#(she's still hyperfocused she's just more likely to take breaks for conversation now lol)

[cesium-sheep]

it is still weird to me that she unblocked me and he didn’t. like, she had no ties to me before that, so it’s not gonna be to sentimentally “leave the door open” like I do for literally all but 2 people (fuckface and miya). could be to keep tabs on me, like my friends used to keep an eye on fuckface’s fb after the worst of it to help reassure my paranoia that he wasn’t in town, although I barely use fb and don’t generally link to these accounts from there. (on the other hand I know for a fact this account is pretty easy for him to find, cuz like I said. done it before, even after I changed my url to make fuckface stop reading it. so why bother making sure my fb is accessible in that case?)

idfk man, just one of life’s many mysteries I guess. it’s a weird brain day.

#really gotta get around to finding people who can tolerate That Side of me. #that's the main reason I'm thinking about it now all of a sudden - I actually have the energy to be a bastard. #but I ain't got anyone to be a bastard with. #I feel far too soft about my wife to roughhouse or toy with her like that #even though it's a fun game and a (very specific) form of relationship I like having in my life #although she's been kinda talkative lately which is nice #she was hyperfocused away from me for a while #(she's still hyperfocused she's just more likely to take breaks for conversation now lol) #on the one hand perhaps one worries about running out of things to talk about after a certain number of years #on the other hand I've known Da Gorls effectively my whole life and they were surprised to find out I don't like tomatoes recently lol #I should've saved the link to her alt that fb randomly recommended me. #I'm done picking for now promise. #I will say one thing I noticed (since if anyone is reading this tag they are also prone to snooping :v ) #it seems that his reacting to her posts gets marked as 'and 1 more' in the interface since he still has me blocked #if that's the case he did react to the pfp of them together back in november #but he didn't react to the bad news about her dog or her more recent pfp #altho his pfp is still that same pic of the both of them so idk #idk idk I'm just. I'll always be curious about what the fuck happened. #and I'll always a little bit want to re-establish contact with this person who mattered a lot that I didn't voluntarily leave. #and I know very little of what happened but my best guess is there was an ultimatum so I'm off-limits as long as they stay together. #(as if I wasn't the one being honest with everyone and carefully pumping the brakes on the flirting the moment I knew there was a line.) #(it was a real fucked up situation and I literally can't see any wrong move that I made in terms of Moral Backbone.) #(could I have made different choices to get what I wanted? probably. would they have been the right choices? no.) #(I was upfront with both of them and I'm the one who got tossed out to sea for it.) #(ugh. whatever. it's just frustrating.) #(it will be less frustrating once I've finally filled in the holes in my support structure.) #(I just have been Physically Incapable of that.)

[cy-fi-theansweris42]

The Good, the Bad, and the IDK How To Feel About That of: Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Out of the Shadows (2016) (Part 1)

My thoughts on the 2016 TMNT movie (not going to lie, I liked it so much more that the first one), what I liked about it and what I didn’t, with some random smart-alek comments and rambling in there because I can. My opinions will differ from others, now let’s have some fun!

Good: STRAIGHT TO THE TURTLES!!! It took so long to show them in the first movie, now we’re getting them right away!

Good: DONNIE GETS THE FIRST LINE!!! I felt like Donnie was severely underappreciated in the first movie and HOLY HECK do they make up for it in this one.

Good: “Squirrel formation, lol”

Good: “Do it, do it, not gonna stop until you do it” Lol, A+ on the sibling relationship there, if I had a nickel for every time one of my siblings did something similar then I wouldn’t have to worry about student loans.

Good: The ENTIRE bit from when they jump off of that building, to when they get to the basketball game, like they’re just flipping all over the place while having fun and I love it.

Bad: MIKEY IS SO MUCH MORE THAN JUST A “PIZZA LOVER”, HE’S THE LITTLE BROTHER, THE HEART OF THE TEAM, THE GOOFY KID THAT COULD MAKE HIS BROTHERS SMILE EVEN AFTER THE ROUGHEST DAY, YOU KNOW THAT IF THEY LOST HIM THEIR WORLD WOULD BE SO MUCH DARKER, DON’T DEGRADE HIM TO JUST A “PIZZA LOVER”!!!

Good: How hyped they all get while watching the game, especially Donnie, it’s adorable.

**Well, they made it pretty obvious what the main Raph v. Leo conflict is going to be, didn’t they?

Bad: HOW DARE YOU GET THEIR HOPES UP LIKE THAT!!!

Good: DONNIE’S PEASHOOTER! AND HOW THEY ALL GET SUPER INVESTED IN PRANKING VERN! I LOVE IT! (You can even see Leo laughing with them, even when he’s trying to be the responsible one.

Good: Freaking HECK they act so much like teenagers in this movie and I love it!

Good: Lol, casually shocks younger brother.

Good: I LOVE THE WATCH THAT DONNIE MADE FOR APRIL (not going to lie, I didn’t recognize April until she took off the wig, but that’s just me being horrible at recognizing people, lol)

IDK: Come on Stockman, 15 decimal points of Pi is nothing, I know 5th graders that can go out to at least 40. Up your game man, you’re supposed to be a genius.

