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#(and those opinions are overwhelming positive tbh but i do have like. a lot of analysis happening in my brain to back myself up)
campwillowpeak · 2 years
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Dante NSFW alphabet? 👀
Ask and you shall recieve~
A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex) He would pull you onto his chest and lightly stroke your back until you both fell asleep, telling you how much he loves you and appreciates everything you’ve done for him <3
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s) Ass, Legs, Eyes, and the back of your neck, he likes to nibble it~
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically) Thick and heavy, it tastes a little strong but isn’t overwhelming or anything.
D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs) He has a thing for being sent naughty pics while at work, the thought of being riled up when he can’t do anything about it, then taking it all out on you when he gets home really drives him wild~
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?) He was married and had a kid, so he definitely has experience, even if he did have her when he was really young
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying) Any position where he can bury his face into your neck.
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.) He can be goofy if the mood is right, a little on the playful side too
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.) He shaves, but he won’t mind letting it grow out a bit if you want, If he does he’ll get a pretty prominent happy trail
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect) He’s very intimate in bed, he wants to completely take you in and surround you, so it feels like you two are the only ones in the world <3
On dates he’s very romantic, kissing your hand and keeping you close, near constant physical contact, he wants you to know he’s there for you and you alone~
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon) Like once a day if he has time
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks) Nibbling, Handcuffs, Lingerie, Oral, Gags and Blindfolds, Breeding, Hair pulling, a good few others as well
L = Location (favorite places to do the do) Preferably the bedroom, close runner up is in the shower
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going) Wearing revealing clothes, intimate physical contact, sweet talk
N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs) Age play, gross out stuff, noncon, stuff like that
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.) He loves to give and receive, though he’s not very sure of his abilities tbh, his wife leaving him kinda took a blow to his confidence in bed
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.) He likes going slow and sensual, keeping is sweet and loving.. Though if you tease him enough he can definitely get on the rougher side
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.) Not a huge fan but he sees the appeal.. makes things easier to get to work on time
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.) He’s open to some risk, but he’d prefer to take that kinda stuff slow
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?) He can go for about 2-3 rounds before needing a break
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?) Not really, though he’d be open to getting some... You’d just probably have to help pick them out
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease) He likes teasing, but he loves to be teased more
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.) Lots of grunts and moans, not too much talking, just some here and there
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character) He much prefers being the dominant one in bed, though he’s usually sweet about it.. It would take him some convincing to sub.
X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes) 7.5 inches and girthy
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?) Pretty average tbh, though working him up is pretty easy.
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards) He’d last probably a good 15-20 minutes if he’s comfy
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daydreamreality · 1 year
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Gilmore Girls Season 1 Thoughts
The ending scene and needle drop gave me chills, what a lovely note to end on. Even though I’m not personally excited about what the girls are, it’s so nice to see them in unbridled enthusiasm together. I just love them so much. 
In the past, I’ve viewed this season as kind of blah, just waiting through it to get to the juicier stories and more interesting romantic interests. This isn’t completely untrue now, but it doesn’t feel as boring to me in this rewatch. It’ll probably move up in my season ranking. This has mostly to do with how well the show sets up the familial conflict of the Gilmores, and at this point in my life that’s the most interesting part of the show to me (all of the family dynamics). Maybe I’ve also become [slightly] less cynical as well, and Stars Hollow doesn’t feel as much of a hellscape as it did before. Starting the rewatch in dreary fall and enjoying the warmth, fun and comfort and wanting to look at this show with positivity instead of getting frustrated with it (which tbh is part of the fun for me) probably helps as well. Under the cut is some evolving opinions from many years of watching this show.
The Gilmores: Not much has changed. My admiration for Kelly Bishop continues to grow. I’ve got this idea floating around in my head that the core of Emily and Lorelai’s relationship and why I don’t see much hope in it ever improving is that they both have each other’s number and neither party is comfortable with that.
Tristan: He’s awful and I will always feel that way, but I actually enjoyed having him around this time for Rory’s characterization. Also, in future seasons Chilton gets a lot more screen time and those stories are generally not as interesting; I think this season balanced it well.
At first, she’s overwhelmed by his bullying and doesn’t know how to react but once she’s had enough…oh boy. Watching her verbally dress him down and not let him get away with his attempts to break her will and “just go out with meeeee whine” is so satisfying. She doesn’t let him push her around or try to “out-logic” her; he’s not as skilled at this misdirection as Logan, probably due to age on his part and she’s a lot more grounded and less perpetually stressed out like when she’s at Yale. And yet, she attempts to be his friend and is empathetic towards him. She cares about being truthful and not hurting his feelings about the kiss. (“I think someone is recovering from their heartbreak just fine.” This right here is what I’m saying about ABs acting skill! Perfect tone.) But even despite her empathy, she doesn’t let his mistreatment make her forget her boundaries. This is the Rory I know and love and who she is at the core. Strong. Understanding. Empathic. Sees the best in people. But knows what’s best for her.
Dean: As a teenager: “yawn, I guess the lead has to have a romantic interest, whatever.”
Last rewatch: seeing and getting angry about his toxicity, probably a bit too early if I’m being honest. The early scenes, not my thing but I don’t need to pick apart every little thing. Now I’ve got a concise way to express what I don’t like about the relationship, put into words after hearing Rory’s outburst at the town meeting: he doesn’t let Rory talk.
Because sometimes you have something you need to say but you can't because the words won't come out or you get scared or you feel stupid, so if you could write a song and sing it then you could say what you need to say…and people would listen…
The “I love you” scene in the car has been discussed ad nauseam but the fact he wouldn’t give her any space to explain herself is what angers me the most. I get that he’s a teenager and it hurts to feel like you’re more into the relationship than the other party, but if he let her talk and listened I could forgive a little easier the impromptu breakup or it could have gone better. But I don’t know, I don’t think he was emotionally mature enough to understand how her upbringing could make her tentative about saying “I love you.” She wanted to be certain in her feelings and knew it meant a lot, and with her voracious reading habit, probably has an idea of what love may feel like and needed time to assess. Him mocking her for that pisses me off. My criticism of him is similar to how I feel about Max: both of these guys don’t know their respective Gilmore girl and have made them into shiny objects to admire but not treat as full human beings. Maybe a bit harsh, but I’m dramatic.
I have no tolerance for angry jealousy which affects how I see this character. If Dean was played in a way that showed more confusion, sadness, or vulnerability, I could have more compassion for the character. But his hair-trigger anger, I just can’t with it.
Max: Alright, this guy is where most of my opinions have changed. Before it was just “yawn, okay whatever, of course she’s going to date other people before Luke.” Now? I do not trust this guy to make good relational decisions. This is my in-the-moment reaction, but it basically sums it up. Good chemistry does not necessarily lead to a real connection. That’s really all this relationship was - an attraction - which is fine if it didn’t involve Rory so heavily, especially since I don’t think Lorelai was seriously considering lifelong commitment to him - maybe as a fantasy, a “what if?”, but not for real. Neither of them really knew the other. Lorelai at this point in her life should have some fun and get back in the dating game to figure out what she’s looking for in a relationship if that’s what she wants, but at the expense of her daughter’s boundaries especially at a new school where she’s having a tough time…it’s rough.
It’s hard for me to be mad at Lorelai. 1) I love her. Just to get that out of the way. 2) The way she gets into this relationship and talks about Max highlights her optimistic outlook, desire to explore and wanting something better for herself - I don’t know if he is the one, but he could be. These are good traits but unfortunately, she’s blinded by them. 3) She was thinking about how this would affect Rory! I hated the moment where Max proposes that, like he’s got this amazing idea he totally came up with himself, they should take a break to figure things out when she was the one advocating for that from the beginning?? 
The scene where Max talks to Rory about Dean at school was so uncomfortable and inappropriate. I don’t necessarily get controlling vibes from Max or that he was trying to worm his way into their lives, but he was so out of line here. Him and Lorelai hadn’t seriously discussed expectations and boundaries in their relationship (which honestly, when does anyone in this show). And then he thought it would be a good idea to get married?? Giant flaming wtf.
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crazywolf828 · 2 years
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https://twitter.com/yangsabs/status/1544052004787572739?t=FIH3I0tFs1zfy3lkWieDCQ&s=19
Mm... I think this is about you
Oh it absolutely is. First off, don't go bash them, people are entitled to their opinions and I'm used to dealing with these thing since I started writing abo. But yeah, I 100% mentioned I might be writing a transmasc yang fic and that their art had inspired me, cause it's real good and I love it! Clearly they were not a fan of me saying that😅
But I just want to say this, like I know a lot of people followed me for my abo fics, but there also may be someone who sends this post to that person so I just want to get this out of the way.
