#(it actually was quite a pain)

[measuringbliss]

People are acting so weird and possessive of Markiplier for the whole OnlyFans situation. He's an adult. He's an adult who's been a celebrity for years. He knows people thirst on him. That's why he had this idea in the first place. He's not some naive kid you must protect. He's not some innocent soul that the evil sluts of Tumblr and Twitter will corrupt. He knows the Internet, he knows his fans and he knows his job.

He's an adult and he can make his own choices.

#Markiplier #I've seen quite a few comments expressing discomfort and like. You can just. Not subscribe to his OF???? #That's a possibility. You can block people too. #I think some of you really need to learn about parasocial relationships and reflect on it #He's not your dad #He's not your friend #He's just a dude #A dude who has a job and it just so happens that his job revolves around appearing personable #Don't forget that you don't truly know him and MORE IMPORTANTLY he doesn't know YOU #He probably has various ideas on xho his fans are as subgroups but he doesn't know you personally #Actually it reminds me of Maisee Williams in GoT s8 #People had seen her (the character and the actress) grow up over the years and when she decided she wanted to do a nude scene #A lot of people said they were uncomfortable #In both cases. They're adults. They can do whatever they want. #I guess that was a rant but sometimes I find the fandom really off-putting #Deactivated reblogs because the RBs were getting boring and a pain

[pyjamacryptid]

me surrounded by all of my medical paperwork that disability services deems “not enough evidence” to claim support, after applying for the 5th time:

#spoonie #actually disabled #all because I don’t ‘tick a box’ #all because of elaborate recited corporate language that essentially spells out ‘not disabled enough’ #Australia may have - objectively - sort of good health care (up for debate obviously but it’s not Bad either) but jfc #the hoops disabled people have to leap through …. #only to be assessed by people who have no fucking idea what we deal with #sigh #I quite literally have to hand over sensitive vulnerable information #my whole life story (since BIRTH) #to faceless strangers #and wait to be judged worthy of support #how do they not expect anyone to be disheartened by this?? #spoon tag #disability #disabled #chronic illness #chronic pain #chronically ill #medical conditions #healthcare #healthcare system #Australian healthcare #personal

[mercisnm]

'How like a winter hath my absence been from thee...'

A warm spring sunrise over English countryside landscape, featuring two lovely ladies out for an early morning stroll.

While @clydethistles Regency-period-Jane-Austen-inspired AU (Austen AU for short) Affections And Adorations did not feature any scene at sunrise, the moment I saw this photo of English countryside my mind was immediately overcome with the need to see Tissaia and Yennefer from Clyde's story over that backdrop. I can use buzzwords like mutual pining and it's about the yearning to describe the story but then it would be undermining for such a lovely work, and undoubtedly one of my favourite fics of all time. I am forever in awe at the research and thoughtfulness Clyde put into crafting it, be it either in form of the details about everyday life from the time period or of the language of the narration and conversation, be it either manifested as the graceful incorporation of Austen-esque storytelling elements and archetypes or as our author's very own endeavour to write a heart-wrenching queer love story realistic for and true to its historical period setting.

The point is: the fic was completed quite recently and you should read it, or catch up with it if you haven't, you definitely should, thank me later.

Bonus: the lines, before I throw colours all over it like an excitable raccoon on crack:

#tissaia de vries #yennefer of vengerberg #sometimes i draw things #clydethistles #austen au #might look like ill wax poetic about this story but in fact im a possum screaming its little possum lungs out when it comes to clyde's fics #also they say actions speak louder than words #so i think drawing dry tree branches for two evenings straight would be much louder than actually saying anything #yes if those tree branches look painful to draw its because they were. they made my wrist quite sore #but that only applies to ME. YOU should leave a comment

