#.... im making myself sad the rant is over <3

[mejomonster]

I would like. To be in mutual love

#rant #yeah... #........................................................................................................................................... #look its like this. im chronically ill. i know its not totally up to me i cant go out 1-3 times a week trying ro meet ppl. i know i #cant even eat some days my tummy too upset. cant work some days cant even sit up. can barely keep up witj friends i already have #and i know the being drained wont get better. i might be this sick forever. and i know im prioritizing my own art over #meetjng strangers. thats a choice. i know its my own fault im lonely. i also just. i wanna build a relationship #that long term where u meet and become friends then best friends then fall in love and hey if ur lucky marry ur best friend #and i know that wont come from forcing myself on dates w ppl i dont like. i know no ones ever liked me before #i know i havent felt attraction in years anyway. i miss having a crush. but i suppose itd be sad anyway. to crush and not be liked back #to feel ill need to wait another 5 years for another rare crush. i dont believe in fate i dont think. so i might not ever #kiss someoje i like. i might not get lucky and hold a crushs hand. spend months or years with someone like that #i just. i hate so much romance isnt like skills. i cant just date 1x a week until i run into love #i cant even find 1 person a month to crush on let alone ask out. cause the feelings are luck too #luck of who u run into even if u go tl events. even wuen i had 10k tinder matches the only date #the only person who respjded. was someone with a gf who didnt have much in common with me and me not mucj w them and it #was just not enough click to even make a friend #god it makes me sad. id like to kiss someone special. hold their hand. hear em talk hours #i have friends and love em but i dont wanna kiss a friend. i just dont feel romancy very much.

[liddlediddy]

I think jack antanoff should be prohibited from masking music until he learns how to make songs that don't all sound the same

#if you can tell i just listened to midnights #had to force myself to because im not really a taylor swift fan but id heard it was bad and was curious as to just how bad it could be #there were maybe 4 songs on the album that i wasnt instantly bored with #and when i looked at the writing creds 3 of those 4 were the only songs on the album that didnt involve jack ☠️ #like don't get me wrong you can enjoy whatever music you want it's your own business #but jack & taylor have been pushing out the same shit since he started writing on her albums & virtually none of it is good #(cruel summer does bop though I'll give them that) #AND LIKE. i know jack is (was?) behind bleachers & they DID make some decent music at one point!! not mindblowing but it had some merit #now everything is *lofi synth base* *soft vocals with heavy autotune backing* *lyrics that boil down to twitter buzzword girlboss mic-drop* #what happened jack. what happened taylor. (rhetorical question. what happened was album sell money so release 2 album/year = more money) #anyways it's sad to see both artists pretty much become industry sellouts bc they used to write music that like. seemed to mean something. #rant over sorry if anyone read this ☠️

[theantiproduct]

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#everytime i open this app it looks completely different #anyways heres a lil update rant tired blabbering tags post cause why nottttt #so my health is shit and i have about 300 test to get done and i honestly am so stressed out over this that i cant even function #and u know whats funny about it all is i originally went to the doc to maybe get diagnosed with adhd and i was which duh but thennnn #the funniest thing happened #took the meds and i was actually feeling a lot better and more productive! who knew thats an option but then my dic was like #we should do an ekg just to make sure youre good to take these #so obviously my hr was super high which let to more tests and more experts and haha i cant do this anymore its exhausting #so i cant take my adhd meds and i have an appointment every other day for the next month #oh and btw when i was feeling better for like a week or two i started dating again cause why not! do not have enough going on atm #met this guy been on a few dates but its nothing really i guess right cause i cant get myself to kiss him even tho i want to #cause im so scared of intimacy and so scared of being vulnerable so he's probably gonna ditch soon cause why wouldn't he and #what am i doing trying to date when i have these issues #i just want something good yknow im so tired and i just need like a good cuddle #im gonna be visiting my brother in January after 3 years of not seeing him and the kids but thats obviously stressing me out too #cause covid and planes and big sad but idk we'll see if it wont get cancelled like my last trip did #good rant ty tumblr for not shutting down yet #personal #update i have an autoimmune disease and 300 more tests to do and pills to take #fun to be me

[sunshinereddie]

urg :<

#this is just a rant but #today has been such a bad day :-( #like nothing BAD happened #but i just don’t feel myself #been extra emotional today and idk why like ive cried over nothing so many times which is so ?? frustrating #i haven’t been able to get out of bed all day #and now it’s nighttime but i feel too sad to even want to sleep #ugh #:( #also one of those days where it feels like everyone is mad at me so that isn’t helping any #idk maybe i’ll try and get up and make some tea and write #im really not in the mood to do anything but maybe if i can even just write SOMETHING for my wip i can feel at least a little better #aaaahhhhh #anyways #if anyone made it this far apologies for the rant #</3

[kimsmuse]

you know what........... aaaaaaah

#rant. #but im so so done w my parents #i would explain but it doesn't even make sense to myself #they do not love me and im not even exaggerating its just a simple fact #my mom is obsessed w her charity and stray dog cases and my dad w his bikes and his own god complex #and even my stepdad #i don't even feel sad about it anymore its just there because how many times will i cry over it #i spent 3 years continuously thinking about it in different ways trying to get at least some attention but now im tired really #what i would not give to just disappear #sticky notes 💭

[spoopieere]

