#((I'm sorry if I'm leaving anybody hanging - writing just isn't working for me at the moment.))

[luvleeknowie]

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ᴛᴡ/ᴄᴡ: ᴅᴏᴍ!ᴄʜᴀɴ ▪︎ ꜱᴡɪᴛᴄʜ!ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ ▪︎ ꜰᴀᴄᴇꜱɪᴛᴛɪɴɢ ▪︎ ᴏʀᴀʟ (ꜰ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍ ʀᴇᴄɪᴇᴠɪɴɢ) ▪︎ ɴɪᴄᴋɴᴀᴍᴇꜱ( ꜱʟᴜᴛ, ᴘʀɪɴᴄᴇꜱꜱ, ʙᴀʙʏ) ▪︎ ᴇɴᴇᴍɪᴇꜱ-ꜰᴜᴄᴋ ʙᴜᴅᴅʏ? ▪︎ ꜱᴛʀᴏɴɢ ᴜꜱᴇ ᴏꜰ ʟᴀɴɢᴜᴀɢᴇ.

(ᴍᴇᴀɴɪɴɢꜰᴜʟ) Qᴜᴏᴛᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴀʏ: "ɴᴇᴡ ʏᴏʀᴋ ꜱʜɪᴛᴛʏ. ʏᴇᴀʜ!"

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The door to the classroom bangs open to reveal Chan. Bang fucking Christopher Chan. He's standing near the doorframe with his bag swung over one of his shoulders. The teacher abruptly stops from whatever it was they were writing on the board and gives a piercing stare at the boy.

"Bang Chan, might as well have waited until class finished before returning." The teacher says sarcastically.

Chan halts in his steps.

"Yeah no, I was actually thinking that but I decided to come just in case...however if you insist-" He says turning on his heels.

"Bang... Christopher...chan.." the teacher says, gritting her teeth.

"If you think you are sooo damn funny, how about you stay back after school to clean up this entire classroom. Miss a bit and you'll be back tomorrow to do it again. Understand?" She says, retuning to the board.

He grits his teeth but takes a seat nonetheless. About 10 minutes later, the bell rings, and chans the first one on his feet.

"Hey guys, you know what funny?" The teacher says, poking her tongue in the inside of her cheek. "

"How I didn't ask anybody to get out of their seats. This is the last time I'm gonna tell you: the bell doesn't dismiss you, I do." She says.

"And don't think for a second that I forgot about the homework. Hand it in, in register order. Only after the first person puts their essay on my desk and leaves can the second person get up, this way I can have a clear view on who has done their work and who hasnt."She says, smiling devilishly.

"Fuck! There was homework?!" I whisper yell at my friend, Yeji, beside me.

"Gurl. I messaged you about this last night. Don't tell me you..." Yeji face palms.

Chan snickers as he gets up to put his paper away and leave. Asshole. Yeji also gets up to put her paper upfront. I try and act as if I'm looking for my paper in my bag, you know the saying "fake it till you make it"? Well that's basically my life motto.

"Kang Y/N." The teacher calls out to me.

I wear ms bag before walking to my teacher, with my head hanging low.

"Let me guess. Your dog ate it again?" She says, her arm crossed and her feet tapping the carpet floor.

"Y/N, this isn't you're first nor the second time. Hell, it isn't even the third time but seventh!!" She yells.

"Gosh, its your seventh time forgetting you're homework this month." She sighs emphasising the word 'month'.

"Sorry Miss, its just that-" She cuts me off.

"Uh- I don't want to hear it. You can join Chris later today." She says.

I take a quick glance at the doorframe to see chan holding his stomach, whilst laughing hysterically. Just you wait till this idiots done with me Christopher.

"Get out of my classroom! Next, kaeo yuruki." I walk out the classroom.

"My dog ate my homework." Chan mimicks, giggling to himself as I walk past. It takes every single cell in my body, not to punch that stupid grin off his face. That handsome yet equally annoying face.

Time skip~

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The final school bell rings, the teachers and students stampede out of the building. I do too when suddenly Yeji stops me.

"Y/Nah, you've got detention, remember?" She says.

"I'll just skip, what's she gonna do anyway? Call my parents? Exclude me?" I reply reassuringly.

"That's actually not a bad idea Y/N." A voice booms behind me.

Shit. What's she doing here?

"What're you doing Y/N? I thought I made it clear that you're cleaning the classroom. Go on now, I have to get home within 10 minutes. Here are the room keys, the caretakers leave at approximately 5pm and baring in mind that the room usually takes 4 grown adults to clean youll probably be here till 6." She says shoving the key in my face.

I bow before heading back. Yeji gives me a sympathetic smile before leaving. I open the classroom door, and boy was it a mess. I begin tidying up the teachers desk. I hear the classroom door open and then close shut. I turn around to see Bang Chan.

Me and him have never really been on good terms. When I first moved to this school, he asked me out and I rejected him infront of the whole school, baring in mind he was the most popular kid in school. This ruined his pride, self image and more vital aspects that keeps one at the top of a school hierarchy. Ever since then, we have been naturally sworn enemies. However, a very noticeable difference is that he was the most sought-after boy in the whole school - rich, handsome, smart, and athletic. Everybody wanted to be with him while I was just...me. A normal middle class girl with average grades, average friends, average body and average image.

He just walks in, shuts the door and plops himself on one of the decks, watching my every move like a freaking hawk.

"You got anything better to do than stare at me like a freak?" I ask him, rolling my eyes.

"Actually, no. Not when you look so fucking sexy while wiping the desk I'm gonna use to fuck you later." He replies, just as I was gonna look back.

Well that was....direct?? And random??

I feel a pair of arms snaking around my waist and soft lips brushing against the side of my neck.

"Ch-chan..."I stutter, as my bottom lip quivers.

He releases his hold on me and chuckles to himself.

"What wrong baby? What do you want?" He asks teasingly, placing small kisses on my neck.

"I want...please." I whimper, as his hands travel dangerously low.

Why am I losing control? I hate him. We just don't go well together. What's happening?

"What do you want Princess?" He teases.

"You chan. I want you. I want you to fuck me, eat me, ruin me."

He chuckles to himself before letting go off me. Earning himself a frustrated groan.

"Damn Y/N. Who would've thought that you were such a slut. All I did was back hug you and you already gave yourself in. And that too, to your sworn enemy. How pathetic." He says , smirking.

I mentally curse at myself for giving in so easily. I carry on tidying up the teachers desk before moving on to the students desks with chan just sitting there, awkwardly.

Chans POV:~

I initially didn't think I'd be sitting here, I was just gonna bunk detention however Mrs stupid Park caught me. Plus, I thought itd be fun to tease Y/N while I'm at it. You know?..for time pass. Unfortunately, my plan slightly slopped. That girl was doing a great deal of things to me.

When I first came in, I decided to tease her. A part of me felt bad but it was sexy hearing her whimper for me like that. However, the real deal started when she started to wipe the students desk. She bent down to pick up chewing gum from under the table, which lifted her skirt and revealed her baby pink laced panties. I sit in a really awkward position, trying my best for her not to notice my visible boner. That all changed when she moved towards me and bent down right infront of me to clean the desk I was sitting on. That pretty pussy sticking out with her head lightly bowing beneath me. I could feel my boner hardening to the point where it hurt like hell. Just as I was about to get down to leave this heated room, the sound of a key turning fills the room. Oh shit. I run up to the door and try opening it.

"HEY! HEY! IM IN HERE!" I say slamming on the door but to no avail.