[roastedcha]

i miss them

#genshin impact #zhongchi #childe #tartaglia #zhongli #my art #ok im gonna make an actual conscious effort to post on tumblr more because its quite nice as an archive #my ipad exploded itself and i had to get a new one but i do a shit job at backing up data #and importing into procreat4 is a fucking pain in th4 ass #i had to download most of these off my twitter lmao but i spam too much on twitter to use it as a proper archive

[t4t-dazai]

sowwy for not arts i have died. badly

#/j #sigma #bsd sigma #eyestrain #bright colors #cw eyestrain #man i HATE drawing with a mouse (keeps drawin with a mouse) (its actually quite fun tho) #neo's art #explodes sigma with my mind <3 #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd art #bsd #tbh the reason for no arts is actually me getting into iz (invader zi/m) more.......... like i have Serious brainrot #i even came up with two ocs (one of them is Very fleshed out the other one not so </3) #AND i started to run an iz ask. the brainrot is Severe guys XD #paint tool sai #more like PAIN tool sai am i right /j #usually when i try to draw on pc the colors look more dull and gray (because im Bad at picking them) so this time i decided to experiment #a bit and try to make colors as bright as they usually are when i draw on my phone) #(i think i succseeded!!) #(how do you. spell. succseeded. uh XD) #id in alt text

[esterigermaine]

You can all blame @animentality for this because their posts got me into durgetash (thank you!!!!!) and now I want to torture the villian couple. Probably won't make much sense because I drank enough caffeine to kill a horse today and my brain is going a million miles a second.

You know that scene where Orin shapeshifts into durge and tells them what she did to them? What if Gortash found out about it the same way and had Orin rub salt in the wound by then showing him the prayer for forgiveness?

She is cruel enough to do it and I can't think of any worse way to find out about what happened than for the attempted-murderer to shapeshift into their victim and describe what happened to them in explicit, gruesome detail. The attack itself, the tadpole, how they were abandoned to die alone like trash, how Gortash wasn't there to protect them, all of it. Only to show grieving Gortash the note

#orin the red #enver gortash #dark urge #the dark urge #durgetash #they were both doomed from the start the least we can do is make things even more painful #bonus points if she leaves it at leaving durge for dead so he has quite a bit of time to think durge is dead until reports start popping up #the pain of losing one of the few people you actually liked violently and having that act described to you by someone wearing their face #and the addition of then seeing a note praising you like that? not knowing untol after? #that has to be somewhere in the top few most emotionally painful things Gortash could possibly experience #regarding my note at the top #i seriously cannot thank them enough #because at first I was ehhhhh about Gortash in general then after playing Durge I was like oh they got along #and then after seeing their posts in the dark urge tag I was like damn now thats a love story how can I make their fates even WORSE #and I never would have even considered this ship and the opportunities it provided without them #seriously good stuff

[jaxie101]

I find it so interesting that Verna took them in the order that she did. You'd think that she take them from oldest to youngest, and give the younger ones a few more days of life, she expected them to all live to 50 after all. But she takes Perry, the youngest and most childlike, first. Maybe because Perry's death affects the rest, without Perry, Frederick wouldn't have died the way he did… and maybe Tammy wouldn't have been so wound up. Maybe Verna expected more of a reaction? Like if she killed the youngest so brutally and horrifically that it would pull the family together and the rest would die peacefully. But no one gave a fuck, Perrys dead, that’s that. it's more of an inconvenience than anything. Idk just food for thought

#its actually quite sad if you think that verna might have expected everyone to care that thier little bother was just melted #and genuinely the only one that cared was leo #maybe thast why his actual death wasnt painful #the run up to it was just psychological torture #the fall of the house of usher #tfothou #perry usher #prospero usher #verna tfothou

[milkweedman]

Trying to finish something I was supposed to do ages ago--spinning a contrast color for this sock yarn. The fleece (southdown babydoll) had a pretty wide range of grays, most of which I blended together. But I intentionally left the darkest gray out of the mix so that later I could spin up just that, and have a dark gray for the toe and heel. So, now I'm doing that.