Most of my audience is trans, or have some other funky gender (y'know like me being born a girl but wishing I had a dick so I got the packer), I've received overwhelming support and I've asked a few people why/what they think and the most common thing is it's how they wish they could be.
Stories are fantasy, a transfem person who doesn't want bottom surgery might see themselves in the fic, have something to relate to. Tbh it's usually why I write it that way because I wish I had been born different too. Another example, my sister (who is trans and reads abo btw) is living with her friend who is also trans and just had a baby. He wanted to have a kid, that was something he actively tried while being trans. And like, I know the term "mpreg" is real fucking shit, I hate using it too, but maybe a transmasc character will see themselves in one of those types of fics.
The biggest thing I see against omegaverse is that it isn't reality. People should know that isn't how life works and that you can't just project. I once asked how they feel about perhaps a transmasc character getting a prosthetic penis but, since this is fiction it would have some magic bull that makes it attach to them and function like a real one would. They shot it down, saying it wasn't realistic, writing should stick to packers or realistic looking straps.
The other is that lot of it is kink related, it's become extremely over sexualized, a lot of the terms have been twisted and become outdated, I still see futa, gp, and mpreg used a lot (which isn't necessarily just abo but still). People will see it as sexualizing trans people as a fetish, which I get, but a lot of trans people see it as an escape. Fifteen minutes they can spend in their ideal self.
No one has the same experience with gender (just in general, figuring I could pack while still identifying as a female was a rollercoaster) so no one is ever going to agree, there will always be an out man.
Also, like, hate to tell y'all but omegaverse is deeply rooted in a positive light with the trans community (then supernatural happened) and has made thousands of people realize that they wanted to be trans. Like there's legit articles on it.
Anyway this got long. I'm not trans, I'm just sharing info that other trans people have told me. I'm always down to hear more stories, to learn, it's the only way we grow. But if my fics make people feel more comfortable in their bodies? Why would I stop? I get that you should face reality, you have to do that for the majority of your day. Take a few minutes and lose yourself in a fantasy.
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hanjo-love · 3 years
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Hai! How you doing lately? Fellow Hange-stan here. I want to know what you think of the writing on Hange’s character arc post time-skip. [P.S. hopefully it’s alright with you if we can continue to discuss about it after you answer if you decide to, that is]. :))
Hello lovely anonie ❤️ I'm so sorry for the late reply, but life has been quite a rollercoaster lately haha
Well tbh, I know this sounds pathetic af after almost two weeks have already passed, but I'm still trying to cope with the last chapter and the ending overall. I'm in the process of gathering my thoughts, deciding if I like it or not. And lemme tell you, it's quite exhausting haha
Every Hange-stan is very much appreciated and welcome here ❤️ looking forward to be exchanging my thoughts with you, ngl it's weird but it also makes me happy that someone's interested in my opinion haha ❤️
Okay so let's start talking but Hanjo ❤️ but beware, a long ass wannabe meta is ahead of y'all haha
Honestly, another thing I've had troubles with accepting and making my mind around was the fact that I didn't like how Yams treated Hanjo in the story overall and mostly past TS. I gotta tag lovely Sav @tundrainafrica cause she described it perfectly in one of her amazing metas and I'm constantly thinking about that so I'm gonna try quoting her now haha :"If the characters are Yams' children, we gotta accept the fact that Hange has always been his least favorite child. But the more Yams ignored her, the more we loved her. In fact, Hange was never a character who even needed a lot of panels or pushing and forcing for us to like her. Hange didn't even need Yams! She was always navigating the narrative by herself and that's why we love her." (Sorry Sav for not quoting you properly 😅❤️)
So what I'm trying to say is: did Yams purposly ignore Hanjo throughout the story? Unfortunately YES. Has this affected her character? Not at all. But it did affect the readers'/viewers' opinion about her, for sure.
It honestly makes me really sad when people hate on Hange and reduce her character to a "bad commander". Like guys... Are we reading the same manga? You don't need to be a Hange stan to realize how much Yams rushed and skipped everything past Marley arc. We know shit about what happened in those 4 years of TS. Just because Yams didn't show us anything, doesn't mean nothing happened in those 4 years. I'm not gonna start talking about how her job as a commander was very, VERY different than Erwin's, but there was something that caught my attention after watching the anime:
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I never believed Yams when he tried to show us how Hange was a "bad commander" for not having a plan B to all the mess that was going on. No matter how much Yams tried to prove it (mainly because he wanted us to notice her insecurities and her being overwhelmed by this position and Erwin's legacy), I never bought it. Because we know Hanjo ffs! We know how smart and quick-witted she is and how she is the perfect candidate to take over Erwin's legacy of being the SC's Danchou.
The anime reassured my thoughts, cause if I remember it properly, in that scene we heard Hange's thoughts and at the end of her monologue she said "but what if..." before Eren threw a tantrum again lol
The next scene only added fuel to my fire, cause we've all been speculating about this and the last two chapters actually proved it:
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We've been speculating about why Eren was getting his titans marks in this particular scene (dude, Yams made us look like clowns with our theories lmao which btw have less plot holes than the entire last arc of the manga, just saying). Moreover we've seen Eren getting his titan marks again while manipulating his friends' memories in ch138&139. So my conclusion is, Hange DID indeed have a plan B, but Eren decided to wipe that option out of her head in order to achieve his goals. Otherwise this particular scene makes no sense at all, but it was important enough to keep it in the anime.
In conclusion: I did absolutely NOT like how Yams handled Hange's character post TS. She didn't get enough "screen time" and whenever she got some panels, she was mainly shown as an insecure and overwhelmed commander (obviously not in all of her panels, thank God), which she absolutely was NOT. I also felt like most of the times she seemed to be (for Yams at least) just a placeholder between Erwin and Armin. And here comes my biased and petty ass: Hanjo was Yams' best written character. Period. She had so much depth and and potential, but Yams dropped her like a hot potato because he was overwhelmed by her and not able to deal with her character. That's it. That's the harsh truth y'all.
Anywayzzz, that's it for today's Ted talk lol thanks for the ask dear anonie. Have a lovely day ❤️
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trash-writings · 3 years
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Kinktober Week 2: Sub!Hisoka and Fem reader
Kinks: wax play, ice play, bondage, degradation, choking, edging
Warnings: Degradation, everything above, and tbh this might be considered torture at some point lol.
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Your hand slowly travels down Hisoka’s neck to the center of his shoulder blades. You walk forward and the tips of your fingers graze his skin lightly, causing small goosebumps to develop on him. You smile as you catch his golden eyes in your sight. Hisoka stares at the fishnetted tights you have on. The way they fade into leather boots drives him mad. Your thighs look delectable in the skirt he picked out a few weeks ago; tight, but not too short.
Noticing Hisoka staring at your thighs you pull the skirt up slightly, teasing him. It’s not hard to read Hisoka, while many others believe it is. He’s not complicated. He is very straightforward in his desires. That's how you ended up here now. Months of asking you to take some control has finally paid off. It’s not easy, and even now you feel you’re going to topple over in these heeled boots, but the attention Hisoka is giving you is too good to give up. You need this.
Humming quietly you walk across your bedroom to grab a pair of handcuffs after seeing Hisoka’s fingers twitch from their position on his knees. While his obedience is pretty sufficient for now, you can tell he’s itching to get his hands on you. Hisoka continues to let his eyes explore your body, now focusing on your back since it’s turned to him. The straps of your bra are slightly twisted, making him want to jump at you and snap them against your skin, but he won’t. He wants you to have this moment. However, he’s grateful you decided on just a black bra and no shirt to torment him.  
Golden eyes watch you as you pull out his favorite drawer, the one he loves to torment you with. He brought you all the toys as gifts, and he knows that you never use them without his permission, but tonight… tonight is different. He wants this badly, probably more than you even do, at least he believes so. Your eyes catch sight of the tart burner on your dresser, you flip it on wondering how long it will take to melt the red apple tart sitting atop.
“What are you doing, kitten?” His voice is sweet like cotton candy, however, it’s not going to work tonight. You grab the cuffs, the cold metal chilling your nervous palms. You ignore him and turn around slowly after shutting the drawer. You lean back against it looking at your friend with lustful eyes. He truly does look delicious sitting on his knees like he always asks you to wait for him. Who knew you’d enjoy being on the giving end already? Definitely not you. With each passing second, you take in the sweet satisfaction of being able to decide your and his pleasure for the evening.
“Hisoka, I didn’t give you permission to speak.” Your voice is stern, and you immediately feel your confidence growing knowing you’re finally in control. Finally, everything you say goes. A smile creeps on your lips as you walk towards Hisoka. You dangle the cuffs in front of his face. He looks at them for a moment before looking up at your passive face. You won’t give him the pleasure of how much you’re enjoying this just yet.
