#(and i took that) personal(ly)

[luna--dragon]

I got bored

#it's supposed to be a bonsai tree #its a lot prettier in person lmao #had some wire left over from an old abandoned cosplay #and had a lump of rose quartz lying around fir years #its 20cm tall #first time doing it and i might do it again once i get more supplies #took me like 8 hours across 2 days #bonsai tree #rose quartz #geology #diy #ornament #decor

[bisexualelphie]

julie e os fantasmas (original julie and the phantoms) was so wild. like, what do you mean the boys were crushed to death by a truck? what do you mean julie has committed more than one crime? what do you mean the main triangle consists of a rockstar with a closet dnd player vs a my chemical romance revenge era rejected song? what do you mean the ghost love interest was a menace to society in life and public enemy number 1 in death? what do you mean he was tortured more than once? what do you mean there was a dude trying to enslave ghosts and this plotline only lasted two episodes????

#julie e os fantasmas #julie and the phantoms #julie and the phantoms og #this show shaped my entire personality #it was my childhood #i didn't realize how wild it was until i watched it as an adult #the one with the creepy teacher is particularly crazy #he actually breaks into julie's house and finds a way to physically torture GHOSTS #i love the remake but the original shaped me y'all don't understand #and i love luke but daniel is just so iconic #i wasn't lying about him being a menace #the dude broke into a hotel (by pushing the lobby guy and running) and caused chaos just to get his idol to listen to his band's music #and somehow got a hamburger out of it #and not only is he (all three of them are #but demetrius targets daniel specifically) being chased by the chief of the ghost police #he also completely throws 500 years of ghost laws out the window by causing a rebellion with just one story #“i never followed the rules when i was alive i'm not gonna follow them now that i'm dead” he took that seriously #also julie thinks cheating at school is wrong but she has no problem with breaking into places or potentially injuring thalita #her pettiness knows no boundaries lmfao #they truly are meant for each other 🤩 #too bad he's dead #daniel every two episodes: i could make her worse #while he doesn't know that most of the crimes julie commits are of her own volition #i love my angsty little criminals #juliel #julie x daniel

[soldier-poet-king]

Pf was sooooo insane last night Shinji froggy chair crisis fr, sweet kindhearted goblin warrior who is the heart of the party tried to comfort my character, who instead of seeing it as an act of kindness, was like omg he knows my secrets and is guilt tripping me and so. She spilled the beans and was like ik I said I wasn't gonna lie anymore but I did so I'll leave now 👉👈😔 and they were like 'hey you're kinda being manipulated by an evil mage who is also ur cousin' which hadn't even occured to ME the player, let alone my character (🤡). And so it's just ;-; oh man she is a pathologic liar and doesnt know how to stop, whereas I'm allergic to lying, but for the same reasons!!! It's that insecurity babbyyyy

Also our rogue convinced the ice pope to not only ally with us but come fight some fire plan creatures and our practicing-a-forbidden-religion champion is maybe crushing on the ice pope

Understandbly. I very much do not want to be at work rn

and also my next character is going to be SOOOOO emotionally stable I swear. Themis is like. Normal Human Man 100%. Head empty oath of the crown paladin. His biggest problem is that he's lawful good and super obsessed with Following The Rules but his friend/ambiguous partner is a Known Rogue and part of a Criminal Guild and also strict black and white morality isn't practical. Man is intended to be a combo of costis and beshelar. We love rulebooks and honour and never lying bc I am compulsively incapable of it

#NEXT WEEK. TAHRANNA SOREN SHENANIGANS. I AM SO EXCITED TO JUST SIT AND WATCH THESE TWO INTERACT #periklea has been in froggy chair for like. a week in game now which is MONTHS irl #Im out of the hot seat FINALLY #it only took weeks of lying to the party for her to crack :))) #vilestraia campaign #periklea tag #me a person allergic to lying. creates a character who lies SOOOO much. lies on INSTINCT. girl is more lies than elf at this point

[seahdalune]