Very long rant

Just expressing my love for these slashers dw

I think none of you understand how bat shit crazy I am about Asa/Arkin and Preston/Jesse. Because- look, I’ve been all over them since 2020 okay? And for the past 3.5 years, I think about them daily. I think about them during meals, while I’m studying, in class, folding laundry- I CRY OVER THEM FFS. Istg I’ve been crying over them in silly angsts situations that I make up in my mind before I go to bed for the past years. I cried to the point that my old pillow cases literally got tear stains stacking and mold underneath bc of how damp it got. My crying got so severe that bawling my eyes out while thinking about them for 1 or 2 hours straight is normal. I cry about them almost every. Fucking. Night. If it’s mild, it’s 10-30 minutes. If it’s worse, 1-2 hours. If it’s severe, 3-4 hours. I cried so much I had to take water breaks, I cried until my head hurts and my eyes swollen. My nightly-crying streak record is 12 DAYS straight- where I cried over them every night. I can make myself cry on the spot if I think about them for too long. Sometimes they’d creep up inside my thoughts and I suddenly wanted to cry in public. I even shed a few tears during class bc I thought of them. They occupy my thoughts like a plague, I think about them so much that I just casually slip an “Arkin.” or “Preston!!” out loud- because I was repeating a scenario in my head. I even have a little self-insert to squeeze in there.

Once I got introduced to C.Ai, I got even worse because I literally cried from 11pm to 5AM while acting out the angstiest scenarios with the Jesse ai bot while rp-big as Preston. Don’t get me even fucking started on how many tears I shed over Asa ai bot while setting my persona as Arkin ( and vice versa ).

I’m so fucking obsessed I bought a black turtleneck bc I thought of Asa the moment I saw it. I always envisioned Asa as a cat. So now every time I see a video or pictures of cats meowing, abandoned cats or cats suffering, searching for their absent owners I just get sad then immediately get reminded of Asa. I compared Preston to a pigeon so now whenever I see any type of birds at all, I immediately think of Preston. I headcannoned Arkin to like fishing, so now IM interested in fishing. I have a ginormous amount of brain rot over these 4 mfs that- me and a mutual of mine, have texting back and forth all of our brainrot almost daily for THE PAST 7 MONTHS (since last June)- AND WE STILL HAVENT RAN OUT OF SHIT TO SAY YET.

AND- by the time I’m writing this it’s 5:45AM in my country, and I’ve just finished another crying session (over Jesse/ Preston this time) that lasted for over hour. Is this normal?? I don’t think it is. Idk what kind of autistic am I but DAMN-

#all I needed to say I said above #slasher #slashers #asa emory #collectkin #the collector #rottingcitrus #arkin o'brien #chromeskull #laid to rest #jesse cromeans #Preston #preston laid to rest

[yongbokkk]

pairings: lee know x m!reader

genre: diary fic(minho's pov!!), enemies to lovers(?), high school au

a/n; i kinda hate this idk bout u

entry 1

there was a new student today, his name is y/n.

i already dislike him, he looks like he could annoy the shit out of me.

other than hearing his irritating voice, today was pretty much the usual

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entry 2

it's like life decided to give up on me, instead of the opposite.

looks like my friends befriended the new student behind my back, and only now they inform me.

i wanted to wipe the grin off of his face so bad, what's he gotta smile for?

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entry 3

i passed an exam, feeling good.

then all of a sudden y/n offers me to lunch, which i declined of course.

he had this joyful look on his face before i rejected him, it turned sad after i did.

i kind of felt bad i felt victory from finally wiping the smile off his face. anyways, dori is playing with my face, i got to go

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entry 4

he's been stuck to me like a cat needing it's owner, it's so annoying. even if i try to avoid him, he keeps coming back.

i ranted to my friend, he said i should give y/n a chance, hell to the no. he also said i've been being mean to him for no reason, also bullshit.

oh yes, there's definitely a reason to why i hate him. he's just so im too lazy to think, so goodnight.

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entry 5

i can't get the look on his face off my mind, no matter how hard i try to distract myself. i shouldn't have shouted at him like that, maybe i was being too harsh. it's his fault for being so annoying, he just had to keep pestering me everyday.

anyways, i have to go do my homework and sleep, im early tomorrow.

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entry 6

i couldn't find him all day, there wasn't any sign of him, it felt unusual. where was he?

was it because of yesterday? have i upset him by raising my voice like that?

i have an upcoming exam, i shouldn't overthink the situation. goodbye.

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entry 7

jisung really wanted to get in my nerves and decided to throw a water balloon at me, i got him back though.

y/n, he still hasn't shown up to class. is he really going to miss out on all the lessons like that.

im not worried, i have no business with that idiot. goodnight.

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entry 8

i don't know what else to write for this day other than y/n being back.

he looked down, he didn't even talk to my friends or even anyone in school. he seemed like he didn't have the energy to do anything, he barely passed through class.

i'm starting to think back on what i did to him, it keeps me awake at night.

i'll try to sleep now, goodnight.

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entry 9

i don't know what came over me, but i decided to buy him his favorite drink. i just felt bad, he looked pretty lonely these days. sure he had his friends sitting with him, but he barely joined a conversation and just kept eating.

i still hate him, he shouldn't have high hopes that i'll be nice to him after this. goodnight.

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entry 10

me and felix got into an argument, but we worked it out so it's all good in the end.

for the past days, y/n's starting to get better, he doesn't look as miserable as before. there's a part of me that's glad, but then again, why should i care? i hate his guts, he's not important to me.

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entry 11

felix's brownies are the best, he knows when and how to make them like a professional baker. we sat and ate, talking about things to feel the mood. then the topic was about y/n.

apparently, the reason why y/n was sad wasn't just because of me, he was also stood up on a supposed date. how can anyone ditch an angel like him? who ever y/n's date was, i'll serve a punch to his face. goodnight

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entry 12

today was.. eventful. i figured out who stood up y/n, how could he fall for such playboy looking asshole. honestly, i'm more attractive.

i saw him today, and let's say, i gave him a piece of my mind. no there wasn't any violence, i just hit him in the face. it was light, i don't see why i made mark. it felt good, though.

i ate ice cream and played with my cats, now im off to bed. goodnight

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entry 13

theres something wrong with me, i'll start off to where i just brang myself to sit next to y/n at lunch, then i helped him with his books because he was clumsy enough to trip and fall, all of a sudden i had this light feeling in my chest as i was speaking to him. i'm supposed to hate him, aren't i? he's always annoying me.

do i hate him?