“Kitten, please talk to me... “ a swift slap to the face makes him hush. The stinging on your hand instead of your face burns pleasantly in a new intense way. The gratification you normally feel from burning cheeks is different… this is very new.
“Next time,” You bend at the knees, getting to his level, “it won’t be so soft. Got it?”
“Wh-” you slap him harder. He smiles, suddenly making you feel irritated for his obvious enjoyment. Again, this time he’s shocked. He actually feels the sting this time since this cheek has now been slapped twice. It’s been a long time since he’s had someone actually handle him this way. While fighting is fun for him, there’s nothing quite like this.
“Stop smiling, sicko.” You spit the words at him the way he does you for enjoying punishments. His smile disappears. His face is intense, serious, and maybe even a bit dark.
“Is sicko all you’ve got, kitten?” He’s not smiling, but he might at well be. He feels intensely proud of you at the moment, despite wanting to rip you to shreds and make you apologize for daring to lay a hand on him. He loves it. The way your face contours into irritation, your eyebrows furrowed, your eyes staring deep into him with lust and maybe even some disgust. It’s driving him insane.
Ignoring him you stand back up. He looks up at you wanting you to slap him again, but he won’t tell you that. He wants to see you grow into this. Those few small attempts at shutting him up weren’t the best, in his opinion, but it’s something. Something to work with. Something to nurture.
“Hands: in front of you now,” you tell him. He listens and holds his wrists out for you. You put the cuffs on him the way you remember him doing it to you when you have misbehaved.
“Very good,” he coos, pulling at them lightly. You let this one slide. You needed the reassurance that you did it right. The confirmation will only help you grow, he knows this and he knows it’s why you haven’t slapped him for speaking out of turn. However, he aches for more. Hopefully, he thinks, you will hit him some more.
“Will you stay still if I go outside of the room for a moment? I promise I’ll reward you.” You watch as the gears turn on his head. Hisoka wants to stay still, but he’s itching to jump you and it’s making his head spin. However, the anticipation is feeling something deep inside him that he wants to continue feeding. He nods.
You exit the room, walking quickly towards your freezer. Opening the door to the freezer your eyes search for the ice tray. Finding it you quickly grab two cubes, hurrying back to your bedroom with them in hand. The ice already starts melting with the short walk back to the room. Hisoka hasn’t moved to your surprise. He’s stayed perfectly still.
His eyes gaze at you, not noticing the ice cubes. Good, you think as you quickly move behind him. With his hands in front of him, cuffed, he can’t stop you from what you do next. You lightly run the ice cube down his exposed neck. His body reacts quickly, jerking forward away from the cold. You press it harder against his skin and he lets out a lewd noise from deep within his throat; it’s music to your ears.
“Aw, is it too cold?” You whisper close to his ear, making sure to push the ice into his skin. He shakes his head no, pleasing you. He’s not speaking without permission finally. Hisoka’s attention is focused on the ice pressed against his neck. His golden eyes desperately search for your face, unable to make contact without turning his head. He stops trying after another piece of ice is pressed against his left shoulder.
“Hisoka, I want you to be a good boy for me okay?” He nods slowly. His compliance is almost strange. “I’m going to set the ice on your shoulders, you have to stay very still for me.” He nods again. You steady the ice cubes in the small divot of his shoulders. You notice his body heat is already starting to make it pool and you need to be fast. You hurry over to the dresser, seeing the red wax has completely melted in the tart burner.
You slip on one of your soft gloves for winter so you can safely touch the hot clay that holds the wax. The warmth seeps through the glove but is manageable. As you turn around you catch Hisoka’s glance. He stares at the pot of melted wax with curious eyes, is this even body safe? Does it really matter to him, he wonders? It doesn’t matter, he ponders, but with the ice starting to burn his skin with the freezing sensation.
Hisoka is so focused on keeping the ice from dropping off his shoulders he doesn’t notice when you start to tilt the clay container, letting the red wax start to pour down onto his back. The uncomfortable heat hits him in an instant, making him jerk forward and the ice falls onto the floor. You stop the stream of wax, watching as the small amount runs down the muscles on his back. The wax cools pretty fast, to your surprise, leaving pretty red trails among his muscles. The red wax looks beautiful on his pale skin.
“Fuck,” he hisses from below you. The unexpected mix of hot and cold has overwhelmed his senses, something he never expected to happen to him. Where, he thinks, did she learn this? He’s certainly never gone as far as to pour wax on you. Not only is he excited, he’s proud. This strange mix only adds to his delight to be submitting to you. You’re growing at an impressive rate.
“Pick up the ice,” you command, “Now.” You slowly come to the front of Hisoka again. His cheeks are flushed and you can tell that he’s become erect. Looking at the tenting in his underwear makes you want to drop down to your knees and beg him to be gentle with you after this spout of confidence. He reaches forward and picks up the ice cubes by your feet.
“Good,” he smiles with your small amount of praise. “Now, I want you to listen very carefully.” He nods. “Raise your hands to the center of your chest, then slowly run the ice cubes down your pecs. Very slowly, making sure the ice completely cools your skin.”
Hisoka listens carefully then follows your orders. It’s cold, for sure, but nothing he can’t handle. However, it is clear to him that you’re not doing this just to hope he gets some ice burns. No, you want something more; but he can’t place exactly what. His cock twitches at the thoughts of you making him keep ice on him until he can’t handle it any longer. You’re not that cruel, are you? He doesn’t think so… at least, not yet. He knows you have a lot to learn, he’s barely had any time with you to explore anything riskier. But, he knows you’re a fast learner. Look at you, he thinks, standing there confidently as your eyes follow his fingertips spreading ice across himself. The intensity in your eyes, the small smirk upon your lips, and the pot of wax in hand is a sight to behold. He could cum now if he tried, he’s so proud and aroused by you.
As he traces the ice back again, following the pattern in reverse, you kneel down again to be eye level with him. Hisoka smirks, obviously ogling your breasts. Irritation creeps through you making your skin crawl. You didn’t give him permission to stare at your chest. Reaching out you bring the pot of wax dangerously close to touching his skin. His eyes instantly advert to your actions. The wax pours delicately out onto his chilled skin. As it makes contact Hisoka lets out a loud feral laugh to mask his pain.
“Stay still!” You hiss grabbing his cuffs and yanking him back closer to you. You increase the drizzle, making more splash across his skin in a semi-straight red line across his chest. It splatters some, leaving pretty red dots on his skin where the wax wasn’t meant to go.
“You fucking-” you slap him before he can finish the sentence.
“Shut up, I know you’ve had worse done to you.” You can’t help but laugh at him as he bites back his tongue. His hands form fists, obviously wanting to regain control again. You stand up and take the pot back to the burner. You’ve had enough of playing with him. Watching him cry out has turned you on more than before. The wetness pooling between your thighs is overwhelming, and you want to get off sooner rather than later.
Hisoka watches you place the pot down and take the glove off. He can’t lie, he is pissed you reacted so quickly to him. The slap felt amazing, but the wax wasn’t meant for pleasure, and he knows it. Even when he deals out rough punishments, he never does it from anger or irritation, you need to learn that. You have so much to learn, he has so much to teach you, and he plans to make sure you never react like that again. But, not now, later when the time's right. He has to evaluate you now. He can’t forget that. For now, he will sit back and enjoy the fruits of his labor.
Your heels are louder than anything in the room as you walk back towards him. You can’t help but feel a tad ridiculous, but looking at Hisoka you know that you’re not. You’re everything he wants and needs right now. You stop in front of him; his mouth level with your waist. His fingers are fidgeting, and he looks impatient. He must not like this as much as he thought he would, or something else is going on. Either way, it’s fine. You just need him to touch you.
“Hands up, please.” He listens and you take off the cuffs. “You can only touch me when I tell you, okay? Or I’ll lock you to the bed and leave you here for three days.” His eyebrows perk up, but you know you’re mostly joking. He can probably break out of these cuffs in an instant. “Tell me what you want,” you ask.
He tilts his head and smiles before speaking. “I want to taste you,” he tells you. “So fucking bad.”
Motioning to your skirt you talk slowly, “take it off then. I’m waiting.” With his hands now free he reaches up quickly and rips the skirt. The tearing of the fabric is loud, surprisingly, and you feel exposed suddenly in front of him. Before you can tell him to, he shoves his face between your folds. His tongue explores your body so smoothly, finding your clit with no hesitation.
