#(i dont think that btw its just for the sake of the analogy)

[puropoly]

WELL in my desperation I checked the entire mello/near tag in ao3 and since @tefuna politely asked I decided to do a list of fic recs, because I stumbled upon many that I dont want to forget. All under the cut, to keep things clean and nice 

sfw

Beyond the heart's fallacy by galaxycm - is a great character study for mello, the one I always knew I needed and the author DELIVERED. It reflects and explains mello’s feelings in a clear and understandable manner, I found myself nodding while I was reading it. 

Waiting by sobrecogimiento - my absolute favourite. A masterpiece, the characterization is excellent, the dialogues interesting, the pacing brilliantly executed. Its intriguing, deep, funny and charming all at the same time and love how the flashbacks interlocate in the narrative. It does not fear to be ruthless and doesn’t waste much time sugarcoating things, which is exactly the way I enjoy these things. Ugh i just love it so much I LAUGHED LOUD at the equations part. 10000/10 (btw i know its tagged as mature but there wasn’t anything explicit in it so i thought it was ok to list as sfw)

Body language by SayHiDestery- Usually I don’t read fluff, but this one? nice. Super nice, it’s calm and warm and the characterization is good. Fluffyness between these two is rather difficult to manage but the author did a good job

Darkness by occludes - I love the melancholic tone in this one, and as someone who has nightmares often, this one strikes a cord

In Difference by tierfal - incredible near study, I love how the author describes the way he experiences the world through the analogy of hunger. fantastic wrtting

One Thousand Paper Cranes by  TangentQueenOfDragons - near's descent into madness takes the shape of origami and it killed me and my whole family (really sad but beautiful)

mature/nsfw

Proximity tells  by madamerosencrantz. Another masterpiece, the writing is so smart in this one and the dialogue between mello and near comes so natural and at the same time so difficult to follow, but not because of a deficit in writting but the opposite: the characterization is so on point it follows the characters's core complexity and mixed feelings. I loved it. 

How to shoot someone who outdrew you by ellief - A FAVE. near counterattacking is something i needed so much.

Sidetracked by tierfal - I LAUGHED. Also the way this author writes mello???? GOOD. We need more funny fics

not mxn

Nights by youremyqueen - a masterpiece very well known by the fandom but since I’m a baby death note it was all new for me. This fic made beyond birthday my third fave after mello and honestly it just gets better and better every chapter. There's lawlight being an intriguing and ongoing disaster, kira shenanigans, paranormal activity and a lot of exploration of the shinigami world, all stories going around simultaneously. AND beyond birthday being himself. The quality of the writing and pacing is phenomenal, BUT be wary of darker themes (just be sure to read the tags). It’s probably the best fic I’ve ever read and I could say many things about it but for the sake of order and sanity I’ll keep it short and sweet.

I also really really love this short fic about Light and his dad  - I think Soichiro is an interesting character with a very unfortunate role that’s worth of exploration and that’s what this piece does!

That’s all I got for now, but this list is in no way done, there’s so much content for me to explore and cry about so I may edit this in the future. Anyone is invited to rec me fics too, if you wanted :^)

#death note #fics #otepe #meronia #i for some reason #skipped through a lot without noticing them? so im not really done checking the tag #which is great because i plan to star in this hell hole of a ship for longer :^)