(3AM) I CAN FINALLY SLEEP

#papa louie #flipline fanart #artofdalune #love the headcanon that Duke Gotcha is a dad-level loud person #Shannon defos took some of the loudness with her after being around that man for so long #which leaves poor Jojo in… agony #flipline jojo #flipline duke gotcha #flipline shannon #the panel with the Romanos is a ref to the mariachi band video #changed the text to italian because the Romanos are Italian esq (?) #just gotta hope that the site i skimmed thru was not lying to me about the translation #if it was then um ummm sorby;; #idk is this shipping

[there-will-be-a-way]

Every Saturday and Sunday I go to the clinic to do an alcohol test - because being controlled is the only thing that keeps me sober (this plan was my idea, yes, I got praised for this by the staff 🙌🏻). So today when I went there, I asked to have a talk and confessed that I relapsed. I'm proud that I was honest. Even prouder that I stopped the relapse. I didn't continue drinking today - I genuinely didn't want to which is new.

The nurse thanked me for my honesty and offered that next time I can come over before I relapse and stay the night. Not sure if I'll manage to do that but I can try and it's good to have this option.

#personal posts #took my prn meds and staying in my roommates room #took my sleep meds early and now I'm about to watch a movie and call it a day #this morning I went to the gas station to buy beer for my roomie (cause it would have been a dick move to drink his beer without buying him #new booze #and I didn't buy any alc for myself (!!!!)) #very glad my responsible parts came out to handle the situation #they have Skills™️ #the older I get the more I realize that honesty is one of the most important traits you can have #I used to be so dishonest for real #but I'm making 'no lying' a rule #tomorrow when I go to the clinic for ergotherapy I'll likely have to write a behavior analysis (my beloved) smd that's it #no one got mad at me #positive experience #and I have therapy tomorrow too #it's gonna be a long day #*avoided staying in

[frecklystars]

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#abusers should die btw I will forever hate the people who took my joy from me #I’m a nice person I’m a kindhearted bitch I did NOT deserve what happened to me and I’m so bitter #i wish she had taken anything else from me k wish she had ruined anything else in the workd #it just had to be the one thjng I got the most comfort and love from #I wil never get cameos from anyone in the way I got them from Steve #I will never love a character like that. never. that shit was so special and rare #I will never feel like that ever again with anyone else and it’s ruined it’s fuckjgn gone #to no fault of mine. i was a nice person and loook where that got me #I’m so sick and tired #I miss my old self but she’s dead #I miss self shipping and not questioning if my f/os would ever hurt me. i miss feeling loved #I miss lying awake at night and listening to music thinking of Starscream and then weeping with such joy #I mis s listening to my cameos.and genuinely believing every word #I miss him so bad he’s fujcjg gone I’ll never get hinm back #I’ll never be that happy ever agajn

[aro-culture-is]

Aro culture is your (allo) friend saying someone was flirting with them at the store, asking what the flirter (Is that a word??) said, and the friend responding "They said the ice cream I was buying looked good, and I said thanks" and that was the whole of the conversation.

Is that all it takes to flirt, is to say something innocuous to a stranger? Is that why everyone says I flirt with everyone?? Can people not have normal goddamned conversations anymore without everything being tainted by amatonormativity?!?!

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#Anonymous #aro culture is #aro #aromantic #actually aro #actually aromantic #ask #mod phoenix #whaaaat #look if that's all it took i regularly flirt with the older women at the place i work at #and i'd be lying if i said it wasn't more of a 'oh i see someone who looks potentially Grumpy' #protective measure #like there's a person who works upstairs in our building who i first saw and registered like... older white woman in gov work for #justice dept and y'know? i cannot say i expected good lol #so i complemented her (genuinely!) pretty necklace the first time i rang her up on reg #and turns out she's a regular and honestly she's always nice when i have her #but i notice she's a little shorter with some of my coworkers #though lol i Cannot match our espresso trainer for my city #dude has got mad charisma stats and the right voice for it #kinda a pain in the ass to work with #but excellent for customer stuff #he's good at teaching - but like. it does not matter what u are doing there is Something he thinks you could do to improve it #and i 100% work with him and that by intentionally finding things to ask about when he's around #i literally have a little like. internal list of 'this is meaningless for me rn but a good way to distract him if he's being a dick to #a coworker on accident / or if we need his mood to be improved in general' #i've only gotten to deploy that like twice so far (ie two shifts with him) and so far i'm hearing that people are very glad that someone #can stand to do that #the secret is that phoenix has mad charisma stats and confidence and kee is a wet cat irl #and together it turns into excellent 'i'm sowwy pwease hewp' bait for that type of person #and tbh he's full of interesting tips and tricks as much as he's an ass about it sometimes