One thing I did not realize until now (due to intentionally avoiding working with the darker gray locks) is that they are all much shorter than the other colors of gray, and a lot of them are way finer too. That's not ideal, so I might not use it for the toe--it won't be as hard-wearing of a yarn and the toe/ball of the foot is what wears out the fastest on my socks by far, so. It's fine though, I just want some kind of decorative element that uses the fact that this fleece had lots of nice colors.

I'm also not that surprised, I guess. The longest locks were always the very light gray ones. Hard to know why without seeing the sheep though.

#spinning #handspun yarn #southdown #hand combed top #sock yarn #ive been trying to work on the hat but i need to frog and debug and also come up with some new peeries #and all of that requires brain which i do not have #and i realized actually i just wanted to knit socks and not think abt stuff #the distaff spinning... i am also having problems with #holding it is killing my hands. didnt realize quite how much until i switched to spinning this #which is not usually painful unless my hands are already fucked #so while i love that distaff i dont think i can really use it RIP #next model i might try one of the longer ones that can be held in place a variety of ways rather than exclusively held in the hand #i dont know what theyre called but ive seen tons in paintings of spinners. usually like the length of an arm maybe ? #could work better. we'll see #supported spinning

[bylertruther]

he has all these feelings and he can't find a way to express them in a way that mike can understand..... will just wanting to be understood by one of the people he loves most in this world.... the king of his heart, his very first and best friend, and his first love.... he wants to be known and loved for exactly who he is the very same way that he knows and loves mike for all that he is, but he doesn't know how to say the unspeakable.... i can't see through ym tears right now

#reading this again just to feel something (agony misery pain anguish and world-shattering heartbreak) #will byers #byler #mine #the way that will loves mike so much he's quite literally actually and canonically bursting with it and desperate to have it be understood #but he just. he cannot express it in a way tht mike understands. he paints and he veils his confession and he waits for mike even though #he receives nothing in return and he supports him through everything even at the cost of himself and his own desires and it just. #is not enough! his call doesn't get through! the same way that mike's literal calls never got through! i just. AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[zelkams-art]

legacy

#Jiang Cheng #The Untamed #Mo Dao Zu Shi #mdzs #artists on tumblr #my art #hi hi hiiii #this weekend my body was trying to End Me so I tried to distract myself from pain with drawing #and actually ended up doing this in one sitting?? #BUT I wanna strangle myself so so badly #because I didn't realize that I was doing it all on the sketch which was quite small #instead of moving it to a proper canvas size #so this is actually the full size pic - which is smaller than I usually post my art as /after/ scaling down more than half the size dsfljgdf #but anyways - apparently I like my JC suffering and soaking in water next to lotuses hah

[humberg]

⋆｡°✩ Happy Birthday Vincent! ✩°｡⋆

June 28th baby! (This has been scheduled and hidden away for so long (16 days!) that you have no idea how good it is that the big day has finally arrived!)

I feel like such a proud parent, happy birthday to my pride and joy Vince <3. Although, it would have taken a bit of encouragement on Kerry's part to celebrate as Vincent isn't one to fuss about his birthday.

Kerry insists that miserable mercs can celebrate their birthday too, and boy did he prove Vincent wrong. So naturally Kerry bought two cakes, both chocolate, obviously, along with party hats and balloons (the balloons that have blended in with the background ;-; ). He had bought the second yet smaller cake for Johnny who would have kicked up a fuss for not being included. He is sharing the same brain as the birthday boy after all.

#I had to manually add each candle flame and it was such a pain #I’m actually quite sad that you can’t see his balloons in the background #my fault for making them black… smh #but Vincent approved of black balloons #oh well #happy birthday vincent #oc: vincent ronin #kerry eurodyne #kerry x v #cyberpunk 2077

[alicemain0541]

Okay but the transition into being a vampire just feels like my everyday life. When he complains about sleeping for hours (20 for him usually 15-18 for me) and never being awake is so real. Plus then going outside is just the autistic experience of “feeling the tread count of [his] tshirt” and smelling every smell and hearing every sound. This is like my fifth listen and every time I just slightly question where these symptoms come from vamp biology wise because I might be fucked.