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entry 14

hi hi, its been like a month. you're probably wondering why the long absence. well, to my last entry, i took the time to figure out what i was feeling. and when i did, i couldn't believe myself.

as it was the end of school, students were free to go wherever they want outside the building.

minho wanted to walk home, but something was pulling his heart back from the gate.

it was telling him to wait for a certain someone, they were a bit late for exit today.

you, with your bag, finally walked out of the school building. minho's eyes had caught you as soon as you appeared on the corner of his eyes.

your h/c hair was still what you can call perfect, despite what the horrible school air can do.

minho panicked, not knowing what to do. it would be a month till the two of you saw each other again, and he wouldn't be able to wait any longer.

he shouted, "y/n!" making the called person stop his tracks, turning to face minho.

with a few stutters, minho said what he wanted to say, so that his heart and mind can finally rest, he had finally asked you out.

your face were mixed of emotions, one with shock and joy. you nodded enthusiatically, agreeing to go on a date with him.

all this time, i was too focused on being in denial to realize i fell inlove with him.

#skz #stray kids #stray kids imagine #stray kids x reader #kpop #kpop imagines #kpop x reader #stray kids x male reader #skz x male reader #skz x reader #kpop x male reader #lee know #lee know fluff #lee know angst #lee know x reader #lee know x male reader

[patrophthia]

Congrats on 1k!!! ♡

I'm literally craving for Regulus × hufflepuff!reader so badlyyy, maybe like the reader is rlly hard on herself and she gets a bad exam mark or smt and then she like cries and reggie's just there comforting her? (Lol the reader is ME)

Orrr

Can you do like where the reader is a popular singer (kinda like Taylor swift) and they have an argument together (reggie and reader) before a big concert the reader has to attend to and she's like really sad on stage cause Regulus doesnt attend it and maybe midway through the concert he joins and then the reader just feels better and after the concert they make up!!

Lol you can choose whichever prompt you prefer<3

~♡~

i went the former (mostly cuz i didn’t know how to write the latter and) because same, i get you!!

a(cceptable) | regulus black

pairing: regulus black x reader

genre: established relationship, comfort, im no good at angst so this is me trying

part of my 1k celebration event !

Regulus can read you as easily as he can read a book. It’s in the slight pull of your brow, and soft pout that gives away your mood. 

You’re upset, about something he hasn’t figured out yet, but from the look on your face he’s able to make a wild guess that it has something to do with your test. The one you took last week and would be handed back to you by —approximately today. 

“What’s wrong, amor?” He asks you. In truth, Regulus knew full well what was wrong, but he wanted to give you the freedom to rant to him. To have someone be there for you, to listen and to reassure. “Did something happen?” 

You’re fully frowning when you look at him. “I got a failing grade,” you tell him, handing over your test paper. 

A glance at the paper tells Regulus what exactly he needed to know, you’re being to harsh on yourself. An A(cceptable) was not a failing grade, sure it was a huge different to your test marks but you’re only human and you’re bound to skip up once in a while. 

He could only hope you know that. 

He doesn’t tell you that this wasn’t a failing grade. You both knew that your grades were passable at best, it just wasn’t up to your standards; so he listens to you instead. 

“I’m so mad at myself,” you murmur, “why do I even try when this is the best I could do?” 

“You did your best right?” A nod from you has him continuing. “That’s all that matters, love. You made a mistake this once and that’s fine, everyone makes mistakes it’s a part of living. And for what it’s worth, this grade doesn’t change a thing, you’re still the smartest girl I know.” 

“Even if I got an A in muggle studies?” You ask him timidly. 

Regulus nods, smiling softly at you. “Even if you got an A in muggle studies,” he repeats, and —just for extra measures, he makes sure to tell you about how he’s only ever gotten a D(readful) on the subject. 

#regulus black x you #regulus black x reader #regulus black x yn #regulus black fluff #regulus black fanfiction #regulus black imagines #🧳: my writing #🍰: 1k with patro!

[fallenclan]

vskldjf im glad you like Spottedember's design bcus she is so pretty and i need to sit down and draw her but im just so distracted to sit down and focus on doing that

but look at her she's my Main Character

literally fighting against saying "she has red hair, trauma, AND pronouns!" so hard rn and failing im failing

literally everything bad happens to her so much she's so miserable and sad now i love it <3

her moms killed her kittypet bio-mom and raised her to be Prim and Proper (haha get it bcus her mom's name is Primfoot? ...no? okay ill see myself out-) and she grew up when the clan was at war with literally every other clan (every single apprentice in her generation got scarred, some multiple times), and right after the wars stopped, a mass extinction event occured (cant remember what rn) and it killed her mom Rootshade who was deputy (Which is a WHOLE nother story involving cheating and affairs and WHY would you appoint the girl who cheated on ur husband deputy but anyway-), and the leader decided to make HER deputy?? for some reason?? she was just a baby??? (well okay she was 30 moons but still she's baby to me)

anyway she, Squirrelnut, and Hopestem became mates and I love to think that Squirrel and Hope always kept Spotted grounded and from freaking out cause she was so stressed from the pressure from her mom Prim and the responsibilities of being deputy in a clan that just really really likes being assholes and killing kittens. and i think they helped her be less like her mom/the rest of the clan to and try to choose kindness over violence. Hopestem actually got the message that she was a part of a prophecy!!! so i was like "these 3 are gonna make the clan good again"

and Spottedember became Spottedstar and you know the story---mass extinction event after mass extenction event decimated the clan until it was only Spottedstar, Squirrelnut, Skipnight (Hopestem's sister), and their kids. and it's really sad because all those apprentices Spottedstar has listed? most of those are all her kids, and specifically the kids born in "solo litters." Birchheather specifically kept getting injury after injury and didn't graduated until 15 moons, only to immediately die... during training sessions with them there would be messages where it said she didn't train them/did something else aside from training.