"Jeez, calm down." A voice behind me startles me out of my worry.

"I've got the spare key." She says walking up to the door.

Y/N POV:~

I fumble with the lock for a bit and my face sinks, when the lights on the other side of the door turns off and the key doesn't unlock the door.

"Chan." I whisper.

"Hm?" He replies.

"I think...I think we're locked in." I say looking back at him.

"What? You said- are you sure?" He asks, regaining his strong composure.

I nod.

"Where's your phone?" I ask him sitting on  the nearest chair to me.

"In my car. What about you?" He asks me.

"I left it in my locker, since I was gonna do detention. So are we just stuck here?"

"Yup." He says, simply taking the seat directly in front of me so that we are both facing each other.

We just sit there for a few minutes, literally doing nothing. Just sitting. And thinking. It starts to get extremely hot, so I remove my blazer, revealing my tank top. It was a v-neck, so my cleavage was pretty exposed. I hear a gulping sort of sound, and I look up to see Chan staring down at me, his eyes lingering where they shouldn't for a little too long. I clear my throat, and he averts his gaze abruptly. His cheeks flush red.

"Why are you so shy all of a sudden?" I ask, walking up to him.

It's boring in here, who knows how long we'll be stuck in here for? Plus he teased me earlier so I think we can do with a little revenge.

"Do you not like to look at my chest?" A sudden gush of courage goes through me. I don't know what and why I'm doing what I'm doing, but the reaction on his face is simply priceless. To be honest, I'd be cringing if anybody asked me that question, however his facial expressions says other wise. It's as if he's getting turned on...

I start getting a bit frustrated by the lack of response. Slowly but surely I'll get him to move.

"You know what chan? Fuck it. You're hot. Infact you're beyond hot, you're- fuck. You're a divine. You're visuals, you're voice, you're hands- oh those fucking fingers..." I whisper, slowly losing control.

"Oh really? But I thought I was your "enemy,". He snickers.

"Fuck that." I reply hastily.

"We both now that I'd much rather fuck you." He grins.

"Oh cmere you-" I say, grabbing him by the collar and connecting our lips.

He tangles his fingers in my hair, deepening the kiss. He slowly sucks and bites on my lower lip before sliding his tongue in my mouth. He removes his hands from my hair and gropes my ass, all the while carrying me , and sitting me down on the corner of teachers desk.

"You have no damn clue.... how much.... I've wanted this." He says in between kisses.

I smile into the kiss and he slowly unbuttons my uniform blouse. I copy his actions on his first few buttons before unzipping his pants. I then unloosen his tie. Damn. Just imagining him fucking me with a loose tie and top buttons undone drives me insane. He finishes stripping me until all that's left is my under garments.

He reconnects our lips, before unclipping my bra and letting it fall down my arms. He throws it somewhere across the room. He then gently pushes me down so that I'm laying down on the desk. He looks down at me smirking, before lowers his head down on my clothed pussy and licks a stripe up it. I lift my hip up for him to discard my underwear, which he doesn't. Instead he takes it off and stuffs it in his pocket.

He takes a few moments to just stare me down, his eyes traveling from my lips, to my chest, to my stomach and finally my pussy. He takes a good 2 minutes just to stare and blow at my displayed private.

"What a pretty pussy. All for me." Is the last thing he says before practically diving in. He licks and sucks on my folds. In between every few sucks, he spits on it and watches as the spit swims down my folds.

After a while, I feel a familiar knot in my stomach. Honestly I'm not surprised I was so quick to feel my orgasm approaching. I mean not only is this man's tongue working magic, but his intense gaze on my clit is making me feel all sorts of things. It's making me feel special. As if I'm the most beautiful thing he's ever laid eyes on.

"I'm gonna cum Chan."

I let my cum loose and watch it as it paints chans nose, and plump lips.

"You gonna fuck me now?" I ask, breathlessly. Gazing at his glistening face.

"No." He replies.

"What?" I ask him again, doubting my hearing. Was I not good? Did I make weird sounds?

"I want to taste you. More of you. I mean- if that's alright..." He says wiping his mouth with the back of his sleeve.

I nod at him, and without wasting another second he takes my position on the desk, and lays himself down as I sit up.

"Sit on my face baby." He says. The fuck?

"Sit on your-  wait wouldn't that suffocate you- I don't wanna hurt-" Before I could even finish my sentence he grabs me by the hips and pushes me into his face. My eyes naturally roll back.

"That's right. Put all your weight on me. Suffocate me with that deliciously pretty pussy of yours Princess." He mutters, slurping at my wetness.

His nose gently hits my clit earning a series of moans from my mouth. His tongue explores more and deep into my pussy; one spot in particular catching my upmost attention.

"R-right there baby. Right there." I moan arching my back as he penetrates his tongue in and out of me.

I begin moving up and down on his face, concerns of his oxygen completely leaving my head and being replaced by pleasure. Bliss. Lust.

"Cmon baby. Cum for me." He growls into my cunt, the sensation making me go wild.

After a few more thrusts I release onto his tongue, which he happily collects. He then gathers somem of my cum in his tongue and shuffles back up to eye level before connecting our lips and pushing the excess cum into my mouth. I hum against his mouth.

"That was great! But now it's my turn." I say pushing him back down by the chest. He props himself up via his elbows and stares at me intently. I seductively crawl I over to him, until my face is just above his covered crotch, which by now is evidently hardened. I unzip his pants and take it down with his boxers, all the while maintaining eye contact. I then leave small licks across the base and side of his cock before taking it all in one go.

He wraps a handful of my hair around his fists and guides my head in and out of his dick. Making sure that his red leaking tip hits the back of my throat with each thrust.

"Ahhh~ fuck." He moans, tilting his head back.

The action, motivating me to carry on. I bop my head on his hardened member, rolling my tongue over his slit with my warm mouth around his thick, cock grants plenty of high pitched moans.

"Such a pretty sight. Watching those pretty lips wrap around my cock while I face fuck you."

"Ngh~ oh baby."

"Mmm~ just like that... That's a good girl."

"Ah yes. Fuck yes."

" I'm gonna cum baby. Take in every drop like the slut you are. Go on. Otherwise we'll be here all night until you do so properly."

I feel his twitch in my mouth and not surprisingly he cums. I make sure to take in every last drop.

I swallow his seeds and just as I was about to pull out...

"Yo."

"Yo."

"Yo."

"Yo"

"Chan. Where you at chan?"

"Expose your whereabouts or I'll tell the school that you're actually half 52 and you're disguised as a student cuz you're a pedo."

"Seungmin?" Chan mutters.

"Jisung and hyunjin??" I whisper back, finally letting go of his dick.

"What are they doing here?" I ask.

Before both me and chan could react the classroom door swings open.

"Hey chan? Guess what? So miss freaking Park found us outside and was like, "Yo han, you're chans friend right? Well I can't find any of Y/N's friends, who are way more responsible than you so I guess I'll have to trust you with this instead. And then she dangled a key infront of my handsome precious, lovable, exotic-" han gets cut off.

"We get it jisung get to the point." Hyunjin says, sounding visibly annoyed.

"Well she dangled the key infront of my amazing face and I was all like, "hey miss P, the fuck is that?" And she was like "I gave Y/N the wrong key and now I think she's locked in with chan." And I was like "go do it yourself fat ass but she was like "HAN JISUNG!" and then me and hyunjin and seunmin ran here...After grabbing the key of course. And you know what's the funny part? Well when I was running-"

"Han." Seungmin says tapping him on the shoulder with open eyes.

