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#(i wrote this in my little pocket notebook as 'big fan of mo ran's selfishness actually')
moransearthworms · 3 years
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you know another thing I really really like about Mo Ran. Is that for all the sacrifices he makes, he's not a self-sacrificing TYPE. You know the ones: it's not that they don't make sacrifices out of love, but there's also a self-loathing thing going on where they'll be relieved to find something good to martyr themselves for. I love those characters too! But Mo Ran, even though he DOES sacrifice quite a bit (and gets to go all the way with it multiple times because magic, yay meatbun...), and DOES have quite a bit of self-loathing for a lot of the story, he's still not that character. Even as 0.5, every moment in misery, he was convinced there was something worthwhile to living that was just out of reach, and maybe if he fought hard enough he could have it. And his downfall as 2.0 is so heartrending and painfully slow because, deserving or not, he's snatching every last moment in the sun he can get. He clings so tenaciously because he knows that life can be truly good and joyful. (Remember he told Chu Wanning at the end-- he should stay alive, because to live is beautiful?). Self-preservation is actually pretty high on his list of priorities: he's in love with being alive. It's just that there's something else he loves even more.
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