #so it was just me sititng in their dorm while they were showering and i was like. i think maybe i should go back to my home domain #but college is seriously kind of great bc like. you can just Do Shit. no parental convos about the logistics of hanging out #if i want to knock on a friends door to see their taxidermied rat and then go out w them at 10 pm #i am well within my God given right to do that!!!!!! #also idk when the RAs come bc this is meant to be quiet hours but people are blasting frank ocean which #it's frank ocean so you cannot be complaining about that but still #ALSO I SAW THIS GUY I'D BEEN TEXTING AT A STORE AND THEN I SAW HIM LATER AT THE RALLY #AND THIR=TY SECONDS BEFORE THE RALLY ENDED I TEXTED HIM SAYING I SAW HIM #AND HE MADE DIRECT EYE CONTACT WITH ME RIGHT WHEN EVERYONE STARTED LEAVING #IT WAS SO FUNNY. i am seeing him in SO many places and we haven't even hung out yet #also hope the guy that i recced måneskin liked it i didn't do one of their best songs but hopefully thats cool #i just did baby said bc i was gonna do read your diary but thought it'd be too much in hindsight i'd DEFFO do kool kids #IN ANY CASEEEE. idk what to do now just text my gf i guess

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some recent pressed leaves and stuff to add to the collection :0

#LOV giant nasturtium leaves #and they press weirdly thin like when they dry out it's almost like a super super fragile sheet of tracing paper or something #I also just really enjoy collecting textures and patterns and stuff. like it's not really about them looking pretty but more just #something notable. like the cool dotted pattern or the stripey veiny looking one #I have so much I want to get done by the end of the year but have been so unproductive still lol ToT #I've had new costumes and like Actual Stuff To Post for probably 2 months now but they just sit in a folder and I forget about #them and like walk in circles talking to myself all day instead or something hhh #I think it's the classic cycle of like 'I am too stressed to be productive > the fact that i'm not being productive stresses me out > i am #even more stressed and no more productive > being unproductive stresses me out > so on and so forth forever' lol #or the 'I have so many goals in life and so much motivation and so many things I love and want to do > there are too many things to do #at once and it's overwhelming > do none of them instead' cycle lol #I think my main focuses in the new year though are to finally finish the worldbuilding slideshow. Do more costumes. And do more sculptures #since I haven't done a lot of those in a while. And still work on my games and short stories and stuff that takes place in my worldbuilding #world but those are more difficult longterm tasks so I think they should be like. not the MAIN main focus or else I'll never feel like I do #anything. I think that was the problem for the past while is that the things I had delegated as my Main Focuses That Go Above All Else #are so long and difficult and tedious that you never feel like you're making progress so it's like you're ignoring all the other stuff you #could be doing in favor of a thing that feels like you're not doing anything thus you get a chronic feeling of never finishing anything ever #Whereas like. I can do a sculpture in a day or two. and I can do costumes in a day or less. Having a steadier flow of Small Things i can fee #l like I'm actually accomplishing will maybe help it not just be like 'okay I spent a whole day doing somehting and have nothing tangible to #show for it because it's just text in a word document that probably nothing will ever even come of because it will take me years to finish' #The biggest insurmountable task at the moment is the worldbuilding slideshow but I am chugging through.. slowly lol.. It takes me about #2 hours to read 25 slides (they're not bullet points it's like little paragraphs on each slide). and I have about 800 to go. so thats.. #naur.. i shant even calculate it... plus editing one hour of vidoe usually takes about 2 hours so you double it. if I have that much recordi #ng of me reading slides to edit. then turning them all into a final video should take.... i cannot say. i shall not think of it #And I've just had a very stressful few weeks HOWEVER I just always like tp start the new year with stuff cleared like.. all of my messages I #haven't answered in 3+ weeks responded to. all of my emails to my doctors checked. house cleaned and organized. photos cleared and organized #off of the computer. everyting backed up in some sort of physical storage. clear out drafts. rewrite all of my main todo lists. decide prio #rities and yearly/monthly/weekly goals. consider the trajectory of my life and what I need to do. etc. etc. So I feel like I don't have any #time to waste and can't rest. yet.. alas.. It doesn't help that I feel sick out of nowehre like 50% of the time #I know some poeple can work/focus on tasks with body aches and etc. but my brain is just always like 'No. :)' .. grrrbb

