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#(even though they didn't actually DO ANYTHING bc she wouldn't come out of her crate)
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I just need to rant a little bit on here so I'm not annoying my family.
I am really upset right now. We were at my cousin's graduation party this afternoon. My mom and brother went home around supper time to feed the dog and so my mom could rest a little bit. Then my brother ran my mom back to the party and he went back home. I get a call from him a few minutes after he dropped my mom off. Apparently they left our dog out of his crate for the few minutes my brother was gone hoping we could trust him. During those 5-10 minutes the little shit found his way upstairs, wiggled around the laundry basket and under the robe I had blocking my door (from the last time he got into my room unsupervised), and fucking tore up a really nice pair of my underwear. They weren't even sitting out or anything- they were in the same dirty laundry bin I always keep them in, just hanging over the edge so I knew to soak them when I washed them. He is over six years old and I have never had a problem with him getting into my underwear like this, not until about a few weeks ago when he did the same thing and destroyed a different 2.5 pairs of my dirty underwear, which is why he hasn't been allowed in my room in the first place.
So I was already fucking pissed off after getting that call. At the same time, I had taken a couple different cupcakes at my cousin's party that I wasn't hungry enough to eat yet, but wanted to make sure I got one of that flavor before they were gone. I had one left, and my aunt kept coming up to me and acting like she was going to lick it just to annoy me. There had been more of that flavor at first, so I was just like fine I'll go get another one if you lick it. But right after the call from my brother, which already had me fuming, she actually went and took a giant bite out of the frosting. I was upset so I nearly tried shoving the rest of the cupcake in her face. When that didn't go through, I just slammed the cupcake down on my plate frosting first and refused to eat it. I was going to go get another one, but when I got to the table that flavor was all gone. So of course now I'm really upset. But I didn't keep talking or complaining about it. I didn't let it go bc I was still angry about the underwear and the cupcake, but I was willing to act civilly and talk about other things and just be internally angry and go rant about it at home to my brother later.
Everyone else kept bringing it up though trying to get a reaction out of me and just poking the already angry bear. And I'm the one being told to just let it go and that I need to apologize and react better, like I was the one doing something wrong. I literally wasn't even talking about it. They were the ones who kept bugging me about it, but I'm supposed to just be okay with that. I was already mad at my dog, not to mention hormonal bc I'm on my fucking period, and they were the ones purposely bothering me.
At one point my aunt brought over some of the gluten free cupcakes for my mom and said I could have one of those. I didn't really want one of them, but I took one anyway. My aunt said she wouldn't lick that one bc she didn't like the peanut better and jelly flavor. I had left it sitting on the table in front of me bc I wasn't hungry for it yet. I left to either go to the bathroom or get a drink and I came back to see that someone had stuck two fucking burnt pretzels into the cupcake (bc the last one my aunt ruined had a pretzel on the top). I picked the pretzels out and threw them on the table, but ultimately brought the cupcake home even though I'm not sure if I'll eat it yet.
But the long story short of this rant is I am just so fucking sick of being told I'm the problem for people purposely trying to piss me off. I know I have a short temper and it's really easy to push my buttons. That is something I could probably work on. But how is it my fault, or even fair to me, when other people are doing these things to me solely to make me mad so they can get a laugh out of it? And I'm just told to let it go or don't let it bother me so much bc then they wouldn't keep doing it.
One, I'm allowed to fucking be angry and react when people do things to trigger my anger. I'm going to feel the way I feel. Two, I don't understand how I'm supposed to react any better when I literally act civilly and don't talk about it and keep a cool head externally, but they just keep trying to make me mad anyway. Like what I am supposed to do? It's just so fucking frustrating, especially bc it's family. UGH 😤
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violetclarity · 3 years
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