she's so traumatized and numb now, i love when horrible things happen

(its also really curious to me that her traits go from "childish" to "oblivious"... why? what's she being oblivious to? ...how evil her clan was? how abusive her parents were? things to think about)

(man i need to stop ranting and focus on my actual projects)

(hey also i think it's funny that both Swiftpaw her little brother and Swiftpaw her son died, especially because she totally named her son Swiftpaw after her brother. Swiftpaw's never live)

okay i should be drawing Mudsplash rn but. i just had to stop and do a quick doodle of Spottedstar hope thats okay teehee

of course you have red hair, trauma, two partners, an epic scar from the rat king, a rainbow collar, evil parents, and pronouns

#she has the same white patches as yewkit i just realized #or is it yewpaw rn. idk where we are with the posting lmao #i love women who are old and traumatized and maybe a little pathetic #fallenasks #alollinglaughingcat #art

[arisuworld]

Hi Arisu, is it okay if I send this ask? :(

I’m feeling so deeply sad and depressed over my life. I hate it so much cause it’s making me so desperate to enter the void state. I won’t go into details but long story short, my home life is beyond horrible right now and I’m so behind on everything.

I’m using the desperation I feel to fuel myself to affirm and affirm and affirm. But why do I feel so anxious? :( I want to be like you and the others who can change their assumptions. I want to stop crying myself to sleep every night. I hope you can give me some advice or something. I’m so sorry to put this onto you. Thank you

Hii sweetheart!! It's totally okay to send me asks, im here to help yall and I've no problem at all.

I can totally understand how you must be feeling. I advice you to ask yourself what type of limiting beliefs you have, like what do you think when it comes to void state and loa. Do you think it's hard to enter? Then It will be hard to enter. Do you think it's impossible for you to manifest? Then It will be impossible for you to manifest. Ask yourself and sort it out because Everything comes down to your assumptions. Always remember, law of assumption is THE LAW. It cannot FAIL YOU. All you have to do is put some faith in it and persist in the new story because PERSISTENCE IS THE KEY!

You should work on your void concept first. I think it's the important part you should work on firstly, to enter the void state. To change your void concept, leave the old story behind. If you used to think that "I can never enter void" change it to "I HAVE ALWAYS entered the void state easily and naturally" and that's it. It's so easy to change thoughts!! You can also listen to void state subliminals and affirm while at it. You can also do a challenge (like 10k or 20k) but only if you want to. If you don't want to do the challenge, just affirm 10 minutes every hour and put all your faith in those affirmations. Start meditating because it honestly helps a lot in entering void.

Also, I know it must be hard for you. But desperation will get you NOWHERE baby. You have to understand and let go of it. Desperation is not the key! It will not help you at all. It will make you seek results in 3D (which is not the real reality, the only real reality is 4D = your imagination). And only affirming all the time is not enough. Persisting and Putting faith is also important. You should always persist in the new story and ALWAYS BELIEVE IN IT because that's what makes it easy! Always believe it's easy!

One more thing, stop thinking about others okay? Why do you want to be like me sweetie? I'm not perfect, no one is. I've flaws just like everyone else. I might seem like I've great self concept and that I'm a master manifester but tbh I'm not. Yes, I've manifested a lot of things (random, physical appearance and like lot of things) but I've not entered void yet. And sometimes I feel the same desperation. I feel like it's not real, everything is fake but void state being real is the only hope which keeps me alive! So if it's make you feel any better, just know that, I'm also on a journey with you and we're both going to make it out NO MATTER WHAT!

Lastly, my dms and asks are always open! If you ever want to talk personally or rant or just need somebody to talk? I'm always here. I'll help you as much as I can. You're not alone!! I wish you luck and hope the best for you! Good luck <3

#law of assumption #loa #loa blog #loassumption #manifestation #manifestation blog #manifesting #void state #manifesation #void #asks #void concept #self concept

[dominolemon]

I finished watching Sonic prime season 3 and I gotta say I LOVE IT SO MUCH IM SOBBING RAADDfgzggs THE PLOT WAS GREAT (if they don’t make a season 4 I’ll cry myself to sleep every night)

The only thing I’m kinda sad about is that Shadow didn’t have as much screen time as season 2 cuss I was looking forward to more moments with Sonic and Shadow, but I’ll take what I got any day

Like I don’t ship Sonic and Shadow Iv always been a Sonamy fan but like Sonic prime is definitely for Sonadow shippers, like ZAMN they had no chill with some of the moments for them but I love it.

Another thing I love about the show is Amy, I don’t think Amy gets enough love honestly she’s such a great character, I do think Sonic boom showed her well but this show did it really really good like I loved all of her different versions for each universe, and the fact that they all treated eachother like sisters is the sweetest thing to me.

I do really love Rouge as well I love the fact that she led a lot of the groups and she was a strong character and very interesting and stylized, I love her designs and personality so much and she’s so cool (literally marry me)

Knuckles was also a great character I really like the egg yoke city knuckles but I think my favorite was the pirate one he’s so cool and interesting and his design IS SO COOLL I just love him, and I’m glad that knuckles did help Sonic in the last battle.