Me and chan just couldn't move, it was like after shock where our brains were just not braining.

"No, seungmo, let me finish." He says.

"And then I tripped over this massive di-"

"Han..look." hyunjin says this time.

Han finally stops and turns his gaze to us. Before anybody could do anything, hyunjin runs away, and seungmin hides in a locker; well he tries to and han...han puts his empty cheesecake box on his head to mimic a blindfold. He politely closes the door and leaves.

"SHIT."

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#smut #stray kids #straykids smut #kpop smut #bangchan #bangchanff #smuts #skz ff #skz #skz x reader #skz x y/n

[justatypicalwizard]

The Weight of a Butterfly | Chapter 2

✦ Shinazugawa Sanemi x femReader

✦ Synopsis: Sanemi gets a new Butterfly Girl who he really doesn't like at first, or even at all. Or maybe he does? Short, heartwarming, fluff story.

✦ Warnings: reader is described as an orphan, no smut

✦ From author: This is my first book written in English. It does contain a bunch of mistakes and overall isn't that great when it comes to writing skills. Nonetheless, I have a great sentiment for it and still adore the plot, that's why I decided to (re)post it. If you want to see my writing progress you can catch up on one of my more recent works.

Word count: 0,7k

You were lost, it was getting dark. Twenty minutes and the sun will set. You never even got to know your Pillar, but you already underestimated him. Once you got picked for him he said, right there and then, that you have ten minutes to gather your stuff and both of you will leave, if you won't make it you will have to find a way to his Estate on your own.

You didn't take him seriously, how could you? This was possibly the last time you will see your friends for at least half a year. Ten minutes was far too little to say your goodby. When you got to the gate and asked for Shinazugawa, you learned that he had already taken off forty minutes ago. There was no way you could find him.

Here you are, alone, in the middle of idon'tknow, and it's nearly dark. If something will kill you it will be his fault, that's what you've written in your testament that you made up on a tissue.

After walking for a short while you saw some lights. There must be a town that way, or at least a village. You ran there as fast as you could because the sun had already set and you didn't want to meet any demons.

While at the village you tried to look for someone to talk to. It was late so most of the houses were already locked and the lights were out. You didn't want to wake anybody up. You spotted an inn, but just as you were about to step in a big man came flying out of it. Poking your head in the doorframe you saw a fight going on in the middle.

Wandering a little bit more you started to feel desperate. The inn didn't look like a good place to sleep for a girl dressed as a small butterfly. Knocking at someone's door may not end well and sleeping on the street also doesn't sound good. What to do?

You spotted a stall with some food. There was a woman standing in it. You quickly made your way to her and took a seat lifting the hanging materials to hide your head in the small, hot space.

''Welcome, what for you?'' The woman had a round face and a pink outfit, she had a friendly appearance.

''A piece of advice.'' You joked, still not giving up on your humour.

''What happened?''

''I've lost my master... well, in fact I didn't obey him in the first place and now I believe this is my punishment.'' Your head sank.

''Why did you disobey him? Masters are all about listening to them, they usually know better.'' She crossed her hands on her chest.

''I know I know, I feel embarrassed because of this and I'm sorry. He's my new master and I've only learned his name yet, I already disappointed him.''

''And what is that master's name? Maybe I know him.''

''Shinazugawa.'' You answered.

''Oh child, you're lucky!'' You looked up at her and her big grin. ''I do know him!''

''Really?!''

''Yes, and I need to say, you better obey him next time, listen to what I say child.'' She poked a finger at you.

''I know I will! I feel really embarrassed about my behaviour, just like I said. Uh, if I could only say that to him. Maybe he wouldn't be so angry with me.''

''Happy to hear you are actually embarrassed, but don't think, for even a moment, that I'm any less angry with you.'' You felt a shiver run down your spine as you heard that voice.

Darting your head to the side you saw a pair of pale, lavender eyes staring into your soul.

''Welcome master.'' Your head sank a second time, really deep.

''Yes, yes, welcome Shinazugawa! What can I serve for you today?'' The woman from the stall didn't lose her spirit seeing you getting scolded.

Your master ordered some food and the two of you sat in silence. When the woman brought his bowl you looked at it in a longing way.

''Anything for you dear?'' She asked.

You put your hand into your pocket to find some coins. Next, you gave Shinazugawa a look, but he pretended that he didn't see you. Finally you took out everything you had and placed it on the counter.

''Anything for that.'' You mumbled.

''You are lucky that you got here.'' Shinazugawa finally opened his mouth to you.

He was done with his supper and you were afraid that he would run away again, as your food only arrived. You started to eat the small bowl of soup as quickly as you could.

''Why do you act like a pig?'' Your master gave you a mental kick in the butt.

''Sorry, I don't want you waiting again.'' You mumbled finishing the bowl.

''Don't be so hard on her, she was really sorry earlier.'' The woman laughed.

''Thank you for the meal.'' Shinazugawa left and you hopped after him.

''Don't slow me down to much.'' He threw your way.

Now I know why no one wanted him.

SERIES MASTERLIST

#demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #kny #demon slayer sanemi #kimetsu no yaiba sanemi #sanemi shinazugawa #sanemi x reader #sanemi x you #college #university #college student #shinazugawa x reader #demon slayer shinazugawa #shinazugawasanemi #sanemi x y/n

[creepy-crowleys]

((I think I need a break.))

((I'm still hurting after everything that happened late last year. And I don't know why it's flaring up so bad now of all times, but everything just feels like so much right now and I'm tired.

It feels so stupid to get worked up over, but I can't handle feeling like it's only a matter of time before it happens again. Something I enjoy doing shouldn't be making me feel this anxious, heh... Weird how that happens.))

#((I'm sorry if I'm leaving anybody hanging - writing just isn't working for me at the moment.)) #.FROM THE HANDLER

[writer-monster]

11 reasons why cap 4 should reintroduce Bucky Barnes as the love interest, an essay

to start this off, i am not writing this essay from a shipping place nor do i believe that this would have any influence at all over the upcoming movie. i expect nothing. this is simply something that i would personally like to see. (of course no hate to anybody who thinks differently)

here are 11 reasons why i think making Bucky into Sam Wilson's love interest in Cap 4 would be a good move for Disney.

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1. on the Chinese film market - and why it's an irrelevant argument against the inclusion of homosexual themes in Cap 4

the Chinese film market is something that has been blamed for a lack of diversity in Hollywood films a lot lately. many people claim that this market with a lot of buying power has been responsible for the lack of gay and black representation in particular within Hollywood films.

and we have certainly seen Hollywood treating it as such, going so far as to cut gay scenes from movies for their Chinese releases, and vastly minimising John Boyega's (a black actor's) presence in the Chinese poster of Star Wars The Force Awakens.

[image ID: on the left is an image of the American poster for Star Wars The Force Awakens, featuring John Boyega prominently on the right-hand side. And on the right is the Chinese poster for the same movie, in which John Boyega is barely visible.]

so we know at the very least that Disney believes this through their own actions and efforts to self-censor for the different markets.

but Captain America 4 is a black-led movie, don't you forget. and Disney can't minimise Sam Wilson/Anthony Mackie in the movie or the poster because it's his movie and his poster. and no amount of creativity in the editing room can change that (thank God!).

so if by their own argument the film is already going to be either banned, panned or slammed in China... then what do they have to fear from making it a gay movie too?