#chronically ill #chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #cfs #autism #actually autistic #not quite dead #nqd #nqd pod #Eira you scare me <3

[szappan]

university.. university leave me alone

#heres the situation: for my cognitive literary studies class (quite fun) we had to pick primary material and a cognitive angle to analyse it #from. and the deadline was coming up and i who have been thinking very intensely about robots for the last half a year picked #yeah you guessed it. fucking PIERS PLOWMAN. which is not fun for me but i panicked about the deadline #so now i have to do something about piers plowman and its cognitive literary properties #and im in hell this is hell i have been extremely stressed about piers plowman for a month. to the point where ive been in physical pain #AND I CANNOT. THINK OF ANYTHING. ABOUT PIERS PLOWMAN. #and the teacher for that class is so nice and chill and she was like you can pick anything at all. and i went with piers plowman #like it's interesting but from what COGNITIVE angle can i approach piers plowman. #ive been thinking about saying exactly this that piers plowman is more for historical linguists and theologists than narratologists but im #also positive plenty of scholars read piers plowman for the plot #so then i thought about the characters and whether you can Connect with them and whether they help you Immerse yourself in the story and #other terminology i learned in cognitive literary studies class. #theyre allegorical and very 1 dimensional and there could be something about whether we from 2024 understand them in the same way #people from the 14th century did. like this was what i put in my proposal when i made it #but now i actually have to make the slides and use cognitive literary papers for this and it's just not going at all. i cant do it. #i cant do anything i cant enjoy the daylight and the warmer weather i cant think about anything other than im not making progress on this #and it's bad for me!! it's bad for my health i feel bad. why did i go with piers plowman why did i not pick watership down #my post #i have plenty to say about watership downm cognitively. #also about old possums book of practical cats #maybe i could email her and tell her id like to change it.. no #ive also been reading the tombs of atuan which is incredible

[torgawl]

i think what hits most about nobara's backstory is everything that's left unsaid and peaks from between the lines. it's the fact you can easily infer that something was wrong without ever having clear answers on what exactly was wrong. but if you can relate to the feeling of wanting to escape a place and the alienation from everyone around you, especially when you're brought up in small communities, then you can certainly understand, if not fully then partially, nobara herself and the struggles she might have had to face all by herself for a very long time; maybe even the importance fumi and saori had in her life and the pain from having to part from them; and, perhaps the selectiveness in letting people in that she later on develops as well.

#the way her story is told from fumi's point of view is quite interesting #nobara's backstory is like a silent whisper without a lot of obvious context and told from someone else's perspective #someone who until the end never really understood her fully despite their obvious close bond #someone who we weren't even aware was part of her life #and nobara's peak emotional moment and the last person she thinks as her life is in danger is her and the promise she didn't accomplish #a promise to reunite with the friends that shaped her and her life #ah. #i find her last line so... powerful? #she definitely struggled growing up and the only two people she kept in her heart from her life before jujutsu were people that #moved to where she lived. saori didn't even stay in that place for long. and then she moves somewhere new and she meets people #and a group that actually feels like home a community where she fits in and suddenly they kind of break through making place in her heart #just for everything to come to a halt. to turn to shit. for her to see that shatter away little by little. and in the end she's put in a #position where she knows she will not be able to hold on to what she cares for the most. that she will hurt people that truly cared for her #for not being able to go back to fumi and rekindle the friendship with saori and for being forced to be another punch in the guts for yuuji #and everyone else that up until that point were forced to go through losses already and traumatic events #and she decides to encourage yuuji to go on a good note and she truly believes the people she met made it worth it #even if it was for a brief moment in her life #i am not being coherent right now but it pains me :') #she deserved so much better #and i will hang on tightly to the line saying that she had a small chance of survival until the end #because she deserves it she deserves to live 😭 #i'm taking her from that stupid anime and putting her in a slice of life anime watch me #yuuji too. and everyone else. i'm taking the kaisen out of the jujutsu and you can't stop me #jjk spoilers #nobara kugisaki #jujutsu kaisen #jjk 💭 #my post

