Big TW for pet loss
Hey, clangen tumblr and those who just enjoy the silly cats on this blog. I know it's been a little bit of time since my last update, but unfortunately during the past few months, I have been caring for my closest friend, Comet.
She's been my best friend for 15 whole years, and on February 9th of 2024, I'm sad to say that she has passed. I won't lie when I say that this is one of the hardest posts I've ever made, but I want to continue this blog in her honor. Normally, I have a terrible habit of just letting projects like this slip by me and gather dust; however Comet was meant to play an integral part within the blog to immortalize her, and I refuse to let something meant just for her to go to waste.
I want to thank you all first of all for being such an amazing community. I've genuinely had so much joy come of this blog, and it pains me that I let it go stagnant for as long as I have. There are 568 of you now, which is so extremely wild to me; but I hope that from now on, you can all love Comet as much as I did, even if as a memory.
I hope to return to posting content both here and on my main, @mxssacre , but for now I still need time to grieve and come to terms with the loss of someone that was so incredibly intertwined with everything I've done since I was 9 years old.
Thank you for everything Comet, my heart, my soul, my love.
More of my favorite photos of her beneath the cut.
It's hard to choose favorites out of the thousands of photos I've taken of her over the years, but I hope these do her justice to show what an amazing being she was. I hope you're hunting your toy mice in the stars, Comet.
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Summary: Crosshair internalizes a comment a Kaminoan scientist says to him during a physical exam. It spirals faster than anyone could have expected.
This one is… well… it’s really personal. I’m going to be candid about what is inside of this fic so that you can be prepared. Discussion under the cut. TW for disordered eating under the cut.
This fic is going to contain disordered eating & discussions of weight loss and food restriction as well as negative body image and unhealthy coping mechanisms via a toothpick. Also some blood.
I'll be honest and say that I'm most afraid to post this fic out of every other fic I've ever posted. This is heavily based on my own experiences so please be gentle. If you read it just know that this isn't something I've taken or considered lightly. I've put a lot of thought and care into this one.
I’m going to have to ask that if you have struggled with this and are not in a place to handle reading something like this then please skip it. Please don’t read it. Please. If food is a topic you like to avoid please skip this. The discussions in this one are not vague and you need to take my tags seriously.
Also just know that it does get better and I am really in a great place, I promise.
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*READ THIS. SERIOUSLY.*
This pinned post is the only time you'll see me out of character in a text post, because this is important.
Every post on this blog has a massive unreality warning.
Was that loud enough for the folks in the back? No?
EVERY POST ON THIS BLOG HAS A MASSIVE UNREALITY WARNING.
Cool. You heard. And if you didn't, it is not my fault at this point, mkay?
This is a gimmick blog. Wherein I lie. Constantly. I will make posts about things that did not happen. I will make posts where I talk about clearly untrue things that I talk about as if they are true. If you ask me if I am lying, I will tell you no.
If any of this is a problem for you, block this blog. Please. I swear I will not take it personally.
All that said, there are some further details and some tags below the cut! Have fun, and enjoy reading!
THE TAGS
Everything on this blog with any lies in it will be tagged #unreality. Yes, everything. I'm not perfect, but I'll do my best!
Everything that refers to events that did not happen said in a way that implies they did will be tagged #unreal universe on top of the #unreality tag. I'm not sure that's the best phrasing,but hopefully it will be clear in action!
Answered asks will be tagged #ignored. Without the period.
Tags are where you will see any actual not-lies, if I deem them necessary. The pattern is lie tags, then categorization tags, then true tags. This is rare, and I will make it clear when it happens.
Any questions or comments on this system are welcome. Go ahead!
THE ONE WHO ALWAYS TELLS THE TRUTH
If you're confused by a post and want it in plaintext, summon @the-one-who-always-tells-the-truth. Without the period. Using an @. They will happily translate. And probably sigh at @the-one-who-always-lies.
A QUICK NOTE
I usually answer asks in a straightforward inverting-what-I-mean fashion so they're somewhat translatable. Other stuff is all sorts of lies.
HEY, I HAVE A QUESTION, BUT I WANT IT ACTUALLY ANSWERED WITHOUT THE LIES.
Send it to me off anon, and state clearly in the ask that you want the truth!
I think that's all. See you in the Lie Zone!
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An analysis on how Sir Pentious' character design represents his personality and development perfectly (beware of Hazbin Hotel spoilers)
Let's get this out of the way: Sir Pentious is a snake, an animal mostly known for generally believed negative traits such as poison, deceit and betrayal. We don't know WHY he's in Hell, maybe he was a "snake oil salesman" considering he comes from the Victorian times and he's into hyping up what he does, or maybe he was into war. Thing is, he's a Sinner whose design just scream "Evil".