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2. oh, the queerbaiting

queerbaiting is an unusual cultural idea. and sometimes i find myself thinking that the term is far too easily used, but then all of a sudden i will stumble upon a movie or show that is so quintessentially cruel and overt in it's... well... queerbaiting that i will start to wonder what the hell kind of a bizarre relationship all these straight people seem to have with their friends. take Troy and Abed from Community or John and Sherlock from Sherlock as the perfect examples of this. (in which my reaction to the show's creators saying the show wasn't gay was to ask so then why did you make it so gay?!)

i felt that Sam Wilson and Bucky Barnes in tfatws were getting quite close to this level of queerbaiting.

there was the field scene, the couple's counselling scene, the boat scene, the couple's counselling scene, Bucky going with Sam to face Karli when she told Sam to come alone, the couple's counselling scene, ALL the staring scenes, Sam checking out Bucky's ass here as they said goodbye, the "i would move in with him but" hidden scene, "Uncle Bucky" showing up at the cookout scene, the romantic walking off together into the sunset together ending scene, and the couple's counselling scene. did i forget anything? but i mean seriously, the couple's counselling scene!!! that thing they did with their legs and their crotches while staring deep into each other's eyes, would any straight guy willingly do that? do straight guys crotch-snuggle now?

[image ID: an image of Sam Wilson and Bucky Barnes during the therapy scene with the quote, "Isn't anybody going to drag me into impromptu couple's therapy and slot my legs firmly between theirs before staring deeply into my eyes?"]

(yeah i stole this image from a buzzfeed article on the fan reactions to the couple's therapy scene. but given that they stole 80% of the content of that article from fandom tumblr, i think it's pretty even-steven.)

there's also the fact that people started talking about bisexual Bucky Barnes a lot after the tiger pictures line, and the lead writer Malcom Spellman responded to the talk of Bucky's bisexuality with "just keep watching". well we watched, Malcolm. but it's beginning to feel like you were just jerking us around.

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3. the writing

seriously though, what else is Bucky Barnes doing right now in the MCU? his only remaining connection to anything going on right now is through Sam. there is literally nothing else established that's left for him to do that doesn't involve Sam. he moved to Louisiana to be closer to Sam (canonically), he hangs out with Sam's family (canonically), and Steve is presumably gone and is definitely not coming back for more adventures.

he has no villains or loose ends left. he has no other superheroes that he appears to be in contact with. he has no girlfriend or potential love interest, or even other friends or family. he is living in a tent that he has secretly set up in Sam's backyard and is mysteriously appearing from the bushes when it's time for dinner like a stray cat.

in my opinion there is no other meaningful and pre-established progression for Bucky's character that wouldn't just feel cheap.

plus, i don't think the general audience would be all that surprised if they kissed. i think a LOT of people picked up on all that tension. i think a lot of straight people picked up on all that tension too.

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4. the chemistry between the actors & the chemistry between the characters

the original pitch for tfatws was essentially just this, it was the chemistry between Sebastian Stan and Anthony Mackie and their respective MCU characters of Bucky Barnes and Sam Wilson.

now obviously Anthony and Sebastian are simply friends, and i wouldn't mean to imply anything more. but they are also not their characters.

Sam and Bucky's scenes together before tfatws were both limited and short, and yet audiences still fell in love with the dynamic between the two characters.

in interviews, these two actors are constantly slipping into character and flirting with each other and frankly it's adorable. plus it's really entertaining. i'd love to see that dynamic, unfiltered, in a movie.

because believe it or not the flirting is actually even more open in their interviews than it was in tfatws. and i'm leaving some links as proof.

this here is known as the "married" compilation

and here's a "lucky dip" selection of interviews - 1, 2, 3, 4, 5,

and here's Anthony trying to get Seb to take his jacket off.

i'm just saying, why not let their chemistry shine? these two are so talented and so entertaining, especially when you put them in a room together. and can you imagine how absolutely hilarious and brilliant it would be to watch them navigate being a couple?

(and for those who bring up the "friends would be uncomfortable pretending to be dating" argument, i'm not here asking for a sex scene or anything. i don't think anyone would expect them to show any more intimacy (physical or emotional) while playing a couple than what they've already shown together in say... tfatws or in their own interviews. not that i actually expect anything regardless.)

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5. if they were a man and a woman they would've gotten together in tfatws

i have no more to add here. just that... yeah, they would've.

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6. and i'm not talking about the comics here, i'm talking about the MCU.

i understand fully that none of what i'm saying here falls in line with these characters from the comics. but the mcu itself doesn't fall much in line with the comics either, and these two characters especially are very different from their comics counterparts.

i'm not asking for these two to get together in the comics. tbh i don't think that it would work.

but the mcu Sam and Bucky are different and closer than their comics counterparts. they've got different histories, different backstories, and a very different dynamic. please rest assured that i am only talking about them in the mcu.

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7. Bucky Barnes is believably bisexual. and Sam Wilson has never been proven to be straight in the mcu, nor has he had a love interest.

(now please continue to keep in mind that these points only stand for the mcu versions of Bucky Barnes and Sam Wilson, and not at all for their comics counterparts.)

Sam Wilson has never had a love interest, which is crazy because have you seen that man! he has had two blink and you'll miss it moments of verbal expression of attraction to women, both in TWS. and that's the extent of it, through his entire history in the mcu.

Bucky Barnes has had a number of surface-level female love interests, but none of them even came close to the level of connection and chemistry that Bucky shares with Sam.

and i'm sorry SarahBucky fans, but i just don't think there's very much to their relationship either. i love Sarah, i really do. but it's Sam who shares all the meaningful moments and history and chemistry with Bucky. and i don't see what making her into a love interest would do for Sarah's character either, what would that add to her story?

[Picture ID: Bucky at the cookout with Sam, Sarah, Cass and AJ. Bucky and Sam are looking at each other and smiling.]

and also there is the whole tiger pictures thing... again. which does strongly suggest that Bucky is bisexual whether this was intentional on behalf of the writers or not.

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8. it's representation... AND it feels natural

marvel hasn't had a lot of queer representation that's been noticeably present in the MCU at the time of writing this.

there have been a lot of failures so far, from the bisexual erasure of Valkyrie in Thor Ragnarok to the wlw erasure in Black Panther.

there was queerbaiting almost identical to the bisexual Bucky baiting for Guardians of the Galaxy Vol 2. when asked if he had considered featuring a gay hero in gotg2, director James Gunn stated that "We might have already done that. I say, watch the movie." after the movie's release audiences were understandably confused about the lack of queer representation. To which the director followed up his comments with, "But we don't really know who's gay and who's not. It could be any of them."

there is also Loki, considered by most fans after the airing of his six episode series on Disney+ to be both a poor attempt at both genderfluid representation and bisexual representation. with both attempts being summed up fairly well by the term "blink-and-you'll-miss-it". (also it's just terribly written and Loki doesn't wear any interesting clothes! fanficcers are a Goddamn blessing in this hard time!)

and let us not forget that Andrew Garfield was apparently FIRED for pushing for a bisexual spiderman. a bisexual spiderman within an interracial mlm relationship no less.

so for all these failures, marvel, why not allow us queer fans this? two brilliant and heroic men in a loving interracial relationship. two heroes that we can look up to.

now, one of the biggest detractions from the argument for representation is the idea of "forced diversity". and some poorly written characters certainly do end up feeling forced into the narrative. take Iceman in the comics for example, with Jean Grey just straight up suddenly telling him he's gay. like, marvel, sweetie, that's not how this works! and i don't know a lot of queer people who thought much of that "representation".

but the crux of the "forced diversity" argument is almost always that it feels unnatural within the story, right? and i don't think that anyone could say that about MCU Sam and Bucky ending up together, given these characters' existing chemistry and their history. they've both played characters in gay relationships before so we know that it's not outside of either actor's wheelhouse. and y'all know that Anthony and Seb can act, people. if it's in the script i believe that they'll make it seem like the most natural thing on earth.