Biting your bottom lip you hold back a moan. Your hand goes to Hisoka’s head, locking your fingers between your fingers in case you want to pull him off of you. Instead, you end up pulling him more into you. His tongue never disappoints you. He always makes you come undone before anything even enters you. Closing your eyes you let out another loud moan as Hisoka sucks at your clit. The familiar burn in your lower stomach signaling your orgasm approaching.
“Use your fingers,” you command. He takes his time, his hand trailing up your fishnet covered thighs before he slowly inserts two fingers into your needy cunt. You clench around his fingers, glad to finally be filled.
“Fuck, good boy, like that” you groan as he pumps his fingers into you at a rather fast pace. He’s as desperate for your orgasm as you are. He hums with pleasure against your cunt, making you let out a loud gasp. Your breathing is already picking up, your chest rising and falling more and more as you get close… so close you can taste it. Just a little more… right there… here it-... Hisoka pulls back from your grip, ripping some of his hair out from your fingers. You let out a loud groan and look at Hisoka, who is now smiling.
“You arrogant whore,” the words leave your mouth before you can think about them. The joy on his face is clear, him acting good for you was clearly too good to last long. “Why are you smiling like that? Hmmm?”
Hisoka opens his mouth to speak, but you shove him down onto the floor with your foot. The black leather boot stays against his chest as he lays back against the hardwood floor. Hisoka is shocked you went as far as to push him down, let alone hold him down with your boot. He loves it.
“Oh, you thought I wanted you to speak? Sorry, whores don’t get to talk to me.” Now your words are flowing like an uninterrupted stream. “How dare you deny me… Do you think I’m going to let you cum now? If you do, you must be absolutely stupid. I don’t expect much from a whore like you, but this is low.”
As you continue speaking Hisoka keeps his focus on your lips. Your degradation is music to his ears, something he wants more of. Denying you your orgasm was the right move in his mind. “You look so pleased with yourself,” you bend down, keeping your boot firmly on his chest. The heel biting at his skin. You hope it hurts. “Too bad I won’t give you what you want. I know you’re just a desperate brat who wants me to hurt you.” He frowns. So you were right… he wants you to hit him more. Maybe even spank him. However, you won’t give him that pleasure. All care for his desire is gone, your focus solely on yourself.
Hisoka watches you closely, seeing the gears turn in your head. He wonders what you’ll do next; hoping you make the right move. It would be easy to hit him some more, in fact, he would even take the route. He knows how much you prefer overstimulation or edging to being spanked, so he always goes for what will make you learn. Spanking teaches you a lesson. Edging does not. He’s left curious about which route you’ll take.
“What are you going to do, doll?” Hisoka purrs.
“Raise your hands up,” you command and he listens. His arms rise above his head and near the base of the bed. “If you move I swear I won’t let you cum for seven hours. I’ll stay right here, touching you until you’re about to burst… then I’ll stop. Over and over and over again,” you warn him.
At this point, Hisoka’s smile will permanently be ingrained onto his face. You bend down, meanwhile, Hisoka groans as your boot and heel digs into his chest more. You quickly cuff his left wrist and bring it up to the leg of the bed. He stays still as you lift his right arm up closer and you can successfully lock his wrists to the bed.
“That’s better” you pat his cheek twice and blow a kiss to him for dramatic effect. His brow furrows, but you can’t tell if it's from irritation or because you’ve slipped your hand into his underwear. “Oh do you like that?” You remove your foot from his chest as you release your hand from his underwear. He lets out a pitiful whimper.
Crawling down between Hisoka’s legs, you pull his underwear down around his knees. Firmly grasping the base of his stiff cock you give it a few stokes. Watching as Hisoka’s golden eyes roll back into his head. You straddle him, positioning yourself right above the tip of his throbbing head; swearing you can feel the heat radiating off of it and onto your slick lips, so you push your thong to the side. After exposing yourself you bite down on your bottom lip to keep from moaning as you part your lips and slip down onto his cock.
Giving yourself seconds to adjust you finally start bouncing yourself on him. His eyes focus on you, specifically your tits as they bounce with you. He lets out a loud guttural groan as you pick up your pace. You feel your lost orgasm fast approaching. Your eyes are already blurry with bliss as you ride him. You steady yourself more onto your hands on his chest, your knees slipping slightly into a more comfortable position to angle his cock deeper inside of you.
“Fuck, yes more…” You groan after he snaps his hips up into you. You feel as if his cockhead is hitting the bottom of your cervix. Your vision blurs and you start grinding on him harder, until your breaking point reaches. You cum around his cock, your walls clenching onto him. Warmth reaches your toes and they curl in your boots. The denial of your previous orgasm only intensified this one, making you crave more of him; but not now. Now, you want to punish him more since you could have had two by now. So, you pull yourself off of him; earning a loud defeated groan from Hisoka.
“Sorry to disappoint you, but remember you’ve been a bad boy… Bad boy’s don’t get to cum, Hisoka.” The grin forming on your lips looks sinister to Hisoka, and he suddenly regrets letting you put him into this situation. However, just knowing he can break free isn’t enough to kill his arousal.
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“Please, I’m begging! Please let me cum!” Hisoka’s loud begging fills your ears like a light sonnet on a summer evening from some Shakespeare play you can’t quite place. His eyes are finally glassy. What is it, the thirteenth or fourteenth time you’ve edged him until he screamed? It could be more. You stopped counting after five so this is just a guess. IT’s getting dark out you notice as you look over your shoulder to the window.
“Stop whining, you’re not even crying yet…”
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Tears are streaming down Hisoka’s face now. He’s stopped begging but instead resorted to noises that resemble a cat in heat mixed with a cockfight. Maybe he’s had enough, you think, maybe he should be allowed to cum now. Hisoka’s eyes are on you, he’s pissed. He knows you’re just fucking with him now. No one could enjoy this much edging, not even him. He’s had enough. A loud snap stops you from touching him again. You look up to see Hisoka has torn the cuffs apart at the chain. How the fuck did he do it so quickly?
“Now little one,” his eyes gleam with malice,”it’s time you learn how to really punish someone. No more of your twisted sadistic bullshit…” Before you can back away he’s pinned you under him; his hand around your throat. His eyes are no longer red and teary… instead that of a hawk whose finally caught it’s mouse.
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Hey so regarding inazuma and Baal I have some head cannons and your my favorite writer so I thought I’d just dump them all here.
Insazuma is the nation of eternity right? And Baal is basically the second archon after the original one died off somewhere presumably 500 years ago during the destruction of khaenri'ah.
The vision hunt decree was created for the Perdue of “eternity” and subsequently the people who’s visions were taken lost all their ambition. You get where I’m going here? Maybe Baal isn’t acting out of greed, but are justificing her actions to protect her people? The people of khaenri'ah had ambitions greater than anyone in that world could comprehend; they lived withought the guidance of a God, sought knowledge well beyond their limits and created destructive machines capable of “tilling” an enter battle field. Already we can see a shift in the archons perspective towards celestial- venti stated outright that he doesn’t like celestial, and Zhongli not only retired from his role as an archon but placed several meticulously planned tests to gouge his nations strength and stability in the face of a destructive god. Both nations, in a way, are becoming more similar to khaenri'ah in that they are both Godless, independent, and free from omnipotent influences.
Here’s my theory; The Goddess Baal, before inheriting the title of Archon, had witnessed the massacre and destruction of the khaenri'ah people and in order to prevent her nation from suffering the same fate she had launched the vision hunt decree to remove the people’s ambitions before it consumes them. She has witnessed the power of celestia, and in order to avoid the same fate she has made it her goal to separate Inazume from khaenri'ah in all forms and that’s why she continues on her role as archon instead of watching from the sides like venti or Zhongli.
Another thing, a small spoiler warning for those who haven’t finished the quest
I think people who are emotionless used to be the most emotional and heartfelt kind of individuals. Ayaka describes the Raiden Shogun as a cold and emotionless being, akin to a manager or something (I can’t remember her exact words) and I think that’s because Baal had been planning the decree for a long time now and had to steel her resolve knowing the impact it would have on the common folk. In her mind, what she is doing is better for the lo run and is necessary for the survival of her people.
This is just a theory, I haven’t finished the quest myself but it’s been weighing on me for quite sometime now. Anyways, I hope you have a wonderful day!
SPOILERS + be prepared for my declarations rambles.
