#(and i guess there IS a point about the fact Cloud's trauma isn't supposed to be obvious at first glance since it's a plottwist)

[shikishake]

ik we're all freaking out about the ruby breakdown, and rightfully so it was an amazing scene but like.

I feel like ruby didn't go far enough, weirdly.

like don't get me wrong she said some nasty shit to her friends and was altogether very loudly not okay but, like, what I REALLY wanted is for her to be inarticularly screaming and yelling and hurling vile shit at her team for failing her or jaune for failing her or something in furious frustration. and we ain't getting that, and I feel like that's kind of the point.

a big part of ruby's character is that she isn't allowed to break down. she isn't supposed to be hurt. she isn't supposed to lose hope, or need help, or need someone to lean on. she's the one who picks the others up when they're down, if she lets herself even stumble then everything will go to shit.

and like the worst part is is she's RIGHT. multiple times she's been the only one that seemed to be capable of moving while everyone else fuckin breaks. the truth about ozpin, brunswick farms, argus, splitting from ironwood at the end of vol 7. every time things go wrong everyone around her breaks and it's only ruby being able to keep going that stops them from just giving up entirely.

ruby isn't allowed to be hurt. she has to bear the burden of making the big decisions for the group, and when things go wrong she isn't allowed to be upset about it. she has to keep going, because if things go wrong and she's not there to pick up the pieces, no one else will.

so even at her lowest, even when she's supposed to be snapping, she isn't allowed to REALLY snap. she bites her tongue, she holds back. because, though she said stuff that wasn't acceptable, the reality is that there were things that came to mind that would have been much worse and much more raw than what she DID say. when jaune gets in her face and blames her for the paper pleasers' destruction, for neo, for the fall of atlas and them ending up in the ever after, she doesn't bite back even though she really, really could have.

she could have pointed out the fact that everyone has pushed the responsibility of making decisions on her for the past few volumes, only speaking up when the choices she's been forced to make or the plans she's cobbled together don't work out. she could have pointed out the reality that even though jaune is also supposed to be a leader, he hasn't held up that responsibility in any major way for a while now. jaune didn't come up with a better plan for atlas. jaune didn't have a better way to deal with ironwood. they're supposed to be equals, but ruby has had to shoulder the responsibility of effectively being ozpin's replacement while jaune gets to just be one of the team.

but she doesn't. because she's not supposed to. her role in the group is to take the responsibility, take the blame, and not to make a fuss about it.

so it makes sense. but I really, really wanted her to throw it back in their faces. I really wanted her to say that if she failed so badly, let's see them do better. I wanted her to say "fuck it, I'm done. you guys figure it out."

because even if she fucked up, even if her plans didn't work out, nobody else was even trying.

edit: for the record this ain't me blaming the rest of the gang. ruby shouldering all the responsibility is just as much because she hasn't communicated her own feelings to her friends as it is that they've been letting ruby take charge. I just wanted to point out that I kind of felt frustrated that ruby's breakdown wasn't meaner, and that it fit.

doesn't mean there isn't a small, petty part of me that wanted her to spit in their faces. but that's my own trauma clouding my judgment.

idk where I'm going with this. I just have a lot of Feelings about ruby and her situation rn I guess.

#ruby rose #rwby #rwby9 #rwby spoilers

[icharchivist]

damn the internet is exhausting 😭 i find the designs of the new FF origins so silly and i would love to make more fun of it but just looking at people’s thoughts about it while they are angrily bitching or blaming Nomura for all the problems in the world is so exhausting like chill a little? 

#me: ahah pink prompto // some gamer online: nomura is SINGLEHANDEDLY RUINING FF and should be FIRED // me: . okay. #im not talking like actually legit critiscims (where are the girls Nomura. I am waITING.) #it's like people who have the same problems i do but they have a mental breakdown over it #I really don't like the designs in Origins so far i think they're super lazy like. really lazy. #but like i also remember that say Versus got a complete character redesign eventually #or that the very first look at the ff7r's designs were reworked as well bc of the backlash #(ppl didn't like seeing Cloud sickish.) #(i'm glad with the design they ended up going with!) #(but you guys really robbed me from 'actually looking like he spent the last 9 months underfed in the desert' Cloud smh.) #(im joking a little as much as i loved the first visuals idk if it would have worked the full game) #(and i guess there IS a point about the fact Cloud's trauma isn't supposed to be obvious at first glance since it's a plottwist) #and there was also the Mobius case where people didn't like that the guy MC was showing 'as much skin as the ladies' #ie: squares you are coward bring back the asscheek window this is a threat. #but yeah like square does have a history of redoing designs if they don't vibe with the public #so acting like this singlehandedly brought square to bankrupcy is like. are you okay. #did a badly designed trailer really made you forget that both ff7r and kh3 were commercial success. + the last nier? #anyway my point is that i would love to just bully the new design but the internet takes it too seriously and now i feel bad about it #i still will make fun of it though - *yzma's voice* it ain't gonna get any stupider #ichatalks #ichasalty #oh right and i forgot: Nomura is the designer/the one who pitched the idea #but he's not even the main producer... #and even if so like a game isn't the result of One Person this is silly stop