[katyspersonal]

I really feel like such a helpless adult baby sometimes. Some things just take too long while to heal, and even when I think I've got no more pain left, something refuels it. Some wounds feel like putting a fireplace somewhere in innermost part of one's being; as long as it is there, there is a risk of someone throwing fuel in it and making it burn. And these fireplaces are so, SO darn hard to uninstall. Just.. how do I heal this?

#/vent #personal #yes it is about A again #I just can't believe that for her someone being rude when hurt/harmed/scared/belittled/etc is- #-much worse than stalking harassment bullying and lying #and that she wanted to take revenge at me for words I took back THAT SAME DAY to the- #-point of hurting two other mutuals she liked that never did anything to her at all #like.... I just can't cope with the fact that someone wanted to harm me to the point of willing to- #-pay a PRICE to do that #and over what? over me blowing up when she told me I was wrong about who the stalker was #also when they got caught after sending message off anon on accident A also pretended that- #-she never doubted who it was #like dude? you deadass told me I was wrong because you 'asked them and they said no' #for someone who lied SO many times A sure is strangely oblivious to the fact that guilty people can lie! #i just wish it stopped hurting already #like every time I think I got over it something 'fuels the fire' again #how I am 26 and still feel shocked that some people are JUST cruel and treacherous? for no reason?

[airbrushfather]

i know ive said this before but hiawatha doomed literally belongs to me you're actually physically not allowed to listen to it unless you're me sorry

#ESPECIALLY THE DEMO #you think you get it but you don't get it because im the only person who has ever got it #they're both important actually because of the difference between the demo and the proper version #im already enough of an outsider here i should just drop all my insane drafts and then disappear #brb writing a 20k deep dive into the theory and then wiping myself off the internet forever #im lying it'd be more than 20k #the acid fic took place over one evening and was 10 and this story takes place over a period of more than 20 years #but not the ones you'd expect! #anyway. hiawatha belongs to me and ivy and nobody else

[stardustedknuckles]

There’s never a point at which Kamordah does not hurt. Because it’s one thing, right, to read Beau’s offer to give herself up right afterwards as a method of running from the vulnerability - a reminder of the worst parts of her, what she failed to live up to as a daughter, an heir, a sister.

But I also think that walking into her nice house with her cordial parents and everything just so had Beau convinced that everyone else would buy into their fiction, too. She can’t afford to believe their bullshit anymore but it’s still hard even for her. She doesn’t expect any of the Nein to look at where she came from and what she fucked up and still put up with her. Shame, yes, but also resignation. She still thinks she’s the screwup in this situation, and now that everyone else has seen what she’s been hiding they’ll understand she was never any good. By no means was Jester picking a side when she told Beau that Thoreau meant what he said, but Beau already believed on some level that her parents had always been in the right and there was no other way she could interpret those words. Of course her dad meant it. He always had. She was the one making everything difficult.

Beau walking into that hut and offering that misery was just a more direct mirror of a process she thought she had already begun. By showing the Nein her family - and having it out with her dad where they could see and hear - she assumed she was already signing her own dismissal. The fact that they didn’t immediately reject her almost made it worse, because now she has to do it herself. They’re too nice to tell her to go fuck herself but it’s only a matter of time. Better to cut it off now, before they really start putting everything together.