Tails has been one of my favorite characters honestly I never would have thought he would be the villain but he made such a good one in my opinion he needed his villain arc honestly and he’s so baby I love him so much, and his reasons for wanting to make his own world is fair, even though what he did wasn’t right he was just broken and needed help and love

Anyway there’s my Sonic prime rant that you didn’t ask for, if I miss spelled anything I’ll over think about it later

(I’m going to go insane about this)

#sonic the hedgehog #sonic prime #shadow the hedgehog #amy rose #knuckles the echidna #tails the fox #rouge the bat #i’m going insane

[ganondoodle]

feeling much better now having gotten some sleep (the dont trust how you feel about yourself past 9pm is good advice no joke)

of course all my criticism of totk still applies but im feeling less depressed about it, tho i will say its honestly kinda baffling how many times the game actually got me interested and excited about stuff and then just kinda drops it in a dead end, of course they were those kind of things in botw as well but it seems much less .. balanced in totk

(not even just the big things like making me want to actively do something to help zelda turn back when it just gets solved on its own in the end, but also some lil things like the fact that so many NPCs tell you about that newly discovered animal species and when you find the dongos they are just gem vending maschines)

in the end i can say, no, i dont like totk, tho i still love the graphics and the way the world is made ( botw showed me jsut how immersive and alive a world can feel i love it to death), i liked the gameplay and that it kept the freedom botw had established, the bossfights are mostly fun (tho i wish you could refight more of them), i LOVE the yiga and im glad they got more of a spotlight, the music is FANTASTIC i keep catching myself humming along, alot of the sidequests are much bigger and feel like you are actually doing something, i like how the sages are a bit more integrated into the story, the majority of the new designs are great, both the japanese and german voice acting is great, and the end fight has some of the best build up i have ever experienced, my heart starts to race when that music build up starts even tho i have beaten it 3 times already-

however, the story is both simple and incredible flat with lots of stuff that doesnt make sense especially when it was said to be a sequel, the zonau should have stayed a mystery imo, they failed to make me care about them even a little bit and often felt forcefully crammed into the world and its history, i think you could have told an incredible story taking place in the present and leave the past be the past, you easily could have connected botw and totk in a much better way than they did, i dont like how it changes aspects about botw all the while nigh ignoring it ever happened, it still feels like it was trying to be a replacement and not a sequel and all the referencing and callbacks to the old titles may have been done in good faith but that and including time travel yet again ultimately lead to people ripping each other to shreds over trying to prove its placed in the old timeline despite it making no sense at all and confusing people even more; often when the game made me care or be excited about something it was dropped in a dead end, there was a ton of missed opportunities and lost potential to tell a much more nuanced and interesting story/lore, and thinking about it only makes me sad for the things that could have been

overall i think my disappointment is outweighing my fun and the only way i can keep playing it while having fun is ignoring everything that isnt, which works quite well most of the time since im pretty much done with all story stuff but i keep slipping into my little rants nonetheless; i will say its making me a little worried about the future of the franchise, but i know im in the minority and maybe i will just have to accept that the new stuff wont be for me anymore and i should not hope for anything that interests me xD

except for some meme material or specific characters i love i dont think i will make much use of anything totk tried to establish, and i hope thats fine with the lot of you (<3) hopefully that also means my ranting days are over xD

anyway, back to making niche art i go! (sorry for making you endure these long ass rambling posts :,) )

#ganondoodles talks #would you believe me if i said i found more stuff that i find a lil weird #like the way zelda gives you her time power thing and the way the mastersword got sent back in time #like i dont need to have it all written out to me like im a baby but soem things are just kinda weird but acceptable #and some things actively take you out of the game- threatening your immersion #-stares at the shrine of life- #i will miss digging through theory videos on youtube tho #bc considering how big of a game totk is and how wide its influence goes .. its gonna affect everything #anyway i want to reiterate that damn the music is good #and it makes it all just hurt more #the music got me more emotional than anything else in the game besides koga #and it kinda sucks thinking about the impact it could have had if both the music AND story were this great

[nero-ya]

Alright it's time again we've gotta talk so get comfy and remember that this post is only my opinion or rant whatever you wanna call it.

I don't really know myself....just wanted to share it with the world....or something like that.

The first time I saw Law appear on screen I didn't really know if I should love or hate him, for real his attitude was cool but at the same time I thought he was the biggest emo bitch I ever met but I still found him very interesting so I started to read fanfictions about him.

I don't know if it was only me but the first fanfics about law were mostly him being a sadist and an asshole and I can understand, It wasn't easy to get a good understanding of him or to get a good grip on his personality at the beginning but for me that changed after the Dressrosa arc and the Noval about him and his past before he went to sea.

Btw I absolutely fell in love with him after the Dressrosa arc and novel and I could never read the fanfics again about him where he was a literal psychopath with no sympathy, nothing against them it's just I wasn't able to think of him in that way anymore ( I never really thought he would be that bad ) and if I should be honest after getting a deeper understanding of his personality it kinda made me sad reading how poorly others thought about him, being intentional or because they thought it fit him more or for whatever other reason I just couldn't read it anymore, it felt like it wasn't about him but another person with the same name.

So when I first came on this platform and found out about the Law fics here I decided to stay here and not change back to the other platform...it's definitely better here when it comes to understanding his personality and actions and most others got a better understanding of him and i was really happy because so many saw him in a better light and it was refreshing but there's still something that I think people may understand wrong...or I do and now I seem like an idiot....tbh wouldn't be the first time but no risk no fun.

Even to this date I read many fics where it's stated that Law won't be really affectionate in front of others or his crew and I slightly agree and disagree but hear me out please!