YOU’RE SO SMART, AND YOU'VE SPURRED ON MY LOCKED AWAY THEORIES THANKS. and I thought similarly, though now that you mention it, baal behaving selfishly seems like she could be protecting her people. after all, the vision hunt decree only happened recently (I think months to a year before the traveler’s arrival in mondstadt), so something shifted dramatically between the archons and celestial for baal to do that in the first place.
me and my friends chat about theories like this all the time on discord and everything you said makes so much sense! I also thought zhongli stepping away from his role as an archon was not just his way of freeing himself, but his way of seeing how his people would fair without a god (this is legit confirmed i think); and they’ve done just fine, proving to celestia that they’re wrong in believing nations and people need a ruling governing body, like an archon. but I feel like baal is still just selfish, even if she’s doing this to protect her citizens, my gut is just telling me she could be both selfish and also be doing this to protect her people.
but about the archons; my friends and I have tied the archons to tons of real life lore and myths, and something that keeps popping up with all the archons is different types of religion and beliefs; we found out that they each represent or are similar to the seven princes of hell (and there’s something about them coming up in demonology a crap ton too, and the similarities are a bit too similar... PAIMON IS MENTIONED TOO AS A KING OF HELL IN DEMONOLOGY LORE AND THAT'S NOT VERY CUTE.... I HAVE SO MANY THEORIES FOR PAIMON YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW!). but I think the archons are like 50/50 bad and good (like they’ve done bad things willingly or not before the travelers arrival aka destruction of khaenri’ah) but celestia is the main antagonist, I’m 100% positive of that.
the hydro archon is said to know not to make an enemy of celestia/the divine, so I feel if any of the gods were to back celestia, it would be the hydro archon. but, this leads me to my first question; what in the world does celestia think about the gnosis’ being taken? I’m gonna assume they may care a little less about venti and zhongli because they’ve basically retired, but the other archons? they’re still active and actively represent celestia, so I’m curious to know what celestia would do when baal’s is taken (we know that she’s the next target, because one of the tsaritsa’s goals is to take them all). will baal be punished since she’s still an active ruling archon, or not? something is telling me she will, but who knows...
and this may sound obvious, but i think the archons represent celestia’s own ideals, although over time with the change of archons and maybe shifted opinions in celestia, said archons have changed and now their actions contradict what their title is, I think the reason behind that is because they’re the original and last reigning archons over their respective nations, but the others? they represent ideals, and some of their actions or just people interfering (harbingers talking the gnosis') have contradicted what they stand for entirely.
for example,
venti (ideal is freedom): his is so ironically obvious, but his gnosis was taken from him, against his will; there's nothing free about that. and he also retired from being an archon, and because of that went into hiding, also nothing free about that either; yet he represents freedom. you see what i'm trying to say? lol.
zhongli (ideal is contracts): nothing for him because i don't know much, but i think it's funny how he represents contracts, which are usually very tedious and there's a lot of depth in them, and he just gave his gnosis up so easily and willlingly (even if he has his reasons) by creating a contract like ???? it's funny to me.
baal (ideal is eternity): I haven’t started the archon quest yet for her, but I know she says she is the most eternal of all and sees herself as everlasting, but she’s legit younger than a good few of the archons (venti and zhongli so far!). I also think the original archons ideal was eternity and that’s what they had hoped for their people, but after the fall of khaenri’ah, war, and their death, baal came into power and realized it would be a threat to celestia if the people believe in eternity (like I said, something shifted severely after the war, because a lot of the original archons died or disappeared and their ideals almost became shrewd and a thing of the past with the new ones who took their places) therefore creating the vision hunt decree to get rid of visions; with more people coming into contact with visions, or maybe even when they realized humanity would be fine without an archon ruling over them, war would break out again and this time celestia would be the target. speaking of targets, this is random, but there’s an overwhelming presence of military surrounding/in inazuma and maybe that’s not just to collect visions and because war broke out amongst the people there, but it’s for protection against celestia and the harbingers (I think the other archons know about venti and zhongli's gnosis' being taken, so they're all weary). if baal were to overthrow celestia or betray them somehow, I’m sure since she’s an active archon they would retaliate.
the dendro archon (ideal is wisdom): the dendro archon is way more obvious, as dainsleif says he’s less than wise, but that’s his ideal... he’s also the youngest, so that’s another contradicting fact; young people are often called unwise.
the hydro archon (ideal is justice): I know nothing about her, but she represents justice. I don’t have a solid explanation for her, but based off of theories and if for a moment we assume celestia is the main antagonist, she is said to be afraid of celestia but seemingly backs them by not leaving like venti and zhongli... considering what they’ve done, I’d say she can’t possibly represent the ideal of justice correctly if what had happened to khaenri’ah was far from just, especially since the archons and celestia were behind it but her ideal is justice?
murata (ideal is war): I have no idea about her at all either, there's not much... but considering vanessa was able to pass into celestia when she died and she's considered the children of murata, I think we'll get more info on celestia then too, and more about khaenri'ah, since she's the god of war. she's gonna have the DEETS I tell you!!
the tsaritsa (ideal is unknown): nothing contradicting for now! she is a bit confusing because of how little info we have, but I have reason to believe she's against celestia, hence her taking the gnosis'. for now, until confirmed, I think her ideal or rather goal is to get rid of celestia. i don't think she has a gnosis or vision tbh, maybe the archon before her did and she's assumed to have one as well or maybe it even got taken away... but, i think that's one of the reasons she's created delusions, they're said to be a lot more dangerous and powerful (i think) than visions too. there's also this thing I found out about the gnosis' being designed after chess pieces, and how although there are 7 archons, there are only 6 chess pieces (pawn, rook, bishop, knight, queen, and king)... meaning one of the archons (not venti or zhongli, because we know what their gnosis' look like) has a gnosis that isn't designed after a chess piece... or in my words, doesn't have one at all. aka the tsaritsa... I think the tsaritsa not having a gnosis fits too snugly with her actions so far. and don't get me wrong! if we assume she doesn't have a gnosis, I don't think she's retaliating because of that, i think she just wants to change or get rid of celestia entirely. like this makes perfect sense because the tsaritsa is the only active archon seemingly and openly going against celestia's ideals, whatever they may be...
and about me saying the archons are "evil" or in the wrong for what happened to khaenri'ah (even if they were forced by celestia), in the archaic petra set, ZHONGLI IS SAID TO HAVE BEEN AN EMOTIONLESS AND MERCILESS GOD WHEN HE SLAUGHTERED COUNTLESS OTHER GODS DURING THE ARCON WAR, in order to fulfill a contract of sorts. this is why I think there were ulterior motives during the war and although yes, for now, it seems the archons were forced into complying during the war, I really think they had some willingness too.
at the end of my ted talk I have come to the conclusion that we can't trust the archons until we know more or celestia like... ever AND I STAND WITH THE REGULAR DEGULAR PEOPLE!!!
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I don't know who that blind is about or if it's even true but it actually fits Tom *cough* spideytea *cough* but it also fits Sebastian Stan (some of his fans are... a lot) and I would also say it def fits Harry styles (his fans are actually worse than toms I think) but I don't know if they'd refer to him as an actor plus he hasn't worked with many studios
Yea, I agree. 💯
Some stans go way too far sometimes, and some actually make up blatant, negative LIES about some celebrities and publish it as fact. 🥴 It's one thing to speculate, or post your opinion about what you think or feel, but it's a TOTALLY different thing altogether to be pretending like you know Tom (or Zendaya) personally, or know ppl close to them, and are spilling all this negative rhetoric 24/7 about them. 🥴
Idk who the blind item is about tbh (or if it's about multiple celebrities being fed up), but it's def shedding the light on a growing problem imo. 🤷🏾‍♀️
And then some fans wonder why their faves don't post as much on social media anymore. 🙄
In the past, Zendaya has often spoken out in a classy way when some fans would come for her on Twitter. I especially recall a very classy response back that she gave a fan on Twitter who was making fun of how her parents look (of all things!!! 🤨). But she kept it classy and told them off in a queen-like way.
https://people.com/tv/zendaya-shuts-down-cyber-bullies-who-called-her-parents-ugly/
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Now days, she doesn't even bother anymore to respond back to negativity (maybe it bothers her anxiety or her spirit, or maybe she realized there's just no use). 🤷🏾‍♀️ Many celebrities go the route of no comment, because sometimes "clapping back" and responding to things only breathes more life into the story and keeps ppl talking about it longer. So I can understand why some prefer to go the "silent" route. 🤐
Ironically, I have often hoped that Tom would one day speak up and speak out a bit about some of the segments of his fandom that can be toxic, cruel, and possessive. I just know he has a ton of things to say lol. Sometimes fans need to be put in their place when they overtly cross the line.... For example: Those who constantly make fun of him all the time for silly things, those who nitpick and bash his role choices, those who embarrassed him and disrespected his friends and fellow Marvel colleagues at a comic-con in front of a large live audience, those who routinely disrespect, ignore, and refuse to accept his girlfriend Zendaya who he loves and has been dating for over 3 years now, etc.... Like some fans are just too much! 😤😒
I wish Tom would at least speak to some of the toxicity of fans one day (just ONCE), and just let his fans know how he feels about those sorts of things. Even just speaking out ONCE would "set the tone" imo, because some fans just feel like Tom is a nice guy, so they think they can say whatever mean things about him and they go too far. I feel it would do some good for him to speak on it (imo). But I know he usually doesn’t put himself in any confrontation, and probably doesn’t like anyone hating him. (Who does??) 