She has absolutely no concept of the idea that she could be wanted as much and more than being needed. She certainly has no way of understanding yet that standing there broken open like an opal could strengthen bonds. The Nein as a whole took a look at where Beau came from and understood so much about her, but they understood exactly what Beau had been fighting to never become and loved her more for her efforts. Yasha literally fell in love with her when she put the all of this context together. Every bit of progress Beau had made so far was clawed from an empty well of experience. She had to learn to be better by being anything other than what was demanded of her. She didn’t have other people to emulate. She was literally making this shit up on the fly and resigned to never quite getting it right. Showing up at her family’s estate with the manners and coping mechanisms cobbled together from her experiences with the Nein and feeling it all fall out from underneath her the moment her father spoke...Beau fell apart in Kamordah, only this time the Nein were here to hold her to the mark and remind her of all she had left to live for. Not for them, for herself, because that’s what they wanted from her. They only ever wanted true growth and happiness for her - something she grew up hearing and could not afford to believe.

#Kamordah reaches up and bites me hard in the ass every now and then just #holy gods how everything changed in that one episode #cr c2 #Beauregard Lionett #if you've never been an abused kid with a friend over who says 'wow your mom seems really nice' #idk how to explain to you the gulf between you and that person immediately #like I just told you she took away everything I own while I was at school and will maybe give it back if I am good enough #and she seems nice? like maybe I did actually deserve that or that I was lying? okay

[holyluvr]

Older people who are disabled have got to start understanding that it’s a lot different of an experience when you’re younger and disabled. I’m tired of them brushing it off and talking about their disability that they gained with aging or at an older age. It’s not the same social, economic, interpersonal, or doctor experience at all when you’re 20 compared to 45+ years old.

#… #this isn’t saying OH OLDER PPLS PAIN DOESNT MATTER or THEY DONT FACE ABLEISM #No. I’m explaining how they’re often ableist to younger disabled people without a thought of it. #it’s not solidarity when you explain a different experience and emotions and PUSH it onto a younger person without listening #like honestly go fuck yourself with your bad knee if you’re going to brush a kid or young adult being disabled off as no big deal and normal #it’s not the norm for our age. we have so many expectations based on age. doctors don’t trust us telling the truth at all/take us seriously #it’s traumatic to be a child. teenager. or young adult with a disability for a lot of us. It fucks up our family and finances and friends #we lose so many opportunities that a younger person usually has. we are often lonely. like cmon. #no one is going to think a 50y/o is lying about chronic pain #but when I took breaks from work because of my disability I was accused of being lazy lmfao by disabled older women #more than anything we need older disabled people to support us and give us hope #not complain to us or tell us to suck it up bc Well They Have This Issue Ans #I have my entire fucking life to think about with this disability. I have to change my entire future and life goals. everything. #disability #ableism

[blood284]

#micah bell #why am i not surprised #i think its lying tho #im saying that to make myself feel better #im a good person #i took this so personally #so so personally #is it bexause im bipolar #is it #look me in the eyes and tell me the reason

[fuyuoh3]

When you start making eyes at a new character but notice there's an awful lot of ship art with some girl

#i talk #self shipping #i hope to god nobody can sleuth out who this is about tbh #mainly cause i know jack shit. i just see the guy a lot and have always been 👀👀 at him #finally took the plunge into the tags and had this experience #no canon relationship baby that means i can do whatever i want #...i hope he isnt a horrible person ... im not lying when i say i know jack of shit

[authoralexharvey]

It's my mother's birthday and all I can think of is all the ways she traumatized me growing up.

#There Was the Year She said I ruined her BDay Because I Came out as Bi #There's The One Time I tried to Tell Her I was NB and She Scoffed at Me #There's the Time She Threatened to Report me to the Police and Make Sure I Could Never Have Animals Again #Because Our Ferret's Water Bottle was Broken and I Didnt Know Until She Screamed at Me #When I was 12 She Said I Ruined Her Life by Being Born #When I Cut Myself and She Found Out She Made me Sit with Her and Plan What to do WHEN not IF she Found My Body #When I Tried to Kill Myself She Made it All About Her #I Did Choir for One Year and Stopped Because She Never Came to Concerts and Acted Like it was the Biggest Chore to Even Come Get Me #The Time She Accused me of Lying to my Fiance About Being Abused Because He Told Her I Have Panic Attacks When She Yells #All the Times I had to Be her Personal Therapist For Her Love Life #She Likes to Make Me Do Karaoke to Show Me Off #She Refused to Help Me Get a License #When I Told Her I Wanted to Live with Dad She Said My Bros Would Come With and theyd Never See Her Again #She Constantly Badmouthed Him Wherever She Could #Made Me Mad At Him Because He Wouldnt Be at My Birthday Parties (because Military) and Try to Make it Seem #Like He Wasnt There on Purpose #Would Refuse to Help Me with School and then Berated me for Failing #When I DID Ask for Help She Would Do it All then Yell at Me for Making Her Do it #Constantly Compared me to My Older Siblings Who I Didnt Even Know Yet and Made me Resent Them #I Took Care of My Brothers Growing Up. Not Her. But she Acts Like that Never Happened #A Bunch of Other Shit I Cant Even List #I Was Her Doll. Her Mini-Her. And Because of That my Bros Got it a Lot Worse #Anyway I have to See Her Today and I want to KMS #alex has the floor #tw: suicide #tw: abuse