[orcelito]

I got 7 reactions to the post I made on this app 8 whole days ago (when most ppl in my area got 2 or 3 at the most). & Several messages I haven't responded to. Tbh I haven't bothered since that first day, bc I got what I wanted out of it (decided to try a hookup and accomplished it 3 days after deciding it), and...

We've still been texting. Sometimes about things that aren't exactly typical of what you'd think for a hookup (emotionally intimate, I guess?). Today we got on the topic of hiking and I mentioned my fav state park & she said she was planning to go there over spring break and said she'd love to bring me with her... which That is a level of accepting me in her life that I think is not typical of just a one-off hookup kinda thing.

So like... idk if we r skirting around the possibility of a relationship?? Or if we r setting up to be friends with benefits?? Would it be exclusive??? Open??? Assuming there's any kind of relationship at all??????

Idk. It feels like there's Something there. I don't know what she wants out of it. I kinda don't even know what I want out of it. But it'd feel a little weird to pursue smth else when we're in this nebulous area... it wouldn't be cheating bc it's not like we're dating, but I'd also hate it if we Did end up dating (exclusively) and then I'd have to give up someone else........

Idk. I wasn't expecting to hit it off with someone like this. I'm still pretty burnt out on serious romance, so I don't want to just jump right into a new thing. I just know that I like talking with her and I'll probably want to sleep with her again. Beyond that...

I dont know. It's all so confusing.

#speculation nation #i think im bigtime failing at the whole Casual aspect of it 😂 #but i cant help being so alluring.... the girls Love a sweet nerd with a mysterious hidden darkness..... #might be why i have so many reactions too. i am for serious my post has over twice as many reactions as anyone else #idk. i have options. for now im just leaving them open. #it's only been a week now since we started chatting. still way too early to decide anything. #i will simply play it by ear. see where things take me. #we have. we have a spotify playlist. for sharing our favorite songs together. we are sharing music. #i feel like im going insane. this cant be the normal Just Casual kinda thing can it??? #not when shes said at multiple points that im 'the coolest person ever' or that im really kind #oh god am i turning into one of those useless lesbian tropes???? #'help this girl keeps saying im really cool and that she wants to go hiking with me and we are sharing music together #and also we had sex. do you think she likes me?' #fbkdfkshfkshdjd it sounds so FUNNY laid out like that. but the sex rly is just incidental and all ykno? #i dont know how many hookups shes actually had. i dont know how special i am to her #emotionally Or sexually. and i feel like asking would be rude. #so i am simply waiting it out. seeing where it goes. and being pleasantly surprised anytime it goes well. #the thing with the hiking today made me all 😳😳😳😳 bc it spoke of a desire to have me in her life several months from now #it's only been a week. it's only been a week. i have no idea what im doing.

[quietwingsinthesky]

watching taxi driver but what i am actually seeing is the elaborate alternate version im constructing in my head where lucifer has to escort sam through hell in order to save bela, who didn't deserve the fate she got, and sam is so filled with hope that he can right this wrong and complete the trial and then when they get there she's a demon <3