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9. it'd be a nice change

there's been an ongoing meme lately about "Disney's first gay character", the joke being that they continually announce gay characters without really ever including gay characters in their films.

this is to the point where Disney has formed a reputation amongst queer audiences of being homophobic.

if Sam and Bucky were to become a couple, then Disney could have its first actual gay character within a gay relationship. AND have him be in the lead of his own movie, no less.

it's also worth keeping in mind that there's likely an overlap between the people who were outraged by a Sam Wilson Captain America, and the people who'd be outraged by a gay Captain America. and if they were already not seeing the film, then i don't think much is gonna change that.

queer audiences would definitely love it, and the media attention would be guaranteed to be huge. i mean, simply look at the amount of media attention mere rumours of a character's queerness gets you and multiply that by a canon confirmation of said rumours.

but i'm pretty sure that Disney already knows this.

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10. and yet, in truth, it's not about the representation

in truth i've never felt that i had any trouble relating to characters of any sexual orientation, race, gender, sex, body type, etc. (although that is not to throw any shade at all on people who do wish to see themselves represented) but for me, i think it's more about the story than the packaging.

and yet, a love story is still just a story. straight or queer, monoethnic or interracial. when two characters have chemistry and history and have sacrificed for each other time and time again, and they also can't keep their hands or their eyes off each other, then i'm pretty sure that that's a love story.

straight or queer, monoethnic or interracial, it shouldn't be about these simple labels. it should be about how well written the relationship is. it should be about chemistry, and history, and sacrifice.

because i'm fucking sick of all the hollow, forced romances in media no matter the genders of the participants. i'm sick of lazily written, shallow relationships where any two people sharing the same space for any extended period of time will simply fall in love. it's boring, it's repetitive, and as a writer myself it drives me up the wall!

romance stories suck! and everyone knows that romance stories suck. between twilight, and most of the entire YA genre, and love triangles (so boring), and romance used as poorly-written throwaway subplots in Hollywood movies, the world is in agreement that the romance in western media is simply dreadful. and yet we still want love stories. it's an entire genre that sits at the heart of the human experience (<3), and yet one which so few of today's best known writers seem truly able to capture.

i don't think that i'm the only one who feels this way, either. i suspect it's actually a large part of why fandom is so romance-centred in the first place, that we're all just starving for a good love story.

(btw i think fandom has a reputation for being something that as a whole that it is not. it has this reputation for straight up demanding things and harassing people until they get their way. while unfortunately there are a few people who do this, they're fucking annoying and i swear that they're far from the majority.

in my experience fandom is mostly about writing a five thousand word story at three am while drunk off your ass because it might make someone whom you've never met smile, editing it in the cold light of day, and then posting it. expecting nothing. sometimes getting nothing. and sometimes getting someone send you kudos or a comment so heartbreakingly wonderful that it makes you smile in return.)

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11. so once again, it is all about the writing.

i want to see Sam and Bucky get together in the mcu, not because they would be a gay couple but because i genuinely believe that their story has potential to be an amazing love story.

and i know the mcu isn't about the romance. it's why in my personal opinion we haven't gotten a lot of good canon romances besides Peter Quill and Gamora. and i don't think that the mcu should be all about the romance either. i fucking love the action and the fighting scenes. i love the comedy. Captain America: The Winter Soldier had no romance and it was a fucking treasure, it was an amazing spy-action-thriller and it made my little gay heart dance. Thor Ragnarok had no romance, and it was an utterly brilliant comedic spectacle action film. not every movie needs romance.

but mcu Sam Wilson and Bucky Barnes were doing couple's therapy and fixing a boat and walking off into the sunset together in tfatws. they were inseparable on the battlefield. they've got a dynamic. it's beautiful, it's romantic, and it's gold.

a budding relationship between them in the next movie would be a good way to explore both characters more without the narrative feeling too stilted and separate. at the end of tfatws, both Sam and Bucky fans found that their respective fave felt somewhat underutilised and that their characters were underexplored.

now, that problem would be even more difficult to remedy in a movie, because the plotline of a movie needs to be really tight to work (giggity). and we know that the central conflict of the movie is gonna be action-based (which is good), but we still need each character's personal journey and growth to tie into the main conflict. (which is another issue that some fans found with tfatws, that these characters didn't really feel connected to the action-based plot on a more personal level.)

if Sam and Bucky are already in a relationship, however, this whole dynamic changes. first, their relationship has already been set up for nicely since TWS and through tfatws and they would officially be the best-fleshed-out couple in the mcu. but most importantly, a relationship gives them a perfect vehicle to explore both of their pasts comparatively and connect them personally to the action-based plot.

do you want to establish that Sam is a little too trusting and naïve? then establish this through his relationship with Bucky, and through showing his placing his trust in Bucky. (rather than through having him sympathise with a villain who threatened to murder his sister and his nephews).

perhaps you want to show Bucky recovering from his trauma? show us how comfortable he is with Sam. they get along, they're enjoying each other's presence, we see more of Sam's life and of his family, and then let Bucky tell Sam something that's raw and dark and honest about his life as The Winter Soldier. something about a memory, one that he only just recalled. he's opening up. and maybe what he tells Sam is even something that sets up the future action-based conflict, to ground that in something real.

you want to explore that Sam has trauma too? do this through Bucky. he tells Bucky a story about his time in the military. in the form of a flashback, he shares his own story of loss to evoke before the audience the shared theme of feeling at fault even when you're simply a helpless bystander to an act of pure destruction.

then, action sequence! and it's directly connected to Bucky's time as the Winter Soldier. explore the grief of someone whose life the Winter Soldier tore apart manifesting into a villain perpetuating the cycle of pain. establish your villain.

Later, Sam is dragged into battle against this villain for protecting Bucky. But Bucky doesn't want Sam to protect him. He feels guilt for what he can't control and he doesn't want Sam getting hurt because of him. Bucky reminds Sam that he has a family, one who needs him and who loves him. He tells him to go home.

Sam reminds Bucky that he's a part of that family. And that sure Sam's a hero and his job is to protect anyone and everyone, but that he's doing it because he wants to. It's not simply to prove that he can, or to prove that he's not a bystander (this connects to Sam's trauma here), but that he's doing it to help people.

and this gets Bucky thinking about who he is and what he's doing here. is he a hero who stands by Sam's side? or is he an ordinary man who stands aside? or perhaps, does he stand alone? what does he stand for? Maybe Sam knows. But does Bucky?

Sam and Bucky fight off the villain again, and for the first time Bucky meets this adversary face to face. And Bucky recognises this villain, and has a flashback to the genuine pain that he inflicted upon them in the form of the Winter Soldier. Bucky freezes mid-fight, he almost dies, and Sam has to save him.

Sam chews Bucky out for almost getting killed because he was afraid for him. but Bucky takes this the wrong way and goes off to fight the villain alone, or perhaps to die alone, he's not quite sure.