Don't get me wrong, Tom has some really GREAT and wonderful fans! There are just a small outlier of fans who are questionable imo. Thankfully, they are not the majority. It's just that the negative minority usually make more noise than the overwhelming positive majority at times. 🥴
With that said, I actually feel like one day he may speak up if things get too crazy in the fandom. Idk if anyone has noticed, but he doesn't seem to feel the need to be posting all the time anymore, esp like he was back during the lockdown lol 😆 Maybe he was just bored hahaha 😅.... Plus he has been really busy back to back with films. But it could also be that he's just growing up, and he doesn't feel the need to be posting all the time for fans. He used to apologize when he wasn't posting for a while, but now I feel like he doesn't feel the need to... which is good! He's often said that he wanted to take breaks from social media anyway. I think it can become toxic and be a bit mentally and emotionally draining at times. 😔😓 I can't even imagine how it must feel if you're a celebrity. It might even be a turnoff at times.
If you heard how Tom spoke about social media during the Onward press tour, then you'll know what I'm talking about. Granted, part of his comments could have also been due to what he was going through during that time (Jacdaya/NYC 👀), but I think he's just learning to have a bit more of a balance in how he views social media. 🤷🏾‍♀️
Anyway sorry for my long rant and dissertation (I really have to work on making my posts SHORTER 🙈), but this topic was just very close to my heart, and I felt like I had to get some things off my chest.
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Silly question but do you have the same username on Twitter? I saw your response about Adam’s awards chances and tbh I think he could sit out this awards season. I know there’s a lot of hype among fans for House of Gucci but I don’t know if anyone is aware the writer-Roberto Bentivegna-is a newbie. I think fans should focus more on its critical reception instead of its box office. Let’s be honest: I don’t think anyone expected The Last Duel to get the kind of positive reception it got.
Yup that's me and yep I'm not sure if he's gonna get ANY nominations, honestly. I agree re: box office not being very important to Oscar noms, but tbh I didn't think he was Oscar level in TLD. It was great but, y'know. Jodie Comer is going to take TLD's acting nom and I do not think it was good enough to get 2 acting nominations. And anyone who thinks he's getting a Best Actor nod for Annette is living in fantasy land. Does he deserve it? Sure. It was one of his best performances to date for sure. Is that how the Oscars work? NO. I think Sparks will get a Best Original Song nod. MAAAAAAYBE Annette can pull nominations like best original screenplay, but that's if they're very very lucky. Annette is not an "Oscars" movie. And agree, I think HoG will be too commercial to vie for an Oscar. But then, Lady Gaga is very popular, so a nom could potentially come through (imma be honest with you, neither she nor Bradley were very impressive AS ACTORS in A Star Is Born and yet they both got acting noms.) So I think HoG is Adam's best bet at this stage. And frankly I think he would juuuuuuuust squeak in there. Almost a 0 percent chance of actually winning the Oscar this season. From what I hear, it's going to Denzel or Will. And Matt Damon will probably get a nod for Stillwater because the Academy likes that kind of shit. EDIT: The good news is, among the opinions of people he actually cares about, this year was amazing for him. Almodovar loved Annette, for instance. Guillermo del Toro loved The Last Duel. His career will be big time bolstered (as if it wasn’t already lol) by these movies. So, in the way that REALLY matters, he won. EDIT2: For the record, I do think he will get an Oscar... eventually. So much of winning an Oscar is luck. But I also don’t think he’ll Glenn Close it forever. He needs another turn like Marriage Story in a year that DOESN’T have a virtuoso-level performance like Joaquin Phoenix’s (alternatively, Adam can turn out that virtuoso performance, which he has come close to but imho not quite yet achieved.) It’ll need to be a somewhat “artistic” (aka probably not House of Gucci) movie that is nevertheless not mega arthouse (see also, Annette). Marriage Story balanced those things very well. It was really a shame that he truly just got very unlucky by having to compete about Joaquin’s Joker, which honestly... probably one of the most overwhelming Oscar wins of all time. It was just the clear choice. But that kind of performance DOES NOT happen every year. So either he needs a nomination in a less genius-tier year, or he needs to be the genius. Either is very possible, and I’m sure one of those things will happen... eventually.
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2020 Fanfic Year in Review
Am I allowed to do this? Anyway, tagged by @fandomsbyladymelodrama <3333
I’ll just include the graphic novels because that’s the way I can participate here LOL
Total number of completed stories
4 completed stories, one uncompleted story that is still a WIP. 
Total number of words:
I’ll go with the number of pages: In total 291.
Fandoms written in:
Game of Thrones. That’s it and I am not even sorry
Top 5 by Word Count:
alias, by page count:
1. returning home.
2. Family Tradition
3. dragonfly
4. to fall in love
Top 5 by Kudos:
1. returning home.
2. dragonfly & to fall in love 
3. Family Tradition
Top Fic overall:
Considering stats that would be “returning home.”
What’s your own favorite story of the year?
I love them all equally, but because it’s still fresh I am happy how Family Tradition turned out, from an artist POV. That was at least the one I had to do a minimum of corrections after I finished the first draft and given that the story gave me troubles, also from a narrative POV I liked how it turned out in the end.
Did you take any writing risks this year?
Yeah definitely. I did not know whether people would like a mermaid story and I was not familiar with the Regency era style before I started dragonfly. Also I drew a lot of characters that I am not used to draw and that I don’t enjoy drawing (I am looking at you, Viserys) and that’s always a risk because I know that when I am less passionate about a character it shows in the drawings as well.
Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the new year? 
4584096834068 more collabs with @fandomsbyladymelodrama <3 Gurl you are my biggest motivation to draw these stories and Family Tradition was your fault because of all the Mormont spirals we went through in the weeks earlier. And I want to do even more graphic novels in 2021. One is in progress, one is already planned out, and I hope that I’ll improve my artist skills further and gain more confidence in what I am doing.
Most popular story of the year?
That would be returning home, although I got super sweet and awesome comments on dragonfly too <3
Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion:
None, tbh. I was overwhelmed by the responses to all of those graphic novels!
Most fun story to write:
returning home. <3 Brought me through the main part of the first lockdown and PhD stress, and loved to create that story. It was also the story that was the easiest to construct from a narrative POV. And I still love fisherbear and MerDany and the Lannister Bros and Aqua-Jason-Drogo. <3
Most unintentionally telling story? 
I am not sure what the question means, but I think I was surprised by how many people saw things and messages in dragonfly that I had not put in there on purpose but they made totally sense! Loved to see how e.g. @clarasimone and @terisrog explained my work to me and I was like “omg yeah actually that makes sense and wow I am surprised that I managed to put in there so much without even realising it” XD
Biggest disappointment?
None, I love all my babies and the feedback they got <3 Jorleesi fandom supports with the strength of 10 main fandoms!!!
Biggest surprise? 
Seriously I was astonished how much I was able to draw in a short span of time. I think I drew dragonfly (69 pages) over the course of two weeks? And the first chapter of returning home took just two days. Then all the positive feeback surprised me and I was happy that I managed to tell a story just by pictures and not by words. Couldn’t believe when people asked me whether I could do hard copy prints of the stories too <3
Tagging @terisrog @clarasimone @toas-tea @raymondhope-writer and anyone else who wants to do this <3
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Hello! I'm new to your blog but sometimes it makes me tear up a little when i see all the positivity and comfort here. It helps me a big amount 🍡✨
How do you manage to handle especially hard days between recovery? Days when hope seems harder to find?
Last two days, I've been having an especially hard time. It's like after every therapy session, I feel so much better but few days later, new intrusive thoughts pop in again and the overthinking and catastrophizing starts and it gets a bit negative till the next session. It's a negative pattern I developed just in the last two months so I know it can be broken. But when the loop keeps going round and round, it sometimes gets hard.
It's like the intrusive thoughts and anxiety won't ever stop at this point. Of course, I believe I'll heal deep down but sometimes its hard to remember and trust that. Its hard bcs this is all so new to me and I'm not used to dealing with these kinds of thoughts and emotions for so long.