[angelscorpses]

IM FUCKING CRYING I FOUND MT FIRST OUTSIDERS FANART WHY DID I DRAW DALLY SO CUNTY……

#the outsiders #dallas winston #i took the ‘elf ish features’ and ‘pointed ears’ seriously #cunty elf #angel rambles🎀 #i thinj like one person saw it on my main bc that was like my first post ever #they were fucking LYING when they said it was good bc what the freak

[philsmeatylegss]

A huge underlying view among many terfs that frustrates me beyond belief is Islamophobia. I have seen countless of posts from Terfs using the stories of abused Muslim women as an excuse to say the whole religion is oppressive and sexist. I have seen so many posts about how hijabs and burkas are oppressive and women who choose to wear them are working against women’s rights. They often imply that most of, if not all, Muslim men are violent in the name of religion. They fail to make the obvious connection between the fact that there’s a huge difference between fascist governments using Islam as an excuse to oppress women and actual Islam and Muslims. Ofc women should have the right to chose if they want to be religious, if they want to cover up, if they want to take on a submissive role. No one is denying that. The reasons those rights are taken from women, often in the Middle East (which is what terfs often reference), is the fault of the government, not the religion. Yeah, there are abusive men who will use Islam as an excuse for their actions. Just like there are Christian men who will use Christianity as an excuse for their actions. Same goes for pretty much all religions. People covering up their abuse under the guise of religion is not limited to just Islam. It happens in most religions. It’s happened pretty much since religion started.

It’s just so ignorant and out of touch and you know they have never spoken to a Muslim person. If they did, they would know Muslims are the same as Christians and Jews and atheists and so on. It’s not some evil curse. It’s a religion that mainly focuses on peace. And to demonize it, using the horrors women have faced as an excuse is just so messed up. Most people on the internet haven’t realized there’s a big difference between a religion and people using that religion as a coverup for their shitty actions. The existence of governments using Islam to persecute women is because of bad people, not Islam. Terfs just want one group of people to be declared bad so they can blame everything on them. They claim to want to protect all women, and then condemn an entire religion. They talk about horrid treatment of women and blame religion rather than the perpetrators. It’s a very common belief a lot of them hold and I never see it mentioned and it just really pisses me off.

#I haven’t gone on a terf blocking spree in a while but I just remembered one of those kinds of posts #I’m not lying when I say I have seen a lot of posts with this message #and it just makes me so mad #I was raised in a pretty much completely catholic town and I’ve always been insanely ignorant so it took me a solid four years to realize m #my close friend was Muslim #I didn’t realize it because she acted exactly the same #the only different thing was she didn’t eat meat and her family didn’t like to celebrate Halloween #that’s all I fucking knew #she was just a normal fucking person and her family was a normal fucking family #I hung out with her family when we were still friends and they were normal #and actually really kind #people #Muslims aren’t some exotic species #they are exactly the same #when not being influenced by the government #most Muslims just want a normal life just like how most Christian’s and Jews and atheists want a normal life #I just hate Islamophobia so much and I hate terfs so much and it just isn’t surprising the two overlap #before some lost angry terf finds this #no I’m not saying all terfs believe this #I’m sure there are Muslim terfs #I’m just talking about what I’ve seen when I’ve gone on blocking sprees #rae’s rambles #fuck terfs #terfs don’t touch #not terf safe #fuck radfems #tw terfs