#'escorts' thats what lucifer intends to do anyway but it turns out that hell Likes sam #hell wants to be what sam wants. it will shape itself for him. #sam wants hallways and easy to find souls? sam is getting hallways and easy to find souls #and cages of course. sam expects cages. so there are cages. #anyway. cue lucifer getting increasingly upset that hell is out of his control. because it isn't fully in sam's either. #meaning they're both in a pretty vulnerable position. lucifer less so he could break out of this pit. not the cage but regular hell? easy. #but sam could get snagged on something on the way out. torn to bits. eaten alive. and lucifer doesn't want that. #anyway back to bela. they do find her. she's long since turned to a demon. it's a way of survival down here and she survives #and she doesn't fucking want sam to help her. in her own words she'd say how she's nearly clawed her way out of the pit herself #that sam wants to take her deeper in to take her out and fuck that she's almost made it on her own #and add to that that a demon aint going to heaven. so now what. #(well now is the time for arguing and sam being like We Don't Have Time And I Can't Leave You Behind Without Being Broken By Guilt. #lucifer (not helpful): what if i just catch her and drag her out. || Sam & Bela: NO. #i do think bela accompanies them out i think she sees that she has to #(forgot to mention. bobby is not in hell in this au. because we don't need him to save.) #anyway my point MY POINT is. they still need to save Someone. and sam's like. who am i supposed to find. #the answer is jake talley btw. who has not broken to hell in all this time. and is quite despised by the current leadership. #(also. down the bloodline to be a potential lucifer vessel. so when lucifer sees him he goes <3 hiiiii.) #and all four of them dig their way out of the pit. jake goes to heaven. he and sam have A Moment. #and bela is like cool :) thanks :) now fuck off and leave me alone i hate you die and goes to do demon shit #idk. thoughts.

[perenlop]

maybe this is just me but to me grumpy dickhead characters that are intended to be endearing only really land if they have one character that actually grounds them whether that be through them being very nice to balance it out with cute banter or them also being snarky so they can have fun banter. if a grumpy character is just an asshole to characters we dont know as well, are literally children or people who otherwise cant fight back, then like. they dont vibe with me

#thinking abt the os anime again and like yeah it had moments i didnt like where it went too far #basically any scene where misty got physical with ash #but overall the original trios bond was fun bc they could all clearly take the banter and still cared abt each other #and had plenty of genuine moments as well #and then you have jayfeather who like. tbf did have some characters to bounce off of well like his siblings and briarlight #and thats fine #but then he lost most of them and now hes a dick towards literal children all the time #and thatd be fine except we're still meant to see him as endearing bc of this bc in the same arc a child nearly dies bc of this #the protag is like ''awwwwwwww jay is like so sweet and nice tho i love him hes grumpy but i am so fond of him hes so cool'' #im trying to keep all this in mind w my own grumpy characters too tho #or assholes in general like i gotta show it more but marlow is fine when it comes to sakura bc he also banters with him #and it doesnt really get under his skin except for when they mock him for never leaving town #which is part of his arc more than just ''ha ha sakura is mean isnt that funny and quirky'' #and like. yeah im kinda just like ''ha ha sakura is mean isnt that funny and quirky'' but like he is vaguely antagonistic so #im kinda trying to go for a harley or raquelle vibe with him where hes not a villain per say but hes petty #and will play an antagonistic role to serve the plot if needed to the other characters #but then hes also not like that to everyone bc he does have a bit more depth than that. typical ''putting up walls'' but not really #bc he genuinely thinks hes all that theyre just also REALLY lonely and cant communicate with people #and is kinda traumatized and stressed from his brother being taken as a baby and being sick while grieving #and is also still sick actually! just gotten really good at hiding it and denies it which. just puts more stress on him #echoed voice

[sleepdepravity]

I will say that when this guy started the conversation with the bikini dream thing, my immediate response was “I hate bikinis.”

#then I complained about bras and tried to ask about how his life was going #after that I lectured him about loneliness and reaching out to people but I don’t remember how the convo got to that point #I do remember that I was pissed off about him not putting the work into relationships #because I’ve been trying to put in the work recently and seeing him except people to come to him was annoying #dude it’s hard!!!! I get it!!!!!!!!! but also!!!!!!!! be more interesting!!!!!!!!! #I showed him cool pages from house of leaves and he didn’t even react!!!!!!! #see now that I’ve blocked him I am entirely free of guilt now I guess and I can freely complain #(also it turned out the mod of the server we were both in also had uncomfy times with him so no more guilt now) #personal malkylife