I'm sorry if this brings negativity for you. Its just.....normal days feel so distant and somedays, its hard to be happy and hopeful tbh :(
But amidst it all, this blog is like a ray of sunshine. Sometimes, it feels so warm it makes my day, on other harder things, its one of my reasons to cling onto the hope that i will get better no matter how many other people I've seen saying otherwise.
I'm honestly really grateful ✨💕
Welcome Anon! 💕 I am really happy that this blog helps you in your daily life, it means a lot to me and I'm very grateful to have you say those words. It literally made my whole week! On the other hand, I am sorry to hear that you are having a hard time these days. The negative pattern you are getting, it's actually pretty common when you are healing. It's a long, rough path and it looks like trial and error rather than a steady line. I want you to know that you are brave for putting effort to make things better. I know it can feel overwhelming, and desperate sometimes. But it won't always feel like this. You need to give it time to heal and acknowledge that it's okay to get a bit worse before getting better. I also suggest you to try out new effective exercises to help you deal with these emotions. Also, there is no need to apologise about getting something off your chest. You are very right, life is hard and some days it is very hard to be happy. Which is why it's okay to have low days where we are not happy, as long as we keep trying to take care of our needs! And please remember: It's okay to take time to heal. You are valid and loved. 🧡
Now before answering your question, I would like to specify that:
I am not a trained therapist. I am just a humble blogger that writes about mental health. A professional will always know better than me and you should always ask for their opinion if you can. This doesnt mean I won't try to help you in any way I can. I just want it to be clear that there are people out there, that have studied effective ways to tackle mental health issues, and that you can reach out to. Don't forget that! 💓 I personally deal with hard days by following a specific safety plan. This plan is made up of a series of actions that I can do to make things a little less stressful for me. It also has the numbers of people I trust and can call when I feel overwhelmed. Ex. Action that I know helps me survive a crisis: having a hot bath with gentle ASMR sounds like rain sounds. Person I know can help me through the crisis: Friend-name. Meditation also does wonders to me, but only after I have successfully written down what's been bothering me. I also try to remind myself it will pass and that things will get better. Hope these tips will help you in your healing journey! Thank you so much for your kind words. 🌻 Knowing that this blog has a positive impact on people in the real world fills me with gratitude and happiness. Things will get better for me and you, I promise. Don't give up on hope. Lots of love! 💓
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red-i-mean-blue · 4 years
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A:TLA romantic ships part 1
yes, no one asked for my opinions, yes I will give them anyway, yes because I have decided making a bunch of meaningless decisions and arguing for them will improve my mental state, yes I watched the show all in one very sleep deprived go and i’m not interested in rewatching it so yes I have absolutely no sources, yes this is a really long grammatical nightmare because I don’ t know how to be succinct and i use way more words than necessary at any opportunity because if my point doesn’ t come across exactly like i intend it will greatly upset me, no I have not yet watched Korra or read the comics because i’m tired now let’s do this.
includes Kataang, Zutara, Jetkara, Jinko, Maiko, Sukka, Taang, Tokka, Toko Ty Lokka, Tyzula, Yukka bc these were on the Avatar wiki ship list, part two will go into gay ships more
from 0 I despise people who ship this immediately to 10 I will read absolutely anything with this, I love it and could draw it for hours on how much I think the relationship would be good and how happy it makes me
Kataang (looks like a comic book sound effect so plus points)
very clearly built up over the series
cute kid crushes also ngl did not know katara was 14 and not older 12 or 13 so didn’t care about age when watching
now I know she’s 14 and he’s 12 it’s a little weird but still
haters say katara was just the avatar’s trophy girl, as if aang didnt kiss the ground she walked on and wouldnt stop telling anyone how amazing she is. Katara was the first face he saw from the new world and they immediately became friends. she was so excited to meet another bender, he clearly is trying to impress her and it is working, he listens to her about bending and offers to take her to the other side of the world to master water, TELL ME at this moment she is not ride or die and she doesn’t even know he’s the avatar, he lets her feel like a kid again, which is a feeling she’s forgotten after years of being a mother to sokka and the children. he literally sweeps her off her feet to save her from the fire nations ship i-. rewatched boy in the iceberg and hoo boy had canon not messed it up, this ship could have been legendary
hard to imagine older them working out what with the whole last airbender, preserve air nomad culture, let’s travel the world bc nomadic lifestyle, what’s marriage i’m a monk without biological family values vs last southern waterbender, preserve southern water tribe culture, I believe in the power of family and am ridiculously dedicated to my tribe,  let me go home to my father and tribe shtick, but I don’t care for after the show finishes much except for following the gang fix the world so I don’t really care about the marriage issue
canon was good until that Mess in season 3, WHY did he kiss her after that speech, wish they talked that out properly, wish he learned letting go of her to open the 7th chakra was the only right decision, wish the ending was a little more vague in ships and just left things open but yk whatever
that finale kiss was sweet, they hugged foremost as friends, no blushing, and then got the fuzzies, that moment standing alone? a+ but without any talking about what happened on ember island, a little unsatisfying
overall, fine ship, not my favourite nor do I actively ship it, but I see a kataang moment, i’m like, sweet so I give it a 6
Zutara (apparently fans are zutarians which looks like an alien race, plus points)
latter half of the show had quite a lot of Zutara potential, but idk about Zutara actual
katara was so ready to drop his ass, no way at the start
there is only one dynamic between them in which I can see Zutara working and that is as in the Stalking Zuko by emletish series where katara is so distrusting over zuko she takes to stalking him to make sure he isn’t doing anything to hurt Aang or about to betray them (her) again but he is just such a sweet dork who keeps trying to apologise to her even while she’s apologising to him for being a bitch that she can’t help but start to trust him, i’m a third into the third book in the series not stalking firelord zuko and I am thriving and tbh this is the only situation where I accept zutara, read the series I love it
age gap is weird, I know it’s the same difference between kataang but they made a point of zuko being older in the show also he’s so much taller and I don’t like 16 year old boys with 14 year old girlfriends in real life and so would katara because jet
katara has a bad experience with bad boy sword weilders (jet) but I guess you could see it as the start of her type idk
they are both the moms of the Gaang. sokka is the fun dad.
there is a parallel between their families, with the leader of their people dad, mom who left the picture when they were young, an older brother who is not a prodigy at/can’ t bend their respective element so they become proficient at swords instead, prodigy at bending younger sister with a violent streak. this is why I see zutara as potentially a really close friendship, almost siblings, but not a romance because to me katara is a little too like azula for comfort...
tbh I think a lot of folk shipped it because ooh fire boy and water girl (not the game) that’ s perfect, and bam army of zutarians
overall, kind of weird but ok and good grounds for humour so I give it a 4
Jetkara (bad ship name, why would you like this, minus points)
Jet is bad. yes Katara really liked him, yes he was definitely her first kiss and she would definitely consider him her first boyfriend but they would not define it because it’s easier to manipulate someone when it’s unclear what your relationship is and Jet is bad, with his weird fricking eyebrows and not even real swords those hook swords
Not wasting my time, 2
Jinko (cool name, reminds me of Hong Jinkyung, plus points) 
short but so sweet. not the first thing people remember from watching the tales of ba sing se (brb going to rewatch and cry) but really cute, so here’s a running commentary
his first thought was she knew they were fire nation rather than a pretty girl sat in a teashop giving him looks because she had a crush omg
that honest surprise when his uncle suggested she liked her and then she walked up and asked him on a date, adorable
anyone who looked at that god-awful hairstyle and still thought he looked cute has it bad also aww that hair ruffle and the little grab onto his arm
he’s pushing his food around and she’s trying out ice breaker questions and recieving one word responses he has no idea what he’s doing
“she is not my GIRLFRIEND” he’s not over Mai, clearly but he still is trying his best to be a good date even if he’s terrible at making conversation
anyone who sat through that date and the bad lying and the stilted conversation and still thought he was cute has it bad 
he is So Bad At Lying he just told the truth very vaguely and then bam travelling circus
jin so knows the two are fire nation, the whole date she just politely ignores the clear lies and doesn’t react to the obvious firebending, what an icon we love jin
honestly I was really expecting the show to reveal that jin knew he was a firebender if not from the start then from the lights but eh I guess she can keep a secret, good for her
HE KISSED HER BACK BEFORE REALISING A RELATIONSHIP COULD NEVER GO WELL AND HE MAY HAVE ANGSTILY STORMED OFF BUT HE ADMITTED IT WAS A NICE TIME TO HIS UNCLE
that being said I can’t see anything more happening but this date but omg imagine fire lord zuko coming back to visit and they become friends I-
overwhelming support for pre-date jin flirting to an oblivious zuko and the date Jinko, 8
Maiko (name would be a good name for a cat idk why)
childhood sweethearts before the banishment i think
she crushed because he saved her hair from getting burnt by tackling her into a fountain? adorable
I love mai she’s so funny but I think not the best match for zuko? he has a lot of trauma to get over and she doesn’t seem like the let all your feelings out and let’s talk about it until you feel better kind of person.  it was deeply ingrained in her to keep all of her feelings and emotions strongly hidden because she got what she wanted from her politician parents so long as she was quiet, well-mannered, and perfectly behaved according to avatar wiki so I get why she’s that way, until I was 11 I was that way too all the time, I understand freezing your face so you don’t look afraid or upset or angry and risk annoying adults, but I don’t think that that would fit zuko with his social ineptness
they literally broke up twice but are just assumed back together? she just surprised him and said they were back together and I think he forgot she existed
the deadpan firelady and the fire lord would be hilarious together tho she got the ruthlessness he lacks
post coronation I can see it happening, 6 but under Kataang
Sukka (terrible name lmao)
the cutest, sokka very excitedly says “Suki!! :DDD” every time he sees her
she didn’t give him the time of day until HE changed, incredible
just the best canon ship, the two nonbenders in the Gaang but very clearly shown to be important key members.