He puts up a half-hearted fight. He apologises for what the Winter Soldier has done, and he waits for the killing blow, when Sam swoops down and he saves him. He asks Sam why he saved him and Sam calls him a moron. And then, Sam asks him what sacrificing himself would solve. He tells him that you can't choose your past but you can choose your future (connecting to his own experience of loss and guilt and grief). And that no matter what Bucky Barnes still has a future, whether that's as the Winter Soldier or the White Wolf or just some dork with a day job. And that he has a future as a part of Sam's family too.

Sam fights the villain, and it's toe to toe. He delivers a few good blows, but receives a fair few himself. And then the villain tears off his wings, first one and then the other, in a manner reminiscent of what the Winter Soldier did to him in TWS. Through Bucky's eyes there's a flashback to highlight the parallels. Sam gets back on his feet and he fights his best fight, but is now losing.

And then the heavily injured Bucky steps up and fights by Sam's side, and only together do they take down the villain.

"So... I inspired you, huh?" Sam teases with a smile, utterly exhausted. "With my heroism and-"

"You inspired me." Bucky said, equally exhausted. "Let's leave it at that."

Together, Sam and Bucky go back to the safety and warmth of their family. Sam fixes his wings. Sam goes back to being Captain America. And Bucky... he's around, but it's unclear what he's doing.

That is, until the very end. When Sam is in a fight, and suddenly Bucky shows up and helps him out.

"What are you doing here?" Sam asks.

"I've made up my mind." Bucky says. "I'm the Winter Soldier. But now I'll save lives, Sam. Now, like you, I'll be a hero."

Sam smirks. "So does this make you my sidekick, then?"

Bucky smiles. "C'mon, at least make me a partner." He says.

"How about co-workers." Sam says (in flashback, he remembers back to the death of his last on-the-job partner).

"How about friends." Bucky says, with a wry look.

"Bucky... I don't want to see you put your dumbass self in danger." Sam says.

"Oh, and it's ok for you to go running off into danger on your own all the time?" Bucky asks.

"Yes." Sam says stubbornly. "Absolutely it is."

"Why?"

"Because I'm not a dumbass?!"

"Sam, if you think I'm not gonna be watching your back for the rest of time... then you're the biggest dumbass I know. And I don't care if you need me or not, I will be there for you."

"Because Sam, you're more than Captain America. You're more than a good soldier. You're a good man. And I think sometimes, the world forgets what the difference is."

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...or something like that.

(i only spent like 15 minutes on that. you know if i were actually writing this movie i would come up with something much better. and if anyone from marvel is seeing this, yes i can come work for you. i will make the time, let's do this thing right!)

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finale

at the end of the day, whether or not the mcu chooses to make Sam Wilson and Bucky Barnes a couple, it's their decision. and they don't owe me anything.

i'm just some random person on the internet. who thinks that Captain America 4 should #givecaptainamericaaboyfriend

#givecaptainamericaaboyfriend #meta #analysis #captain america 4 #caatws #fatws #tfatws #captain america #cap 4 #sam wilson #bucky barnes #sambucky #marvel #mcu #mcu phase 4

[to-hell-and-beyond]

Were Your Love Lies

Robby Keene x Female Reader

Requested: Yes : No

Request: If your requests are open and of course if you want to write this, I would love to read a Robby Keene x reader were reader is friends with Sam and likes Robby(the feelings are reciprocated). But he and Sam are exes and so reader is hesitant to date Robby because of girl code. Sam can be back with Miguel or at least she’s over Robby. If you hate this idea you are more than welcome to ignore! -Anon

Ok, sorry this took sooooo long. I kinda made Sam the enemy because that's the kinda mood I am in today. I hope you enjoy.

Summary: You and Robby have gotten closer ever since his breakup with Sam. You decided that a beach party s the best time to tell your best friend your feelings about her ex. That is until a very big secret unfolds...

Words: 1580

The sounds of skateboards hitting concrete echoed around you and Robby as you walked by. It had become a common accurce for the both of you to be walking around town. The two of you had gotten closer as your best friend Sam had taken some time off. You barely saw her anymore, just at the dojo. You knew she had been hanging out with the Cobra a lot more but you were still ok with it. She was your best friend and she could have more than one friend.

But you did wish you could talk to her because of the girl code. Because you had been spending so much time with Robby, you felt your feelings of him grow more into a romantic feeling. You wanted to tell Sam and ask her for her blessing. But every time you seemed to try to talk to her she would make up some sort of excuse.

“I was thinking that maybe we could talk Mr.LaRusso to going to visit the beach this weekend. What do you think?” Robby asked as your eyes went glossy looking into the sky.

“Y/n?” He asked again as it finally got your attention.

“W-what? S-sorry, what are you saying?” You chucked as you turned to face him. He had his sweet smile on his face and his hair sparkled and shined from the rays of sun hitting him. You wished you could take a photo of him right now and keep it forever. He looked so beautiful in that moment.

“It’s ok Y/n. How do you feel about going to the beach this weekend. Maybe afterwards we could host a party?”

“I’d like that.”

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So there you were. Standing in the middle of the beach with the flames of the campfire behind glistening in the night sky. The practice at the beach had been a huge success as both you and Robby learned so much. You had finally mastered that kick that you’ve been wanting to land for a while now. Robby was so happy for you that you felt kinda embarrassed. Of course you did not show it but your heart swelled up in pride by his compliments.

Sam couldn't come. Something about “already promised my friend I’d help them study'', whatever that meant. You were getting kinda worried about Sam. She never answered your calls or read your texts anymore. Heck, she even started leaving you on open on snap! So you hoped that when you sent her the invite for the party that she would come. She was your best friend after all.

You looked around to see that some of the Cobras were already there. They didn't seem to be there to pick a fight with anybody so you were happy about that. The last thing you needed was another beach fight.

“Have you seen Sam anywhere?” You asked some of the Cobras as they all turned to look at you. You guys were not enemies but not the best of friends. You tolaterted each other.

“Probably with Miguel.” The one with the Mohawk “Hawk” joked as the rest of the Cobras laughed. You were confused and wondered what that meant.

“Seems like they never leave each other's side.” Another Cobra “Mitch” said which made them all laugh again.

“I’m sorry but, why would she be with Miguel?” You asked confused as they all stopped laughing to look at you. Did you really not know?

“Y/n…” Aisha said as she came up to stand beside you. Even though she had left, she still came sometimes to party and talk with her Cobra friends and old teammates.

“Ever since Tory left...Miguel and Sam had been...close. Take a look for yourself.” You looked to where Aisha was pointing to see your best friend and her ex making out.

So this is why your best friend keeps ditching you and Robby. She was sucking the face off of her ex. Who she claimed she was over with. Didn’t really look like she was over him. You hadn't even made a move on Robby because of the girl code but she was here. Was it really that hard for her to tell you that she was dating Miguel again? But maybe this was all some sort of misunderstanding. You decided to take matters into your own hands and go to talk to her.

“Glad you could make it Sam! You too Miguel.” You called out as you walked towards the couple. Sam had a look of shock as she immediately stopped kissing Miguel to look at you.

“H-hey Y/n” Sam muttered as she looked at you. You were confused on why she looked so worried. Did she think that you didn't support her relationship?

“Can I talk to you for a second?” You wanted the details. When did this happen, were, why and so much more. You also wanted to ask her for her blessing to start dating Robby.

“S-shure.” She kissed Miguel's cheek as you waved to him. He waved back as Sam led you to a clearing just a few meters away from the ever growing beach party. You sat on one of the tree stumps there as she sat on another one just a few feet away from you.