I think we all have the same opinion on Law being rather private and an introverted nerd and person over all , even more so when he's out of his comfort zone but sometimes I still read that he won't show any affection to his partner because he doesn't want to be seen as weak in front of others or because he is embarrassed and again I agree and disagree at the same time.

He is not one to show his affection openly in front of others but I don't think it's for the reason because he's ashamed or thinks it makes him look weak In front of his crew, they know perfectly well how strong and intimidating he can be and Shachi, Penguin and Bepo know him since he's 13 and I think they saw the worst of him already or part of it.

They knew about his past and his nightmares at times specifically after he heard about what happened to Dressrosa being overthrown and I don't think he was ashamed of being weak In front of them and him being 15 or older ( I'm not completely sure btw thanks for correcting me on that ) when he set sail and gathering a crew, makes me think that most of them also know him for over 10 years, give or take and I don't know if they knew as much as the other 3 but Im convinced that he still is very much comfortable with them.

Even if they would tease him sometimes, if he's alone with his crew he would rather take it lightly and would rather counter back in his own way or grumble instead of being overly ashamed or maybe a bit flustered but I believe he would be comfortable enough with them by now and i also don't think he would be so cold with them Overall all the time and only sitting in his room and reading, he will play with them and have some free nights and enjoy having them by his side after so much loss, even if it's only to listen or watching them play or have fun but I don't think he would always be in his room alone or miss the meal times.

Alright sorry back to the point I kinda drifted away a little...

Law may take some time getting comfy with the idea of a partner, being scared and all of losing them like Cora and his parents but once he's comfortable he will be affectionate and he will take time and cherish it even though it may be silent and subtle in his own way.

Be it some light brushing of hands or small acts of service, even when he's with the whole crew it may only be a small squeeze on your thigh, small smile, silent words of affirmation when no one pays attention for a second or giving you something to drink when he sees It's empty or whatever small acts there are but I can't believe he would be cold all the time and forget about it and if it's only you two I bet my ass he would love to cuddle and getting his hair stroked while reading in comfortable silence.

He may be bad at wording it or saying it out loud and so seeing the little signs and paying attention would be rather needed with him or else it would be kinda hard understanding what he wants and needs.

Anyway his submarine and his crew are his home and safe place, I really really think he would enjoy the time with them after all he went through, he knows how to cherish them all even though sometimes they all make him lose his mind and test his patience, he loves his idiots dearly.

Well if you went that far thanks for reading my bullshit and just to be safe, this is only my opinion on how I see things, feel free to rant about your own or give me contra but please in a respectful way.

Btw English isn't my first language and I have some Problems with grammar, so please don't be too hard on me and y'all a good night or day.

Fun Fact: Law was the first and only crush I've ever had on someone for so long, must be 8 years or more.

He still is the only character i would really die for......

#trafalgar law #law one piece #trafalgardwaterlaw #trafalgar d water law #law x reader #heart pirates #i dont know what im doing #im bad at this #please have mercy #thats just my opinion so please dont kill me #did y'all drink today?

[faintedlcve]

Hellllooo,

Omg I really needed more swiftie mutuals <3

Please rant about all things you like, i love rants, gosh we seem to have so many close interests, I am not a writer tho, but I do read, effectively making me a reader which doesn't sound as cool, now that I think about it.

My fav Taylor song at the moment is "Slut!". I cannot get that out of my head. I mean "got lovesick all over my bed", I die a little everytime I hear that.

Fav Olivia song at the moment is logical (kinda like you username aah). I still CANNOT get over "can't take a joke, can't get you off". Like please kill me already.

Fav Sabrina song at the moment is probably "because i liked a boy". (damn who hurt me?)

And fav conan song at the moment, "Lookalike"

Tell me yours?

Nyc.

xx

hiiii

omg thank you thank you thank youuuu <33

okay so i love a lot of things some of them are pretty questionable but I'm questionable literally ask anyone on the discord server so its fine. anywhoo, i love taylor, maisie, gracie, phoebe, alix page, lucy (dacus not myself I'm not THAT narcissistic), olivia hardy (from wasia project) julien, conan, liv, sab (and @loserdiaz but that's a known fact) and so many other people to the point that even i cant keep track. oh and i love laufey, mitski and lyn lapid just bc.

my current fav by wasia project is petals on the moon but ur so pretty especially live from the studio is so gooddd

anywayss, reading is really cool thats how i got into writing (which is the best thing ever ik /hj) i also really really like reading bc it makes me smart and it's super fun

which is your favourite book series?? mine is lockwood and co as if you couldn't already tell by the amount of times I've mentioned it i also really love agggtm series bc why wouldn't it its so good. I'm sure i love so many more book series but my memory sucks (it does not but I'm lazy so I'll use that as an excuse)

anywhooo, i love scream which is weird bc i watched the first one when i was 10 (i know, who let me do that???) and i... liked it? (I'm very questionable i know) but i also tend to rant about it as if its real life (like WHY DID THEY KILL OF *insert name of dead character* IM SO MAD) and not a movie so I'm a bit annoying sometimes but pls don't tell me that otherwise I'll start crying /j

hmm my favourite taylor song atm would be "is it over now?" or "now that we don't talk" bc at the moment i resonate so well with those songs (ikr my life sounds like a nightmare: it is but it isn't really? idk) at yes i totally agree with the "got lovesick all over my bed statement but" also "love thorns all over this rose" and omg "you're not saying you're in love with me, BUT !! YOURE !! GONNA !! DO !!" like who gave taylor the right to be such a mastermind (funny, right? no? okay.) like the entire song, heck the entire album is so GOOD. HER ENTIRE DISCOGRAPHY IS SO GOOD. (this is totally normal fan behaviour btw)