Bad: April’s disguise walk. Come on, people, did we really need that?

Good: THE LITTLE CARTOON DONNIE FACE THAT WAS DISPLAYED! THE LITTLE ‘HEROES IN A HALF-SHELL’ JINGLE! I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!

Good: THEY’RE ALL SO HYPED FOR THIS GAME! YOU CAN EVEN SEE LEO DOING A LITTLE JUMP THING!!! IT’S ADORABLE!!!

Good: That was soooooo Leo’s slice of pizza, wasn’t it? Lol

IDK: IDK how basketball works but you’d think that pizza on the court would be some kind of foul or something.

Good: BUMBLEBEE!!! (I know it’s because of how Michael Bay worked on the Transformers movies but I will always love Transformers in general)

Good: Donnie uses the ‘heroes in a half-shell’ jingle for everything and it’s great

Good: I love how they got Stephen Amell to play Casey Jones, I used to watch Arrow a lot so it’s cool to see him in this.

Good: I LOVE HOW THEIR NEW LAIR IS SET UP, CAN I HAVE A WATER SLIDE IN MY HOME TOO???

Good: THE TRUCK!!! AND HOW EVEN THOUGH HIS BROTHERS ARE AMAZED BY IT, DONNIE’S JUST THINKING OF ALL THE LITTLE THINGS THAT STILL NEED WORK.

Good: Donnie just instantly jumping into engineer mode, messing with wires while rambling about what needs work still, hyperfocused to the point that they nearly crash into the wall. What a mood, Donnie is amazing in this movie.

Bad: Why didn’t they up the security for Shredder’s transport? He’s a crimelord with tons of followers, and yet they only did their standard transport, were they not expecting someone to try and break him out?

Good: “I’m Finnish, because when I start a beat-down, I finish it!” PUNS, I LIVE FOR THEM

Good: Not going to lie, while Bebop and Rocksteady were definitely intended to be the comic relief, I love how good of a friendship they have, like throughout the movie they’re just continuously joking around with each other.

Bad: Unprepared shot gun when transporting a guy that won’t hesitate to murder you.

Good: The driver’s tone of voice when saying the shells are in the bag because he knows he messed up, lol

Good: GIANT NUNCHUCKS!!! LIKE DONNIE JUST LOOKED AT THE DUMPTRUCK ARMS THINKING ‘What can I do with these…” AND THEN DECIDING TO MAKE THEM INTO GIANT NUNCHUCKS!!!

Good: All of those features in the truck, there’s SO MUCH and I love it all!!! (I’m such a nerd, lol)

**OMG, the Arc Capacitor is going to bring Cybertron to Earth! We’re going all G1 of the Transformers cartoon, aren’t we? (I’m being a sarcastic nerd, ignore me, lol)

Good: The little tongue thing Donnie does while thinking is adorable (they make him so relatable in this movie and I love it)

IDK: Wow, they’re just hammering home the whole ‘they can’t be seen by humans’ thing in this movie. (I know it’s a plot point but it feels forced, you know they’re aware of this stuff already.

Bad: Honestly though, they only had two people in the truck and they were ambushed, they’re being super tough on Casey.

Bad: IDK if I’m just not understanding the conversation, but when they’re talking about Rocksteady hitting a guard, it sounds like they’re talking about Casey, but it was Bebop that knocked him out

Good: Leg clan, lol

Good: THE SKATEBOARD CAN FLY!!! (It would be so insanely complex, like using balance to control both left/right and up/down, but then would you use amount you’re leaning one way as speed or degree of turning…there’s so many possibilities and I’m too much of a nerd, I want to know how it works)

Bad: The turtles couldn’t go with April to TCRI because it was almost light out, but when she gets there it’s almost night and then she gets saved by the turtles because then it is night and they can go outside.

Bad: STOCKMAN DOESN’T TEST THE MIXTURE OR ANYTHING TO SEE WHAT IT’S MADE OF, JUST JUMPS TO INJECTING PEOPLE WITH IT

Bad: ROCKSTEADY, YOU DON’T JUST LICK THINGS IN PETRI DISHES, THAT’S HOW PEOPLE DIE

Good: I do like how Bebop and Rocksteady’s transformation looks visually, especially when all of Rocksteady’s hair falls out, it’s pretty cool

Bad: “…gene tying us to our animal ancestors” NO. THAT’S NOT…NO!!! IF THIS GUY HAS A DEGREE IN ANYTHING EVEN SLIGHTLY RELATED TO BIOLOGY AND EVOLUTION, TAKE IT AWAY FROM HIM!!!

Good: Lol, even Shredder gives Stockman a look like “even I know that’s not how science works”

Good: Casey Jones with his hockey mask and stick, I approve

Good: THE NINJA WOOD FLUTE SOUND WITH THE TURTLES ARRIVAL!!!

Good: Casey’s reaction to the turtles, how they’re just laughing at it, and Mikey deciding to mess with him, lol

Good: Mikey’s introduction of the turtles, especially how Donnie just plays along

Good: April says that the purple ooze like the stuff in the dart she has mutated people, and Donnie instantly jumps into science mode

(Splitting this into 2 parts again, lol)

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