suki is sneaky and badass, rivalling zuko for position on the team as the sneaky badass one (they tie and bond over being sneaky and badass)
sokka is a great dad, he is the dad of the Gaang and he clearly loves suki and suki loves him back
sokka ships are ELITE, 9
Taang (a delicious orange drink mix that reminds me of home, nostalgia)
foreshadowing from the swamp where someone aang loved in the future really made me think taang was endgame yk
opposite elements ideology that I guess is what zutarians like also leaves everyone in the gang dating a Gaang member if zutara happens
actually the same age but not much else going for it
best friends, 4 but under Zutara
Tokka (great name of a small pet fight me)
sokka ships are elite, childhood crush turned adult strong friendship
I really like seeing the rough, tough, greatest earthbender in  the world have a crush, adorable
sokka is a great friend and his and toph’s canon relationship is so sweet, I wouldn’t change it
toph was fully going to give sokka a kiss on the cheek for saving her life i’m melting
age difference is too weird for a romance he’s like 16 or 17 by the end I think and she’s 12
best friends, 10 as a relationship in the show, 2, but in their 20s after the show... 4 but under Taang
Toko (very forgettable name but both characters have 4 letters so I guess it’s hard to come up with something memorable but every time I read it as Toph because same shape ish so minus points for being annoying)
even weirder age gap than Tokka 
not many moments that could be considered romantic? 
toph first accepted zuko despite him burning her feet, how she sees, which was big and they resolved problems between them quickly
toph clinging to his arm and asking for a life changing field trip caused him to blush, but I see that as him being like oh someone wants to spend time with me?? she’s hugging me??? what is this 
convenient ship for kataangers because the Gaang could be paired off as Kataang, Sukka, Toko
her crush on sokka seemed to go away or calm down when he showed up and she punched him and teased him a lot, her way of bonding
similar strict teaching styles and bonding over secret identities as Blue Spirit and Blind Bandit and parental issues and being the children of important families who made them run away to enjoy not having anything to do with politics and being nobility with impaired vision who have never stepped into a kitchen in their lives and being used to servants and then being on the run
I really see them as siblings with her helping him relax from his duties as fire lord because you already know this boy’s sense of honour is going to make him work tirelessly to fix the world and him helping her relax from the whole i’m not a fragile, weak little blind girl, i’m the greatest earthbender in the world shtick and reminding her she can be both a blind 12 year old girl and the most powerful earthbender in the world, she can accept help without being weak or lesser than anyone, people want to help because they care not that they pity you
best friends 10, relationship in show 1, after show 3
Ty Lokka (I don’t like this name looks like a place but can think of nothing better)
yeah I guess ty lee’s obvious flirting is grounds for a ship but in every interaction he’s involved with someone else and doesn’t seem to like her as a person
do they even interact while on the same side?
friendly aquaintances at best, don’ t understand, 2 but above Jetkara
Tyzula (don’t like this name, like a mineral water?)
canon I don’t care it is canonically a possessive relationship
azula’s only genuine apology goes to ty lee after hurting her feelings
Azula clearly loves ty lee, her betrayal sends her mad
after a lot of therapy for azula and apologies, maybe a healthy relationship could form after the show, 8 above Jinko
Yukka (looks like a childish insult, surely someone could have thought of a better name)
Sokka’s love for Yue stays with him for the rest of his life, she was the first person to die in front of him and he sees the moon as her facing the earth
love this forbidden lovers content, sokka ships stay elite
Sokka and Yue spend as much time together as possible with secret midnight dates flirting (“you wanna do an...activity together?”)  Sokka’s reaction to Yue’s engagement shows that he wants to have a serious relationship with her, and also he thinks Hahn is a bad person for Yue, which he is. 
Yue dying devastated him and he never falls out of love with Yue. her last words “[she] will always be with him” are true. swamp visions show Yue as one of the most important people in his life like a season or so after he last saw her. he wouldn’t kiss suki in front of the moon, and cries when Yue appears on stage, ignoring Suki. he talks about the moon as if it is directly Princess Yue in that cactus juice scene.
she died in his arms oh my god don’t look i crying, he feels personally responsible and guilty
yue was great even though she was the indigenous or black girl with light hair and eyes character and I wish she could have helped aang in the spirit world 
despite her arranged engagement she clearly really likes sokka even though she knows nothing can happen, 9
Kataang, Zutara, Jetkara, Jinko, Maiko, Sukka, Taang, Tokka, Toko, Ty Lokka, Tyzula, Yukka
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coolthinghere · 3 years
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its really sad about how i am a fish was treated
when i and some other people looked at the "evidence" compiled at the time, it was so clear that he was just... some kid? trying to be a positive influence to everyone in a shit world. he was 19 and people treated him like a monster, and to kill himself en mass
but everything looks so much more like HONEST. MISTAKES. that a teen would make people!!!
the twitter stuff? easy, its hard as SHIT to vet twitters, and he said himself that he was doing mass follow backs at the time and not really checking. the creepy blogs that he had ended up following didnt have condemning (and even then tame compared to a lot of awful PUBLIC twitters have, ew) shit unless you scrolled back nine months at the time people were butchering him
the too sexual posts? hes a teen, and those were i think from a few years before the condemnation went down, so he was probably a minor
the #problematic blm and pride posts? he was a teen trying to be nice and funny,
we dont get handed a fucking pamphlet or manual on how not to be patronizing or how to not make jokes that actually hurt people instead of being quirky, the subtleties of performative shit, or how to do this or that or apologize properly for serious shit!
and its hard as fuck to find out how! and a lot of people have different opinions on how to do all of those things right too
i really think he was trying to do nice things!
the same with his discord! a HUGE discord? (basically a forum?) run by/for a teen? just SOUNDS like a bad idea. idek much about it but that sounds overwhelming as hell, scramble together some mods and let them run it
but honestly the most damning thing of his accusers is that he supported ace and aro people. thomas sanders got cancelled as a supposed 'creep' right on peoples dashboards after being openly supportive of us.
even if a lot of the people condemning fish werent exclusionists themselves, they definitely got convinced by them
does it not sounds like a teen to just go and follow back every one? (and cant you mute people you follow on twitter? i dont touch that app) to make inappropriate posts on the wrong and not delete them anyway? (he probably had a lot less followers too- and yes he should have deleted them keep reading) to make posts trying to be supportive but actually having the opposite effect? to mess up apologies, to not be good at picking MODS!? a fucking TEEN!?
for christs sake those sound like reasonable, honest mistakes someone college aged would make
are they still mistakes, he shouldnt have done them? yes, thats what a mistake is
and i get why people got so upset! i really really do.
the average teen or young adult does not have a hundred thousand some teens who are as equally or more influenceable as themselves following their every post. someone that young shouldnt have that many people looking up to them to be honest!
not on something like modern social media, where everything is so much closer than if they were like. a teen show host, or a big deviant art creator or something, back in the 2000s, where people looked at things they made but only a smaller portion would keep up with more of their smaller activities, posts, and comments
i think someone like kylee henke or malaidah anne would have a good thing or two to say from that perspective
i get how his actions look more sinister with the fact that he (and sanders, again) was so popular with kids, i really do. for all i know there could be more evidence out there, but i just dont get that feeling from the mistakes. and it breaks my heart seeing the old as ass 'receipt' google doc still being spread
tldr fish was probably cancel by the exclusionist illuminati, and i really really hope hes doing ok
(like jk, i doubt they team up and orchestrate this on purpose, beyond like maybe a few different friend groups- but hm. thats all you really need to create mass condemnation tbh..)
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