“I want to know it all. Why have you been ignoring me? Why didn't you tell me you were dating Miguel again? Why were you so scared when I came up to you? And how did that whole relationship come back to the world of the living?” You asked as she began to fiddle with her thumbs.

“You gotta start realizing what I was feeling at the time Y/n. Ever since Robby dumped me I was heartbroken. Miguel was there and he was also there, threw the whole thing. Every tear and every heart breaking moment. He apologized for everything that happened and we got close.” Sam tried to explain.

“Ok Sam. First off, Robby never dumped you. I was there when that happened, you told him that you needed space. Second, why couldn't you tell me? I’m ok with you being with Miguel. I just wish you would have told me.” Sam looked down.

Flashback:

You heard shouting coming from outside the dojo as you left the punching bag to go check it out. The voice of your best friend Sam’s voice grew louder and louder as Robby’s grew quieter and quieter. It was like he almost didn't want to fight.

“You know what!” Sam yelled as she pointed her finger at Robby. You saw the look of despair on his face and you swore you heard your heart crack.

“We’re going on a break!” She yelled again as she shoved past Robby and walked right out of the dojo.

“You ok?” You asked Robby. He opened his mouth to respond to you but he broke down in sobs. You held him tight as you let him let all of it out. That was the start of your friendship.

“I ran out and you didn’t go after me!” Sam said as she clenched her sleeve.

“If this is what this is about Sam, I’m sorry. I never meant for you to feel like I was putting you in second place. Robby was there and he was hurt! I had to help him! That’s kinda the reason I also wanted to talk to you…” Sam looked at you curiously as you took a deep breath and looked up to look at her.

“Well, I’ve gotten closer to Robby when you were kinda with Miguel. We got really, really close. Sam...I like Robby and I want your permission to...make a move on him.” You said as Sam looked at you with disbelief.

“Y/n. Don’t you think that’s kinda weird. Like me and Robby were just dating.”

“But aren’t you with Miguel now? Aren’t you over Robby?”

“That’s not what this is about Y/n! First, you interrupt me and Miguel to tell me that you like my ex? What happened to the girl code!”

“That’s why i'm trying to ask you-”

“You have no idea what it’s like to date him! It's always reassuring him that you love him and that you would never leave him. It’s exhausting! Sorry that I’m trying to be a good friend and try to stop you from making the same huge mistake that I made!” Sam yelled as you knew she looked embarrassed as you noticed some of the Cobras looking your way.

“ You know what Sam. This is exactly why your relationship didn't work. You blame everything on everyone and if something isn't what you exactly like you drop it. That’s what happened to me and Robby. It's not either of our faults it's yours. So you know what. I’m going to ask Robby to date me whether you like it or not.” You said as you stood up and grabbed your bag and left to somewhere quiet. You didn’t need to deal with a bunch of teenagers right now.

“Hey, have you guys seen Y/n? She said she was going to ask you guys where Sam was.” Robby said as he walked up to the Cobras. He knew how dangerous that was since the whole Cobra Kai vs Miyagi-do thing.

“Your girlfriend is fighting your ex bro.” Hawk said as he pointed to where you were storming off leaving Sam all alone.

“Well-*bleep*”

#robby keene #robby keene x reader #robby keene imagine #robby keene x y/n #sam larusso #samantha larusso #hawk #hawk cobra kai #cobra kai #cobra kai fanfic #mitch cobra kai #aisha robinson #aisha cobra kai #tory nichols #tory cobra kai #miguel diaz #miguel cobra kai #angst

[whichwitchami]

Hi! I'm wondering, how often do you practice your witchcraft? Things like be with your deities/what do you do with them, cast spells, anything like that? (I hope this isn't too prying, sorry if it is. And I'm aware that everyone's craft varies and I'm not trying to copy yours, I'm just looking for some help on how to shape my own practice. I'm a new witch and very busy with family/kids and also in the broom closet since my husband is Christian, so I can't practice as much as I'd like). TIA! ❤️

You’re not being invasive or coming off as you’re trying to copy me! We learn best through communication and hearing what works for others, what doesn't, and then trying it ourselves. I get that. 

So with my spirit companions, I’d say I do something with them on average once a week. So we sing in the car, we watch movies, they hang around while I do a craft, some thing like that. It’s not necessarily planned (unless the little one whose only 5 wants to watch a movie, cos we gotta make sure its safe for her). Again, not really planned, they just show up and if I have time we hang out. 

Casting spells I do as needed. If something comes up that I feel a spell will be helpful for, I’ll go ahead and cast one. 

Deities....again the answer is kinda as needed?

I have a couple of systems in place, one where I switch out my altar every new moon to a new deity so I have some time to work with each of them. I’ll also do a tarot reading for new moon intentions. Then I do a tarot reading for myself every Sunday to do some shadow work and prep for the week. 

I also reach out when I need them. For example Mani helps me keep my patience at work a lot, Freyja helps me speak my truth etc. so I’ll leave an offering and pray to them when those themes come up in my life. 

Another idea comes from the amazing @breelandwalker who can probably explain better, but its basically focusing on one Deity per season. (or in my case 2 or 3 per season cos I have so many)

For example: 

Spring (March, April, May in the northern hemisphere): Frigg and Persephone

Summer (June, July, August): Sol and Freyja

Fall (September, October, November) Thor, Ancestor work, Spirit Guides

Winter (December, January, February) Hades and Mani 

why each Deity went with a certain season is personal, but this is my break down. Obviously I work will all of them throughout the year, but having set seasons for decorations, altars, etc. can help it be less overwhelming and make sure there’s fairly even attention towards each. 

That can be a lot when you’re busy and in the broom closet, the good thing is there’s lots of ways to make small witchcraft in your every day.

Some examples: 

1. glamor spell while washing your face/ brushing your hair, focus on confidence and whatever else you need that day

2. choose clothes accordingly. Maybe you have a necklace that reminds you of Persephone, so you wear it in honor of her. To anybody else you’re just accessorizing 

3. Meditate? if you have time even 30 seconds of breathing and appreciating your craft/ deity is good

4. Enchant your coffee, sprinkle in some cinnamon for luck, prosperity, protection (idk what cinnamon means to you but that's what it means to me) or other herbs/ spices that taste yummy in coffee and have correspondences based on what you need (doing your own research is highly encouraged and please be mindful that using herbs is ok in small amounts but I’m not an herbalist and I’m not recommending medicinal doses) 

5. Stir clockwise to invite good things, counter-clockwise to banish negativity.

6. Household chores as dedication to deities is awesome. I’ll clean the house in honor of Thor or Freyja and do the dishes in honor of Frigg. I’ve found my deities love it when I use self care as an offering. you can also weave some magic into this by adding lemon, orange, lavender etc. to floor washes and cleaning sprays. People will just assume you want the house to smell good as well as be clean. As you clean mentally manifest things like peace, love, and protection in the home. 

7. Journaling, take 5 minutes at the end of your night to reflect on the day, write down things you’re grateful for, not only is it good for your mental health but its an awesome way to secretly bond with deities

8. Cooking magic! Similar to the cinnamon in the coffee, using rosemary, thyme, sage, salt, pepper, all the herbs you normally use (and produce too! Garlic, potatoes, apples etc.) is a great way to bring magic into your day. Look up the properties of what you use on a daily basis (this can get iffy though, cos some people debate the ethics of magic in cooking especially if you’re going to share the food. Your husband and kids might not appreciate that the food comes with a magical kick....)