favourite liv song atm is probably lacy but i love all of the songs all the album (and yes logical is soooo good i mean i have to love it otherwise my url is meaningless) but my favourite lyric from the entire album is probably "we both drew blood but man THOSE CUTS were NEVER EQUAL!!" from the grudge (also one of my top 3) bc that hits DEEP. (bc the cuts were deep, i know I'm so funny /j)

favourite sab song atm is prolly cindy lou who / opposite (been there) / a nonsense christmas. i cheated but i simply cant choose one shes too good. also super funny bc cindy lou who and opposite are like sad vibes and then a nonsense christmas i want you to [redacted] and [redacted] me on the couch while we [redacted] presents (sorry i just think I'm so funny when I'm not but dont tell me that i wanna be a stand up comedian no I'm just kidding I'm not a failure. IM JOKING) (also regarding bc i liked a boy, I agree. who hurt you???)

anyways, my favourite conan song atm is prolly the best known option "heather" BUT i also like "the cut that always bleeds" the entire of kid krow tbh

okay i wrote a lot asdxcasdcvafd sorry

alsooo, you didnt ask this but my favourite gracie abrams song atm is "where do we go now?" and "cedar" (you arent mine) bc its such a heartbreaking song especially when you can relate to it. ooh and i also love camden, painkillers, rockland and long sleeves but they're all pretty depressing so if you don't like sad songs they're prolly not for you.

and THANK YOU for this ask this was so fun send me more sometimes <333

#taylor swift #gracie abrams #maisie peters #olivia rodrigo #sabrina carpenter #conan gray #boygenius #phoebe bridgers #lucy dacus #julien baker #alix page #music #moots <3 #luce posts 💌

[limeade-l3sbian]

Dunno if it’s okay to sad rant here?

I have two cats, and while getting two wasn’t part of my initial plan, at the time when they were kittens, they were the last of their litter and separating felt wrong to me. I was also in a vastly different financial situation back then so it was not an issue at all. Even though getting two cats weren’t the plan, I can easily say they are both my most consistent boosts of happiness. I love them with all my heart. They have vastly different personalities and quirks and yet they are also both exceedingly funny and charming. Unfortunately one of the sisters have a poorer health than the other. Nothing fatal, thankfully. She simply needs foods and necessities that are more than twice as expensive as the other, to help her with this. With that it’s perfectly manageable and nothing that could endanger her.

My issues comes with my financial situation. It has changed drastically due to a lot of outside forces. And now i’m severely struggling with even just meeting the bills just for living where i am. What was previously more expensive for one cat is now an intense stress factor. I obviously can’t just stop giving her the things she needs. But I also can’t see a future with the way things are going.

So I’ve made the, to many probably, brutal decision to part ways with her. Within the next month or so Im gonna have to find her a new home, a place where I know for sure all her meets can be met without her new owner getting grey hairs over it. Obviously till then i’m still gonna live even more sparingly to meet them too for her. But I feel like such a sack of shit. I love her with all my heart and now I can’t even be her mom anymore. And she’s probably the one that’s most attached to my hip, so my heart is breaking even more both for her and myself. I fear she will have a horribly tough time adjusting to someone else and getting properly attached. She’s a lot more reserved towards strangers than her sister. I just want her to be happy. And I know in the long run I can’t fulfill that anymore, because eventually they will get old and will need much more frequent vet visits besides the yearly check up vaccine and tooth rinse. What if she develops more health issues, ones that are life or death situations? Then it won’t matter that I love her as much as I do, that won’t pay the vet bills. I stress constantly over this thought.

While I can intellectualize my decision to re-home her, I really do feel like I’m committing an immense betrayal.

First, I'm so sorry, anon. Growing up, I had to give up two different pets after we were too poor to take care of them. I know how painful it can be to become so close to a pet just to have to give them up.

But for your guilt, I think you should feel nothing close to a betrayal. The most compassionate thing you can do as an owner is realize when your situation cannot give them the life they need and make that hard decision. Does it hurt like hell? Does it feel like you are ruining their lives? Does it feel like you will never get over it? Oh god, yes. That's the worst part about a hard moment.

But ultimately, the long term of your decision will bear more fruits than keeping her and feeling shame when you cannot feed her or tend to her medical issues. You can absolutely feel sad and bad and everything in between. But just know that being able to realize what is best for something under your care is far stronger than it might feel in the moment. <3

#ask

[mccn-bcys]

Can you write about the reader receiving a mean text/voicemail from their parent, and Steven comforting them or saying that they’re worth more than their parents opinion?

hi oh my gosh! you have no idea how excited I was when I saw a request in my inbox! i got to work on this as soon as I got it! i really hope you like this!! <3

You Are Worth More

pairing: steven grant x reader

summary: you receive a heartbreaking voice-mail and steven is there to make you feel better.

warnings: mentions of unsupportive parents, mentions of khonshu, steven is super supportive, probably tends to be dialogue heavy in some parts, oh also steven and reader are engaged

word count: 1,375

something was wrong. steven could see it. even from across the flat, he could sense it.

you sat at the table, a neutral look on your face. you'd received a voice-mail from your parents about an hour ago and you haven't said a thing since.

steven didn't want to press you. he knew you'd tell him what they called for when you were ready. he knew you had been hoping they'd call to tell you when they would be coming for the wedding.

but you were biting your lip. fiddling with the engagement ring on your finger. your breathing was picking it. something was wrong.

"love?" steven called from his desk, where he had been watching you from. he had sat down to do some reading but you had him worried.

you gave a soft hum of acknowledgement but you didn't look at him, still lost in whatever thoughts were on your mind. he frowned and stood up, slowly making his way to you.