(BTW, a snake could also represent "fertility": looking at you, Egg Boiz!)
He always had eyes all around him not just because of a stylistic choice.
Sir Pentious always felt like he was watched, and had to watch out for any danger.
"Everyone here is too nice: obviously it must be a lie! I can sense they are planning to kill me, but when?! HOW?! I must be PREPARED!"
Sadly, he's been constantly berated by other demons, far more effective in destruction, status, cruelty and charisma. Alastor won't ever bother to remember him, Cherri always ones up him, and the Vs, the ones he admires to most, won't care less about him.
To the point that Vox sent him as a spy without the intention to save him if things were going to fail. Heck, he even openly tells him to die while calling him a failure.
So of course he's got reasons to have trust issues, or taking everything so seriously, being constantly reminded of what he can't accomplish. So he puts an air of grandure that may be very flamboyant, but is VERY frail.
But, if we have to be frank here, his biggest source of insecurities... is himself.
He has eyes on his tail (his softer, more vulnerable side, which is ironically made even MORE lieable to getting hurt because of how sensitive those organs are), and inside his hood, so he could look out better for danger when on alert mode.
Heck, even the mark on his hood kinda resembles one eye.
Problem is, when you see his hood folded, when he's at ease, neutral or sad, those are not looking at outside sources.
They're looking at him, at his back. A constant stare that happens everytime he lets his guard down and shows how vulnerable he is. A gaze that can sense all of his weakness, his struggles, his insecurities.
And it's all him.
Pentious constantly believes that his inferiority complex will fade away once he'll accomplish something grand that will make others accept him. But he is his biggest critic, his worst enemy: HE is the one who believes he's a failure, that he'll never gain approval from others.
This show takes place in Hell, but this is Sir Pentious' personal Hell: insecurity born out of self hatred. Doomed to feel everyone's gaze upon him, including his own. Believing the danger to his self esteem is from others, when it's really from him.
But then he's accepted at the Hazbin Hotel: Charlie forgives him, he bonds with Angel, Husk and Niffty who don't care a bit about what he's accomplished or not, or what he's done in the past.
He feels more comfortable in showing his vulnerable side, and no one judges him for how easy it is for him to get emotional.
Of course he's still very insecure, considering how he struggles to confess to Cherri, but notice how he stops building machines or planning to attack others as soon as he starts bonding with the others: he doesn't have a reason to destroy or attack, now that he knows he's loved.
And his final design, when he goes to Heaven, shows how much he's changed, yet stayed the same. He may have died a hero, but he's still the same awkward snake we've come to love.
Speaking of love, let's talk about that!
No more eyes on his tail, now it's just on his chest (showing he's opened his heart), his glasses are now heart shaped, and even the markings inside his hood resemble kiss marks more than anything else.
And look: the mark on his hood is now heart shaped!
Why all these hearts? Why did all the eyes disappeared from his body? Even his eyes that were looking at his back?
Simple: love. Love defeated his insecurities and self hatred. He died for love.
He died protecting his friends, his new family, his new home.
He confessed and kissed Cherri knowing full well he wouldn't have made it, and yet he went anyway.
The usually cowardly and timid Pentious actually faced a great danger with courage and determination: he acted selflessly by putting himself in harm's way, he didn't steal (naturally) and by going against Adam he did indeed "stick it to the man"!
He used his weaponry knowhow and battle experience not to conquer, but to save his loved ones.
His only thought up until his demise was: "I'll go down protecting them".
And he's been rewarded not only by becoming an angel, but also being spawned directly in front of Emily and Sera, two Seraphim, the highest rank for an angel to have, who have also been depicted as snakes of fire throughout history! Sir Pentious, the lowly demon considered a failure by everyone, actually has been noticed by the Seraphim! He's come so far!
He's now come to represent the REAL symbolism of a snake: the duality of death and rebirth, transformation and immortality (ironically a reference to the fact he's been around since 1888 without ever dying from any Extermination or blessed weapons).
And isn't so poetic that a snake, the "source of the original evil", was the first sinner to ascend to Heaven? Or that this episode was released on February 1st, or National Serpent Day?
And of course, as the Bible itself says:
"Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends."
(John 15:13)
And knowing him, I'm confident in saying he'll keep helping his friends even in his new position, like the soft hearted noodle he's always been, but was to afraid to show it up until now.
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