9. Candles! many people love a good scented candle. Pick one in a scent you associate with a magical need or a deity and light it. 100% people are gonna think you just love your house smelling wonderful. 

That’s just a handful of small ways you can bring subtle magic into your every day life. It’s a lot easier than you think, and you don’t need a lot of materials to do it! 

#Anonymous

[2bstudioblog]

Thoughts on Composer forums, no more negativity...

But before we begin, let’s make it a straight and clear... I don't want to out anybody, but I guess it isn't news because we are all aware that these community/forum problems/people exists, no matter the content or platform.

In the community of film-composers, game-music composers, Audio-directors, Sound-designers and perhaps music supervisors, the film-composer forum/community has been one of the first stepping stones to help and most of all build new relationships with people in the industry.

I’ve always had the image of this community to be about being equal, nobody was above or below, but talking to each other on the level. All that was required to enter was 1 IMDB credit (Internet Movie Data Base), get it verified and then you were in this very exclusive groups.

But so far, the idea was sound, we started to establish a group of a mix of westerners and Japanese composers, and the idea was to share ideas, help people who wants to break into the Japanese scene and the AAA-gaming industry. However, we only had a few meetups and 2 of them happened in a very interesting place in Korean Town in Tokyo. We ended up in the home of former On Tour QUEEN Keyboardist Morgan Fischer, who in turn was one of the first names I remember on an instruction manual for the Yamaha DX7. The first gathering brought about 7-8 members and we talked, showed each other what we do and then we enjoyed general talk, jamming and had a lot of fun. There I also ran into another young guy, who just scored an iPAD app. Let’s call him R2.

A few months later I was contacted by someone from the U.K community chapter, a young lad, with ideas on how things should be and he asked me if we should meet up and talk a little bit since he knew I’ve written music for Resident Evil 6 at this point, so I felt honored and thought let’s help each other out. Let’s call this guy D2.

D2 is now at first glance, I thought he was an OK guy, and I showed him around the city, we talked a little about ourselves and then I had to get back to my ordinary job as a teacher afterwards. He’s very focused on keeping up a fashion and to look cool... all the time. At this I didn’t really care, but I told him that if you want to have a chance at pitching to get into the industry, perhaps he should meet one of my agents. So I arranged that, brought him over to the agency, took about 1 hour, sitting down talking to one of the toughest and impressive women in the industry. She asked about his ambitions and why he was in Japan for a casual tourist visit and in the end the question came: - “What game would you like to write music for in the future?” -”Metal Gear...” was his answer.

He already told me before the meeting that he always wanted to work on a MGS project but I felt a little bit guilty but I told D2: -”I can’t guarantee anything about the chances of getting that kind of gig as a first from that agency. But they’ll try to find something up your alley.” The agent said that would be hard one to get him into because they only like to work with established artists on their MGS franchise, so getting it would seem to be impossible at this point, since we didn’t know that it was being developed at the moment, or so it had been in secret.

He returned back to Europe and I was on my own again. But we promised that we’d follow each other on the platforms and he said he’d try to promote me to get a few more followers on twitter (Duh, he didn’t, naive as usual.) and give a shout-out on his “incredible” YouTube channel devoted to his brand of a software/kontakt library creator. Nothing came to fruition on that front. I sure did give him a shout-out and told people about him, but I got nothing in return.

A few months later he returns and he decides to meet with me again, so I thought, what is it this time? Well, turns out he was back in Tokyo again for a business meeting or something, however he also met someone last time he was in Tokyo and decided to say hi to his girlfriend.  So we all 3 went out to a cafe in Shinjuku area and we sat down and talked about film, games and music since we all were kinda in that industry. But since I know he is passionate about “EPIC” music as he would call it, we (me and his girlfriend) started to talk about Star Wars and he was .... incredibly ignorant. I told him, if you want to hear EPIC music, these are the films you have to see.

I told him: -“John Williams is the reason I am here. The reason I started to do film-scoring and bringing that into cinematic games like Resident Evil 6.” -”Who's John Williams? Never heard of him...” was his response.

Me and his girlfriend were completely flabbergasted of this guys total ignorance of a film-defining classic that changed film-music for science-fiction, approaching it with an operatic execution, giving characters themes, music that flowed with the action like those old golden-era film styles, but modernized for a new generation of movie-goers. It was the biggest risk, bringing in an orchestra for a sci-fi fantasy, but it paid off. Orchestral music was COOL again. Without John Williams, we wouldn’t have one of the first hybrid-action scores in Return of the Jedi with big thick synthbasses in Jabba’s Palace for that ominous uncertain character that turned out to be Leia unfreezing Han Solo from his carbonation chamber. Minimal amount of synth, but it was there.

The ignorance of D2 started to show. But I didn’t want that to be the moment, so I told his girlfriend to sit down and watch those films together. Not sure if they did, but it was here I started to feel the “British twit” mentality, the “I am better than thou”, the “I’m in my 20′s and I have already figured out the meaning of life...” All he had was his own business back home generating the dough in making sample-based kontakt-libraries. Good on him.

Then a few month’s later, I saw something on his YouTube channel that really started to kill my vibe for the dude. Whenever when I work for big companies like Konami, Capcom or Sega, I always sign an NDA. That mean’s I’m not allowed to record or show off my work for projects that are in progress. But here he is, talking about his cues he’s composing in real-time on YouTube. My first thought was, maybe I should tell anybody about this, but I don’t want to be a buzz-kill. I decided I didn’t want to butt in. Perhaps he would learn something from that mistake. Or did he?

A few months later D2 came back, now the game was pretty much in it’s final stages and he decided to meet me up together with R2 and we went out to yet another cafe, talking about software and stuff. Before we even met up with R2, D2 started to ask me if I had any registration keys for some software he didn’t own... I’m now getting even more confused. Is he asking me for pirate copies??? I just can’t make this one slide, so I’ll just stay quiet. R2 shows up, they start to make fun out of my English, my use of words in fun ways. I know the Britt’s and the Australians share the dry word humor, but I told them that I really like to perform on real hardware and twisting knobs for cutoff filters and stuff. All they wanted was to make fun out of me using the words “I like to turn knobs” (English slang for wanking off people, not my intention since we are talking about synthesizers...) R2 however was sucking up to D2 due to his huge following on YouTube and Twitter, so my point of view was completely irrelevant for R2. I had made valid points, but D2 shot me down, R2 is right behind him like a narcissists flying monkey.

This was the moment where I felt I should distance myself from D2 for trying to acquire pirate software keys, asking me if I had any cool software etc. He’s bloody rich. He should buy the software like everyone else, especially guys like me. I pulled a small ploy and pretended I got a phone-call from an agency going;

*hanging up the phone* -”...Sorry guys, it’s seems to me something important has just landed in my lap and I have to leave you here, but I wish you all good on your ventures. Take care and talk to you guys later.”

From that moment, I was just exhausted from R2 and D2. They are a perfect fit for each other. But the ignorance and bluntness from D2 lost all of his credibility for me and I just said to myself quietly I just have to keep fighting my own battle in an uphill, serving D2 with the best kind of courtesy I’ve learned from the Japanese and being shit on in the process. He doesn't respect many of us, so I’ll now don’t give a damn.... I need closure. And with a snap of my fingers, all the bad went away.

After leaving these thoughts to you, I’m ready to let go and start a new future in the land of music production. But one thing is for sure, I'm done with the charade.

Of course there are times when enough is enough. And I've had enough.

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