"is everything alright?" he asked, pulling out a chair to sit next to you.

you quickly looked away from him, trying to hide the tears that threatened to spill over. you didn't want to worry him. you knew it was silly. but still, their words wouldn't leave your head.

"love, whatever it is, im sure—"

"they're not coming," you said softly, a soft sob escaping your lips, as you looked back down at the table. that sound alone broke his heart. he hated to hear you cry.

"darling—" he started gently, reaching for your hand before you stood up quickly.

"i want them to come! it's my wedding, steven! the biggest and happiest day of my life and they won't be there!" the tears were pouring down your face. you kept your back to him, not wanting him to see you like this.

"did they say why?" he asked softly, standing up to stand behind you. he knew that he needed to be patient with you. to be soft. to be the voice of reason. that once you got it all off your chest, you'd allow him to calm you down.

"they think it's too fast. they don't support it. they don't support us. they said i need to get my priorities in line and just come back home. that they didn't think i could handle being on my own," you ranted, your breathing heavy as you tried to keep your composure but the more you thought about what they said, the more the words hurt.

"why on earth do they you cant handle it? you are more than capable of handling yourself."

"they think you've gotten me pregnant..." you said softly, turning to look at him.

"what?" he breathed out after a moment.

"they think that's the reason we're getting married. because im young and new to london so we both wanted to just mess around and i wound up 'knocked up' and now we're getting married to cover it up," you copied their words. disbelief, anger and sadness laced your words.

he walked up to you, his face riddled with concern. he gently cupped your face, leaning your head to look up at him. "...are you...are you pregnant?" he didn't think you'd keep something like that from him. he wouldn't even be upset if you were—he'd be thrilled, actually. he'd probably shit himself first, but he'd be thrilled!

"no! of course im not!" you looked at him a bit offended. "i would've told you something like that!"

"right, of course! i was just checking," he quickly apologized.

"they don't think we actually love each other! they won't come and watch me 'set myself up for failure,'" you quoted them quietly, looking him in the eye. he swear he heard his heart shatter when you looked at him like that. so much sadness, disappointment, hurt in your eyes.

he knew you wanted your parents there. you've dreamed of your wedding since you were a kid and your parents have always been apart of that dream. your father walking you down the aisle, your mother sitting in the seats crying tears of joy.

but they crushed those dreams, crushing your heart in the process. he wouldn't stand for it.

so he took his thumbs and wiped your tears away, putting a gentle smile on his face. "well we both know that's a lie, don't we, love? you would never set yourself up for failure, you're too smart for that," he gave your nose a gentle tap, earning a little giggle out of you. "there's my girl."

you laughed a little, sniffling as you tried to push away from him, but he was quick to grab your wrist and pull you right back into him. "listen to me. you don't need them here—"

"yes i do—"

"no, you want them here. but you don't need them to be here. not if they aren't going to support you. if they aren't going to be here for the happiest day of our lives, see you look absolutely stunning—not that you don't every day," he added, making you smile. "but if they don't trust you and won't support you decisions, then they don't deserve to be here."

"but—"

"no buts. who cares what they think! we both know the truth! that you are smart," he kissed your forehead, "you are beautiful," he kissed your nose, "and i love you more than you, or they, could possibly know! if they dont think you know what youre doing, they can sod off! you are worth so much more than what they think of you! and if they are just going to think those things, they do not need to be at our wedding, yeah?" he told you, as he placed a soft kiss on your lips.

you just smiled up at him as you kissed him back. he was right. you knew it. if they were just going to say or think bad things, they didn't need to come. as much as you wished they would.

"plus, imagine the looks on their face when they find out it wasn't a failure, that we knew exactly what we were doing," he added, knowing you'd love the opportunity to say 'i told you so!' you laughed, burying your head in his chest.

"thank you, steven," you said, softly, smiling up at him. "im sorry for breaking down like that."

"you have nothing to be sorry for, love. they are in the wrong. you reacted just as you should. they know how much this means to you and they are being unsupportive! no unsupportive folks at our wedding!" he said as he wiped away the last remaining tears on your face.

"no unsupportive folks," you repeated, just letting him hold you. after a minute, you had an idea as a smile crossed your face.

"i can feel that mischievous smile. what is it?" he chuckled.

"you think khonshu will walk me down the ailse?" you asked, an innocent look in your eyes, causing a big laugh to come from steven, making you smile bigger.

"ill talk to him," he looked down at you. "if hesays no, ill bother him until he says yes."

"tell him it'd be an honor, even if i can't see him." he laughed, resting his forehead against yours.

"you know, maybe we can make your parent's right about one thing," he said, a twinkle in his eye, making you narrow your eyes at him.

"whatre you saying?"

"if we get started now...you could be pregnant by the wedding."

"steven!" you laughed, making his grin grow. god how he loved that sound. he was glad he was able to get you from crying to laughing. and he'd do it however many times he needed to. he'd do anything to make sure you were always smiling.

"im just saying! i wouldn't mind a little you running around here," he said as he cupped your cheek.

"what am I going to do with you?" you smiled at him as you leaned into him.

"marry me," he simply whispered against your lips.

"that, i will most certainly do," you kissed him as he picked you up and carried you to the bedroom.

again, I really hope you enjoyed it! if you guys like it, make sure to like, comment, and reblog! I'd really appreciate it! <3

#jake lockley #moon boys #moon knight #marc spector #steven grant #jake lockley x reader #steven grant x reader #marc spector x reader #marvel moon knight #moon knight fluff #steven with a v #steven grant my beloved #steven grant fanfiction #steven grant fic #steven grant x you #also i think the idea of khonshu #walking reader down the aisle #is super funny #i think hed act annoyed about it at first #but hed love to do it #even if no one can see him