[sysig]

Rainbows (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Papyrus #Sans #This rainbow is all out of order - and so many negative glows ah :0 #I didn't mean for them to trend negative! They were just easier to imagine the expressions - maybe I'll take a second pass on the positives #Or in green's case the negative :') #Again in order of when I drew them so kinda all over the place haha #I wanted to go in order! And then I got distracted pft - thus started with red ow :( #Honestly I was thinking of it just being a surprise-pain more than anything lol - like a splinter haha that wouldn't even pierce him! #D'you think that eyeglows could also act like automatic word-responses? Like how we say ''Ow'' when we're surprised but not hurt sometimes #Silly haha #The second is a lot less silly-intended tho more actual pain #It's also sad to think that Sans' red would pretty much have to be sympathy/emotional pain :( #The kind of survivors guilt of not being able to shoulder more but he's so fragile! It's not his fault! #I am quite happy with both of their expressions there tho especially their mouth shapes - and how the colours interact with their eyes #Lineless colours are some of my favourites :) You can tell it's my pencils and not my pen there 'cause it's feathery hehe #For example Edgar's scars are usually with my pen and they have an almost hard-line quality while my pencils are soft :) S'pretty #Switched colours! I unfortunately misremembered what their meanings were oops lol #Well I got them kinda half-right - I like blue as skeptical quite a lot :D I think it suits them both! #Sans as wary and logical and wanting to keep distance to assure his safety and what he can devote energy to - I like it! #And Papyrus using his brother's colour to be grown up in the way that Sans is hehe <3 It's sweet #I misremembered orange lol I assigned blue's alt meaning of ''curiousity'' - orange is meant to be bravery! Oops lol #I think I was thinking of Papyrus' childlike excitement and wanting to know and be involved! Haha #Greeeeens <3 Happy boys happy with each other! I love when they're happy ♥ Interlocked holding hands hehe #Pinks! Along a similar line! I like pink as platonic affection :D And as embarrassment lol but hgg the sweetness! The care and love! #Is my bias showing lol - especially with the bros sleeping on each other haha ♪ They're both happy to know the other is safe! #Couple'a stresses - I like Sans' more I'm not even gonna sugarcoat lol his expression turned out so good haha #And the inverse for the purples! I do like Sans' face but his body :P Papyrus tho - he turned out sad and perfect :')

[bitternace]

(05/05!)

groundbreaking, etc etc

[ID: two digital drawings of kingdom hearts' character, lexaeus, in his organization coat. the background is light blue, and the colors are faded.

in the first image, he is shown sitting on haunches, as if landing a jump, the tail of his coat flaring behind him. he is frowning and sneering lightly. before his core, with either hand, he holds the handle of his characteristic weapon, Skysplitter. tilted down, the end of his axe sword hits the ground, where shards rise up from the impact.

the second image is a close up of his face. /End ID.]

#kh #kingdom hearts #kh fanart #lexaeus #kh lexaeus #my doods #RUSHES THROUGH THIS #remember when i said months ago i had 'sketches up to sa/ix..... i hadn't worked on anything for months. #but also thank god cause i figured out how to do faces better between then and now so!!! #GET A LOAD OF THIS GUY #(me—worrying at my hands—IF YOU CANT EXECUTE IT AS WELL AS YOU'D LIKE IT'S JUST GONNA HAVE TO LOOK BAD) #<that one comic has saved me a lot of grief actually. anyway i tried my best. lexaeus enjoyers i offer u this #*blows kiss #skysplitter...... absolute pain in the ass. not quite as bad as graceful dahlia or windstorm #but somewhere up there